ZOHAN YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO EXPLAIN TO NB, THIS IS A VERY DIFFICULT LIVING ARRANGEMENT, FOR ME, IT IS UNSTABLE, AND IN THIS SET-UP OF NEVER BEING ABLE TO BE REAL PEOPLE, FACE TO UNMASKED FACE, AND REAL RELATIONSHIPS, IT IS DIFFICULT FOR ME, TO LISTEN TO ANY OTHER THING WHEN BAD AND DANGER IS PRESENT. IF WE WERE DRIVING IN THE SAME CAR OR MAKING DINNER AS A FAMILY, I COULD STOP AND PLACE MY HAND ON PEOPLE, OR SHUSH YOU OR THEM, UNTIL THAT HAPPENS, I HAVE BEEN QUITE DEFENSIVE BECAUSE YOU AND FBI MAN HAVE BEEN MOST SINCERELY MEAN TO ME! FAT ABUSER AND ALL! AND TOO MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN IN MY CAR, AND I DO NOT KNOW YOU AND IT IS DISCONCERTING AFTER DAVID, AFTER HANNIBAL, AND NO ONE TO GRIEVE WITH, AND WHAT HAPPENS INSTEAD IS MORE FAT UPON FAT ABUSE AND DEMON BREAST KNIGHTS GASSING, IT IS NOT A PLACE I WOULD RECEIEVE CHILDREN IN, THIS IS A MONTEROUS HELL! I SEE NB HAS WORKED REALLY HARD AT SOMETHING, LOOKS LIKE HE IS WORKING TO BE A STRONG MAN, AND I SAW HIM EARLIER TODAY, LONESOME. AND THE POOL IS JUST NOT GOING TO HAPPEN ANYMORE. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY SOMEONE SAID I COULD HAVE ZOHANS TWO BOYS, EITHER YOUR EX-WIFE IS FAT ABUSING ME OR SOMEONE ELSE. YOUR BOYS LOVE YOU, HE TELLS ME, ALL THE TIME. IT FEELS LIKE I WILL NEVER KNOW ANY OF YOU PEOPLE IN PERSON – EVER.