April 5, 2019: READ: Wellness Checks

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April 5, 2019

Looks like you need to do more than one wellness check.  It is a cause for alarm with more than one person.

Heavy really is a problem.  Zero truly belongs to me.  Zero truly is me, and it happened after my FBI man.  You people are stupid if you believe it has anything to do with sugar or no sugar.  Zero to at least one person says 100%.

This also says something to someone, what number is associated with the function key on a keyboard of a computer and the percent sign?

Number five is alive from Short Circuit is about Japan.

Take out any son-of-a-bitch who attempts to remove me in any capacity from my work and my zero.  Take them out, do not delay.  I know what the fuck I am doing when I write this.  I have not yet had the time to finish writing what has really happened all these years.  You people really do need me.  And, there actually are real criminals who will kill because of any harm done to me, my family, or anyone I love.

Guess what?  I love that FBI man.  Love him.  Love him, love him, love him, love him.  I love that FBI man.  Obviously.

April 5, 2019: READ: Pharma Boy Profile

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April 5, 2019

Your Pharma boy profile looks like a real person, a real serial killer who wants to kill me.  It is a disturbing profile.  How has this person been allowed to be anywhere near me?  He looks like he will kill other people to get to me.  He looks like a fame and glory wanna-be.

Why are you people protecting criminals?!  I am not.

Arrest him.  Arrest Pharma boy.

April 5, 2019: READ: Black Hawk Down Is Spanish

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April 5, 2019

Some people are pretty anxious for this, so I am writing this as quickly as possible.  I have not yet finished Black Hawk Down.  I really need to be working a day-shift, people.  This is really difficult to continue watching over and over again.  Somebody with connections really did give my mother the sort of quasi-stroke because of the movie Black Hawk Down.

Know this: When I send my men out there, I know what is going to happen before they get there.  Do not be mistaken, anytime there is someone yelling, or correcting, or reprimanding another person in film or television and you believe it could have been against me, or about me, someone reprimanding me, you’d be wrong.  You are mistaken.  It is a big mistake.  Those are my handlers being yelled at for how they managed me and worked with me.  It is not against me.

There is more for me to write; however, there are only 24 hours in a day.

It has been more than proven I do not send men out there to die.  I see things, and possibilities computer programs cannot offer.  Do not be mistaken.

Black Hawk Down does have to do with my brother’s car accident.  It really looks like this stupid serial killer got to send in a plastic surgeon to help my brother after his accident, just to prove to you people he is better than you.

Everyone should be asking how a serial killer in prison would receive word and communication about my brother’s car accident – as it happened.  Jesus Christ, you let a serial killer prove he was better than you, you fucking morons!  People should be questioning why they would allow such a thing to happen.

You lost communication with me in Black Hawk Down, men.  Do not let it happen again.

They lost communication with me.  For something as simple as the Earth turns on its axis.  Meaning there was nothing to be done at the time.  They lost communication with me, and someone who lost a son decided that they could take it out against my mother, giving her another – stroke.

They also have something in place to take out other men – and their children.  I don’t like it.

They would not have known that my mother and me are Mexican Vanilla, meaning my mother and I really worked to capture terrorists.  They would not have known I am the 50-year storm.  They would not have known I am The Rainmaker.

It is most disturbing because they would have set up video surveillance of poisoning my mother.  They would have had help from my neighbors.  They would have had help with my employer at the time, Disney.

Work this, Spanish.

No one else needs to die or suffer because of a goddamn movie.

April 4, 2019: READ: Remove The Connection

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April 4, 2019

Remove any gay and lesbian association by proxy or otherwise in connection to me that is not my real family, specifically in connection to the movie Silence of The Lambs, and the real Hannibal Lecter, and you will see FBI the good that will happen.

If in truth they sent a female lesbian FBI agent to interrogate the real Hannibal Lecter because they believed and knew he found me sexually attractive, it is a mistake.  If any lesbian or gay FBI or agency persons are using this information about a lesbian FBI agent and the real Hannibal Lecter and believing they are protected because of it, it is a mistake.  You are safer and better off removing yourselves and any connection.

Jesus Christ, I cannot believe I am still writing about this movie and this serial killer.  He would have been an adult and around when I was in Oregon, he would never have acted or approached me in a sexual way when I was underage.

The bugs in the movie, tell me that the real Hannibal Lecter believed there were so many bugs and moles within the agency, he believed not many were clean agents.  How the fuck it got put into the movie, I have no idea.

Looks like he followed me, for real more than once.

You don’t tell the truth to the bad guys from The Spy Next Door tells me a person, most likely a lesbian female, when talking to the real Hannibal Lecter gave enough information to him about me that he was able to read a description from her.  That’s a dumb move.  The Spy Next Door really says very clean, especially in connection to the real proxies.  Jesus Christ, get it?

Do not believe any of these descriptions of these CIA men as dumb, moronic, simple, or incompetent.  I do not believe them, I know better.  To me, they look smarter and cleverer.

We don’t drink, we don’t smoke…Good man from Point Break really means my handler, the man working with me, probably CIA or more likely something truly classified, and was and is a good man, exemplary.

The way you’re working we can solve this case and work on another one from Point Break really is me.  At that time in my life, and still.  And?  No big deal.  You should be asking why someone would not want to be working while they were on the clock.  Got it.

My mother actually bought me pencils with my name printed on them as a Christmas gift.  It could have been after I sketched the dog in art class.  At the time, I wondered why my mother would buy such a thing.  They were a lot of pencils.  A lot.  If in fact, the pencils, were captures, people, missions, etc. that is a huge accomplishment for a young teen-ager.  It didn’t represent all the work I did, effortlessly.  If my father was then, asked in some way to give me used pencils as a Christmas gift, and he did not understand the real reason, it is a problem.  I don’t like who talked to my father.  Don’t like it.

If this really is true and it looks like it is, sending a female lesbian FBI agent to speak to the real Hannibal Lecter would only demonstrate a lack of intellect to him.  And he proved it to you people by getting a description out of her.  His thinking was higher intellect and she was thinking from the gutter.  He proved it to you people.

All this time you people have been out-played and out-smarted by a stupid serial killer.  I haven’t.  I put the son-of-a-bitch in prison!  Even in this house you stupid people have allowed yourselves to be out-played and out-smarted by a stupid serial killer!

He actually escaped prison to prove something to you people.  He gave me PID knowing I would recover, knowing it would heal, knowing I would still have full function, to prove to you people he was not pleased with the physical abusive relationship.  He has more respect for me than anyone has given me or him credit for.  I am the most exciting person he has known his entire life.

Deny him of me for the rest of his life.

Whoever’s stupid idea this was to have this fake reality television show, there is at least one person who truly has a death wish wanting to have their life ended in a blaze of glory, they must not really love their partner, and they actually do believe I am able to make things happen.  The death wish being knowing these people have actually and really been following me since I was born.  They are not going to stop because of a television show.  You only place other people’s lives in harm’s way.

Who is this idiot that thinks criminals are romantic or sexy?!  Who is this idiot?!  That is the dumbest thing I could think of!  Oh yeah, that’s because I didn’t think of it!  Who is this stupid idiot?!  Romanticizing serial killers?!  Dumb!

You might as well have a tattoo across your forehead that says I don’t know how to think!

DUMB!

I should be writing Children’s stories.  It is what I have been wanting to do since I was in my twenties.  What is writing?  What are children stories other than a way of teaching and sharing with people?

You people are dumb to deny me financial access to do such things.

Ace Ventura without watching the movie again tells me something did not work.  There actually is something on Ventura Blvd. in LA.  Ace means sac, as in nut sack, as in someone probably has a pretty good sense of humor.  There’s my childhood in a nutshell from Sherlock, same thing.  It’s just humor.

I’ll play mother from Sherlock has in no way any reference to a Norman Bates in Psycho.  Think Mexican Vanilla instead.

You people are sick, not me.

Stop trying to “script” things before me.  You might as well put in in a billboard that you have no idea what you are doing.

April 4, 2019: READ: STOP GIVING SERIAL KILLERS AND CRIMINALS CREDIT FOR THE WORK I HAVE DONE!

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April 4, 2019

Stop giving serial killers and criminals credit for the work I have truthfully done!  Stop believing movie scripts are actual facts!  Stop believing that movies are documentaries, or autobiographies!  Stop being STUPID, people!

The dog and the woman in the well in Silence of the Lambs – dog, God, a white dog is actual a Christian symbol for me being a white woman who is a Christian.  She is in a well because it is about a location in the Middle-East!  Think about it!

Tank from The Matrix is about using me and actual – TANKS!  Tanks you would use in the Army!

The body-less head she finds in storage in Silence of the Lambs is just about brain-speaking and brain research!  STOP GIVING THESE FUCK HEADS CREDIT FOR THE WORK I HAVE TRUTHFULLY DONE FOR ALL!  START BELIEVING IN ME BECAUSE I ACTUALLY CAN MAKE THINGS HAPPEN FOR REAL!  AND, STOP SEEKING THESE STUPID FUCKING CRIMINALS!  PERIOD!  STOP SEEKING THESE STUPID FUCKING CRIMINALS!

START BELIVING IN ME!  I ACTUALLY CAN AND HAVE MADE THINGS HAPPEN FOR REAL!

SEEKING THESE CRIMINALS IS A MISTAKE!  START BELIVING THAT PEOPLE WHO DO HARM LIKE SERIAL KILLERS ARE NOTHING BUT DUMB, MORONS!  I MEAN IT FOR REAL!  START BELIEVING THEY ARE NOTHING BUT DUMB FUCKS!  BECAUSE I DO!  I BELIEVE THEY ARE NOTHING BUT STUPID, STUPID PEOPLE!  STUPID!

I ACTUALLY CAN AND HAVE MADE THINGS HAPPEN – FOR REAL!

START BELIEIVNG IN ME!  IT IS A SERIOUS MISTAKE NOT TO BELIEVE IN ME!  A SERIOUS MISTAKE TO USE AND TREAT ME AS A THING!  LIKE TAKING AWAY MY HAIR!  THESE CRIMINALS ACTUALLY HAVE THE ABILITY TO REACH THE OUTSIDE WORLD!  I ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT THEY WILL DO TO PEOPLE – FOR ME!

THE FBI PORTRAYL OF ME IS IN NO WAY ACURATE!  USING A GAY FEMALE ACTRESS TO PORTAY ME IS A SERIOUS MISTAKE!  HER ACTING IS AN ARTIST’S WORK, I REALLY WRITE THAT FOR HER PROTECTION!  IT IS REALLY, REALLY SERIOUS!

PEOPLE WILL REALLY LOSE THEIR FUCKING SHIT WHEN THEY FIND OUT FOR REAL A TEEN-AGER HELPED CATCH AND CAPTURE ONE OF THE MOST NOTORIUS SERIAL-KILLERS!  AND, I HAVEN’T EVEN BEGUN TO REMEMBER THE WORK I DID AS A SMALL CHILD!

STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH THIS SHIT!  REAL CRIMINALS CAN ACTUALLY REACH REAL LAW-ABIDING CITIZENS THEY HAVE DONE IT MORE THAN ONCE ALREADY BECAUSE OF THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME AND MY FAMILY!

STOP WRITING THIS STUPID NONSENSE IN THE NEWS ABOUT FACING ME!

THE DRUG REFERENCE RAID IN POINT BREAK WITH THE UNDERCOVER OFFICER IS ABOUT SOME PERSON TRYING TO CLAIM I HAD SOME SORT OF INVOLVEMENT WITH THEM WHEN I WAS IN CALIFORNIA DEFEATING AL – QAEDA.  AS IF THAT COULD HELP THEM.

WHOEVER THAT FUCKING IDIOT WAS THE OTHER DAY, THE ONE I LITERALLY JUMPED OUT OF MY CAR IN MY HEAD WOULD ACTUALLY CRUMBLE IN FRONT OF ME!  CRUMBLE!  I KNOW IT!  CRUMBLE!

Had you hired me for real in any capacity in an agency it would be a different story.  Using proxies does not have the same effect, you are only protecting the criminals and not our citizens by doing so.

The world really does need people in the world who are unbothered by such criminals.

I am unbothered.

YOU WANT TO TREAT ME AS THOUGH CAPTURING SERIAL KILLERS AS A TEEN-AGER AND MILITARY WORK AS A CHILD IS NOT SIGNIFICANT?!  IT IS A MISTAKE!

WHOEVER IS AROUND AT PRESENT IS IN SERIOUS TROUBLE!

THE WHOLE WORLDS NEED TO START SEEING ME AS AN IMPORTANT PERSON AND NOT AN ACTRESS!  I DO NOT RECEIVE A PAYCHECK OR ROYALITES OR MONEIES FROM ANY ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY!  IT IS A MISTAKE TO CONTINUE “PRETENDING” I AM BEING DIRECTED OR ACTING!

THEY ARE IN REAL TROUBLE!

You have the audacity to say things about being worried for my safety after while WORKING AT AMAZON, I am bruised, had hair removed from my scalp, sexually violated – the list is endless.

I FUCKING HELPED CAPTURED SERIAL KILLERS AS A TEEN-AGER!

The movie Lovely Bones, my shoes, is about the persons responsible for killing my Aunt, my Grandmother, my Grandfather, and more.

The movie True Lies is about using me as a real lie detector with better, more accurate results than a polygraph machine.

It was a Russian in Sneakers who truthfully believed and knew I was and am a code-breaker.  It is about translating.

A black box from an airplane, actually just means, no oxygen, it is code.

The Hunger Games movies take the word hunger away it is meaningless, the movies are about real crimes that happened during the Olympic games and sporting events to lead up to the Olympics, qualifying sporting events.  There is some real bad in those movies.  Think about it.  The Olympics are a means to show, display, and create world peace.  For real.

I am unbothered.

You people are fucking morons!

April 4, 2019: READ: GET THIS STUPID POT-BELLIED BITCH AWAY FROM ME!

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April 4, 2019

GET THIS STUPID POT-BELLIED BITCH AWAY FROM ME!  THAT INCLUDES YOU STUPID DRUG-PUSHING MEN!

JESUS CHRIST YOU STUPID FUCKING MORONS!  WE DON’T DRINK AND WE DON’T SMOKE FROM POINT BREAK – YOU FUCKING IDIOTS – JUST MEANS I WAS A TEEN-AGER AT THE TIME!  YOU DUMB FUCKING MORONS OF COPY-CATS!

TAKE YOUR FUCKING MARIJUANA SHOVE IT DOWN YOUR OWN FUCKING THROAT, I AM NOT IN THE DRUG BUSINESS, I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING MULE!  YOU STUPID FUCKING IDIOTS!

I TOOK OUT A NOTORIOUS SERIAL KILLER AS A TEEN-AGER!  YOU STUPID, STUPID PEOPLE!

EDISON IS DEAD!

April 4, 2019: READ: Be On Very High Alert

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April 4, 2019

I am unbothered.

However, the rest of the world needs to be on high alert.  I know the difference.  This, when it is published will have severe implications and ramifications.  Be on high alert.

I am unbothered.

This headline and news story should be seen as a warning to everyone, ‘Old Lady’ Should Be Out of Fashion.  It is very angry.  If it is only one person, they are very angry, if it is more than one person, they are all angry.  They wouldn’t have shown or displayed their anger.  However, they are more than angry at what you have allowed to happen to my person and my appearance.  Very angry.

I told you they would listen to me.  It makes me The Rainmaker.  For real, The Rainmaker.  If it is not an old story, then it started the day I was born.  The reason my father found the missionary pamphlet at the hospital with my name and South Africa – Christian.  Another connection at having South Africa being seen as a Christian nation.

Any movie after 2012 is not the same because of my surgery.  They have been altered.

Stop forcing me to swallow.  What is this nonsense all about?  Stop using Virtual Reality while I am at home.  I would say stop this television show, I do not get paid for it.

 

Point Break:

Johnny Utah – pay no attention to Johnny, it is just a boy’s name, Utah means salt water.

Surfing is not really surfing it is a way to describe, display, show, portray, explain, and demonstrate – The United States Military.  It is more than just the Navy.  It is how they worked with me, and it worked really well.

That is me as a little boy, telling a man it is never to late to learn how to do what I do with my brain, and how they worked with me.

Two meatball subs, get me two, I am very hungry – this would be a real man that I worked who found me sexually attractive, and I would have been sexually attracted to him as well.  He is referring to a body part that was very distracting to him.

Pappas – to me, just says, Brrr, like cold, as in cold as a cucumber, cool under pressure, and that’s me.  That has been more than proven.

The reason Ben Harp’s character is so angry and yelling all the time in the movie is another man in another agency more powerful than the FBI, yelling at these idiots that allowed a physically abusive relationship to happen to me.  He is not yelling at me, he is yelling at these idiots that had a super model intelligence officer with exemplary military experience, then allowed a physically abusive relationship to happen to me.  Remember bank robbers are actually terrorists, capturing terrorists.

That is Nelson Mandela being released from prison at the end of the movie because of me.

The shot to the lawn mower ending the engine is an actual death that happened because of my boyfriend/fiancé he was under a death threat.  It would have been a mission, raid, whatever, that happened, and someone died.  The shot to the forehead in the raid scene, is me, make no mistake.  This is how we worked together.

The Power Of One:

I will be your number one supporter from the movie tells me, propaganda.  This would be a white man in South African government who did not quite receive the message that I defeated – Brain Research.  The dementing of children, creating perversions, nightmares, and so.

I defeated Brain Research as a teen-ager.  A teen-ager.

We are afraid?  Yes, they were actually afraid of blacks just because of the color of their skin.  Their laws proved them to be afraid, otherwise what would be the reason for Apartheid, and other such laws?

They have been removing daughters because you had me move my path at work.  I don’t like that.

Klerk it says to them, not Clerk.  The Klerk I had in mind as a person is a black man, I thought he was South African, he could have been from another African country.  The information I have access to is not the person I believe they were giving credit and information to.

Mulan:

The greatest gift and honor is having you for a daughter, make no mistake this is meant for every father that has a daughter.

I am the Captain in Mulan, I am the Captain in just about every movie.  I would not sing or use words like, Be a man.  I do not believe that is a very good motivator.  Of course, my brother is not meant for the rage of war, there is nothing wrong with that.

12 Strong:

Al Quaeda considers this to be their worst defeat, when do you think this happened?  What year does anyone think this happened?  This is LAX, this is the 50-year storm, this is me in California, capturing terrorists.

It’s classified.  It still is.

Silence of The Lambs:

Without watching the movie again, tells me there really is a Hannibal Lecter, and I actually helped in the capture of this real serial-killer.

The story line about lambs just means it happened in Dachau, in Germany.  He was captured because of what I did in Germany.  It is referring to the blood on the doorways.  It is just movie-stuff.  It is not that important.

The lead actress playing the FBI agent against Hannibal Lecter is just giving an artist’s interpretation of the script.  I say that for her protection.  I write that because it is not in any way a correct portrayal of myself.  Someone thought it would be a good idea because it involves my brother because he is gay, it is a mistake.

The real Hannibal Lecter would have been a real doctor, he would have been a man probably in his twenties or early thirties when he was caught.  Caught, captured, and in prison for the rest of his life because of me.

I am the most exciting thing he has ever known.  Deny it of him for the rest of his life.

He actually escaped prison to get to me, he gave me PID to prove it.  I am the most exciting thing he has ever known.  I am the most exciting person he has ever known.  Deny it of him the rest of his life.

I am unbothered by him.  The rest of you people should be worried.  You people were not careful enough with me.

I do not believe any of the movie storyline about being scared and so on.  I know who I am.

The white t-shirt in the movie, is actually – meaningless.

Do you want to know what the real Hannibal Lecter is afraid of?  Because I know what frightens him.  He is afraid of dying.  I am unbothered.

You people were careless and not careful enough with how you handled me.  You were not careful enough with me.

I am unbothered.

Do you want to know a very big difference between criminals such as serial killers and the rest of the world?  They only care about themselves.  They only think about themselves.  Their needs.

The stupid jack-off cum-scene is actually another criminal I helped them catch who was actually masturbating and fantasizing about my brother, probably when my brother moved to Florida on his own.  He would have been a married man with children, masturbating while watching my brother.  Gross.

You stupid people have allowed his fantasy of me and my brother having sex – GROSS – by delivering heavy food to me.  You people are sick, not me.

You’re the Trinity from The Matrix, probably has to do with all the work I’ve done including capturing Hannibal Lecter.

The real Hannibal Lecter probably started in Oregon.  He probably finds me sexually attractive.  It is a mistake that I have been denied a physical relationship with a man I love.  He probably would also have been not pleased with having me placed in a physically abusive relationship.

Do not allow any associations or connections to David and the real Hannibal Lecter.

Deny him of his excitement the rest of his life.

I am unbothered.

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The very fact that it has taken me all these years to discover that all these movies, television, military and agency involvements have all been about me – says more about me than any award man can give to another human being.  It speaks volumes about me.

That’s the Knighthood in the bag from Sherlock, Hood – Mt. Hood, Oregon, in the – the in – bag, gab meaning speaking, brain-speaking.  The way in is brain-speaking.  A man actually was knighted for work I helped him with.

Someone has actually, this is so dumb, tried to have my pierced ears closed, a person with gauges, I have no idea what those things are called, tried to close my pierced ears.  They are dumb.

A real man wouldn’t use virtual reality.  A real man would ask me out.  A real man would date me, get to know me.

A real man wouldn’t use virtual reality.  It actually shows you are afraid of me.

Someone wanted my father to appear guilty with the two Spanish girls.  It is not true.  Spanish – AN, my father’s initials, this means there is a real threat to men and their children who have three or four children more than one family around the world.  They were using my mother for protection, she is no longer living.  Spanish – SHIN.  Spanish – Post Script, Post for Post Office, Post for Horse, and Script for movie scripts.  These are different codes for different people.  I would work these if you haven’t already.  The three and four children, it’s pretty bad.  They would be families of some notoriety, not famous, or in news stories, they would be fairly well-off financially.

It is a real problem.

I would be very careful how you talk to me and treat me.

I am not sending any messages with the clothes I wear, I am just living my life.  You people are stupid.

The right-side ends.

April 2, 2019: READ: To Be Seen As A Christian Nation

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April 2, 2019

Do no harm, then you don’t have to apologize.  Be very careful here also, there is nothing wrong in saying you’re sorry.  There is no shame in saying, sorry.  Sometimes it is appropriate, sometimes it is the correct thing to say.

It takes more skill to do no harm.  It takes more courage to do no harm.  It takes more wherewithal to do no harm.  That does not mean you allow another person to continue doing harm to yourself or others.

You people showed your prejudice – not mine.  You people created a story because I was talking to my cats on my balcony, and I was truthfully talking about how Murphy surveyed a black bird.  You people turned the black bird into a terrorist for a story – NOT ME!  YOU PEOPLE ARE STUPID!  You literally, in turn, handed money to a terrorist by placing heavy weight on me.

Let me explain something, the Taliban is the muscle, this dialogue from the movie 12 Strong tells me and others that the people, the financiers, the people and families with the money and connections to buy and pay for weapons, bombs, guns, etc. are overweight and obese on purpose, to be seen from miles away as money.  It is a way to protect themselves in a manner of speaking.  I do not live in any Middle-Eastern country, and anytime I have purposefully been a body-size that did not exist in my mind was a way to align me with others in the Middle-East that I would, most likely, not have done so.

The definition of my name, Cherith means – safe place.  Vatican cameos from that episode in Sherlock with a safe and looking away is a way to describe and show something pedophiles do to little children.  Looking at children in the eye and face, making eye-contact to do harm – in their mind.  So, do I mind?  No, I don’t mind I will hit gladly hit you in the face if it is what is needed to protect the children.

Her hairdo up in that way is to show a hat, and hats, it changes a lot, it can be read, if you want to look for people.

I don’t know how else to say this, the picture of Erin and Rene they placed in Facebook with Rene with her back to a wall and Erin in front of her appearing to be in a sexual way – is an actual HIT they and others placed on David – FOR REAL AND IT IS STILL PRESENT.  The fact that Erin tried to appear as my Aunt Trudy means someone she knows for real as a person actually KNOWS who hired and hit my Aunt with a stroke.

It is really difficult for me to watch so much unhappiness in my life and my family members lives when happiness is really not a difficult thing to achieve and have in life.  Um, no, I never hated these men.  I would say they underestimated me.  I am and was more capable then I’ve been given access to.  That is not the same thing as hate.

It’s ok, father.  Don’t worry.  It’s ok.

My weight being above and at 120 literally is telling someone and placing – this is so gross – my brother ON ME!  It is code for my brother’s birthday without – the ZERO!  MEANING WITHOUT THE FBI!  WITHOUT THE 100%!  WITHOUT ANY AGENCY PERSONS!  WITHOUT THE WHITE HOUSE!  IT IS LITERALLY ALLOWING SOMEONE TO VISUALIZE AND HAVE ME SEEN IN A SEXUAL WAY WITH MY BROTHER!  GROSS!  IT DOESN’T BELONG TO ME!  YOU FUCKING IDIOTS!  JESUS CHRIST, YOU FUCKING MORONS!  Worse, it is probably a gay person, a gay male who does not understand what he is actually doing!  You fucking idiots!

FBI man, it is still in that building since I’ve seen you.  It was still there last night.  There is someone working in that goddamn building who is working against me because I am more than able to defeat terrorism.  I don’t like that.  It means you have someone real close to you who is working against you.  I don’t like that.

Don’t tell the truth to the bad guys, people do not buy into that dialogue from the movie The Spy Next Door.  That is all I will write about that.  Do not buy into that dialogue.

I am Mikhail Baryshnikov in the opening dance scene.  I am seen as him by others, they do not confuse my gender with him.  Bary- shn, shin, knee-ikov.  Him being shirtless is to have Russia seen as a Christian nation.  To be seen as Jesus Christ on the cross.  As a Christian nation and not a Communist country.  It is important, and it worked.

What are you going to get because I wrote that paragraph?

Throwing a ball up in the air and catching it, throwing any object up and catching it is a good sign, it is a good tell I used to do.  The last time I remember throwing anything in the air was at The Container Store.  It tells me I was actually lonesome for someone.  Most likely a male-born Russian who I felt was like family to me.  I see a Russian dignitary also.  Probably from the time I played softball in Oregon.  It looks like someone read me correctly and connected me to the other person and now they are dead.  FUCK YOU PEOPLE!  Lonesome for them.  Like family.

I said, you are fucked!  You are fucked because I remember now!  I know who I am!  It cannot be turned off!  What I see will not be turned off in my head, then Brandon walked over to me with his laptop and spoke about a final warning!  WHO IS THIS FUCKING ASSHOLE!  WHO THE FUCK DOES HE THINK HE IS?!  WHO THE FUCK DOES HE THINK HE IS COMPARED TO ME?!  Do you know what these fucking prisoners will do to him in prison once this is written?!  Because I do.  I know!  COMPARED TO ME?!

I have zero tolerance, zero patience, zero allowance for any person working against such agencies as the FBI!  ZERO!

This medical research and being able to calculate hits with medicine, tells me it is a way they are getting paid, meaning it can be tracked and caught by the medical records.

I am going to be late again today because I am too goddamn fucking tired!  People need to know this before I get to work.  I can hardly move!  I am too tired!