WHEN MY FATHER JOKINGLY TALKS TO ME, AS HE HAS NEARLY ALL MY LIFE, IT TELLS ME HE DOESN’T REALLY KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE OR TALK WITH ME. I AM NOT REALLY SURE WHY THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON, OTHER THAN PEOPLE ARE INTERESTED AND HAVE BEEN ALLOWED, IN CREATING DAMAGE AND TRAUMA TO MY MIND AND BRAIN, LIKE THIS FEELING OR PERSON WHO MUST BE AROUND, OFTEN, THAT I’M NOT ALLOWED A MOMENT OF ENJOYMENT LIKE SPEAKING TO MY CATS. IN MY OWN HOME I’M BEING TORTURED WITH NOT EVEN BEING ALLOWED THE COMMUNICATION OF MY OWN ANIMALS.