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April 13, 2018

Yeah, I’m not stopping these posts because of a movie.  Eyes rolling.

Men Only.

I still stand by this decision to be a men only read.

Let me mention this, my men only read has nothing to do with women or women chefs.  It has everything to do with what happens to me that is beyond my control.  I cannot for the sake of my own security include women or certain persons as I have been threatened, been retaliated against leaving me unable to report or tell anyone.

For a change, I got to read today.  However, in nearly 10 hours of reading the news and otherwise, it is as if my brain, the delicate grey matter, is like a plant that someone simply snapped of a branch, a limb, a working organism.  It is gone.  Like coral dead or broken.  There is nothing but deadness instead.

I am sick to death of anger and angry people being the fuel used to write a journalist’s cunt as propaganda for the word, art.

I am sick to death of anger as the only means of expression.  It is a tired and worn out trick used to exploit women, women’s brains and intellect, a way to demean men and women in the process by creating false moments and sound bits that are baseless, untrue, unfounded, and erroneous. I am sick to death of angry people being the propaganda of the only measure for change, for truth, for freedom.

If you truly wanted to know the real truth – you would let me speak.  You would be so amazed.  You would never be the same again.

I am going to burst your bubble.  My maroon shirt had nothing to do with a black woman wearing a similar color the day previous as mine had been washed clean restoring it to its real ethnicity and nationality.

The anger ends with me.

How Benedict Cumberbatch must be so tired and over the connection of Sherlock and me.  Having worn t-shirts that read, I Am Sher-locked.  Simply, because I thought it was so clever.  How played out.  I see myself as nothing more than a burden, an eye-sore, and a disturbance to his career.  For I saw and felt the turtle glaring at me (2016), angry with me because he cares more for that car than my feelings or me.  So, do not wonder why you were evicted from my game.  It is my game, not yours.  You should have been thankful I included you.  Instead, you tried to kill me, break me, torture me, and ruin me.  You should have thanked me.

Turtle (nothing to do with a movie) you made a gross mistake.

I must write about this because I have no other way of letting people and the world know what is going on.  You created a personal situation, I must take it personally.  It is not merely a business decision.

It is not the child that teaches the parent.  You have fallen in my eyes.  Worse still, both the turtle and Benedict Cumberbatch are paired.  I feel nothing but their disgust for me.  I feel their disgust.

I do not like my body.  I have been working on that, however I am NOT ALLOWED my own course of action as EVERY product delivered to me brings me down, weighs upon me like a medicine ball furthering my own loathing for my body.

Worse still, I am unable to create the body I want.  I am forced through the food (having to live off nothing but beer and potato chips because it is all I can afford) and limitations of my activities into a body size and shape of someone else’s mind and idea rather than my own.

The damage done by DKW cannot be undone.  Good luck trying to correct that.  Courtney was the last straw.

Mysteriously, the letter I wrote to Facebook on my computer asking to have my account permanently deleted is missing from my computer, hard drive, and files.  I believe it was 2015 or the latest 2016 that I wrote to end all contact and delete my account.

The damage done, the harm, the hurt is beyond measure.

If you place me in contact with DKW against my wishes and beyond my control it will not go well.  It will not be a good thing.  It will not be a good conversation.

It cannot be describe this pain of having a God moment, having David’s name whispered to me in a hospital hallway only for him to call me delusional, place himself in front of me constantly, stalk me, keep me in jail, under lock and key, unable to ever be a part of the real world, have a real man and real man flesh in my life, to the creation of “Edison”, to even simple things like being able to create goals, find a second job since I am unable to manage on my own with this income, to find another job or career where I could live financially independent and on my own, it is a loss that is incalculable.  Incalculable.

The connection once felt with DKW has long since been severed.  I will never be able to describe the terribleness and pain that has become DKW.

I will NEVER believe those news reports as a single person’s true feelings.  I am more sickened every day I read them.

It is not now, nor is it ever, nor can it ever be solely, entirely, or in any other way a matter of black and white.

Listen closely, listen carefully as I understand my boobs get in the way of your attention span.

In my mind, my heart it will never, nor can it ever be black and white.  For there is more than one color of persons.

There is more than one color to a man, to a woman, to a child, to a person.  In every family, in every relationship there are varying shades of color, of tone and texture, of hue, of crispness, of sound, of laughter.

I am getting on my soapbox for a moment.

If I were President, the networks and newspapers wouldn’t like it as they would have to censor me more than they would like, so as not to be fined by the FCC.  However, there is an incredible flaw that no one seemed to notice when creating this on-going situation.

One cannot govern in isolation.

My brain is hurting, or I would go on.  Here’s our dinner, my men.

Dinner: Chicken Enchiladas and julienned salad.  Open wide.  You gotta know by now that I am spicy, love jalapenos.  I think it is possible to put jalapenos in coffee somehow and it would be delicious.

Chicken breasts (the most amount of white meat) with as much fat cut off as possible.  Slow cooked in broth, then transferred into another pot/pan with enchilada sauce – homemade – slow-cooked until the meat just falls away.  A combination of cream cheese, garlic, shallots, Jack cheese, with seasonings, chopped onions, herbs as a filling with the meat in the flour tortilla.  Placed in the baking dish, cover with enchilada sauce, bake, adding more cheese until golden brown the last few minutes or so.  Garnish with finely chopped cilantro and parsleys.

Julienne salad: red and green cabbage, iceberg lettuce, carrots, celery, various root vegetables, jalapenos super thin slices so as not too overpower with a yogurt cilantro dressing.  It needs a cheese in there, I can’t think of one at the moment, garlic, jalapeno juice, and spices.

I need to interrupt for a moment as I have forgotten what a rutabaga tastes like.  What a turnip tastes like.  This pressure to change my driving route – again – is debilitating.  I am trying to finish this, yet I want to crawl into bed pull the covers over my head and stay there for months.

Plate these two together, no corn or rice.

I was thinking of fresh, real, not canned watermelon juice with some fresh-squeezed lime, a dash of salt, lots of cubed ice and vodka.  Perhaps a flavored vodka.  Beer would be fine too.  But, I need a glass of ice water as well.

BTW, yes dessert is ok when maintaining your weight.

Dessert: Needs to be something gooey and chocolatey.  How about a chocolate chip cookie with hazelnuts, macadamia nuts, real vanilla baked in a thin baking dish rather than as a cookie.  Vanilla ice cream – homemade – with homemade warmed chocolate sauce cut with Grand Marnier or Amaretto, poured over top so the ice cream melts just a bit, fresh, real whipped cream, chopped nuts or grated cinnamon or both, no cherry.  Sound good?  I think you’d try it anyway.

My brain hurts, or I would write more details.

As I am writing this I am thinking of how I am writing about food because I am unable to have an untainted pantry, untainted food supplies, untainted condiments, and money for the purchases.  Otherwise, I would be writing about stories, and not just journal entries.

I haven’t forgotten you chicken soup.

No untainted soap, so I stink even after a shower.  Time to shower again.

No one is allowed to see.

No copy cats allowed here.

How do I make my garage door secure?

 

I still miss my cats Tuesday and Thursday.  The loss of my mother is beyond words, so much so that I have had to put it aside so that I cannot access it.  But, to lose my innocent cats…beyond grief.

2/22/2016

Today was not an all clear day.

Yesterday was bad, bad, bad.

I had to forced myself to get out of bed this morning.  It was so bad I could not open the blinds for anything.

Work was so bad – a kind of hell I can’t describe.

I feel trapped.

I feel trapped by that car.

I feel trapped in that car.

I feel trapped in this life where people can electro-shock me and worse on their whim.

When I worked at Disney before I felt I made a difference.  I believed I actually helped people and connected with people not just with their resort vacation packages and planning, but I got to speak to people as people and get to know them.  My current experience with Disney is so disturbing, disgusting, wrong, so unnatural, so bad, so perverse it is the exact opposite of Disney what I believe about Walt Disney World.  Instead of being a business that I believed in it has become nothing more than fast passes and forcing junk food on me or going out to eat and spending money – activities which are not a part of who I am.

I used to feel freedom when I drove – now it is depressing just to think about it.

Coming home to a piss-stained house is a tipping point.

My life is so bad and terrible I don’t want to be alive anymore.

I don’t want any more lime in my life.

This is the documentation I left Walt Disney World with when I left the company in 2016.

To push a button, creating a sensation in another person’s body that they cannot see while they do not have control to say, NO!  As a means of entertainment that a person neither agreed to nor was ever paid for should be an outrage for all the world to hear.

This letter should never have had to happen.  What happened at Walt Disney World the second time should never happen to any person, ever.

I am writing in regards to a conversation that took place on 2/28/2016 with John Chambers and someone else I did not get their name or introduction.  The conversation was in regards to conversations spoken by me with guests.  John was concerned and wanted to know if I was ok.

The truth is while on my journey at Walt Disney World the effect has been most severely negative therefore I am not okay.

The truth is there are elements that take place while I am working that I cannot speak to, define, name, or control, therefore leaving me with the inability to solve, bring a solution, or even communicate the problem.  Quite frankly it has violated the most personal and private parts of myself.

I do not understand in totality my Disney experience.

The truth is that if these occurrences did not take place I would never in a hundred million years speak poorly about anyone or anything.  My affinity for Walt Disney World the brand, the product, and the company is based not just on my personal experience, but what I have seen it do and be for others, is a very solid, formidable belief.  If these occurrences – which is the only way I am able to describe them – had not and did not take place, there would have been no way I would have said anything negative about myself or Walt Disney World.

However, since I am unable to communicate the problem in order to get it to stop, or find a solution, or anything productive for that matter, I did the only thing left to do which was to let the guest know there is a problem.  Because when there is a problem it has to be shared or it will fester until it kills in order for there to be a resolution to the problem.

The truth is I am most deeply hurt and humiliated by my actions.  Knowing that I’ve had to stoop to such low means in order to get help has made me ill.

I can only say that I do not have and have not had full knowledge of my Disney experience, therefore I have acted as a way to protect myself.

As I stated to John there are elements to my job at Walt Disney World that, “I do not seek out, I do not ask for, I do not want – it happens to me”.

How is any capable person able to deal with a problem they are unable to mention, or name, or share?

To get to the point and not drive this statement in endless circles I do not know how to get this reoccurring problem to end.  Since it is not something I seek, or ask for, it is constantly and continually happening to me without my consent, authorization, or approval.

It is my hope in calling attention to what I have experienced and gone through in my employment at Walt Disney World to document the great effort that I have made and given at great expense to my personal well-being.  Not a single person should have to live through what I have gone through in order to have a job at Walt Disney World therefore in shedding light on my ordeal I believe Walt Disney World will bring about the appropriate change(s) so as not to duplicate or replicate these circumstances and occurrences again.

There is no cast that could heal me from the harm and brokenness that this experience has caused.  I would not wish upon my worst enemy this experience.  I most truthfully believe no one should have to live or endure this experience.  Please bring about immediate change(s) so that myself, as well as, other persons should not have to endure such circumstances.

Reading this over I can see the destruction 2014, 2015, 2016 had upon my mind.  I see the difference in my writing from then to now.  To me this journal entry I wrote in my computer shows a slow mind, trouble connecting, it is at a different grade level.  My hope is that one day someone will take notice that listening to my mind, putting on the helmet, stepping into my brain has and is causing actual damage.  Actual damage.  To a real person, me.

If this was happening to your sister, mother, girlfriend, wife, neighbor, passer-by on the street would you find it entertaining?  Would you want it to continue?  Would you care enough to be outraged at the brain damage?

I am not an entertainer, an athlete, a singer, a writer.  I have never signed a contract, or in any way permitted any person, company, or organization permission to listen to my thoughts.

How is this acceptable?  To anyone?

This is written about Bob Iger, his ability to speak, to lead, to manage, to operate a successful company.  I heard him.  His brain, his mind has this youthfulness, not childish, youthful.  No, Peter Pan, youthful.

However, as I read this what I see is an inability to write and create simple sentences.

It should be horrifying to people around the world.  That a woman, by no fault of her own, has had her mind, her life taken from her.  Stolen.

2/28/2016

I was wondering when I was going to get my life back.

Not that it was much of a life to begin with, but I was wondering when I will no longer look as if I will look sleep deprived, exhausted, and emotionally beat up.

I was wondering when I was going to have the light and twinkle in my eyes again.

Maybe I never will again.

It’s just depressing to look at myself.

It’s depressing to have to be in my car at all anymore.

I never want THAT Yahoo again!!!!

I never wanted it to begin with!

Someone does THAT button pushing not to make me feel better but to humiliate, degrade, and further depress me!!

So there is a person I have spoken with before we’ll call him Paul.  It has always been a pleasure speaking with him.  There is a quality to him that I can only call youthful thinking.  Call it whatever you want the way I see people, read energy, understand people, but what I see in him or understand about him is what I call youthful thinking.

It is very interesting for a lack of a better word just to be around him even if it is over the phone.  Can’t help it.  There is a working of his mind that makes me take notice not in a bad way or anything terrible maybe because I have been surrounded by such bad or wrong persons, places, and things that all of a sudden I understand that something is different in a way that allows me to stop placing barriers in front of me to protect myself and allows to be to be more me in the present moment.

I remember Bob from Home Depot even with his – I’ll say funny nose – he was an enjoyable person to be around.  It was hard not to smile being around him even if I didn’t believe a good deal of his stories it was the other portion of what he was telling me that was enjoyable to be around.

Which brings me to Jim – crazy, funny, old man Jim.  Sorry, he was not that old.  Jim with his frantic, jerky mannerisms which made me take a step back internally just as a way to take notice which is I guess something I have done several times with him.  Sorry, I’m tired and I feel like I am rambling.

I am not trying to confuse the proxy Jim with the real Jim I’ve encountered in my life.

So, going back to the proxy Jim – even with his jerky, quick mannerisms there was a quality about him that was compelling.  His quickness did not affect me in that it did not make me want to hurry let’s say, but it had me notice him.

I guess they do go together.

I published here on my site in 2012 and again December 2017, however I am uncertain if it was viewed with all the changing and changes that have recently taken place.  It doesn’t hurt to remind the world of the truth.

Fire Pit

As if it were iron

It stopped me

Inhaled all

And sought me

Born to a machine

It lives

With arms outward

Screaming

Grasping

Choking

Blink

Blink

Breathe, breathe, breathe

Original write date: 5/23/1996

I visited Dachau, Germany November 1988.  It was an experience I will never forget.  Driving into Dachau, the overcast sky seemed to have fallen hanging closer to our heads.  The townspeople walked with the burden of living like a coat too heavy to wear.  We had no idea how to get to the Dachau site.  My mom parked on the street asked me to get out and ask for directions.  As I approached what looked like a toll booth plaza, I didn’t even have to say anything as I was handed directions printed in many different languages courtesy of the local police department on John F. Kennedy Plaza.  I had to travel from America to wind up in Germany at a police station named after an American President.

It was an election year, and I was not yet old enough to vote.  I remember another mother and daughter on the plane with us, the daughter had a Mondale pin on her coat.  How exact opposites we were because if I could have voted I would have voted for Bush.

By the time we got to Dachau we had been in Germany for several days.  As we parked and got out at the site, the very air was different.  The pain of thousands still hung in the air with crushing pressure making it difficult to breathe.

I was teenaged blasé about the importance of the events that took place there.  We started to walk the grounds before going to the museum.  To my great shame, I recall walking by the barracks where they slept at the concentration camp thinking, it’s not so bad.

God heard me.

We came to a turn in the path, and as I turned, I saw the crematorium.  It was as if God thumped me in the head for I could not walk any further.  I was struck at the site.  A blink, and a million images flooded into my head of the torture, of the panic, of the cruelty, of the dead, of the never-ending screams.  I could see and hear.  Unending sympathy, empathy, a never-ending connection to the Jewish people instantly replaced the teenaged blasé boredom.  I was forever changed by that moment.  I couldn’t continue any further.  I couldn’t walk to the crematorium.

I had been so struck.

My mother and I went through the museum, we ate dinner, we found a hotel for the night.  Then, after having a shower and getting into my pajamas did I feel myself come out from the shock of witnessing the crematorium.

It was such an experience and I had so many other life changing experiences afterward it took me many years later to put it into words.

Yeah, God heard me.  He let me see the truth.  He let me feel it.

Years later when I auditioned for The Diary of Anne Frank (1999, 2000) and didn’t make it.  I asked to help behind the scenes.  I got to do the costumes, and something else I can’t remember.  The memory was still very present in my mind, so I organized a field trip for the actors to go to the Florida Holocaust museum, which is where I bought Sophie’s Choice.  I wanted to impart some of the importance that I witnessed and experienced to the actors, so they could use it, if nothing else, in their performance.

Upon leaving the museum, the actress who played Anne’s mother said to me, “Well, it was interesting, but I didn’t get much from it.”  You could have bowled me over with a feather (it’s an expression).  I was so stunned, here is a woman older than myself who was also a mother, but could not find anything from the museum to take with her.  I still don’t know how to understand that, other than not everyone is emotionally able to receive at each moment.  Some people go their whole lives, and are not emotionally available to receive.

Yeah, God struck me.  He let me know.  I am ashamed of my callousness still.  Because the truth is I am not an uncaring or calloused person.  It’s one of those hard-wired things you’re born with that do not change.  God made me that.  I guess the betrayal was painful to God, so He told me so.  As it turns out, the betrayal was painful to me as well.  To knowingly go against your own nature is a pain that cannot be described.

One Mississippi,

Everyone read along with One Mississippi so that she knows where she stands with me.

You need to leave the building, the premises, the compound, the development, the series, the vehicle, the show immediately.

One Mississippi, you need to see Special Conversation, immediately.  As straight as they come, I am.

One Mississippi you need to leave.  The documentary must cease – YOU WERE NEVER VALID.

I have the right to be upset at your deceit.

I will not now, nor ever support One Mississippi.

Terminate at once!

Terminate the female father at once!

Men Only Read:

I am going to keep this to a minimum because I am making you dinner.

How many times today did my neighbors purposefully wake me up while I slept?  Their ungracious behavior knows no bounds.

This is a breakfast from several days if not weeks ago.

Breakfast: A flax-seed, multigrain waffle or pancake, your choice, with a bit of butter, blueberries, real maple syrup – not the flavored corn syrup you get in the stores, a small bit of whipped cream, grated cinnamon, and sausages.  Coffee of your choice, brewed coffee, cappuccino, or latte served in a mug and saucer.  Cream and sugar, as always.  I am not now, nor ever interested in limiting mine or your decision making in your tastes.

I will not be poisoning you.  I will tell you how disappointing The Phantom Thread was to watch.  Horrifying to watch a couple, as one poisons the other, the other accepts it, then marries them?!  Its appalling.  Disturbing.  I was revolted.

Disgusting.  I was so upset I wish I had not made the purchase.

You have no idea what I am up against if you believed I would have enjoyed that at all.

Eat your food, I will do you no harm.

My men, I want NEVER broken.

I will not want my men hurt, harmed, or injured in any way.  These, my men I want, I insist, I demand to be nothing less than the best versions of themselves they sometimes do not yet know exists.

If you have to hurt the one you love to get them to love you in return – THAT IS NOT LOVE.  THAT IS SICK, AND SICKENING BEHAVIOR.

My men.  I am a staunch supporter for your very best health that does not come at the cost of illness or sickness first.

You have a long day ahead of you.

My heart is saddened and sickened from grief.

I will be of very little comfort to you.

October 11, 2017

For David Wolfe only:

David,

I despise having to talk to you like this, since I do not wish to speak to you again.  You cannot undo the damage you have done.

1. The toilets: I am only able to use the one toilet as it is the only toilet in the whole building that does not have a mirror in front of it, therefore it is the only toilet without itches.
2. I leave the light on in my garage because it is an air purifier.
3. After having been told off about not walking in the designated path, and for turning on the light in the bathroom, I am no longer rearranging or making any changes whatsoever to the bathrooms. It is dumb and an absolute waste of time.
4. Again, I repeat there is NO REASON WHATSOEVER THAT I SHOULD EVER BE IN FEAR OF MY JOB!
5. The reason I do not walk in front of _______ is my experience has been they do nothing but invent ways to hurt me, so I have to spend money to fix it.

Do you know I still miss my Thursday and Tuesday?  And all my belongings.  I still believe I should not have given up the care of my mother.  This life you have done for me is just NOT worth living.  I thought my life was on hold before while I was taking care of her, and I would finally be able to start living and have a life, but you have taken that all from me.  If I had gotten that job at Macy’s in 2012 I could have started as a sales girl, but worked my way up to management, or a buyer, or a merchandiser.  I would have been able to take care of myself in my own home where I had created my whole life.  If I had gotten the job at Progressive in 2012 I could have worked myself up to trainer or supervisor and been able to take care of myself in my own home.  I could have put money aside so I could have spent time abroad.

All of this has been designed to make me feel as though I am incapable of taking care of myself financially, but you have created that problem so I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE IN LIFE!!!!!

Do you not understand how painful and hurtful it was to not allow me to actually date men and have a life?!

Do you not understand how hurtful it was to see you ALL the fucking time on your motorcycle?!  You could have let me go and allowed me to date men who found me attractive, so I could have been living a life with love in it.

I remember the game building the railroad – I forget the name of it – where your name was in the credits.

It’s time to really end this fake reality and give me back control over my own life.  It is time.

I will be forever grateful for those moments in college, but I cannot go back to them.  I do not see you the same as I did before.  Worse still, I no longer feel you in my heart or being.  I never thought that would go away.  I thought some part of you would remain, however it has been cut out of me.

I cannot tell you how disappointed I am in you that you have allowed people into my home as if you had the right to do so.  Also, I am so disappointed that you allowed them to ruin the taste of my Marmite.  The coffee, the cream, all of it is bad enough but it was personal to take away my Marmite.  Which is what all of this really is – a personal attack.  What my time at ______ has taught me is that those in charge are afraid, frightened, jealousy, envious, and in all other ways malicious when it comes to my good looks, talent, taste, respect, sexuality, mind, and what was once love for you, David.  It is the only explanation to ruin someone’s looks – envy and jealousy.

I do not understand why I had to change cable carriers to Bright House.

I remember seeing you and Courtney kissing at the beach.  You two are a perfect couple.  Please leave me alone.

I remember you getting “married” to Amanda at TCS.  I remember you coming into the store as Rene after you unfriended me on facebook.

I so often wondered why you did what you have done.  I’ve thought if you had wanted me to feel more on equal footing with famous people, then your plan has backfired.  If your whole purpose was to humiliate, embarrass, and shame me then your plan succeeded.

I am so tired of talking to you like this.  I am so tired of having to yell at you.  I am so tired of living like this.  I have been more than patient.  Do you not understand that I have gone without a single personal contact, friend, or relationship of any kind for more than 3 ½ years closer to four?  Even field agents have contacts.  And, more importantly they actually agreed to it and signed up for it. I never did nor have.

I hear in my head how this never should have happened.  How there was no cause, or reason, or evidence of any wrong doing, or bad behavior even on my part.  I HEAR THIS IN MY HEAD and I know this is not my voice saying this.

Do you know the other night I was yelled at in my head for looking at a man and thinking to myself how handsome he looked.  ???!!!  Do you understand how out of control these people are that you’ve allowed to speak to me in my own head?!!  What is possibly wrong about thinking another man was attractive.  Even if I was married to the man of my dreams, happily in love, there is nothing wrong with looking at another man and thinking he is good-looking?!  To yell at me for that?!  After all these years of persecution, injustice, humiliation and shame somebody has the nerve to get upset with me IN MY HEAD for seeing beauty in a man?!  It is so disgusting I just want to slit my wrists.  Think about it for just a moment.  Think about it.

Do you know I see the look on all the FBI, or agency men, or I don’t know what to call them I can’t keep all the lingo along with everything else too, and nearly every single time their look is – you gotta be kidding me?!

Do you know I saw the look on the face of the real guards that day at the courthouse, and all I saw was – you mean, this girl?!

Do you have any comprehension of how confusing any of this is?!

I am not yet done, but I am tired.  I need to lie down.  Which is why I know if given the chance I will live the rest of my life in seclusion somehow.  Away from any public life of any kind.

Cherith J Gjestland

October 9, 2017

For David Wolfe only:

David,

I do not wish to write to you in any way since you have brought me to ________ under false pretenses.  However, I will not now nor will I in the future write anything further to the other computer or “_______”.  It should be my feelings above all else that should be taken into consideration which has yet to be done.  After watching Spartacus, it only cemented the first feelings I had about all of this – you have made me feel nothing more than a sex slave to be passed around from man to man.  You most clearly feel nothing for me or you would not allow other men to use me without my consent or permission.

I feel I must write to make certain that I am being held under such false pretense, false employment, and abuse will not take place for me in the future.  Again, I do not have time to do it all in one day before I have to get to work on time.

I will repeat, I should never be in jeopardy of losing my job – EVER.  No one works harder than me.  No one has to do everything that I do!  I must make it look easy or everyone would not try to copy me.

I will not be going to the movies or ordering take-out tomorrow.  I had to use a day to get rest and sleep which speaks more about your treatment of me and how ________ abuses me than I could ever say.

I am so appalled and disgusted by you, David.  Again, I wish I had never met you.  You have forever changed my opinion of you.

In the future, I will not be playing a key role, nor will I have my day ordered by my driving route this has no place whatsoever in the workplace!

You have treated me as a thing instead of the intelligent woman that I am – I cannot forget that.

It is you, David who is afraid of me.  You are afraid to speak to me.  You are afraid to approach me in person and in real, or you would have done so already.  You are the one who closed the door to me when you called me delusional which is of course, why I never approached you or spoke to you whenever I saw you.

Cherith J Gjestland