November 9, 2019
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BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; EDISON BODY, BRIANNA AND HER FRIENDS, COURTNEY, CASEY, THE 1989 CALIFORNIA MAN, AND MICHAEL.
Everything around here goes – way too fast. This is a constant in my head like conditioning, hurry up and take a shower, hurry up and vacuum the floor, hurry up and do this do that. It’s not real other than to make me feel – not myself. Especially, to feel my house is not my home. There is no logical reason, no intelligent reason to do this other than, to cause harm, disruption, or death.
Hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry, I am not safe unless I, hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry, enough of this!
As if I am too careful, too aware, too good, someone, or people, are trying to get others – killed. Hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry. What the fuck! I need and want this removed. This is not who I really am.
And, I and you all, really need me to be – me. There really is no one else like me.
This does look correct, I would need more information; however, this does look like this Russian man, I am sorry because he’s hurt because of it, he’s been experimented on.
Wow, there is a lot of dead people around him in his life.
Most likely, injections. Like a synthesized gingko-biloba. Does he get headaches? Or, is he careful about – fat, especially? Too much fat in his diet and it makes him feel bad?
It’s what, if this is true, it is what they were aiming for, a synthesized gingko-biloba.
Because he reads, as very interesting – to me. He is interesting. I mean interesting. If a man is interesting to me, everyone should be paying attention.
It is possible, he has been seen in photographs and in our apartment as this orange cat, I named, Tigger.
It suggests that he wanted to meet with me when I was in college. And, that he saw me as more than a friend, meaning, he would have been interesting in dating me. At the time, it looks like people were worried he would be in danger because I was not who I am today, then. However, he could have helped me, just by being – Russian. Because I have – not been experimented on.
I’m sorry, no one wants to believe that, but it is true.
It’s such a shame. So many decades of life lost to – not being loved.
Yes, I said, no. The White House was not present, and I was not willing to bring him, or be involved with him because the White House – was not present.
Do you really think, I brought him all the way over here, to dismantle, the Cold War, the Iron Curtain, just for him – to die?
I miss my mother.
I really miss being able to be, myself. And, not a character, you think, is just a show. I miss being me. So, I miss everything I used to do before.
Everything.
I am most unhappy about not being able to just be – me.
I have no idea why anyone wants me to buy – new locks on my house – again. As though, that is going to solve – anything.
I want the sanctity of my home again; I want to be myself again. I want to be a real person!
So, why am I not allowed, to just be – me?!
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 