Dehydrated

Dehydrated.

I was proven correct again tonight.  I should have ended my life when I was 18 years old.  There is no point to this life at all whatsoever.  There is nothing that would have changed or made a difference because I was in it.  My family would have gone on, perhaps for the better it couldn’t have been any worse.

I will not go into so much detail.  There is not a point to my life or existence anymore.  I tried to get out from my family burden to have a life, to make a life with a man and I am not allowed or able to.  So, what is the purpose of my life?

I am not allowed to wash my face.  Or have clean soap.  Or use whatever products I like.  Or build a future, or plan for the future.  Or have my animals.  Or anything normal for a woman my age, or anything I would normally do.

I believe the world would be a better place without me in it.

Dehydrated.