October 17, 2019: READ: WARNING: Hunger Strike: Day 4

October 17, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

I started this yesterday, October 16, 2019, I will only be writing once a day, from now on.  I am on hunger strike.

 

If that was Courtney in a disguise as she showed my brother and I the model home here, it is always what it looked like to me, and it is not possible to logically explain to a person, I know who you are, don’t play pretend with me, nothing about her person – in any way – said or read that she even liked David, let alone, loved David.  I always wondered why she would do anything so stupid as to pretend to be a real estate agent, and she was dressed as cheap and tacky, meaning, that is who she thought she really was, if not still is.

The woman who first moved into that model house, had a divorce party as soon as she moved in.  She had red hair, with a child, a boy.  Who were never there.

And, I did always believe that all David really wanted was, a trophy wife.  A woman to show off to people he knew and would know, a trophy wife with the perfect body, perfect face, perfect hair, and I was never going to be able to be a trophy wife.  I am not willing to go through all the plastic surgery to be a trophy wife.

He’s still doing it, showing off women he’s involved with or slept with, to me.  Honestly, it is not a very manly thing to do.  It shows insecurity about his manhood, or penis.

What they just showed me tonight (October 16, 2019) is that Courtney is responsible for drugging me on election night 2012, consequently, raping me.  Nonconsensual sex.  It is what they showed me.

Making a connection to the real White House, and rape.  Making a connection to the real White House and rape, through me.  It shows premeditation for “Edison”.

Making sure to design “Edison”, so I would never cum, or orgasm, or have any pleasure, sexually.  They succeeded in making sure that I was never sexually satisfied with Edison, in any way.

If this is in any way true, I want her prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law.

I cannot begin to describe how grotesque an action of this is to any person, let alone, you allowed, if this is true, you allowed Courtney to continue to go on television as a host, or ambassador of a company, of a company that WAS USED TO KILL OSAMA BIN LADEN, selling products…it is such a distortion of truth.

Continuing then, either in truth, or pretend to associate Courtney and David together, trying to make a connection to RAPE and David, and I know, that will NEVER be true.

It is so perverse, misleading, despicable…it’s so unbelievably bad, I cannot truthfully begin to describe the harm that has been caused.

You have been allowing Courtney and her girlfriend to use the Bluetooth in my home to try and talk to me.

I WANT COURTNEY GONE!  I WANT HER AND ANY OTHER GIRLFRIENDS – GONE!  I WANT A COURT-ORDER, A RESTRAINING ORDER – TO HAVE HER REMOVED!

UPON MY DEATH, I WILL HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH COURNTEY, ANY OF HER GOONIES, AND I WILL NOT BE ASSOCIATED WITH GAYS.

I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

YOU NO LONGER HAVE WEAPONS, ANYMORE!  I WOULD RATHER DIE!

LEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT ME!

LTLWM!

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• Elsa dress (Frozen) goes together with The Container Store, they had me followed, I guess they were doing this to place details in movies, television (what a waste of time), I went to Jo-Ann Fabrics (I was followed by a blond woman, who made sure I saw her), I looked on-line, I went to other craft stores, for archival storage boxes to preserve my mother’s wedding bodice, the only thing remaining of her wedding dress. Previously to the archival boxes I purchased at The Container Store, her wedding bodice was stored in a trunk, an old-fashioned steamer like trunk, the kind people used to take when travelling, in the garage.  I still have the trunk.  It’s an antique.
• The stuffed arm, I saw yesterday shows, manipulation of information.
• Somali news story, also says, she has no idea what she is talking about.
• The eyes in the woman of the Northern Ireland story, are a warning.
• Major hitch shows Brianna being extremely vengeful.
• Ed Buck is not an accurate picture or portrayal of my boyfriend, the real Hannibal Lecter.
• Spokesman for grieving is an opposite.  Meaning, they want to see more suffering.  Not healing.
• The person responsible for stealing my Ikea coffee mug, making me purchase another one, I want them prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law!
• We’re not having a baby, 13 Hours, says Cherith is never having children again, it is an opposite, it is not a joyful event. The tell?  While working on the Obama election campaign, 2012, a slight-build black man, an African American male, walked into the office to volunteer.  I was going through the “training” of canvasing a neighborhood, going door to door talking to registered Democrats – only – about voting for Obama, and I used my story of Obama care to train him on how I would speak to another person about why I was voting for Obama, using a personal story, it makes the interaction, face to face interaction, personally and meaningful, I used my personal story of my surgery, my hysterectomy, and as soon as the words left my MOUTH, surgery, THIS AMERICAN MAN, FLIPPED HIS FUCKING SHIT, WITH – RAGE!  ANGER!  A VERY EXTREME EMOTION CONSIDERING I WAS TALKING TO AN AMERICAN MAN, AND ALL OF A SUDDEN, I SEE ANOTHER MAN, closest way to describe him would be Middle Eastern, THIS BLACK MAN TURNED INTO A DIFFERENT MAN – LIKE THAT!  Again, if you look at the husband in 12 Strong, of the wife that gets shot for educating her children, his reaction, his grief, his upset, his screams – it doesn’t compare, nowhere close to the emotion displayed in front of me, at the Obama election campaign trailer.  The office was a trailer, a module.
• I told you, they’ve killed people because you haven’t been doing your fucking jobs by protecting me before your own jobs!
• If any of you are unable to do that, if all you are doing is using me like a human shield, to protect yourselves, maintain your job as a career, do not work with me anymore. You’re killing me.  You killed my mother.  You’re killing my family.  And other men, other countries, are seeing it – that way!
• Let me remind you, I am a woman, they’ve never met, and they are willing to die because of what happens to me and my family!
• Stop confusing the word, exactly, with something that can never be, like consensual gay marriage. Exactly is an English word, and nothing more.  Are all of you really interested in showing homosexuals, lesbians, gays, as stupid?  Like little children touching and holding their pee-pee’s?  It’s what you look like.  It’s what you look like to me, so how do you think you are looking to other people, and countries?
• If you’ve been following David on Facebook and you think you know what is going on, you’re STUPID!
• Desperate for my attention (Sherlock), does not go together with a post David wrote about hating the show Desperate Housewives on Facebook. Desperate is the word.  Desperate for my attention IS THE FUCKING FREAK OUT THAT HAPPENED IN WASHINGTON, DC WHEN CHERITH QUIT FROM DISNEY, AUGUST 2009, TO CARE FOR MY MOTHER, AND WHAT PROBABLY HAPPENED?  ALL OF A SUDDEN, YOU’RE NO LONGER GETTING INTELLIGENCE REPORTS IN WASHINGTON, DC.  CONGRATU-FUCKING-LATIONS!  YOU FUCKING MORONS – WEREN’T DOING YOUR FUCKING JOBS!  BY SENDING WASHINGTON, DC, KILL ORDERS FOR FUCKING TARGETS BECAUSE THAT IS THEIR FUCKING JOBS!  ENOUGH SAID!  I’VE WRITTEN ABOUT THIS, ENOUGH.
• The military salute news story is disturbing, inappropriate, unsportsmanlike conduct, and that’s being kind, and over-generous.
• They sprayed fake, over-weight, marijuana smell up my nose yesterday that says, Edison has a drug problem. Re-occurring, he hasn’t kicked his habit, yet.  I want nothing to do with him, I have never approved of any man or person, that uses – drugs – NOT EVER!  You’ve been misinformed.  Michael used drugs, I never had ANYTHING to do with him, I never touched it, smoked it, or any of it, I NEVER WENT ANYWHERE NEAR IT!  You’ve been misinformed!  My family’s life was in jeopardy, their lives were at stake – IT IS THE ONLY REASON MICHAEL EVER HAPPENED!  STOP REPEATING THIS MISTAKE!
• Bring me a real man I love, and who loves me in return, as a husband and wife do in the flesh, in real life, or so help me GOD, I am willing to DIE for it! I’VE HAD ENOUGH!
• Whatever they have done with my food, my breasts are so heavy, they feel like leaded weights! I am on hunger strike!
• MYTONA, is code for not my A, not my Alpha, not my number 1.
• The four-year-old child who saves sister news story, is not accurate. At all.
• Quit over Ukraine news story doesn’t say enough.
• The heart-breaking Syria news story says, Edison, and YOU GOT TO BE OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND IF ANY ONE THOUGHT OR THINKS EDISON DID ANYTHING – EMOTIONALLY, LIKE A BOYFRIEND, TO ME! SO, I WILL REWRITE WHAT I’VE WRITTEN BEFORE, I WOULD RATHER HAVE BEEN BEATEN WITHIN AN INCH OF MY LIFE, LEFT ON THE STREET FOR DEAD, THAN TO EVER HAVE HAD THE EDISON EXPEREINCE!  AND THAT INCLUDES THE NON-LOVE-MAKING!
• Edison using a black woman and black boy for the death threat (it has nothing to do with food or pizza, it is all about a number and weight on my scale) on my life, Benedict Cumberbatch’s life, the UK says, he has no comprehension, he has no understanding of – cultures. Different cultures.
• Also, having Edison place a death threat on me and Benedict Cumberbatch because he touched me is the equivalent of Edison being a stalker claiming me as his girlfriend. He has no says so, whatsoever, to claim me romantically, as a girlfriend, in any way.  Women choose, women make the decision, women either accept a man, or reject a man, I have always REJECTED,   A man doesn’t just get to claim a woman as his girlfriend, if she does not choose him.  It is legally, not allowed.  Edison is a stalker.  He is as unwelcome as all the other women, I’ve named.  I want a restraining order against him and all the other women I’ve mentioned, including the women who either currently or previously have worked for the FBI, CIA, or any other intelligence community.  I have written this, many, many times.
• This is just a detail, flick your face (Sherlock), my last manager at Disney, 2009, she and I would talk about meaningless things like make-up. I, personally, was not interested in being friendly with her, I didn’t dislike her, I had grown more than weary of being brought into my manager’s office for reviews of phone calls.  Her name because she reappeared in the training room when I went to work at Disney in 2015, full of the worst stench, I could barely stomach, Stephanie Ausburn.
• Also, Stephanie, started after me, did not have the same tenure in the company, and yet was promoted, over me, to supervisor, and there isn’t anything about her, that made her more qualified than me. I applied several times to other higher-paying jobs at Disney and was always refused.  I gave up.  I realized what was happening.
• So, I will remind you, again, the wealthy Libyan family in 13 Hours is an opposite, meaning this family, my family, was not wealthy and could not afford the expenditures, they, my employers, my mother’s employer’s, my father’s employers, my brother’s employers, were purposefully, and with intent, denying our family the income needed – to get the orders out. Either through incompetence, or purposeful sabotage, or both.
• The wealth of information my mother might have been able to provide, from the work she did all her life, is gone. That’s retaliation.
• I wish I had never moved here. Everything is exactly the same as it was in our Plant City house, including the lay-out, or floor plan of this home, and it is EXACTLY what I have been trying to get away from!  EVERYTHING!
• This other FBI man could probably make some sense out of this, since he will be able to understand their thinking, when I went to work at Disney 2015, that is when I moved the shelves in my garage to the side they are on, currently. Since then, they started me backing up into the garage.  It makes absolutely, no sense to me.
• You will have to ask Michael why he wanted and got a dog when we were together. I have no idea why he did it.  And why he made me pay for the dog.  I named the dog, Bruno, despite the other Bruno on television, my Bruno was a real strong name and dog, a male dog.  It is probably why there is a German Shepard in Gladiator.  Bruno was a white dog.  Michael took Bruno and everything else through the sliding glass door of our apartment in 1990, 1991. And, left me with nothing in the apartment, nothing to sleep on, no furniture, nothing other than fleas (A Bug’s Life).  I was in a very bad way.  And, I was working full-time.  Could neither afford my apartment, nor feed myself, nor transportation, nor new furniture, and I was working, full-time.  Nothing much has changed since then, except the fleas.  It’s why the cats, don’t go outside.
• Do you really wonder? Does anyone really wonder why intelligence, the Department of Defense, has lost their Weapons of Mass Destruction?  Their de-coder?  Their translator?  Their reader?  Their mapmaker?
• Pelosi Russian news story says, she has no idea what she is talking about.
• This black-haired woman with the baby that sprayed the air causing pain to my neck, trying to control the movement of my neck says, jealous, envy, rage, undetermined emotion, seeking pain as control and power over another human being, inept, incapable of brainwork, brain-thinking, law enforcement, spy work, or any sort of intelligence, at all.
• I understand, yet truthfully, I have yet to do the brainwork, or decode the rest of Frozen. It is possible that the hurricanes, hurricane Katerina, hurricane Charlie, and the hurricanes in 2004, 2005, were not natural.  I did go to work to Disney while there was a hurricane advisory in effect, until they told us to go home because we were working on generator power only.  I remember, truthfully, I am sorry to the victims and victim’s families of the hurricanes, I remember being mad at God, I prayed for the victims, and I STILL BEGGED GOD TO BRING MY MOTHER BACK TO ME.  I was unable to see anything else other than the loss of my mother.  Probably because it was done purposefully.
• If this is in any way true – if these hurricanes were not naturally occurring, you have a really big problem on your hands, the likes of which have never been seen before, worse than, Osama Bin Laden, and this man is still alive, and – working.
• Most likely, he would be in working, or previously been working in the scientific field as is seen in Sherlock. And, this is another man who really wants to get caught, by me.  Wants to get caught by me like the greatest orgasm ever in a life.  It’s about the equivalent.  He does not want to have sex with me.  Don’t get it confused.  He wants to get caught, to be infamous.
• So, if you allowed my mother to be harmed, stroke, after stroke, so I would not be able to focus on these criminals, and motherfucking terrorists got SO FUCKING PISSED WITH THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF INFORMATION – WELL, YOU’VE ALL BEEN WARNED NOW.
• This man would be a white male, late fifties to sixties, and he would not be in disguise. It will; however, shock people, if it is true.
• Looks like he would have started around the time of 1989, after my California trip. And he has not stopped.  He is lusty, he is very controlled, very controlled is very scary, very clever, very smart, not necessarily intelligent.  If it is in any way true, he has been competing with other terrorists for news time.  And, he has shown many flaws in the national security systems, that’s very scary.
• Edison is a threat and threatened by this other FBI man because he is seen as Cal in Crazy, Stupid Love.
• Let the storm rage on, Frozen, is about me, not other criminals.

 

This is for the other FBI man:

November 14, 2018

Not timed.

 

Put this Christmas tree together.

A real Blue Spruce nine feet tall with diameter proportionate to support the height of the tree.

Make a garland of smarties candies, garland the tree from bottom to top.

Make candles from mandarin oranges, take real mandarin oranges place a white ivory candle in each, candles with smooth sides, bigger with more width than a birthday candle, so there is several inches of candle displayed above the mandarin orange, place them on a gold plate about the size of a saucer and gold plate back so the candlelight is in the gold, place them on the branches of the tree so they do not wilt, lean, or flop and light them all.

Cut real holly branches with berries on each branch, the florist term is a pick, and place them aesthetically proportionate over the tree.

White led Christmas tree lights on every branch and limb of the tree, placed so no wires are visible, turned on and never off.

Old-fashioned tinsel made from aluminum, not new, tinsel that is no longer made anymore, tinsel preserved Christmas after Christmas.  Place generous proportions on the ends of every visible branch.

Place on a floor of moderately honeyed golden oak flooring about three to four inches in width, polyurethaned.   A velvet tree skirt of the richest, darkest dark green with the finest stitching from the finest tailors in the world with a gold detail at the hem.

Place the tree in a corner against a wall and a corner in a room two-story tall with paned windows almost two-story tall leaving about a foot or so of wall at the bottom, white painted molding about four inches in width surrounding the windows.

Place a star of David with many white led lights on top.

Make and create this tree, see what happens.

See what will happen.

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Learn to live without me.

LTLWM, Englishman.

LTLWM, UK.

LTLWM, Edison.

LTLWM, David.

LTLWM, world.

LTLWM, my real father.

LTLWM, my real brother.

LTLWM, Boyfriend.

Learn to live with me.

Hunger Strike: Day 4.