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July 31, 2019
Let us all not forget where I started. I have a military mind.
Jesus Christ, I have so much to download this is going to take some time.
Please, stop creating new stories. I already have enough stories and intelligence in all my years to be worked. Stop creating new stories. Everyone needs to get onboard and work the stories, I ALREADY HAVE WITHIN ME!
Let me make this very clear because I am more than pissed! I will not now nor will I ever in the future allow the relationship between the United States and Britain to suffer. GOT IT?! I know the difference. I will not now allow the United States to be seen within England, Britain, the United Kingdom TO EVER BE ALLOWED TO SUFFER! UNDERSTOOD?!
I need you all to stop working the real Hannibal Lecter so hard. You’re hurting his mind, and I don’t like it. None of you look like you understand how to communicate or work with the real Hannibal Lecter. Stop trying to control a man who is actually – workable.
Listen up, FBI man if you ever let Edison, Casey, or Mississippi work with you again or allow them involved in the process, so help me God, I WILL PUNCH YOU IN YOUR FUCKING FACE! I WOULDN’T DO THAT TO YOU BECAUSE IT WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO BE SUCCESSFUL, 100%! I WILL PUNCH YOU IN YOUR FUCKING FACE AND NOT WORK WITH YOU AGAIN! UNDERSTOOD?! I ACTUALLY LIKE YOU! I ACTUALLY WANT YOU TO SUCCED AND BE HAPPY! SO, I WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO BE ANYTHING LESS! SO, IF YOU DO THINGS THAT CREATE LESS THAN THE GREATEST OUTCOME, I WILL PUNCH THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUT OF YOU! SO, HELP ME GOD! BECAUSE I ACTUALLY LIKE YOU!
Why in the hell you would do something so stupid as to deny a company money I would have given them by buying a product I would have used by writing a STUPID news story about that vain, smug, guilty, son-of-a-bitch Robert Durst, I have no idea! What a dumb thing to do! That guilty motherfucker isn’t going anywhere! What a fucking ego on this guy! Thanks, a fucking lot, you fucking assholes!
Manipulating my money, denying companies’ profits, is what exactly?! Do you actually need the definition of capitalism?! How the FUCK do you think this country and others ACTUALLY SURVIVE AND THRIVE?! From the goddamn government?! You fucking dumb shits! I mean it! Seriously! Take a goddamn look at yourself! Me. My influence and what it does create. Shut this stupid shit off! You have no idea how important our fucking economy is not just to our government, but God-fucking-dammit to the whole goddamn fucking WORLD!
You people and your stupid news pieces that stop and prevent me from doing something, purchasing something I would normally have done HAVE NO GODDAMN CLUE WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE DOING! WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I AM?! A FUCKING HOURLY WAGE EMPLOYEE? OR THE BEST GODDAMN, MOTHERFUCKING EMPLOYEE, MILITARY MIND, AND GODDMAN THWARTER OF EVIL, DOUBLE AGENTS, AND THOSE WANTING TO OVERTHROW DEMOCRATIC GOVERMENTS IN THE GODDAMN HISTORY OF THE WORLD?!
I AM YOUR GODDAMN WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION, SO SHUT THE FUCK UP! SHUT THIS SILLY TWADDLE OFF BEFORE I PUNCH EVERY ONE OF YOU IN YOU FUCKING FACE!
The real Hannibal Lecter will really be able to work with you, if you want. He is really good at profile work; he really reads pretty well. You are not his favorite FBI man, but that is also not a problem, or a warning, or anything other than information to you. He really is better than you, and that is not completely your fault. So, don’t blame yourself, or come down hard on yourself, or in any way make yourself feel bad about it, ok?
I haven’t seen many profilers; the FBI man and the real Hannibal Lecter are the best from what I’ve seen so far. If there have been others, there talent was not enough for me to save their information. This isn’t a gender thing; it is a real thing about actual talent. Here’s more proof: Nancy Meyer’s death has always bothered me. In truth, I have never believed she died for real. I believe she was murdered.
The reason someone wants to try and fool me, I have no idea. They’ve put misinformation on the internet about Nancy Meyers. Look at the films, The Last Holiday, and It’s Complicated, take away the actors, the dialogue and look at the furniture, the background, the lighting, the colors, the textures of the materials. It has always spoken to me. There is something there. She died of a heart attack. She was too young to die from a heart attack.
Be aware the only reason I am writing again or finishing this at all is only for the real Hannibal Lecter. Still saddened by the event where some moron decided I did not need to have a boyfriend and my boyfriend, not to mention the constant reliving of traumas such as the loss of my own children, my mother, my cats, it’s excruciating. I am only doing this for the real Hannibal Lecter.
August 1, 2019
Be aware I will no longer be purchasing cigarettes, so the time used to communicate outside of my home is at an end. I am beyond in my patience or understanding for the use of air guns up my nose to maintain me too heavy for me to fit into most of my clothes. I am beyond anger as to this point.
If the only reason any of you morons, and when I write morons, I mean what are you psychiatrists? Psychologists? FBI? Morons. If the only reason you had the real Hannibal Lecter break up with me was to try and show me that the reason – you believed – he killed his women was because he was a commitment-phobe. Almost more afraid of committing to a woman than death. If this is true, that makes him pathetic to be a commitment-phobe. I am certainly not afraid of committing myself to one man.
However, you look as though you failed to notice that the real Hannibal Lecter had already in some way committed himself to me before you brought him in front of me. He had already committed himself to me before you brought him to me. So, how could any of you morons think he killed his women because they wanted to marry him or be a couple.
What a dumb thing to do! Because my feelings are so easily repairable, replaceable, and can just go back immediately without harming me in any way. SHAME ON YOU!
Before I continue, this needs to be addressed: What the hell is Courtney doing around me? I have made it more than clear I am straight, she is a lesbian, so why is she allowed to be around me other than to prevent me from ACTAULLY working. Is she the person behind the speaking to me of, Hey, you can’t come back without a safety vest both with and without a laptop? No wonder I had such a strong reaction to her. Courtney and her cumming underwear look nothing more than a sexual predator anymore. A lesbian doesn’t continue to flirt or hit on a straight woman; she looks nothing more than a sexual predator. Courtney, sexual predator. No wonder she makes me so angry!
I am not going to unlove David. I don’t have to perhaps, romantically love David; however, it still hurts me to know David and could have had children together, all these years, been married, and both of us would have been happy together.
Look, this is a six (Sherlock) is someone saying I was only attractive enough to be a six, in body and size, the size and shape of my body, and I’m sorry, Molly Hooper (Sherlock) is realizing after the fact all the damage they did to my mother, just to hurt me, and perhaps, they would have given me another number instead knowing everything I had to deal with just to stay alive.
They tried to stop me from working this other FBI man, I mean Courtney and her cumming underwear tried to stop me from working another FBI man. This man who is seen as the FBI man playing the role of the real Hannibal Lecter in the movie, Silence of the Lambs. This FBI man would have been over my FBI man, no wonder shit got fucked up.
This other FBI man not only thinks and believes I am the most exciting woman to him, I am also the most sexually desirable woman in the world – in his mind. He is a little, messed up in the head to say the least. This man specifically I am writing about only for the real Hannibal Lecter. This other FBI man is seen in the movie, The Davinci Code, as Silas. This other FBI man is, again, seen in the line of dialogue, in the movie, Gladiator, I would have butchered the whole world if you would have loved me. Um, gross.
Yeah, you tried to stop me, you tried to make me believe something that was wrong and incorrect just by putting Courtney’s cumming underwear up my nose; however, exposing this man WAS TOO GODDAMN FUCKING IMPORTANT! SO, SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU STUPID SILLY BITCHES!
I believe I almost had everyone in the building believing I was emotionally involved and wanted this man sexually as well, I had to keep reminding them; no, this is criminal behavior, this man sets off my alarms.
I don’t believe the real Hannibal Lecter and this man should have anything to do with each other. I don’t think the real Hannibal Lecter needs to read, understand, or involve himself with this man. This other FBI man has gone too far, killing innocent people.
The only reason for the red pick-up truck, the only reason this other FBI man said the criminal behind the dead woman on the street whose favorite color was red, was for my Honda Civic, the color red, that was my repossessed Honda Civic by a black man carrying an African walking stick. That repossession of my vehicle is the VERY reason a War Lord was brought into power. Thanks-a-fucking lot, assholes!
Meaning you could have done better by me, and it looks like shit went so fucking haywire, the fastest solution someone thought of was to move me back into my family’s home that had moved from an apartment to a house. You still could have done better.
The only reason Irene Adler, says the line of dialogue in Sherlock, blood, is for this other FBI man. The other FBI man who has killed innocent people to get to me. WOW!
I need you people to all take a step back and realize what is at stake every day around me. These are real people. They are not scripted. They are not actors. Consequences matter. The impact and effect of consequences really matter.
This other FBI man’s poor ex-wife, from what I saw there is no reason he should not have loved her and been happy. She has never seen him behave the way he did around me, has she? He probably would have had her believe my actions were slutty. And that is everything he wanted, what I showed him.
In his mind, it is almost, if not truly, blind lust, desire, blind, for me. It is wanting something so badly, so much, you don’t see anything else in the world, and it does not come from a good place in his heart.
So, why was I denied my falafel meal?
There isn’t any reason this other FBI man and his ex-wife shouldn’t have had a happy marriage, other than he was living another life. He undoubtedly in my mind would have given away, and I mean allowed his own family members to die, just for him to have what he most desired – me. Gross.
They brought a real high school shooter to me. He looks like a kid who went to high school one day and started shooting people. And, he looks like they used brain research on him to get him to commit those crimes.
A young white male from a middle-income family that from the outside, had no warning signs, and no reason for him to have been set off to shoot a school. From what I saw it was a matter of days of brain research before he went to school to kill people.
The brain research is not enough, always, on its own. On this kid, it looks like they used internal, topicals, and brain research. Meaning they used hormones, male and female hormones. What they used to have him ingest, or internally take something to alter his body chemistry, I haven’t worked through yet.
There could actually be people who are getting paid to break and enter into homes to do things that look, slightly innocent, like placing hormones in products in people’s homes, without knowing the damage it would cause to people.
Try walking twenty, thirty, many feet while shaking your head back and forth, from side to side while walking, shaking you head as fast as you can, and continue to walk in a straight line, then try talking to people. How well can you manage that? Your body will not allow you to over-shake your head that it would cause damage. Why is that? God designed us and our bodies to not self-destruct or be suicidal. Or, we would actually have to consciously think about bodily things such as breathing.
This kids brain looks so brain researched that his brain was in such a violent state, he shot and killed people to try and get rid of how it made him feel.
He also asked for help, on the day of the shooting, he asked people for help, people he spoke with, with his eyes. Always look, eye, look eye (Karate Kid). A sustained eye contact with another person, sustained and held – helps. Like a connection back to their brain (Aladdin). Jaffar, Jaffar, he’s our man, if he can’t do it – GREAT!
Did you or did you not notice an immediate change in this kid, just by having me explain to him, how he looked in his mind? A connection that made sense. How many other people have already seen him? How many minutes did it take me?!
I am not going to be able to write everything I saw; however, it looked like his whole body, his body chemistry, was altered, colored differently, like a scan, like an MRI.
His mind has lots of mushy places in his mind, yet this kid is so over-taut, like a string on an instrument, so over-taut that it hums on its own. Over-taut, and mushy places. Over-taut, like a person defending themselves, against themselves (Fight Club).
I need you people to stop trying to fill every single minute of my workday and life with new stories. You people need to slow the fuck down, and I mean by a lot! There is so much detail I could write and share and help with this kid, it alone is enough. But, I also have this other FBI man, I also have Courtney, David, Edison who is too close to me if you want me to write anything else other than he looks like a spoiled, undisciplined child, Brianna, James Franco and his body double, and you keep making the numbers – grow! As if every single minute of the day is filled with an hour-long television episode of the most exciting show. ENOUGH!
My military mind, it was shown to me a map, something like 12 Strong, a route they took, and I immediately said, you entered here? There? It’s too soon, too far forward, I would have entered here. About the distance from one point to where you can no longer see past the horizon, that’s how far would have waited to enter.
This is a map from a really smart and sharp mind, he would have made sure there were other factors I could not read to make sure I knew what I was – reading. They encountered a lot of heavy fighting and resistance, didn’t they? And, no, the mind that created that map did think and believe they needed all that room to cover, all those feet; however, I would have entered at a different location, it was probably a little more difficult to get to the entrance point is all. I would have saved lives just by having a more difficult map.
And, Black Hawk Down, still makes me angry. Jesus Christ, I haven’t been able to really look at it because I am still going through Sherlock!
I am the pilot in Black Hawk Down, I am Durant. He is a most attractive actor, he appears in the film more attractive than most of the other actors, doesn’t he? I am Durant. Do you know where there is a high school named Durant? Near Plant City, Florida. I remember my mother and I going one day, for some reason I do not remember, my mother would, I sat in the parking lot while she went inside to talk to people.
My mother always loved William H. Macy, so whoever his proxy is, she really loved them, the lover’s secret song (Moulin Rouge). My mother really loved men, and she would have loved his mind. And his work.
Franco, they sent your female friend for me to read. His girlfriend. I don’t know her name. She looks like she is the daughter of Stephen Spielberg. This has been several weeks, and longer, and I really do not like to appear as though I am name dropping or telling other people’s stories.
The read I got from her is that she was not really in love with James Franco, she loved the idea of him and her like a movie-star, movie industry, a movie dynasty, and not really in love with him for who he really is.
As I see him, he sort of hates, the movie bull-shit end of the business. He makes me laugh, I laugh at him, I have made him laugh, and call him a dork, and stupid-head, and this is – relief. This is a relief to him. Whew! I can take off that mantle of movie-star, and just be me. That burden of fame and movie-star that needs a publicist to manage a name and not the work, he despises. He does have a strong mind. Sorry to disappoint people, but James Franco really loves women. Female minds, female bodies, female energy, female – everything. He just loves them. I mean this boy is goofy for women. He really doesn’t care body size, shape, he loves to be around all women, mostly. Romantically, body size and shape matters.
Franco, I really have not understood why you were here for so many years because it seemed obvious to me you were with other women, so I have no idea why you wanted me in bed for so many years. I have never really known who you are other than this man did not mind visually fucking me in bed.
James Franco’s girlfriend, or whatever they called themselves to each other, she did not really love him because she wanted to be with women. A lesbian. The only thing that was stopping her from allowing herself to be with women was an incident, she had never told people. A woman in charge of taking care of her, like a governess, a woman in charge of making sure another couple’s child was safe, hit her, physically abused her. She did try to speak to her parents or parent about it, but read the conversations as though movies, their films were more important than – her.
Kate Capshaw is obviously a good mother, it is all over her, there is nothing that reads other than Kate Capshaw is a good mother. It is a very attractive quality to a lot of men. Being a mother, being a good mother is a very attractive quality to a lot of men. And, she did bring along one of her children who is a good kid. She is a good kid. Not trouble, good.
So, for all boys and girls and men and women, if anyone, any person tries to touch you, take you, seduce you away, KICK ‘EM IN THE BALLS, AND KICK ‘EM IN THE BALLS, AND KICK ‘EM IN THE BALLS, AND DON’T STOP KICKING THEM IN THE BALLS UNTIL THEY DROP AND THEN MAYBE KICK THEM SOMEMORE, AND THEN RUN LIKE HELL, DON’T LOOK BACK UNTIL YOU ARE SAFE!
S.I.N.G, Self-Defense. A child is not tall enough for most of S.I.N.G other than, kick ‘em in the balls, groin! Instep with a child’s foot is not going to do enough damage but kicking them in the goddamn balls sure will! So, kick ‘em in the balls!
So, James Franco’s girlfriend, Stephen Spielberg’s daughter was hit by a caregiver, a governess, a person in their employ and it was not corrected at the time. They did ask me if the agency or employment company they used was to blame, and it does not look that way, other than staking out every one of the people they refer, they did all the correct and adequate background checks to make sure their people were legitimate and good. True.
However, it looks as though this woman that hit a child was told by her boyfriend, or husband that the Spielberg’s had so much money they could lose a few and it not be a problem. Blackmail. It was literally read on set, and they sent it to me, and I stopped a blackmail attempt from happening over a child – again.
I hope Stephen Spielberg’s daughter is happy now. It is all I ever look for in every person, their happiest of person.
I’m just hurt, you know. It is not the same thing as not believing in someone, or not having love, or not listening, I am just hurt.
Remember, my mother loved everyone. Even after her strokes, she told strangers she loved them! When was the last time you told a total stranger, you loved them! I miss my mother.
Jonah Hill, who’s your teacher?!
Jay Baruchel is a pretty decent human being. No wonder he is so well liked.
Remember, Father your wife was more important, more powerful, and more loved by people than you knew to have died – in a nursing home, from a lethal overdose, such as is seen in the head of The Ancient One, in the movie, Doctor Strange.
I am on strike. I am too heavy, I want a day shift!
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 