This Monday

There is hardly any time left in a day when you work a 10 hour shift, or a 12 hour shift when you include my drive time as well.  Then, to come home to clean the litter box, take out the trash, vacuum the floor, do the laundry, clean the kitchen, do the dishes – oh yeah, did I eat yet?!

I cannot create when I am not comfortable.  I don’t know anyone who works that way.  Have you ever heard of the notion of nurturing talent?  Breaking a person down is hardly a motivator, nor is it any way to garner anything, really.

My mind is broken.  I have been over-used to such an extent my mind is quite literally broken, and my body is in constant pain as a means to cope.

My brain works, but my mind is not where it once was.

James Franco – I saw her and I turned off my air purifier/light because I did not want there to be any confusion.  I am not in love with you or even in like with you.  I want nothing to do with you.  I changed the light bulb because I saw her.  Congratulations, I am happy for you both.  Now, leave me alone, so I can be loved by a man who will actually show up in person to see me and not simply phone it in.  Leave me alone so that I am no longer used by a man who is only pretending an affair.  I deserve to be loved by a man who is not sharing me with other men.  I deserve to be protected by a man and not used as a device.

David – I don’t see it that way.  This I cannot get over, and you should have known that when you did it.

I cannot go back any longer to the way things have been produced, performed, and set-up.

I am not in love with any man.

I don’t have time for this anymore today.