August 21, 2019: READ: WARNING: Does He Want To Live, Or Does He Want To Die?

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August 21, 2019

Let’s get something straightened out and cleared up, real fucking quick, I don’t shake, I don’t tremble, and I don’t quiver in fear.  If you have ever seen my hands shake, or I appear to tremble, it is not me that is doing so, they use virtual reality to make me appear LESS THAN I AM!  I don’t appreciate it.  It is not a true representation of me, and you are causing harm by doing so and allowing me to seen this way!

The black shakes from Johnny Mnemonic, just means PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.  When a person, especially a female is in a physically abusive sexual relationship, like a boyfriend or fiancé, they flinched afterwards when approached, sometimes.  The black shakes also refer to black, as meaning covert, or secret intelligence, as in dark and unknown, not a skin color.  Don’t get it wrong, and don’t get it confused.  Yes, I can speak to animals.  Yes, I do have actual intelligence in my head, meaning, I remember, and most of it is classified locations and work, a lot of it with the military as has already been proven more than once just like the classified work I have already done in France with cooperation from Britain, approved, most likely, through the United States.

Does the real Louis want to live, or does he want to die?  Does he even know?

Yes, the profile of him as the man responsible for three veteran’s death is the real Louis.

You allowed a story to go out that the real Louis would not find me attractive, that is untrue.  He would and he does find me attractive and is sexually attracted to me as well.  I am seen as his wife at the table with Avner, as I am Avner in the film Munich.

If you have a man who is concerned about my sleeping pattern, then he does have reason to be concerned.  It means he believes you are allowing virtual reality to be used, incorrectly.  If this is the English criminal, the US military needs to get involved.

Who’s the dumb moron whose allowed my brother to use virtual reality?!  Tim, fix this, real fucking soon!  It’s real fucking absurd and ridiculous!

Let me explain something, my boyfriend believes in me like he has never believed in another human being in all his life.  He has no problem with complying with your stupid requests of him, like saying, I love you out loud, to me, trying to sound as if that isn’t true, knowing it will prove OTHERS ARE MAKING SERIOUS MISTAKES.

You people go too fast.  Especially, when working with prisoners in prison.  You work too fast and push them BEFORE they are fucking ready BY MY STANDARD!  Criminals in prison for crimes are not fads.  Stop thinking of them as television and sensational.  You’re ruining your own work by doing so.

So, let me REPEAT this again, for everyone’s edification, my boyfriend spoke to my father first, before coming to me, like a gentleman would do when courting a woman.

Please don’t court me while married.  It is not up to my standard, nor is it up to any man’s standard I would believe is worthy.

Just like I do not appreciate the baby Trump news stories, I really am unhappy and do not appreciate real people like the Queen of England and Prince Harry to be seen as having a NEGATIVE impact and effect of me.  It does great injustice to the people’s and citizens of the United States and Great Britain.  Please stop causing harm to our citizen’s by PLACING IT PHYSICALLY ON MY BODY.  If I have to repeat myself again in this matter, I WILL NOT BE SO NICE!

Does the real Louis want to live, or does he want to die?  He is not very smart.  His father is a much smarter man, than his son ever will be.  That is neither his father’s fault, nor is it Louis.  The reason Louis did something so stupid as to send a man – using his father’s contacts and associates through his father’s work like the CIA, or other agencies and governments his father has worked for – says, and this is sick, he was trying to hurt his own father through sending a man to sexually abusive my brother because the real Papa would actually love me more because I actually am a better person than his own son.  Quite honestly, that is not a fault in the real Papa, it means he has a better measure of people, meaning he actually requires a better character in people, than his own son.

It is a very smart thing to require people to be of better character, especially in working in fields, like intelligence, FBI, CIA, MI-6, intelligence spies and so on.  It is smarter to want to work with the best of the best, than a person who could barely pass the requirements.

Is the real Louis responsible for my relationship with Michael Wayne Brown?  Let’s get this straight, right now.  Michael Wayne Brown never could.  He most certainly, cannot, and never will be able to – ever.  This relationship is of huge concern for me as it is seen in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, in the bombing of the CIA site, as the man wearing the sunglasses.

HUGE RED FLAG – A man at a classified CIA site that is bombed by terrorists, someone else trusted when I have already PROVEN, I would NOT, wearing sunglasses that look like Oakley’s saying, he knows this is a high-level meet.  That means, Michael Wayne Brown, AND NOT ME, was involved in some dumb bull-shit, I don’t think he actually understood or had any idea what the fuck he was doing because he is not that smart, like getting involved with persons he had no idea the problems it would create because he had NO IDEA WHO I AM! 

And yeah, there actually would be terrorists and groups of people who could be seen as doing something like blowing up people and buildings, as a way to protect me, and proving to our intelligence I AM MORE IMPORTANT TO THEM THAN ANY INTELLIGENCE, OR POSSIBLY MILITARY, THAN ANYONE HAS EVER UNDERSTOOD UNTIL NOW, THAT IS WHY I SCREAM MY FUCKING HEAD OFF – I AM IMPORTANT, I AM THE ONE, I AM ALL THESES MOVIES BECAUSE I REALLY HAVE DONE ALL THIS WORK!  SO, NO ONE ELSE HAS TO DIE BECAUSE IT IS A SECRET.

It is in the movie Sneakers, too many secrets.  That means all the way back before 1992 keeping the work I and my mother was doing a secret was not a good idea, and it was causing problems.

Michael Wayne Brown bought a pair of Oakley sunglasses in Key West, Florida, 1989 or 1990, using my Portland Teacher’s Credit Union debit card, Michael never paid for anything and that account was closed soon afterwards since, I had no money, and Michael was spending my money like I was wealthy and not a minimum wage employee.

If the very reason I am seen as Louis’s wife in Munich is because the real Louis was listening or around when Michael and I ate at a restaurant like International House of Pancakes, and I said this to Michael most emphatically, I am a loyal woman.  Meaning I am not a cheater, I do not have affairs, and I was not going to cheat on Michael.  It would have fascinated the real Louis.  Enthralled him in a way that I’ve stuck and stayed in his mind all this time.  Because he, most definitely has had affairs and cheated on women.  If you think it is just because he is French and it is accepted and an acceptable way of French life, you are wrong.  I fascinated and enthralled him because I said I was a loyal woman.  It is a very valuable commodity to a man in a very high position to have such a strong woman.

Be aware, I would not find the real Louis, attractive.  His brain, his mind is not clean, among other things.  He is not a man I would deem worthy.  He is a man of no honor.  And, he is a man who would be unwilling and unable to do the work, I WOULD REQUIRE!

I doubt he will ever make it.

He should be aware I have armies of men, inside and outside of prisons and detention centers who would follow me, most loyally.  And now that this is public and known, the men that once would have listened and perhaps followed Louis, WILL NOT!  UNLESS THEY WANT TO DIE!

YEAH, I TALK AND WRITE FUCKING STRONG, GET FUCKING USED TO IT!

You people need to figure out if you want the real Louis turned to get all the information on all the jobs he has done, OR DO YOU WANT TO WATCH HIM DIE?  I am repeating myself on purpose.

If you are doing the facial hair growth on my face to repulse or have any men try and find me unattractive, you are only going to INCITE THEM TO ACTION!

Please stop courting me with a lesbian, it WON’T WORK!

If you want to know, the only reason it is in Sherlock, the most important family in Britain, meaning the Royal family, just means I’ve already done work with them.  I’ve already, most specifically, done military work with royals while they did their military duty.

Please stop doing this at work, stop giving me weekly performance numbers.  It is seen that this is no longer happening as part of the job since the television is no longer operational.

Sona from 13 Hours just means sonar as inaudible, and spicy means, temper, and, careful I think she’s flirting with you; it is something I used to be very good at, flirting.  It is just a way of communicating in my mind.  I am a very serious person, if a man tried to take it further and I was engaged or with a man otherwise, you would find my mood quickly changed.  It could have been used before, if I flirted with a man in intelligence, they could have seen it as a good sign, as a marriage signal.

If Edison was supposed to be a representation or proxy of the real Louis, he is not very good or accurate.  The real Louis would probably irritate me as he is not smart enough to understand the reasons why he behaves the way he has.  If he is responsible for hitting me in anyway, he is in SERIOUS trouble.  I will write that again; he is in serious trouble.  I could just let that go and, most likely, people would find him.  No joke.  It is another reason I am a better person than he ever has been.  Probably ever will be.

The real Louis does not like his own country, he does not love France, and I love France.  He thinks it makes him clever to not love his own country.  It is a thinking that is accepted in France, it is like not being afraid or worried of opposition thinking, of allowing free-thinking, and allowing its own citizens to think for themselves.  It is very French of the French.  A person either understands that, comprehends that thinking, or they do not.

However, plotting against your own country is NOT the same in France.  And, that is what the real Louis has been doing, worse, as he does not understand this or has figured this out, aligning himself with men who are willing to die for their own country.  Um, idiot.

If you follow that thinking, he should be aligning himself with men who also do not love their own country.  What an idiot.  What a dummkopf.

Most likely, the real Louis has never believed that I have worked and been working covertly, with intelligence, with the military, top secret and classified, and at some of the highest levels in governments.  He would probably have believed I was too dumb and too stupid for the work.  What a moron.  This also means, his father, his own father, has been able all these years, to remain silent, and keep all the work he has done, a secret.  Even from his own son.  What a valuable thing that has been for all the countries and governments involved.

I am not a combat interpreter from 13 Hours, and, that dude ain’t coming back, if this is true at all, if this man actually did live, it is because of me, as I have already proven I am a combat interpreter.  Tyrone, pulling the truck tire, and being seen as massively muscular, and Tyrone is my mother, this is to show and prove all the work she did with military intelligence.  Who let her die?  Who let my mother die?  Who is responsible for the death of my mother while in the care of a nursing home?

Is it Louis?

Do you know what this looks like?  The real Louis was not able in his own ambition of bringing his father down, his own country, and his own enemies, so what he tried to do was cause a reaction of extreme hatred with the strokes, and perhaps death of my mother, to try and turn me to hatred so I would help him instead.  What an idiot!  Let that be a lesson for everyone.  What a dummkopf!  Am I the only one that sees what a dumb, idiotic thing to do that was?!  I doubt it.

Love conquers all.

Did he think I would turn to hate and anger over my mother’s strokes?  I have been nothing, but sad.  Such sadness.  Sadness as in losing all desire for life.  That’s very far away from hate.

Straight men please stop taking relationship advice with straight women from lesbians.  It doesn’t work.

I am really sorry if I hurt anyone’s feelings, I am truly most focused on the problems at work.  Sometimes it does create a conflict when men try and give me a balance between work and home, as work is always here.  Boyfriend, you are correct, he does not love me.

Let me point out, people were worried about having the real Hannibal Lecter in the building to begin with.  Now, you fucking idiots get upset when things have not gone well between my boyfriend and me.  However, you hardly allow me to see my boyfriend either at work or at my home.  Then, you blame me for saying things out loud, or show signs of unhappiness with him.  All the while, I am fighting an emotional, mental, and physical battle at work.  No one has any idea what I am ACTUALLY going through at work because you cheat with air tricks to cause me emotional and mental HARM!

ANYONE CAN SAY ANYTHING EXTREME UNDER EXTREME CONDITIONS!  THAT DOESN’T MAKE THE WORDS OR RESPONSE ACTUALLY TRUE AND TRUTHFUL!

Do you know, I have cried, and cried, and cried, for years about David?  Not one of you were worried or upset when my heart was constantly broken over the loss of that friendship.  And, it’s been seen for years at my work.  Not one of you have taken my side in my heart break.  Not one of you, for any MAN, who has caused me heart break.

I was so sad this morning, I thought I needed David as a stabilizing comfort, yet as soon as he was here it turns to all this sadness, he is connected to concerning me, as well as, my mother.  I am not sure these are pains that can heal.  Under normal conditions, most people, just let go of, move on, and turn away from.

Yes, it is me against the world because I have never seen nor had any support, either emotionally, mentally, physically, or financially from any person, company, or employer.

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