NOT A SIDE EFFECT, HE WANTS THE REAL ME, AND I HAVE NOT BEEN DECIDING BECAUSE I AM NOT FREED, THEREFORE THERE IS TOO MUCH DANGER FOR EVERYONE UNTIL I AM A FREE CITIZEN AND WOMAN! FORCING WEIGHT AND FACIAL HAIR ON ME IS AGAINST NATURE AND GOD’S LAW! USING ME TO GAIN STRENGTH WHILE DENYING ME A PRIVATE LIFE IS AGAINST NATURE AND GOD’S LAW! I AM UPSET AND GRIEVED!