Author: endthefalselife

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January 10, 2019

Order an egg-white omelet.  The rest of the details do not matter.  Hurry.  See what you get.

Hurry.

Read.

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January 10, 2019

It looks like she ordered that hit in connection to me viewing Batman.  It looks very bad.  That will take me quite some time.  It’s extensive.  It’s very bad.

He’s going to need more protection, they had him use the words, word and bad.  He needs more protection because of it.

Be grateful, I am your employee.  Be grateful, I have lime beer here.

I will repeat this over and over for some time.  Read.

Do not forget there is a Reading, Pennsylvania.

My brain is full, is all.

Read.

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January 8, 2019

It is HBO, Adrian Green(sp), and Mex.

It is not Mi Casa and the rest.  It is just my house.

I returned my Norway shirt.  How come they have not refunded me?!  I hate that job!

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January 8, 2019

That looks like a guilty and worse Wolfe to me.

Organ Harvesting?!  Ohio?!  This is also from a woman who worked with me at Dillard’s, she was also a nurse, and a witch.  I stayed away from her mostly.  Her name started with a Y.  Organ harvesting?!  I hate that job!

Jesus.  She was trying to reenact the birth of Jesus.  She wants to know more about Christianity and baptism, and Christianity.  From what I wrote about although you have killed my son, God cannot stop loving His chosen people.  If you want to reach her send her a non-denominational Christian white male in his forties, man, she just wants to know more.  As I see it, she is excited and happy at the thought of being Americanized.  Imagine that.  Missionary works in a war country.

How is it that Cherith can see a conversation that was not in front of her?  Well, I hate that job.

Buy another back brace because someone stitched a black triangle on the back of it?!  Well, I hate that job.

I am worn out from the physical demands of that job.  I hate that job!

Never again see the light of day?!  Well, I hate that job!

Remember it was Chris who told me not to write stories about Maurice the Handsome, Lambert the Good, and Murphy the Magnificent, Murphy the Brilliant.  What would happen if stories I wrote about were read!  I hate that job!

I am reading Hamlet.  I hate that job!

I have no idea what that news story is supposed to mean.  I saw David at the coffee shop, I saw his ring after I left the coffee shop.  I never approached him because I remembered how he wrote to me about being delusional and crazy, yet he followed me around town.  It was such a reaction I was physically shaking not because I was scared because it felt like a steel door slamming down on my mind from the top of my head.  Shutting off all communication.  I hate that job.

I am Sherlock telling people to run and rescuing them.  Not the other way around.  Because of how they used me.  I hate that job!

I used to weigh 109, I hate that job!

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January 8, 2019

HBO, Green, Mex.

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January 7, 2019

No, the answer is, I am not interested in being cross-trained.  That is the real answer to the lawyer question I was asked.

I am not interested in being cross-trained, or have you still failed to know and understand I was doing the grown-ups work for them as a mere child.

I used to weigh 109, I hate that job!

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January 7, 2019

I hate that job!  Under normal circumstances I would have found another job after only a few months of that work.  It is a long shift.  Feet, hands, my whole body, I am not a teenager anymore.  It is not of any interest to me either.  Just keep going faster, and faster, keep working faster and faster, so you don’t think anymore.  Well, I hate that job.

I think she is addicted to killing.  Who the fuck let that fucking bitch anywhere near or around my work?!  She is psychotic!  I hate that job.

Don’t food write anymore, I hate that job.

Don’t write about whatever I want to write about, I hate that job.

Don’t work during the day anymore, I hate that job.

I don’t get to do anything I want to do or like anymore, I hate that job!

I used to weigh 109, I hate that job!

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January 6, 2019

Somebody lied to you, David.  Of course, I never spoke to my brother about you, David.  It is so obvious that I would not speak to my brother about something so intimate.  The day we said good-bye to each other as you went off to University, I let you go.  I knew you had made a decision in your mind, and I was no longer there.  The love that used to be there is gone.

You did not see, you failed to recognize that is was not David that I needed.  I did not need David to be the proxy.  I went straight to the source, immediately, as soon as I saw it.  I have done so every time.  I can, turn it off.

I used to weigh 109, I hate that job.

I understand that it is how someone saw me.  Benedict Cumberbatch is the best approximation of me, my talent, my skill, my charm, my good looks, my attractiveness, yet as a man.  I am obviously seen as a woman.

It has been taken waaaaaaaaaaaaay out of context.  Because you are not able to understand how quickly it changes and moves back and forth within the script.

How could you associate with those neighbors, David?!  How could you stand there in their driveway, watching me work in my yard, and not even walk up, walk over, and just start talking?!  All you could do is stand there and watch me?  And talk about me to those neighbors?!

Sirens, alarms, SCREAMING, in my head in the presence of Nicole.  SCREAMING!  SCREAMING!  SCREAMING!  SCREAMING!  SCREAMING!  IT SCREAMS IN MY HEAD AROUND HER, ALWAYS HAS!  She is mean, cruel, vindictive, manipulative, it is very bad!

If you in any way cast an Adam because of the Adam that my brother was seeing, God help you.  That Adam I had such a bad and strong reaction to, he is on his own.  They used him through my brother to get to me.  He is nothing more than a piece of trash who used my brother for money.

If you in any way allowed “KC” to create the scenario of my hysterectomy, God help you.  Obviously, she cannot be my father.  Obviously, I would not in any way have my father perverted in such a way.  You couldn’t be more wrong.  She is sick and looks like she has some delusional fantasy about me and my family.  She needs psychiatric help.  Not from me.  Wow, I must agree to everything she says and does, or my job is in jeopardy, I hate that job.

You (many people) were sold bad information.  The betting on his life, Mycroft’s life, is about them doping my food to create the scenario of my hysterectomy.  It is not about weight gain.  It is about how grotesque obesity is seen.  It is like people sitting around a police scanner listening to the calls going out and “guessing” I bet the husband is guilty of the domestic violence, or I bet the neighbor stole this or that.  “Bet”, is just a figure of speech.  However, someone did take matters into their own hands, someone who is incapable of reading people, of reading me, and decided I need a hysterectomy, that I never needed to be with a man again for the rest of my life, that I never needed to have love, or anything I want, or like again for the rest of my life, wow, I hate that job.

I don’t ever get to work during the day anymore, I hate that job.

I don’t ever get to be a real person again, I hate that job.

I don’t ever get to do anything I want, like, or enjoy, I hate that job.

Lambert, shoots people out of the sky, he is a gunner, he is a sharp-shooter, he is a marksman, it has absolutely nothing to do with the direction, down.  You are wrong.  I hate that job.

My blinds are closed because I feel tricked from last night at work.  I hate that job.

They use the air to bald me.  Because?!  Because they took the top off my light outside my garage and I am supposed to change it with the one next to me?!  I hate that job.

Wet underwear!  I hate that job!

Balding me!  I hate that job!

I used to weigh 109!  I hate that job!

Here’s what the Peak t-shirt designs say to me, the yellow semi-truck shirt, is just about racing cars.  The airplane t-shirt is just about using Amazon as a cover for a drug business, obvious to me, I don’t agree with that or will allow it.  The Peak shirt with the smile on the sleeve is just about Lambert and Maurice, they both have slim waists.  None of them are that interesting to me.  Not anymore, I hate that job.

I don’t ever get to be a real person again, I hate that job.

I don’t ever get to do anything I want, ever again, I hate that job.

I am so unhappy, so upset, I hate that job!

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January 4, 2019

Wow, this cannot be a surprise.  I hate David.  I hate that job.  I hate this life.  There is love gone and nothing more, anymore.

Wow, I just miss being able to watch television like every other person in the world.  It is a strain on my mind not being able to know what’s going on the world, or just watch television and not have to think for a few hours.  I am so disinterested in your fake news stories that amount to nothing more than what Cherith ingests or wears.

Only do it this way.  Only have this food.  Only have that.  Only have women and being surrounded by women for the rest of my life.  Only have it black and white, or else.  Never ever being able to have sex with a real man for the rest of my life.  Wow, I guess I hate that job.  Wow, I guess I hate this life.

Nothing happens when I don’t write for a day.  So, end it.  I want my life back.  I used to be a real person.  I hate this life.  I hate living like this.  I told you, weeks ago while driving, you are too late.  I am a real person, with real emotions, with real feelings, and I told you, you were too late.  I am not a television show to script and schedule.  Any momentum I had achieved, is gone.  You are too late.  You do not get to script or schedule time for damage done to my emotions.

I do not believe that the Eel is real.  Not anymore.  I believe you created a fictious person and fictitious UN alarms, so you could create another series or television shows or films.  You are all on your own.  I am not interested in helping you.

I couldn’t possibly be any less interested in being a guidance counselor or a counselor to persons in prison.  What a waste of my talent and skill.

Can you look at a man and see that he works in a micro-brewery?  That he created a beer with cinnamon and pumpkin?  Can you?  Can you hear a voice and in your mind travel around the world and LOOK AROUND IN YOUR MINDS EYE?  I can.  I do.  It has nothing to do with a Crown or surgery.  Something I’ve had my whole life.  What a waste of my talent and skill.

They had me “talking” to a “prisoner”.  A prisoner where significant progress had been made because of me and my lead.  Then, I see in my head they are using a translator.  Using video conferencing.  I see it is a woman.  I said, I question her motives.  I questioned her motives for wanting to help and wanting to volunteer.  Just like that, almost that fast, she was gone.

Must have been the 15^th of December when Chelsea walked over to me to give me my numbers again having to listen to her while alarms are going off all over the world.  I am in such a position that I am better off dead than to be Chelsea’s numbers.

Constantly being told one thing by one person at work, then to be told to do it a different way by someone else at work.  No one is ever accountable for their actions.  They changed all the boxes in line 4 at work.  If an item went down the line that did not fit the box, the monitor (or computer program) that programmed the size of the box, then the item was supposed to go to Problem Solve because that item was NOT supposed to be in that line.  Wow, I guess I hate that job.

As soon as I do any head work, talking in my head, helping people in my head, solving crimes, saving people, helping the police, helping the FBI, helping the CIA, helping any number of agencies, helping different countries, here comes Chelsea walking over to me with her numbers.  Placing me in such a position that I am written up for made up numbers that don’t exist.  Does Chelsea walk over to anyone else and give them numbers?  I am better off dead than to be Chelsea’s numbers.

Jim Moriarty is not a real person.  Of course, he is a real person many times over.  He is killed, he is dead, he is caught, he is sent to prison, he is sent to jail, over and over, and over again.  We, the audience know this fact on an unconscious level.  It is only when it is asked of us to analyze the characters and events that we place the words into fact in our brain.  Jim Moriarty is just crime and criminals having him be a character is just – storytelling.  Nothing more.  Jim Moriarty is caught, over and over again.  He is not a master criminal that gets away.  Do not be fooled.

Wow, I am not living in the past.  I am not in love with David.  I am not interested in reliving over and over again three nights of the worst sex – ever.  I never came once.  Wow, I am not a whore.  They had ways of projecting people.  There was the camera in the television, the electronics, the surgery, the Crown, they had ways of projecting people that were not here.  Wow, not in a million years.  How dare you place people in a sexual position with me that I would never approve of, agree with, agree to, or ever want.  It makes every person involved in those three nights an accessory to my mother’s murder.

Wow, I am not a whore.  I am appalled at these hand years.  It is not the same for me.  I do not feel anything more from any of the men.  Do you actually want to tell me that the way Hollywood, actors and actress work is only by sleeping and fucking each other?  Wow, I hate that job.

I am so appalled at David’s participation.  He is so revolting to me.  He is not worthy of me.

I am so appalled this sort of thing happens to American citizens.  My life has been taken from me.  I have no choices of my own anymore.  I don’t get to have a job that I enjoy where I can live on my own by my own means?

Did you all get to spend the holidays with your family and friends?  I didn’t.

My brother and father should probably go to counseling together, and perhaps separately as well.  My real paternal grandmother is Swedish from Sweden.

I went to work last Tuesday and through the air while at work while on the clock they used the air to place a massive boil, pus-filled sore on my taint.  They thought I wouldn’t take a picture of if on my phone.  I must work with some of the most abusive people in the world.  Wow, I guess I hate that job.

You failed to follow my lead on everything.  You failed to understand everything I was saying and writing.  You have me in such a terrible position I am better off dead than living like this.  I would rather be dead.  Wow, I am not interested in giving you any more displays anymore.  You failed to support me over and over.  I am better off dead.  Now, whenever I die, if it is soon or years from now it can always be said my death will not be from natural causes.

Just look at the color of my eyes.  My color is gone.  Wow, I hate that job.

I miss being a real person.  I want to date real men.  I miss real men.

I used to think creatively in my head while working until Chelsea came along.  I used to write adventures of my cats until Chelsea came along.  Wow, I guess I hate that job.

I am so upset, I am so upset with the instability Chelsea has placed me in with my job being able to be terminated from one week to the next, and not being able to get another job, a different job; I am not changing my shirts at work at all, ever.  Until I feel otherwise.

I hate that job.  I hate this life.