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May 31, 2019
I am really sick and tired of all the mixed messages I get around here and at work. Really sick and tired of it. Fucking angry at having to wade through other people’s bullshit and dramas just to make them feel better. I’m really sick and tired of it.
Listen up! I have a boyfriend. I have a boyfriend if it is in my mind alone. I have a boyfriend and he is committed to me; he is not sleeping with other women. He is not married. He only has eyes for me. He is only interested in me, and that is one reason he is my boyfriend. I no longer have to reference him by writing the real Hannibal Lecter, he is my boyfriend. The real Hannibal Lecter is my boyfriend. You will receive intel from this paragraph alone that will go on for a while.
Quite honestly, David needs to see me in a committed relationship with a man I love and who loves me and see me happy. He’s been lied to. He needs to see me happy with another man because he also has been lied to.
The last thing I need is a public image from Sherlock is referencing my employment at WORSHIP, it was televised, then my brother was in his car accident, and the World Trade Center was bombed again. It makes it appear that people believed it was deemed too risky to have me on television, so accessible because they still did not quite understand the intel they were receiving.
In my mind, my pen was still at home. My stylus pen was still at home. It is one reason; I do not change. I do not change things around, so that I do not forget. It is one of the things you people have taken away from me by calling it a television show, and I am being “directed.” When all it is doing is showing a false version of the real me.
Realize that the scene in The Matrix of Morpheus being rescued by helicopter is me, Cherith rescuing a POW, he would have been a very high commander in the military during the Vietnam war. Cherith rescued a grown man whilst still a child.
We are not a couple from the Sherlock means people were believing that how I was being used in intelligence was preventing me from getting married and having relationships in my real life, and they did not want or wish to see me unhappy in this way.
She got in touch from Sherlock just means that since the time I went to the office building just like in The Matrix and told people how to destroy brain-research there has been at least one woman who has been black-mailing people with and for information. Black mail is not the only word, it has been a way to extract information because no one has had the balls to say, tell, and give me the true meaning and definition of my work and employment. Therefore, leaving it open to black mail people for the information and worse.
I want don’t want you to help, I want you safe from the movie, Up is both myself and another intelligence handler not wanting my brother to help with my work. It does not mean that neither of us didn’t think a lot about my brother it just means there is more that is involved that can be explained in so many words. It is mostly instinct.
For instance, in the movie, Love Actually when Mark is at the wedding and the dialogue involves the word, gay, this is about my brother. This is another admirer of me using my brother to read my mood by looking at my brother. My brother may or may not remember all the people because they probably disguised themselves. Most this was done when my brother was at the University of South Florida.
You should receive intel from these purchases: Michelob Ultra cans, Corona Extra cans, falafel burger – as this was a black US military man that gave me a falafel mix when I worked at Dillard’s he would have had no idea or understood the reason he was asked to do so. You will find this goes back to a powerful family, well-connected, diligent, not deceptive, and there is a connection to me when I lived in Gresham, Oregon. That is another foothold, I am giving you. Dark horse rose can, you will find, and it will surprise what and who is connected to that purchase. Yuengling cans, he needs to be removed, he is only around to upset me, make me angry, he has no concept of what real love is and feels like – none. The cold coffee cans are only for the color, she is ended in my mind. I do not deal with double agents. It is one reason I work so well in the Middle East, in that region, and with persons of other faiths. Art beer cans, you will find something from this also.
Did my father really receive a phone call congratulating him on having an excellent daughter?
Read her masthead from Sherlock, most people should get this by now. Read her, mast – sail, another word for military, head. Read her head, she is telling you to pay her, to pay me. Why else do you think Jason Bourne from the movie, Bourne Identity, has so much money in a safe deposit box bank in Germany? Do you not understand what private citizens were doing by wanting to set me up financially stable and independent? Do you think they were doing this – just for me? This person knew, these people knew, I was going to be worked, it was a gift they were going to give to the United States, to United State military, to the United States government, and to the United States intelligence, and people prevented it – just for the other side to have a better advantage, and guess what happened? 9/11.
There could be code in the term, 9/11. It could reference 9, my birth month, intelligence given to me, 1 being me, and another 1 being, most likely, E.
You people really need to understand the consequences of doing things like asking me to change the Guardian sign, or change my screen images, or change my driving route, or nearly any request you people have asked of me since 2014. What you are doing and showing people by doing so, is telling the whole world that I, Cherith Joelle Gjestland must take responsibility and bear the burden of harm done to me by others.
Not that the persons and people who have done the harm to me have to take responsibility, you are showing people, I am responsible for people balding me, facial hair on me, weight gain on me, crimes criminals have done, the real criminals are not being dealt with as responsible for their own actions. You are grossly, misinformed upon me.
I read the map. It was an impossible mission that inspired the movie 12 Strong. Impossible. From what they showed me, and the places they encountered trouble, they would have had to retreat, and they would not have made it out alive. None of them.
They made it across. They made it, and they made it across because of me. All of them, everyone of them would have died, there, in a foreign country. But I got them out – safe.
So, I am really sick and tired of being treated like a nothing at my employment. I am really tired of it. I am really unhappy there. And, I am tired of pussyfooting around other people’s feelings whilst I have to live without my mother, without any human contact, without any personal friendships, without a normal, real life anymore. I am fucking sick of it. Sick of pussyfooting around other people’s emotions and feelings while no one shows any regard for my own.
And I am sick of working a nightshift! You don’t support me in my employment, and I am sick of it!
If you people because you’ve had a security cameras job, or been supervisors in my employment and seen the intelligence men who work me (that people were not supposed to discuss) while I am working in my employment and thought you understood what was going on and why and what people were talking to me about – you’ve been wrong.
And imaginative range from Sherlock is about finding my mother on the floor with a stroke while working for Disney, so somehow, someone wanted to implicate Disney, family, and family values, and my homosexual brother.
I protect my brother just by being alive, and probably when I die, if he is still alive, I would still protect him because of who I am. There is nothing that can take away a family connection, not even death. So, if you think I will be rearranging my garage, you can fuck off. I won’t. I am done changing things as simple as how I park my car when it has no real intelligence attached to it.
I’ll just have your lighter from Sherlock, that’s me, showing people, I know who you are, I am Sherlock, I will find you, I will destroy you, I will get you, I know you.
I know you don’t smoke, but your employer does from Sherlock that’s me showing people David was not my handler, and he worked for me. It is one reason people wanted me to be financially independent, they wanted me seen as the person who was waited upon and not the person behind the counter waiting on others. How else is it that these people work? It is about culture.
Smoke, smoking, cigarettes, mostly this is just code, smoke can also be fog, pertaining to London, it can also mean memory-loss, and non-workable.
Despised her in the end from Sherlock is about David. He despised her in the end, won’t even call her by her name. It reads, David despised Cherith when he went to University, he won’t even call her. David had all my personal contact information. He had my personal phone number, my email, he knew where I lived, and he chose not to call me himself. He called me at work, whereas a professional I would not speak to him personally. He despised me, and I am tired of living this lie for you people.
12 Strong looks like it happened after I travelled to Australia during summer break from school before the attacks on September 11th, 2001. When I was in school, I knew something was wrong, after the attacks while performing in my theater classes and in ASL classes, it presented itself as nervousness when I knew that was neither true or correct. It is simply because I could not believe I am such an important person.
When I say run, you run from Sherlock is also me saving my brother’s life, more than once, it is many people’s lives, I’ve saved.
I am really sick and tired of having to worry about my employment. Being made to be fearful of whether or not I will have a job or employment – anymore. I am over it, anymore.
He told me in HR that I enjoyed upsetting people because of all the complaints they’ve received in HR. It is a lie. I am done being made to fear – writing the truth.
I like brains, I like military brains, it is obvious.
I am tired of voluntary time, of unpaid worked time. I am done writing for today. You people need me so much, yet you do not provide a way to keep me financially stable. You over-work me and it is obvious.
I am applying to nearly every job and employment that comes across my computer because I am so unhappy. Do not read anything more into it. Since it does not exist.
They wanted dramatic weight-loss on me, to see on me. That is what they wanted to see, not one pound at a time, they wanted me to be seen as I used to be. It was actually important enough to them, they started fighting for it. You still don’t understand who I am to them. They wanted me back to the weight I was about a year ago. It was important enough they started fighting. Are you paying attention, yet?
You don’t understand how it is they see me just because I am a woman. That’s dumb on you people. I am more important to them than you’ve understood. It’s personal.
Do you think they started a war for religious reasons? No. It’s personal. Pay attention. I am giving this to intelligence. I am giving it away, freely. Respect. Of course.
I have a boyfriend. He is committed to me. He wants me. He wants to be the best man he can be because he loves me.
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 