November 7, 2019: READ: WARNING: You Got A Real Problem

November 7, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; EDISON BODY, BRIANNA AND HER FRIENDS, COURTNEY, CASEY, THE 1989 CALIFORNIA MAN, AND MICHAEL.

 

The Fentanyl news story shows Casey in the yellow jacket.  She and Edison, mostly, Casey, are most likely, completely responsible for these bogus US China trade wars.

If you follow their idiotic thinking, have I only ever worked in the US?

Or, did I or did I not STOP AND PUT AN END TO THE GODDAMN VIETNAM WAR?!  SO, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Yeah, you got a real problem!  Did you see how I handled it?!  Did you see how I handled myself?!  Not like a fucking moron!  Were you able to notice the subtlety?  THEN, YOU CAN’T DO THE FUCKING JOB!  YOU CAN’T!  YOU CAN’T!  YOU CAN’T!  YOU CAN’T DO IT!

ME TAKING MY TRASH TO THE CURB WAS ABOUT AS BIG OF A REACTION, ALTHOUGH NOW YOU HAVE MORE OF A FUCKING HEADS-UP BECAUSE I HAVE FUCKING BANNERS AND SIGNS EVERYWHERE, THE AMOUNT OF MY REACTION, MY RESPONSE JUST IN WALKING TO MY CURB AND BACK WAS ABOUT AS BIG OF A RESPONSE I GAVE THAT DUMB, STUPID, BLONDE-HAIRED BITCH ON THE PLANE, IN MUNICH.

SHE DIDN’T FUCKING PASS.  NOT BY MY MEASURE, NOT AT ALL!

IF YOU TAKE THAT INFORMATION, AND PLACE IT IN THE CONTEXT OF THE MOVIE, BIG, THEN, MAYBE YOU WILL ALL START TO GET A FUCKING CLUE, JUST WHO THE FUCK I AM!

BECAUSE UNLESS I AM SCREAMING MY GODDAMN HEAD OFF, NO ONE HEARS ME?!  YOU’RE FUCKING USELESS THEN!

YEAH, IT’S IN A GODDAMN MOVIE!  I DON’T MAKE MISTAKES!

I THREW THAT CHICKEN AWAY BECAUSE – SOMEONE IS BLAMING THIS FBI MAN, AND IT HAS NOT BEEN DEALT WITH, AND I WILL NOT HAVE IT!

ALSO, THE SIZE, CONDITION, AND SHAPE OF MY FATHER IS – COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE! 

UNACCEPTABLE!  WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU PEOPLE BEEN DOING!  I PUT HIS PICTURE ON MY WINDOW, I HAVE HIS PICTURE ON MY COMPUTER BECAUSE WHEN I WAS AROUND – HE NEVER LOOKED LIKE THAT! 

THEN, USING AN EXCUSE LIKE EATING SWEETS FOR HIS WEIGHT – IS NOT AN EXCUSE!  MY FATHER HAD A DESSERT EVERY DAY BEFORE AND HE NEVER LOOKED – LIKE HE DID AT MY HOME THE OTHER DAY!  I AM MORE THAN FUCKIING PISSED OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND!  YOU GODDAMN FUCKING ASSHOLES ARE GETTING PEOPLE – KILLED!  I’M NOT!

CASEY NEEDS TO BE PUNCHED IN THE FACE, HAVE THE BOOK THROWN AT HER!  I CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT THE FUCK YOU PEOPLE HAVE DONE – TO MY OWN FAMILY!  AND THEN YOU HAVE THE FUCKING NERVE TO ASK ME TO HELP THESE PEOPLE, THE SAME PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN HURTING MY FAMILY ALL THESE YEARS, IT IS ABOUT THE SAME AS – MAKING – ME TAKE CARE OF BIN LADEN’S CHILDREN WHEN YOU FUCKING MORONS HAD THE GODDAM LOCATION TO BIN LADEN FOR – HOW MANY FUCKING YEARS?!

OH YEAH, WHO GAVE YOU THAT INFORMATION?!  WHO THE FUCK WAS IT?!  WAS IT YOUR FUCKING SUPER SMARTY-SMART MEN IN LANGLEY?  OR DC?  OR, WAS IT ME!  YOUR GODDAMN FUCKING RIGHT, IT WAS ME,

SOMEBODY NEEDS TO EXPLAIN TO ME WHY YOU HAVE SOMEBODY SO OUT OF THEIR MIND AFRAID OF MY INTERNATIONAL SPY T-SHIRT THAT SAYS WASHINGTON DC, THEY ARE SO FUCKING SCARED, THEY ARE BLOWING IT UP MY FUCKING NOSE!

YOU FUCKING MORONS LOOK LIKE – BRING ME THE CHILDREN, BIN LADEN’S, MAKING ME WORK WITH PEOPLE WHO HAVE HARMED ME – YOU DON’T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE AND YOU ARE ONLY TRYING TO MAKE RATINGS AND NOT REAL INTELLIGENCE WORK.

WHAT FUCKING MORON SENDS MILITARY MEN TO DO A SUCCESSFUL MILITARY FUNCTION SUCH AS BIN LADEN, AND THEN STICK AROUND TO SING KUM BA YAH WITH THE FUCKING TOWNSFOLK AROUND THE CAMPFIRE?

YOU GET THE FUCK OUT WHEN YOU’RE DONE!  THAT’S WHAT THE FUCK YOU DO!

SAUERKRAUT COMPLETELY – INEDIBLE!  A PANTRY FULL OF FOOD THAT IS – INEDIBLE!

Casey being involved at all with anything just says to me, she doesn’t make sense, it doesn’t make sense, and that just says, Erin and Nancy at Hilton, I always liked Erin, Nancy I tolerated, nothing personal, they are both straight white women, Nancy either the way she was being used, or herself, personally – I am going to start repeating this a lot because no one seems to be getting the fucking hint – was not mentally as healthy. 

Not that Nancy was mean or angry, she had a depressive, needy personality.  She went to AA, for an alcoholic problem, she was overweight, didn’t wash her hair when it was oily, and so on, then, she is not – mentally – as healthy as her sister was.

Casey says, Erin and Nancy, Erin and Nancy says, this psycho, crazy blonde woman on the plane with me and my mother, arriving at Munich, Germany.

Here is the enormously, huge, and grave mistake: it’s seen at the baseball game in Twilight, my reaction just set off – James.  Don’t follow the name it doesn’t mean anything, the point is, my reaction, set off another person’s reaction BECAUSE NO ONE HAD – EVER – TOLD THEM, I DIDN’T APPROVE OF THEM!  THEN, SHE’S NOT THAT FUCKING SMART, IS SHE?!  WAS SHE?!

I DIDN’T FUCKING APPROVE HER; I DIDN’T APPROVE HER!  JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK THEY WERE SO FUCKING HAPPY TO HAVE ME IN GERMANY TO BEGIN WITH?!  IT WASN’T FOR HER! 

THE PROOF IS THE GERMAN MAN WHO WAS BEHIND OUR RIDE FROM THE AIRPORT BECAUSE IT IS IN FUCKING SHERLOCK, AND IT IS ALSO SEEN IN SIR RICHARD BRANSON AND A TELEVISION SHOW HE DID ABOUT BEING – A CAB DRIVER – AND YOU FUCKING MORONS WANT TO BLAME ME BECAUSE – NONE OF YOU HAD CLEARANCE TO KNOW OR BE AWARE OF THIS FUCKING SHIT TO BEGIN WITH!

YOU WANT TO TRY AND BLAME ME?!  I DON’T FUCKING THINK SO!

If this FBI man used David, talking through David with me at college, with just a photo of this blonde woman from Germany, my reaction went from wanting to know how David was doing TO FUCKING OUT-OF-MY-MIND BALLISTIC – LIKE THAT!

I SAW FUCKING RED!  BALLASTIC!  And, she didn’t make it, did she?  Spying against the United States, and she didn’t make it.

YOU GOT A REAL PROBLEM WITH THE SANDRA BULLOCK STORY, AND THAT’S ALL IT SAYS.

Far right gang sex slave, FBI.

Tom Hahn, if this is also true, if Tom Hahn didn’t survive, he wasn’t meant to.  The proof of it is at my Disney employment, as seen in Zero Dark Thirty, when Maya’s “supervisor” sits down with her at her lunch, he asks her a question, and she responds, I don’t think I’m allowed to tell you that.

You’ve created a cheat with this Bluetooth, and then with this house.  You weren’t MEANT to have access to my head and this information – AND IT HAS GOTTEN PEOPLE KILLED BECAUSE OF IT!  I HAVEN’T!

You might be surprised; I am ok with that.  I am ok with the news story about the Kenyan President.

Making false statements to the FBI about Saudi Arabia, is true.

The black woman in the cap hill news story reads as incompetent.

That news story, and this is why I haven’t written about it until now, the news story of the former US ambassador to the Ukraine, Marie Y – it reads, TOO HOT!  MEANING I CAN’T REALLY WRITE ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU FUCKING MORONS DON’T HAVE A GODDAMN PERIMETER IN PLACE TO STOP, PREVENT, AND KEEP PEOPLE – FROM GETTING KILLED!  YOU GODDAMN STUPID MORONS! 

SO, WHY THE FUCK WOULD I OPEN UP AN OPPORTUNITY – WHEN NONE OF YOU, NONE OF YOU HAVE A FUCKING PLAN IN PLACE FOR WHEN THE SHIT HITS THE FUCKING FAN!

AND, YOU FUCKING WONDER WHY I HAVEN’T WRITTEN ABOUT THIS OR ABOUT THAT?!  IT’S BECAUSE YOUR WORK FUCKING SUCKS!  IT’S INADEQUATE!  IT’S INCOMPLETE!  IT UNPREPARED!  AND YOU’RE NOT SAFE, YOU THINK APOLOGIZING AFTER MILITARY PERSONNEL HAVE LOST THEIR LIVES – IS SUFFICIENT?!  SHUT THE FUCK UP!

LET ME EXPLAIN SOMETHING, IT IS ALONG THE LINES OF ENTRAPMENT, IT IS TRAINING, LAW ENFORCEMENT TRAINING.  YOU GIVE SUSPECTED PERSONS A SORT OF LEEWAY, A PERCEPTION OF POWER AND CONTROL, AND SEE WHAT THE FUCK THEY DO WITH IT BECAUSE A CRIMINAL WILL NOT BE ABLE TO WITHSTAND – THE BAIT.

FBI man, you lack focus, direction, and with that – a plan.

That motorcycles goes together with the movie, The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo, and that goes together with the, probably, fake news story about two dead bodies being buried underneath concrete at a former police officer’s home in Plant City, and that goes together with this dumb police officer at the Largo police station.

Either you are smart, or you are dumb.  It is scientific fact – all criminals, are dumb.  If they were smart, they wouldn’t commit crimes.

If this psychologist wants to release her rage, boxing would be better for her mind, in my opinion, than a full-contact sport, like Krav Maga.  It’s a step, she’ll feel in better control.  If she feels better after that, then she might decide to try something else, that is more physical.

I wanted to punch and kick.  That’s why I chose Krav Maga.  Still, it needs to be her choice.  Punching a heavy bag, is not the same as combatting a person.

Boyfriend, guess what?  If the movies are in any way correct about your crimes, and opening the cranial cavity, what it really says beyond the criminal act, is he is a – receiver.  And, that’s one reason if not the only reason he was brain researched.  He’s a receiver, is the best way I can describe that.

So far, it looks like everyone brain researched, is a receiver.  This high school shooter is a receiver.  I need more information to look at my brother.  There is a lot going on around me at the moment.

If you can’t fucking deal because you haven’t seen me with a fucking beer in my hand, then you can’t fucking deal – at all!  DO YOU REALLY WANT TO PRESSURE ME – INTO DRINKING?!

ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?!

YOU DUMB CUNTS!

 I AIN’T YOUR FUCKING SAVIOR!  GET THE FUCK OFF MY BLOCK!

If Courtney is responsible for the election night drugging of me, 2012, the tell is at The Container Store, when Terry, a female tennis instructor, put her arm around me, and I shrank as much as politely possible from her hold, while listening to training at the store in front of the entire store.  And, I never made friends with her, and complained about her to everyone.  Then, Terry quit working for The Container Store.

Honestly, I don’t know how to feel about this house.  I used to like the locks my brother had placed on this house, before.  I used to like the security system my brother had placed on this house, although I couldn’t ever get it to work all the time.

Now, what am I supposed to do?  Cover up every light, LED light like on an appliance?  And this house never spoke to me before about buying new light bulbs for every light, nor did it ever speak to me about changing internet services from Verizon, what was their slogan, can you hear me now?  Or fire alarm, or whatever because it has a camera in it and I never gave anyone permission to use me in this way?!

It’s worse than having absolutely no privacy.  They’ve used it to access my brain when they weren’t supposed to have access to this classified information and people, so how else is this house supposed to read other than SLAUGHTERHOUSE, OR DEATH HOUSE.

IT READS PEOPLE DID NOT BELIEVE I WAS GOING TO SURVIVE LONG ENOUGH – TO REMEMBER.  I WON’T THANK YOU FOR THAT.

When I worked at The Container Store, I wanted a garage Elfa system installed, I wanted to spend thousands of dollars, on organization in the garage more than I wanted closet systems.  I liked the idea of Elfa closets, I just couldn’t justify it when I would not – again – be able to have the resale value of it in this home.

Another $30,00 in debt?  Just like Plant City?

Another clue that this house was not supposed to be this house, it was supposed to be a bigger home is in the Obama t-shirt I ordered that is too small even for a small.  It was meant to show they got a reduced household because I couldn’t keep everything from the Plant City house.  This is also, most likely, a foreign person, and unfortunately, they do not look like they are still alive.

You have a real problem; I have a real problem with my brother and father pretending their lives are different than they are.  You people have no exit strategy and that tells me you or people intended this to end in all of our deaths.  You have no exit strategy.

Yeah, this FBI man, I believe, believes I am able to handle the way he does things, and I SAY, I KNOW HOW TO DO IT BETTER!

FOR INSTANCE, WHAT FUCKING MORON DECIDED TO BRING THE ACCUSSED LIKE BRIANNA, OR ANY OF THEM, PEOPLE WHO HAVE HARMED ME, CRIMINALLY, TO MY FUCKING DOOR?!  I’VE ACCUSSED THEM OF CRIMES, AND YOU DON’T KEEP THEM AWAY?!  LIKE IN A POLICE STATION?  WHERE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE?!

YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW!

HOW OLD WAS I WHEN I CHOSE A WHATCHAMACALLIT?  HOW OLD WAS I?  FOUR?  FIVE?  THREE?  IT’S ABOUT BRAIN RESEARCH!  A RECEIVER!  BRAIN RESEARCH!

I DIDN’T STARE DOWN THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER WHEN YOU FUCK TWADS LET HIM GET SO CLOSE TO ME!  DO YOU KNOW WHAT I DID?!  I SHOWED HIM!  IT LOOKS LIKE I WAS THE FIRST PERSON, HE EVER SAW, WHO KNEW, I KNEW WHAT THE TRUTH, REALLY IS.

I did that – just by being me.

It goes together with the movie, The Matrix, and the – no – scene.  It’s probably why the agents face gets blown off.

If you are trying to create a sort of super criminal that could occupy police officers and intelligence agencies like the FBI, then, if you were smart, you would also incorporate a way for them to continue learning criminal behavior.  So, stop. 

Brain research is not the same as criminal activity.

This high school shooter could use activities that are not stressful like painting, coloring, sketching, doodling, modeling clay.  Something that isn’t going to create too much mess, or a lot of processes like a kiln for clay or pottery.  Something simple that will help him, get out of his head, for just a little while.

Yeah, this FBI man probably used Edison to figure out this 1989 California man.  It’s in the movie Rush Hour, with the female police officer, who looks both straight and lesbian because my mother’s friend, in her kitchen, she was a straight woman married to a man, the woman talking to her was – not.

She wasn’t meant to talk or work with me.  Look at all the damage it caused because NO ONE UNDERSTOOD WHAT A DELICATE AND INVALUABLE PIECE OF EQUIPMENT, MY BRAIN IS.  I AM.

The scheme and plan of the Edison’s is a bit convoluted.  And it did hurt and damage me.

At least I know everything I’ve done now; except I no longer have my mother.  And, I have been unable to live my life as I want to, like – getting married to a straight man who loves me and I love in return because what is the purpose of this life, if I never get to – love?

Since I was a little girl in my nightgown, I’ve wanted to get married.

I’ve spent decades of my adult life helping other intelligence persons succeed in their careers at the loss of my own, and that is not the way to work.

His former partner’s partner looks too much like she’s using feminism as a cover.  A real feminist, with a truthful belief is not wishing to seek harm at the expense – of every penis and male just because of their sex.

I’m not a dude, FBI man.  I’m not a man.  I am also, not butch.  Stop hurting me just because you can and know how to.

The color of the brown shirt at the CIA bombing in Zero Dark Thirty tells me, we weren’t supposed, my mother, and Tammy and her kids, weren’t supposed to be turned away from the restaurant in Plant City, having us drive to Lakeland instead, for a meal.  It looks like neighbor’s phoning ahead, and literally having us turned away.

So, if this Englishman then made certain that he used – a receipt – that had a downtown Plant City trail to it, that’s a big fuck you.  Fuck you stupid hicks for thinking my family was insignificant, and you OBVIOUSLY WERE AND ARE NOT PATRIOTS FOR THE UNITED STATES BECAUSE YOU THEN GOT OPERATIVES IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY, UNITED STATES CITIZEN’S, FUCKING KILLED BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOU ARE.

STOP BEGGING OUR ENEMIES – TO KILL PEOPLE, YOU FUCKING MORONS!

Um, no, I really don’t think his former partner’s partner wants to go to jail, spend any time in jail, for doing something stupid like not working through grief and pain, and then hurting someone – because of it.  SO, YEAH, I’ll FUCKING STOP YOU, IF HE WON’T!  BEFORE IT FUCKING HAPPENS AND NOT AFTERWARD!  BECAUSE THAT IS NOT WHO SHE REALLY IS!

YOU DUMB FUCKS!

The invoices from the movie, The Peacemaker go together with a middle-aged woman I worked with at Dillard’s.  She was probably about 5’ 5” 150 pounds, natural red hair, always wore nice enough dress suits to work because all these women were middle-aged, married to wealthier men, looking like they just wanted to get out of their expensive houses for a few hours a week, and that is the only reason they were working at a department store, not because they needed the money like me.

She made a comment about her father having paperwork, going back some thirty or more years, and it – kinda saved the day, these are not facts, it’s just detail.  Now, she always looked like a farmer’s daughter to me.  Not the, ring the steel triangle at the back porch yelling dinner’s ready, farmer, she looked like a real working farm.  The kind that has hundreds of acre’s and farm equipment, more than people working, and probably, if not completely, partially owned by a corporation, meaning the corporation – these weren’t hillbilly’s, these were working people, smart, efficient, hard-working, and that goes together with 13 Hours, brightest minds on the farm.

It’s just a detail.  Someone, at least one person should be able to like or appreciate, I understand what a farm is, and what a farm is not.

My boyfriend wants to know why you are not allowing me to be – healthy.  By way of all of the events that have happened since the termination.  What he’s really having a problem with, is not anything other than, he sees you are not allowing me – to be healthy, and you got a fucking serial killer who can see that better than the rest of you?!  Are you fucking stupid?!

Are you really so bored, you don’t know how to spend peace, peacefully?  Then, you got a real problem.

You should be fucking paying attention to how much better my boyfriend is around me and because of me!

YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW!

And my feelings are also hurt that I haven’t been able to have any communication, or work, or help to this high school shooter.  My feelings are hurt because of it!

It looks like to me because I was hurt for him, I wanted to love him, instead of SCREAMING FUCKING SWEAR WORDS EVERY OTHER WORD, I wanted to love him better – it got taken from me.  And, I won’t thank you for that!

Like his life wasn’t important enough.  And, I don’t believe that.

Because these women have done more heinous acts than this high school shooter you would rather waste and spend all your time and mine with their uselessness, rather than understanding and figuring out – brain research?

I just can’t thank you for that.  It literally hurts me, and my feelings.  For a kid, who wasn’t supposed to go to school, and kill people, I won’t thank you.

Yeah, you really can’t do the same thing that happened in Plant City in this house, it’s not designed or built the same.  It’s means you’ve lost some communications because the design does not accommodate in the same way anymore. 

And, it wasn’t meant to.

November 6, 2019: READ: WARNING: FBI: Tammy Thomas Hoskins

November 6, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; EDISON BODY, BRIANNA AND HER FRIENDS, COURTNEY, CASEY, THE 1989 CALIFORNIA MAN, AND MICHAEL.

 

I just saw something, I don’t like.

It looks like someone has used Tammy Hoskins children – as bartering tools.  That is the best way to describe it.  When they are of age, or turn, most likely, eighteen years of age – this is what it looks like – their lives, will also belong, or be connected to another family, they will have no knowledge about.

Replacing my ability to have my own children, with Tammy’s children.  And, it is not – good.

It’s not a foreign threat, it is stateside, with foreign connections, and I wouldn’t have done that.

Tammy and her husband ran a marathon at their church, 2012, while I watched their children.  A, most likely detective, of local law enforcement, in the vicinity of where they live, placed himself in front of me, to be seen by me.

When I was visiting Tammy, I created a design for her office closet, and storage for her laundry room, I sold it when I was working at The Container Store.  I received a phone call from the store that did not get the revenue for the sale, questioning me on the design.  I was correct.  Marvin asked me about it.  He told me I was correct.

It suspicious, and I don’t like it.

It’s an alarm in my head, to me.  It means Tammy wasn’t supposed to be the one to tell me about my hysterectomy, and she wasn’t supposed at the hospital.

It’s always bothered me.

November 6, 2019: READ: WARNING: PROTECT THE HOMELAND, PROTECT CHERITH!

November 6, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; EDISON BODY, BRIANNA AND HER FRIENDS, COURTNEY, CASEY, THE 1989 CALIFORNIA MAN, AND MICHAEL.

Do they actually think they somehow made a connection to my balcony, and the assassination of Martin Luther King, Jr because I posted a quote from Martin Luther King on Facebook?!

“In the end we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends…our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.” – Martin Luther King, Jr.

That’s really, really disturbing.

That’s, uh, that’s quite literally on a scale, I would never have imagined – before.

This FBI man let me make it understood, you listen to me, I don’t follow you because – I don’t make mistakes.

I cannot begin to explain or write how catastrophic, this profile photo is of the captured wife.  I can’t begin.  It’s subversive, its purposeful, and mine is not the only – family, this has happened to.

It is so psychologically damaging, to so many really good people, it – is – a-s-t-o-u-n-d-i-n-g.

A lot of this FBI man’s actions speak to him of having a death wish, or wanting to die, I don’t believe that to be true.  He does look to appear to have survivor’s guilt, and he should be able to get help for that.

He MUST be seen as my protector, if he wants to live.  If we never work again, he still MUST be seen as my protector, and that – really isn’t that difficult.

Everything I write about, mostly, are really, simple mistakes that have created catastrophic consequences.

His former partner’s partner needs grief therapy, she is not working it in her head, correctly.  I’m sorry.  She’s not.  She wants to, and that’s good.  She’s harboring resentment, and she literally has no reason to.

I must be exceptionally – logical.  By way, of another expert opinion.  To me, it just seems logical.

Outcome, from the Bourne movies, the loss to Outcome, do you know what this really looks like?  My mother.  My mother had real intel, did real work, in California before she married my father, and none of you will ever be able to get that back.

Stop letting our enemies – win!

No wonder, I forgave this other FBI man, since he is the only man, has been the only man, smart enough to figure out, all you have to do is – protect the homeland, protect Cherith.

This is just a detail, the clothes Tom Devoe is wearing in The Peacemaker are a pair of shoes I bought in Chicago.  Also, why there is another character named after shoes.  I bought them at a Sak’s Fifth Avenue outlet, of discount store, not the regular retail store, and yes, they did look like the were made personally, for me.  They were black leather loafers, with a spotted, like a faux-cheetah, spots made from goatskin.

It doesn’t look really important to me, other than it is a detail.

This FBI man is not a talent-spotter.  He can’t spot, talent.  I can, he can’t.  Finding people to fit certain, profiles, is not the same as what I can do, talent spot.  It’s not the same.

Killing our children news story is true.

Be real careful, this profile photo of Emma Watson has Brianna looking like a serial killer in the making.  She doesn’t get to follow me, not ever.  Isn’t that why I’ve asked for restraining orders?

Do you know what this house is like?  This is a slow death.  You allow people at my goddam doorstep, I WOULD NEVER ALLOW IN MY LIFE, OR ANYWHERE NEAR ME – EVER! 

STOP TRYING TO KILL ME FBI!  STOP TRYING TO KILL ME FBI MAN!  STOP TRYING TO KILL ME!

AND YOU FUCKING WONDER WHY THIS HOUSE IS NOT SAFE!  THIS HOUSE SCREAMS – I’LL BE DEAD SOON!  FROM EVERYTHING YOU’VE DONE!  I, CHERITH, WILL BE DEAD SOON!

THAT’S WHAT IT SAYS, OVER AND OVER!

THERE IS NO LIFE HERE!

YOU ALLOW CASEY AND BRIANNA HERE – WHEN I NEVER WOULD HAVE!  ARE YOU TRYING TO GET THEM KILLED?  OR ME?!

BRIANNA IS LYING TO YOU!  SHE IS NOT CONTENT OR HAPPY WITH MASTURBATION AS HER SEX-LIFE!  SHE’S LYING, SHE’S LYING, SHE’S LYING!  SHE’S FUCKING SICK IN THE HEAD!

AND, IT LOOKS LIKE NOW, THE ONLY REASON SHE AND DAVID WERE EVER TOGETHER – WAS TO DESTROY DAVID, SOMETHING I WOULD NEVER – DO!

AND, THEY REPEATED IT – AGAIN, WITH COURTNEY!

WHAT YOU ARE DOING, WHAT YOU ARE ACTUALLY DOING – UP MY FUCKING NOSE – IS BEGGING ME TO HAVE HER KILLED, AND I AM NOTHING LIKE HER!

SO, IT LOOKS LIKE I AM BACK AT – DYING AND BEING DEAD SOON!  CON-GRAT-U-FUCKING-LATIONS!

YOU DUMB FUCKS!  YOU DUMB SONS-OF-BITCHES!

I GUESS THAT DUDE, AIN’T COMING BACK!

YOU GOT A REAL PROBLEM!  YOU WHOLE FUCKING SET-UP, SUCKS!

Using virtual-reality to apply profiles, of real killers, murders, or subversives – IS REALLY FUCKING STUPID!

WOW, THAT’S PROBABLY WHY INTELLIGENCE AGENCIES, DON’T ACTUALLY IMPLANT THEIR PEOPLE WITH VIRTUAL-REALITY BECAUSE THEY AREN’T TRYING TO KILL THEM – IN THEIR FUCKING HEAD!

THAT’S WHAT LIVING WITH VIRTUAL REALITY, REALLY IS, DEATH, EVERY DAY.

DON’T BE SURPRISED WHEN YOU FINALLY FIND ME – DEAD!

THIS IS A DEATH HOUSE, NOT A SAFE HOUSE, YOU COMMITTED AN ACT OF CRIME AND WAR IN MY NOSE – YESTERDAY BECAUSE I CHOSE SOMETHING?  IT MEANS BRIANNA IS TRYING TO FIND A WAY – TO GET DEAD, JUST LIKE HIS FORMER PARTNER.

SHE HAS NO COMPREHNSION OF LOVE.  NONE.  SHE IS VACANT.  EGOTISICAL.  AND WILL CAUSE DESTRUCTION WHEREVER SHE GOES.

HOW HEALTHY AND WELL IS BRIANNA’S REAL MOTHER?  NO JOKE.

DAVID STOP DISGUISING THE CRIMINAL ACTS IN THESE WOMAN WHO HAVE BEEN IN YOUR LIFE.

YOU FUCKING MORONS, HAVE NOT BEEN PAYING ATTENTION TO ME BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU’RE SO FUCKING SMART – AND YOU MORONS, ARE THE ONES GETTING OUR PEOPLE, BLOWN UP!

BRIANNA IS NOT SAFE.  SHE IS NOT SAFE TO TRAVEL.  TO DRIVE.  SHE IS NOT SAFE ENOUGH TO BE ON HOUSE ARREST.

UNLESS, ALL ANYONE REALLY CARES ABOUT – IS WATCHING ME DIE.

DAVID YOU HAD POTENTIAL AND TALENT, AND WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO WITH IT?!  YOU CHOSE BRIANNA OVER ME?!  NO WONDER I WANT TO PUNCH YOU IN YOUR FUCKING FACE!  YOU STUPID COCK!

AND NOW YOUR SEEN AS CONNECTED TO SOME OF THE WORST TRAGEDIES IN MY LIFE?!  MY HYSTERECTOMY?!  ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?!  STOP LISTENING TO THEM!

BECAUSE JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, YOU HAVE ALL THE INTELLIGENCE, AND MILITARY COMMUNITES LOOKING LIKE THEY ARE – WAITING – TO KILL ME AND HAVE ALL CONNECTIONS TO ME DEAD, ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?!

STOP BEGGING PEOPLE TO KILL US!

YOU DUMB FUCKS!

November 5, 2019: READ: WARNING: Suspicious

November 5, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

You people got a real problem.  If your day can’t start until I’ve written something.  You got a real problem.

Yeah, other FBI man, that sounds – suspicious.

You got another real serious problem, this other FBI man – is the only person, let alone the only man – the only man whose seen in films, as protecting me, protect the homeland, Zero Dark Thirty.  Not a one of you, not one of you?  Not a single man is seen, or wants to be seen, as protecting me?!

Yeah, I like warm hugs from Frozen is code for, Cherith likes The White House, uh…duh!  It also references, David through Wuthering Heights.  So, if you have David, seen in Sherlock, how come I can see you and I don’t want to, and no one was paying – attention to my attitude, and feelings, about David?!

You got a real problem.

When do victims – ever face their assailants, or perpetrators, or criminals, when they’ve gone to the authorities with the evidence of real crimes – at their fucking doorstep?!

He’s in over his head, in the Peacekeeper, this FBI man is seen as over his head with me, that’s why I have a PH. D.  And the backpack is just about me at college and nothing more.  Don’t confuse real life, with storytelling.

Did my boyfriend really hire a lawyer because of what I have written about concerning these years and my mother?!

Yeah, I don’t make mistakes, the dialogue about scary version in the Bourne movies, am I the only one able to figure this out?  Scary version?  What would be scary about a person, or intel, that never made mistakes?  Unless, you were afraid – Cherith, won’t approve you, or your plan?

Oh my God, Casey?!  If it isn’t one woman, it’s another.  Write about me, talk about me, tell me how bad I am!  Ugh!  Jesus fucking Christ!  I ain’t your fucking shrink!  I ain’t your counsellor, I ain’t gonna hold your hand while you’re in rehab, and you can’t fucking deal with the fact, I am allowed to have alcohol.

Guess what?!  This FBI man has no problem whatsoever with exposing a person’s greatest weakness, if he thinks it will get him intel.

If your smart FBI man you’ll be seen as protecting me, instead of using me.  Unless, you really only want to get yourself – killed.

Who’s really playing whom?

November 4, 2019: READ: WARNING: STRONG

November 4, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

Yeah, that really is a warning, and a threat for Dr. Kelly.  It really is better that I’ve used her name instead of a pseudonym.  It really does look like they will be able to prevent it, they will just have to be on guard.  Because – I always liked, Dr. Kelly.

If I did help in the gas storage in the 70’s, I would have been in our family van at a gas station.

Also, I am truthfully, sorry for your losses.  His former partner was really unhappy.  Her former partner will need a lot of time.  She might need help placing things in order in her mind, so she can heal.

The proof of her really not being a lesbian would be in the movie, Being John Malkovich since John Malkovich was in the building – before she died.

I am quite shocked if both David, or whatever his name is, and this FBI man were convicted of the Edison affair.  They had so many controls, with the Bluetooth, this house, and probably, my surgery.  It is completely, illogical for them to have done such a thing.

I am shocked.

I would never have done such a thing to them.

I am struggling with the unhappiness around here for the last several days.

Drugging a person, is not consensual sex.

Manipulating me with Edison they way they did, is slightly alarming.  There is no real reason to do such a thing, just because I was trying to date – straight men.

Shocked and struggling.

Since, I have done nothing, but – tell the truth.

My mother should still be alive.

November 4, 2019: READ: WARNING: Cover Stories Instead Of The Truth

November 4, 2019

BE ADVISED: THIS HAS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

Bottom’s up.

Did you actually catch someone that um, wasn’t on your radar, until my bum was, in a bikini?!

Good!  Fucking punch them, in their goddamn face!  That’s what the two murder suspects story looks like.

Um, no, I am not interested.

The angel of death profile, you created in a news story, is just a theory.

I started bleeding heavily, my periods became heavier around 2010.  It looks like, retaliation.  Why?  Because Washington, DC, FREAKED-THE-FUCK-OUT, when I quit working.  And what it fucking looks like, they were making up intelligence reports during the years of 2003 to 2009, and since I no longer was employed, they had nothing to write, or email about.

And, that FINALLY, WENT OVER PEOPLE’S – HEADS!  TO GET THE SHIT DONE!  YOU MOTHER-FUCKING MORONS!  OSAMA BIN LADEN CLAIMS RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE WORLD TRADE CENTER ATTACKS – AND YOU DUMB FUCKING MORONS LET HIM LIVE FOR – HOW MANY YEARS!  I DON’T FUCKING THINK SO!  THEY – DON’T COME BACK!

If it’s not sexual, it’s not sexual, it about the equivalent of standing side by side with a man.  A message, that’s not sexual?!  IS NOT SEXUAL!

You morons!  Got shown up!  Because you can’t – decode.  Do you want to see it replayed, again?!  Faster than the – human eye!  That’s how fast, my goddamn brain – works!  You stupid fucks!

Oh no, I read the message too, they had more information than me at the time, or so they thought, oh, no, he’s scary, oh no, it says danger, everywhere, oh no, there is a threat, oh no, it looks like people’s lives are at stake, oh no, oh no, oh worrisome little me, what am I to do?!

SHUT THE FUCK UP!  THAT’S WHAT THE FUCK YOU CAN DO!  SHUT THE FUCK UP!  YOU DIDN’T KNOW, WHAT YOU DIDN’T – KNOW!  STILL!  AND, SOMEBODY – PROVED IT TO YOU, AGAIN!  YOU DUMB IDIOTS!

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Everyone has their own normal, their own dietary normal; however, you fuckers have allowed the wrong people to create an abnormal living situation for me.  Eating one frozen 300 calorie meal a day, is – NOT NORMAL.  A PERSON SHOULD BE WITHERED AWAY INTO SKIN AND BONES, AT THE DIETARY LEVEL I AM AT.  I SHOULD BE SKIN AND BONES!  I LITERALLY SHOULD NOT HAVE ANY FLESH ON ME.  I SHOULD BE SKIN AND BONES.  COFFEE AND ONE 300 CALORIE MEAL A DAY – IS NOT NORMAL. ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS WORKING 10 HOURS A DAY OF NOTHING BUT PHYSICAL EXERCISE, LIFTING, PULLING, AND NOTHING BUT CONSTANT MOVEMENT.

Yeah, it looks very real, his former partner was using terrorists as a cover story for my hysterectomy.  If something doesn’t make sense, then there’s something – wrong. 

Here’s the proof, Danielle at The Container Store was used to relay a message to me, by peeling hard-boiled eggs, in the break room, and putting the shells of the eggs in the garbage disposal and turning the disposal on.  What did I say, no.  No, it wasn’t the – bins.

If this is true, if it was a cover story it suggests she was in cahoots with them.  That’s really bad.

It’s really sick because it couldn’t have been happening to – just my family.

They think you’re dead, in Israel from Zohan, code, they think, means Cherith, you’re dead says, dud, and Dudley do-right, in Israel, are eyeglasses, meaning seeing the unseen.  Dud, must means something to someone else, it doesn’t mean anything to me, and Dudley do-right, must also mean something to someone else.  It doesn’t mean the same thing to me, unless, it is in reference to the FBI man and his savior complex.

Michael did call my employment at Visionworks and told me he was being hospitalized and told he needed electric-shock therapy, and I never believed him. 

Electric shock therapy says, SET, and haven’t worked that all out yet, and it also says therapy, meaning probably, it was meant to send me to therapy for what Michael did to me because my mother did mention talking to someone after I moved to their home and – WOW!  WARNING!  WARNING!  WHOEVER THAT WAS, NO IS THE ANSWER! 

Probably, they would have recorded the sessions, and used the information they gathered about me because THESE FUCKING MORONS MADE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN WITH DR. KELLY, CAUSING ME TO THEN TERMINATE HER AS MY DOCTOR WHEN AN ACTRESS REPLACED MY REAL DOCTOR AND TOLD ME TO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST FOR THE SMELLS UP MY NOSE THEY WERE USING AS A COVER STORY FOR – ALLERGIES. THEY WOULD HAVE THEN, USED WHATEVER INFORMATION THEY PROCURED IN THE SESSIONS – AGAINST ME.

IT’S ANOTHER SUICIDE PLOT.

IT’S ANOTHER SUICIDE PLOT.

DO YOU REALLY WONDER WHY I NEVER WENT?

WHO’S ACTUALLY RESPONSIBLE FOR NOT CAUSING HARM TO CHERITH?  UH, CHERITH.  YOU FUCKING INTELLIGENCE MORONS!

REPLACING MY DOCTOR WITH AN ACTRESS, IS A WARING.  IT DOESN’T READ, GOOD, OR OKAY, OR – SAFE.  NOT TO ME.

To me, it again looks like you got partial information because I did tell other people in the lab I worked with what Michael said, and some moron decided they figured out what it meant, then combining it with Edison, and my Disney employment, and it really makes INTELLIGENCE LOOK INEPT, INCOMPETENT, SOMETHING I WOULDN’T DO TO YOU PEOPLE!

I’M GONNA WARN YOU PEOPLE.  MY FATHER AND BROTHER WILL BE SEEN WITH ME AS MY FAMILY, FOR THE HOLIDAYS.  YOU WILL NOT BE REPLACING ANY OF THEM.

If Brianna has gained weight, it means she is avoiding her feelings.  JESUS CHRIST!  WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU MAKING ME FOR THERAPIST?!  SHE SHOULDN’T BE AROUND WHERE AROUND ME – EVER!

If you wanted me to read Edison, you should never have placed him in a dating scenario.  All you had to do was put him as a customer at my employment at the time, undisguised, and you would have seen the real and correct response, from me.

Mirror!

November 4, 2019: READ: WARNING: FBI, BRIANNA, DISNEY, EDISON!

November 4, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING HAS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

Apparently, I must write this information, again.  I’ve already written it and spoken about it many times.  Brianna called me at my employment at the time, at Disney, how she got connected to me, I have no idea.  Either she knew my stage name at Disney, or she got connected to me, either way, she threatened me at my employment, by calling me on the phone at Disney, pretending to want to make a reservation during the Disney marathon, and that is in – January.

When was my car accident again?  January 2013.

Her phone call was so upsetting because I truthfully, at the time, had no idea why she would be calling me or speaking to me in such a way and manner.  I said good-bye to David in 2001, and I meant it.  Her phone call was so upsetting, I emailed all the information about the call to my supervisor and manager at the time.  So, that is still – traceable.  No matter how many times a company deletes information, they can still get to it, and there are laws about – destroying evidence.

I never messaged David on Facebook, until after he and Brianna had broken up.  Because I wouldn’t do that to David.

At the time, I had felt bad about how we had parted, no longer as friends.  I wanted to tell him, I had loved him, then.  I no longer, feel this way.  That’s the truth.  I no longer feel this way about David.  Have you figured out why?

No, I am not a danger to myself, you people are.

Not one of you, and that includes this FBI man, have ever protected me.  Not ever.  And this FBI man, looks to me, like he was chosen, specifically because of his Russian, and all my adult life because that is how long I have known him, he has never protected me.  Not once.

It is an especially, serious mistake, as I’ve seen him in the building, at the call center, in Tampa.  To not be seen as my protector?  It would take me forever to write and explain, fastest way to write it is, a ripple effect.  The ripple effect it causes to not be seen – OH, MY FUCKING GOD – especially, in intelligence like the FBI, as my protector?!  Are you fucking kidding me?!

I have doubts as to how my left arm was actually broken, I no longer believe the car crash was to blame.  I believe they had me pass out after he purposefully hit me, caused a break in my arm, and then had me awaken.  And, you had a real police officer, cover up the crime scene.

They probably didn’t think I would go in an ambulance.  The proof is when I was waiting on a gurney in the Emergency room in Brandon hospital, and a Hispanic looking male, getting eyes on me when I was waiting to be seen by a doctor, and he FREAKED OUT!

His reaction, OH MY GOD, IT’S CHERITH!

He freaked out.  I can’t write how upset he looked, and he was not trying to show emotion.  He freaked out.

Worse still, you’ve had all this information about Brianna, about my car accident, and WHAT HAVE YOU DONE ABOUT IT?!  YOU’VE GIVEN BRIANNA POWER AND CONTROL OVER ME TO NO LONGER BEING ABLE – TO BE OUTSIDE!

TO BE OUTSIDE IN ANY WAY!  LET ALONE, I AM REALLY NO LONGER ALLOWED TO GO RUNNING OUTSIDE?!

SO, I WILL WARN YOU AGAIN!  THIS HOUSE IS NOT A SAFE HOUSE!  THIS NEIGHBORHOOD IS NOT A SAFE HOUSE!

I WANT A RESTRAINING ORDER AGAINST BRIANNA FROM BEING ANYWHERE CLOSE TO ME!  AND HER FRIENDS AND AQUAINTANCES!  THEY ARE ALL A THREAT!

I HAVE WRITTEN, AND WRITTEN, AND WARNED PEOPLE – FOR YEARS!

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!

IF NO ONE WITHIN THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT, WITHIN ANY US INTELLIGENCE AGENCIES IS WILLING TO PROTECT ME – I WON’T DO IT – ANYMORE!

I WILL HAVE NO OTHER OPTION OTHER THAN SELF-DEFENSE – IN ADVANCE, AGAIN!

I AM NOT FUCKING KIDDING, THAT IS WHAT THE FUCK YOU HAVE SHOWN THE FUCKING WORLD, NOT A GODDAMN ONE OF YOU ARE WILLING TO PROTECT THE HOMELAND, PROTECT CHERITH?!

AND FOR FUCKS SAKES!  YOU’VE MADE THE MISTAKE – AGAIN!

THEY KILLED MY MOTHER BECAUSE – I QUIT AT THE CONTAINER STORE!

YOU CANNOT REPLACE MY REAL FATHER – WITH MY BROTHER!  YOU DUMB PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO GET OTHER PEOPLE KILLED – JUST BY DOING SO!

AND, I AM OUT OF MY MIND UPSET ABOUT HOW TERRIBLE MY REAL FATHER – LOOKS!

AND GUESS WHAT ELSE, THURSDAY, MY CAT THURSDAY, LOVED MY FATHER!  THURSDAY WAS ALWAYS IN THE GARAGE WITH MY FATHER, WATCHING TELEVISION, SITTING ON HIS RECLINER WITH HIM, IN THE GARAGE.  THURSDAY LOVED MY FATHER – YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!

I SWEAR TO FUCKING CHRIST, STOP PRETENDING, STOP ACTING LIKE ANY OF YOU ARE SMARTER – THAN ME!

I AM THE MEDALLION.  IN RAIDERS OF THE LOST ARC, I AM THE MEDALLION, I AM THE OTHER SIDE, I AM ABLE TO TELL YOU THE OTHER INFORMATION, SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO – GUESS!

REFUSE, SHOW IN ANY WAY, OR DO NOT IN ANY WAY – PROTECT ME?!  WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!

STOP BEGGING PEOPLE TO ATTACK, NOT ONLY THE UNITED STATES, NOT ONLY UNITED STATES CITIZEN’S, JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, STOP BEGGING PEOPLE – TO FUCKING KILL OUR OWN GODDAMN INTELLIGENCE!  THAT’S WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE DOING!  BY NOT DOING SOMETHING AS SIMPLE, AS FUCKING HELL, PROTECTING CHERITH, OR HER FAMILY!  IT’S REALLY NOT A DIFFICULT TASK, EITHER!

YOU FUCKING MORONS!

Brianna is not healthy.  She reads as either manic-depressive, or Bi-polar.  I actually, have never been, other than acquaintances-friends with anyone with something such as depression, or Bi-polar.  It is simply not healthy, for my mind. 

My whole person tells me so.  I won’t stay friends with a person, for my own health.  It’s like a constant energy-drain.  I won’t do it.  I surround myself with people with like-mindedness, positive.  Otherwise, you don’t pass.

Be careful you don’t confuse David as being seen in the Scandal episode of Sherlock, as David having the ability to brain-palace think.  I think what it shows in Sherlock is that David wouldn’t, or doesn’t harm my brain-palace mind and thinking.  And, that he would like that kind of stuff, and knowledge.

So, if David is not causing harm to my mind, who is?

All my adult life, this FBI man has not been seen as protecting me, or my protector, I suggest, you correct and fix that – real fucking quick!

He’s been under misinformation, he’s been misinformed, probably, at times, he’s been misled, misdirected, and there’s been misunderstandings.  So, let me clarify, the fact that he used Edison, and fake body parts, suggests, he wanted to humiliate me, sexually, shame me, sexually, show me how disgusted he was that I had sex with – Michael.  How vulgar I was to him.  How repellent.

This FBI man has never been interested in me sexually or romantically, or he would have done so, himself, and he wouldn’t have passed me around – from man to man, so many man, I don’t even know every one that has been in my home, through virtual reality – without my permission.

She, this female, what is she a psychiatrist?  She doesn’t believe she is a real depressed, or depressive person, that is what she just said, she’s just been unhappy, that’s hardly the same thing – at all.  It looks true.

Was it a little freeing, a freeing of a notion, or something she was holding onto in her mind, to see me being sexually provocative with this other FBI man?  Like, oh, it doesn’t look that bad.  I see Cherith, and what she is doing, and that doesn’t look that bad, or like a bad thing, or shameful, or dangerous, and it looks like fun. 

It probably would be helpful if she got in touch with her own inner rage.  Meaning, she doesn’t have to be so controlled.  Meaning, it is ok, she needs to give herself permission, to feel, emotions.  And, then, determine, if the emotion, or whatever, is a bad thing.  She’s pretty logical.  So, she should be able to allow herself, to feel.  Then, evaluate.

I would caution her to be careful around Brianna, or Courtney.  They have not had restraints, meaning, they’ve been given to much freedom, concerning myself.

Let her haul ass on some man, you bring in.  It might be helpful.  A real criminal, not a brain-researched criminal, and let her haul ass on him, let it be a male.  She won’t do it to be spiteful, that’s the difference.  She doesn’t want to be that person in her heart, spiteful just because she’s been hurt.  She especially doesn’t want to hurt other’s in return.

It will probably be really difficult for her to do.  She might not want to do that, and that is probably okay, too.  It should be her decision, that’s another difference.  She needs to decide for herself, and not have someone else, make the choice for her.

The only man, are you kidding me?!  The only man who has asked permission, is the real Hannibal Lecter, my boyfriend, and he asked my father – first, making sure, I knew, he spoke with my father, first, then he asked permission.

YOU FUCKING MORONS!

HE THEN, PROVED HIMSELF – TO BE A BETTER MAN, JUST BY ASKING FOR PERMISSION!  EVERY ONE OF YOU COULD HAVE BEEN GOOD MEN, YOU CHOSE NOT TO BE!  BY NOT THINKING ENOUGH OF ME, TO BEGIN WITH!

It is disturbing that this FBI man would think of me in this way, and have this concocted plan, and it is not.  I very much doubt this FBI man is unwilling to correct this behavior and plan.

He didn’t understand why I would have been in a relationship with Michael, have sex with Michael, he, Michael, just doesn’t make sense with me.  Does he?  Well, now you know why I had to agree to an engagement and have sex with him – people’s lives were at stake.  Literally.

Wow, how I really wish, I had never had to live, the Michael years.  It was psychologically damaging.  Those years.  The only good part was I enjoyed, living on my own, I was a grown up, after all.  As much as I could enjoy it, since my life was literally threatened more times than I will probably, ever be able to write.

It is probably the reason my brother gave me a book to read, it was a detective or police story, probably the reason Irene Adler’s character says she likes detective stories because the book was about a Russian prostitution ring, prostitutes being held in a house, their hands were mutilated, this the part I remember because it was repeated over and over again in the book, I forget the title, that tells me, it wasn’t important, the part I remember was the ball-pin hammer used as the murder weapon and how they prostitutes hands were mutilated.

Yuck!  There is something real in that, or it wouldn’t create a picture in my head and mind.

I don’t make mistakes, this reads true from the Bourne movies, they don’t make mistakes.  I don’t make mistakes.

When I got to my home in 2006, found my mother lying face down on the floor, I turned her over, and – SOMETHING ELSE IS WRONG!  IT’S WHY I CALLED MY FATHER – FIRST, BEFORE CALLING 911.  SOMETHING ELSE WAS WRONG!

MY MOTHER SHOULD STILL BE ALIVE.

November 3, 2019: READ: WARNING: Arkansas White Boys

November 3, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING HAS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

I am really most concerned and worried about the health of my father.  I have never in all my life seen him look, so poorly.  Ever.  That is not really my father.  Whoever has been responsible for my father’s care, arrest them, charge them, and ship them – out!

This for some reason seemed to really interest and excite my boyfriend that I have and know this knowledge.  To me it seems as obvious as, common sense.  Honestly, a lot of this, a lot of my knowledge, I believe, since I have never had the formal education of it, goes together with Edward from Twilight, being able to read people’s minds, and absorbing power as is referenced in The Shadow.

Mostly, that is just for the audience for the storytelling purpose of it.  Using metaphors, like reading people’s minds and absorbing power because truthfully, no one really, this is how it looks, understands or knows, how I am able to have so much information, especially, about things, I’ve never been formally educated on.

The body, the human body is a vessel, a self-contained, air-tight vessel.  Anytime the skin is penetrated like a bullet wound, or a knife, or a scalpel, has a time limit.  The body immediately begins, in so many words, to decay, or decompose, or degrade, or wither.

For instance, if you take a piece, one piece, of ripe lettuce, and cut it, that is what an artery looks like, feels like, or its consistency.  Sharp, crisp, full of liquid, texture, and the texture of it is able to stand up on its own, for a certain amount of time.

If you take one piece of lettuce and let it be exposed to the elements, unrefrigerated, uncooled, for days and weeks, what happens to the piece of lettuce?  What happens to the condition of the lettuce?  All the moisture is evaporated from the lettuce, it decays, and the cells break down.

If you then tried to cut that piece of lettuce, that has been left exposed to the elements for days and weeks, and tried to cut it, it would not be a clean cut, no matter how sharp the knife or blade is, and most likely, it would tear.  The lettuce would stick unto itself making it difficult to cut one portion or piece and not another.

This is the same as an artery.  An artery or a vein, once cut into, begins to wither or rapidly decay like the piece of lettuce.  There is only so much time before the piece of lettuce turns from an open tube or vessel, into the decayed piece of lettuce, closed, with its sides sticking to itself.

Is this or is this not correct?

And the body only begins to heal itself again, once it is sewn up, sewn back together, as an air-tight vessel.

What would happen if you cut yourself, and it never closed up?  Eventually, you would die.  The body, like a submarine, or a boat, is an air-tight – vessel.  The body is a temple.  Get it?

It seems obvious to me.

It does appear by way of the movie, Black Hawk Down, I’ve assisted on the field with a wound, that would normally require surgery, I would be Hugh Dancy’s character, and why they cast a British actor to play the role of the doctor because of me.

His acting is a pretty good read, of how I would have given the information to someone, and most likely, it has to do with a blonde man who worked with me at Visionworks, and him stirring his coffee in his coffee cup in our lab with his screwdriver he used to make glasses.

His screwdriver he would, as we all did, keep or have in the pockets of our lab coats.  I really did like wearing the lab coats.  I used to ride my bicycle to work, wearing my lab coat.  I didn’t own a car at the time.  Most likely, this is the leaving scene in Black Hawk Down.  Don’t confuse the time frame with the real events.

So, what happened really when I had to have my car repossessed?  Another chain of events – you didn’t see coming.

This also seems a little unusual, I had a car loan, a car, and insurance, but no driver’s license?  Only a driver’s permit?  And, all it says around me over and over at that time, is getting a driver’s license, was not important?!  Either I wasn’t doing really well, and no one was paying enough attention, or something was wrong.

How does a person get to have a car, a car loan, and insurance without, a driver’s license?

I remember being appalled as he stirred his coffee because it wasn’t cleaned or sanitized.  Someone would have read me and brain-spoke to me while I was working with people walking in and out of the building as customers.

There is a time delay, in the surgery scene in Black Hawk Down, there is a time delay in the character of Josh Hartnett, as he gets to the other side of the table, that’s a time delay from getting the information from me, to wherever the soldier was really at.

If the solider really didn’t make it as is in the movie, you had a leak.  It would be the man with the glasses who tried to stare me down when I made his glass, glasses.

It would not be my fault.  Honestly, it looks like he lived longer because I got information to them.

If this man with the glass glasses wanted me to know a man didn’t make it, it looks like he was trying to blame me, and you people let him.  And, let him get to me, at the store.  It’s a big mistake.

It would be why a goddamn General showed up, and he was before.

I see a lot of young men who were in and out of the store and looking, but I don’t see a lot of maturity.  Being able to shoot a gun, being able to decode, does not necessarily require maturity.  That’s why the military requires time in service to move up the ranks.

Arkansas white boys, from Black Hawk Down says, arc, saw.  I saw you, Cherith when you went to see Raiders of The Lost Arc with your mother before Germany.  White boys says, wonder bread, and that says the grocery store in Oregon, not our usual store, that had the black licorice pipes, I liked as a treat, and that says, my grandfather and I having an ice cream.  They’re really just details.

If the solider died, the real person, then, they read it wrong.  I was concerned and worried as I saw him stir his coffee.  And, they corrected it in the movie, as to what I actually said and would have done in the movie, Black Hawk Down.

Every time you put an inhalant up my nose to cause harm, is the same as opening up my body, like having a surgery.  The body is supposed to be air-tight, water-tight, like a frog’s but, water-tight.

Marshmallow in Frozen goes together with my mother liking toasted coconut covered marshmallows to eat after her stroke in 2007.  It didn’t hurt her teeth, and she got energy from the sugar.  There would have been some nutrients in the coconut also.

The skies awake so I’m awake goes together with open up the gates in Frozen.  That goes together with the reason the movie is titled, The Shadow, that goes together with – let your conscience be your guide, like Jiminy Cricket.  Having no shadow, an eclipse, any of that means, not having a conscience.  Mostly, it’s just storytelling.

Good on you, mate(s).  That’s not really research, is it?

Yeah, that face-slapping in Crazy, Stupid, Love is a pretty good read of how I took care of my father, kind of like, tough love.  You haven’t gotten your eyes re-checked in how long?!  Go get your eyes examined.  You haven’t been to the dentist in how long?  Get your teeth fixed.

If any one of any worth was paying attention, that is what it takes to be married.  Because you won’t always like the person you’re married to.  And things like eye exams, and doctor’s checkups, are not the exciting love that happens when you first fall in love and decide together to marry.

When Stuart visited my home in Plant City around Christmas time, and he started telling me how he would rearrange my house, that was the end of Stuart in my mind.  Um, no.  The home, the house, that’s my domain.  If and when I ever marry, my husband can have input, or conversations with me about what he wants or likes, but the house, is mine.  All mine.  All woman.  All mine.  My home will say, this is Cherith’s home and she takes care of her husband, and family.  A man either understands that, or he won’t.

Some women should be able to understand that as well.  The home is mine.  A man will never tell me what goes where and what I buy, um, no.  The home is mine.

A home is a man’s castle because the woman has herself in it.  Otherwise, its just a bachelor pad.

And, yeah, a woman like myself, unwilling to have a man be in charge of arranging or creating the home, is actually, really valuable to a lot of men, in ways they don’t always, express.

David, have you really not had any women in your life, take care of you, like that?  I’ve been that women since about aged 22, 23.  Ready to be married.  Have a husband.  Have a home, have a life together, and then have children.  Why haven’t you really had children?

Nazi emergency news story read, true.  Meaning real.

Leonardo DiCaprio and Greta Thunberg praises leader story reads real and truthful.

Nigel Farage will not stand goes together with the code, rang, and it is an uh-oh, meaning true and real, and truthful.

Rules out talks with US news story is correct.  Peter Hammarstedt has a request for better communications.  Give it to him.  I really do like him.  I really like him and Paul Watson, I always have.  It really is about their brains, their minds, their own conscience, and their really good hearts.  Don’t question me on, or you will be sorry.

Delta airlines restores, news story is not correct.  You have a problem, that needs to be addressed, removed, and dismissed.  And, this Russian man, really doesn’t need to get pissed off by these women.  I wouldn’t do that to him.  Ever.  Oh, he is sooooo interesting.

Yes, they are probably trying to financially disable and prevent me from alcoholic consumption and purchases, and they don’t really understand why.  Because alcohol really did help his former partner’s mind.  She just wasn’t meant to be in the FBI.  She would still be alive today, if you had all listened to me – instead.  I’m sorry, it is true.  And, I am sorry for your loss, for the loss of her life.

If I were any of you, I would listen to me, instead.  I really don’t like unnecessary upset, conflict, or hurt.  For anyone.

The St. Petersburg news story says, Cherith should look better, should be looking better, and no, LGBTQ, you really don’t belong in my bedroom, you never have, and you are only hurting yourselves, by continuing.

And, I really, snorted through my nose laughed, at the sunflower, on the table.  That’s a Paul Watson.  Snort laughed, from a Paul Watson idea.

It’s 4’0clock in the afternoon and it’s the first time anyone has been able to get to my mind and memories, that should be a warning to you all.

November 3, 2019: READ: WARNING: I AM DYING IN THIS HOUSE

November 3, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING HAS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

You still haven’t figured out, I’m not planning on a future, anymore.  I am planning on dying in this home.  This is the slaughterhouse that is referenced in 13 Hours.  This is not a safe house.  It is not up to my standard.

Your use of air up my nose tells me, mental illness, excessive use of air up my nose with intent to cause harm is mentally ill.

Anything you place up my nose with intent to cause harm, is mentally ill.

Belching is not a funny, gas in not funny, it is intent to cause bodily harm.

I am not planning on having another job or employment – again.

You haven’t stopped.

You stopped my employment, although you haven’t stopped abusing me.

Everything you have around me here says, I will be dying here.  I’ve accepted it.  I’m not fighting it anymore.

I will no longer be Weapons.