June 22, 2018

Day 1,544

I am so far behind schedule because I had to take time off to grieve and mourn my life.  I am not creative, nor a thinker surrounded by disorder, chaos, or filth.  So, I am behind yet again.  Unable to go outside, get my packages, or my trash as it is more important to me to get this writing, out of my head to be relieved of it rather than – I am not fucking kidding here – being sent to the showers.

Do you understand this is what they are doing to me?

Sending me to the showers!

Not a single person, company, or agency stops this?!

I work the way I work and not the other way around.  I will neither apologize nor stand down from clarifying and demanding for my rights.  This is not discrimination of any kind to turn it into something it is not is an act of grand dumbness, and nothing more.  As I am having to sit on top of cardboard on my chair because of the damage a person has done improperly to my chair.  Because I dare to write – THE TRUTH!  And not the other way around.

No, I am not going to decode Jungle Book for you, I got it.  I don’t believe it.

Let it be known Murphy’s name upon adoption was Donnie.  I’ll leave you to figure out all the derivatives of the name Donnie.  Murphy with the M under the skull pattern in his fur on his head.

The three boys had so much fun with the strawberry leaves, yummy.  They ate them all.  And, had so much fun!

Lambert’s head has an antler pattern in his fur on his head, but it can be many things.  There is also a skull, it is the smallest and thinnest skull of the three boys, it also can look like a tree.

My brother was born jaundiced.  Some people know this.  Can anyone think of any song lyrics?  My brother and I differ in that my brother takes after our mother’s side of the family and I take after our father.  As far as genes are concerned.

My father’s side of the family is strong and healthy with very few health concerns.  They are Norwegians.  I’ll leave you to the history books if you need to understand more about Norwegians, conquerors, and breeding lines.

Aladdin, I watched only because of one man I saw.  I will write no more about it.

Blood drive, if you wondered why I won’t sign up for a blood drive take a look at my right leg.  I have a bruise on my right calf near my ankle from the first car “accident” that in five years has not yet healed.  I also have a Y shaped spider vein on my right leg.  Yeah, cause that’s normal!

I believe it to be food poisoning.  I do not believe I was anemic and needed surgery.  They did it on purpose.  I will never again believe otherwise.

I will never understand it either why a person or company would want to take away my ability to have children.

I am the last of my blood line.  I will not be able to have an heir.  Is this a royal connection?  If you believe it at all?  Because I will not be able to continue a blood line because I can no longer have children.

I will never understand why they have placed me here without the possibility of being able to have men.

Someone has to pay for the damage done to me.  Someone has to be held responsible for what has happened to me.

You cannot make a person gay.

I am at a loss to understand the reason to be any other purpose for the surgery, this house, and the surgery.

To be clear, I never had cancer.  The reason for my surgery was not because I had cancer.  But, then again there was no reason for me to have surgery either.

So disgusted.