Tired, Again

I cried myself sick at work today.  Emotionally spent, and I had just started my shift.  The check-list of work I have to do every day – that is not of my own choosing – grows longer every day.  I missed a turn.  My mind on auto-pilot as I was trying to see everything, remember everything, do everything.  Concentrating on one turn and I lost another in the process which ruined my whole shift.

I want to be around people.  I want to be able to look at people again and not have to worry about the color of their clothes, what signal and sign they are doing, etc.

I don’t have time for this today.  I don’t have time on any day I punch in for work.