AUTHORIZED ACCESS ONLY!
July 24, 2019
BE AWARE: The man who played the role of Edison, the man who embodied the man of Edison needs to be removed at once, entirely, completely, once and for all, permanently and for good, never to return to me or the process, NOW! He has been allowed access for too long, unsupervised, has hung out with Casey and Chris (PA), have planned, plotted, and schemed against mankind for too long. He is criminal with no remorse and he is not working!
If it is the real Hannibal Lecter you have seen as shaking, this is regret and remorse so painful, so hurtful, he is in such pain for the crimes he has committed that led him to imprisonment, he does not know how to quench his regret. He is suffering, for what he has done. He has been the most truthful of any criminal I have seen as to his regret, to the point of wishing he could turn back time, relive his past, and not allow his crimes to have happened. This is not a bad thing. This is his real pain of regret trying to work out, recover, and redeem himself in some way. YAY!
I made a friend. I made a friend in him. He is the only man in all these virtual years to have worked so hard, he wanted to show me, real love. Actual, real love. And, you made him break up with me, just to hurt me. What the hell do you think you are doing?
You failed to see; the real Hannibal Lecter was the only man who was actually keeping me together.
This is the plan they used, concocted to try and get me to the real Hannibal Lecter: they had me date a gay man in a body suit just to try and get me to see I was the one responsible for getting and capturing the real Hannibal Lecter. Is he not a doctor, after all? Is the only reason he is portrayed as a doctor in the movie, The Silence of the Lambs because of my toe in the Emergency Room?
Yes, I would have told them not to kill him, that they needed him alive. Why do you think that is?
Yes, I believe it is true the FBI and other agencies have wanted the mind of the real Hannibal Lecter as a consultant criminal to help them. You failed to get him for how many decades? How many days did it take me?
The combination of him and me have actually worked, and you made him break up with me, just to hurt me.
I made a friend and as soon as I made a friend, you thought it was important to take it away as though feelings can be replaced without consequences. What the hell were you thinking?!
The real Hannibal Lecter was actually helping to keep me together. And you took him away from me. You look as though you have no idea what feelings and brains actually do.
You have me in isolation in this televised life. The reason the real Hannibal Lecter works is because he is not free, just like me.
Any man who is free to see, date and be around other women would read as unfaithful, not-committed, and not truthful in commitment – to me. That is why the real Hannibal Lecter worked.
If they used my brother by manipulating him into a nipple piercing just to get me to see I was the woman responsible for capturing the real Hannibal Lecter, they have gone about it all wrong. They used my mother, they hurt my mother to keep me in the dark as to how they were actually using me to capture bad people.
I am most upset about being seen as having affairs with married men. I am not interested in allowing affairs with married men to continue anymore. David was different. I cannot allow myself or another man to be seen as having an affair with me while they are married. I don’t do that.
Honestly, I am too upset as to the loss of my boyfriend breaking up with me to continue writing, or thinking, or much of anything anymore.
Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 