February 19, 2019: READ: I Am Too Heavy!

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February 19, 2019

I WANT IT DEALT WITH!  Yes, if you are an organization, company, law firm, business, or any other such configuration giving the appearance of a legitimate organization, company, law firm, or any other such configuration working within governments, as consultants or an employee within governments in Africa to corrupt, disrupt, subvert, or destroy in any the United States government, its agencies, its people, the President, or any other elected officials – THEY WILL HUNT YOU DOWN!  THEY WILL FIND YOU!  THEY WILL HUNT YOU DOWN!

It could very well be the reason Sarah Palin used the word Africa in an interview.  It really is how agencies work.  They put “things” in the news and media to see what they get from it.  Africa.  Because it is so big and they thought they were being clever by joining forces, so to speak. 

IT IS SUCH A BIG PROBLEM THAT YOU THEN, USED JOHN MCCAIN, MY MOTHER ALWAYS LIKED JOHN MCCAIN, IN CONNECTION TO THE WHITE HOUSE, AND THAT TERRORIST AND ME, WITH A BLACK MAN, WHO HAS A CONNECTION TO MY REAL FATHER!  YOU FUCKING IDIOTS ACTUALLY HAD PEOPLE KILLED BECAUSE OF IT!  YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU ARE DOING!  YOU FUCKING MORONS!

No, it does not look like that alone cost them the election.  It did not help them though.

I SUGGEST YOU RETHINK YOUR STRATEGY!  I SUGGEST YOU TURN PEOPLE INTO THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT, ITS AGENCY PEOPLE, ITS INTELLIGENCE – IMMEDIATELY, AT ONCE!  DO NOT DELAY!

IF YOU IN ANY WAY THINK YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH HARMING UNITED STATES CITIZENS ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD AND GET AWAY WITH IT – THEY WILL HUNT YOU DOWN!  THEY WILL FIND YOU!

IF YOU ARE AN AMERICAN CITIZEN AND YOU WORK AGAINST – READ IT, AGAINST – THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT AND ITS AGENCIES – TURN YOURSELVES IN AT ONCE!  IMMEDIATELY!  DO NOT DELAY!  THEY WILL FIND YOU!  THEY WILL FIND YOUR SUBVERSIVE WORKS!  THEY WILL HUNT YOU DOWN!

The German glass with the color, and the underwear will give you intel.  It is a very serious problem!

Do not be mistaken, that bracelet was given to me by my Aunt, do not turn it into something it is NOT!  IT IS NOT WITHIN MY FAMILY!  IT WAS ONLY DONE TO SHOW YOU THERE IS A PROBLEM!  A VERY SERIOUS PROBLEM! 

You actually have me – as SEEN, READ IT, SEEN – by a lot, if not a greater percentage of the population watching as the person in charge.  When you have other people telling me what to do, changing something, anything, you are ACTUALY fucking your own intel by doing so.  You are fucking your own intel!

Somebody did make me sick at the Disney’s Vero Beach Resort while I was with all my family.  All four of us were there.  I was with my brother swimming with him at the pool, and somebody gave me an ear infection.  WORK IT!  It would be because of my brother because he is gay.

My fingernails tell me I am not healthy.

The Disney movie Holes tells me you received intelligence and you have and had no idea what it means, what it meant, or what it was about.

In the real world, I would be protected by OSHA.  I am actually not protected as an employee because of how you have the fake reality “show.”  Take the mats off the floor before you actually get someone killed because of it.

Wow, my head is really, really full.  It really looks like…wow, its really difficult, this is really big.  They really wanted to work with me over David.  The real thing instead of a proxy.  It’s actually very simple.  It didn’t have to be elaborate.  It means you underestimated me, the power of me, the value of me.  That one sentence is really big.

Yes, they really, and not just one group of persons, really liked and like to see me happy.  It really means you got better intel because of it.  You really, really underestimated me.  You really underestimate me.

I should be working as a freelance writer, with security clearance that consults.  I was really supposed to be free.

READ IT: Before I worked at Amazon I was allowed to go out of my house, to run, or whatever I wanted.  IT IS A PROBLEM, WORK IT!

I will never love that short man!  Ever!

It really is a problem that I do not own my own home.  Our house in Plant City was in my mother’s name, alone.  The woman at the courthouse watched my face when my mother and I went in to change it from my mother’s and father’s name to just my mother.

Monster’s Ball tells me ball gown, it is in the White House when Princess Diana visited the White House, it is another woman in the White House somewhere about the same time.

Monster’s Ball and the little boy in the movie tells me, a dead child, there is a dead child if not several.

There is a television connection to Australia and the death of Steve Irwin.  Like an executive, someone higher up, and it is not good, at all.

It does look because it is very obvious when I or someone like my mother are not in love, it is very obvious to be read.  This should look like a very serious problem to people.  I am very obviously unhappy.

Red dress, a false positive, and what did Chelsea say to me?  I have given you positive.  She used the word positive.

John Wick looks like the hotel in Brisbane.

Yeah, I am still sick!

FACT:  Murphy does not like to be rushed!  Especially with his food and eating!

February 18, 2019: READ: Not Two Hours Late!

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February 18, 2019

GET THAT SHORT MAN AWAY FROM ME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!  NEVER LET THAT MAN NEAR ME AGAIN!  I JUST MIGHT STRANGLE HIM MYSELF!  I AM SO BEYOND WITH WHAT YOU PEOPLE ALLOWED TO HAPPEN WITH THAT MAN!  HOW MANY YEARS MUST I SAY AND WRITE THE SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!  I HAVE NOTHING GOOD TO SAY TO ANY OF YOU PEOPLE INVOLVED WITH SUCH A LIE, SUCH A TRICK, SUCH A DECEPTION!  I HAVE NOTHING GOOD TO SAY ABOUT ANY OF YOUR CAREERS THAT HAVE BEEN BUILT UPON MY KNOWLEDGE, KNOW-HOW, INTUITION, AND BRAIN!  BE GONE!  IMMEDIATELY!  GET THAT PIECE OF SHIT DIRT BAG AWAY FROM ME!  HE BELONGS IN JAIL FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE!  NEVER ALLOW HIM NEAR ME AGAIN!

YOU FUCKING IDIOTS!  BRAIN RESEARCH!  DO YOU REALLY THINK ALL THOSE SCHOOL SHOOTINGS FOR SO MANY DECADES WERE JUST FROM BAD CHILDREN?!  BAD PARENTS?!  ITS BRAIN RESEARCH!

IF THAT IS THE PIECE OF SHIT, TOM CAT, CAT BURGLER, IT IS ON THE GROUNDS AT FT. MEYERS BACK IN THE 80’S WHEN I WAS THERE ON VACATION.

I CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT A DUMB, STUPID, AND TERRIBLE THING YOU PEOPLE HAVE DONE!  I WOULD NEVER HAVE DONE ANYTHING LIKE THIS, AND THIS LIFE TO ANYONE!  IT IS BEYOND INCORRECT THINKING!  IF YOU ACTUALLY HAD AGENCY PERSONS INVOLVED WITH THIS SORT OF THINKING?!  I AM AT SUCH A LOSS FOR WORDS.

NO, THAT BLACK MAN IS STILL NOT SAFE, THERE IS SUCH A COVETNESS FOR MY NORWAY!

You underestimate, I am still sick!  I am still too heavy!  I am tremendously unhappy!  Yes, I have a plan because this CANNOT continue the path you have perceived and tried to make happen!  I was never made to not be free.  I was never born to live the rest of my life away from people and the world!  THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED WHEN WE MOVED TO FLORIDA!

Here a picture for you, this is Florida: Jump in the water with only a twig to clothe you, use a bamboo shoot to breathe thru, do not allow your face to be above water, swim against the current, that is to say swim upstream for 20 miles, then jump out walk down the length of the path, then, do it again for five hours, then you can meet at the meet.

Here is California, and very small times in Oregon: Just float in the water, where whatever you like, choose whatever you feel works best for you, and let the water and current do the work.  The water does the work, you don’t have to do anything else.  Then, you will arrive at the meet.  No problem. 

Pack up, from Mulan is literally, most likely, several people so upset that my brother is gay they made us move.  Must I actually continue with connecting all the connections for you with what they did in Alabama?

Shut the fuck up!

I wore my baseball cap to the meet at Panera, David DID NOT walk over to me or greet me.  A baseball cap?!  Does that say a date to anyone?!  It doesn’t to me!  Did I dress up?  Accessorize?  Paint my toes?  Wear perfume?  Shave my legs?  Wax?  NO!  You people are so dumb!  WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING?!!!!

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY I WORE MY CAP?  I HAD ROOTS, I NEEDED TO COLOR MY HAIR, THAT IS SO BEYOND NOT A DATE!

JESUS CHRIST!  I WORE HIGH-HEELS TO A HOCKEY GAME!  DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW FUCKING HOT THAT IS TO WEAR HIGH-HEELS TO SOMETHING LIKE A HOCKEY GAME?!  YOU FUCKING MORONS!  I AM SO BEYOND AND OUT OF YOUR LEAGUES!

IF YOU PLACED THAT STUPID, PIECE OF SHIT MAN ANYWHERE NEAR – ANY OF THE PRESIDENTS OF THE UNITED STATES – I HAVE NO SYMPATHY FOR ANY OF YOU, THE MEN AND WOMEN THAT WILL FIND YOU, HUNT YOU DOWN!  IF YOU PLACED ANY PIECE OF SHIT MEN OR WOMEN ANYWHERE NEAR – ANY OF THE PRESIDENTS OF THE UNITED STATES – I HAVE NO SYMPATHY FOR ANY OF YOU, THE MEN AND WOMEN THAT WILL HUNT YOU DOWN!

THEY WILL FIND YOU!  YOU WILL NEVER BE SAFE!  THEY WILL FIND YOU!

TWO HOURS LATE, FROM POINT BREAK IS NOT ME YOU DUMB FUCKS!  IT IS ANOTHER OP OR MISSION THAT SOMETHING HAPPENED MAKING THE PEOPLE INVOLVED FIND ANOTHER WORK AROUND, THAT IS WHY THEY WERE LATE!

I AM STILL SICK, A BODY ONLY GOES SO FAST, I HAVE A PLAN IF YOU FAIL ME AGAIN WITH NUMBERS!  SO, FUCK OFF!

THEY WILL FIND YOU! 

February 18, 2019: READ: The Woman In The Red Dress

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February 18, 2019

The reference to the woman in a red dress in the Matrix, “I designed her,” tells me false positive.  Woman in a red dress – a false positive.  Another word for false positive, incorrect, or wrong.  It would be a flaw or a bug in a program used at agency levels.  It looks like it has been Grandfathered (the best word I can think of because I do not know a more correct word for it) in with every new update of programs or systems.  It is probably why there was a Jim who worked in IT at the Disney call center.  It looks like it happened about the time my family had to move away from California.  This also tells me they were using me as a child and for whatever reason, the move corrupted data.  Data, Star Trek, a robot, or more correctly, a computer program.  Red dress, false positive.

The Disney paintings I understand is asking something of me.  Paint, flat paint, egg-shell paint, gloss paint, semi-gloss paint, camouflage paint, however, it is flat paint.  It is not a complete thought, words are missing or omitted.  It is not a complete thought.  It almost looks like someone took words placed them in a tumbler, or stirred them, or jumbled them, and then created “a profile”.  That is what it looks like to me.  Mostly it is not a complete thought.

I would really appreciate it if people would stop putting things and air in my orifices, or holes, like my ears and nose.

Something really big happened in that hotel in Brisbane, Australia.  I am working on the death of Steve Irwin, it goes back to who was in the hotel when my mother, brother, and myself were there.  Wow, there are also a lot of people in that hotel, working.

Another reason for false positives?  It is no longer the same, it is no longer real.  As it was before.  There is good and bad.  Wow, I am tired and there is still work to do.  You should be paying me to write instead, it is what more people are interested in.  Mt. Herman, listening to the sound of those trees.

Woman in a red dress is a false positive.

February 17, 2019: READ: Because My Brother Is A Homosexual

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February 17, 2019

Wow, I wish you people would really shut the fuck up, stop telling me what to do, and pretending as though you have a goddamn clue!  Who is telling whom?!

Fuck off!  I am still sick from cleaning my awards!  What this tells me that someone wants me to write about all the harm they do to me?  Sick, mentally ill!

What this air tells me.  Forcing me to gain weight.  It tells me that I was purposefully made heavy and fat in Plant City.  Why?  Because?  Because my brother is a homosexual.  It tells me that persons went out of their way, extraordinary measures to humiliate me, degrade me, denying me male relationships, uglyfing me just because my brother is gay, a homosexual.

The reason they used PID in the Bahamas?  I went on the Bahamian Diet, it was popular then, in Oldsmar.  It is a connection because I was all my life normal sized, not plus-sized.  So, Dick Gregory’s death, looks suspicious now in hind-sight.

Your unsuited for the rage of war, this lyric from Mulan is very obviously not about me, this is my brother.  This could have been a Disneyland meet before I was born.

Be a man, this lyric from Mulan, is about my brother, not me.

You may look like a bride, from Mulan is just a way to say that Cherith is very obviously straight and going to be married.  I should have been married.

You will never bring honor to your family, from Mulan, this is very difficult for me to look at because she breaks the teapot, what it tells me is one woman in particular was so repulsed, upset, and angry that my mother, Gayle Gjestland gave birth, bore a son who is gay, a homosexual, she in a sense banished my mother from California.

My brother’s wallet being stolen while on a scuba dive tells me that people wanted my mother to go to the local Police station with my brother and report his wallet missing.  To send the message, we are watching this family, be careful here, we are watching them.  Them, being our US intelligence persons.

The car accident that happened in Florida, again, a way to get my mother’s name in a Florida system.  Where names pop up.  When agency persons do searches and whatnot.

I still remember the first time I had a Whatchamacallit, in a grocery store, In California, as a small child.  It was a special treat.  My mother allowed me to choose whatever I wanted.  Chicklets were some of my favorite gums.  I chose a Whatchamacallit.  A man was there to watch me.  He would have been behind me, to my right.  It is just how the check-out lanes were arranged.  He watched me walk to our car.  He went outside while we walked.  They never tasted the same to me after a few years.

I was not an obese child.  I was always normal sized that is to say, I was always on the low end of the BMI scale.  I am built like my father, not fat.  Healthy as a horse.  It is normal to be able to eat in moderation.

The very reason my brother had such difficulty being gay?!  You thought you were helping him?!  People set out against not only my brother, my mother, my father, and me because my brother was born gay.  I think most people would have a difficult time being around so many brains wanting to hurt and kill you because he’s gay.

The Monster’s closets are not about coming out of the closet in Monster’s Inc.  There are no windows in a closet, usually.  Wow, it might be the only place a person could get rest knowing, no one was looking or spying on them while they were sleeping.  That person is me.

The reason I was bent at the waist while the nurses checked for scoliosis, is just so that I would not be able to see any of their faces.  In Lord of The Rings, when…is it Gollum, and also Bilbo who turn from a normal face into pointed teeth, lunging, animalistic, wanting and trying to attack people is a close depiction of what I see happened.  This third woman would have been an operative, gone very bad.  To me it looks like she would have been terminated as in killed.  Her mind was broken, snapped, and she was a lesbian.  To many drugs, too much of whatever they were up to, trying to make a perfect solider, or operative, her mind was gone.

The fact that the character’s name is Casey in Tomorrowland, is not against me, it is a warning to other women, lesbians, and men.  I did it effortlessly.  Yeah, I would have had a screaming reactions to people being shot and killed, only because I had no idea what was going on.  It is not the same for me anymore.

Watts, this would have been a meet, about a think-tank, group of persons, committee, you get the idea, about energy.  The signal would have been sent to a military man, with a few years of service, so that he would look clean, disciplined, healthy, strong, fit, reliable, a man to trust.  It is what I would have done, I would have sent a military man.  He needed to be seen as a man to trust.  Looking out of their windows, he would have been to their right.  Now, it looks like thugs and gang-type individuals to the left.  Art lost his sight.  It just looks like jealousy or envy, why were these people allowed company?  Watts, energy, get it?  Not that difficult.  It is not a matter of black and white.  Really, not about black and white.  Don’t be dumb.

This notion of changing back from black to white, really, really bad.  I do not have time at present.

Would someone like to explain why my face is on fire?  I am still really sick.

Little Mermaid, The Peacemaker, this would have been someone who watched me while swimming at Gresham High School, they would have been different people, but sat in the same place on the bleachers.

I am seeing this a lot regarding doctors.  Someone, more likely several people making people sick, to cure them.  This behavior is not a doctor, this is a serial killer, or a killer.  Hippocratic oath.  Not a Hippo.  I am not a doctor.  Because my brother is gay.

Too heavy for any other pants.  Wow, I guess I really don’t feel like spending more money on earplugs at present.

In all my life I have never been loved.

I hope you people rot in hell.

February 16, 2019: READ: Right Lane Ends

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February 16, 2019

Because I am being forced to walk to the bathroom at work at the trash, I am no longer going behind and shutting the AUTHORIZED ACCESS ladders at work.

No, I really do not have to walk through.

I am not mistaken that is our United States military that has not only laced my food with heavy bulk and mass, they placed a death threat on me.  Our own military wants me dead.  I will no longer give my support to our military.

I place no importance whatsoever on how characters look in a game, it is just a game.  If you place importance on what the characters look like, then you are dumb.

It is not just my mugs, it is all my dishes.  If this is my brother, I want him arrested and charged.  This is also, the US military making me sick, fat, and heavy.  I will no longer give my support.

I’ve had to live my whole life without ever being loved.  You can all go to hell.

February 15, 2019: READ: Bloody Murder

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February 15, 2019

By the way, the scene in X-Men at the concentration camp of the boy being separated by his mother, is me.  My brother walked over to me, at the river when I was screaming bloody murder, as I was heading away from my mother and father, when he helped me up, something happened.  I stopped screaming.  Something else happened.  Because I know there was a murderer on the bank of the river watching me and my family.

It would be why Ian McKellen was cast because of my brother.

February 15, 2019: READ: Mulan, Medieval Times

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February 15, 2019

Ask my father, ask my brother about any conversations and/or any memories they have at Disneyland, specifically at the Matterhorn.  There is at least one photograph.  This is the avalanche scene in Mulan.  It is about my brother, not me.  The person who probably truly knew the information is dead, my mother.

The reason Mulan’s horse is black and white is probably just the photo of my mother and her horse in Canada.

“Off with his head, kill him, get him, crush him, kill him dead!”  This was me at Medieval Times.  Over and over and many different variations when we were on vacation in Orlando.  It would be why we were seated in the green section.  Possibly.  Possibly it was my brother’s favorite color then.

There was a man who watched my brother and I swimming at the motel we were staying at.  Construction grew in Kissimmee before the demand.  Meaning, there were less people than the place was built for.  I was bothered while we were swimming at night.

I didn’t stay with my family the whole night, I sat in a different area.  They probably wanted to see how I would react.  KILL HIM!  OFF WITH HIS HEAD!  That was how I reacted, so who was there then?

Guess what?!  “Kill him!  Off with his head!”  This was me before David.  And, yes, I wish I had stayed in California, so that I would never have met David.  I would have been married to a man who loved me in return, more importantly, I would have been loved all these years instead of this life.  This life that is a lie.

Really what I see in Mulan as far as the gender stuff is a challenge to the way the military regarded and regards women.  Men and women are different.  Men and women are not the same.

If I truly worked military strategy and work throughout my life, it would absolutely destroy men to discover a woman, and me, was responsible rather than giving all the credit to a man.