April 25, 2019: READ: Psycho Cops

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April 25, 2019

You have Native American’s near by me who want people to know they believe Cherith to be highly teachable, in that I am deciphering and translating noises they are making into words and language because they have placed thought behind it.

This is not my first rodeo; I know I am more than able to do work.  Why don’t they remove the trash from their front yard from the movie Thunderheart, be careful here, this also says Native American’s are more than capable, able, and willing to help.  These are not a people just looking for a hand out – no pun intended.  These are smart people.  They are a smart people.  Make no mistake.  It would be unwise not to listen.  Duh.

My former fiancé stated repeatedly to me he wanted to become a sports director, Life As We Know It.  There are multiple people involved in that sentence.  My former fiancé went to a sort of video/film technical school.  He asked me my opinion on a work he did, I told him it was not good enough, he could have done better.  I was quite serious when I spoke, I remember.

Collateral, I liked this movie instantly, right away, do not get confused with those words, the English language is meant to communicate not turn into meaningless drivel.  My mother and I are not the same with movies and film.  I liked this film, immediately, to me when I remembered it at work and started thinking about it, it tells me the film is full of intelligence.  And, it is.  It is not quite the same intelligence as Thunderheart, and that is ok.

My mother liked – as I see her now – agents, spies, intelligence agents and officers’ men who had such ability and skill, no one would have suspected them to be anything other than their cover jobs.  She liked them because she saw the trueness of their person and spirit, these were men that would never betray the United States, never be double-agents.  These men were calm, subtle with such skill, thinkers.  She really chose really incredible men.  William H. Macy, my mother always like William H. Macy.  His proxy would be an everyday man that no one would suspect their cover job.

As the movie, Collateral opens, that’s me as Tom Cruise as seen by intelligence (meaning they believed I was that good) leaving LAX after the greatest defeat to Al Qaeda.  Was Tom Cruise always attached to the movie?  Whether he was or not, the fact that I went on a Truth cruise, with Christian contemporary singers would have protected him because Tom Cruise in the film is more than a hit man.

As Max (code for camera) gets in his taxi, and cleans his vehicle, left turn signal, right turn signal, that’s about me getting my driver’s license.  It’s my driver’s license test in Plant City (Hillsborough County), I was 20 years old.  There was always something that was off, or out of place to me when I took my driver’s test as though it was procedural, obviously I had been seen driving and was a more than capable driver.

When I took my first driver’s test when I was sixteen in Pinellas County, I did not pass the written portion of the test, therefore I could not move on to the driving portion of the test.  How does the DMV get to be infiltrated?  Because it looks purposeful.  I did not take a written portion of my driving test in Hillsborough county.  Somebody got yelled at, is what that looks like.

Not ready yet, the Jazz man says, not ready yet, this is my first driving test, and this man and persons have been more than yelled at.  They put it in a movie, that’s bad.  They let a sixteen-year-old not get her driver’s license because of a grudge.  That’s bad.

Any mention of Mercedes-Benz, in any film probably, is about me being spotted in Munich, Germany by a man who drove behind my mother and I from the airport to our hotel, who liked what he saw, immediately.  He is a real man; he would be closer in age to my real mother and father.  Not every person who saw my mother and I were of the same affiliation, plan, intelligence and agency, or coordination.

Hey pal, where can I catch a shuttle, did they edit this into the movie after the fact?  It is about the shuttle explosion that killed the female teacher in the eighties.  Does someone believe this was meant to show intelligence I had a death threat as a teen-ager?  Probably.

Seven Years in Tibet, what character do you think I would be in this movie?  I am the child, the Tibetan child, a spiritual leader, as a child.  I remember the first time I found a ladybug on a tree in Simi Valley.  I thought is was one of the best things, I talked the lady bug into walking onto my hand (submarine) and walked home with the lady bug, then placing it on another tree.  Lady bugs eat aphids.  Aphids that destroy roses, stem, leaf, plant and all.  Lady bugs destroy aphids.  Rain drops on roses, whiskers on kittens, these song lyrics are more than cute.

Heinrich Harrer’s character in the movie Seven Years in Tibet is a real person, there is a man and a woman.  Just from me looking at the movie by memory.  The woman is the psycho lesbian I made on the plane in Munich.  The man could have actually been captured because of me, by following me.  It is also a warning.  Cherith is the child as a child she was already a leader, and spiritual, religious, as a child.

Annie Farrell’s character in the movie Collateral, is this really the character’s name or did they change it after the fact because I brain-spoke to the real director of the movie at work?  If it really is the character’s name from the script, Farrell, this makes me sad…Farrell is an ice cream parlor from Oregon.  I went to a birthday party with kids my age to Farrell’s ice cream parlor and they ordered one of those huge bowls with every flavor of ice cream.  Every child ate from the dish.  I got sick.  They told me I had an allergic reaction to chocolate.  They put me on ampicillin (Amp), whatever they gave me was not ampicillin, I do not believe, I started having trouble breathing.  It has been listed on everything that I am allergic to ampicillin.

There was a doctor in Plant City, ear infection, who when speaking to me tried to persuade me into believing I was and am not really allergic to ampicillin because I was a child.  I have always questioned him and his motives.

They could not breathe from the movie Thunderheart, looks like the showers during WWII.  The gas chamber, gas, oil, Jewish people, Holocaust, Cherith in Dachau, Germany.  This is the question people should be asking, why is someone interested in diminishing the populations of persons in African countries?  It is not about resources, or infrastructure, or governments, those are all solvable problems.  So, why has there been such a reduction of populations within African countries?  Anyone really looked at this?

It says to me countries, countries within the continent of Africa, need help, in that they need to go to the UN, they need to go to the Summit’s, they need to go to the US, they need to do the work themselves, and not the other way around.  These are also capable people and persons; they are not children.  They need to recognize the danger and seek the help of other government’s before they all disappear.

Allergic reaction to chocolate, this still makes me sad, this would have been a message to me that the man who was in the store with my mother and me when I chose the Whatchamacallit candy bar, had died, had passed, was most likely, been killed.  This man who looked at my mother with adoration, as though he believed she was a good mother and liked her, had been killed only a few years after I was with him in the store.  He was a good man.

I would be Annie Farrell in the movie Collateral; however, make no mistake, the bet that takes place in the taxi about the “traffic” is between two other people.  The woman who admits she is wrong, ain’t me.  It would have been very obvious, very quickly that Cherith should have stayed in LA, in California.  It is a matter of Cherith working with intelligence vs. beat cop.

Make no mistake about this either, there is a lot of anger in that film, in the film Collateral.  That is my brain that helped to bring the greatest defeat to Al Qaeda, and it was taken away from the men who were trained and knew how to handle me – almost immediately.

Make no mistake that is not just our intelligence men and women who are angry that is bad guys, bad people who are still angry about it.  I see it.

Rough handling of Cherith still makes people angry.

Annie’s character that gets nervous before her court appearance is not about Cherith, I was never, not once nervous to take the stage.  Why would I be?

Her make-up looks off to me.  Anyone?  Too shimmery.  It makes me wonder why this was done, it looks purposeful.  When I worked at Dillard’s a woman who worked with me gave me a Gift With Purchase that was supposed to be for customers who purchased make-up.  This is something I would never have accepted or allowed before.

It makes me wonder.  I believe someone’s life was literally on the line had I not taken the eye shadow.  Someone would have died.  They let me walk out with it in my bag, it was not disguised.  It could be the only explanation.  It was a test, to show someone they knew who I was, and I knew how to save a person’s life.  Sometimes, there are situations that make a person go against regulations.  Would a GWP really be worth the cost of a man’s life?  Not to me.  Obviously.

Island Limos, the post card is just the rear-view mirror, a mirror.  Men tailing me, following me, looking at me in the rear-view mirror of a car.  Limos, Limo, is code, Li-lie, mo-Modus Operandi.  Limo – lies as their modus operandi, double-agent.

Vincent is code for a number, a Roman numeral.  Vincent, VIN, VIN number on a vehicle, a drop car.  Vincent’s monologue about LA being disconnected, about no one knowing or caring about each other, this is terrorist talk, this is one terrorist that is now dead, almost the rest of the movie Vincent is a terrorist.  Do you see it now in the dialogue, the terrorist talking about how his country is so much better than America, than LA?  I see it.

The handshake in the film looks real, was it edited in or was that a part of the original film.  That is a real handshake going against regulations and that is not me.

The man falling on the cab, the first dead body, that is my bedroom window in Gresham, Oregon.  It means I was helping intelligence when I was a teen-ager in Oregon just by watching the animals.  I had a Christmas cactus in my bedroom in Oregon, sometimes I placed it in the window sill.  That Christmas cactus was never happy to me, I tried everything to get it to bloom and grow, it just survived.  Nothing more.

Max’s clothing, his hoodie, do not follow this trail, it will lead you nowhere.  Max and Annie being black, African-American’s, what decade is this to you people?!  I see and hear people waiting to have me write about criminals and bad people and the metaphors, they’re just people.  What’s wrong with people being actors?  Nothing.  What’s wrong with people of various skin colors being actors?  Nothing.  There is no hidden meaning in the skin color of any of these actors, nor their national descent.  They fooled you, not me if you thought or believed otherwise.

Be aware, I am meant to interrupt people.  Men with training understand it is not a politeness manner that is deficient in Cherith.  When Cherith interrupts people it is because there is something else, she hears that she must tell people – immediately.  It is one way they’ve created maps, before.  Like a stop in a telegraph, or Morse code.

No longer the cleanest cab, this is not me, or about me.  The is the black man I worked with at WORSHIP that was from an African country.  He is skinny.  Keith Scott is skinny.  This black man from an African country, I see, was scared out of his mind.  This is the man that is referenced in Black Hawk Down.  It is pretty obvious he could not deal; he could not manage.

It is much more difficult than it appears, than I make it look.  If any person watched footage of me, then believed they could work with me based on what they saw, the real-life is really fucking real, and to make it appear as though nothing dramatic, frightening, terrible, or life-threatening has happened – takes real skill, and I have always had that.

When they told me at WORSHIP my brother was in a car accident – Boom.  No reaction from Cherith, nothing to read, none whatsoever.  It would have scared the living daylights out of men watching, especially if they were of a terrorist mind-set.  What’s wrong with that?  Nothing.

The police pulling over the taxi-cab is from my real life.  There was a white girl in her twenties, who worked with me at WORSHIP, she was driving us in her car one-night, we went to dinner or something menial like that, and we were pulled over by the cops.  I knew – immediately – we should not have been pulled over, as soon as I saw the lights.  I remember looking around because I was thinking, we should not be getting pulled over.  The driver looks like she was in on it, she expected it.  I was upset.

They police left pretty quickly after – looking at my face and reaction.  They must have had someone in custody that they needed my read on who this person really was.  I was upset.  We were not supposed to be pulled over.

This girl soon left WORSHIP and went to a Christian college or University in Tennessee.  I always found her behavior to be off.  Probably because she had a man speaking to her in her ear, so she would have appeared – out of place.  He probably really liked me; he probably really likes me still today.

Have I written this yet?  Monster’s Inc, door-to-door salesman like the Fuller Brush movie with William H. Macy.  I always liked Red Skelton, I talked about him to a male teacher of mine at Hollydale Elementary school.  How many kids have an appreciation for person’s like Red Skelton – as a child?

Monster’s Inc is about brain-research and scaring children turning them into monsters in and out of prison, get it?  This funny little girl stopped it from happening.  I liked the film so much I took my mother to see it at the theater in Plant City.  Sushi, Japan.  Silent screams, ice storms that bring down power lines, in winter, shutting off power, wood-burning stoves.

The reference to the mother calling all the time and being in the hospital in Collateral, is about me calling my mother when I was at work.  This is before I worked for Disney, me calling my mother from work was not a good sign.  When I worked at Tele-tech, I called my mother at every break, and every lunch break, I was that unhappy there.  Other temp jobs, if I called my mom, it meant I was unhappy there.  I am not sure people understood I was unhappy.  The hospital scene probably is in reference to my mother being in the hospital before I left for Boston and New York.

I was unhappy, that’s why I called her.  I’ve changed jobs because I am unhappy.  Normal response.

Did they edit the movie, or is there really a reference of hitting a deer in the original movie?  I am very protective of my family nick name.  My mother always used this name, so when people talked with my mother and they did not know my nick name it would be a point of conversation.  I did not like my mother using my name in front of other people who were not family.  It used to make me instantly upset, and angry.  This tells me my name has been used in missions, most likely military missions, more than once.  I have not de-classified myself or my work, you people have with this “show.”

Cheri, five letter’s long, Cheri, pronounced, Chair-ah, Chair, a.  Cheri is not cherry, and it means dear.  Five is referenced too often for me not to write about it anymore.  It makes me sick to have to write, though, sick.  Upset sick.

The coyote in the movie, looks to me like intelligence really cannot believe how these most wanted men follow after Cherith.  Did you just see what popped up on my screen?  Did you just see who popped up?  They are following Cherith.

When I went to the Inauguration 2012, we took the Metro from the Dulles airport to the hotel.  They made sure to tell me I was spotted, a blonde man “looked” at me as I got on the Metro.  Everything was working, trams were working, then I got underground and – everything stopped.  We waited for nearly two hours before the Metro started working again.

This looks unbelievable even for an Inauguration.  It was the middle of the afternoon.  So, what actually happened?  Because I remember people speaking to me while we were waiting in line underground, trying to figure me out, trying to figure what went wrong, and all I did was tell them it was ok.  So, who followed me?  I was dressed, sharp.  Who did they get?  Most likely, they would have picked him up on surface streets.

When I worked on the Obama campaign I ate, ordered take-out more than once at a Mexican restaurant that was literally around the corner from the office, trailer I worked out of.  So how much intel did you people get from that alone?

If people were given photographs of me from that time, it would have been so good.  I was dressed as I should be, in dresses, professional, cute, sharp, sexy, better dressed than anyone in the office, or who showed up.  I was better dressed.  I was not in sweats and a slumpy t-shirt, it would have said, 007 agent to people, I am sure.  How much less difficult did I make the local FBI offices job during those months?

Did I really get the job at The Container Store, taking the call on the stair-well in the Embassy Suites I was staying at in Maryland because of who you got when they followed me?

Buffalo gal won’t you come out tonight, come out tonight, from the movie It’s a Wonderful Life, do you know the floor opening up during the dance, is the parting of the red sea, and them falling into the pool, is baptism?  It’s probably – during its time – about Abraham Lincoln and his wife, Mary Todd Lincoln.

Dances With Wolves, Buffalo gal won’t you come out tonight, get it?  To be seen in Washington, D.C.

Lenny from the movie Collateral, again, has a reference to the Laverne and Shirley show, this reference is so old, any leads there would be dead.

Stealing the wallet, do not follow this lead, it is also a dead end.

Just wanting to “being around the music” that’s about me, the opening sequence, down shot of the vehicles, that’s about people wanting to work with Cherith.  Actors have said this in interviews, why did you choose to work on this film, this character, this movie, their response, happened a lot, I wanted to work with this actor, this director, and so on.  It is the same for people in intelligence, wanting to work with me.  How many people brain-speak?  I see many people and agencies from around the world just wanting to be involved in such work.

Did that Irishman really go to, probably, local FBI in Ireland because I wrote about terrorists wanting to be “made” by me to get infamous?  And, how that made more sense to them than any religious reason?  Good.  Looks like they will be able to do work there.

That’s me as the jazz man, that’s why he is overweight.  When I moved back into my family’s home, I’ve already written this, I became overweight trying to decipher everything around me.  It made many people angry, to see me after what happened in LA.  To see what they did to me.  To see this sharp mind reduced, to not very clever in some people’s minds.

I told people, what happened in LA was near the kitchen, it is in the movie Collateral as well.  If anyone thought there was a connection between The Matrix and Collateral, they are wrong.  I see so many people upset by the discrepancies in The Matrix, it has caused a lot of problems.

Outcome, from the movie The Bourne Legacy, the loss couldn’t be quantified, that’s me.  I am the loss.  I am the loss of such intelligence it has not been quantified.  It happened almost immediately, upon my return to Florida.  I left a note in the middle of the night while my family was not at home, and left with my boyfriend, fiancé.  The person using my boyfriend made a very serious mistake.  The loss has not been quantified.

Someone wanted it to appear as though, I never existed.  Cherith never did work, Cherith never helped, she turned into mush, she dies, I see it in their mind over and over.

The headshot of the Jazz man, was he shot three times?  Three wise men.  These look like unconfirmed to me.  As in, you break it, you bought it.  You break Cherith, you hurt Cherith, you cause distress to Cherith, you die.  Simple as that.

The briefcase you live out of, is just a brain, Cherith’s brain.

Do you know what this looks like?  The nightclub scene in Collateral, this looks like my 8th grade school dance.  My mother was supposedly there, I never saw her, other kids told me she was there.  They would have had someone in the back portion, behind where the dance was held somehow connected to a night club in LA.  I swore like a mother-fucker during the dance.  If they read it correctly, it was a bad man is near-by sign.

Cherith’s brain goes to the biggest threat – first.

The sequence in the building with a man wanting to kill Annie, is about me living in St. Petersburg, Florida, and being woken up in the middle of the night.  Maybe you’re in the wrong meeting, from the movie The Bourne Legacy, these are psycho, local police, cops, willing and allowed bad men to try and kill me.  Psycho cops.

They knocked on our back-door first.  My boyfriend told me to answer the door, I wouldn’t, I didn’t even get out of bed.  They tried to sound like the police banging on a door, I said to him if it is the police, why didn’t they use the front door.  After nearly five minutes of banging on the back door they went to the front door and started banging on the door.  I did not call 911, the thought never entered my mind.  The phones would have been tapped, and they would not have gone to the real 911, the movie, The Call.  They were probably banging on the doors almost fifteen minutes before they left.

When I woke up in the morning my boyfriend told me to use the payphone down the street to report it to the police.  The “police” told me if they were cops, they would have left – a business card.  He was always on about anonymous, not having anything going back to names and addresses, like anonymously reporting a car fire on our way to work Judgement.

Why someone would go to such trouble as to set a car on fire for me to see tells me they were in trouble and they did not know what to do and this was not local PD, they needed my voice, someone needed confirmation that I was alive, and that is why I booked the job as the court reporter in a trial against – pedophiles, priests abusing boys in the Catholic church.

The fact that I must write this is more than disappointing to me, all the beer in my fridge has been turned into non-alcoholic beer full of caffeine to make me stay awake, it is not clever at all.  My coffee creamer they turned into blubber belly; these things happen repeatedly.  I am beyond in my disgust.

I hear this in my home, that David is not happy that I did not finish writing this yesterday.  This has taken me more than five hours to write, and David wants me to feel as though I did not do enough work yesterday.

I do not love David anymore.  A heart breaks only so many times, feelings are hurt only so many times, they do not go back together anymore.  They’ve placed David on a string, dangling him in front of me since I’ve met him.  As if to say, did you want David, here he is, you can’t have him, over and over.  I’ve stopped loving David.  He is no longer the man I once saw in him.  He has hurt me too many times.

David has never been my teacher.  David, if what I see is true, was supposed to be a proxy for the real Hannibal Lecter, what a mistake.  It really doesn’t take a genius to know the real Hannibal Lecter would not fall for such a fallacy.

I shook David’s hands after he got off the phone at Home Depot, and a woman walked in backwards saying, So, not a leader with a shirt that had Sherwin-Williams paint on it.  I despise David for the way they’ve used him with me.  You cannot undue work I actually did, and I was actually honored for my work at college, as a leader.

They way David looks to me now he appears as though he wished he had never done it or been a part of it at all.  He did not want to use virtual reality and he did not want to shake my hands.

He looks as though he believed I was terrified or scared of him, to approach him, or talk to him, and that has never been true.  He wrote to me that he didn’t want to talk to me, I respected him wishes and never approached him when I saw him.  Had he not been disguised as my supervisor; I wouldn’t have approached him at Home Depot.

We’re talking about decades of deception, those years do not get forgotten, or undone.

I don’t love David anymore.  Hurt like that doesn’t just mend.

I see your upper lip.  I see the real Hannibal Lecter’s upper lip.  I saw his back to, his six, covered with mental wounds someone has placed on him.  I gave him kisses, on the wounds.  I kissed the wounds.

I wonder if he has been able to work on that himself and discovered all the people that did that to him.

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