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July 4, 2019
Here you are again making the same mistakes, again. After Community College, I was going to go on to complete my bachelor’s degree at the University of South Florida, in theater. Do you know what program they have at the University of South Florida? In theater? A British program, in the Spring. This is California, all over again, and you denied me access to it, for what reason? Again? Scheduling. Scheduling conflict.
I had enrolled at the university with a student counselor whose name was Merry, like Christmas, and I could not manage or afford it in the Fall semester. Ironically, I was in the student counselor’s office with a student I had gone to community college with, and I still remember her email address, rainbowspice420@. I remember it because it is in an opposite or in opposition to my email that meant, without fear and unwavering faith.
I got another job during that Fall semester, in December at Disney, I had planned to take off a year to try and save money for college to go back. When I got to Disney, they did not allow any flexibility for students in their schedules. I always felt it was a mistake. Why wouldn’t a company like Disney want employees to go to school, have degrees, when they would only continue to work within the company, after their degrees were completed?
What did I accomplish at Community College that would have only continued had I been allowed something as simple as a work schedule? Here you are doing it all over again.
Whose brain matters more? Whose mind and brain is of the utmost concern? How many times must I write the effect overnights have on my mind and brain? I am – again – beyond upset.
This is the pattern you play at work, the first day of the week we get Cherith a little bit mad, then the next day we make her angrier, then angrier again, and then angrier again, until, Cherith feels nothing anymore. Do you not understand the importance of a reader to be able to feel?
Here I am, been up for hours, and really nothing has been done, little chores have been asked of me and it has taken hours. I work seven days a week, with no time off to relax, or repair my mind, or allow my mind – to think. What the hell do you think you are doing?
I give you everything I have every day to other people and get nothing in return for it. Not really.
You have a problem, you cannot manage because you’ve created a reaction that is beyond your control, you should not be surprised.
I miss my mother something terrible.
Worse, I miss my cats Tuesday and Thursday in a way that is beyond grief. This tells me something terrible happened when you allowed my cats to be taken from me, and you’ve placed blame on my brother where it doesn’t belong. I am concerned there aren’t intelligence men being held hostage just because – you’ve taken my cats from me. You’ve implicated a black woman, a gay white woman documentarian in the process. It is of extreme concern to me.
I know there is a threat. You have shown me very little, other than so far; he is unwilling to work with the United States and her allies. I’ve seen he wants recognition, that is all. That is not very much. What do you honestly, want me to write when you’ve given me so little to write?
From what I’ve seen I would bomb the shit out of this motherfucker until he cannot see the light of day. However, in all truthfulness, I believe I have not been given enough information. Information about him, location, and his person other than he is not telling the truth to people about compliance. So, that is why I would bomb the shit of out this asshole until he realizes, I am who I am.
The day is not yet done, so that is all for now.
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 