STIGMA

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February 1, 2020

If this helps at all, let go of the stigma, of abuse, of sexual abuse, or of physical abuse, let go of the stigma that others will see you differently when they know the truth.

It’s a stigma.  It’s pretty significant within society of sexual abuse, and abuse.

Be responsible and take the responsibility of your actions.  If you’ve done nothing wrong, and were abused, that is not your fault, and you do not have to bear the burden of someone else’s actions.

Having to show the world, you hurt and abuse, does not make you ugly.  It takes that spotlight off of you, and places it upon the guilty party and person, in doing so, you’ll feel relief.  Probably for the first time.  Relief.  Whew!  Weight off your shoulders.

However, it is not a task, that is simply done.  It is work to do every day.  And, acknowledging that accepting that, being at peace with, yes, I need to do this work with myself every day, then there may or may not be a day when you forget that it is there, work to do.

At least then, your head won’t hurt so much.

To me, it looks like it is so painful to him, Matt, he is protecting himself, by layering himself within himself, and shielding himself, and trying to sort of hide to avoid the pain, that’s understandable.

It’s just pain.

Turn the spotlight on the abusers for a change.  Show them what they’ve done.

CANCER

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February 1, 2020

These things, a lot of these people, you have me helping like Matt Lucas, are not able to be worked this way.  The only place it worked was at my former employer, and YOU’VE RUINED THAT AND LET THAT GO.

Matt sounds like he is having a difficult time.  I’m sorry for it.  The only place that worked before, for me to work with Matt to help him was at my former employer.  The way to help Matt is like cancer, you attack cancer with chemotherapy, to kill the cancer.  That’s how they get better.

I would need an environment like what was at Amazon, where I got to yell, and talk, and YELL at people if I need to, and show them, their mirror image.  It’s helped too many people, to not be factual.

He needs chemotherapy.  Putting a band-aid on cancer isn’t going to help or cure the cancer.  At best it looks like a fashion accessory.  To kill cancer you need the aggressive, chemotherapy.

And, having people like Meghan Markle being able to make my underwear – WET WITH URINE WHILE I AM EITHER IN OR OUT OF MY HOME, OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER, speaks very poorly, for the person responsible for it, and a person, it is only logical, would end an activity when it continues to be a negative experience for them, me.

Hannibal also says, he has an idea for Matt.  Might work.  He’s, Hannibal’s, pretty good at helping people.

If I am the only one, I am at least aware, I am – unemployed.  Yet, everyday is so stressed and stressful, I am exhausted, and still, all these months later, barely functioning.

This is not a functioning work, and workable environment, and situation. 

WARNING: I’M TOO FAT!

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February 1, 2020

Why this is something I need to write about is beyond me, concerning my relocation.  And, something says, why am I not being treated to something like a relocation program and a safe house, while these arrangements are being made.

Between California, Oregon, and Washington, it is a three-way tie, as far as I am concerned.  I need to be able to scout the locations for myself, on my own, without, a film crew, in order to make a better assessment.  Again, neither my brother nor father get a say in any of this.  Unlike all the other arrangements like family dinners (2019) and my father and brother going to church with me, and INSTEAD OF AGREEING WITH WHATEVER ARANGEMENTS I MAKE YOU’VE ALLOWED AT LEAST ONE OF THEM TO CHANGE AT LEAST ONE THING, JUST TO BE A FUCK-ABOUT!

I am real close to putting a goddamn boot in someone’s fucking face.

Neither my father, nor my brother, get a say anymore, as a mouthpiece, as an earpiece.  THEY MUST BE MADE TO – STOP!

All states, most likely would be coastal property, rather than as inland as Gresham, Oregon.

I need to be able to get, and I deserve to get truthful answers from my brother and family, like, where is my mother really buried?  Is she buried in Canada, or was that just staged?  Is she really buried in Florida?  I deserve to know the truth, and this filming is ONLY PREVENTING the real truth from being known and not discovered, not the other way around.  NONE OF THIS HAS BEEN TO SHOW THE REAL TRUTH AS IT HAPPENS, OR I WOULD STILL BE EMPLOYED WITH THE EMPLOYER WHO GAVE ME THE JOB IN 2013!

I deserve to know the truth.

Antonio Brown story tells me nothing.  Is brown supposed to be some vague person?  Is it a white person painted black?  Is it MWB?  No, I don’t want him back, I told David so.  It’s in the movie, Point Break, take the cuffs off, LEAVE ‘EM ON, TAKE THE CUFFS OFF, LEAVE ‘EM ON!

That’s military shouting, in that dialogue, that is yet again, another military man, losing his goddamn fucking mind with the handling of me.

TAKE YOU HANDS OFF ME RIGHT NOW, that’s me.  That’s a pretty accurate read of me, and a real man I dealt with. Before my transfer order.

It reads, LEAVE THE CUFFS ON MICHAEL WAYNE BROWN!

I told you they want to take over the scene.  Especially, if you mishandle me, like California, 1989, in anyway.  And, I’ll let them.

I understand the importance of our United States military, even if penis-envy-fucking cops – DON’T!

Um, I will go so far as to say, I probably understand the importance of our United States military, probably better, in more complex ways, than most decorated (DECORATED) military men.  I also, understand that, being able to see the purpose, the successful purpose of our United States military, in such a way, as my brain, does – is at times, greater than most battles, and wars.

There are more ways to spend our tax-dollars, than on bullets.  Like, on the people, and that includes military people and personnel!

I also, told you I was made to have sex with Michael as a way of protecting my family from being killed, and it is in the movie, Point Break with the insurance policy of Rosie.  Someone make sure these – keystone cops – don’t get to do this to me, again.

I chose Hannibal Lecter to be my Boyfriend because I broke up with him for sleeping with another woman, that does not mean, anything other than, I have a standard, I EXPECT AND DEMAND ALL MEN, WHETHER I AM ROMANITCALLY INVOLVED WITH THEM OR NOT, AND I WILL NOT WAVER!

LEAVE ‘EM ON!

The last time I chose a man was David, and John Moyle, except neither of them, chose me in return.

The FBI teaching this FBI man, my transfer order to learn to surf, is about capturing terrorists.  Not crimes, and serial killers.  In the movie, Point Break it is about capturing and killing terrorists.

And, t he only reason they go to Australia to surf means, a theory at least one man had because OBVIOUSLY, I appeared sophisticated enough to ACTUALLY know things like, prison code, prison movements, prison life, and con-men, IT IS NOT FOR MWB, if the only reason you placed me in a sexual relationship – THAT I HAD NO CHOICE IN – just to get information about how I knew and know the things I know…?!

Just jump in the paddy-wagon, right now, and put the CUFFS on!  You’ve never seen anything like me before, and you’ll never see anything as brilliant as me – again!

Admit it!

The shrimp and fries in Point Break, shrimp?  I’m short, not that difficult.  Five feet, two inches tall, I am not a tall girl.  And, fries?  MWB, fried my brain.  He ruined the most sophisticated piece of equipment; the world has ever known.  And, at the time, for utilizing a brain such as mine, is to OBTAIN IT, AT A YOUNG AGE, LIKE IN MY TWENTIES.

And, you have a lesbian actress playing the love interest with the FBI man, in Point Break only because his ex-partner was a lesbian, and I told you she reads, or read, as straight, sexually confused because she wanted to be like me.

I’ve written this so many times.  Stop confusing actors with the real people.  She lied to him, its in the goddamn movie, in what year?  1991?  1992?

Who’s the dumb fuck who wants to let criminals, go without having to go to jail because their gays or lesbians?!  Special rules apply to gays or lesbians?  I don’t think so.

You sexually confused people, need to get off my body, out of MY GODDAMN NEIGHBORHOOD, OUT OF MY GOODMAN LIFE OR – YOU WON’T MAKE IT OUT ALIVE!

FBI man, you ever go to work with a partner again, you better make sure they are as straight as they come.  You and the agency might not make it.

STOP CONFUSING MY REAL LIFE, MY REAL PERSON, WITH STUPID CELEBRITIES!

I have about had it with movies, film, celebrities, and Hollywood people!

She lied to him!  It’s in the goddamn movie.  She, his ex-partner, not him, not me, she lied to him, IT ‘AINT A GODDAMN SECRET!

SO, WHEN I SCREAM – BIN!  ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND?!  IT’S IN A GODDAMN MOVIE AS FAR BACK AS THE EARLY NINETIES THAT SHE, HIS EX-PARTNER, LIED TO HIM!

FUCK THE FUCK OFF!

Just his type in the movie, Silence of The Lambs, does not mean I am Hannibal’s type, although he might disagree, it also means, my transfer order, is just my type, and the list goes on and on.

It mostly means, they also, could not quite understand his attraction to me, well…you fuckers don’t know a goddamn thing about brain research.

He’s probably wanted – help.  Like I am the only person in the world who could make sense of his brain, and he NEEDS that – me.

I am so disgusted at what you people have done to Hannibal like he is not a real person, nor am I, just a thing – to be toyed with.  When brain research is some of the most, unusual, sophisticated, unresearched, and difficult to comprehend, then – conditioning, like training a DOG!

Military?  You want to take over this scene, here?

I’ll let you!

WARNING: BEING GASSED IN MY OWN HOME!

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February 1, 2020

Military in the state of Oregon tells me, testing.  The state of Washington military bases is not that interesting, the land is more valuable in that state, is all.

If I were to move from the state of Florida, I will not be interested, never have been, in any other northern states from Florida, up the East coast, or anywhere else for that matter, other than the West Coast.

If I were to move back to Oregon, I would be looking at land and a home instead of a subdivision or neighborhood.  Also, the state of Washington, I would be looking at land, more likely than a neighborhood, or subdivision.  The land is more valuable as far as real estate in Washington than Oregon, that’s all.

The lifestyle of the Pacific Northwest is much different than Southern California.  The landscaping is also, just different because people live differently.

Washington state, that’s millions more dollars than California to live there.  Oregon state is comparable to the state of California.

No, I am not an East Coaster.  You can’t make me.

I am being gassed in my own home.

More importantly, you won’t want my brain in a DC neighborhood.  You might as well be asking the President of the United States to live in Disneyland for all the good it would do. 

The mountains in the Pacific Northwest don’t speak to me like the ridgeline in California.

There is Gjestland family in the state of California.

My father and brother do not get a say in where we live, and they MUST go with me.

Both the state of Washington and the state of Oregon are a few hours, wherever you live, from the coast, to the desert (Oregon), to the mountains.

No, there are no-workable actors.  Never have been.

What I just heard says, premeditated murder of my mother.

I am being gassed in my own home!

February 1, 2020: READ: WARNING: I’M TOO FAT!

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February 1, 2020

She really is that bad, and he really is not going to protect you.

Yes, she is involved in this “wait” story that happened by way of my “brother” – correcting a problem.  Involved meaning she is guilty.

She’s heavier, isn’t she?  Heavier than his ex-wife.  And, a sometimes a smoker?  She’s a reporter?  A reporter who used to work at the Washington Post, and now is, freelance?

She’s mean.  Rude.  Condescending.  Intemperate.  Her vindictiveness is worrisome, and a caution.

If and when you started sleeping with her FBI man, it is why you went from my FBI man to FBI man.  She doesn’t love you enough for me to approve her for you.  And, making me fatter and fatter isn’t going to stop any of these men from wanting to have sex with me, it is going to stop me, from wanting to have sex with them.  One reason, it makes me feel used.

She heavy, heavier, and if you think, no, she doesn’t think well, and she doesn’t understand you FBI man.  She does not have a problem using him, using you, FBI man, and I wouldn’t do that to you because I don’t have to.

FBI man, they are gassing me in my own home.

World, they are gassing me everyday in my own home.  And, that is not what happened to my mother, they entered my home in Plant City through the garage door, and poisoned my mother, multiple times.  The garage door being a blind spot for someone who lived around me and was watching my house.

Everyday they are gassing me.

I am more than tired of the wet underwear and the cleaning of my cat’s purposeful placement of urine outside of the litterbox – just to make me clean something.

I am tired of cleaning, I am tired of this hellhole, I am tired of this depressing life, this fat-life, this too-fat life, and I am tired of being gassed in my own home.

Mitt Romney not welcome story says his former reporter woman that he slept with because they were never together is not welcome here, and too many others for me to mention.

Hannibal, BF, is hurt, again because something both he and I enjoyed together has been taken away.  From both of us.  Something else he is good at, speaking with people, more importantly, it was time he was able to share with me, and its been taken away, again.

No one in this complex, and I mean, no one, has any comprehension of brain research, no one.  You have to stop looking at Hannibal Lecter, BF, as a criminal, and start looking at him as a person who’s lost something.  It’s vastly different.

Yes, he is guilty of criminal activity, just like this other FBI man, yet he is not guilty of criminal behavior.  He doesn’t like other criminals.  He doesn’t like other murderers, or rapist’s, or con men, he doesn’t like them, he doesn’t want to be around them, HE DOESN’T LIKE THEM.  That – is not a criminal.

BF is not a criminal with a heart of gold.  You have someone looking at him like he’s a hooker with a heart of gold and that is not him.  And, I would never look at him that way either it is dismissive of his mind.

He doesn’t like other criminals, and who did?  That Mississippi documentarian.  I spoke about it in my head, and probably wrote about it too, she preferred to be with other criminals, she liked them so much she wanted to be in the cell with them.  THAT IS NOT A WELL WOMAN!

If she really committed suicide, that is one of the reasons, why.

No, FBI man, she’d rather destroy you to make her career, than help catch criminals.  She’s so bad, she has this FBI man having thoughts about going back to his ex-wife, and that just doesn’t look healthy.  It was a difficult divorce.  There’s a lot of unjustified emotions and feelings involved, a lack of maturity, considering both of their ages.

Shall, I find you a better one, FBI man?  I like you too much (or really, at all) to want to see you, unloved, in any way.

Does she get a little, hot under the collar, just in the information that you and I are going to speak to each other, and I might be lying in my bed when that happens?  It’s absurd.  I am a prisoner in my own home.  A prisoner.  I am not free to go wherever I want, I am a prisoner in my own home and life, mostly because of this filming.  Why would another woman be jealous of a prisoner?

And, truthfully, this chore-list of chores to clean?  That started at my employment in 2013 after I got intelligence another really bad guy, there new number #1, and instead of continuing to work me?  As a designer, you demoted me at that employment, by way of two salaried women saying, other people needed to have a chance at being a designer, and that started me on the way out the door.  That chore-list of chores to clean is nothing more than a busy signal, making me unavailable to work, or talk, or be able to communicate.

I’m sorry, what they told me last night, Franco is guilty, and so is my former employer, started in 2017, and not the same as when I was hired in 2016.

That reporter in Spy Games, is me.  Brad Pitt’s character is Marvin.  The reporter story line is meant to convey my importance, to Marvin, and intelligence, I am not the double-reporter.  And, I spoke about it often, the unusual casting of that actress as the love interest, really for Marvin.  It just means there were others who really couldn’t see how special I am and am to him.  I am also his wife in the movie because who would cast Robert Redford with a dowdy-looking wife?

Some people don’t see me the way these other men, see me.

And, military intelligence reads me very differently, then FBI or CIA intelligence.  It’s very delicate, and very skillful, the military intelligence in the past.

Yes, FBI man as soon as I do something really productive like yelling, DON’T FUCK WITH MY FBI MAN, they run an opposite in the media, like there is a real “threat” from an opposing side that wants me dead, when it is not true, and just meant to sell newspapers.

What the fuck is her problem, FBI man?  He’s not allowed to talk with me – at all?!  Because he and I talking will lead to him wanting to FUCK me?  Or because it will lead to him not wanting to be with other women?

Is this another power couple, me and this FBI man, just like Hannibal Lecter, BF and I read as a power couple, just like David and I read as a power couple, just like…the list is too numerous, why are any of you allowing the efforts of the United States to be subverted, just by denying me to be in a power couple?

If I was together with this FBI man, for real, it reads as a power couple.

The only men, I choose, like David or BF, make us a power couple?!  And, you’ve allowed people to subvert that and deny that, so I, as a proxy to and for the United States will look, less than powerful?!

That is subversion.

Just denying me, men that together we will be so powerful of a read, it is literally like – printing money?!

You people gotta stop.  These jobs are really difficult enough on their own.  You gotta stop filming me.  You gotta stop imprisoning me.

You gotta free me.

I don’t understand these women who don’t want their men to be loved, you’ve broken up, you are no longer together, don’t you want them to be loved by other women, who will really love them?!

Or, are you just trying to hold onto a job and not a man?!

If you have men from the Lighthouse, who also want to go with me, like – now!  I’ve seen at least one that is okay to go, and it means, from what I’ve seen, they want to be near me, it is not that they, necessarily want to work with me.  It also means, you have men from the Lighthouse, my father’s employment who believe my father has been – denied.

By the way, David was my safety, and I his, or Edison, wouldn’t have been alive as long as he was.  There were more people involveed than people realized.

That’s the Queen of England in one of these ex-ambassador news stories, and my mother, and the FBI man’s former female relationship, and “Sona”, and other women.  It also says, Hannibal Lecter, BF, is refusing to date other women. 

There is nothing in these photographs of Queen of Suspense, that is factual.

The scaffolding story says people didn’t know why I responded with a “face” the way I did the other day.  I really don’t think the public needs to know every moment of my life, yet that was the professor who tried to kill the real John Nash.

There really is a way to do this without an audience, or perhaps, I won’t work with you people anymore.  BF is having a hard time with losing me.  It again, reinforces the reality that none of you understands, brain research.

Al Qaeda leader arrested is a real a true story.

No, BF, don’t date a Latina woman – just because they’ve told you to.  Until you allow me to be real, you are going to have a never-ending difficulty in helping those with brain research.  Take these shackles off of me.

Apple shuts down stores in China is okay.  

Christmas themed hazing story shows a lot of people, David, BF, this British double agent, a Latina woman BF dated, and so on.

They are using this China story as multiples, and one of them being using a real organization like the HOA to – remove Hannibal Lecter, BF.  That’s a real problem.

And, you are going to have a time – removing all the covers for this British double agent.

This land-mine news story just says President Trump was given faulty information and intelligence regarding my bottle smashing.  You people are headed to a war with China, the way you are running  news stories, and that is the opposite of what I did in my driveway, I GOT ALLEGIANCE, WHEN NONE OF YOU THOUGHT OF IT, THAT IS WAS POSSIBLE!  THAT’S ALLEGIANCE!  NOT A THREAT!  ALLEGIANCE, YOU DUMB MORONS!

CONTINUING CASEY’S MORONIC DOUGH IDEA IS HEADING TO WAR WITH CHINA, ARE YOU PREPARED TO DO THAT BECAUSE I AM NOT!

David whoever got you involved in filming this location, and using my brother, lied to you.  It was never meant to document the reality as it happened.  It is also, one reason, I don’t love David the same anymore.

The Pompeo story says President Trump, not the money man, believes and wants Cherith to work her 100%.

And, the only reason people have been trying to subvert this effort of the President?  Because a powerful man like the President of the United States, believes Cherith is important.  What’s the problem?  Oh yeah, there is none?  Wise up people!

You need to be questioning the people who don’t want me to work, not the ones that do.

Targeting Nigeria is correct.

What are you people going to do, when I get to be a real person again, and watch the news or television without any of you in the programming and in my house?  Admit all these news stories are faked?!  Big deal.  No one will really care.  They will still make a profit without me.

Owen Wilson joins Loki – ok.

Prison staff is sickened is true.

No witnesses allowed, is correct.

13 million-dollar fine for robocalls says, Bezos.  I suggest, Bezos held a photo of himself previous to the year 2016, for his protection.  If this is true, it is a little frightening.

Christopher Hasson hit list is more than one former law enforcement, it includes a man’s daughter for more than a DUI, it is domestic terrorism, and its rather large in size, it is bigger than a few individuals.

I’m too fat.

I’m being gassed in my own home.