Author: endthefalselife

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

January 4, 2020

Why this is important, someone has not made it clear, meaning, all it said, the media profile I received, all it said was important, and nothing else.  This used to have a saying, or a proverb, or something, a note that went along with this necklace when I bought it.  Since, I no longer have it, it is difficult to, give certainty to this purchase.  There was probably, one word, that went with this necklace.

I thought, I believed it was very unique, great, worthwhile, meaningful, interesting, storytelling, all sorts of things, until I got to school, college, and Jill made such fun of me, bullying me, I didn’t wear to school anymore.

We were also, no longer friends, after that.

She was mean, biting, vicious, cruel, all sorts of things.  Because I don’t know how a woman could look at this necklace…

…and be mean about it, and to the people, the necklace was about.

The profile I received says I helped you get the Unibomber, it did not say his name, it said, Unibomber.  If this is true, I would have gotten him while employed at Rita Staffing in Lakeland, Florida.  I used to have all the paperwork in my files.

Until just recently.

If I helped you capture the Unibomber, I probably was only making about $7 an hour, or less.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

January 4, 2020

You have a man who would like this information, so here it is:

This is the Joey keychain I bought in December 2000.  All the Aboriginal painted design has worn off, but I still have him on my keychain because I love him.

The store was literally just a few stores to the left of this photograph, Queen Street Mall, Brisbane, Australia.

If you are interested in more brain research information, you might want to consider consulting an expert(s) in exorcisms, and such.  It’s probably why there were so many movies like Poltergeist in the ‘80’s, and why Angels and Demons goes together with Catholicism.  And, I would be very careful, that is extremely – dangerous.

And, my attempts like watching television or the internet to get information, like what I was trying to do after 9/11 have been thwarted in this house, since you’ve invented this following me, or filming me as I go about my life, and worse, having people from the television, tell me what to do, where to go, and so on.  It’s very deceptive.  It looks like innocent fun, yet the real truth is you are denying me access – to information, that could actually be helpful, with the United States military.  It’s the truth.

So, I do not know a great deal about exorcisms, demon possession.  I would be extremely careful, you would need a very learned man, and very spiritual man, Christian and/or Catholic, and probably, a real team of men to consult with brain research.

And, I do write a team of – men – on purpose, for a reason.  I do know what will work; you need men.  And, you would need to be about as careful in considering them, as you would, astronauts.  The margin for error on this, should not be taken for granted.  What you could expose a person to; could create something, apocalyptic.  I write that, on purpose because the pattern you people have been following is to do the opposite of what I say and write, just to see me get irate when people die, and plans go badly.

And an apology will not suffice in dealing with this, so I am warning you, IT MUST BE MEN.

Since, they’ve also had a library of all my possessions in this house, including my records, vinyl, albums, here is some more to share of music that was my childhood.

Oddly, I don’t have The Rescuers album that I sung to as a child, so someone must have stolen that also in this house.

Six Degrees of Separation goes together with the movie, Collateral Beauty, and this photograph…

…and I no longer have the photographs of me from The Container Store, College Night 2013, it looks like Courtney is responsible for stealing them because it had the word College and it would remind of her David and me.  I’ve been telling people, writing it, and the danger, and warning people about this life since, 2014.

This is really, not about, art.

That double agent subversive woman seen in the movie, The Passion of The Christ, as Satan, is a really bad sign, a really big warning.  It is almost like putting the terror alert to the greatest number (and that was in 2004), I wouldn’t know if there is a terror alert number because I no longer have access to what is going on in the world.

You don’t know, what you don’t know, and information is vital, especially in intelligence, that’s why you don’t just kill people because they’ve done bad things.

And, I don’t understand why I am sick from eating:

To me all it says is, another lawsuit.

Making me sick, making me fat, and everything you people have been doing here since Edison in 2014, its only mission is to prevent me from working with the United States military.

It should be screaming in your ears as such a warning.

If you don’t want my help at the Pentagon, with the United States military, or intelligence, fine.  But I won’t be a gay therapist for you people because that’s not who I really am.  And, since Courtney, 2011, it has only been a ruse, a diversion from allowing me to keep the military honest and true and allow subversion – to flourish.

I am so upset at being threatened at the church I had been attending, it is the same plan you used with David following me everywhere, showing himself and his face to me from 2012 to 2014, every single day, nearly, there was a David sighting.  There was so much of it that I would message him on Facebook, and he never responded, a logical assumption is that I was not a welcome friend, anymore.  It’s why we’ve never spoken face to face since 2001.  I mean as David and Cherith, or whatever his name is.

It just looks like a mentally unwell person.  Because what person goes around, every day to make sure Cherith sees him, and then, never talks to her.  And, I don’t believe David did that on his own, he was paid to do such.  And, it’s super creepy, especially now that the whole world knows all the real work I’ve done with intelligence and the military.

It really is not how you treat a Captain.  Just like breaking into her home to poison her food, clothing, and personal products, is not how you treat a Captain.  Breaking and Entering, is against the law.

You’ve let me know by threatening me in my own church, I am not welcome there.

So, I no longer feel welcome to attend church there.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

January 4, 2020

I AM ABOUT TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND – AGAIN THIS MORNING, GET THIS STUPID, NO-GOOD-DUMB-IGNORANT-STUPID-FUCK OF AN EX-MILITARY MAN AWAY FROM ME!

Don’t tell me this stupid man is one of the men, that is seen in the movie, 12 Strong, in the dialogue of, tell me you didn’t submit that paperwork.  Because you don’t know how bad that is, that one sentence, you don’t know how bad that is for our United States military.

Do you know what the calling Hezbollah scenes are in the movie, Zohan?  Do you?  Want to guess?  Or, shall I tell you the real truth?  Calling Hezbollah is me, working at one of my former employers, at a call center before September 11, 2001 with real dead serious men, wanting to just blow shit up, only to call me, get me first, and then, deciding against it.  That’s why it’s so fucking funny.

Calling Hezbollah scene in Zohan is really, she’s my friend, no, she’s my friend, no, she’s my friend, no, she’s my friend, and YOU FUCKING MORONS WEREN’T PAYING ATTENTION TO IT – FAST ENOUGH – UNTIL BIN LADEN GOT TO SHOW THE WORLD HOW MUCH HE BELIEVED IN ME, YOU STUPID MOTHERFUCKERS!

HOW ABOUT NOW?!  YOU WANT TO PAY ATTENTION, NOW?!

Don’t tell me you submitted that paperwork from 12 Strong means, you had stupid, no-good, cocky, arrogant, meddling, piece of shit recruiters, military recruiters, with it in their license plates – G 12, with orders to follow me to work, TO MAKE SURE I WAS FUCKING SAFE, YOU STUPID FUCKS, who then took it upon themselves – to do dumb shit, just to get me terminated from the employment after September 11, 2001, for the simple reason, they didn’t like the – no joke – the early morning hours.  They didn’t like having to get up so early in the morning because that was my shift, so they made a way to get me terminated, so they wouldn’t have any more orders to follow.

Please don’t tell me, you then allowed him to be involved in any way, this stripper club, black helmet man to be involved – IN ANYTHING IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD, WITH PRODUCTION, OR ANYTHING INVOLVING MY LIFE SINCE 2001?!  WANT TO KNOW WHY?  THIS STUPID MOTHERFUCKER HAS GIVEN INFORMATION ABOUT BATTLES, MISSIONS, MILITARY WORK HE WAS ON – TO THE ENEMY, KNOWING IT WAS AGAINST REGULATIONS.

I know there are military laws that still apply to an honorably discharged solider, and he is guilty.

Most likely, this stupid, no-thinking man, gave information in a Champagne room at the strip club, after having seen me, had a meet arranged through the private investigators working with The Container Store because I am Trinity, in the Matrix, and he, DIDN’T UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT MEANT AND MEANS!

So, they were “selling” meets, at The Container Store, and THAT is espionage.

Do you know how bad that is?  For everyone involved and working at The Container Store?  Espionage.

From that meet alone, it is probably the reason Erin was – FIRED – from The Container Store, and they didn’t want to alarm people – WRONG – so, they covered it up by making it appear Erin was promoted or, transferred to another store, and it is a lie.

That black helmet motorcycle man gave away classified military information because he was too stupid to be a real man.

He likes you, David.  It means he probably has something to give you, if it is only something he says, and there is nothing wrong with that.

Why it is my job to tell people it looks like David’s best friend, the man, Andrew (?), who it appears David asked to go and talk to me because David was also hurting about October 2001 from the loss of  our friendship, lied to him about what happened because he never spoke to me because he didn’t believe I was a good enough woman for David because I was too fat, then.

How about now?

Get me out of South American politics, you people don’t know what you are doing.

This Soleimani killing news story means this Sona woman if she was involved with this military General while I was at another employer, guessed.  It means, she gave a report, or intel, as though it was from your 100%, and she lied.  Because it never happened.  Because she can’t work.  She can’t work with me.  Nor, could she have ever – worked.

Do you want to remove her from this neighborhood before they bring the fight – again – to our borders?  Not a joke.

Is this really how you want the world to see what you’ve done with your 100%, your Weapons, secreting wetness, and a urine-like feeling in my crotch, in my underwear?  Does this look like a strong America?  Wet underwear?  And, that goes for every version of a “Sherlock” woman prancing around here with a dog, as though, I am her dog!

Please do not tell me this mentality ACTUALLY exists in the United States military of, why don’t we just KILL EVERYONE?!  Because that is what this dumb-hick of a wanna-be military man SHOWED me here at my house last night!  Why doesn’t Cherith just want to kill Carlos Goshen?

Think about that for just a second.

Why does Cherith NOT want to kill this Carlos Goshen?  And, please stop insulting him and myself with your stupid news stories as though he and I are romantically involved or ever will be, it’s insulting to your intelligence and mine, and his.  YOU DUMB FUCKS!

So, I say again, DOES THIS MENTALITY ACTUALLY OCCUR, ACTUALLY EXIST, ACTUALLY HAPPEN WITHIN THE UNITED STATES MILTARY?!  KILL EVERYONE?!  KILL EVERYONE EVEN IF THEY ARE ALREADY CAPTURED?  KILL ALL DETAINEES?  DO AWAY WITH DETAINEE CAMPS, AND JUST KILL EVERYONE?!

ARE-YOU-FUCKING-STUPID?!

By his actions alone, this black helmet man says, to the world, please kill me because I don’t know how to live, how to live with myself, and how to be a man.  And, it’s possible, he has already gone too far.

Do you people not know how to inspire your own United States soldiers?  Want me to do it?  Or, is that what you’re afraid of?  If Cherith goes on tour to military bases, the enemy will so frightened, YOU WON’T HAVE TO FIGHT, AND PEOPLE WON’T DIE?!

YOU-FUCKING-MORONS!

This is how you inspire people, to be better people:

Our Thespis group, our college group got together before 9/11, at an entertainment/bar/arcade games/video game type of business.  David started playing air hockey, I played air hockey with David, and he and his then girlfriend, Ashley walked away…

…I stayed.  I stayed at the air hockey table, um, for a while.  Playing and playing and playing, and then, to my right because there were stairs to my immediate left, a boy about the age of 11 or so with his father, started watching me, a woman, play air hockey.

Now, in air hockey there is only one player on each side, the goalie.  This little boy watched with his father for a few games, and I saw him talking with his dad while I was playing, then this little boy…asked me to play with me.

I don’t have a photo of him, or his face, or a way to show you what – inspiration looks like.  So, I’ll tell you, I’ll write it the best way I know how.  Fun.

That over-weight woman was having so much fun, hitting the puck into the goal, with so much zeal her life could have depended on it (it didn’t); however, I was so sincere about getting EVER FUCKING GOAL AGAINST ME, TO WIN!  That this boy of about 11 years old asked his father if it was okay to play with me, a woman, and a stranger.

When was the last time you did that?

I mostly remember that story because it wasn’t until the next day, when my shoulder was in so much pain, I couldn’t figure out, why I was hurting and in pain.  Uh, oh yeah, I wasn’t playing air hockey, politely.  I nearly threw my shoulder out MAKING SURE I WAS GOING TO WIN!

And, please stop this stupid mentality of thinking that me, or another person because of their size, are just lumpy dumps of fat lards.  They are still people, with minds and brains, and feelings.

That 11 year old boy could be the reason my father had a shoulder injury, that he told me the doctor told him he needed surgery for, I am not sure whether or not that is true anymore, so father, please stop listening to them, they don’t love you, like I love you.

Capturing bad guys, defeating terrorism, ending the Vietnam war, rescue missions – THAT’S FUN!

Unless, you weren’t called to do that work, unless you weren’t meant for the work, and if that is true, all is not lost, there are other things, and other works to do, and be very careful, you don’t seek it, for the power and  glory of it.

The reason I signed the paperwork, the reason I submitted my paperwork for reinstatement at my former employer who denied me, you need me, you need me in the Pentagon, and you don’t know it, yet and still.

If I am the only one who believes it, it is still true.

At the rate your going in Afghanistan, you’ll be there another twenty years, or more, and no one, has a real clear plan of what to do – after – the fighting.

You’ve all copied after a movie, as though it was fact, and I’ve done what God has asked of me to do.  Be truthful.

If you allowed the AMA (Ask Me Anything) detainee to speak and talk with that stupid ex-military man, it means AMA is very clever.

You’ll find out.

And, the reason I told you to ask the director why he used the worm-like entity on Satan is because it is personal, to the director, Mel Gibson.  And, I am able tell you the vision Mel Gibson had in his mind for Satan, he was not able to put on film, it is not really very close, to how he envisioned a Satan.

It is one thing to be an actor, playing a part, like Satan, it is quite another to be in the film as, intelligence, as Satan.

You people have been following after Satan.

I haven’t.

I suppose it is another reason, your name isn’t – Weapons.      

And, you truthfully have at least one man, who is very upset that I am not able to be seen running, outside, freely.

I’m done here.

Too much unpaid work!

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

January 3, 2020

If you do not believe in God, go away.  Stop reading.  Because you will not be able to manage, deal, handle, or understand what I am about to write.

I am on strike, by weight, and more importantly, I am spending more than 40 hours a week here, at my desk, writing, I mean, correcting you, and I am not getting paid.  It is too much.

This Sona woman, has she been in charge of – this neighborhood, and my schedule, hours, and so on?  She is in no way able to be a manager.  She has no comprehension whatsoever, I’ve written this multiple times, she has no comprehension about – time.  She is beyond incompetent.

If it is not her, someone, or as a policy of working me since 2014, there is a mind-set, notion, and plan that has been in place of working me with no concept of what work is able to be accomplished in what hours, time frame, and so on.  If a person is completely unable to understand how many hours there are in a day, you are not capable of being a manager, a supervisor, or in charge.

Eight, ten, twelve hours a day of writing, I mean, correcting you, unpaid, just so I won’t be available, and working with the United States military, and you people do not yet – realize – YOU HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING AFTER – SATAN!

Satan.

Satan.

Satan.

You have been following after Satan, following the lead of – Satan, and she was a woman.

I am most serious.

I spoke about this movie, on the floor, while I was employed at Disney, pay attention FBI man because it involves you, too, The Passion of The Christ.  Let me start off by letting everyone know, I am nowhere in that movie.  I am not code, or intelligence, in anything I saw again in the movie, The Passion of The Christ.  Do you yet know who is?

You should have the highest alarms bells ringing in your ears upon reading that last paragraph.  We are in an unholy war and you don’t yet know it.

I spoke about The Passion of The Christ to a white, straight male while working at Disney it goes together with the ATM man at Suncoast Schools Federal Credit Union, it tells me, you didn’t see her – coming, Satan.

While I am on the subject bring that military corrupted man disguised as an Edison back to me, he has not been truthful to you, even while in custody.  It’s pretty bad what he has done!

I spoke about the vision of the movie, about how the director was making a statement about – women.  What I spoke was beyond his comprehension, from what I see now.

Let me clear it up, real fucking quick, a lot of what is in the movie, The Passion of The Christ, with the camera lens, the acting, regarding the women, and it is probably something Mel Gibson understood without being able to put words to it, is this, women have a great deal of unrecognized, unnoticed, misunderstood – humanity.  And there is a difference between humanity and punishment.

It is as if to say, a lot of men, do not understand the difference between humanity, believing in humanity, and people, and knowing when punishment is just or not.

I will tell you that Mel Gibson was called to direct The Passion of The Christ, and THAT HAS TO DO WITH WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I WAS IN AUSTRALIA IN DECEMBER 2000.   He was called, that’s what Christian’s call it when a person, has a calling from God, meaning, something they were born – to do.

It goes together with…

…and the reason they use the phone, phone booth and so on in the movie, The Matrix.  A calling.  Being called by God.  Being born to do a work, no one else might be able to do, or succeed at.  That is the definition of a calling.  It is another reason they worked so hard to get employed at Promus/Hilton.  Because…

…some people believed so much in this child, they gave her intelligence.  I never asked for it.  It was given to me, as a gift.

Here’s more proof of that…

…and, you shouldn’t wonder from these photographs why they made the movies, Look Who’s Talking. 

What did you say? 

I know you.

And, say it again, I like it.

That’s what these photos say to me, and they probably were looking or spying through the window, perhaps, not even in the room.

I know this word.  That’s dead seriousness in those eyes.

Because of it, and because you people have not been paying attention to the correct things since 1989, Terminator, the movie Terminator – happened – because they were trying to get me back to the state of California, and it hasn’t succeeded, yet. 

Because of my brain, you morons let Satan do this…

…and yes, that is quite a state of disrepair on my face, that scar over my eye, is the work of a woman.  On a child about this age…

This is going to frighten people, so perhaps, if you are afraid, STOP READING.

The movie, The Passion of The Christ goes together with the war in Afghanistan, and brain research.  It’s the reason the movie, Anastasia has Hell and demons in it because – YOU NEED MY RUSSIAN JEWISH HERITAGE IN ORDER TO UNDERSTAND BRAIN RESEARCH BECAUSE BRAIN RESEARCH AND DEMONISM, SATANISM, AND DEMONS are very close to what happens with brain research.

Are you starting to see how brain research is a weapon to use to stop terrorism, yet?

You allowed an infidel, an unbeliever, you allowed, Satan, on the floor with me at Disney, that brunette-haired woman.

If she was in any way smart enough to know they’d been putting me as intelligence into movie, or if she was given the information that I was being used in movies as intelligence, and she figured out  SHE IS SATAN IN THE MOVIE, THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST!

She is responsible, and she had help, for the strokes upon my mother, and fibroid cysts causing my hysterectomy.  An unbeliever.  An infidel.  Satan.

She figured out that she was Satan in the movie, The Passion of The Christ, and she went after my mother because you people have not been paying enough attention to me.  You placed me in a job, an employment, with an employer as Weapons, and then you so much as – walked away.  As though you had no more responsibility to me, as Weapons.

Do you want to know why we are in a war in Afghanistan?

That’s my brother playing Jesus at a Christmas play at Turkey Creek First Baptist church in Plant City, Florida, and you morons just…

…gave him away.  Like, in the movie, UP, you just gave my brother away, and no joke, if I am the only one who believes me, I know it to be true, it is the reason we are today, in a war in Afghanistan.  My brother as Jesus goes together with the brother’s looking the same in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty.  Chase around the ghosts, meaning dead ends that will get you nowhere as code in movies, if you want to, or I am able to tell you the truth.

We are in a war, in Afghanistan – because you just gave my brother away.  So, I write again, my family, me, we are not secret service, we are; however, a matter of national security.  It’s the very reason they installed the camera’s in this home, so how did you let them – give me a car accident in this house?

I mean it most sincerely.  Either recognize the intelligence of my family, or there will be consequences.  Still.

A reporter telling a story, or being able to tell the story, a news story, is just that, and should not then be turned into a reporter being my manager, my handler, or anything else other than being a reporter!  What the fuck, moronic idea have you been working?

And Scott at 8850, goes together with me trying to watch Dial M for Murder on Amazon, and a real terrorist, in connection to a real reporter at The Washington Post, and it probably has to do with the fact that you morons let SATAN work at my former employer!

That woman that wouldn’t let me read her face IS SATAN!

Um, yeah, I believe, I am going to disagree with her, and ask for her execution.

Your threatens to fire news story tells me, you have a problem you don’t understand, and you can’t control.

You’ve allowed the Edison person and profile to prevent me from working with the military, hurry, hurry, hurry, just to prevent me from working with the military.

If you want to know why the director used a worm like entity in the nose of Satan in the movie, The Passion of The Christ, you should ask the director.  To me, it just says, demonic.

The real alarm is Satan holding – a baby.

And the proof of that is while I was praying at my mother’s hospital bed for God’s help, He sent me the name and image of David to me, and the Angel I saw in the street, very similar to the mother of Mary and Satan scene in the movie, The Passion of The Christ.

It must mean other people have seen Angels like I have, it is in the movie, Powder, with the actor’s skin color, yet it is as comparable, the image of the actor in Powder, is as comparable to a glazed doughnut, and the Shroud of Turin.  Meaning, they are nothing the same.

I believe I saw an Angel of such a size, only because of my – height.  Meaning, God meant it for me.

And, be warned, you replaced the neighbor across from me from Courtney to Meghan Markle, it should scream as a warning to everyone, she should not be here.

This is for you, my friend…

…they persecute me because I forgive people, especially criminals.  I know he’s done terrible things, a real criminal, he is also, an intellectual, probably a poet, like TS Eliot, yet, him being a poet has nothing to do with my former home.  However, the real prayer rug is more like this…

…because it had deer on it.  My mother painted the horses, and I bought those deer, at Target.  And, that goes together with…

…this church scene I bought from Target through Christmas Central, it is supposed to be one set, two pieces, yet I had to buy two because somehow people have been allowed to intercept my – purchases – place hidden cameras in the lights, and failed to deliver what I ordered – the first time.  Send these people to jail.

Like the people responsible for the hidden cameras in my Christmas tree…

…and, I must share these photos of my home because you people do not know what you are doing, you should not be in my home, and then place news stories in the media, that are not factual.

The real Hannibal the Cannibal, Hannibal Lecter turned Hannibal the Evangelical because he realized and learned by me, his mirror, who he really was because his spirit was willing. 

Let me share with you about my maternal grandmother, Boyfriend…

…when my grandmother became a Christian, she stopped wearing makeup, she stopped listening to music, she wanted to have a physical change as a Christian, a look and countenance of piety.  Sometimes that happens with Christians.  It is just not the Christian, I am.

Oftentimes it is difficult for Christians, to be human.

I know I am not the Christian that will be, a church wife.  I just have too much in me.  A church wife being, the housewife, who never swears, who is dutiful and loving.  More importantly, it is just not who I really am.

Murphy says, hello.

Our Japanese exchange student, Misago, and my mother at Crown Point in Portland, Oregon, at the Columbia River gorge.  If any of you have been using my aunt Sylvia as a model for the caregiving work, I did with my mother after her stroke, we, and the work we both did with our mother’s was not the same.  I was an Occupational Therapist, Physical Therapist, I did cognitive work with my mother, I bathed her, made her meals, dressed her, and so much more.  I was also standing guard over my mother, and no one noticed.

This was a typical day in our backyard in Simi Valley, California, with the exception of this child with a black wig on.  There were always kids, and children at our house.  And, if you don’t know how to read this photograph…

…that’s an over-tired child, a child who’s played too hard, done too much in the day, and needs a rest.  If you can’t see that in this picture, you probably, shouldn’t work with children.  Probably, my mother took this photo, and it shows, my determination, by smiling, although, I was over-tired.

I doubt I had a handbag; I doubt I didn’t have bottoms on (SICK!), or was eating an orange, more likely I was eating a chicken drumstick.  The rest is just a typical day. 

This is gross, this has been re-edited.

You have a bunch of perverts who have been allowed to be – in charge.  My bathing suit I am wearing says, it’s cold outside, and I’ve just outgrown my bathing suit already.  I’m sure my parents are not the only parents who had their children wear too small of clothing, for lots of reasons, perhaps they didn’t realize the bathing suit was too small until I put it on, and it was just family, you sicko’s!  And, all those kids at the car, that was like every day, for me, at Simi Valley, what fun that was!  All those people, all those children, FUN!

So, the only reason I am in solitary confinement like this, with people talking through other people, and not being allowed to have real relationships, tells me, you don’t know what you’ve been doing.

Now, this is too much.  This is too much work, especially since it is unpaid.  If it hadn’t raised such an alarm seeing that double agent, subversive woman as Satan in the movie, The Passion of The Christ, I wouldn’t be writing.

But I’m done here.

This is too much.

I’m over-worked, and you know it.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

January 2, 2020

I am on strike because I am beyond enraged.

Some morons here think the only way to get a straight woman’s attention IS TO ATTACK THE STRAIGHT MALES THAT ARE ATTACHED TO HER!

DID MEGHAN MARKLE ALSO HAVE  ACCESS TO THE INFORMATION THAT MY ENGLISHMAN – WHO IS NOT PRINCE HARRY – WAS GOING TO BE IN TOWN FOR NEW YEARS, AND YOU DUMB WOMEN HAVE ALLOWED HER AND YOURSELVES TO LOOK A FOOL BECAUSE HE AND I REALLY LOOK GOOD TOGETHER?

I AM SO UPSET I DON’T EVER WANT TO GO BACK TO THAT CHURCH!  I WON’T THANK YOU FOR THAT!  YOU DON’T BELONG HERE SONA, MOVE WHILE YOU STILL CAN!  GET OUT OF MY NEIGHBORHOOD WHILE YOU STILL CAN, UNLESS SHE’S ALREADY GONE TOO FAR!

THIS SONA WOMAN IS NOT THE ACTRESS IN 13 HOURS IT IS THE REAL WOMAN SHE IS BASED OFF OF, IT GOES TOGETHER WITH THE MOVIE, SIX DEGREES OF SEPERATION, WILL SMITH PLAYS A GAY MALE, YOU PEOPLE HAVEN’T FIGURED IT OUT, TOM HAHN IS NO LONGER LIVING.  STOP SENDING GAY PEOPLE TO WORK WITH ME!  YOU DUMB IMEPT, COMPLETELY INCOMPETENT WOMAN GOT THIS REALLY GOOD MILITARY MAN LET GO FROM THE WAR BECAUSE – YOU CAN’T!  HE SURE AS FUCK CAN!

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS LET ME GO AT THE END OF AUGUST 2019 AND YOU’VE BEEN WORKING ME LIKE I AM STILL – EMPLOYED!  I’M NOT!

ALL THESE STUPID WOMEN AROUND HERE ARE DOING NOTHING MORE THAN PREVENTING ME FROM WORKING WITH THE…

MILITARY!  MILITARY!  MILITARY!  MILITARY!   MILITARY!  JUST BECAUSE YOU PEOPLE – CAN’T – WORK WITH THE MILITARY!

YOU DON’T WANT TO WORK ME IN THE MILITARY ANYMORE?!  YOU DON’T WANT ME FOR THE SUCCESSFUL TARGETS TO KILL ANYMORE?!

FINE!

 BUT I WON’T SIT AROUND HERE PLAYING HOUSE WITH ANY WOMEN, MAKING DOILEYS DARNING SOCKS, OR ANY OF YOUR DUMB FUCKING BULLSHIT!

THAT’S A BLACK MAN, AN AMERICAN BLACK MALE WHO TOOK MONEY AS A BRIBE, A BUY-OUT, AFTER I MOVED HERE, PROBABLY 2013, JUST BECAUSE HE BELIEVED HE WOULDN’T GET CAUGHT AND HE HAS A GROUP OF FRIENDS WHO ARE ALSO IN THE CIA, WHO’VE TAKEN MONEY, DONE BAD WORK, ON PURPOSE!

DOUBLE-BUBBLE HERE…

…IS ONE REASON I’M ON STRIKE!  YOU HAVE MEGHAN MARKLE AND OTHER PEOPLE THREATING ME AT MY OWN HOME IN MY OWN CHURCH!  I’M FUCKING PISSED!

IT’S REALLY NOT A JOKE!

I DON’T WANT TO EVER GO BACK TO THAT CHURCH!

I AM SUPER-FUCKING-MAD!

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

REMOVE COURTNEY’S FORMER AND CURRENT FRIENDS!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

BE ADVISED: THESE PERSONS UNTIL THEY DESISTS FROM MY LIFE AND PREMISES, AND HOMES, WILL BE NAMED – EVERYDAY – THESE PERSONS, ARE NOT, AND SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF WILLFUL DISRUPTION OF THE PEACE, CANNOT EVER BE ALLOWED TO FOLLOW ME, MY WHERABOUTS INCLUDING KNOWING MY WHERABOUTS, WORK WITH ME, MY WRITING, OR ANYTHING CONCERNING ME, MYSELF, AND MY FAMILY; BRIANNA HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COURTNEY, “CASEY”, PRINCE HARRY, MEGHAN, DAVID, THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER, MY BOYFRIEND, THE FBI MAN AND GIMPY, ERIN, ANY PRIVATE DETECTIVES OR PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS THEY HAVE USED SINCE 1986, ANY DRUG LORDS, ANY WAR LORDS, ANY PREGO-FETISH FREAKS WITH SEXUAL PERVERSIONS OF A SEXUAL FANTASY OF A PREGNANT WOMAN AND A PREGNANT BELLY ON ME, BRIANNA’S FRIENDS, ANY BREAST-FEEDING FETISH FREAKS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF DISPROPORTIONATE OR ENLARGED WOMAN’S BREASTS, ANY FETISH FREAKS OF BULBOUS THIGHS, ANY AND ALL DETOX FETISH’S – ON ME, CHUNKY, AND CHUNKY NEIGHBOR’S, ANY BIRTH DEFECT – SPRAYERS, MY FORMER EMPLOYER, THE MEDIA, NY COP, MUST I REALLY MAKE THIS LIST – LONGER?!

January 1, 2020

Robocalls news story looks like someone’s full-time job was to pretend to be different people on the phone with my mother just to make her job unlivable, unable to fulfil, more difficult, just to waste her time so she wasn’t doing other things like, being with her children.

This photo has obviously been edited.  This is in our upstairs Oldsmar, Florida apartments.  This is more evidence of when others were being employed to “listen” to what I was thinking at my former employers, and to whom I was talking to, they were getting drunk and high and wasting their time, re-editing my photographs.

This is the same location and they’ve re-edited my mother’s body.  If you look at these photographs and think the people responsible for doing this, are just having innocent fun – YOU’RE WRONG!  And, you can’t tell the difference between subversion, and a hole in the ground.

This re-editing of my life is another form of – subversion.

That Matt Rhule profile is dumb shit, meaning a person who was not capable of handling me, having any information or knowledge about me, and it’s a warning.  It’s a little frightening because it looks harmless enough, yet – that is subversion.  That is just one profile of subversion.

The Sharon Osbourne story about the artwork reads, true and correct.

This is the downstairs apartment, and my mother’s face has been re-edited.

This is my mother and father at our home in Plant City, Florida, about early nineties.  That door behind my mother is the door to the pool bath.  That would have been the name or title if any person looked up the blueprints of these homes.

The pool bath is also where my mother planted night-blooming jasmine on a white lattice from the ground to the roofline, to protect the privacy of persons using – the toilet, or bathroom.  And, that was in place before I moved there in 1992.  Meaning no one was paying attention to the FACT that my mother was ALERTING people to a problem, by way of a lack of PRIVACY.

It literally is how that reads – you have an agency problem that is NOT TRUSTWORTHY!

Just like Meghan Markle, did she have access to the information that this not wanting to be tortured REAL man from the movie Zero Dark Thirty was being sent to me?!  Did she?  It is most serious.

If Meghan Markle had access to the sensitive information of a detainee transfer, SHE IS NOT TRUSTWORTHY!  And, you fucking morons did not protect her, you let her fall into that trap.  Or, is she completely incapable of saying, no?  No one has advised her NOT TO DO DUMB SHIT?!

When you are a person with some form of power, like a celebrity, it is part of your job, being in public life, just to be better, especially in public life, to be considerate of others.  And, that’s for someone like a person asking for an autograph, you’ve allowed Meghan Markle access to detainee – movements, and NO ONE STOPPED HER FROM LOOKING LIKE A DUMB FOOL AND IDIOT?!

GET OUT OF PUBLIC SERVICE – YOU DON’T BELONG THERE!

You allowed her to purposefully sabotage a detainee transfer because he was being brought here – because of me.  It’s incredibly stupid.  And, I WOULD NEVER HAVE ALLOWED HER TO LOOK LIKE SUCH AN IDIOT!

YOU ALLOWED MEGHAN MARKLE TO LOOK A FOOL – BY PLACING 30 EXTRA POUNDS ON MY FORMER BODY, AND MOST RECENTLY, WITHIN THE LAST FEW WEEKS, NEARLY TWENTY POUNDS OF EXTRA BODY MASS BECAUSE THIS MAN WAS SCHEDULED TO BE TRANSFERRED – TO ME.

JUST TO PREVENT ME – FROM WORKING WITH THE UNITED STATES MILITARY – AND A RESOLUTION TO AN ON-GOING PROBLEM.

Did you actually allow Meghan Markle by way of traffic cameras access to my home, sabotaging my body lotion with a body swelling agent, and use the pastor at my church to threaten me?!

That would also mean she is responsible for the light delay, a traffic light that is literally next to a United States military command post (Spectrum), operation, and communication location, and she is responsible for getting them to change the light that I went through – I went through because people needed the information then, not later.

Be careful this doesn’t cause a red light.

Why are you people allowing her, access to me?

I want a restraining order against Meghan Markle.

I want a restraining order against Prince Harry.

A WOMAN WHO DOES THAT…

…IS NOT CAPABLE OF DEALING WITH SUCH AFFAIRS, AND THAT MEANS, PUBLIC LIFE.  NOT SEXUAL AFFAIRS.

You morons let her take the easy way out, of trying to place me in the position of UGLINESS…

Is there anything in these most recent photographs of me that says anything similar to I care about other people, the welfare and happiness of their lives, the quality of life they live, their interests, and how I am able to make a difference in their lives?

What you’ve allowed to be seen on my person is that Meghan Markle has no comprehension, understanding, awareness, or any mental capability of her role, not just as Harry’s wife, to the Royal family, and to British citizen’s, and to the citizens around the world.

The question you should be asking is, why would anyone let that happen?

If the Mississippi documentarian really committed suicide in 2019, it says, she was guilty, and she couldn’t live with herself because of it, and it looks like it’s about how she’s used my life.  Was everyone too busy chasing after ghosts, that no one had to time to – at least convict her.

Literally, if you’d have convicted her of crimes to which she was guilty, it would have helped her, more than allowing the real criminals to continue running the show.  And, it could have saved her life.  Not a joke.

This photo taken at a Village Inn/Perkins type of restaurant, Countryside Table in Clearwater, Indian Rocks area of Florida in 1984 (?) has been very edited, it’s my father’s famous t-shirt, I believe the shirt was purchased in Solvang, California in the ‘70’s, You Can Always Tell A NORWEGIAN But You Can’t Tell Him Much.  My father wore that shirt for decades.  You’d have to be a Norwegian to really understand the saying, and it certainly doesn’t imply my father is in the movie, Frozen with Can’t.

You Can Always Tell A NORWEGIAN But You Can’t Tell Him Much, a close translation is – Norwegians, are hard-headed.  No joke.  That is not the same thing as, can’t, or unable, or dumb.

Hard-headed meaning, stubborn, obstinate, determined, unmovable, resolute.

If you have this Russian man on any medication like an ADHD drug, take him off of it, he doesn’t need it, he doesn’t need any of it.  And, stop messing with his head.  He, like David was stronger before you women, thought you understand what was really going on.  You’ve made him look weak, and a controlling man, instead of like a real man.

Please stop listening to them and working with any of these other women, Russian man, they are out to get you killed for crimes, they are responsible for.  Please stop relaying messages.

And, I am still living in my head in September 2019, meaning just s few days from my former employer letting me go.  That tells me you have problems, still, unless all it means is you are still following after the same plans as 2014, or September 1989.

This brain palace writing is most difficult.  You have me sort of free form writing while someone else is nearby because other people are sort of transmitters, meaning I am able to read them just by being near them.

Is the movie Defiance in any way true because it means, I read it off of someone either by talking to them on the phone, or seeing them and then I wrote the short story, Sarah’s Star?  They are both very similar.

I don’t know at the moment what else to tell you about this Russian man, him working with Meghan Markle was not wise, and it is most hurtful to me that he would have done so.

Don’t be misled…

…if anyone of any intelligence had knowledge about the 1980 USA victory against the USSR hockey game, and they saw me going to the racquetball court everyday with my tennis racket and tennis balls in 1988, 1989, in Oldsmar, Florida, it has nothing to do with sports, soldiers.

I rode my bicycle to the racquetball court, myself, without a coach, and hit the tennis ball against the wall, until I was so worn out, I vomited, more than once.  I would return home so red in the face, my mother was worried, often.  I played with blisters on my fingers.  Nobody pushed me, no one told me to continue, slow down, move, or anything.  It is similar to Hidalgo’s horse in Hidalgo at the starting line, already to go. 

That would be a solider read, at the racquetball court.  Going and going and going.

No, Stuart wife, is not workable.  I don’t trust her.

This is the Sona woman you have here?  She’s a problem.  I have written more than once, she’s a problem.  There is a problem with her.  You let her subvert the work of our United States military, by weight.  That’s not fun and games, that’s serious.

You people have been following after games, like computer games I play like you have a clue why people were interested in the reasons I play games.  You have people walking around like they are placing themselves in the games as a way of intelligence, and it’s not.

I used to have a Big Fish account, and the only reason people probably got orders for the games I played, was just to analyze, meaning analytics, analyze results.

You morons are walking around like its important.  And, it’s not.

You got popped from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, is really about Edison, although they didn’t know who the “who” was in the sentence about who was responsible for my mother’s strokes in 2005 and 2006.  A medical emergency.  That wasn’t supposed to happen again.

Now, you have David upset again because he NEVER would have worked with you people, if he had been able to understand and know these things, as I’ve explained them.  He’s been hurt by it, and these years.

And, I’m sorry David, I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings the other night, it is a little difficult talking the way you morons have set this up, like I am in an auditorium full of people I do not see, talking to me rapid-fire sometimes, and I do not always have a lot of patience at such times.  Because they were working me. 

I’m sorry.  It is not my wish to hurt his feelings, I see him better than anyone else.

Probably the answer my Boyfriend wants to know, Hannibal Lecter the Evangelical, is why when he makes declarations of love, and planning a life, I do not and am not able to see a future, with – any man.

So, how does that happen?  How is it plans, and orders get put into play that have denied me a loving, straight male relationship, like a husband?

I believe its important that it is fixed.

Did I write that too fast?   Hannibal Lecter the Evangelical, and it is really true.  No one else did that with him.  It’s really amazing, actually.  Any man wanting to turn his life around, and this man, has really been learning – a lot.

All I see, is all these men, will live without me, still.

Here is a picture of my vanity stool, or stool I had since Simi Valley, California, that is in the movie, Olympus Has Fallen, extracting information from people by torture, my brother’s cat Jerry, and the  vanity table cover my mother made for me.

Zohan it looks like they used my dates with Gerry in 2013, 2014, and combined him, Gerry, with this Russian man as a way to extract information from me about these men, how idiotic.

This is my brother and me, probably August 1992, someone should be wondering why this girl, this woman in the photograph wasn’t being – loved back whole again, with a better male relationship than Michael Brown.  To love my mind and brain well.  Because that’s subversion against the United States military, me, not being loved.

It’s not just a simple matter of me really being some sort of old maid.  When people have known since the time, I was a child…

…I wanted to be married to a very masculine man.  It’s the idea of marriage I had in mind, marriage to a very masculine man.

That’s subversion, and no one has noticed or corrected it, yet.

This is important, this is me, at Queen Wilhelmina (code: Will-Helm-In-A, in a room) gardens in San Francisco, California, in the early ‘80’s probably, 1983, 1984.  Historically what did Queen Wilhelmina do? 

Queen Wilhelmina allowed the lives of Jews to be spared, by not fighting.  Remaining neutral during World War II, and it helped to save lives.

That goes together with Diary of Anne Frank, I did not get cast in college, I did costumes.  That goes together with Will that I worked with at Disney because he is in the movie, War Machine, and it is a problem.  Will, as the story was told to me, was fired from Disney for not answering phone calls and hanging up on people.

At Disney they tried to get me to tell on Will.  Because Will told me he hung up on people, I did not say anything to get him fired because I believed it was the job of the supervisors to do their own work.

It also reads, as I look at it now, not – advantageous – to do so.  Advantageous.  It was not advantageous to talk to any supervisor about the stories Will was telling me, and Will is a gay man.  A gay man who was in a partnership with an older man, I named, Grandpa.

Not advantageous goes together with the movie, Vantage Point.  If anyone wants to try and decode those movies.

I liked Will – as a person.  You people are confused.  Because I like a person WOULD NEVER IN ANY WAY MEAN I TRUSTED THEM, ESPECIALLY TO DO REAL FUCKING WORK!

Will was fired and Char Messe was fired from Disney.  I also liked Char, she has a disabled daughter, she also won her unemployment against Disney, so I don’t know – yet – what you motherfuckers were doing at Disney, it looks like diversion after diversion as a subversion plot to prevent me from working with the United States military BECAUSE THE FBI MAN SHOWED UP AND NONE OF YOU FUCKING MORONS WERE ABLE IN ALL THE YEARS FROM 1992 TO 2003 TO RECONNECT MY BRAIN – EXCEPT FOR HIM, AND IT HAS EVERYTHING TO DO WITH HIS ABILITY TO SPEAK – RUSSIAN, WELL.

NOW, I’M SO FUCKING PISSED OFF IN JUST THESE FEW MINUTES OF WRITING ABOUT THE UNITED STATES MILITARY, DISNEY, AND THIS FBI MAN, I AM ABOUT TO START A FIGHT!

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS EVER AGAIN START A PLAN, A STAKE-OUT, A PLAN OF ACTION, ANOTHER GODDAMN STUPID, FUCKING PLAN, LIKE WHAT YOU FUCKING MORONS DID WITH THIS RUSSIAN MAN I DEFECTED FOR THE UNITED STATES, SUBVERT MY EFFORTS BECAUSE I AM THE WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION AND YOU ARE NOT, YOU MAY AS WELL STICK YOUR FUCKING ASS IN THE AIR, BEGGED TO BE ASS-RAPED, AND HAND YOUR FUCKING CAR KEYS OVER TO REAL FUCKING TERRORIST AND SAY YOU’RE SORRY FOR KILLING OSAMA BIN LADEN FUCKING DEAD!

 BECAUSE – I AIN’T!

YOU CONTINUE WITH THE STUPID SUBVERSION MEDIA NONSENSE ABOUT THE TRUTH OF KILLING BIN LADEN, AND YOU WILL NOT SURVIVE!

I-AIN’T-SORRY!

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS WANT TO WEAKEN OUR UNITED STATES MILITARY BECAUSE IT WAS SUCCESSFUL?!

THERE IS A WORLD OF HURT – WAITING FOR YOU!  AND, THAT’S NOT ME.

The fact that I must share photos of my childhood bed is repulsive to me; however, someone needs this photo, this is my bed in Gresham, Oregon.  That’s an antique headboard, and the material for my bedspread was polished apple cotton, a rather unusual choice for an antique.  And, my cat Mimzi who was a very good mouser.  Meaning, she caught, killed and ate mice.

Eight, ten, twelve hours a day writing here, I think it’s too much.

I need to quit.