AUTHORIZED ACCESS ONLY!
May 24, 2019
I’ll just have your lighter.
I don’t smoke.
No, I know you don’t, but your employer does, this dialogue from Sherlock is a little disconcerting. I really did go to my doctor, a woman, and tell her about previous smoking habits of mine during a women’s wellness visit. She looked shocked, surprised, and in so many words told me it didn’t matter and didn’t write it down. This would have been after I graduated from college before quitting from Disney.
It makes it appear that my woman’s wellness visit was – again – spied upon with hidden cameras. It makes it appear that it was done from within an agency level. That is rather disturbing. Would anyone else like to go to their doctor or anywhere knowing it is possible that your own countrymen or countrywomen are spying on you, using government money to do so, for their own personal reasons, vendettas, directives? In America? The land of the free, the home of the brave, spied upon from within?
Probably most specifically because Cherith did and is most capable of destroying terrorists’ networks, plans, all of it, in its entirety. Completely. I happen to think I am more than excellent at it. But, you people by my sheer size and weight alone think it is more important to protect terrorists and criminals than – me.
Worse is having an actress who had a role on television as a Russian double-agent disguised as my real doctor when I was working for Disney, the second time, or the “fake-time,” reality television time. Worse – again – why am I the one having to write about it after the fact? After the damage has been done, after irreparable harm has happened?
Why am I the one constantly having to write about my own achievements? Then, once learning and discovering the truth of the matter instead of giving me the credit, giving me any amount or semblance of acknowledgement, praise, a pay raise, the ability to live on my own, have a life of my own, what you do instead is test it endlessly until I go numb and mind-dead. I think you people are atrocious.
Why has no one in all the work I’ve done for this country ever done anything to safeguard, protect in the smallest way, me, my family, or my body?
It’s again, using a legitimate person like my doctor and doing something so subversive, criminal, insane, to try and place blame on the legitimate person, and not the criminal.
Why is it someone was able to enter my home while I was away and steal my Amazon peak t-shirt that was given to me after the second peak? Why am I the one having to write about it?
I am most unhappy.
They put facial hair growth in the tomatoes I received from Amazon. I find that revolting. I am more than upset. I am really sick and tired of the excessive facial hair.
I am more than unhappy.
I have no stability whatsoever in this life, most specifically in my employment. Every week dangling me on a thread pertaining to my employment? I have no means to plan for the future. For instance, repairs that need to be made in my home I have not done because I have no stability of any kind, whatsoever. None. That’s years and years of nothing, but instability. In part because it is for a reality television show that has no end date, no timeline, is not real. I do not have the means to control some of the smallest things such as my own finances. There is no reason whatsoever that I do not have employment and a job where I would be able to live on my own. None. I have decades of experiences. Grow up, I am not a teen-ager living in my parents’ home anymore before I go off to college. Get it?
I am most disgusted and unhappy with my body.
I am a failure.
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