Goodbye, Green

What a terrible day today!

A few things I remembered today the worst of all being an unforgiveable trespass on my soul was not sitting on my brother’s side at his wedding, however that is not what made today terrible.

I relinquished custody of my animals to my brother today.  They really were not even mine.  My animals died years ago.  Being a responsible and caring woman I had been taking care of them.

The problem is where I am living.  The house is not set up properly for me.  It hasn’t been since I arrived here.  It does not accommodate all the needs I have nor does it allow for my needs to be met.  For instance, I live so close to other people I am living over their spaces instead it all being my private house.

So, my animals in what seems like a purposeful tactic had been trained through silent whistles into behaviors such as crying, peeing, puking, etc. on command.  It had taken so much of my time, energy, and money to correct the problems every time it occurred I was brought to a breaking point.

I chose to live.

Some things simply never occur to me because my brain, my body, the way God made me, only works one way.