THEY HAVE A BAD U.S. EMBASSY IN MEXICO CITY THAT THEY WANT ME TO GET A NEW U.S. EMBASSY FOR I AM NOT GOING TO PAY FOR WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE: HERE IS THE ORDER FROM TRES AMIGOS MEXICAN RESTAURANT ON BRANDON BLVD, AND SEND A SWAT TEAM, SANGRIA THE BIGGEST ORDER OF SANGRIA, POBLANO RELLENO CHEESE AND A CHICKEN, GRILLED CHICKEN MISSION BURRITO, CINCO FLAUTAS DINNER, SIDES OF MIXED VEGETABLES, THAT IS ALL I WOULD SEND!

YOU GOT A BAD JUDGE WHO IS NOT GOING TO MAKE IT WHO SENT A DESPERATE, LONLEY, DESPERATE FOR ATTENTION, LITTLE BITTY OF A FEMALE SOCIAL WORKER, AFTER I HAVE REPEATEDLY WARNED PEOPLE THAT HANNIBAL CANNOT BE ALONE WITH OTHER WOMEN, AND MY FATHER WAS COURT ORDERED TO BE USED AS A MOUTH PIECE (BIG MISTAKE!) FOR THIS DUMB WHITE FEMALE SOCIAL WHO HANNIBAL SEDUCED AND SHE DID WHATEVER HE TOLD HER TO AND SHE WILL NOT SURVIVE HER SUBVERSIVE ACTIONS THAT GAVE PROTECTIONS TO TERRORISTS BY USING MY BODY TO BE FATTENED! HANNIBAL IS A DANGEROUS CRIMINAL! HANNIBAL DID IT ALL FOR PUBLICITY! HANNIBAL NEEDS TO BE PUMMELED BY MEN AND HAVE HIS FACE SHOVED IN THE GROUND! HE IS GOING TO DIE! HE IS NO LONGER SAVEABLE AND THESE ACTIONS BY THE COURTS ARE MOST SERIOUS! SOMEBODY NEEDS TO TAKE HANNIBALS TOYS AWAY FROM HIM AND LOCK HIM THE FUCK UP! SOMEBODY MAN THE FUCK UP AND STOP BABYING FUCKING HANNIBAL! NO OTHER WOMAN KNOWS HOW TO HANDLE HANNIBAL! AND I WILL NOT HELP ANYMORE! HE HAS NOT PROVEN HIMSELF WORTHY OF ME ANYMORE! HE TREATS ME LIKE TRASH AND I HAVE HAD IT! SOMEBODY BEAT HANNIBAL UP!

LET IT BE KNOWN: MY FATHER WAS QUITE EMOTIONALLY UPSET THE SUNDAY BEFORE LAST WITH THE VERIFICATION OF THE ANGELS NAME AND ME AND MY MOTHER. ALSO, I HAVE NO MEMORIES OF CHURCH IN CALIFORNIA BEFORE WE MOVED TO OREGON, IT TELLS ME THE MOVE TO OREGON SEPARATED ME, OR WAS A PROBLEM, THE LONELINESS BIRDS, I DO HAVE A MEMORY OF GOING TO CHURCH IN THAT 1989 CALIFORNIA VISIT, OF THE AISLES JOINING HANDS IN PRAYER, AS I BENT MY HEAD TO PRAY WITH THEM, I SAW THE AISLE IN FRONT OF ME TO MY RIGHT, WITH A SUNDAY BEST CHURCH CLOTHED WOMAN AND A WOMAN WEARING FLIP-FLOPS OR THONGS SORT OF WEARING BEACH CLOTHES, PROBABLY DONE ON PURPOSE, AND NEITHER WERE CONCERNED ABOUT THE OTHERS ATTIRE (NOT TIRE), IT WAS ANOTHER, ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS I’VE SEEN ON THIS EARTH. FATHER, ZOHAN HAS PROBABLY TRYING TO SHOW YOU THAT, THAT IS WHAT MOST FAMILIES DO AROUND A DINNER TABLE, TALK AND SOCIALIZE AMONGST OURSELVES, AND ASK QUESTIONS LIKE I DID, WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE DECADE TO LIVE IN? AND, MOST CULTURES, ESPECIALLY EUROPEANS HAVE WINE OR BEER WITH THEIR MEALS AND SIT AROUND AND TALK FOR HOURS, TO CREATE MEMORIES AND BOND. AND, WE LIVE IN A TELEVISION CULTURE FOR NEWS, ACCESS, AND ENTERTAINMENT, IT IS NOT NORMAL TO HAVE THE TELEVISION – TURN ON THE VIEWER AND SPY, IT IS NOT NORMAL! AND I HAVE NOT BEEN INTERESTED IN MOVIES OR TV SERIES SINCE PAINTED JOSIAH BUNTING LEFT, THAT SONA KNIGHTS FIASCO AND MY MOTHERS DISMEMBERMENT- IS VERY SEVERE! THIS IS QUITE A LOT OF LIVING THROUGH EMOTIONAL TRAUMA EVERY DAY! AND, I FIND IT BEST FOR ME NOT TO DWELL ON THE PRAISE OR COMPLIMENTS OF OTHERS, THEY DO NOT GO UNAPPRECIATED, I JUST FIND IT BETTER TO LIVE THE PRESENT.

THESE YEARS WERE THE HAPPIEST I’VE EVER BEEN IN ALL MY LIFE.