November 1, 2019
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I got as far as the Wagon Wheel motel in Cars, and I had to turn it off, stop watching. It’s very sad to me. That Wagon Wheel motel is a real home, somewhere in the Clearwater/Oldsmar, Florida, area before Michael, before my family moved to Plant City, Florida. It was another home that my mother tried to purchase, and for some reason, that never happened.
It had a Spanish courtyard at the front yard, inside the stairs were to the right and the garage door, with the living/family room to the left, kitchen and breakfast/dining area beyond the family room, with French doors that opened to the backyard with a pool.
The upstairs had a slant in the bedroom that would have been mine, and the upstairs felt a little unsteady to walk on. I don’t remember any other bedrooms.
I saw how they were going to replace some of the neighbors within a few years after us moving in. It was close, about 10 to 15 minutes, just like Walden Lake, to the major roads, like US 19. I didn’t really like the street it was on, yet it felt okay enough.
The dialogue, in Cars, of this place, is hurtful to me. It’s a least one person’s real response, probably after seeing my mother’s driver’s license, meaning they didn’t think she was very attractive in the photo. And, that hurts.
It hurts because they weren’t able to see all the work my mother had to do just because we were in Florida, now.
Her driver’s license photo is not how she normally looked. Her hair wasn’t styled, and she wasn’t wearing any make-up.
My mother, in Oregon, before we moved here, worked – a lot. She has several jobs, at one time. She worked for Mt. Hood Community College, helping refugees, orienting them to, how things worked in America.
I’ve written this before, it was frustrating to her, to speak with some of them who believed or gave the impression that all American lived like – Dallas. Like the television show Dallas, with million-dollar homes, expensive cars, without understanding a lifestyle like that means, those people don’t really own their home. Meaning credit and credit cards, as this was the eighties, credit was a foreign concept to some.
My mother worked with bringing exchange students over, usually for about a month, sometimes for a year at a time, going to high school here. When she worked placing students in homes for a month, sometimes she had several groups at one time, usually a group was about thirty students. So, sometimes she was placing and finding homes for nearly a hundred students. That’s a lot.
Do you know a hundred people who would be willing to have company, a foreign person, someone that didn’t know, for a month? She made a lot of phone calls, to people, to place exchange students in homes. It was a lot of work. In Oregon. That’s one reason they wanted to change her career.
She also, went to school part-time, at Mt. Hood Community College. She also, sold make-up, and had a baby-sitting, sort of service, for free.
She was extraordinarily – industrious.
When we moved to Florida, her exchange student job moved with her, except, it got so much more difficult to find homes for students, my mother took I don’t know how many other jobs, trying to make ends meet.
I mean, her exchange student job, was so much more difficult, it must have been on purpose. It’s actually very cruel.
Just think about it, how would you go about, if it was your job, finding people that would allow a foreign person into their home, have it be a decent home because it was required, have a coordinator to manage the families, students, and activities, coordinate the transportation for excursions like tour buses, and to and from the airport, and manage all the stress that goes with it? How would you do it?
My mother chose churches, as the point of contacts for every one of the groups. Churches. And, at least on one occasion, she used a Buddhist temple, in Brandon, Florida. Every other time, they were Christian churches, from many different denominations.
Is anyone making the connections, yet? Because I’ve told and written about this, for years now.
I’ll write it again, there is no logical explanation, why anyone, in any intelligence position and job would purposefully be trying to financially disable my mother, especially if they were aware, they were following my mother, and her purchases. Intelligence men were following my mother.
I didn’t like the street that the Spanish courtyard house was on; however, it probably would have changed, when the neighbors changed, and moved out.
There is another house I was reminded of while watching cars, a Pulte home, I believe was the name. It was a model home, so in Florida that means the garage door was replaced with sliding glass doors, using the garage as a sales office for the subdivision. I believe it was a grey house, and there was lots of shade from trees, yet beyond the street at the backyard, there was at least one person, if not persons, who were depressed, or depressing. YUCK!
I don’t like depressing people. Get it?!
It doesn’t take a real genius reader to see, I am not, have never been – friends, with any people of a depressive personality, just like my mother.
It’s possible those people might have moved away, also. My mother liked the location of the home, mostly, and I could tell, she really wanted out of those apartments in Oldsmar, and into her own home.
When that house, also, didn’t go through, do you know what I had to do, again? Shield, and place protection all around us, in our apartments. I see it, now. I didn’t really think about it then, I just did it.
Because in an apartment, the same thing you’ve been doing in this house, an apartment does not belong to the renter, and a landlord can come and go into your unit, without your knowledge, or permission. It is very obvious these people, had no idea what they were doing. They were all in, way over their heads.
Watching that Wagon Wheel motel made me very sad. And, it’s very hurtful. I really miss my mother. And, its very sad and painful for me to see neither of my parents have been loved, or had love, in all their lives. They’ve been married, not loved. I’m not sure I’ve ever seen them, in love with each other.
I believe the reason two people are married is because they love each other so much, they want to be bound together. If, they aren’t in love, then they should divorce, so each person, can find and have love. Get it? God is love.
It’s just very painful. Every day.
This Russian man finds this to be of interest, or I probably wouldn’t be writing anymore today, there was someone else on my HCC Brandon campus, I have not seen – since.
I gave a speech in my Speech class on the movie, The Usual Suspects, and J-e-s-u-s fucking Christ, if that didn’t just set off all sorts of commotion and activities. This other FBI man got involved, surveillance increased, orders were given, all sorts of things – happened – because I spoke about – The Usual Suspects.
My Speech teacher I liked, she was kind of nerdy, the nerdy was supposed to make her likeable to students, younger students, spoke really loud, tall, married to a man, blondish hair, sort of decisive, giving the impression to people, she knew what she was doing.
I have no idea why I was in her office speaking with her, after I gave my speech on Unusual Suspects, obviously unimportant or I would remember it, probably, just a reason to get me to see what was on her wall because although she and I were talking, and I was listening, I did not take my eyes off of her Pierrot clown picture, framed on the wall.
I had Pierrot clowns, I wanted to collect them, Pierrot clowns were very popular in the eighties, I had one that was a mask, probably the reason the movie, The Mask was made because it does involve, a bank, and I had a figurine, of a Pierrot that was black and gold accents.
The street signs at Walden Lake, were black and gold, for a long time. I believe it is also in Twilight, in Edward’s bed.
The Pierrot picture on her wall, she was unaware of, and it has been removed if it was really there at all.
I have not seen this man before or since, this, Pierrot. It is along the lines of the movie, The Thomas Crown Affair. Meaning what was on the back on this picture was a design, a plan, on how to steal something very valuable, worth millions of dollars, sort of like the Crown Jewels in Sherlock.
And this man’s work is really exceptional. Like a specialist.
I don’t think any of you knows who he is. That, in and of itself, should tell you something.
I didn’t want to take my eyes off of it. He’s got a really amazing, interesting mind and brain, and none of you knows who he is?!
This other FBI man, I believe is upset about this, these plates that I have here in my home, these blue and white plates, were bought at a Tuesday Morning store, our cat Tuesday happened after the plate purchase, that you thought said made in England, most likely, that was replaced after that dumb fuck, moron, Edison.
My mother purchased those plates, and set, in Tuscaloosa, Alabama, and we brought them to Florida with us. They probably have – children, attached to them, you fucking morons!
There are probably real crime scenes, and, or real children’s LIVES, you stupid fucks, attached to them! Probably, with me as – their protector. So, doing something so dumb as blowing my belly out of proportion, would and could; therefore, place their lives in harm’s way.
Goddamnit! I really can’t stand – incompetence!
I see where they did a lot of the same to me, speaking to her, she made and had a lot of purchases, that were irregular. We had a lot of taper candles from when we lived in Oregon. Jars of jams and jellies are some of the things I remember.
We did also, buy allergy-protector covers, for pillows, on the same trip as the blue and white plates. The allergy non-sense that you thought you knew what you were doing and what it meant, to me says, brain research, and it looks like they’ve combined it with brain palace thinking.
Did any of you even know why you were saying and talking about – allergies?! Or, did you all guess it had to do with Denver, Colorado?!
Because I saw those plates, I went around the house here, and there’s more.
I have an espresso set, that my mother bought me as a gift from the cruise she went on, and it says, the movie, UP. It goes together with 13 Hours, and the Italian beanery scene, it was meant for me to know.
I have Sushi plates that were bought at JC Penny. What’s-her-name Blanc from The Container Store talked about making sushi, I tried to get her to be a wingman, and then, she quit. Suspicious.
I have light grey and gold dishes, and a Tiffany-style lamp, purchased at – where? Penny’s. That’s the other name people refer to JC Penny. Penny’s. Just like Penny from The Rescuer’s, that could go together, if only in theory, to seeing my grandparent’s camper, in California. Anything from Penny’s. being able to spot people, like that.
Before I went to work at Dillard’s my mother bought a lot of name brand dishes at the sort of outlet store, Dillard’s had at Eastlake mall (email, Zero dark Thirty).
I used to cook or microwave Morningstar bacon on the Corelle dishes I still have in my home, they’ve probably been altered or corrupted since.
The poster I have of the Chat Noir, to me says, Anastasia, our cat, Anastasia, and I called her, Ta-shee (Tay-zshee).
I gave nicknames, or codenames to all the Florida Troopers, when I worked at Dillard’s.
What they were doing before was attaching intelligence, usually, after the purchases were made. Telling what and only what to buy and purchase, is not really helpful, or understanding the process that worked, before.
The word, throw, in the Fixer Upper song, from Frozen, does reference, this Russian man.
These are details, Nicole Cabot, did drive really fast, she was not cleared (Bourne movies) to have a conversation with me about Germany, and the difference is, when driving on the Autobahn, it’s not really fast, it’s appropriate for the road. Driving fast on a road with a speed limit, is not appropriate. To me, it says, something off, wrong, or, out of place.
My mother really liked the singer, Sheryl Crow, it, or she, doesn’t say anything to me.
Me being a vehicle or equipment with no personality or character in Cars says, you have a Ferrari, and you don’t know how to drive it.
Wow, Elsa, you look different, that’s Cherith with make-up on, not dressed for going to work at Disney.
They did attach a dislike for things of Hollywood or actor’s while at Disney’s employment, and it probably goes together with not understanding the event of 9/11.
What’s the issue, dear, from Frozen, it’s not really flattering, it’s stereotypical. What’s the issue reads, WIC, like food stamps, at a grocery store. The proof is while I was moved here, my brother told me to get financial assistance like food stamps because I was that poor, and I just – couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t do it. It felt – wrong. Like sending a wrong message.
The WIC reference just says, people still had questions as to what happened with my pregnancy, it goes together with Sherlock, sorry to hear, and the rest, you’ve been hurt, is a real read of the Englishman as soon as he saw me. They’ve hurt Cherith, physically hurt Cherith, and it is all over her, like a bad suit.
You’ve been hurt, Sherlock, goes together with the CIA trained killer, and that’s my German man. Without re-watching it, really that’s all it says. Sherlock would be Michael, not knowing the code, how to talk, or work with Cherith. And, I am paying no attention to the intelligence affiliation. It’s why the CIA man speaks so harshly to Sherlock in that scene. They’ve hurt Cherith.
Something happened when I was going to the movies, before, 2017, 2018, the weight gain started adding on, and that prevented me from attending the movies, and making a purchase(s), at the movie theaters. It looks inadequate.
Someone around here thought the code meant – to sit, from Frozen, it doesn’t. I didn’t start talking until aged, 2. That goes together with the movie, Johnny Mnemonic. Downloading all that information, knowledge, language, intel, and so on.
Grab my butt, Frozen, grub, goes together with the snack bar or cafeteria being closed to me at HCC campus, Brandon, because it closed soon after I was able to get to campus. Meaning, I had about 10 minutes to park my car, walk to campus, get to the cafeteria or snack bar, order and purchase something, with not enough time to eat it then because you are allowed to eat in class, so hold onto the food, while in class, and then eat it after class, when it’s cold?! It doesn’t make sense to buy hot food, to eat cold, so what would I be purchasing? Chips? Something from a vending machine?
It looks like a manipulation of funds. What would have happened had I purchased, food on campus, probably, no joke, funding for the campus, and college. Really dumb.
The military calf muscle goes together with the movie, City Slickers, Norman being my father, and in City Slickers it does not mean the same as Zero Dark Thirty, being cowed and afraid. The characters Bonnie Rayburn, and Nancy in the movie, tell me, without re-watching, they aren’t supposed to be in the movie.
I am Curly, in City Slickers, I crap bigger than you for breakfast. Look what it did for his career.
The Calf muscle, Norman, City Slickers goes together with – the day managers at the Tex-Mex restaurant. Allow me, from Sherlock, they would have avoided me, I worked on the night shift, it was my second job, I walked to it from Visionworks. Meaning, the day-shift managers at Tex-Mex were a problem, and you probably really still could get information from them.
I always liked the HCC bookstore in Brandon. It’s in the building. I always liked it. The Dale Mabry campus bookstore said, problems here, problems there, problems this way, problems over there, about the same as the selling drugs on the corner, in her kitchen in California – problem. It spoke all over the place. The Ybor campus, was ok. I liked the bookstore at USF when Creggan first went to college there in the eighties.
My mother did plant honeysuckle by the hose connection that was her bedroom wall, with the round window. The fact that she made a covering for the window, is a tell, she didn’t feel – safe.
These conversations I write about, only take a few minutes to – say, yet to write, it takes – hours and hours.
Buffy is the word, in code for, below. It’s meant to fool and catch those persons who think they are something, they really aren’t. It’s meant to trick you because the words were brought to me by way of Benedict Cumberbatch, and isn’t he very handsome, smart, and good-looking?!
There is absolutely no sexual innuendo, or connotation to his code, whatsoever. That is actually, incredibly smart of him.
The truth is, it just means and says, Buffy. Why would you read more into something, if it – isn’t real.
He should like that. Me, writing about how his code was meant to read, or be read, he should like that.
It is also, not a good sign, if this FBI man’s former partner is seen as this African American woman in the background in The Peacemaker with David and I talking, that’s not really about David and me, or this FBI man. It suggests, a lot. In the movie, she looks, cocky, uninformed, and sort of, just playing a part.
It really is a sad day for intelligence. I offer it – freely. I give you information – freely. Because it is the right and correct thing to do. I have yet to be repaid, in kind. By anyone.
If his former partner, was known, or appeared to have a romantic thinking, or flirting with me, you’ve read it wrong. She’s been raped or sexually abused, hadn’t she?
To me she looks, really hurt, and she was over-compensating for it. There is really nothing wrong with that, that can help people sometimes; however, no one noticed. I’ll write it again, no one noticed. She didn’t want to have sex with me, she was trying to be me.
It means, she was trying to be – straight. Meaning, she believed, she should be straight, and in a straight relationship.
It should have read as a warning, if no one could talk to her, about it. Meaning, it was so painful, no one could talk to her, with her. She looks, really, really unhappy. The films she is in, unhappy, unwise, not smart, and working against her own, truthfully.
Working against your own, is not the same as being willing to be seen as the bad guy, to catch the bad guys.
That’s really sad.
It looks like the alcohol did help her, yet that says, she was not meant to work in intelligence. She looks like she is trying or was trying to prove a point. If you have to prove something to someone else, then you really aren’t that person.
She could have been something like a high school principal, and this was spoken to me by a Christian girl, Amy Buckmaster, I worked with at Hilton, so, this is also someone’s notion of her, a Principal over children because she wouldn’t have wanted young people to be harmed, and a Principal allows an authority. And, that’s really what her heart was looking for. Authority.
She got lost in her mind because she believed having authority over others was punishing people who did bad things, meaning the people who did bad things to – her. That isn’t how authority works or is supposed to work.
Gay community do not let your sex be an excuse, for – behavior. Be smarter than that. Don’t let it be an excuse.
Sona, how can I help, in 13 Hours, is not a good sign. If she has to ask, then she doesn’t know.
If you can’t, if you cannot, there is no shame in that. There is nothing wrong with that.
I am something special, as unique as a star in the sky, or a snowflake.
You weren’t meant to.
You weren’t meant to and be glad of it. Life is full of so many other things, than Cherith.
You just weren’t meant to.
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