Five

In my mind, I still have five cats.  My cats should never have been taken from me.  My family, my mother should never have been taken from me.  It was done, denying me my animals, my mother, my family with such malice I simply am unable to correctly write with enough emotion in which to speak to the horribleness of such an act.

Do not read into anything further as far as God is concerned.

I saw my brother at work.  I saw how much he did not want to be there and in such a way as he was used.  I saw my father at work.  He didn’t seem to mind as much, but then things were different at that time.  He was not being used in such a way.

I will be writing more about this – let it be known quite clearly, I am the mother.  I am the mother who can no longer become pregnant or impregnated. 

Men are babies – this is a saying.

Murphy, when I am dishing up food for my cats, who in my mind are the closest to children I may ever have in my life, Lambert and Maurice love to clean the utensil and lid.  It is as though they’ve lived where people fed them out of a can.  When I give Murphy the lid to sniff and see if he would like to clean it.  He looks around, then looks up at me and says, in a dish.  I need it in a dish.  The food goes in a dish, Cherith.

How very true that is, food belongs served on a dish or plate that is the proper way to eat.  See what is there in the story that just happens to be true.

Speaking about properness, it does not require money or fortune to do things properly.  There is no shame in being poor.  People will surprise you if you let them.  Having been down on your luck, making decisions out of desperate circumstances, or simply not the best decisions does not mean that a person and persons lack in ability, wanting-ness to help, be a help, change the course and actions of criminals and criminal behavior, bring justice, and make the community, and therefore the world a better place and a better tomorrow.

I saw them.  I see them.  It is a very difficult thing to be seen knowing I will see people the way I do.  Give them a chance.  Listen to your own instincts, yet do not micro-manage them to the point where they will want to not do what you ask of them just to be rid of you and spite you.

Give them a chance.  Let them see in you the possibility that can exist in them.  See if they don’t surprise you.