Fucking Pissed As Hell

You have been lied to.  You have all been lied to.  I have been telling the same story/stories for years.  I have not changed my stories in all these years.  But, you have been fed lie after lie.

The only series I will be working will be the Declassified Files until it is completed out of someone else’s hands.  I would love to be able to tell you about Disney and Bob Iger, I would be able to share with you a valuable lesson about business.  I would love to share with you about my Twilight story and how it brought me back to David.  I would love to be able to write a million things.  However, what has been brought to my attention is something I cannot abide.  I tell it like it is, I shoot from the hip, and I will tell the truth about my feelings straight from my heart – like always.  I have not deviated or changed in this manner at all.

Hollywood, I have been very patient with you.  I have done what you have asked me to.  I have done everything you wanted me to do.  You told me to turn left, I turned left.  You told me to turn right, I turned right.  You told me to jump up and down, and I jumped.  You told me to leave, and I left.  You told me to do a million things, and I did them all because it was asked of me.  Because I thought there was going to be an end.  Because I what you were asking of me must have been important.

Hollywood – you have lied to me since the beginning.  You have let me down.  Hurt my feelings in ways I will never be able to recover from, reconcile, or allow again.

I saw David.  I saw David at Starbucks.  I knew David once.  Have things changed since then that can never go back – yes.  Will I deny him and what once was – no.  I cannot deny the past, nor do I want to ever.

I want to clear up something that you have been lied to from a bad handle.  David was not my first love, nor was Michael my first love.

Star Wars – how horribly disappointed I am in you.  I spent my hard-earned time and money, and for what?!  To be treated like some mindless drone.  At this moment I believe I should not have gone.  Your effect has been harmful and hurtful.

Jerry- I choose you.  I went out of my way to choose you.  I didn’t have to.  However, you have no idea how upset and hurt I am because of you.

Cell phone picture – me behind the wheel flipping the bird.

The truth of the reality – someone purposefully caused a scene.  Doing 60 miles an hour on the interstate in the left hand lane because they knew I wanted to get to work on time.  I could not get around them.  Then, they started going slower and slower.  My action was appropriate and not directed at or towards any one other than the children in front of me who thought it was funny to incite chaos and turmoil.

Do you know I have a problem being able to keep my electricity turned on unless I do everything as instructed?  Or what I don’t know.

Virtual Reality- it will never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never happen that way.  I have said this from the very beginning.  I hate it.  No one would ever like or want it.  I never know who is on the other side.  It is meaningless.  There is no emotion or connection whatsoever.  I will have it real or nothing at all.  Since having moved here you have not allowed me to have real love of any kind at all.  More to follow.

James Franco – you are one of the greatest liars I have ever had the misfortune to meet.  I knew from the beginning this whole notion of marriage proposal was a sham.  I have not nor do I now believe it is or was real.  You wanted me to admit I felt something for that midget which I never, never, never, never did.  I will not move out of my way for you.  But, it is time you left me alone.

I have to end this now because it is more important that I get to work early than any other check-list, or getting gas, or anything else.