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April 9, 2019
I am the rainmaker!
I did take a photo, a picture, of my ladybug that happens to be red and black. I have my lady bug on my wall. I am keeping it. To me it is a shield meant to be worn on my back, the color was not chosen by my gift-giver, so to me the color does not matter, not really. It was the gift that matters to me.
It does look like my birthday gift of Michael Jackson’s Thriller album was meant to be seen in my home in association with Nelson Mandela. At the time it was given I see he would have wanted it to appeal to a young girl in America, to be a popular singer, to be a man of his own skin color. It is a sadness to think and remember these things as they should have because they were supposed to and meant to happen while everyone was alive, my mother, and Nelson Mandela.
I was not allowed to keep the Michael Jackson album, I had to sell it in a garage sale. Again, I saw things not always as my mother saw them, like gifts. I talked about this at The Container Store as well.
This tells me father, that Bestepappa and Bestemamma spoke words while they visited us in California. I do not remember Bestepappa and Bestemamma in California, I do not remember their visit in California, but I believe I will still know the words they spoke. Perhaps to me, perhaps to you, perhaps to each other, they were words meant for me to hear, I will remember them.
I work for a company that does not allow me to return or report the problems when they do not follow my orders. I ordered something and they changed the product. Wow, really stupid.
You people really only care about yourselves; you display it all over me, with everything that has happened here in this house. More importantly, with a television show that you do not pay me for, nor do I want. It shows you only care about yourselves.
No, just because I wrote deny him his excitement with me does not mean that I think he was allowed to speak to me before I wrote about it. They want me to think people think I am weak because I asked for time off – stupid.
You would be wrong if you thought the real Hannibal Lecter wanted or has any sort of attachment to me. This just looks like a prison warden purposefully disrupting the prisoners in his care to watch them fight, kill each other, and upset order within his prison. It is criminal behavior if this is true. If this exists – this disrupting one prisoner to get to another, it makes it appear that the real prison warden from the movie Silence of the Lambs is using by proxy the sick man who masturbated to my underage brother. I see how he thought of my brother and how he looked at him, it’s gross. If this real prison warden used this sick man as a proxy it tells he is actually sexually attracted to him – gross.
That stupid lesbian does appear to look to the real Hannibal Lecter as a sort of idol. She should know he will think she is stupid, dumb, and below him for doing so. As he thinks anyone who might look to him as an idol. As he would think anyone that would look at his crimes and copy them, idolizes them, think he has done something special because of his crimes, murders, and killings – stupid.
Who is attached to Nick? I have seen nothing but bad all around him. Bad. I have no idea what they are doing behind the scenes, but anyone I’ve seen approaching me with a laptop is not a good and it is bad. Somehow, they think the word lap alone means something it never could.
You realize that probably every time in my working life that I have – EVER – been told that my work performance, my work numbers, any measure or matrix of my employment that did not in any way exceed expectations causing me to be reprimanded literally would have had nothing to do with any real work, and it had only to do with the work I do not get paid for, and it looks like it is only something that did not go someone’s way, meaning sometimes Cherith was actually thinking about something else.
They created a cheat with the listening to my thoughts. It is a cheat and nothing more, it says – whoever did this for real – could not and is not capable of doing the real brain work that I’ve done all my life before them.
I hope they do not think they can win by copying the Russians in the movie 12 Strong is in reference to what they did with the Oracle in The Matrix. The Russians meaning the movie White Nights. They actually sent real intelligence men to speak to me, so that I would see them. They used real intelligence men. They really used men, not women. Again, – God, this is so redundant – it is Cherith’s brain, it actually matters, how a person thinks actually matters, it should be very obvious why they would use men and not women. Very obvious.
If there is a real-life proxy to this oracle in The Matrix – it just makes me sick to look at – she is a fraud. If she is or has at any time been an informant, a paid informant, she is a fraud. Fraud. Fraud. Fraud. Fraud. She will probably be frightened for her life is she reads this, and she should be. She gave my mother a stroke, it is connected, just to stop me from remembering. She is a fraud. She spoke to my real FBI man in person, she is a fraud. He is not fooled, don’t let the movie get confused with real-life.
She will be very exposed once this is published. She should be afraid. She is a fraud. She is probably connected to David’s hit. She is a fraud. She probably is a black woman, an African-American woman, she was probably in her late thirties or forties when the movie was released. She is a fraud. The smoking in the movie is just meant to show a measure of time. Being unhurried, methodical, it is meant to show a calm demeanor. It is just an artist’s interpretation. Do not get it confused. In truth, it is not done very well.
Rush Hour is code for, her, and Her Royal Majesty’s Government. I am the little girl being taken from our California home.
The mother’s and father’s death in The Power of One – Penny, one cent, Mexican Vanilla – I would need to look at it better, there is real sadness there in my mother and a real intelligence man.
You realize that Bo Ho in The Spy Next Door is named after Bob Hope because Cherith knows how to entertain the troops. Wow, you fucking morons took that away from me when I was just talking to real military men while at work and cooking food for and with them. Dumb.
This pressure-washing today does sound like a war-machine.
I am the boring pen salesman. The children would represent neighbor, and other people outside the intelligence community that did not believe it was possible for someone like me to have done the work I have actually done. The fact that I have to sit here, toot my own horn, talk about myself endlessly because no one else has had the decency to admit the work I’ve done, is revolting to me.
It is pretty big out there someone for real has wanted for a very long time for me to be legitimately connected to government work and agency. Someone should let people know this will never happen. Not after everything they’ve done.
It is more than obvious I am unhappy.
Humba-la-la.
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