Author: You didn’t pull! You don’t understand! You do not own my accounts! Perceived control!

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MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

February 1, 2020

Yes, you have at least one law enforcement, police officer, or former law enforcement officer who has a dangerous obsession with me, my person, my body, including my family.  That goes with using me, for my mind when they, cannot.

You’ve allowed a former law enforcement officer and personnel DEMOTE me at my employment in 2014 from being intelligence’s number one person, their numero uno, their Alpha, their go-to-girl, to catch some of the worst people on the planet, the most wanted terrorists, to being, an undercover cop.  And, the very reason the undercover detectives in Point Break are mentioned – is A WARNING – FOR YOUR PROTECTION.

YOU BREAK IT, YOU BREAK ME?!  YOU BOUGHT IT!

LEAVE THE CUFFS ON!

Neither this FBI man nor I had nothing to do with undercover work or any police work in California 1989.  Point Break the movie, has to do with Cherith, and teaching, among others, how to capture and kill terrorists.  I’ve been doing it longer.  I didn’t just get out of training.  Your training is over solider (Bourne movies), now you get to be trained by Cherith.

You want it or not?

You either want to catch or kill these motherfuckers, or you do not.  I already know I am better at it than anyone else, I’ve seen.

You want it or not?!

You caught a drug addict?  You might as well count all the sand particles on the beach for the way your using my mind.

Militia vs. Intelligence?  Intelligence is going to win, if they must kill you to prove it to you.

I am also, getting a lot of conflicting information around here.  IT’S A PROBLEM.  It’s nothing more than a FUCK ABOUT, person, mentality, and way to try – working.

 LEAVE THE CUFFS ON!

I AM GOING TO LET THEM TAKE OVER THE SCENE!

YOU NEED TO ASK YOURSELF IF YOU WANT TO DIE, OR – LET THEM HAVE ME!  IT’S ABOUT THAT SERIOUS!

I want a fireplace, FBI man.

It’s about as serious as needing a witness protection program.

LEAVE THE CUFFS ON!

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February 1, 2020

If this helps at all, let go of the stigma, of abuse, of sexual abuse, or of physical abuse, let go of the stigma that others will see you differently when they know the truth.

It’s a stigma.  It’s pretty significant within society of sexual abuse, and abuse.

Be responsible and take the responsibility of your actions.  If you’ve done nothing wrong, and were abused, that is not your fault, and you do not have to bear the burden of someone else’s actions.

Having to show the world, you hurt and abuse, does not make you ugly.  It takes that spotlight off of you, and places it upon the guilty party and person, in doing so, you’ll feel relief.  Probably for the first time.  Relief.  Whew!  Weight off your shoulders.

However, it is not a task, that is simply done.  It is work to do every day.  And, acknowledging that accepting that, being at peace with, yes, I need to do this work with myself every day, then there may or may not be a day when you forget that it is there, work to do.

At least then, your head won’t hurt so much.

To me, it looks like it is so painful to him, Matt, he is protecting himself, by layering himself within himself, and shielding himself, and trying to sort of hide to avoid the pain, that’s understandable.

It’s just pain.

Turn the spotlight on the abusers for a change.  Show them what they’ve done.

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February 1, 2020

These things, a lot of these people, you have me helping like Matt Lucas, are not able to be worked this way.  The only place it worked was at my former employer, and YOU’VE RUINED THAT AND LET THAT GO.

Matt sounds like he is having a difficult time.  I’m sorry for it.  The only place that worked before, for me to work with Matt to help him was at my former employer.  The way to help Matt is like cancer, you attack cancer with chemotherapy, to kill the cancer.  That’s how they get better.

I would need an environment like what was at Amazon, where I got to yell, and talk, and YELL at people if I need to, and show them, their mirror image.  It’s helped too many people, to not be factual.

He needs chemotherapy.  Putting a band-aid on cancer isn’t going to help or cure the cancer.  At best it looks like a fashion accessory.  To kill cancer you need the aggressive, chemotherapy.

And, having people like Meghan Markle being able to make my underwear – WET WITH URINE WHILE I AM EITHER IN OR OUT OF MY HOME, OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER, speaks very poorly, for the person responsible for it, and a person, it is only logical, would end an activity when it continues to be a negative experience for them, me.

Hannibal also says, he has an idea for Matt.  Might work.  He’s, Hannibal’s, pretty good at helping people.

If I am the only one, I am at least aware, I am – unemployed.  Yet, everyday is so stressed and stressful, I am exhausted, and still, all these months later, barely functioning.

This is not a functioning work, and workable environment, and situation. 

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February 1, 2020

Why this is something I need to write about is beyond me, concerning my relocation.  And, something says, why am I not being treated to something like a relocation program and a safe house, while these arrangements are being made.

Between California, Oregon, and Washington, it is a three-way tie, as far as I am concerned.  I need to be able to scout the locations for myself, on my own, without, a film crew, in order to make a better assessment.  Again, neither my brother nor father get a say in any of this.  Unlike all the other arrangements like family dinners (2019) and my father and brother going to church with me, and INSTEAD OF AGREEING WITH WHATEVER ARANGEMENTS I MAKE YOU’VE ALLOWED AT LEAST ONE OF THEM TO CHANGE AT LEAST ONE THING, JUST TO BE A FUCK-ABOUT!

I am real close to putting a goddamn boot in someone’s fucking face.

Neither my father, nor my brother, get a say anymore, as a mouthpiece, as an earpiece.  THEY MUST BE MADE TO – STOP!

All states, most likely would be coastal property, rather than as inland as Gresham, Oregon.

I need to be able to get, and I deserve to get truthful answers from my brother and family, like, where is my mother really buried?  Is she buried in Canada, or was that just staged?  Is she really buried in Florida?  I deserve to know the truth, and this filming is ONLY PREVENTING the real truth from being known and not discovered, not the other way around.  NONE OF THIS HAS BEEN TO SHOW THE REAL TRUTH AS IT HAPPENS, OR I WOULD STILL BE EMPLOYED WITH THE EMPLOYER WHO GAVE ME THE JOB IN 2013!

I deserve to know the truth.

Antonio Brown story tells me nothing.  Is brown supposed to be some vague person?  Is it a white person painted black?  Is it MWB?  No, I don’t want him back, I told David so.  It’s in the movie, Point Break, take the cuffs off, LEAVE ‘EM ON, TAKE THE CUFFS OFF, LEAVE ‘EM ON!

That’s military shouting, in that dialogue, that is yet again, another military man, losing his goddamn fucking mind with the handling of me.

TAKE YOU HANDS OFF ME RIGHT NOW, that’s me.  That’s a pretty accurate read of me, and a real man I dealt with. Before my transfer order.

It reads, LEAVE THE CUFFS ON MICHAEL WAYNE BROWN!

I told you they want to take over the scene.  Especially, if you mishandle me, like California, 1989, in anyway.  And, I’ll let them.

I understand the importance of our United States military, even if penis-envy-fucking cops – DON’T!

Um, I will go so far as to say, I probably understand the importance of our United States military, probably better, in more complex ways, than most decorated (DECORATED) military men.  I also, understand that, being able to see the purpose, the successful purpose of our United States military, in such a way, as my brain, does – is at times, greater than most battles, and wars.

There are more ways to spend our tax-dollars, than on bullets.  Like, on the people, and that includes military people and personnel!

I also, told you I was made to have sex with Michael as a way of protecting my family from being killed, and it is in the movie, Point Break with the insurance policy of Rosie.  Someone make sure these – keystone cops – don’t get to do this to me, again.

I chose Hannibal Lecter to be my Boyfriend because I broke up with him for sleeping with another woman, that does not mean, anything other than, I have a standard, I EXPECT AND DEMAND ALL MEN, WHETHER I AM ROMANITCALLY INVOLVED WITH THEM OR NOT, AND I WILL NOT WAVER!

LEAVE ‘EM ON!

The last time I chose a man was David, and John Moyle, except neither of them, chose me in return.

The FBI teaching this FBI man, my transfer order to learn to surf, is about capturing terrorists.  Not crimes, and serial killers.  In the movie, Point Break it is about capturing and killing terrorists.

And, t he only reason they go to Australia to surf means, a theory at least one man had because OBVIOUSLY, I appeared sophisticated enough to ACTUALLY know things like, prison code, prison movements, prison life, and con-men, IT IS NOT FOR MWB, if the only reason you placed me in a sexual relationship – THAT I HAD NO CHOICE IN – just to get information about how I knew and know the things I know…?!

Just jump in the paddy-wagon, right now, and put the CUFFS on!  You’ve never seen anything like me before, and you’ll never see anything as brilliant as me – again!

Admit it!

The shrimp and fries in Point Break, shrimp?  I’m short, not that difficult.  Five feet, two inches tall, I am not a tall girl.  And, fries?  MWB, fried my brain.  He ruined the most sophisticated piece of equipment; the world has ever known.  And, at the time, for utilizing a brain such as mine, is to OBTAIN IT, AT A YOUNG AGE, LIKE IN MY TWENTIES.

And, you have a lesbian actress playing the love interest with the FBI man, in Point Break only because his ex-partner was a lesbian, and I told you she reads, or read, as straight, sexually confused because she wanted to be like me.

I’ve written this so many times.  Stop confusing actors with the real people.  She lied to him, its in the goddamn movie, in what year?  1991?  1992?

Who’s the dumb fuck who wants to let criminals, go without having to go to jail because their gays or lesbians?!  Special rules apply to gays or lesbians?  I don’t think so.

You sexually confused people, need to get off my body, out of MY GODDAMN NEIGHBORHOOD, OUT OF MY GOODMAN LIFE OR – YOU WON’T MAKE IT OUT ALIVE!

FBI man, you ever go to work with a partner again, you better make sure they are as straight as they come.  You and the agency might not make it.

STOP CONFUSING MY REAL LIFE, MY REAL PERSON, WITH STUPID CELEBRITIES!

I have about had it with movies, film, celebrities, and Hollywood people!

She lied to him!  It’s in the goddamn movie.  She, his ex-partner, not him, not me, she lied to him, IT ‘AINT A GODDAMN SECRET!

SO, WHEN I SCREAM – BIN!  ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND?!  IT’S IN A GODDAMN MOVIE AS FAR BACK AS THE EARLY NINETIES THAT SHE, HIS EX-PARTNER, LIED TO HIM!

FUCK THE FUCK OFF!

Just his type in the movie, Silence of The Lambs, does not mean I am Hannibal’s type, although he might disagree, it also means, my transfer order, is just my type, and the list goes on and on.

It mostly means, they also, could not quite understand his attraction to me, well…you fuckers don’t know a goddamn thing about brain research.

He’s probably wanted – help.  Like I am the only person in the world who could make sense of his brain, and he NEEDS that – me.

I am so disgusted at what you people have done to Hannibal like he is not a real person, nor am I, just a thing – to be toyed with.  When brain research is some of the most, unusual, sophisticated, unresearched, and difficult to comprehend, then – conditioning, like training a DOG!

Military?  You want to take over this scene, here?

I’ll let you!

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February 1, 2020

Military in the state of Oregon tells me, testing.  The state of Washington military bases is not that interesting, the land is more valuable in that state, is all.

If I were to move from the state of Florida, I will not be interested, never have been, in any other northern states from Florida, up the East coast, or anywhere else for that matter, other than the West Coast.

If I were to move back to Oregon, I would be looking at land and a home instead of a subdivision or neighborhood.  Also, the state of Washington, I would be looking at land, more likely than a neighborhood, or subdivision.  The land is more valuable as far as real estate in Washington than Oregon, that’s all.

The lifestyle of the Pacific Northwest is much different than Southern California.  The landscaping is also, just different because people live differently.

Washington state, that’s millions more dollars than California to live there.  Oregon state is comparable to the state of California.

No, I am not an East Coaster.  You can’t make me.

I am being gassed in my own home.

More importantly, you won’t want my brain in a DC neighborhood.  You might as well be asking the President of the United States to live in Disneyland for all the good it would do. 

The mountains in the Pacific Northwest don’t speak to me like the ridgeline in California.

There is Gjestland family in the state of California.

My father and brother do not get a say in where we live, and they MUST go with me.

Both the state of Washington and the state of Oregon are a few hours, wherever you live, from the coast, to the desert (Oregon), to the mountains.

No, there are no-workable actors.  Never have been.

What I just heard says, premeditated murder of my mother.

I am being gassed in my own home!