September 25, 2019
To begin with, I am not a computer program, or a Google search that you can simply place a query either audibly or inaudibly and always get an immediate response or answer. If you think about my memories, the actual intel I have in my brain, and the ability to decode I have, that’s a lot of information and data to go through, just to access an answer, not to mention, going back through everything and correcting the misinformation, so if it takes a while, if it takes a few days, if it has taken months, or years, or decades, well, I am only one person, I am not a machine, I am not a program, and I would appreciate being looked at, considered, thought about, viewed, and acknowledged, the fact that I am a real person with real feelings, with real emotions, and not your fucking parlor trick used to entertain people. There is a difference.
Did anyone understand the difference when I wrote yesterday, how it appears in his mind that he considers it a vacation or a holiday, WHAT THAT ACTUALLY MEANS ABOUT WHAT HE IS THINKING ABOUT?! ANYONE?! DID ANYONE THINK BEYOND WHAT I WROTE? Well, I guess if you’re on holiday, you’re not thinking about blowing people up, or attacking people, are you?
Are you? You are? This is an either, or, an either way.
My head is a little full with realizing, before I get to LOST (which, by the way, LOST says, Land Of The Lost, I remember watching this television show in our living room in our home in Simi Valley, California, on one of those great big television sets, that had its own feet, it was so big), realizing, discovering, that the movie, Crazy, Stupid, Love, is also – it is so embarrassing, the amount of attention – about me. How embarrassing. Embarrassing also because nearly every female character without going through the whole movie and looking at it, is me.
This other FBI man, (did he, or did he not stop his criminal activity after he appeared before me at my psychology class? Because readers, do it in person, meaning, readers read people in person, this is also code) is seen as Cal, probably code for California, wanting to be married to his wife, me, a woman he has known nearly all of his life, and he didn’t have to sleep with numerous woman to realize he wanted to be with just one woman the rest of his life.
The hot guy from the bar, is a lot, and looks a lot like David, with, if you look at it, Emma Stone’s character being able to convert the hot guy from the bar who sleeps around to, a committed man to the one woman he loves. David and I did spend one night, just talking, and drinking, mostly talking, all night when we were in college. It is interesting that Alisha didn’t leave us alone, David and I, as it was obvious, we liked each other.
How many times have I saved David’s life? College kids having breakfast together, someone asked if I wanted to sit next to David. No one noticed how fast I responded? No. I said, no, so quick, it probably hurt David’s feelings at the time. Look to your right David, that morning, to my left, sitting at a booth in front of the windows, there is at least two men, and they have a connection to the movie, Munich, and that is why I sat next to Stuart, and literally thought about David’s crotch during the meal. I would say that is probably too much information; however, there is just too much of me, in too many movies, and television, to be worried about not giving all the details, anymore.
I’m sorry if it hurt your feelings David. I am also sure; you are quite over it by now. I was willing to risk hurting your feelings, to save your life. Got it?
Yeah, I did write for David to visualize the restaurant because he is able to do that in his head, or someone wouldn’t have placed him as me in the Scandal episode of Sherlock, to show people, it looks like, that David was being, under-utilized.
Is it written in the books, is it just in the movie, is Charlie’s character in Twilight written as a moustache wearing man? Because this is a real photograph of my father and brother in our Plant City home, and my father has a moustache (gross, I really dislike facial hair) with Barney, our perfect English gentleman cat in his lap.
Yes, I did mind that they created a fake marriage between my brother and Roy. Did anyone notice my brother, wince, when Roy went to kiss him, at their “wedding”. Winced, as in, grossed out, and, don’t touch me. And Roy and my brother have never been affectionate to each other. Why is that? It doesn’t make sense.
Roy just looks a lot like, Bubba Gump in Forest Gump, if you want to know who the real Bubba Gump is, you’ll have to ask my father. This would have been a man my father knew, or worked with when we lived in Simi Valley, he is most likely, a man I shouldn’t be able to remember because I was probably somewhere between a few months old to less than four years old.
I just wouldn’t have approved of him to be in my military, probably that is because of his work ethic. It is his work ethic that is physically demonstrated in the character, Bubba Gump. It’s a physicalization of his military mind, and work ethic. It is probably why Bubba Gump dies in the movie. How many toddlers do you know that can hump a man back to safety after being wounded in battle?
In real life, there was and is probably, nothing wrong with him as a person, so be careful you understand the difference. If you have a child that is so extraordinary that she can not only interpret Morse code, after NEVER having been formally taught Morse code, see the threat, and then again, interpret the falseness of the threat, and then JFC, figure out to Morse code by blinking – just take a second, think about that, by blinking, that quickly, I figured out how to covertly respond and reply the correct message, and I wasn’t yet old enough to be in elementary school. So, yeah, I WILL DEMAND AND EXPECT MORE THAN THE BEST – TO BE IN MY MILITARY.
And since when do any of you get to re-write the real truth of MY life? The bee that stung me while I was sitting on a horse, a bee that went straight for my head, that was obviously, NOT a real bee, being about the birds and the bees, my sex education talk with an intelligence father, and my real father did get the bee out of my hair, who the fuck gets to turn THAT honey, into – GAYNESS?! YOU PEOPLE ARE DUMB!
If you want me to do a read of Roy, nothing about him looks factually correct. I didn’t just sit around my house eating a whole container of cookies to gain weight, like Roy. I really don’t appreciate you using the real Hannibal Lecter to enter – illegally – this home, contaminating and tampering with my soaps to pack on all these lbs, pounds and excess weight.
You’ve used the real Hannibal Lecter negatively, so I will so upset and angry at him, I will break up with him. And, what straight man do I get to love then? Because none of you are any good. I am so humiliated at my present weight. I am really, really unhappy about every straight man, I love, being turned against me.
If you build it, they will come, is this in the original script for Field of Dreams? If you build it, they will come, code: If you build it, they, count all the letters and the comma, 17, I was seventeen when I was in Germany, will come, means, will call, like when you order theater tickets and have them placed at will call instead of mailed or any other delivery service, will call says, at the location. Without watching the whole movie to read it, it doesn’t look specific, meaning, it could be used, will call could be used at or for numerous locations, and functions.
Green Eggs and Ham, green is code: re-gen, meaning it is referring to being able to regenerate organs. Ham means, Hamburg, Germany, meaning it was believed the Nazi’s were working on the Jews with things like brain research, Sam is code for Sunday, Sunday being the day of the week, Christians and Christian believers go to church, I Am, Sam I Am, I Am means, Christ, Sam I am says, Christ is risen.
The story going around and around about I do not like Green Eggs and Ham, is very difficult, especially for a child and children, to be able to see the difference between the green eggs and ham because you are, people are supposed to denounce, rebuke, and refuse all other gods and idols, other than the real and only Christian God, and His son, Jesus Christ. That’s really rather difficult and complex and full, for children’s reading. Yet, so is the Bible, and children read that also.
LOST, one of my mother’s favorite shows. The pilot episode was the best episode, in my opinion. I believe I have already written this; I am Jack and Kate in LOST. Jack says, Jack and Diane the song, it also says Simple Jack from Tropic Thunder, so somehow there is a person/personal connection between the productions of LOST and Tropic Thunder. Kate is code for tea, and the King James version of the bible, the King James version of my biblical name, Cherith.
Two pieces of publicity stick out in my mind, the turkey sandwich that Hurley brought Jack on set says, the sandwich shop Lenny’s that I’ve had lunch at when I worked at Disney. And, is this true, is this a true story about Evangeline Lily? Was she going to be a missionary? A model? I am a little suspicious.
The island is just another way to describe or show, a mind palace, the airplane crash is probably for me to realize 9/11 was about me. Jack immediately is the character seen as the only person capable and able to control, manage, delegate, and solve the island and the plane crash.
Here is the first thing I saw, when I re-watched it: Do you know him? This dialogue is unusual, it is a tell. Do you know him? The audience (should) then question why and how about Kate, does she want him to live or die because that is what Jack understood.
The tail of the plane is the tail at LAX who was following one of the intelligence persons, not me, one of the intelligence person who were following me, and I wouldn’t have looked back, I wouldn’t have given them that, it would be like giving someone an edge over you.
My mother, loved, loved, loved, loved, really loved the character John Locke. Sort of like, he is such a man, loved him. It does look like someone wanted to make an association between my Babee Bear and John Locke with the cut over his eye. My mother loved John Locke’s character, like a little goofy over John Locke’s character. There is a bit of an Englishman in John Locke’s character.
Rose is my mother. How did they get this specific costume clothing choice for Rose? That color and knit sweater, sort of cardigan, I’ve actually owned and worn, in real life. I bought with my mother when we went shopping at the then, Eastlake mall, it is no longer a consumer mall, it is now a business complex. It was an outfit with a tank, an unbuttoned or open cardigan/jacket, and a skirt that was just a little longer than a mini-skirt, I purchased these items in at least, two colors. Mini-skirt-ish would say to people, Germany. The work I did in Germany.
I’ve also, worked, for a month or so, at Eastlake mall, that, at the time, I was working an FAQ line for AOL accounts. Email didn’t use to be free. It used to be a service. Now, get this, on my first day at this company, I wore a cotton skirt, a tank top, and a cardigan type to cover my arms, and also because in hot weather like Florida, when you go in and out of air-conditioning being able to have something light like a cardigan to take on and off, is actually valuable. And, Merrell thong-type sandals. A man commented on my outfit on my first day and shoes, it is the only reason I still remember what I wore because I did not like that job.
It means because he commented on my clothing, someone was caught either that day or near-abouts because of me. This also happened when I was at Blizzard Beach, one of Disney’s water parks, an employee working at a shack-type stand, commented on my bathing suit, like, I like your bathing suit, he was referring to my bum, it means they actually caught someone on Disney property that day because they were following me, this is pre-surgery, 2012.
So, I am guessing, someone didn’t do a very good job at managing me there, at the AOL facility. I would ask someone a question, like a manager, where is my manager’s desk? And, the answer I got in response, was basically for me to walk the entire building and figure it out myself. So, what the fuck were you people doing?
My manager happened to be a black man, an African American, and he didn’t instill a lot of confidence in me, meaning, it looked like no one there knew what the fuck they, or I, was doing there. I also, didn’t like the shift I was on, that ended at 1am. The drive home for me, at that time of night, in that part of po-dunk, hill-billy-ville town, I did not trust.
Now, Zero Dark Thirty, Dark is code for: ark, meaning Noah’s ark, and the arc of the covenant in Raider’s of The Lost Ark, and Covenant is the name of a church I’ve attended, and they met on Sunday’s at The Women’s Center in Plant City. Noah’s ark is significant because there actually was a Noah that worked with me in that AOL facility, he had reddish-brown hair, and he was married, and it was a little surprising because he was so young to be married, and this Noah, get this, wanted to be a person who did movie scores for films.
I had no confidence in that job or place, I went to work for another call-center, and that was so bad I called my mother nearly every break, not a good sign, I tried to only call her only at lunch, and I just couldn’t do it, I called every break, not a good sign. So, I have no idea what the fuck you people did there either.
It looks like what you’ve people have done is used me for intelligence whenever I wasn’t working. Meaning when I was employed, the only opportunities our own intelligence had to utilize me was, when I was not on a call, but clocked in. You got to be kidding me. Our own intelligence couldn’t get APPROVAL to use me unofficially within employers – otherwise?
Do you get it? That’s the billions of dollars being spent. Billions, some of it, just because you could only use me if it was AFTER I ALREADY DID MY PAYING WORK. It is about the equivalent in thought and thinking, after you’ve finished all your chores, and your homework, then you can watch television. Do you get it? Do you see it? THAT IS HOW OUR OWN INTELLIGENCE HAS BEEN USING ME TO CAPTURE, NOT ONLY KNOWN TERRORISTS, BUT TO CREATE MILITARY PLANS!
It’s very disturbing because it is and makes our intelligence look, pathetic.
Oh please, oh please, oh please, be my prisoner from the movie, UP is a read about how prisoners and detainee’s can be won over by me because of my person. And, Russell saying we can’t let Dug take Kevin as a prisoner is just to show, I shouldn’t be living my life, capturing terrorists and criminals at the exclusion of not having a real life, getting married, having a boyfriend, and so on.
The terrible noise, mist, and vapor on the island of LOST is brain research. The pilot getting killed, going through the windshield of the plane happens because I was not supposed to leave California, or return to Michael. Now, I don’t want to be in California.
I don’t know who this person is that wakes me up all night long, and I really did not appreciate the sex dreams someone placed in my head last night, especially since none of those women, were me. Gross.
I never wanted to act or be involved in theater after 9/11. It just wasn’t the same anymore, probably because I just couldn’t pretend anymore.
Is there anyone able to stop David from driving around my house, being in my home, and most importantly, lying to me? No one had noticed all he does is hurt my feelings? He is never with me; he is also with other women. No wonder, I’m hurt and sad, every time I see him.
No, I really want nothing to do with Benedict Cumberbatch, in real life. I really don’t appreciate being used in this way. My heart’s been broken; again, therefore, my mind is of no use, anymore.
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 