Author: endthefalselife

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June 12, 2019

This is what I saw last night: Jesus, fucking Christ Almighty!  What the fuck just happened!  Holy fucking hell!  I can’t fucking believe what the fuck just happened because that little girl drove the way she did!  Fucking Christ!  I can’t believe the command this little girl is able to command just by being herself, all on her own!  Fucking Christ look at the command she gets!  Look at how she demands it!  In places she has never been, and she gets command from them!  Fucking Hell, look at the command this little girl can command!  Somebody get her fucking attention, AND I MEAN RIGHT FUCKING NOW!  Before this get any worse than it already is!

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I am still so upset by what happened with my air-conditioner.  Do you want to know why?  I am upset because they brought the Hussein’s and others in for intelligence reasons, and someone wanted to thank me.  I told them in my head and out loud, don’t thank me, thank The White House.  Thank, The White House because they did work.  And, thank my boyfriend because he interceded on their behalf when he heard what I saw was going to happen.  The threat is still there at present.

Because I said to thank The White House, I must now spend money for things that had nothing wrong with them!  A thousand dollars is more than I make in 2 weeks!  In one paycheck!  A thousand dollars is more than I make in half a month!  I’m pissed!

What am I supposed to do now?  Let it go and see if it happens again?!

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You took somebody into custody, and it doesn’t look good for them, for him.  Well, I’ve done nothing wrong.  There isn’t anything I can do about that.  Not from what I’ve seen.

I am tired of what takes place outside my residence.  The majority of it is not intelligent.  I won’t participate anymore because most of it is not intelligent.  I don’t do that.  I don’t do un-intelligent things.

Here’s my safety, from the movie Black Hawk Down, that’s Cherith’s brain and mind as their safety.  My mind is a failsafe – proven.

That double agent man they showed me who was in a hunt club was manipulated.  It is not killing he enjoys or loves.  He would be better used in some military assignment.  It is there in his brain, he enjoys work that militaries do.

The woman who beat you, from Sherlock, that is a grown woman gloating over the event of the dog biting me, so she could try and appear as my rescuer.  Then, placing blame on my brother.  It is the reason for the film, The Rescuers.  The mice are Cherith’s real parents.  This woman has been allowed to gloat over my stitches because my family moved from our home in Simi Valley, California.

What sort of grown person, a grown, adult woman stoops to such a level as to hurt and harm a child because a man was working with her, with Cherith, and it was noticed that his work was better because of it.  It’s sick.  That’s a sick mentality.  To harm a child, just to harm and hurt intelligence work.

With her head stuck in a book, from the movie Beauty and The Beast, references Princess Bride with the grandfather reading to his grandson while he is not feeling well.  The purpose for the book and book reading is because Cherith wasn’t reading books at that time, I spoke about it.  I wasn’t reading books, I read magazine and things that did not take long to read, and people were using the reference of books to try and slow things down.

They had me working on a level like an MI-5, or something, and I did not have the financial means to facilitate their demands on me.  So, people thought it best to slow down.

From what I’ve seen at work the only thing that has been happening with managers giving me numbers for my performance of the week – has only been allowing criminals and prisoners to communicate crimes not yet happened.  To communicate at me.  Crimes communicated in prisons and out, to plan crimes to happen.  Well, no wonder I am upset every time a manager speaks to me.  I don’t do that.

They are upset because I spoke at work about next time you will have to kill me, and people who you are working with do NOT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN!

The penitent man shall pass, the penitent man, the penitent man, the penitent man shall pass, from the movie Indiana Jones and The Last Crusade, the penitent man shall pass, code: syllables: the, 1, pen – 2 – I – 3 – tent – 4, man, 5, shall, 6, pass, 7.  The penitent man shall pass, seven letters, that’s Cherith’s first name.  The penitent man shall pass when speaking with Cherith.  The penitent man, the penitent man, that’s five letters, that’s Cherith’s family nick name, and the name my mother called me, all the time.

I did not like my mother using my nick name when introducing me to people whom I had not yet met, and that is another failsafe because it was being used as code, and it did not need to be shared with everyone.

Do you want to know why Indiana Jones is named Indiana Jones?  Indiana, I, for my eye, for the eye they had a dog bite me.  Indiana is a state, for the state it happened in.  Jones, for men because it was a man and men who worked with Cherith.

The penitent man shall pass is also referenced in the movie, Up.  When Russell tries to put the tent together and gets a mark and hit on his cheek and eye.  The tent is meant to reference Early American military history setting up tents as a base.

Do you want to know why Sean Connery was cast as Indiana Jones’s father?  My mother has a kilt as long as I can remember, I still have it, and the kilt was Made in England.

Do you know when I first saw Gladiator, and it says Germania, and the man says something in German and throws the decapitated head on the ground, I thought, oh good, Germany is going to win.  I was perplexed that the Gladiator won.  It makes sense, of course, because he is the Gladiator, but I still thought it looked like Germany won and was supposed to win.  Well, of course they did.  Germany won.  They got my head in Germany.  They didn’t decapitate it, they used it.

Born to a machine it lives, I wrote this in my poem, Fire Pit about Dachau several years after having travelled to Germany.  Born to a machine it lives, this is about Brain Research.  Yes, I do believe they have been using brain research to corrupt minds by placing subliminal messages in machines.

Yes, I do believe this is one thing that happened with Saddam Hussein, they used machines to try and corrupt his brain.  I prayed with him.  I prayed with Saddam Hussein.  Although there was an interpreter, I prayed with him, I didn’t have to.  It was my job to pray with people over the phone, but I didn’t always pray with people.  Sometimes, I did not.  Sometimes, I refused, politely.  I prayed with Saddam Hussein an it looks like from what I see, he liked what he saw.

These events took place, my brother was in his car accident.  Then, I prayed with Saddam Hussein, then they targeted The World Trade Center in 1993.  My praying with Saddam Hussein and the 1993 bombing is NOT connected.  I believe the reason it took place, the bombing took place, is poor, bad intelligence, and nothing more.

You’ve had men who have not believed in the importance of me because I am female, and it – that detail alone, has cost lives all over the world.  If I were you, I would stop letting my gender and heterosexuality get in the way of your brain.

It looks like some of the attacks on my mother, her strokes, have been a way of retaliation for the work she did with intelligence in the – 60’s.  That’s atrocious that – that – was allowed to happen.

Do you want to know how I got to the thinking about the pattern of happy and tyrannical with Saddam Hussein?  I saw it in my mind’s eye, the distress it caused on his family, and those who could be considered family since they were so close to him.  I saw the distress in their minds.  That tells me something is very wrong.  It looks like he loved his family, so the tyranny is great cause for concern.

He wrote a letter; this is what they told me last night.  They believe it is about me.  He wrote a letter it was supposed to be given to intelligence and it never made it.

One reason alone my employment, my childhood, has actually been top-secret, yet they have never given me clearance.  Something that could be seen on my tax returns.  And, somebody has found a loophole in all the work I’ve done by not giving me government clearance.  If I don’t really work for the government, then there really is no legal reason why Cherith can’t give us all the classified information and events.  Except Cherith doesn’t work that way, she’s a failsafe.

If you want all the little fights, squabbles, and shootings that appear all of a sudden with no cause to stop, then stop letting other people tell me what to do, such as my workstations.  That’s what it tells me when I see what you have shown me.

Do you know if you’ve had any real people, intelligence, and others to be around me, and they see someone like the person my boyfriend made a profile on as responsible for a man’s death as in charge of me, or around me in any way at all – that is changing sides, as referenced in 12 Strong.  They wouldn’t allow it.  They wouldn’t allow themselves to be associated with a person like that.  I don’t know how many years I have to ask for this person and people to be removed from my work.

My real father is upset at the moment because you’ve caused his daughter to be upset.  For no reason.  Just to extract a thousand dollars from her, and cause her to lose income from her employment?

My father has already passed his genes, trousers, onto me with my conception.  He in no way needs to be the person to be used.  He never has been before.

They have tried to use my boyfriend to learn from me, so he could predict what the answer will be when they brain-speak to me.  He cannot do it.  Because it cannot be done.  It is not something that can be copied or replicated.  It cannot.  It is a knowing, a skill, a talent.

When they laid everyone off at WORSHIP, it felt wrong to me at the time.  I was, again, wanting to go from the nightshift to a dayshift, and they wouldn’t allow me to do so.  Just like what they’ve done at my current employment.  It was wrong.  It was wrong to do.

You got that from one look, from Sherlock, also has to do with their readers.  Reading is very important.  They got very good reads of me with just one look.

Your true love lives and you marry another?  From Princess Bride is about the work I love to do, and it is not police work.  It is intelligence.  Loving intelligence men and intelligence work.

Do you know why the character Bubba in the movie Forrest Gump has a protruding lower lip?  These are actually intelligence men who know I am was being used not to the best of my abilities through my fiancé.  It would have been photographed of me kissing my fiancé, and I playfully took his lower lip in my teeth, pulling it, having it protrude.  It is why Bubba repeats about shrimp, referencing the movie Point Break, and the reason Bubba’s family receives money.  Because this is all true intelligence that has been received.

Do you know that if it has been seen on me that I’ve been caused brain pain such as is referenced in the movie, Princess Bride with the conking on the head, it will cause fighting and problems in communications with your intelligence, and it will not quite be understood because no one has connected it back to me as the reason for their upset and disappointment.

Yes, the topless woman in the background in the movie Love Actually, is a death threat that is why the man is speaking on the phone and a wedding is referenced.  The naked men’s behinds are death threats also, it references my brother, and a death threat to my brother.  The art gallery is actually a store, and it could be the store my mother and I went to in Plant City that was owned by Egyptians.  It could also be other stores as well, such as small business and not corporate owned companies.

Do you understand that intelligence and intelligence work is really about relationships?  They build relationships to gather intel.  So, what do you think you have been doing all these years by not allowing me something as simple as a boyfriend who loves me and who I love in return?

Do you know that because you have not allowed me to be seen such as a consultant to an agency that could be viewed in my tax returns, you have been sending the message their our own intelligence cannot be trusted, naturally not, they all spy on people for a living, from Sherlock, simply because they are paid to do so.  Well, that line of thinking is moronic.  Of course, there are paid for the work they do, money has nothing to do with their hearts and minds.

Things such as details of 100’s in cigarettes or not do not matter to me, so why do you allow them to matter to you?  Details that matter to me should be what matter.  Simply because they matter to me.

I am tired of buying locks for my house and vehicle.  I have shelves of locks I have purchased in five years.  Shelves.  I find it a ridiculous waste of my time and money.  I’m tired of doing it anymore, for no real reason.

Because of what you allowed to happen, the tampering with my air-conditioner, you’ve actually caused me to have brain pain in my head and mind.  My brother does not want to cause me harm or hurt.  My boyfriend doesn’t want to cause me pain.  But you’ve caused brain pain in my head.  Destabilizing me, again.  For what?  Money?

Enough.

I will be resting my brain.

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June 11, 2019

I love my boyfriend.  He is perfectly fine around me.  He will be for the rest of his life as I see it now.  Perfectly fine.  Why is that?  I love my boyfriend; he does better work than any man or person I’ve seen in many years.  I love my boyfriend; I am not swooning over him.  I am not some dumb, goofy girl.  I love him for the work I’ve seen him do.

Why am I still not losing weight with the very little food I eat?  Less than 1,000 calories a day IS A DIET!

I AM PISSED!  I AM FUCKING PISSED!  WHAT A SET-UP!  I AM STANDING IN FRONT OF A MAN WHO IS SWEATING AT WORK AND THE NEXT THING THAT HAPPENS IS I NOW HAVE TO SPEND $1,000 ON MY AIR-CONDITIONER!  I’M PISSED!  ON TOP OF THAT I AM LOSING MONEY BY NOT BEING ABLE TO WORK MY FULL SHIFT!  I’M PISSED!

You have had an on-going problem, haven’t you?  Since 2014.  Every person, I mean every person, including people I waited on at The Container Store have been connected to a bad person, AND IT IS NOT ME!  MY BOYFRIEND HAS BEEN THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAS WORKED TO FIX IT!

MY BOYFRIEND – SHAVES!

I AM PISSED!  DON’T ASK FOR MY HELP!  I’M PISSED!

A THOUSAND DOLLARS BECAUSE I WROTE A BIG PURCHASE OF A WIN AND YOU STUPID, FUCK-HEAD, OF A MORON COPIED IT LIKE IT MEANT SOMETHING WHEN IT DOES NOT!

I’M PISSED!

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June 10, 2019

The United States wants Cherith dead.

The United States wants Cherith dead.

They (other countries) want Cherith dead.

They want Cherith dead.

The United States wanted my mother dead.

The United States wanted my mother dead.

They wanted my mother dead.

They wanted my mother dead.

Now, my mother is dead.

Now, my mother is dead.

Another day of urine (soggy, wet) soaked underwear by means of air control.

End of blog.

End of writing.

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June 9, 2019

Why with the very little amount of food I eat every day am I NOT LOSING WEIGHT?!

Must I literally, actually stop eating all together, so that I can go back to the weight I was before?  Because I will.  I will stop eating all together because I AM STILL PISSED ABOUT MY WEIGHT!

The one man, the one man in all my life, I am nearly fifty years old, the one man who has actually shown me love, and you immediately want to take it away as soon as you discover – he knows how to love me.

That man in college has never shown me love – ever.  I saw love.  He has never shown me love – ever.  Not ever.

Well, I won’t help you anymore.  I won’t help you to stop the fighting or bring about any resolutions anymore.  There.  The United States just lost again.

It makes it appear that the FBI man in responsible for my mother’s strokes, and her subsequent death.  I won’t be helping you anymore.

Love is a battlefield.  Do you think this means I must swear and scream and cuss in order – for me – to be able to locate and rescue men held hostage, or detonate bombs, or capture terrorists?  I don’t have to live there in order to get results – proven.

This man last night looks scared, worried, concerned, upset, on edge, on the defense, protecting himself.  Why is that?  What has he done to me?  My family?

They found out I was Maximus, that is why you have a British actor who died during production.  It was not an accident.  It is medical messaging.  9/11, 911.  What is your emergency?  She got in touch goes all the way back to California, and the stitches required to close a wound.

Be aware if you’ve had an increase in alcoholism in agents in any time there is a logical explanation.  Brain Research, Sleep-talking cannot be done, it is impossible in any way to sleep-speak to a person while they are sleeping off a drunk, or tipsy.  It is impossible.  No brain can be spoken to while inebriated.  Awake or asleep.

Because I still had to suffer another day of soggy underwear because I WILL WEAR WHATEVER I CHOOSE TO WEAR!

I will not be writing anything more other than, another day of wet underwear.

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June 8, 2019

Please be careful.  It has all been nothing more than a lie.  Did we really need to go to war on terror when you already had the greatest weapon to use and stop terrorism?  That is why it must be you; I am Maximus.

Commodus is not a moral man.  Commodus, code: Comm, DO – I don’t know the job title this is, it’s a job title, US, United States.  It is also, code: CO, Colorado, MO, Missouri, MD, Maryland, US, United States.

I don’t even know all the events and history that took place in Saddam Hussein’s life, I see the pattern of his behavior, I see his mind, and it is teachable.  I already spoke to him.  What do you think I actually stopped when I spoke to him in the early nineties?  He believed me.  I stopped something and I prevented something because – he believed me.

Saddam Hussein’s pattern, he would be happy, then tyrannical, then happy, then tyrannical, then happy, then tyrannical.  That sort of behavior would say he was a man who loved nothing more than war and being at war.  Well, that’s nothing more than lunacy.  To love nothing more than war, to be a leader of a country, to be a President of a nation’s people, and love nothing more than being at war, says you are nothing more than a lunatic.  Was he crazy?  I don’t think so.  He was teachable.

The great fall of Rome happened because of corruption.  The war on terror, turn the mirror on it, the war on terror is really a war that must be waged – on double agents working to subvert the United States and its Allies.

I cannot stand double-dumb-dumb-agents.  It is much more difficult, it takes much more character, strength of heart, mind, and spirit, to be ethical, moral.  I see these minds, one very big reason this started was to see nothing more than American men and women – dead.  Like a scorecard, or a tally, when watching the news, they would get some sick acknowledgement of a job well done when hearing numbers of our troops – dead.

They’ve had nothing more than access.  They are not that smart.  Don’t let the upset of emotions take you away from your own personal well of truth.  They’ve had nothing more than access; it is a grotesque shame it happened.

I had to call 911 – get it, 911 I because I found my mother face down on the floor.  I spent years bathing my mother, toileting my mother, dressing my mother, feeding my mother because double agents were allowed to be in power when it should have been – me.

The smothering of Marcus Aurelius looks identical to finding my mother stroke-ridden – again – after going to see The Matrix.

I know my camera phone when I have it in my hand, from Sherlock – reads, I know my love.  Cherith knows her love, she knows the men she loves.  I know my love.

What do you love?  Who do you love?

Be careful because it must be truthful.

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June 8, 2019

I have pages of notes I’ve written of things to write, but I am too brain tired.  I don’t think anyone understands the amount of stress it is on my brain living in this way.  I am too tired.  A simple errand like an oil change is such an ordeal, such stress, it wears me out.  How much code did you find in there?

Whoever you had around here on June 7, 2019 upset me so, my closed blinds were your clue.

When Gladiator, the movie was released, I saw it in the movie theater 3 or 4 times, I could not get enough of it.  Do you know why?  I am Maximus.  Why do you think it starts off in Germania?  This is the Berlin wall falling down after I had been there.  Commodus is not my real brother and he is many men.  It all became too true and I am too tired, I had to stop watching it.

It means I spoke with Saddam Hussein through an interpreter while working, probably at WORSHIP, and he did not survive – me.  You let them cut me open because of it and worse.  I’m sad tonight, let’s have dinner, from Sherlock.

I’m brain tired, so things like household chores are not going to get done.

I am going to rest my brain.

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June 6, 2019

My brain, my head, my mind, I still don’t think anyone has understood the power you’ve had access to.  It is a failsafe.  It is referenced in the character in Sherlock, as Charles Magnussen.  When people figured out it was a mistake to not allow me to love, or even date when I was in college, again, and the only man I found dateable went away to University and I was devastated by the loss, plans were put into place to try and reconnect me with him through work.  Not a personal phone call, or a personal visit through work.

Why would David never call me at my personal phone number, or reconnect in any way personally?  When he had all my information.  He knew where I Iived, he had my email, phone number, etc.  So, why would David call me over and over at my workplace?

My brain is a failsafe.  If anyone attached themselves to David and the communications, he got from me, I would be able to detect their presence even if he was completely unaware of it.  I remember when David said his full name to me over the phone.  It was like a clicking of a vault as the mechanisms lock into place.  They read it on me, my face, my demeanor, everything.  That is why I am in Sherlock.

I wouldn’t let him in, I offered him nothing, but curtesy and my business professional self.  Has no one really wondered or asked the question why?  Did anyone really think I forgot the one man that when looking at him the world went away, and it was just he and I?

If any of my intelligence’s father’s side of the family were not able to get a complete read on me, they would, without a doubt in my mind, err on my side.  I have already proven myself enough as a child, or I wouldn’t have been dealing with government officials at the very top level, as a child and teen-ager.

Did no one realize it stopped being good for me to be around David?  Did no one realize that instead of love all I saw and heard was hurt, pain, grief, and anguish over – still not being loved by a man who loves me?

No one really seems to understand how important I am to them, other than double agents and subversives.  I have not seen from anyone the knowledge that their intelligence was giving our intelligence.  Why would no one work power that is for the good and betterment of all – truthfully?  Legally?  In real employment?  It makes it appear that I had knowledge and understanding when I did not.  THEY understood that because I heard it on the phone call on September 11^th, 2001.

The headshot of me when I was 15 years old is proof they have been working me as a Mycroft that goes all the way up because another girl, an exchange student of my mother’s also had headshots taken with the same photographer, and I NEVER LIKED HER FOR ONE SECOND!  She was tall and blond.  Just like the psycho double agent I wrote I would execute knowing all the information of the damage she has done to our country and the world.  Her code in Sherlock, Hush now, I am only returning your coat.  Code: Hush, SH, for Sherlock, U for University, H for hero.  She thought of herself as a hero as she was needlessly killing our men and women.  She is beyond sick.

She is no Sherlock, that is why Miss Adler says many times, I don’t understand, I don’t think so.

This numbered code that was placed on the last package I received in the mail looks like the real man over there believes this is a code for me.  If that is true, if this is code, then that is a big purchase of a win, you will see for a long time.

This summer smiles doctor profile is a good profile of a real doctor.  Maybe you’re in the wrong meeting, from The Bourne Legacy, were talking about an infection.  This is referencing the medical messaging that has been going on since the eighties.  Medical messaging like strokes, hysterectomies, root canals, etc.

Hysterectomies in medical messaging would send the message if a woman has ever worked with intelligence – you will never get intel from them again.  Doesn’t matter if the woman is straight or not it is double agent work to destroy real intelligence.

I’ve written this before, has anyone thought about this yet?  You had, our US intelligence, had within its grasp the real Weapons of Mass destruction, and I will never be able to pass those genes onto another generation.  No child will ever have the benefit of my brain power – ever.

That is more than a problem.  Because this has not just happened to me.  I am not the only person that has been used as medical messaging.  People have died, including celebrities, including my mother.  Yes, celebrity deaths have been used as messaging and nothing more.

It’s devastating to me, and I am not afraid to write that.  Please be careful and start working correctly.  That last sentence may seem small and insignificant just because it is not screaming, please be careful and realize the difference before it really is too late.

I believe he is better when he is not over-extending himself.  He actually needs to work less, work less cases, and profiles.  Do you people really not take care of your own?  Are you really not able to see his mind and brain?  To me, he looks like he needs to work – a lot less.

He is Lancelot and I am Guinevere in the movie First Knight.  That is how other people saw it.  Without watching the movie again, there was no King Arthur because I was single at the time.

Love cures.  My boyfriend is proof of that.  Love, cures.  Cures.

I am Grimes in the movie, Black Hawk Down, that is why there is an English actor on the other side of the desk from Grimes, then Grimes is in the movie, in the fight because that’s me when I was working.  It’s how it worked; it’s how it works because it is my brain.  My brain that is the Weapons of Mass destruction.

The reason Kirby has a prosthetic leg in Dead President’s – it’s a beer leg.  A beer leg that is in Bill Cosby: Himself because it was on the channels on the flight from when my family went on vacation from Oregon to Florida.  It means there were intelligence men (quite a lot of them) in the audience during the filming of it and that is why I listened to it over and over again.  They were in the audience.  I saw them, and they were in the audience, get it?

Is this a real man, or did you just make him up?  This man I saw.  If this is a real man, he is bad.  That was the first thing I thought.  He has debris in his head.  Debris.  Debris on the right side of his brain.  Debris, rocks, twigs, sticks, pieces of wood.  He is a military failure.  A failure.  He is frightenable.  Is he real, or did you make him up?  Just to see what would happen when people saw me as having the knowledge and know-how of how to frighten a man like that.

Jesus, I thought you were a guy, from The Matrix, this is the same man that is referenced in the movie Leap Year, I kinda hate weddings.  The reason Neo is looking over his right shoulder when talking to Trinity because this man who was sitting behind me in a church – Jesus – wedding, this is where this man wanted to place his mouth.  Loving, tender, gentle, respectful of my mind because of everything I’ve already accomplished, and he was spotted as thinking such thoughts.

I have a right to write when you’ve not delivered me weight-loss food or in my employment just to make me miserable and unhappy.

My boyfriend that I never get to see or really talk to, who loves me.

Love cures.

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June 5, 2019

The story of microwaved iced tea is a true story.  It really did happen.  My father and I really did go into a fast-food restaurant in Louisiana and order tea.  My father ordered tea.  My real father really ordered tea and we left the restaurant with none because they had none.  This was on our move from Oregon to Florida, as we drove from Oregon to Florida, we stopped in Louisiana along the way.

Another place we stopped in Louisiana was at a gas station, I always felt this was done intentionally at the time, I got a candy bar, or a bag of nuts, what I remember was the nuts were rancid.  The nuts were not fresh, they were rancid and uneatable.  I remember thinking, why would anybody do that to me?  It also set a precedent in my mind, and in my families purchases that nuts could not be fresh in the South, in the southern United States.

If you have a dumb-dumb double agent that knows things like manners and tea are very important to some people, in some circles, in select groups of persons, and you are aware they have already worked with Cherith, you would do something so stupid as to place rancid nuts for a teen-ager to eat.  For a teen-ager to eat.  Think about that.  Let that sink in.  A teen-ager.  Why would a grown adult be so frightened of a child or a teen-ager unless you were really not smart enough on your own.

This is another example, my mother and I went to a British import grocery, or gourmet, food store in Carrollwood, Florida, and some of the items she purchased were stale as if to prove a point about the British and England, and they couldn’t be more wrong.  Dumb-dumbs all over again.  We work together because it is only logical.  We work together because it actually works.

They showed me last night how they took an intelligence man, men, into questioning, to question their actions, their behaviors, and I WAS IMMEDIATELY DISTRAUGHT, UPSET, HURT, ASHAMED, AND FELT RESPONSIBLE FOR THE HARM – THEY CAUSED.  I DID NOTHING WRONG!  I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG!  I DID NOT BETRAY MY COUNTRY!  I DID NOT GIVE AWAY SECRETS!  I DID NOT WITHHOLD INFORMATION, SO WHY AM I THE ONE THAT FEELS RESPONSIBLE FOR SOMEONE ELSE’S ACTIONS?!

BECAUSE THEY HAVE TRAINED IT INTO ME SINCE MOVING HERE TO FLORIDA – IN EVERY EMPLOYMENT I HAVE HAD ALL MY LIFE!  WITH THE EXCEPTION OF MY EMPLOYMENT AT THE CONTAINER STORE UNTIL MARCH OF 2014.

AT THE CONTAINTER STORE I WAS THE TOP ELFA DESIGNER UNTIL THEY DEMOTED ME TO CASHIER IN MARCH 2014.  SO, WHAT WORKED IN 2013, AND WHAT STOPPED WORKING IN 2014 BECAUSE OF MY EMPLOYMENT?!

THEY HAVE TRAINED IT INTO ME, THEY HAVE TAKEN AWAY MY 100% EVERY TIME I GIVE THEM INTELLIGENCE – FREELY!

IT IS A MANAGEMENT STYLE, APPROACH, MIND-SET, AND THINKING THAT GOES ALL THE WAY UP TO THE TOP, TO THE HIGHEST CHAIN OF COMMAND!  I THINK IT IS ATROCIOUS!

ATROCIOUS!

I HAVE WORKED DILIGENTLY, RESPECTFULLY, TRUTHFULLY ALL MY LIFE FOR NOTHING IN RETURN OTHER THAN MY MEAGER PAYCHECK, AND YOU TREAT ME, HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT ME AS – NOTHING!  AS A NOTHING IN RETURN!

WHY WOULD SOMEONE BE – SO – WILLING TO TAKE AWAY MY 100% EVERY TIME?!  WHY?!

THERE IS A PROBLEM THERE THAT IS ALMOST INDESCRIBABLE IN MY MIND.  ATROCIOUS.

YOU HAVE AS YOUR OWN CITIZEN THE WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION THAT IS A CODE NAME THAT WAS GIVEN TO OUR INTELLIGENCE FROM TERRORISTS ABOUT THE POWER THE UNITED STATES HAS – AND EVERYTIME I – HELP YOU – YOU TAKE AWAY MY 100% AND TREAT ME LIKE SWEAT LABOR!  SHAME ON YOU! ATROCIOUS!

THE ONLY EXCUSE THEY HAVE FOR TAKING AWAY MY 100% IS JUST TO MESS WITH MY HEAD.

DO YOU GET THAT?!  OUR OWN INTELLIGENCE!  OUR OWN UNITED STATES INTELLIGENCE MESSING WITH MY HEAD BECAUSE – I – HAVE THE ABILITY TO GIVE 100%?!  ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?!  BECAUSE I HAVE THE ABILITY AND THEY DO NOT?!

ATROCIOUS!

The consequences of that meeting in that building on the 28^th of May 2019 you will have to work with.  You took away my authority in that building by that meeting alone.  I am still pissed.  I will not give it back to you.  Do you still have no idea what I was doing by closing every Authorized Access sign?  I was stopping, preventing, and keeping prisoners in prison calm, and stopping them from communicating, and planning crimes. 

I will not give it back to you, and my boyfriend is not to blame for that meeting.  My boyfriend has more respect for me than anyone has shown me nearly all my life.  My boyfriend listens to me.  My boyfriend listens to me because he believes me, believes in me because he KNOWS it is the truth.  He doesn’t’ have to test me, he knows it’s real as soon as I think it, and my boyfriend is not my boyfriend because he is – quick.  Careful note in that.  So, why is it people are working to break me and my boyfriend up?

They have better readers over there than anything I have seen so far.  Better.  Better by a lot.  My boyfriend is the best reader I’ve seen so far, and they have better readers by a lot, I’ve seen it in my mind’s eye.  And, I am still a better reader than my boyfriend, and he knows the difference.  He respects me.

From my boyfriend’s profile it reads, it shows that “Casey” is responsible, is to blame for the murder, for the killing, for the death of the JJ father.  Atrocious.  Is anyone going to do anything about that, or are you just going to read it?!  It’s revolting in my mind.  Revolting.

From what I was shown last night, this woman that has been displayed here to me, this black woman to my right, with a ponytail that quickly tried to associate herself with my family friends because he is in Sherlock is responsible for the hit of a stroke on the man I rescued in Vietnam.  She has killed a lot of people, she has had women raped, and caused health problems, such as strokes, on numerous people.  I was correct and ahead of you by simply wearing my t-shirt that reads – that is not a good sign.  I probably saved his life, again.

This black woman in a ponytail to my right, especially loves, black on black kills, hits, crimes, and murders.  She especially loves them.  She gets satisfaction like a drug-addict from a high, satisfaction.  She has been using my t-shirt that reads, End The Hate as a cover for her crimes.  I am no cover for her.  I never will be.  If you people do not remove her from my neighborhood, I believe people will find her.  You would be wise to remove her, intelligently.  She is a double-agent.

I would send the message around the world that it is NOT acceptable.  Remove her.  Send her to the land, she has sent so many other people, to the land of never waking up – AGAIN!

If you read the code of why this black woman was being used because she gets such satisfaction from black on black kills it goes back to the release of Nelson Mandela because I, Cherith Joelle Gjestland got to a meet.  It is code for KILLING INTELLIGENCE MEN AND WOMEN!

SEND HER TO THE LAND OF NEVER WAKING UP AGAIN!

The family friend boy, the bleeding Vicar, he is in Sherlock because people thought enough about him.  It is an honor for him.  They thought a lot about him, and the work he does.  What a nice thing to do for a person.

The role in Dead President’s of Skip, is to be seen as such an honor by the men who know the men that are really in this movie.  They would have thought highly of the men who placed the actor in the role.  There is a lot that has not yet been understood about what happened in Vietnam.  It’s an honor.

I have seen in my mind’s eye men in government offices, leaders of Middle-Eastern nations who believed that peace was possible in the Middle-East going back to the eighties and you have allowed STUPID DOUBLE AGENTS TO SUBVERT MY EFFORTS AND THE EFFORTS OF OTHERS TO NOT ALLOW PEACE TO HAPPEN AND I WANT THEM ANNIALATED! 

THE VERY REASON THESE PEOPLE DO NOT LIKE DOUBLE AGENTS IS BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE THEY ARE NOT – CLEVER ENOUGH.  NOT CLEVER, NOT SMART, NOT ABLE ENOUGH ON THEIR OWN.

IT IS ONE VERY BIG REASON THEY LIKE ME!  THEY ALREADY KNOW I AM LOYAL!

They have intelligence and a way of communicating that I’ve seen in my mind’s eye that NO PERSON has truly been able to understand or translate.  Ready to fight.  That is what you showed me, that is how it reads, it means, ready to fight.

You show them that we will not stand for double agents here in the states and around the world to subvert intelligence work, you will see how quickly things happen.

I Am SHERLOCKED reads: I Am Her.

Never allow this to happen again.  Never allow buildings such as this to happen again.  Never allow a building to be covered in cameras while the residents are unaware of it.  Never allow surgeries like mine to happen again.  Never allow things like the listening devices in my head to happen again.  You have taken away my free will.  Never allow it to happen again.

Do you not understand that they are willing now to fight for the injustices the United States has allowed to happen – to me? 

Do you not understand the meaning of Laters in Sherlock?  It has to do with Hilton firing me for being late because they “fixed” the time clock making me late allowing them to fire me after the September 11^th attacks because I was in such a daze, as is seen in Sherlock, over the loss of love in my life, I was grief-stricken, and they were so ANGRY that US intelligence allowed it – they set off attacks for it.  I did nothing wrong.  I did not incite them, or anger them, our own intelligence did that to themselves.  And, you FAILED to see it!  THEY saw it!

I WILL BURN THE HEART OUT OF YOU, from Sherlock, is a mirror image.  That is me, that is Cherith Joelle Gjestland as is seen by more men and women than most people know, I WILL BURN – BURN: CODE FOR CIGARETTE – THE HEART OUT OF YOU!  I WILL EXPOSE – BURN – YOUR HEART!  IT READS: CHERITH WILL EXPOSE, WILL NOT TOLERATE, WILL OBLITERATE – DOUBLE AGENTS AND BAD PEOPLE!

With what you showed me at work last night you have three double agents posing as my employer.  I remember thinking at the time why would anybody do that?  Are you going to do anything about that?  Or, are you just going to use this as a template for a script?

I snuck it out will they thought I was having a cry, from Sherlock is about a tampon.  That phone is a tampon.  I put a tampon in my brassiere, so I didn’t have to carry my handbag to the bathroom at my workplace at the time, that was Disney.  It reads: I snuck it out, Cherith hid the tampon while they thought about why Cherith was crying in the bathroom.  It tells me our own intelligence had no idea why it was so important over there for me to be happy, in a good mood, song choice from the movie, Love Actually.

Don’t make me compete with Sherlock Holmes, from Sherlock is about, at least one person’s home life, personal life, it is not on my end.  It means you had men calling me at work, to flirt with me, talking nicely to me, so I would be in a good mood and happy, and it had to be genuine and real or Cherith would read it as disingenuous, yet no one thought enough to actually allow me to have a man to love of my own?!  And it looks like no one really understood why it worked to have men call me, so I would be happy and in a good mood.

The fact that you have me in the table scene in Sherlock as Mycroft tells me you have a code name for me as Mycroft working in England and it is working well.  It is time-consuming and laborious, but it is working with US intelligence, and I only write it so you will see how high up I actually go.  For the betterment of all.  Working together.

The fact that I was stung by a bee on my head, on my skull while I was on a horse, and my father – true story – helped to remove the bee from my hair, tells me the bee was sent intentionally.  It was to tell me when I had grown older, that my intelligence “father” had the birds and the bees talk with me.  It is sentiment.  Loving.  Like a father.  They would have seen me as a tough kid because I didn’t cry, I carried on with the plans for the day.  We went to a restaurant and had a meal afterwards.  I took nothing for the pain, they did nothing for the sting, and I just carried on until it healed.  I remember thinking it made no sense since the bee headed straight for me.  It’s referenced in the Bourne Legacy, it’s not normal for wolves.

And who sits on a horse in statues?  That is the reason for horse references.  I will not be spoon-feeding you that information you will have to look it up or figure it out on your own.

Wolves, Wolf, this is all a reference to Little Red Riding Hood, and my grandmother who was killed with a stroke because Cherith gave US intelligence the information about how to stop BRAIN RESEARCH.

That double agent you showed me last night is in a Hunt club, or was formerly a member, a part of a hunt club.  He used to hunt people.  It is the reason for the movies, The Hunger Games.  He was given targets, hits, kills, people to hunt down because he is nothing more than a stupid double agent.  He was given information, he was manipulated, and he bought it.  Like a non-thinking, man.

The activities that he has participated in are also referenced in the movie, Fight Club.  I would have to watch the movie again to read it correctly, it is referenced only.

They read him correctly and saw he would enjoy killing people.  They gave him people to kill in exchange for services and other things.  I have yet to see any substance in this man.  And, he wanted to see me, badly because he wants me.  He doesn’t want to kill me, he wants me.  A sexy mind is what he sees in me.  He believes the interrogation technique that has been devised with my boyfriend is more effective than anything else he’s seen.  Effective.

The smashed desk in the movie A Beautiful Mind is the desk in the Oval Office of The White House.  I read this movie correctly the first time I saw it.  The reason it was made was to show people how Cherith’s mind and person makes better men out of already exceptional men.

When I saw the film I said to people, something must have happened in the director’s life because I see it in his filmmaking, it was a better film than anything he’d done so far.  I saw it in his filmmaking.  And, I am omitting people’s names on purpose.

The White House desk that is smashed tells me I prevented an assassination attempt on the President when we first moved to Oregon and lived in – Portland, not Gresham, Portland, Port, Portland.

They would have had a man watching me, I was playing in our front yard, I took my bicycle to the front porch and rode the steps on my bike.  I didn’t stay in my seat and I hit the bicycle part and started bleeding from my vagina.  My mother placed me in the tub to stop the bleeding, and I remember her being upset with me.  I did not understand why she was mad at me.  So, that tells me something was wrong.

He probably spoke a foreign language, the man who was watching me.  I see in his head he had no ill will toward me; however, he was after our President.  He might have spoken another language while I rode my bike down our front steps, he was working with a woman.  He would have been straight in front of our house and she was to the left.  It is probably the very reason for the show The Americans.  A marginal Secret Service, it is referenced in Sherlock.

He did not go through with the assassination attempt on our President after seeing me bleeding.  They killed my cat Shoo-Shoo because of it.  I would not still remember my mother telling me Shoo-Shoo was dead if there wasn’t anything else attached to it.  I still remember the room, I remember where I was, where my mother was, the fireplace, I remember everything.

It would be a reason why they worked so HARD to get another assignation attempt on US soil.  On US land.  Because I prevented one.

If you put the two together, the bleeding as a child and the prevention of the President assignation attempt, this would have been before Ronald Reagan was shot, and the cysts, and subsequent hysterectomy it is code for intelligence, and it is bad.  Never let this happen to another person again.

When a fire a mother will look to her child, from Sherlock this is many times in my life.  This goes together with the dialogue from the movie Point Break, young, dumb, and full of cum, you may have been in the top percent of your class, but you know exactly, SQUAT!  SQUAT!  Squat is code for the bracelet I chose of an intelligence man and the connection to a dead child case while I was still a child.  This is about my employment at Visionworks where he used the manager to talk to me, learning to speak Russian, going through a divorce, I reminded him of his mother, and the next thing I know my mother is at the store, and I am being moved to my family’s home, my mother telling me that conversation was sexual harassment, although I did not feel that way, rather than me living on my own with my own money.

It is referenced in Point Break during the drug bust and the undercover cop shows the FBI how they messed up, again.  And the thong underwear in the FBI raid is just about movie ratings, it is not intelligence.  It is just to get movie ratings and there is nothing wrong with that.

I had already moved up several positions at my employment at Visionworks, and the next steps would have been me as manager of the lab, and then store manager.  I would have been able to live on my own instead he sent me back to live with my parents as an adult because he wanted to work my mother through me.  What an idiot.

Take the cuffs off, leave ‘em on, take the cuffs off, LEAVE ‘EM ON from the movie, Point Break what this looks like is he was not deemed brain-workable enough for me by my intelligence father.  And my intelligence father is correct.  He had no idea how valuable I was and am.

Send In The Clowns, this song is code.  The word “ought” translates into a very top-secret military project that looks now defunct, sorta.  So, there is still something there that is workable.

Anonymous from Sherlock is referencing my tithing.  I tithed to charities and not just to my church.  If you know how to, you would receive intelligence from that.

Dugan from Dead President’s means my father was workable in California and stopped being so because he was placed on the night shift and it effected his mind and brain.  It is one thing I talked about over and over when we moved to Florida, how much better it was for my father to be in a day shift.  For his brain.  It is referenced in the movie, Remains Of The Day.

Is it unusual for a child to not speak until they are aged 2?  I did not speak audibly until I was 2 years of age.

The hallway to the pool hall in Dead President’s is in Solvang, California.

The reason for the show The Americans is not about Russian double agents in America, it is about subverting the efforts of US and British intelligence from working together.  Be careful you understand the difference.

There is something wrong here in this Normandy picture you’ve shown me.

Lost, I am Jack.  The code is, no J, for my brother, no K, a is for my father, and c for Cherith.  It would be the reason my mother loved the show so much because I am in it, a mother will look to her child.  The character Rose would be my mother because I was upset when I saw it.  It is about the loss and losses my mother has received because they stopped her from being loved over and over again.  Just like they stopped the plans to change her career in Oregon.  Where she would have been financially independent on her own.

Lost also has the repeating numbers.  I told you this Spanish royal man knows code in numbers.  The repeating numbers is also a distress signal.  It is the distress signal that is mentioned in Sherlock as isolated.  You people put on this show and have me “isolated” because you have no real idea about anything that pertains to me because it is for me to know and not you.  The hatch in Lost is space shuttles.  The people moving around the island, unexplainably is me, and my mind telling men locations, people, etc.  Winning the lottery is the same thing I’ve already written about; it is in Germany and a private man wanting to give intelligence me a way to live – for the rest of my life because of what I did in Dachau.

The distress signal is about people living on islands, I saw two islands in separate places.  Did you really find them?  When I heard what sounded like some of their voices, I wanted to meet them.  It saddened me because I will never be able to meet them, the way this life is set-up.  Did you really find the missing people?

I am Popeye, in the movie Popeye.  The song, He Loves Me, from Popeye, is, again, another nightgown.  I woke up in the middle of the night in Oregon because the wind was blowing.  I walked outside in my nightgown and the wind felt so good I stayed and walked around for just a little while.  No one was watching, or so I thought, and why wouldn’t I enjoy the beautiful breeze.  Most likely, there is a military victory I helped with sometime before that.  Intelligence father.  Loving like a father.  Like a father loves his daughter.

The director of Popeye is not my favorite because he did not have his actors carefully enunciate his words.  What country is known for proper diction and enunciation as a part of their culture?  However, The Player started a brain-click, yes.  Do you know why?  Do you want to know why?  The background.  The whole movie, the entire movie is in the background.  How very interesting, if you look for it.

Wow, I guess six hours is enough writing for today, but it is not everything I know.

You just – all my life – you just couldn’t respect my mind and brain?

Atrocious.

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June 4, 2019

If you’ve ever had a proper pot of hot tea made properly where the pot is warmed with hot water before the boiling water and tea are placed in the pot to steep, then you will never want warmed-over, microwaved iced tea, will you dad?  And you will tell them so if you see them in the restaurant microwaving iced tea after you’ve placed an order for hot tea, you will tell them what hot tea is since they must not know the difference.  If you do not have the means to make boiling water, then you cannot make hot tea.  If you do not have tea leaves, or tea bags, then you cannot make hot tea.  And, you will get your money back, or leave the restaurant if you have not yet paid because they did not know there was such a thing as hot tea before my father and I walked into the restaurant, after my father told them how to properly prepare hot tea, they did not have the means or the way to make hot tea.  They did not have the correct ingredients.  They had not tea leaves or tea bags.  Microwaved iced tea will never be hot tea.  Hot tea is hot tea.  And where I am from, how I grew up tea was always hot, the only cold tea or iced tea, is iced tea.  When asking for tea it is always a hot cup of tea unless you specify, iced.

I am already in another time crunch to get to work on time.  I actually do not like being late.  My parents because of – as I see it in my mind’s eye now – communication problems were late in getting us to church, a lot.  People would have noticed that it bothered me.  I didn’t like sneaking into church so as not to disturb the other people, and quietly sitting down.  I like being able to leisurely walk into church with my head held high being able to look around and take my time.  There is a lot in that paragraph if you are able to read it.  It is beyond the words.

I believe, every time, I have been placed with a man to work since Florida, it has been for the benefit and experience of the man, and not me.  It was to make the men, better men.  I already had my experience and training, I saved men in Vietnam, I helped intelligence end the Vietnam war.  I already had the experience and training.  It has always been for the betterment of men.  Cherith loves men, not women.  It is proven I will make better men out of men even if they are already exceptional.  My boyfriend is proof of that.  And, people have subverted efforts going back to when we lived in California to stop me from having male relationships as there was a neighborhood boy, a friend of my brothers who wanted to date me and take me to the – movies.

My first “boyfriend,” my first boyfriend who asked me to go steady when we were in elementary school together, his family moved in less than a few months.  Do you see the pattern, yet?

Did you see the pattern or were you too bored from Sherlock is not directed to me at me, it is directed to United Stated intelligence?

A small detail such as the one left out in my writing yesterday is a very good example of why I do not rush, or hurry any of my writing.  My writing carries more weight and value than most anything else you are doing here.  I wrote yesterday that my brother is not in Sherlock after I’ve written I’m gay and that’s about my brother, and a few other details, like halitosis.  He is not in any of the characters, I see it in my head, he is in the dialogue.  That would again lead you to the double agent, the dumb-dumb, using my brother to get to me.  It is a big difference that would cause a time delay in a working field if you do not get the details correct.

The table conversation between Miss Adler and Mycroft Holmes is a lot of things, one of them being it is the conversation between my mother and I about getting Thursday and adopting Thursday the cat.  I am Mycroft and my mother, Miss Adler, we were sitting in the exact places in our home as well.  He was to be my mother’s cat.  It was her intention for him to be her cat.  She liked her cats to sleep in her room during the night, and Thursday just wanted to be wherever, so he became my cat after about a month.

It means Thursday is a code name for an agent still working and it looks like people figured that out, and who took care of my cats by taking them away from me?  I do not like dumb-dumbs.  I do not like double agents.

I am out of time for today.