Author: You do not own my accounts! Perceived control!

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

 

December 24, 2019

Listen, this is how to stay alive, stop listening to other people, to other’s BEFORE me.

THAT’S WHAT PEOPLE DO!  THEY DIE!  THIS DUMB FUCK OF A GAME PLAN GOES ALL THE WAY BACK TO 1986 WHEN I MOVED TO FLORIDA.  EITHER THIS CHOICE OR THIS CHOICE, IN EITHER SCENARIO AT LEAST ONE PERSON IS GOING TO DIE.

Really dumb.

When I tell you Michael Wayne Brown shouldn’t DIE, how about you fucking PAY ATTENTION!  No, I don’t want him in my bedroom; however, he WILL listen to me, and you need him, to help you with these stupid law enforcement officers poking their nose around WHERE IT DOESN’T BELONG!

BECAUSE THEY DON’T KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR OWN ACTIONS, ALL THEY SEE IS THE PRESENT CIRCUMSTANCE – NOT THE GODDAMN FUTURE!

Like the itch in Afghanistan.  Anyone see that coming?!  You have no idea how it delight’s this man, for me to tell ANYONE how wrong they are.  AND, YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW A GREAT BIG WIN THAT IS FOR THE UNITED STATES?!  REALLY?!  I DO!  I KNOW!

WRONG!

Get over yourselves, and stop pretending you have hurt feelings, when you didn’t know what you didn’t know.

No, you really can’t in any way get rid of my Boyfriend, you need him and EVERY PERSON that has been brain researched, YOU REALLY NEED THEIR INFORMATION.

Yeah, I AM, not anyone else, I AM – 100% If you have a problem with that, with ME BEING 100% MAYBE YOU DON’T BELONG IN THE MILITARY!

CHERITH GJESTLAND, IS 100%.  YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT?!  UH, BECAUSE I KNOW THERE ARE REAL TERORISTS – THAT DON’T.  IF YOU REALLY WANT THEM, THEY WILL GET THAT MESSAGE TO YOU!

I SUGGEST – YOU COME CORRECT!

I WRITE AGAIN, I SUGGEST – YOU COME CORRECT!

For everyone else, come correct, meaning, GET YOUR FUCKING HEAD ON RIGHT AND CORRECT, OR GET THE FUCK OUT!

I WOULDN’T HAVE YOU IN THE MILITARY – IF YOUR FUCKING HEAD ISN’T CORRECT!

 IN MY MIND, IN MY MIND-SET – YOU ARE NOT A PIECE OF MEAT, SOLIDER!

GET YOUR HEAD, AND MIND STRONG, AND THE BODY WILL FOLLOW! 

IT IS NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND!

Who’s here?

Someone who needs to know I am 100% and I believe in our military enough to believe they are not casualties, expendable, pawns…Yeah, I know, mind-blowing.

When I tell you, and by the way, I have been SCREAMING THIS SINCE 2014, that it really is strategy, military strategy, and not just little girl talk, that I LOOK FUCKING PRESENTABLE, AND NOT LIKE A HOMELESS BUM, AGED BEYOND MY YEARS – FUCKING PAY ATTENTION BECAUSE I WILL NOT NOW, WILL NOT EVER ALLOW THE UNITED STAES MILITARY TO BE SEEN LIKE HAPLESS IDIOTS, AND THAT IS WHAT THE FUCK YOU PEOPLE HAVE BEEN DOING SIMPLY BY NOT LISTENING TO ME – BEFORE – FUCKING SHIT HAPPENS!

I’m sorry I am 100%.  I’m sorry you’ve had to go through training, I have not.  Yet, I am still 100%.  And, when I say I’m sorry, I mean, I am sorry no one has loved you enough to say, no. 

All I see around here are spoiled, over-indulged children pretending to be grown-ups. 

So, if I get my can of fucking whoop-ass, AND USE IT ON YOU, perhaps EVERYONE should realize – that it is not hate.

That is how you people have made me feel, like I should apologize for the lack in other’s because I am 100%.

That’s really not the smartest thing to do.  It’s also, really not good strategy, even as a woman, for any of you men, to be seen, as not able and capable of taking care of me even if it is just as an American citizen.  That literally is strategy.

Financial burden is the – opposite – of strategy.

Let me replay this scene because it has been getting the WRONG attention:

Me working at Home Depot, with David in disguise as an overweight black man, saying as he hangs up the phone, we’ve met.  I grab his hands and hold them, this is meant to blame David, yet again, for something he didn’t do, for the death of my mother, when a woman enters the room from the side, with a shirt that says Sherwin Williams, really it just says, paint, and she says, so, not a leader.

Yeah, got it, Prince Harry didn’t realize in Sherlock those were attacks meant on The White House by way of my mother’s strokes and medical conditions, it is only logical, unlike his choice of spouse, yet again, you morons are following after the same model they used on David with Brianna and Courtney, didn’t really turn out too well for those women.

So, be careful people.

If I tell you no, perhaps you should honor my wish, instead of forcing your way in, unless, what it is you ‘re really after, is your own premature death.

I already see, people throwing little temper tantrums, what about her boyfriend, she said no to him and he is still her boyfriend?

GET OUT!

GET THE FUCK OUT!

JUST GET THE FUCK OUT IF YOU DO NOT, CANNOT SEE THE DIFFERENCE GET OUT!  GET THESE PEOPLE OUT!  THEY ARE EITHER GOING TO GET THEMSELVES KILLED – OR OTHERS!  GET OUT!

I’m sorry, I’m 100%.

The only reason, at least one reason, this woman walks in as I am holding David’s hands, there is a man to my left, and there is a canister like device on the ground behind David, in the tool room area.  The canister like device is real, was real, was really there, the man – was not.                       

It’s just brain-palace stuff, and it’s not really that interesting.  However, since this one encounter has gotten so much undue attention, let me explain it: the man that is not visible to the human eye  standing to my left is probably connected to the plans that are in the canister on the ground behind David.

The canister, is a little narrower than the diameter of a paint can, about the same height, metallic, meant to look like a time capsule; however, what I see, is it in more like a drive through bank deposit…what are those things called?  Container?

The canister-like devise, or bank deposit device has (meaning they could still happen) plans in it to attack both the White House and Buckingham Palace, and they are not that good.  Meaning, they will be easily defeated.

It’s like a man, standing in front of The White House, and throwing a tic-tac…at The White House.  Anyone think, that’s a real threat? 

A tic-tac?

Really, the only thing about Home Depot has been repeated at every employment starting in 2015, using Cherith as a parlor trick.  And, not using me as Washington, DC’s killer because I am 100%.   

No, he really can’t and that is Reg Poling.  If you’ve used him, for military applications, I did not approve him.

I loved David.  He was at least supposed to date me.  I know, however, if no one else does, there should be a distinction between work and home life.

I’m sorry I am 100% failsafe, and NO, I never told Michael any classified security, or military plans, information, or anything at all.

I’m sorry that it looks like they knew that.  They specifically referring to the CIA black site that gets blown up in the movie Zero Dark Thirty, it’s made to appear that Michael was involved, and there are many people who know that isn’t true, unfortunately, it makes Stuart Shapiro look involved, with that incident.

Because it looks like Stuart is involved it makes me suspicious of Reg.  Because Stuart was brought into my theater group, after David, and I got the impression Stuart and Reg knew each other.  I remember thinking, I’ve been in these theater classes for a while and never seen Stuart before.

It makes me suspicious.

Please stop listening to other people BEFORE me.

You didn’t know what you didn’t know.  It’s really…you brought Reg into the building of my former employer by way of Gus Van Sant, as though I was supposed to “detect” from that, from him being my manager, that Reg, was my commander, and I was his – PRIVATE.

PLEASE STOP DOING DUMB SHIT, YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND.

I AM 100%.  NO ONE ELSE.

Who is the transmitter that was here last night around 11pm?!  I know him from college, he goes together with, the letter is too well written, from the movie, 12 Strong.

Whatever was attached to my having to return the bad Matzo cracker’s – really bad planning, really bad strategy, and really BAD IDEA TO CONTINUE DOING. 

All I remember from meeting Franco at Home Depot is he wasn’t supposed to walk away from me, and that time has passed now.  Things are different, and he shouldn’t be seen as a replacement for – David.

Are you really sure you want to be seen as the country that does NOT believe in 100%?  By simply not allowing me the simple choices, whatever they may be, including food, and trying to FORCE me to only have one choice, someone else’s choice, will never be 100%.

 Is the United States really willing NOT TO BELIEVE IN 100%?!

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

December 23, 2019

Murder for hire plot news story is true.

Who sent this – itch?  Who sent this for me to decode?  It is most unusual.  Does anyone know what this mean?  Does anyone know how to decode this – itch?

Itch is meant to look like this, IT, being TI, for Texas Instruments, and CH for my name, my sign name in sign language.  And, everyone that agreed that that code was correct would be WRONG!

Itch, decodes to – desecrated my table top.   

Let me write that again, itch, decodes to – desecrated my table top.  And I wrote it correctly, table top is not one word.

It goes, or decodes, like this:  des – 1, e – 2, crate – 7, d – 8, my – 9, tab – 10, le – 11, top – 12.

Desecrated my table top, meaning, me.

Does anyone have any idea what this means?  What this means to the United States?  How valuable this is?  Or, who this man is?

Did he send this because I wrote, they know the God of the Hebrews?  Because it says to me, he never thought of it – that way before.

Is this also true?

Is this what this other man has in his mind about the image of the crate?  Wood about a dark to medium dark brown wood, latticed together, not a basketweave that would be WRONG, like lattice, and similar to the color of my dresser that is in the background of a lot of my photographs.

Crate is rather significant.  It has a lot in it, from this man’s mind.

If you got the code of desecrated my table top and you tried to decode that into, ate, or anything else, you’d be WRONG!

If anyone thought it was about people drugging me, they’d be WRONG!

Crate, no ate, they’d be WRONG!

From this man’s mind, I could write a thesis long paper about all the ways, WRONG, people could be.

Do you know how significant that is?!  Wrong?

Let me tell you.  This mans is thrilled to death almost with how correct, I am.  Every time I write, or tell people they’re wrong, it’s laughable, almost hysterical.  And, that’s good for the US. 

Crate also tells me it’s meant; the crate is meant to be 2 X 2 X 2.  Noah saved the animals in the ark 2 X 2.  God saved the animals, God saving the animals tells me, Garanimals.  Garanimals being a brand of clothing for children.  Garanimals tells me this man wants something, and it looks like I would give it to him.

Desecrated my table top tells me, this man ins in agreement with Washington, DC that Cherith Gjestland is their killer, Cherith is the only one, and this is a really big win for us.  Is this in Afghanistan?

Is this in Afghanistan?

You people might want to hop on this real quick – THAT’S AN ORDER!

That’s a really big breakthrough.

When am I going to get my body back?  And end this abuse to my body?  That’s also, an order!

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

 

December 23, 2019

Jessica Jing Ren dies news story is a profile of Carrie Fee, and that is all it says.  So, if you had questions about her, if you wanted me to read or brainwork anything about a person, all you did was create a profile of a real person, without any – ASK, in it.

For some reason this artwork needs to be shown.  This is the artwork I bought in Quebec City, Quebec Canada, in 1996, with cash, Canadian cash, and my mother had “framed” in Plant City, Florida.

Perhaps, you don’t know how to decode movies, and framing your face in Zohan, is really about picture frames.       

India’s BJP concedes defeat news story says, Prince Harry.  Why is that?

Algeria’s powerful military chief dies news story, really says, I had to TELL you how to read me.  If I have to tell you how to read subtlety, perhaps this is NOT the job for you.

Who is the person who has been fooled with the Kenyan pupil’s news story?  Because it is not me.

This military man whose betrayed his own country is not done talking.  It looks like you’ll need him, behind bars.

People be aware, be advised: I drew or “sketched” this eagle while Bill Gothard was speaking at a Basic Youth seminar in Downtown Tampa, in the late eighties.

These two go together.

With a pencil.  With a fucking pencil, from the movie John Wick, is about this sketch I drew with a – pencil.  If you cannot figure it out, I chose this photo to draw or sketch from an art book in my 8^th grade Art class, in Gresham, Oregon. 

It means, someone died because I drew or sketched this, and I don’t think it was a problem.  It’s probably the man that’s seen in the Bourne Identity, in the field, that Bourne kills.  Because just like in the movie, it looks like that man needed to die.

You might want to re-think your strategy around here with people walking “their” dogs in front of me.

With a pencil. 

This is what a spy looks like.  Who is it?

Who’s the spy?  I’ll give you a hint, they are spying against the United States.

Anymore guess as to who the spy guilty of espionage, really is?

What if I told it was a woman?  Can you spot her?  See her?  Find her?

It’s really stupid to spy against the United States especially when it is your own country.

For a point of reference, that man sitting down in this photograph, I nicknamed the Dread Pirate Roberts.  It should have been a clue to someone, if anyone was paying attention – AT ALL! 

Clockwise from left to right, Reg Poling, Hillary, Randi Redmon, Matt Camero, Carrie Fee, Stuart Shapiro, myself, Nick, and sitting down is, the Dread Pirate Roberts, Robert.

Carrie Fee is the woman guilty of espionage and spying against the United States.

She is seen in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty and Munich.  If it’s in a movie, it’s not a secret.

In the movie, Munich, she is the house, or brain, or mind, I wouldn’t trust.  In Zero Dark Thirty, she is in the dialogue, that amount of money buys a new life.

I am a little suspicious of Stuart Shapiro, he, Glenn, and Carrie used to spend a lot of time together.  When I didn’t.

Glenn is seen as the first lobster in the movie, Love Actually, and Glenn, Carrie, and Stuart, all being able to move away from Florida, and me not being able to move away, by way of financial means, is a little SUSPICIOUS!

Here is another something, I just wouldn’t do: while in college I wouldn’t stay up all night playing video games, and miss my classes, like Stuart did, when he started hanging out, with Glenn and Carrie – Zero Dark Thirty, me and a couple of other guys who were hanging around at the time.

I just wouldn’t do that.

Did you see my focus with this brain researched military man?  YOU DON’T LET UP, YOU DON’T GIVE IN, YOU DON’T GIVE THEM AN INCH!  In my mind, it’s just common sense.

Glenn, Stuart, and Carrie started hanging around together after I put up a wall, from something he said to me.  A wall being, he wasn’t my friend anymore.  And, that would have to have been before 9/11/2001. 

It looks like Stuart Shapiro is also guilty of espionage.

It’s a little suspicious.

It was my idea that my family, all of my family members, and not just my mother go to watch me perform for Cat on A Hot Tin Roof, this is before September 11^th?  This photo was taken before September 11^th.  Do you really want to tell me, I don’t know how to create peace and stability?

This photograph is future thinking.

My father, being my father, didn’t really want to go.  That’s just who he is.  I got a little upset with him after this photo, by telling him, I did it, for us as a family.  Either we are a family, or we are not a family.  Meaning, would he rather have another family instead? 

Is Glen(n) Everitte dead?  Did Glenn die in 2012, is this the motorcycle crash and Sheriff I saw in 2012, and I told you, by way of looking at the Sheriff, the Sheriff was the threat, all the way back to 1988.  It goes together with found a weakness in Hercules, the threat being the use of law enforcement officers.    

That goes together with a woman I worked with at Dillard’s, she worked at the make-up counter, Clinique, and I went to the movies, after work, or while I was employed with Dillard’s, and she appeared in a Sheriff’s uniform and sat behind me in the movie, and was out front when I left the theater.

She made it appear as though she was working another job.  Like a second job.  It means, I had a stalker in the Sheriff’s department and probably also, law enforcement, and you haven’t known it or done anything about it, until recently.

It goes together with a store meeting at The Container Store, when Rob was first introduced to the store.  There was a man I saw walking across the parking lot.

I don’t trust him.

You need to root this out before it gets – any worse, and more police work gets corrupted because of it.  It also means, some people might lose their jobs because of it.

This also goes together with what you did with David at the Starbucks while I was employed and on a lunch break at The Container Store.

Did you actually allow these police officers near me?!

Then, you don’t know how to protect me!  You don’t know how to protect me as a matter OF NATIONAL SECURITY!

Is this actually true?  Did this actually happen?

You placed David in front of me at a Starbucks, on my lunch break, after years of David constantly appearing in front of me, around me, following me, so much so, that I would Facebook message him because if he wanted to talk to me, why was he always around?

He never replied.

Ever.

And, we’ve never spoken face to face, without earpieces or disguises, since college.

I’m telling you it’s a really big mistake.  Not allowing me to be friends with anyone, let alone David, simply because I loved him in college.  IT’S A BIG MISTAKE!

Did you actually allow these low-level police officers to try and read me when I approached David at Starbucks?

I am so beyond their level, it’s really atrocious.

If this is true, and you showed me, a suspected terrorist, as I was about to approach David and start talking to him, as though no time had passed between us, YOU MADE A REALLY BIG MISTAKE!

AND, YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO READ, OR READ ME AT ALL, AND YOU DON’T BELONG!  AND USING THESE LOW-LEVEL MEN, IS VERY SERIOUS.  LAW ENFORCEMENT IS NOT INTELLIGENCE.

THEY REALLY – CAN’T!       

Here is the tell: as I was about to walk up to David, less than a few feet in front of him, a SHUTDOWN happened in my head, and YOU PEOPLE DIDN’T KNOW IT BECAUSE YOU DIDN’T – ASK ME!

A SHUTDOWN, SO, I IMMEDIATELY TURNED AWAY FROM DAVID AND WALKED TO THE COUNTER TO ORDER.

THESE ARE THE TELLS, I TURNED FROM DAVID, I STARTED SHAKING, MY WORDS GOT JUMBLED WHEN I SPOKE.  DO YOU KNOW HOW TO READ THAT?!

WHAT DOES THAT TELL YOU?!

PERHAPS YOU SHOULD RE-THINK YOUR STRATEGY AND START – ASKING ME INSTEAD!

HONESTLY, WHAT WOULD THOSE TELLS – TELL ANYONE?!

GUESSES?!

ANYONE?!

ANYONE WANT TO GUESS?!

The shutdown was probably, not Bin Laden, it was another suspected terrorist.  My words being jumbled was because well, it takes a few seconds when translating AND THINKING in another language, and the shaking, THIS IS THE WORST ONE!

So, let me ask, what does anyone think me shaking would actually say?!

Fear?  Anger?  Rage?  Distraught?  Anymore guesses?

THAT shaking in the Starbucks, is EXTREME – HURT!  So, hurt emotionally, it physicalized, and another tell is me crying in The Container Store afterwards.

And, honestly, it looks like – they read me correctly, and the United States did not.  Meaning, they knew I was hurt by the loss of David.  And, I MATTERED so much to them, they killed people because of it.

Another tell, was me crying here in this house, for – HOURS after seeing David.  HOURS, a most horrible and bad cry, I cried for hours!  

That cry goes together with me looking behind me, the last time I saw David, the last time I saw David before he went away to University, and the other terrible nights, of me crying myself, nearly sick after David left.

Do you know why I was crying so?  Why it’s in the movie, Twilight, it’s not normal for Bella to cry because Edward broke up with her?

The reason I looked behind, was sick with grief from David, was because someone placed orders out there for me to never be loved, have a man, ever again.  It’s a serious mistake.  And, it has only been done to ensure fighting will continue, and this is JUST SO MORE AMERICAN’S WILL LOSE THEIR LIVES, AND NO OTHER REASON!

Here is another thing people have gotten wrong from Mulan, all those men that the Captain is training with Mulan, do you know what that really is?  Those are military men that should be lined up outside Cherith’s door, wanting to marry her.  Do you know why?

Because of all the good it would do just to have my married name, on – MILITARY ID, IDENTIFICATION.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

December 22, 2019

Make sure Harry’s wife, is not allowed access to me – that’s an ORDER!

THAT’S WHAT PEOPLE DO!  Do you know what this means, from Sherlock?  People have died, that’s what people do!  Do you know what that means?

Other FBI man they need you for this one, and this – NEEDS TO BE DISMANTLED!

PEOPLE HAVE DIED, THAT’S WHAT PEOPLE DO, GOES ALL THE WAY BACK TO – 1989.

People have died, that’s what people do has been the modus operandi since August/September 1989.  Meaning, whatever scenario – happens – concerning me, at least once person will die, from the work.  This MUST be dismantled!

Harry’s wife is about to fall, if she has not done so already, into a trap, and she might not survive from it.   BECAUSE AGAIN, I DIDN’T DO IT!

My Russian man and I spent a night together, it should be no one else’s business other than he and myself.  I don’t feel bad about it, yet you have news stories suggesting my Russian man is responsible for weight gain upon my person – when the truth is, it is Harry’s wife.

Allowing a person to do harm to another person, to trap them, catch them, convict them, is not the smartest way to do intelligence work.

PEOPLE DIE FROM THIS MODIS OPERANDI.

SO, ENDING MY EMPLOYMENT DID NOT – END ANYTHING.  DID NOT – STOP – ANYTHING.  DID NOT – THWART – ANYTHING.

The truth is it is going to be difficult to dismantle it, AND IT MUST BE DONE!

SOMEONE WANT TO TELL ME WHO THREATENED MY LIFE TODAY – BECAUSE I WANTED TO GO TO CHURCH TODAY?!  

THIS HAS PROVEN TO BE NOT A SURVIVABLE SITUATION!

THIS IS A WARNING!  WARNING!  WARNING!  WARNING!  HARRY’S WIFE SCREAMS WARNING!  TO ME!

BLAMING DAVID FOR THE ATTACKS ON SEPTEMBER 11^TH – JUST SO AT LEAST ONE PERSON WILL DIE!

ARE YOU SEEING THE PATTERN, YET! 

OBVIOUSLY, I DON’T BLAME DAVID.  IF HE’S THIRSTY I AIN’T STOPPING HIM! 

I WRITE THAT BECAUSE SOMEONE IS AROUND, OR NEARBY THAT NEEDS TO KNOW, IF MY BOYFRIEND, OR MY RUSSIAN MAN, THIS OTHER FBI MAN WHO ALSO SPENT A NIGHT WITH ME ON THE FLOOR, OR ANY MAN I LIKE, IS THIRSTY – I AIN’T STOPPING THEM!

CHERITH LOVES PENIS!  CHERITH LOVES PENIS!  CHERITH LOVES PENIS!  CHERITH LOVES PENIS!

You got another real problem here because someone has allowed an immature mind to subsist, when I would never have done so.

I mean, I am singing in a child-like sing-song-y voice, CHERITH LOVES PENIS.  That doesn’t SCREAM problem to anyone other than me?!

So, when I tell you, you need to stop talking through other people, filming me, and allow me to live my life, you’ll thank me for it when YOU ALSO, GET TO LIVE A LONG AND NATURAL LIFE AS WELL.

Here’s another problem to be aware of: brain researched minds, don’t set off an alarm the way other criminals set off alarms.  Meaning, persons of law enforcement, FBI, CIA, intelligence, and other work, people will be able to understand, similar to reading people, suspected criminals set off a mental alarm, and that is how they do their work.

However, brain researched minds and brains, at least to me, so I doubt I am the only one that sees them differently, are very difficult to detect.  Similar, to not fitting a profile.

I write that because I believe it is important for intelligence to be aware of, understand, and know.

It makes brain researched minds able to appear more – passable.  As a non-threat.  And I think, brain research, and brain researched minds is most important work.  Because who knew of brain researched minds before, I mean, other than me, before 2019? 

And, that military motherfucker that I want to pound his face in, is a really big wake-up call.  Brother.  Brother.

It was a little difficult feeling like singing praise and worship WITH THAT SOB THERE.  Was it helpful, at all?  Or, is this someone else’s ego that wanted to be placated?

And, another thing, DON’T YOU EVER TELL MY PASTOR, OR ANY PASTOR OF ANY CHURCH I EVER GO TO – WHO THEY CAN BE!  I DON’T GO TO CHURCH TO HEAR ANYONE ELSE OTHER THAN THE PASTOR OF HIS CHURCH!

I SAW IT ON HIM!  I SAW IT ON HIS PERSON!  DON’T YOU PEOPLE EVER TELL A PASTOR OF WHATEVER CHURCH I GO TO, WHO THEY CAN BE!  IT’S – HIS – SERMON!  NOT ANYON E ELSE’S!

WHO IS THIS STUPID JERK THAT CANNOT REMOVE THEMSELVES AND THEIR EGO’S FOR A FEW SHORT HOURS?!

HIS SERMON!

HIS SERMON!

HIS SERMON!

HIS SERMON!

GOT IT?!

HIS!  NOT YOURS!  HIS!

I have no patience for such egoism!  It may have gotten a person wins in business, it has no place – WHATSOEVER – in my mind, in the real world of diplomacy, intelligence, and politics.

I’m ‘bout to start a fight because you didn’t allow my Pastor just to be himself, and that would be most unwise. 

AND, HERE’S ANOTHER THING, I STATRTED POSTED ALL MY PHOTGRAPHS, ON MY BLOG, AIN’T ANYONE ELSE, OTHER THAN MINE, MY BLOG BECAUSE IT APPEARS WHAT HAS HAPPENED AT MY FORMER EMPLOYMENT IS SUSPECTED CRIMINALS, LIKE LOUIS, HAVE BEEN GIVEN ACCESS – WITHOUT MY PERMISSION – TO MY PERSONAL PHOTOGRAPHS.

IT’S LIKE GIVING CRIMINALS BACK THE EVIDENCE WITH WHICH TO CONVICT THEM WITH.

IT’S THAT BAD.

DISMANTLE THIS BEFORE MORE ENDLESS LIVES ARE LOST BECAUE – NO ONE SAW IT COMING.

GOT IT?!

BROTHER?!

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

 

December 22, 2019

Make sure Harry’s wife, is not allowed access to me – that’s an ORDER!

That right eyebrow is true then, Hebrew.

I’m sorry my brain and mind is so remarkable that it works in a way and at such a speed, the world has never seen anything like ever before.

This military man that moved to DC in 2010 I don’t see anywhere before 2010, popped up like daisies, Mulan.

It tells me he has stolen someone’s identity, is this true?  Or, are these two different people?  If he has stolen, if there has been an identity stolen, then Melissa McCarthy’s life is in danger.

If this is in anyway true, then they have also, been doing it wrong.  A celebrity’s death, or the life of an individual is not a matter of national security.

Be careful not to misread, I couldn’t leave my mother, I couldn’t just put her in a home, I couldn’t leave her bedside, and if ANYONE WAS PAYING ATTENTION, sometimes it was six months or more at a time before I did something as simple as getting my haircut – without my mother.

I made sure someone was with her when I was gone for only a few hours to get something as simple as a hair-cut, but I couldn’t leave – like guard duty – for something as simple as the time it takes to get a haircut.

When was the last time you were on guard duty, solider, for six months or more without relief?  Now, try years of it!

Also, is this true because I said it in my head, don’t be surprised if you see anything whilst interrogating him, that resembles anything that looks like an exorcism. 

IS THIS TRUE?  DID HE CRUMBLE, QUICKLY?!

Please don‘t misread Hidalgo, that father that wishes his daughter had been a man is a read to show the United States military you are underutilizing me, you do not have the correct mind-set regarding me, they see me differently, like a breed apart, and it’s an important distinction to differentiate.

What I saw yesterday is that child that had been living in Bin Laden’s compound, looks like she has been sexually abused, by a man, probably a man like, an uncle and not her father.  Is this true?

Because she looks, frightened.  Scared of men, and not in a little way, I mean scared of men where she would scream and holler and violently react because she’s frightened.  Is this true?

Because although she may have been sexually abused by a man, she is a straight woman, and she does not want to remain the rest of her life in the company of women.  So, if you morons were then going to place this vulnerable child in the role of my manager and telling me what to do by way of – LESBIANS!

I’m sorry if I think faster than you can keep up with.

It would have continued to make serious mistakes, creating bad mental impasses in her mind, for her to heal.

I haven’t yet brain-worked their military plan to Bin Laden, so don’t aske me questions, I don’t yet have time for.

They read her wrong, they had a wrong profile of her, and they were managing her WRONG.

Here is another example:

This look on my face, is my patience wearing thin.  This is a read of another person somewhere in the same building as me when this photo was taken, and my patience was wearing thin.  There is obviously another female, probably law enforcement, and a lesbian, and she appears to have some serious sexual delusions about me, and I was doing my best NOT TO SCREAM MY FUCKING HEAD OFF!

Here is another example: WHO IS THIS PERSON, THEY NEED TO BE REMOVED!  JUST BECAUSE I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS CHILD WHO APPEARS TO HAVE BEEN SEXUALLY ABUSED, THEY HAVE SOMEONE ELSE NEAR ME TRYING TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ACCEPTING HER AS A MEMBER OF MY FAMILY!  LIKE THAT!

LET ME BE CLEAR!  DON’T YOU EVER AGAIN TELL ME WHEN TO MAKE SOMEONE AS FAMILIAR AS FAMILY – EVER AGAIN!

I HAVE NO PROBLEM WHATSOEVER ABOUT DETERMING WHO IS AND WHO IS NOT, AND WHO DOESN’T NEED IT, AND WHO DOES!

IT IS SOME OF THE WORST THINKING I COULD THINK OF, OH YEAH BECAUSE I DIDN’T THINK OF THAT.

YOU NEED TO START THINKING MORE LIKE A SOCIAL WORKER!  A SOCIAL WORKER WHO DETERMINES THE STABILITY AND SAFETY OF A HOME DOES NOT DO SO FROM THE MIND-SET OF ACCEPTING THEM – IN THEIR HEAD – AS A MEMBER OF THEIR FAMILY.

LEARN YOUR BORDERS!  LEARN YOUR BOUNDARIES!  LEARN TO COMPARTMENTALIZE!  LEARN TO MAKE DISTINCTIONS!  BECAUSE IT IS – HEALTHIER!

It would fit the pattern if this child had been sexually abused because they’d hurt my mother, yet from what I see, it is not true.  He was just a mean, mean, mean, mean, mean, mean man.  Mean is the best word for him.  Mean.  Mean.

Obviously, David was the strongest male at college, strong of mind and the body will follow, and this is decades of subtle subversive abuse to his mind because I loved him for who he really was – on the inside.

 And, it is most painful still because it doesn’t take a genius to see, we would have had beautiful children.

And, I did not keep a single photograph of Michael and I together.  It doesn’t take a genius to figure out, I was most unhappy with that relationship.

Is this true, did David’s biological father, die by an overdose?  After I saw him probably, 2014?  Is this really true?

It looks like his father was trying to give David the mental picture of happiness between man and wife, a married couple.  Like, this is what it looks like to be happy on this inside, from the outside.

Was David’s father, did he also have previous military experience?  I would want to know more about the men who served with him.  It’s of some interest.

If it is true, if his father died from an overdose, it is self-inflicted.  

I’m sorry for your loss.  I would want to know more.

Here is another example, and why Disney was really a good employer for me because of all the work they do, for children, for other’s that is not seen every day.  In the movie, Bambi and Bambi says Flower to a skunk, Thumper corrects Bambi, and Flower says, I don’t mind, you can call me Flower.

This is a very tricky scene to read, interpret, and decode.

There is nothing wrong with Bambi’s – behavior.

The detail to look at and pay attention to is, Bambi said – the wrong word.

These are separate occurrences, in detail, it is not one scene.

Flower has an inappropriate – reaction.  Because Flower flirts, or is flirty in response, when it is very obvious that a straight, on gay flirt, is – inappropriate.

I would take me a great deal more time to decode the rest of that one scene.  It is much more complex, difficult, meaningful, and tricky, than an animated movie, that’s why – it’s classic.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

 

December 21, 2019

Make sure Harry’s wife, is not allowed access to me – that’s an ORDER!

DON’T YOU EVER AGAIN TELL ME I CAN’T MOTIVATE MILTARY MEN AND MOTIVATE THEM – PROPERLY!   NOT EVER!

DON’T YOU EVER AGAIN TELL ME WHAT I CANNNOT DO!  AND DO BETTER THAN A-N-Y-O-N-E!

FOR THAT MATTER, DON’T YOU EVER AGAIN MANIPULATE MY SHOES, SIMPLY BECAUSE THERE SLOGAN HAS THE WORD – DO, IN IT!

I WANT TO BEAT THIS MOTHERFUCKER LIKE NONE OTHER!

I WANT TO BEAT HIM AND BEAT HIM!

I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM!

HE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO EXIST!

DON’T YOU EVER AGAIN LET THIS HAPPEN – IN MY COUNTRY!  I’LL BEAT YOUR FUCKING ASS LIKE YOU’VE NEVER BEEN BORN!

DON’T YOU EVER USE DAVID AGAIN LIKE THAT – EVER!

YOU FUCKING MORONS DON’T KNOW EVERYTHING THEY’VE DONE WITH HIM!

DON’T YOU EVER AGAIN WAIT – UNTIL ITS TOO LATE!

AND – STOP!

JUST STOP!

STOP!

STOP!

STOP!

STOP!

YOU NEED TO STOP!

YOU NEED TO REMOVE THE INCOMPETENCE, OR YOU WILL BE CHASING AROUND A GHOST ‘TIL YOU’RE DEAD!

STOP!

THIS STUPID FUCKING DEAD SUBVERSIVE WOMAN HAS ALLOWED BAD MANAGEMENT TO BECOME A FORM OF – SUBVERSSION!

JUST STOP!

PEOPLE DIDN’T KNOW WHAT THEY DIDN’T KNOW!  THAT’S ALL!  WELL, NOW THEY KNOW!  SO, IT’S DIFFERENT!

STOP BLAMING PEOPLE JUST TO GET REVENGE AND AVENGE YOUR OWN EGOS!

PUT IT IN THE BOOKS, PUT IT IN THE LAWS SO IT DOESN’T HAPPEN AGAIN!  UNTIL THEN, STOP RUNNING AROUND BLAMING THIS PERSON AND THAT PERSON – JUST BECAUSE YOU’RE FEELING THINGS!

BE AWARE: I WANT TO PUNCH THIS MOTHERFUCKER, AND PUNCH HIM, AND BEAT HIS FUCKING ASS!

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU MORONS DID?!  YOU PURPOSEFULLY PLACED A GOOD MAN IN THE US MILITARY FOR ME TO READ AT MY FORMER EMPLOYMENT, AND THEN – BEHIND THE SCENES, YOU REPLACED HIM WITH A MAN – I HADN’T READ!

WE’RE YOU AFRAID I WOULDN’T APPROVE?!

IF YOU’RE AFRAID, IF YOU’RE E’SCARED – YOU DON’T BELONG AND GET THE FUCK OUT!

IF YOU ARE AFRAID TO BE – READ – BY ME, GET OUT!

THIS LOUSY MOTHERFUCKER HAS A SUPERIORITY COMPLEX!  DO YOU KNOW WHAT A SUPERIORTY COMPLEX IN A MAN, IN A MIILITARY MAN – SAYS ABOUT A MAN?

IT SAYS HE’S INSECURE, POSSIBLE LOW SELF-ESTEEM, AND NOT IN CONTROL OF HIS OWN MANHOOD!  

YOU GOT A MILITARY MAN IN MY COUNTRY WHO ISN’T IN CONTROL OF HIS OWN MANHOOD?!

YOU-GOT-A-PROBLEM!

‘CAUSE YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND BRAINS!   YOU SURE DON’T UNDERSTAND MENS BRAINS!

THAT IS HOW THEY GOT TO HIM!  SUPERIORITY COMPLEX IS A GODDMAN MASK!  YOU MIGHT AS WELL PUT A DRESS ON AND MASQUARDE AROUND AS A TRANSGENDERED MAN!

‘CAUSE NOW YOU CAN’T!

YOU EITHER GET THESE MILITARY MEN WITH THE MIND-SET OF HAVING ERECTIONS SO FUCKING HARD, THEY DON’T NEED A GODDAMN CHAIR TO SIT DOWN!

DO YOU GET IT?!

DO YOU SEE THAT PICTURE?!

THAT’S MY MILITARY MAN!  THAT’S MY MILITARY MEN!  THEY HAVE FUCKING HARD-ON’S SO HARD, THAT WHEN THEIR LEGS GET TIRED, THEY DON’T NEED TO SIT DOWN, THEY GOT A PENIS SO FUCKING HARD, THEY USE IT TO PROP THEMSELVES UP WITH!

SO, FUCKING HARD, THEY DON’T EVEN HAVE TO THINK ABOUT – BECAUSE THEY’VE ALREADY DONE THE WORK!  BEFORE THEY GOT THERE!

JEFF BEZOS DIDN’T KNOW WHAT HE DIDN’T KNOW, DAVID DIDN’T KNOW WHAT HE DIDN’T KNOW, THIS MAN DIDN’T KNOW WHAT HE DIDN’T KNOW, THE LIST GOES ON AND ON – SO, STOP!

THAT HEAD WOUND SCENE OF MARIA IN THE MOVIE, THE POWER OF ONE – IS A REAL MAN, AND THAT RED-HEAD, IS NOT MY MOTHER, THAT’S A REAL MAN – MY, THEN, TEEN-AGED MOTHER GOT WHILE IN CANADA!

THAT’S A REAL MAN THAT DIED – BECAUSE MY MOTHER DIDN’T – HATE!

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY THE PRESIDENT WALKS OUT WITH BANNING IN THE MOVIE, OLYMPUS HAS FALLEN?!  BECAUSE I AM BANNING!

I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS MOTHERFUCKER!  WHERE HE WAS BORN, WHERE HE GOT HIS TRAINING, AND I WANT TO PUT MY FOOT IN HIS FUCKING TEETH!

YOU GET THIS MOTHERFUCKER!  BECAUSE HE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO EXIST!  NOT IN MY COUNTRY!

YOU INVESTIGATE EF, EDUCATIONAL FOUNDATION BECAUSE IT IS AT THE ROOT OF SUBVERSIVE ACTIONS AGAINST INTELLIGENCE!

I WANT THIS MOTHERFUCKER TO GO WITHOUT FOOD FOR A WHILE, AND THAT IS NOT A JOKE, THAT IS AN ORDER!  HE SHOULDN’T GET SOLID FOOD, FOR DAYS!  AN ORDER!

AN INSECURE MAN IN THE MILITARY – AND THAT’S HOW THEY GOT TO HIM!

THAT DOESN’T EXIST IN MILITARY!          

SO, DON’T YOU EVER TELL ME AGAIN WHAT I CAN’T DO!   BECAUSE I KNOW!

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

 

December 21, 2019

Make sure Harry’s wife, is not allowed access to me – that’s an ORDER!

To begin with you can’t control another person’s emotions.  You can’t control emotions, the emotions of another person, and that is what that brown haired, now dead, subversive woman, tried to do.

I WON’T THANK YOU FOR RUINING MY NIKE SHOES, EITHER!  MY MOST RECENT PURCHASE OF NIKE SHOES!  I WON’T THANK YOU!

She is seen in the movie, Charlotte Grey as the woman in the coffee shop, shaking uncontrollably with fear – THAT IS THE DETAIL TO PAY ATTENTION TO, HER REAL PERSON SHAKING WITH FEAR TO BE – DISCOVERED!

AND, THE REASON SHE DIDN’T LET ME READ HER – FACE, WAS HER BEING AFRAID OF ME!  BEING READ BY ME!  BEING DISCOVERED FOR WHO SHE REALLY IS!  SO, STOP TELLING ME – WHAT AND WHO AND HOW PEOPLE ARE FEELING, THINKING, ABOUT, AND START FUCKING LISTENING!

When I tell you there is a problem, there’s a problem.  I don’t make mistakes, it’s a goddamn movie, for all the world to see and know.  I don’t make them.

It is not my fault, no one has had the decency to be the best handlers of me like they were in California.

Why are you making me be the one to tell the world Prince Harry and Meghan are no longer a couple, together, or sleeping with each other?!

David, don’t you ever go near Carrie Fee again until I think about what the fuck she has done!  I’ll punch you in your goddamn face if you EVER do something that stupid, again!  It’s stupid!

Kansas man pleads guilty is true.  What’s this about?

Iowa woman ran down teen is Harry’s wife.

PM dies at 30 is true, what’s this about?!

2 men dead after Danielle stole this ring…

…is real.  What’s this about?

Rickshaw run says, Chris from college didn’t know Cherith had it in her.

Secure the Presidency, Trump looks inept.

Let me remind you, you are all following after a woman’s plan, orders, ideas, system, and so on who COULDN’T, SHE CAN’T, AND SHE IS NOW – DEAD!

YOU CAN’T CONTROL THE ESCALATION UNTIL PEOPLE ARE AT THE POINT OF LOSING THEIR LIVES!  IT’S LUNACY!  IT’S MAYHEM!  IT’S ANARCHY!  AND IT IS – NOT ME!

YOU ARE CREATING RUINED MEN JUST BECAUSE THEY WOULD LOVE ME, IT’S NOT STRENGTH, IT’S WEAKNESS!  AND IT IS DIBILITIATING!  

 Is this really up to me to tell people what really happened yesterday?  Again?  What good are you people, if I must do everything?!

This was a military man in Washington, DC, they got yesterday.  He would have chosen to be – brain researched.  Meaning, he agreed to allow them to brain research him to subvert the United States!  HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT HAPPEN?!

THAT’S NOT A SURVIVABLE SITUATION, SOLIDER!

LET ME SAY AND WRITE AGAIN, IT’S A REALLY BIG MISTAKE, NOT TO TRUST ME, ALLOW ME, AND LET ME – BE ME.

AGAIN, MUST NOT RULE FROM SHERLOCK, IS ALL ABOUT WHATEVER PRESIDENT IS PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES – MUST NOT RULE, MUST NOT HAVE A HEAD OF GOVERNMENT!

I still have a voice, bitch.

If you people, don’t remove Meghan Markle from anywhere around me, she will not live long, and that is not from me.

 YOU CAN‘T CONTROL THE ESCALATION!

YOU CAN’T!

YOU CAN’T!

YOU MUST DESIST!

This is a hornet’s nest; you want to get into:

When I walked into The Container Store for the first time, on the first day, and the very moment I saw Jaimie, I was shocked.  Do you know what was going through my mind and head?  You don’t.  They don’t.  They didn’t.  And, they didn’t even with the Bluetooth and the hysterectomy, they still didn’t know. 

She isn’t supposed to be here.  She wasn’t supposed to be there.  Jaimie wasn’t supposed to be in The Container Store AT ALL!  That’s what I was thinking, she isn’t supposed to be here.

If Jaimie in any way was supposed to be this blonde lesbian double – NOW DEAD – agent, you should have asked me instead.  I could have saved you a lot of work.

Blonde lesbian double agents says, Sandy Hill, says, EF, Educational Foundation, says, Academic Adventures in America – AND THIS MUST BE INVESTIGATED!  HOW MANY TIMES MUST I WRITE IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN!  They’ve had dealings, business contacts, and information – THEY NEVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN ALLOWED!  DO YOU WANT TO CAPTURE DOUBLE AGENTS, OR DO YOU WANT TO LET THEM CONTINUE OPERATING?!

EDUCATIONAL FOUNDATION – EF!

 SANDY HILL!

ACADEMIC ADVENTURES IN AMERICA!

Here is another fact Sandy Hill was in Plant City, Florida BEFORE an airline company went out of business.  For whatever reason I was there for, it was in a church off of 39, it’s one of those roads in Florida with multiple names, behind a strawberry business, by an old gas station, now a mechanic shop, and I’ve been and had work done at that mechanic’s shop, and I talked about the Concord.

We were supposed to talk about something, I made up a story about wanting to fly on the Concord, and travel, and it was only a few years later, the Concord ceased to exist!  It is not a coincidence. 

I remember hearing the news story, and it along the lines of, something’s wrong.

Something’s wrong because I was supposed to fly on the Concord!

It’s like speaking truth to an event, and someone tried to cover it up.  It’s in Sherlock too much with planes, airplanes, and dead bodies, and the truth is, it looks like the Brits also, didn’t have the all answers.

They just have better transmitters.

They’ve been doing it longer, that’s all.

Who is this grumpy Gus?  Gus, Gus.  From Disney’s Cinderella?  Gus, Gus.  Grumpy.  What an unpleasant person, he is.

 

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

 

December 20, 2019

Make sure Harry’s wife, is not allowed access to me – that’s an ORDER!

Whatever they have been doing, they’re lying.

DO NOT EVER USE ONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS TO EVER LET HARRY’S WIFE SPEAK TO ME AGAIN!

DON’T YOU EVER AGAIN LET ANY MAN I LIKE – BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME, LIKE MY BOYFRIEND!  AND I’VE JUST SAVED YOUR LIVES AGAIN!  It really is that simple.

All these months when real work was to be done – WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING?!  Placating someone’s ego?!

Take no for an answer and stop.

What you are actually doing is creating an unfriend in me, it is a serious mistake.

I’m done here.  Again.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA’S FAMILY AND FRIENDS, “CASEY”, MEGHAN, GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

December 20, 2019

I am already getting tired of having to say and write this – I didn’t do it.  I didn’t do that.  I didn’t create that.  I didn’t make those plans.  I didn’t allow that to happen.  And every version, from, or known and unknow rendition of such a question.

Yes, Elizabeth Warren and her campaign appear to have misappropriated funds.

Would you vote for a person that is not able to manage their funds and money within the LEGAL parameters of our United States LAWS?!

I wouldn’t.

So, please don’t tell me you allowed that to happen upon my person either in front of my home, in my car, or anywhere around my person.  Please stop allowing American’s to be seen as dumb and stupid because you can’t.

In whatever form you can’t, takes, if you can’t, do not allow American’s to look dumb, stupid, weak, incompetent, naïve, insecure, unable…shall I go on?

Truthfully, I am a little worried about our own government.  Our United States government.  Truth be told.  We are real close.  Really close.

The FBI is going to teach me how to surf, from Point Break, that surfing is about capturing terrorist, but you have it wrong.  The FBI is going to teach me – how to make movies?

Something Wicked This Way Comes, is a very vague notion, an idea, of brain research.  Nothing more from what I saw, it mostly says, brain research.

Is this actually true because this is what this looks like, did we really waste valuable money and resources on sending our men into China?!  Because some moron believed the real credible threat was in CHINA?!

AND, THAT DOUGHNUT ON MY BELLY TELLS ME, YOU’VE BEEN TRYING TO FIND WAYS TO FORCE ME TO DO IT YOUR WAY, COPY THIS, COPY THAT, DO IT THIS WAY OR WE WILL PUNISH CHERITH WITH WEIGHT, OR FACIAL HAIR, OR HAIR LOSS, UNLESS CHERITH DOES IT OUR WAY – BECAUSE CHERITH WAS TOO SUCCESSFUL?!

GOD-FUCKING-DAMMIT!

I’LL WRITE THAT AGAIN!

CHERITH WAS TOO SUCCESSFUL!  CHERITH WAS TOO SUCCESSFUL WITH THE MILITARY, THE UNITED STATES MILITARY, AND BY THE WAY WITH HELP FROM THE FUCKING ENGLISH, AND THE UNITED KINGDOM, CHERITH WAS TOO SUCCESSFUL SO WE ARE GOING TO HAVE TO FIND WAYS – TO CORRUPT THE WAY, THE MANNER, THE ATTEMPTS, AND ANYTHING INVOLVING YOUR OWN SUCCESSES!

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!

ANYONE IN THE UNITED STATES, OR FOR THAT MATTER THE ENTIRE WORLD, IS ANYONE REALLY GOING TO ALLOW THIS TO CONTINUE IN THIS MANNER, OR ARE YOU FINALLY GOING TO SHUT THE FUCK UP, AND FIX IT, STOP IT, PREVENT IT!  BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE!

I AM GOING TO WRITE AND SAY THIS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL YOU GET IT IN YOUR FUCKING HEADS!

100%!

IF 100% IS TOO SUCCESSFUL FOR YOU – then, stand the fuck down because you really don’t belong.

LET ME REPEAT AND WRITE THIS AGAIN!  WE GOT BIN LADEN WITH THE H-E-L-P OF THE ENGLISH!  SO, HELP ME GOD, ANYONE TRIES TO MAR THIS – ON THIS MISSION ALONE, ON THE MISSION, SUCCESSFUL MISSION OF BIN LADEN ALONE – WE WILL BE IN TROUBLE!

CAPISE?!

I WANTED TO START A FIGHT LAST NIGHT BECAUSE IT LOOKED LIKE YOU DUMB ASSES SENT OUR MEN INTO CHINA AND THE REAL THREAT – IS IN YOUR OWN GODDAMN BACKYARD, MEANING WASHINGTON, DC!

BE REAL CAREFUL, THAT MAN IN WASHNGTON, DC, THE REAL THREAT, LOOKS BRAIN RESEARCHED, AND HE IS EXTREMELY DANGEROUS.  HE WILL BE EXTREMELY DANGEROUS!  AND, NO, PREVENTING ME FROM LEAVING OR DOING ANYTHING IN MY HOME WILL NOT BE A GOOD PLAN OF ACTION TO INTERPRET A REAL THREAT.

SO, GROW A SET OF BALLS!

SO, YOU’VE SPENT AND ALLOCATED MONEY ON INTELLIGENCE THAT ISN’T REAL!  THE REAL THREAT IS IN WASHINGTON, DC.  THERE IS A REAL PERSON IN WASHINGTON, DC THAT IS A REAL THREAT.

LET ME REPEAT THAT MAN IN WASHINGTON, DC, IS E-X-T-R-E-M-L-Y DANGEROUS.  HE’S BEEN BRAIN RESEARCHED, HE HAS REAL PLANS THAT COULD SUCCEED TO ASSASINATE THE UNITED STATES PRESIDENT (WHOEVER THAT COULD BE AT THE TIME) AND INFILTRATE THE WHITE HOUSE, WITH IT’S “MISSION” OF ANHILATING THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT.

DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE HIM!  USE EXTREME CAUTION!  HE IS VERY, VERY, VERY, ARE YOU GETTING THE PICTURE, VERY DANGEROUS!

I MEAN LIKE, EVACUATE PEOPLE – DANGEROUS!

FOLLOW THIS PATTERN, MY MOTHER, STROKE, AFTER STROKE, GOES TOGETHER WITH, MUST NOT RULE FROM SHERLOCK, AND THAT MUST NOT RULE IS A UNITED STATES PRESIDENT, THE HEAD OF GOVERNMENT FOR OUR UNITED STATES.

YOU ALLOWED MY MOTHER TO BE EXECUTED AND SHE WAS SEEN AS THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES.                 

YOU ALLOWED ME TO BE ATTACKED OVER AND OVER AGAIN, OR SHALL I SHOW YOU MORE PHOTOS OF MY BRUISES?!

And, this one, these photo’s I had to post, so the WHOLE WORLD WOULD KNOW WHAT HAS TRUTHULLY HAPPENED TO ME, is so insulting to at least one man, you have no idea how angry he really is. No idea.

Please make sure you do the correct and honorable thing, and prevent these occurrences from happening, or you truthfully have idea what will happen.

French orange news story is true, meaning correct.

By the way, who was that man in the Chinese restaurant?  Because I walked up to him and took a menu and stood next to him, like I knew him, as familiar as family, until I realized perhaps I am standing too close to him because I really don’t know who this man is I am standing next to, and perhaps he doesn’t want me standing so close to him, perhaps he would like to have his own personal space.  Yet, I walked up to him as familiar as a man I’ve known, for a very long time.  So, who was that, really?! 

Arrest that police officer who has stolen drugs from his own crime scenes.  And, all the other police officers in his unit who also, do the same.  Steal drugs from crime scenes.

Congratulations, no one needs to follow a full head of hair man or person, or a bald man anymore because I’VE TOLD THE WORLD BRAIN REASEARCH IS REAL.  SO, don’t worry about it anymore.

Next.

Because we’ve got a real problem.

Engaged in domestic terrorism is true and it is many people.

Do you realize the amount of work there is to go back from the time of death of Bin Liden and correct the plans that would have immediately been made from within our own government and military because of my success!

That workload is very real.

And, David Wolfe literally cannot go away, you will find out too late again.  He MUST STAY!  AND, I MEAN WITH ME MUST STAY!  AND FOR THAT MATTER, SO MUST MY BOYFRIEND!  BECAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW!

AND MY WESLEY, MY RUSSIAN MAN REALLY CANNOT LEAVE EITHER, SO THAT MUST MEAN YOU NEED HIM HERE BECAUSE OF HIS TIME IN RUSSIA, MEANING HE HAS REALLY VALUABLE INFORMATION – FROM HIS TIME AS A CHILD.

YOU TAKE AWAY ONE MORE GOOD MAN FROM ME, LIKE THIS OTHER FBI MAN, OR THIS FBI MAN WHO I HAVE NO IDEA WHY WHEN HE TALKS ALL I HEAR IS I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU, YOU TAKE AWAY MORE MAN FROM ME – THAT I APPROVE OF – AND YOU MIGHT NOT SURVIVE!

GOT IT?!

I MEAN, DO YOU FUCKING GET IT, NOW?!

Who’s going through withdrawal at the moment?  10:23am?  Because someone is trying to make me believe I need an alcoholic drink, um, and I KNOW I DON’T. 

I don’t know what to do for persons with substance abuse problems.  Nor, do I want or wish to be educated on such things.

If I ever had befriended a person, then discovered they had a drug problem, that’s an IMMEDIATE no longer your friend anymore, to me.

It is about the same as avoiding the appearance of EVIL.

Also, why would you place them with me when, this person is not my friend.

I am not a drug counsellor.

Do you know why scientific minds and I get along so well?  Really intelligent persons are able to, for instance, solve the most complex math problems in the world, yet perhaps they do not the difference between a one penny nail, and another numbered penny nail.  So, we, of like minds, ask for help, from the experts, in their field, or we ask the persons working wherever that might be.

ARE YOU REALLY SURE, I AM NOT YOUR – EXPERT?!

Whatever is in that WaWa data breach news story it is real and very damaging.

Razzle Dazzle news story just says Donna Ashley to me, a friend of my mother’s I never liked.

The peach-fuzz on my cheek means, you have a man whose feelings are very hurt that he’s never been allowed or able to meet me, for real because Aladdin is real, and it is a role reversal.  They didn’t see me as a street rat.  They saw me as a beautiful child.  Exceptional in every way.  It’s very real.

And, I didn’t hurt their feelings.  I didn’t hurt his feelings.  I’ve never – for real – been allowed to meet these men, for real because you dumb-dumbs have never allowed since 1986, me to be able to     truthfully, date, and marry a straight man, who loves me, and who I love.

I think I should have a line of men, down the block, lined up for me, waiting to date me, court me, impress me because I would be such a good wife, and it literally is militarily-strategic – just to allow me to marry for real, and have a real life, and knock if you need to ask me something, and no more cover employments.

That wedding news story about two different country, really wouldn’t start a fight with each other either.  So, I don’t know what you did – YET – but, it’s wrong.  What you did is wrong.

Is this a profile?  I am grieving for a man’s truthful, hurt feelings.  And, I didn’t do that.  And, it’s pretty bad.  So, do something quickly. 

The reason I like this photograph is because I really liked my aunt Trudy.  Her expression on her face is from her stroke, what you can’t see from the photo is the reasons I loved my aunt Trudy.  My smile does show love, it was for my aunt Trudy IMMEDIATELY, when I first met my aunt Trudy it was the day of this photograph.

What I saw in her?  She’d had a stroke, yet she made sure she did her hair, put on her best clothes, had their mobile home cleaned and prepared for company, she wore her makeup, and I saw her shaking hand in the application of her lipstick, on her mouth, and the application of her freshly painted fingernails.

I loved her for that.

If you don’t understand that, I am not explaining it to you because you really can’t.  And, you don’t belong.

How old was I?  That is why intelligence has had orders to get me married because I understood the true meaning of marriage and partnership of a marriage as young as this photograph.  I was only seventeen.

And, this is also true, and unfortunately this involves a phone conversation I had while clocked in and employed at Visionworks, I loved them as a couple, a married couple, before and after her stroke, I saw the work they did with each other, the conversations they had with each other, married conversations like, when company comes what are we going to do?

That’s what married people do, and it’s not glamorous, or dramatic emotions of mission impossible stuff, or even really that interesting, but I loved her, my aunt Trudy for all those reasons.  My aunt Trudy died when I was working at Visionworks probably 1990 or 1991, I don’t remember who the someone was who told me on the phone my uncle Doug was having an affair while she was sick and with a new woman after she died, and I GOT ANGRY.

My supervisor tried to tell me, I was wrong, along the lines of sometimes people are lonely when others are ill, and you don’t know what you don’t know, meaning, I MUST KNOW WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR MY AUNT TRUDY’S STROKE AND DEATH!

Brain research – is real.