February 15, 2019 READ: Your Humiliation, Not Mine

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February 15, 2019

It was set-up to humiliate me.  Wow, I hope you are proud of yourselves.  I have not been allowed to go outside, to run, to eat, or exercise the way I want and choose since I started working at Amazon, and that is how you choose to humiliate me?  With Norway pants?!  It is your humiliation, not mine.  I walked out to show you your humiliation, not mine.  Wow, you should be so proud of yourselves.

I never want to see David again, as long as I live.  I never want to hear about him, his wife, or his family, ever again.  I do not wish him well or good thoughts at all.  That is to say I hope he rots in hell for all eternity.  I never want anything to do with David as long as I live.  I want to move on.  Wow!  I really don’t need the feedback that David never found me attractive or sexually attractive!  I really don’t need to know that information.  I have never been loved all my life and that is how you choose to pay me back with telling me David never found me attractive.  I never want to see him as long as I live!

I have never wanted that little man, I hope he rots in hell for all eternity.  I never want anything to do with James Franco.  I never want to see him as long as I live.

I want to move on from that employment.  It is not interesting.  It does not pay enough money for me to be self-sufficient.  It is very obvious it is not my job.

Because of the wrong choice of action that took place at my employment I uninstalled The Washington Post, I have no plans to read it again.  Be warned.

Love in any language, straight from the heart, I have never in all my life been allowed to love and be loved by a man I want my whole life.  I am now an old woman.  I have nothing good to say to any of you.  I hope you all rot in hell for all eternity.  The day I leave this world…

February 10, 2019: READ: I Gave It to Them Freely

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February 10, 2019

I want some eggs and bacon, please.  Maybe some toast.  Anyone?

Wow!  I am too tired!  There is too much work on the line.  Do you know what this tells me, this constant work on the line, having to go faster and faster?  It is the mentality of a con running scared, having to outsmart the cops looking for them.  That is what it tells me.  That is what it feels like.  There is no need for it.  They are not real orders, going to real customers, on a real time line.  There is no excuse for it.  Yet, another reason I hate that job.

They want me to believe they set-up the dating experience of Edison with David and James to teach me how a criminal mind thinks, acts, and behaves.  I believe they are wrong to do such a thing.  More importantly, I believe they set it up to try and turn me into a subversive.  To try and have me work against my country and our government.  I have been placing my life on the line every day since the tooth crown and the surgery.  I have been at the point of death every day to not allow secrets and work to fall into enemy hands.  Are you willing to give your life for your country?  Because that is what has truly been asked of me every day with the surgery, and the tooth crown.

That is my Aunt Trudy’s locket in the window, she gave me after she had a stroke, after I freely, effortlessly gave information to Federal agents as how to stop these US subversives, and foreign double agents in their brain research.  Do not forget these subversives’ primary targets was to start with – children.  To warp children’s minds and brains.  I said, No.  No, and I destroyed millions and millions of dollars of work, effortlessly.

Effortlessly.

Think about that for a few days.  I did it effortlessly.

And, then you gave it back to them.  With the tooth and the surgery.

I should have been recruited instead if you were going to use me and my family.

Now, I must return to the Spectrum store to be late – yet again.  When all you had to do was allow my phone to be activated, here.

God, I hate that job.

And, I am really tired of items being delivered to my door that were not at all how they were pictured on-line.

God, I hate that job.

February 9, 2019: READ: END THE SHOW!

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February 9, 2019

Let it be known, I have cleaned my microwave several times whatever they have done to it they have rendered it inoperable.  I want them charged with breaking and entering, illegal entry, and anything else.  I hope they rot in hell.  I HATE THAT JOB!

I have toe fungus on my toenails, that is why there is no color on my toenails.  Fungus from the previous nail color.

There are not infinite hours in one day, there are only twenty-four hours in one day.  There is only so much that can be accomplished in one day.  Write this or else, do this or else, live like this or else, this is slave mentality.

Make this distinction, BBC America is not the same as HBO.

I am not interested in making the richest man in the world more money for $15 an hour.

I will never love David again.  Love cannot be found or happen through deception.  Deception is not a surprise, deception is deception.  That rodent of a short man is one of the worst people I know, he belongs in jail with criminals.

I will not be handing my phone to any person at the Spectrum mobile store for them to then swap out any equipment.  It is the only reason I am being forced to go to the store.

This is not my movie, What Happens in Vegas.  It is not possible to ever love David again.  You people just do not allow me to actually love a real man for real.

I had planned to move to New York and LA, I talked about it all the time when I worked and while I was at college.  If you thought you could use David as a proxy for me by having him live in those places, I would say you were wrong, and it did not work.

Your time is up!  One to two years was years and years ago.

No, I do not believe that I am so much better than every other government person that the world will collapse if I am no longer on television.  In fact, we would all be better off if I was a free person and allowed to live my life.  Unless you think and believe events such as Nelson Mandela being freed from prison should not have happened.  God help you if you do think that.

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It is very obvious David is only in it for the money.  I am nothing more than a paycheck.  He rides my coat tails while he dates and marries woman after woman.  What woman could ever love a man like that?  After the way he has treated me.  The way he has treated me displays a basic lack or morals.

No, I will never love that FBI man.  He has done nothing but deceive me since the beginning.  He is a good man just not to me.  Not to me.  Not ever.  If he was a good man to me, I would be free, free to be in the world, and free to love a good man who loves me in return.

Dr. Kelly in the Peacemaker just tells me our doctor, Dr. Kelly was supposed to keep my mother alive.  She failed to do so.  65 is too young to have such a severe stroke in my opinion.  65 is when we start collecting Social Security.  You people failed to keep my mother alive.  You failed to keep my mother alive.  It is almost impossible to live with.  Straight from the heart.

Straight from the heart, since I was a teen-ager you people have done nothing but make sure I am never loved or am able to love.  It is almost impossible to live with.  What purpose is there in living and being alive without love?

Let it be known, what they did with my surgery, my vagina literally does not function anymore.  The normal bodily fluids, the normal operation, the normal functions, the normal reactions, the normal sensations, literally no longer work anymore.  How much do you think I want or enjoy having to write that sentence?  It was done with malicious intent.  I am at such a loss, such a loss for words.  I have nothing good to say about anyone involved.  Be aware, it will not be taken well by many persons the damage that surgery caused me.

People could have stopped it, and they didn’t.

A sex organ is another way to give and receive love.  It has been taken from me.  Permanently.

They were supposed to keep my mother alive.  It is impossible to live with.

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February 8, 2019: READ: Weinstein

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February 8, 2019

Wine-stain, Weinstein, this would be Katherine Stein at The Container Store.  It is very serious.  It looks like they knew.  It looks like the Weinstein brothers knew, planned, and plotted criminal activity with purpose.

No such thing as bad publicity, I disagree.

He knew.  They knew.

That’s decades of work, ruined.  Decades of film work corrupted.  It is real.

Somebody please release this crazy bitch from the news, Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez.  She is someone I would avoid, ignore.  She looks crazy!

February 8, 2019: READ: Dusan

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February 8, 2019

Dusan, the name Dusan from the movie The Peacemaker tells me as were betrayed by one of our own military men probably stationed in Japan, this would have been in the mid to late ’80’s most likely.  Du, Do, Oregon, Nike, san.  I would question why would he want to do something like that.

I have seen nothing in the character Dr. Julia Kelly that in anyway looks like me.  it just looks like Dr. Cindy Kelly, it doesn’t look good.

February 8, 2019: READ: Disney, Orlando

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February 8, 2019

Man, I really don’t like thinking like this.  You people might think I like it, I don’t.

If what I am seeing is real and truthful it means there is not one, it looks like there are several serial killers at the Orlando site, worked there for more than several years, at least a couple work in security, and they travel to the tourist’s hometown and home after they’ve returned from vacation.  They do not socialize or are seen with each other; however, they do have their own communication.  Their careful, not too many at a time.  They are preying on whom they are watching.  Always scanning, always preying.  It’s deceptive.

It would be the reason Roy Campbell was black, Roy – Roy Disney, Campbell, Camp – Camp David, the President’s retreat, Bell – Belle, me, her looks have no parallel, the song lyric from Beauty and the Beast, Cherith’s looks have no parallel, or Gym, or Jim Moriarty looks, there is no other self within me there is only me.  It is very obvious to see, isn’t it?

They used the word toxic about the call center for Disney in Orlando, so whatever that was supposed to mean.  Real or not location?  I should be glad I don’t work there.  On and on.  About the building and its condition.

It is the reason I saw Jim Franco on the monorail at Magic Kingdom, READ: King.

I think it would be important to scare the shit out of people in Orlando at Walt Disney World, disturb their norm.  It’s deceptive.  Deceptive.

These movies really, most of them, are really like analyzing data.  I could go line for line and write about its meaning.  The background, the lyrics, the color choices, it’s exhaustive.  One movie would take me more than several hours.  One movie could really take me several days, to read.

Atonement is a worry.  Keira Knightley.  It’s a worry.  I must be famous, she said, in Fantasyland.  It’s a worry.  It is not the movie itself, it is the word, Atonement.  It’s a worry.

Magic Kingdom has never been my favorite theme park, I’ve said it on the phone and spoken to people about it numerous times.

Epcot is my theme park, always has been.

Eucalyptus is a natural bug repellent.  We had a Eucalyptus tree growing in the pot in the picture of Mimzi and Barney.  Guess where Eucalyptus grows?  Australia.  My mother bought eucalyptus to get rid of the bugs and deter them.  These stupid cops probably, I can’t write about it anymore, it is too disturbing.  How terrible they read – red.  How terrible the read – reed.  Reed.  There was a Reed that worked with me the second time I was at Disney.  The association made was that he was a race car driver.  What?!

My mother would have been more in line as an architect’s wife, an architect who owned his own company, and they have my mother getting sick because they thought we needed to learn to do drug busts.  Their lack of knowledge is obscene to me.

The oracle in the Matrix, is not baking cookies, she is cooking books.  This would be a huge scandal, I haven’t had time to work it or brain think it.

Colorado, you stupid people!  The Columbine shootings they wanted to blame on the movie, The Matrix.  I took their stupid brain research AND DEMOLISHED IT!!  AS A TEEN-AGER!  DEMOLISHED IT!  POOF!  GONE!  DEMOLISHED IT!

You allowed that work to be taken away with the tooth and the surgery!  YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU DID!

The Columbine shootings look like brain research that succeeded.  Think about that for a long time.

My father went to high school in Chicago Illinois.  This is another Presidential connection.  Men and people, predicting, forecasting, and planning Presidential races.  You can thank my real father for being in this country, he helped Barack Obama in his election just by being alive.

They wanted to place a hit on my real father once I purchased the t-shirt from a Christian bookstore about strength.  By using that black dancer, by way of Oregon and Russia, I would fix that if I were you.  He might not be safe to work in the building.

My mother had her Presidential connection until death.  Just like me.  Daughter of the President, as I am seen is until death.  It is why they are working so hard to get me to kill myself.  Hiding my mother’s death from me was not a good thing.  My mother’s death is seen, I don’t know how to put this into words, it is African intelligence, it is a company, organization, a group of persons, former governmental persons, and current, conspiring to disrupt the United States and the United States government.  They were more than pleased with my mother’s death.  Make no mistake it is an attack on the President and the United States government.  By proxy and in real.  People have died because my mother is no longer living, think about that for a while.  I want this dealt with.  They have been able to hide.  They have been able to conceal.  They have been able to get away with it.

Do you know, I am actually responsible, most likely, for the release of Nelson Mandela?  I just had to get there, to a location, and be seen.  Probably, the Coconuts comedy club in St. Petersburg, Florida.  Michael was hitting me with his elbow over and over on the drive to the show, so I wouldn’t enjoy myself while I was and look terrible and miserable.  Or, it could have been someone I checked-out when I worked at a grocery store.  Most likely, it was the comedy show.

That is really difficult for me, Nelson Mandela.  Invictus, Jason Bourne.  It could just be Winnie Mandela people angry at Nelson Mandela’s release.  It is so big, I am not sure at this moment.  Non-violence rather than killing people.  There is African intelligence in this, I WANT IT DEALT WITH.  IT IS GRUESOME.  IT IS GROSS.  I WANT IT DEALT WITH.  I WANT IT KNOWN THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT DOES NOT TAKE KINDLY TO PLOTS.  IT IS SO BIG I CANNOT WRITE IT ALL NOW.

Inhale all, from my Fire Pit poem, just means I stopped breathing.  You people have seen me do this, it is not a literal thing.

Who was that on the phone this morning telling me to go to the Spectrum store in Tampa?  Not a good person.  Go here, to go here, to do this, to do that rather than having it done correctly the first time!

Wow!  No wonder I dislike talking on the phone anymore!  AHT, Average Handle Time, at Hilton was 130 seconds.  My AHT was usually 130 seconds, in a 6-hour shift, calculate that.  How much would you enjoy speaking to criminals, agents, and what not whilst not knowing exactly who in on the other end of the phone and do it that quickly.  Disney was a little better in not having an AHT, per se; however, it had an effect.  I was not able to be prepared for what was happening and what was happening to me.

It is a mistake to place me in isolation like this.  Things happened, good things happened when I was free to be about in the world.

Erin and Nancy were sisters who worked with me at Hilton.  Nancy wore Broncos shirts often, she had gone to rehab for her drinking, she was in her twenties.  Erin worked at the Help desk, as a supervisor, of sorts.  This is a problem.

The celebrities started calling me when I worked at Disney, HUGE problem.  This is the introduction of celebrities and criminals, serial killers, and worse.  This is a really bad one, Little Britain on HBO.  This really happened.  He really spoke with me in the phone, the straight man from Little Britain.  It is really bad.  They used it almost word for word in a skit at a hospital with the receptionist, appearing dumb and stupid, and repeating herself.  You have no idea how bad this is.

I had criminals and killers calling me, IT WAS MORE THAN MY JOB TO NOT DETER, I COULD NOT GO AGAINST THE RULES OR POLICIES.  FOR INSTANCE, I COULD NOT MAKE UNAVAILABLE ROOMS, AVAILABLE.  THAT WAS NOT SOMETHING I COULD DO, PEOPLE DEPENDING UPON ME TO ALWAYS STAY WITHIN THE RULES, OR LAW!

I ALWAYS SAID NO MORE THAN I WAS SUPPOSED TO, FOR A REASON!  THEY MADE A COMEDY SKIT ABOUT A CONVERSATION I HAD WITH THE STRAIGHT MAN OF LITTLE BRITIAN IN A HOSPITAL!  A HOSPITAL!  A HOSPITAL!  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!  A HOSPITAL!  THEY EQUATED ME TELLING THEM OVER THE PHONE THAT A RESORT DID NOT HAVE ROOMS AVAILABLE ON THE DAYS THEY WANTED TO GO WITH A RECEPTIONIST AT A HOSPITAL!  DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT THAT IS?!  WHAT THAT MEANS?!  IT IS NOT JUST MY MOTHER, THAT COULD BE IN BRITIAN ALSO, AND OTHER COUNTRIES!

THESE GUYS ARE MILLIONARES AND THEY CHOSE TO PICK ON ME, MY MOTHER, AND CAUSED HARM TO PEOPLE THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW.  IT IS SO BAD I CAN’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!

THEY MADE ME APPEAR DUMB!  THE DAUGHTER OF THE PRESIDENT, PEOPLE COULD HAVE TAKEN THAT VERY SERIOUSLY!  THAT ONE IS SO BAD!  People were actually getting killed.  You thought you were safe because you are celebrities?!

You are not paying me to pack, you are not paying me to write, you are not paying me to read, do you know you are actually paying me to be employed by Amazon, to be seen on paperwork as an employee, or is the news about Jeff Bezos being the richest man in the world, made up and fake news?

I am tired and these displays are at an end for me, I see it is so.

February 7, 2019: READ: There Is No Love Here

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February 7, 2019

I simply cannot continue this charade and lie.  It is not true this 1, 2, 3.  It’s not true.  It is a lie.  It includes that terrible short man for whom I cannot say anything good about him.  I cannot do it.  I cannot pretend.  I am real.

I loved David.  He did it for money.  He continued to call me and stalk me only to make me believe he had feelings for me when there were none.  He did it for money.  I was sincere he was not.  It has been more than proven to me.  I cannot recover from this deceit.  He did it for money.  He does it for money.  There is no love in that.

I would rather be dead than continuing living a life without real love.

 

 

February 6, 2019: READ: I HATE THAT JOB!

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February 6, 2019

Wow!  How about you people stop using me to write stories – AUTHOR – IZED.

Wow!  Tally the votes of what underwear I wear, what shirt I wear, what food I eat, what make-up I wear, and worst of all FINGERS – I HATE THAT JOB!  I-Tally, Italy, I-Taly.

Wow!  I will never love David again!  I will never love David(s) again!  That includes Edison and the FBI guy!  Wow!  I don’t think it was a smart idea to place death threats on the FBI and its government agencies!  However, I will never love him!  I will never love David again!  Go home to your wife and put your black hands there!  Wow!  Black hands!  I will not be protecting you!  Black hands because you want me to be a fan of my mother’s death and murder?!  Go to hell!  Stay away from me!  I do not have an option as to my parking, make no mistake there is no love for you anymore!

Wow, David who never found me sexually attractive!  Wow, David, or whoever this is that never believes I am good enough, smart enough, or pretty enough!  Wow, David who only did it for the money!  He was paid to call me, paid to play a part, paid to call me!  All David cares about is money and looks!  I will never love David again!

You want me to write the story about how Medieval Times got me to Dachau, how I helped create a map?  Go to hell!  What would be the reason why I should continue anything at all?!  You want me to tell you how many people I helped capture by seeing them in Los Angeles at a Mexican restaurant?!  You want me to tell you about my sixteenth birthday?  I am too mad, sad, angry, hurt, upset, and so very, very unhappy!

There is someone or a company or organization that has an insurance policy on me, someone gets money when I die, and it does not look like my brother.  It looks like they will be getting money soon!  I have no plans for the future.  I would rather die than continue living this life, that horrible job!

Wow!  You think I am going to stop and write down the license number of the vehicle that is making me belch and puke?!  That is not who I am!

Wow!  I had to hit my hand while driving to work tonight to try and recover the sensation in my hand!  I had no feeling in my hand for hours while working!  It’s abuse!  They are still doing it!  I WANT THEM TO STOP!

I read people as classical literature!  The fantasy and science fiction reader of books is my brother, not me!  Classical literature!  It is a world of difference!

You stupid woman took me, who was seen by several people because I’ve seen it from them, from their perspective, as the Daughter of the President and put me in an abusive relationship – to train me?!  An abusive relationship and exposed me to drugs – to TRAIN ME as a cop?!  I was catching terrorists, planning maps, spotting people!!  It’s is such a huge difference!

My mother was seen as the President.  Whatever my mother did it was before she was married and it was so good with such good intel and capture, most likely, that she was given the Presidency as communication, and you killed her and had her killed!  Wow!  I hate that job!

Publish the names of every person who has used virtual reality that I never agreed to or have ever given consent to!  EVER!  Publish and name every person and every time it occurred!  There are celebrities and actors getting killed!  Publish their names!  No more secrets.  Knowledge is power!

I unscrewed that light bulb for a reason James Franco it is getting pretty bad.  I would suggest you make a public declaration about what you knew before this all started.  Because you are James Moriarty to someone(s).  Unless you have no problem with death threats and possibly getting killed for it.

Someone wants me to believe they planned my surgery as revenge.  As a way to listen to my thoughts while I was having sex.  It’s nonsense.  The tooth was there before the surgery, there is no reason for it whatsoever!  There were cameras in my home!  Based on what behavior?!  None!

They obviously mistranslated a lot of my facial responses.  It is possible to think about someone else while responding to spoken words.

Miserable!  Sad!  Unhappy!  I HATE THAT JOB!  SOMEONE APPROVE ME TO GET ANOTHER JOB SOMEPLACE ELSE WHERE NO ONE IS SPEAKING IN THEIR EARS!  SINCE I WAS A TEENAGER!

I WAS MEANT TO BE MARRIED, I SEE IT!  I WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO LIVE A LIFE OF ISOLATION!  YOU WERE WRONG!

I HAVE NO PLANS FOR THE FUTURE!  I AM DONE!  I PLAN ON KILLING MYSELF BECAUSE I HATE IT SO MUCH!  YOU PEOPLE ARE NEVE GOING TO END THIS UNTIL I DIE!  SO, I AM ABLE TO END IT ON MY OWN!

MOST IMPORTANTLY I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS OR THIS LIFE!

I HATE THAT JOB!