November 1, 2019
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Daggers in the heart. That is what my life feels like from November 1988 until today. Like daggers repeatedly thrust into my heart, one on top of the next, on top of the next, over and over, until my body is so top-heavy from the weight of the daggers in my heart, I can barely stand up straight.
Cherith you aren’t making your numbers at work, regardless of the employer – daggers in the heart.
Cherith you aren’t going fast enough – daggers in the heart.
Cherith you haven’t written – enough – you haven’t written every moment of your life since before you were born until every breathing second, write again, write more, YOU HAVEN’T WRITTEN ENOUGH – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, (this actually is true people have done this to me since November 1988) you aren’t pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, attractive enough, financially able enough, good enough, ENOUGH OF ANYTHING – daggers in the heart.
Cherith you gave information that allowed a successful military operation, so we’re going to cut you open, gut you like a pig, and take away your female organs – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, you lost weight, so that your mental image looked almost like your physical image, WE’RE GOING TO TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, you love your mother, so we’re going to kill her – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, doesn’t want to live in Florida, so were going to take away BY ANY MEANS POSSIBLE, her ability to live, ANYWHERE ELSE – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, you love men, so were going to make sure a man never loves you, for real, ALL YOUR LIFE – daggers in the heart.
Cherith you love a certain kind of man, a physical kind of man, we’re going to make sure YOU HAVE TO SETTLE, for something YOU’LL NEVER HAVE WANTED – EVER – just because you want to me be loved by a man and men – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, you don’t ever want to have anything to do with acting, Hollywood, or anything of that sort, ever again, SO, WE’RE GOING TO MAKE SURE THAT IS ALL YOU WILL EVER BE AROUND – AGAIN – daggers in the heart.
Cherith you don’t want to be around women, so that’s all were going to allow you to be around – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, you wanted to get married to a man, have children, so were going to make sure you never have that all your life – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, this is the lesson you’re meant to learn, David never has and never will love you, or he wouldn’t have left, wouldn’t have married another woman, wouldn’t have been in other relationships, David doesn’t love you, and you’re all alone – daggers in the heart.
Cherith, David is going to chase you out of a store while you are shopping for your mother, and then when you go and visit your mother in the nursing home, we are going to replace her with an actress, and you will never see you mother alive again – daggers in the heart.
It’s probably the real reason why the military man wipes up the blood off the floor in the movie, Black Hawk Dawn, it’s a read about how I felt having done any work, for any of you. Like daggers in my heart, bleeding, and dying, from lack.
I think you are a little premature in let the healing being in the Land, you are still working me, unpaid, as a machine, and not a living, human being with feelings and emotions.
The Turkey news story reads as trouble, meaning, somebody might not live.
Why did I ever give them any information whatsoever, all my life? All they have given me in return – for any of it, is daggers in my heart.
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 