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May 26, 2019
I failed to lose weight. I failed to lose weight – again. Another failure. I have failed 100% again. I wrote about the military man they were using in the building as – meat. Placing money on him throughout the world and seeing him through the cameras as meat to buy. Rather than correct the problem, they placed it on me and many other people in the building. I am the prime target, the most valuable prize, and it appears that money is being used in a fantasy murder group of prisoners in prison for murder. I am being seen as body parts to dissect and kill.
My stomach being the most valuable, then my thighs, buttocks, and arms in that order. These are people who want to hurt and kill me, and you’ve allowed it to be delivered to me here. They want me dead and you’ve allowed them to live their fantasy by watching me suffer under this excess weight. My former neighbor is included with excess weight, so there could be a protection problem for him since there was a woman used to give me items.
My mother when she was placed in the nursing home within a few months put on close to forty pounds. That did not happen while I cared for her, she did not lose weight either. There was no reason for the excess weight. The last time I saw my mother was at the dentist’s office, she was wearing a purple shirt that did not belong to her. She is dead now. I failed to protect her and care for her. I should never have trusted people to care for her. It appears I should never have trusted my brother either.
About A Boy, the movie, tells me Will Freeman’s character was a least someone’s plan for me. Will Freeman being a person who was so successful from one song that he was able to live off of the money for the rest of his life. That was supposed to be me. I was the person who was so successful, you had people in intelligence that were making plans to have me inherit money or come into money in some way. They were going to legally allow me to inherit money, so that I wouldn’t have to work a regular job, and most likely, I would have also married an intelligence man that would also provide a life for me in that way and manner as well.
My success in About A Boy, was not in California, it was in Germany. What I did and how people saw me was so impactful they wanted me to keep my brain – functioning, by not working. I would have worked with intelligence in other ways. They would have brought the people to me somewhat how they brought people to me over the phone when I’ve worked call center jobs before. But they wanted me to be seen at a level fitting my capabilities. So, when I spoke with people, for instance, from Buckingham Palace, I was not seen as a convenience store clerk. Some hourly wage employee, but a person that had the ability to be seen in a room in a place such as Buckingham Palace.
Judging by David’s actions over these years it appears to me, he has never been able to understand the person I am. He appears to be the man not with the brain-thinking like I have, and there would have been no problem with me being or dating him, or a man that was not a brain-thinker. If he has made all these Home Alone references to the movie, Home Alone, and it being about me enjoying being an overweight person, then he has never understood who I am.
The movie, Home Alone, tells me that I was being used by people as a child to catch and capture criminals. I have written about this a lot. It has nothing to do with obesity, being fat and heavy. It makes David appear mean, jealous, vindictive, mean-spirited, ugly and unkind. If I was a manager or in charge over his life, I would never treat him the way he has treated me. I would want him to be successful, and not a failure.
Coventry all over again, from Sherlock is code. Coventry, meaning coven, meaning a group of persons shrouded in secrecy, that is something a double agent does shrouds themselves in secrecy to subvert. It is the reason Sherlock Holmes is in the backseat of the vehicle this is my mother and I on our way from Munich airport to our hotel, and the man they used who followed us from behind liked both my mother and I a lot – instantly. The problem is the same as it has always been, they and no one has provided a way for me, my family, and my mother a way to live.
My mother and I stayed in a home, not an official Bed and Breakfast, she spoke to somewhere when we were stopped somewhere and asked about a place to stay, and we stayed in someone’s home in Prien, Germany. We had breakfast in their attic that was set-up like a little living room. My mother and I had breakfast and watched German television. I didn’t want to leave. It felt good to be there. It felt good not because we were being watching through the television by another intelligence man, it felt good because he was working while watching us. He would have been looking at his own screens, working the area, working intelligence, and I was enjoying it, working along with him. He spoke to us, my mother and I in the candy shop in Prien. And, my mother was having the most fun having a conversation. I was getting bothered and antsy only because I saw they were working, and I wanted to – go.
Look, I made a mistake, from Sherlock, that is about David and myself in college. The World Trade Center in 2001, the September 11th attacks is the evidence of that mistake. You have terrorists who have more manners by wanting me to have a better life than the life intelligence has provided or allowed me to have in Florida. And, most likely, they – terrorists responsible for September 11, 2001 – wanted to make sure the President was not harmed, and the attack not seen as an attack on the Presidency rather policy, and intelligence. That’s pretty bad, if true. The President was placed near me on that day, on purpose, to keep The White House, the Presidency – safe.
I gave advice on how to play the Holmes boys, from Sherlock, is about me and campaign strategy. When it was Hillary Clinton running against Barack Obama, I saw that Barack Obama was the candidate and Hillary Clinton needed to be included and not beaten by Barack Obama. I thought to myself and spoke about it to people that Hillary Clinton should be given another job, and there was a Hillary that was involved in my theater group in college.
I gave advise – stop – on how to play – stop – the homes, not Holmes, homes meaning houses, meaning governments – stop – boys, meaning men who were still treating me as a child and inferior to them while they took my thinking and logic and used it as their own.
Your through now junior, from Sherlock is me placing David completely out of my mind before he went to University, or I would have spoken to him as though I knew he was the David I knew when he called me so many times when I worked at Disney. He called a lot. Either he was paid to do so, or he missed me. I previously thought I was good for him. Good for his brain like I am good for the real Hannibal Lecter who really wants to take me to dinner, date me, get to know me as a person, face to face, for real because he desires this relationship to be truthful, real, more than a façade.
He has learned a lot very quickly, and from what I saw last night, he is better at it than anyone they’ve used before. He is a smart man. He is better at it and he knows there are fatal flaws, errors, errors in judgement in the process of this life and show. He is correct, in my opinion, it is what I have said since I’ve been aware people were not just actors, but in disguise to play a role for reality televisions.
I look more like my aunt Mildred, from the movie, Love Actually references my mother’s email account. My mother had an email account with the name of her horse in Canada, Marie, I do not have this photograph any longer it has been stolen from my home, my mother was a child riding without a saddle, and her relative’s name, Mildred. I have a photograph of them, Mildred and her husband, Sid, sitting in their living room, smoking. They lived in Eastern Canada. I do not know when they died.
Why is that this man I saw last night made to appear like a JJ profile looks guilty, very guilty, culpable, and guilty, as though he knew all along?
I had to remove my ladybug shield because it was placed in my garage, it was placed by illegal entry. I did not find it outside, someone illegally entered my home, I removed it. It was not a correct thing to do.
I’m only returning your coat, from Sherlock really did happen to me in college. A woman I went to school with borrowed my coat, I had to ask for it back. She, it appears, had no intention of returning it. Similar to the coat in the photograph on Norton manager.
It appears that my life and lack of men and dating has only been used for a woman’s therapy, a woman who to me appears to have mental problems that will never go away, they have used her at agency work, she is unstable, and they’ve used me as her therapy. At the cost and expense of my own life, a life without any love at all.
He is heart-sick for me. He wants to date me.
I do not want to work anymore, and I do not know what to do about that. I don’t want to work anymore. I failed to protect my mother. I failed to keep my mother alive. I don’t want to work anymore. I feel abused, mistreated, lied to for profit, and I feel broken beyond repair. I don’t want to work anymore.
I failed to lose weight.
I am failed my mother.
I am a failure.
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