David Kahit Wolfe

Premature Ejaculation.

I accuse you David Kahit Wolfe, of imprisoning me without cause, evidence, right, or permission.

I warned you.

I gave you time to think about your course of action.

You have given me no choice any longer.

I would have protected you until my grave.

I would have never spoken of your family until my life was extinguished.

But, my heart has been broken.  The light it seems is forever to be vanquished from my heart and mind.  You are no longer the same man to me.

What I saw in you when we went to college, I am no longer able to see in you.

It is a gift I have, to be able to see in others what they themselves are not able to see.

I saw such things in you.

I loved you once, a long time ago.

Did you really think you could get me drunk, lose my inhibitions, so that I would fool around with you?  You would have dumped me like every girl you’ve ever known, then blamed me for coming on to you while intoxicated.

Was it such a surprise how well I can handle myself while drinking?  For I am never out of control.  I’ve had to be drugged to become black-out drunk.

Did you play a part in any of those times I was drugged?

You’ve seen me naked David Wolfe.

You paid another man to “date” me, pretend to have sex with me – for how can it truly count if it was not his real skin – while you watched.

Did your wife or girlfriend know you watched me have sex?

You watched me have sex, David.

You watched me have sex?

You watched me have sex, David!

You watched me in my own home – naked!

You watched me on the other side my mirror!

You will never again be able to be the same man to me.  It is a crime you do not get to get away from unpunished.

I believe you broke up with all your girlfriends in college because I loved you.

My love for you David, changed you.

You could have gotten up off your chair at the coffee shop and approached me after I walked away from you.

I will not back down from being a woman who wants a man to ask her out, to open the door for her, to order for her after she’s told him what she wants, to call her up, and to court her.  You have never been any of these things to me.

You have never even been a friend to me.

Did you look from outside my windows, or did you have someone come into my home to view my pictures and paintings?

Did I retaliate against you when your girlfriend called me up at my employment to threaten me?  No.  I reported it to my supervisor to protect myself, but I did not take it out on you.  All I did was block her on Facebook, so she could not have access to me.  So, that she would know I did not want her to have access to me.

She was in my front yard, David.  Her and her friends rushing to see me walk with my mother to my car.  Pointing and laughing at me.  IN MY FRONT YARD!!!!!!!

I could not put my mother in danger like that again which is why I unfriended you and blocked you on Facebook.

IN MY FRONT YARD!

All of a sudden, my whole neighborhood turned against me because of David and his girlfriend.  I thought and believed moving here would change that.  It hasn’t.  It is exactly the same.  It feels as if the entire neighborhood is against me because of you, David.

No one protects me in all of this.

How dare you treat me like I am less!

I saw great things in you, David.  But, you never saw the same in me.  You still don’t, or you wouldn’t play these food games.

You want me to write about how I saw you on your motorcycle on my drive to see The Hunger Games.  You looked behind and to your left, to the unmarked car who was riding with you.  I wore my purple hoodie that day which was already many sizes too big with my grey Bermuda shorts.

All these years I could have been loved by a real man who would have loved me in return.

You’ve taken years of my life, David.

Did you actually think I would be so upset seeing you make-out with your wife on the beach that I would try to start dating again?  To get back at you?  How could I when I knew this whole house and system has been set up against me?

I was and AM NEVER GOING TO ALLOW ANOTHER EDISON to happen again.

Did you actually believe I was gay because I loved you?

You fail to understand I know that was you as Alfredo Cruz when Cleveland suddenly became a woman talking about being from Alabama when you said one of the dumbest things I’ve ever heard from your mouth.

You actually thought I was gay because I loved you?!

Did you think that if you deprived me of actual male flesh I would suddenly change teams?!

It is a trespass upon my heart, my flesh, and my mind.

You failed to believe in me, that I was capable of great things, that I had plans for my future.

What we could have accomplished if you had actually allowed me in on the process instead of making me DO this life.  We could have actually worked together.

How the day has changed from you.

I knew you when you wore khaki’s.  I loved you for more than your khaki’s.

Gerry who lived in Fishhawk Ranch whom I dated.  Who was from Oakland, Ca, who said his baby nephew was cropped out of his profile photo, who said he read my blog, whom I wondered if he stuffed his underpants because of the size of his package, who worked for a trucking company, who never once tried to kiss me, who took me to Taco Bus one night.  And, Edison who had a picture in his eHarmony profile holding a baby –  which looked playful to me – under a sheet just like the Angel Soft photo, I believe you played a part in David.

So, when those women walked into The Container Store with a baby, I believe you used as a psychological test, upon viewing a baby.  Proving I am not a sexual deviant.  Which is the reason for your big smile on your face when you walked out of the stock room.

How would I ever be able to feel the same way for you again?!

What kind of man does that to a woman?

What kind of man does that to a woman who loved him?

Go back to your wife and leave me alone.  For good.

How many men I could have sex with by now if it wasn’t for you.