October 4, 2019: READ: WARNING: So, Help Me God

October 4, 2019

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I am trying really hard at the moment, to control my rage and anger.  So, be careful.

Is this really true, did the real Chris Stevens go to Libya within a few days of 9/11, 2012?  Because if this is true, I am really fucking pissed.

If this is true, it would have been a matter of days after my hysterectomy, and I believe my brother was told to leave me alone.  Meaning, after a few days that I returned from the hospital, after my hysterectomy, my brother left me here alone in this house, at someone else’s insistence because if my brother had been here with me at the time that the attack on the diplomatic outpost in Benghazi happened, I could have helped.

However, because I was recovering from surgery, I was in and out of sleep, every day.  For many months.  Even after I was working full-time.  Anyone with the slightest amount of medical knowledge would know that to be true.  It is how the body – recovers, it sleeps.

I am so sick of your shit, Tyrone, this is the last time, from 13 Hours, this is about a man in the White House, who might not, truthfully, had full knowledge about what was going on, um, like, instead of asking me if this is a threat to the White House, they threatened my employment, yet again, and that is how they read me, that I believed it to be a credible threat.  By, yet again, chasing me from one employer, to the next.  Creating instability, never allowing me to have a, norm.

Meaning as soon as I got to a normal, a base level, a place upon which to build my life, they’ve destroyed my own security.  The United States’ own Weapons of Mass Destruction, you’ve allowed to be corrupted from within, shame on you.

Really, you’ve done a shitty job.  Treating me like a lawn mower, a yard person, instead of the person in the White House, speaking to the President.  Please, do not repeat this mistake, again.  For the safety, and protection of American lives, and those of our allies.

I am so beyond rage, I am calm, and you should be scared.

I am really tired of covering up and protecting the mistakes of this FBI man, and others.  Do not do it, again.

The government, is on a budget, from 13 Hours, and yes, Agent Alex, really is code for an intelligence person needing to go to Alcoholics Anonymous, let me show you the picture they used on my house and family: how many people re-roof a house, one shingle at a time?  How many companies would help you, if you asked them to only shingle, one single shingle on a roof at one time?  How many?

Let me slow down and write it again.  Does anyone, shingle a roof, one shingle, at a time?  No.  No one does.

The very reason no one re-shingles a roof, one shingle at a time?  You must remove all the old shingles, to see what is underneath.  Is there any damage?  Any weather damage?  Any water damage?  Is the material beneath the shingles, USABLE AT ALL?  BECAUSE WHAT WOULD BE THE POINT OF RE-SHINGLING A ROOF IF THE FOUNDATION TO WHICH YOU APPLY THE SHINGLES – IS UNUSABLE!

Whoever is responsible for this course of action upon my Plant City home and my current home, I mean it most sincerely, admit your mistakes, come clean because I cannot control my rage at this point.  It is most unfathomable, that these really smart people, our US intelligence, could not see the fatal flaw in their plans, trying to then place the blame upon my family, my family members,  AND OUR GODDAMN ENEMIES AND ALLIES HAVE BEEN SO ENRAGED AT YOUR NEGLIANCE THEY HAVE BEEN WILLING TO ALLOW MURDER AND KILLINGS TO HAPPEN.

STOP CLEANING UP THE MISTAKES AFTER IT HAS HAPPENED, BE THE GODDAMN BEST FUCKING INTELLIGENCE THIS WORLD HAS EVER KNOWN, AND PREVENT THIS SHIT BEFORE A SINGLE CIVILIAN SOUL, EVER HAS KNOWLEDGE ABOUT IT.  SO, HELP ME, GOD!

Literally, someone’s best plan, best course of action that they could put forth was to place upon my families’ home, replace one shingle here, replace one shingle over there, replace another shingle there, replace another shingle here.  You’ve got to be out of your goddamn mind, a child would be able to know, that would never work.

The loss of life is so unbearable to me.  Not just my own family.  The loss of life that is avoidable, preventable.

The brightest minds on the farm, should have been shoving dick in my face, every goddamn day.  Do not be fooled by this.  There is no reason in the world that the only man I have ever made love to has been, my former fiancé.  Shame on you.

Believe in the power of love.  If you believe, in intelligence, at all.

October 4, 2019: READ: White House Email

October 4, 2019

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Does anyone know this yet?

If your going to do any fighting keep it in the family, from Crazy, Stupid, Love, the code is not go inside, that just says that men who have served jail or prison time are still eligible to serve in the military, the code is keep it in the family, meaning, White House.  Who is the chief anyway?

When I worked for the email contractor, this is in 13 Hours, I am willing to go right here, right now, this is a man who was trying to tell me something, covertly.  I was asked to go double-jack (it’s the term it is called where another person “plugs”, get it Matrix, plugs into a phone call being able to listen in or eaves-drop on the conversation.  This man took several phone calls, he was not working in the same “section” I was employed to work in, while I listened to his phone calls.

This has stuck in my mind ever since, and it is the real reason I resigned from that employer.  Among the other things, like asking a manager, not just another person, a manager, where something as simple as where another manager’s desk is at, and they are not able to tell me, or give me a straight answer, even something as simple as, I don’t know?!  Any logical person would realize something was suspicious.

This also seems, unbelievable.

This man would have had to have a message, most likely, tapped to his body and skin, on his torso, a message, that had not been opened, probably with some sort of seal (Crazy, Stupid, Love) like the White House, or another governmental agency.

Most likely, this man being asked to do such a thing, he was able to piece some things together.

I believe, had I, in any way, given any indication that I was aware in the slightest that I could read anything about him, people’s lives would have been lost, at the very moment.  It is probably the being social scene in Zero Dark Thirty.  For some reason, the being social scene in Zero Dark Thirty has always looked, not factual, rather than what has happened in the past, places have been blown.

However, in this instance it would not have been a bomb, and to me it says, the White House because there have been just too many movies about the security of the White House, failing, it says the White House was being threatened, and that is why I resigned from that employer.

It is also the reason why a man who was in my training class at my next employer gave me a cigarette from “London.”  The best cigarette, I’ve smoked so far.  Torso.

I would want to question this man unless everyone is fine with how they’ve run intelligence without my full knowledge.

October 3, 2019: READ: WARNING: Do Not Be Fooled

October 3, 2019

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It is just as dangerous to have bad thinking about groups of people based on their nationality, religion, or country of origin, and it is, in my mind, completely unamerican, to think and believe about people, not as individuals, but of nations of enemies.

Range is good, from Gladiator, is code, it is why Maximus the one who says the dialogue, range is good?  It is code for: Our eye.  Please do not allow yourselves to be misled because you have been misinformed, or our not willing to believe in truth, and justice.  The statue of justice being blind, does not mean justice is blind, it means, seeing the truth for what it really is.  A horseman is something to be interpreted, and if you have no knowledge or understanding of what a horse culture is, then please do not pretend to know the truth.

The tail that followed our intelligence to LAX is seen in the movie, Collateral, when Max is at a gas station at the beginning of the movie.  Do not follow the gas station, it will get you, nowhere.  It just means there is a local businessman in Los Angeles with ties or connections that should be brought in for questioning.  You’ll get more intel and information from that alone, than anyone has thought about, for some time.

Closed down the mountain passes by mid-November from 12 Strong, well that’s when I was in Germany, mid-November.  So, if Russian’s are talking about a bad winter, that’s usually worth paying attention to, Usual Suspects, Russian meaning inaudible, and PAY ATTENTION.

This profile of a mother fucker is a bad woman, do not trust her.

I stopped writing yesterday, as I needed a break.  It’s going to take some time for me to finish writing what I started today.  I have real-life I need to do first, I am not doing it their way anymore, as before I would have – done all their work requirements before I took care of myself.

Well, I don’t work for anyone anymore.

Stop following their leads anyway.  Did any of them tell anyone or alert anyone to the threats of the intelligence children?  Did any of them see it at all?  No.

If you do not make certain that Brianna is to stay away from me, and all of David’s ex’s and current girlfriends, people’s lives are going to be in danger, and that threat is not from me, it is literally a brain-thing, stop fucking up.  Stop making mistakes.  Brianna, especially, is nothing more than a fame whore.  Fame is all she is seeking, do not be fooled by her.

A parent is not the same as a baby-sitter.  A baby-sitter could have only been a baby-sitter, one time, a few occasions, a parent, like a mother, says, time, that is really disturbing.  Everyone should be disturbed that they were using billions of our tax dollars, and instead of capturing Bin Laden, I was being used to parent the children.  It’s disturbing.

Here’s a start for you, when I had to renew my driver’s license, at the DMV in Plant City, there was a white woman, who was sitting in front of me while I was waiting, and there was a white male standing against the wall with a child of a toddler’s age.  Find the female at the DMV and question her.

What the fuck were you people doing all those years!

George from Zero Dark Thirty in the spending billions of dollars scene, those are all my previous manager’s, and supervisor’s, that’s Washington DC, yelling at my local contacts, managers, and supervisor’s because they were failing me.  Failing to get to me, it took the FREAK OUT BECAUSE IT ACTUALLY IS A FREAK OUT, A TOP LEVEL MAN FREAKED-THE-FUCK-OUT, AND SHIT FINALLY GOT DONE, FOR IT TO FINALLY GET DONE.

Wow, that’s really disturbing.

October 3, 2019: READ: WARNING: Disturbing

October 3, 2019

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Stop subverting the efforts of your own intelligence, our US intelligence, and its allies, and start creating some goddamn stability in my life, and stop using some thirty some year-old double agents handling of intel regarding me and my family.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP BEGGING OUR FUCKING ENEMIES TO KILL AMERICANS AND OUR ALLIES!  GOT IT?!

If the only reason you put an air-bag recall on my Honda Civic vehicle, it is just to say, um yeah, I really did protect the President of The United States on my bicycle when I was a child in Portland, Oregon not long after we had moved to Oregon, so I would have been – seven years old.

I stopped subversive double agents, who spoke Russian.  And, Aro, from Twilight, is seen as this Russian-speaking (I hope they don’t think they, they meaning, double agents, will win copying the Russians, from 12 Strong) double agents that is also in the television show, The Americans.  The angle of the graphic from the television show The Americans says, axis, meaning, axis of evil.

Did someone allow Brianna access to my house yesterday, and allowed her to tamper with my soap?  I want her arrested for trespassing, and endangering my life, David’s life, my boyfriend’s life, the FBI, Harry, and detainee’s.  She must pay for her wrongdoing’s.

David, do the world a favor, and stop listening to Brianna, she will get you killed.  She should be thanking me that she got to spend time with you at all.  It is possible she might never have known you, had I not saved your life.  And, Brianna does not listen to her own mother, or she probably wouldn’t have moved in with David to begin with.  A good daughter also, obeys her mother.  Something she has no idea how to do.  Talk about a problem with authority.

My authority, from 13 Hours, is not code, so stop following it.  If anything, it is to show how our US intelligence within my vicinity, meaning my Plant City neighborhood, was clueless and had no idea how these messages, my cats, our money was really getting used and utilized.

He’s not serious because that’s his job not my job, from 13 Hours, that he is me, and yes, I would be real fucking serious.  It shows that I had greater pull than agency persons with badges.

Be careful, you people don’t misunderstand the reasoning behind showing me as a man in films or television is really and truthfully done.  We as the audience, accept it.  Seeing a man, muscles, good-looking, handsome, and so on, that is why actor’s look like actors.  We as the audience accept it and want to see it.  Some people might then she an actor as their mental image.  Don’t let the sex or gender, for God’s sake, stop being perverts!

That was pretty impressive.  Was that an audition?  That is pretty good accuracy.

I have something else on my mind that is – disturbing.  Again.

When we first moved to Florida, the apartment we lived in, that was arranged by a family friend was more than unacceptable living arrangements.  My mother had me go with her to several apartments, and she so much as let me choose where we were to live.  It says, not that she wasn’t a strong mother, rather than she was aware her child sensed things, Christians call this, discernment.  We went to so many apartments, I didn’t think there was going to be any place acceptable to live.  Until we went to the apartments in Oldsmar.

The extra three weeks is cushion for your fuckups from Zero Dark Thirty, I’ve already written about, extra says tabloid television, tabloid television says, paparazzi, paparazzi says, LAX.  I didn’t fuck up.  You morons didn’t shake your goddamn tail at the airport.

It’s not what you think it means, to him.  And, it is rather surprising isn’t it?  He’s a rock star from 13 Hours, to me, it is all over the movie, they liked Chris Stevens, he was a liked man in Libya, and they like America and Americans, so don’t fucking think for a minute that they didn’t.  THAT WHY IT WAS SO FUCKING SERIOUS THEY MADE A GODDAMN MOVIE ABOUT IT!

Yes, Sona, this blonde woman that is seen as Sona in 13 Hours, really does love this country, love America, and believes in our government and what it stands for, that is why she is support staff, or was, and not direct contact, she was not supposed to be direct contact, that’s the fastest way I can write that.

So, if the FBI man had a bikini model take photographs of herself in the Pacific Ocean because I remember looking at this picture and thinking, what is she doing?  She wasn’t supposed to be there.  It’s in Moana in lyrics, staring at the edge of the water, never really knowing why.

So, Sona is also not supposed to be in the car in the movie, 13 Hours.  This real woman really loves this country, loves American and really doesn’t want these asshole’s to win, that is why she, if she is to want to work with me again, needs to take orders from the MEN who work with me, and THAT IS ME SAVING HER GODDAMN LIFE!  CAPICE?!

She probably really does know what she is doing; however, regarding me and my person, it is very specific, very specifically brain, for her protection, as well as, everyone else’s.  I really want her to live a long, happy life, so I am telling you, specifically, it MUST BE SO.

When did the real Hannibal Lecter move to Florida?  Did they try and recruit my brother to get him to move to Florida?  Yes, it would have been a nod, or very small gesture, not discernable to the everyday lay person (and lay, could be the reason they use the word lying, in 12 Strong, anyone who tells you they’ve done this before is lying, lying meaning, lay person and the definition for layperson meaning, an everyday person like Michael was).

The very reason they wanted me away from Michael?  My Germany man didn’t approve of him.  My Germany man didn’t approve of Michael, he’s lying, Michael has never worked with police or done intelligence before me.  The man I approved of, the man that got me to Germany, the man, most likely, that I’ve cried buckets and buckets over because it is just decades of misunderstandings and hurt because I really like him, did not like Michael, most likely, from one look of him, in person, with me.

The reason I was flattered by the attention of Michael?  Well, it’s only normal for a straight seventeen-year-old girl who has no real friends, be starving hungry for male attention and companionship.  DUH!  It’s completely normal.  It’s completely natural.  That is not really that difficult.

I have yet to see, how on the real Hannibal Lecter has been brain researched, I think, they’ve used it on him while he was still, in medical school.

When bullet’s going by, I always feel protected, from 13 Hours, this is just a read, it is not me, it is a read of Bin Laden.

Pull over for inspection, from 13 Hours, this scene has always, not so much as bothered me, but been a sticking point, like a hang nail, or something on your person that is not painful, rather more of a reminder.

Pull over for inspection really did happen to me in real life.  I did not pull over, on Jerry Smith road in Plant City, Florida.

Pull over for inspection says, vehicle inspection, what we used to do, emissions tests for vehicle registrations.  Don’t follow the vehicle inspections, it will get you nowhere.

Guess what?  It is in the dialogue, of leave here while you still can.  I am not showing you all my work, it says, there are real death threats to real intelligence children that are now adults, and the threat is still real, and active.  I do not believe it was wise to re-create the scene with an African American police officer while I was employed at The Container Store, this word, alone.  Jaime used the word, nice.  She said he was a nice man.  Nice, is a problem.

No, these children are not local, or Floridian’s, or probably have ever visited the state of Florida.  That doesn’t really narrow it down, except, most likely they would be the children of some of the highest-ranking intelligence persons.  This just set off an alarm in my head.

Whoever changed the gates here at this housing complex, says, they really didn’t know the code, didn’t know how to access me, didn’t know how to work me, didn’t know ANYTHING.  Was this really a woman in intelligence?  I would change it back to a coded gate.  The remote is not – secure.  Code is more secure than the remote at the gate.

How willing would you be to parent the children who were living with Bin Laden?  After September 11th?

This is what is disturbing me.

This looks like I have in some way, I have helped parent or raise these children who were living in the home with Bin Laden.  This is disturbing to me.  Not because I’ve helped parent them because it says, Jesus Christ, our own intelligence had the information about Bin Laden’s whereabouts and they’ve hidden that information from the citizen’s of The United States, and it wasn’t until I stopped working and earning an income that A FREAK OUT HAPPENED IN WASHINGTON DC THAT SENT A LEAST ONE TOP PERSON AROUND THE WORLD TO MEETINGS THAT GOT BACK TO ME, MY COFFEE SET.  SO, WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU FUCKING PEOPLE WAITING FOR BECAUSE I, TRUTHFULLY, SEE NO REASON FOR IT.

The reason Carl, from the movie, UP, uses a leaf blower at the mailbox is because this is how Cherith disciplined her cats.  Meaning, don’t put your paws on the counter, for instance, as they are that close to my face, and I would blow on them with about as much force as a person sighs (Sherlock, I also snapped my fingers to get my cats to get down, for instance, off of a counter or something).  Meaning, I barely blew air on them, it was just, this is how cats think and work, to get their whisker’s attention.  The air disturbs their whiskers and the cat has to then think how to stop that from getting on their whiskers.  And these neighbor’s children really were harassing me because I re-landscaped my front yard, and they had no idea why they were doing it.

This child you placed in front of me from Bin Laden’s house, said, parent, meaning I looked like a parent to her.  I made a fist while driving because I was way ahead of you in thinking when you thought it would be wise to place this child as my manager.  Really dumb.

Any military personnel?  Any ex-military personnel, would you want to have a child be your manager?

If you must verify this information, and no, I don’t think the children are to blame, they didn’t have a choice that Bin Laden was in their compound, if you must verify it, it would be in a story, most likely, words in a story that I would have somehow spoken and that got to the children that were living in the house of Bin Laden.

And I am still grieving for the loss of all the children I will never be able to have.  I don’t appreciate your insensitivity.  All these decades of finding missing children, working crime scenes of children, and I will never be able to have my own, I am GRIEVING.  It was simply cruel, bad judgement, and poor timing, on your part.

My fibroid cysts really say, this employment I had at a small University that went through bankruptcy after I worked there, and it is now, or was a few years ago, Walden University.  I never liked it there, there was a problem in the building.  The woman who hired me, who was the President of the University, was fired after one week of me working there, and another woman, I thought she was crazy, was brought in from out-of-state, and wanted me to be her driver.  I don’t think I worked longer than a month because something was not right, meaning correct about that building, and they taught mostly, nursing courses.

It is probably the reason David, sold me auto insurance when I bought my car after my accident.

October 2, 2019: READ: WARNING: GATE

October 2, 2019

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13 Hours, the loud, fuck you, fly over, for the guys outside our gates, this is at my home, or former home in Plant City.  The fly over is to reference, the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, not, 13 Hours, that is how I see it.  There really was a helicopter that nearly sat on top of the same house with the closet, I wrote about before.

When I was volunteering, and not yet staff of the Obama campaign, the woman who was my manager, visited my home, here and I gave her a tour, and she remarked about how tidy, neat, and organized my closet was, this would have been soon after I moved in, this is when they started plans for The Container Store, since a Container Store, had to be – built.  Before my car accident, before my surgery.

The fuck you to the guys outside our gates, these security men that checked every vehicle in and out of my subdivision in Plant City, every night because there were only security guards there at night, only at the front and back entrance, all the other entrances, were closed after a certain time, I think it was 10 pm, these security men, were all of them, ninety-five years old, if they were a day.

If there was a security camera at the guard houses, it was only set-up to see the stickers, that every household received from the Homeowner’s Association, and not the people in the vehicles.  I often, looked at these old men and wondered how they were able to stay awake all night.  It is very likely they were not paid more than minimum wage.  So, it is very likely they received bribes, or other financial means by people at the gate.  It is a theory that is in the movie, I do not see it.  It just says, theory, to me.

If you have any of the real men, here from 13 Hours, I am sure because this is what I am seeing, I make more sense to them, by way of my describing the events, than whatever they’ve been told.  Really, the truth, gets you – further.

Take a bath hippie, from the movie, UP, this young guy in the suit, I have had this in my mind for some time, I haven’t put it into thoughts, or written this yet, this would be the guy who, if he didn’t work at the White House, would have worked in Washington, DC, and he was the man who got credit for me bringing an “email” from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty when I worked for the AOL contractor.

I’ve seen him, and here is what he was thinking, Cherith is a young person, and I was in my thirties, we’ll give Cherith an evening shift, she’ll get off work at 1am and most bars in most places in the world close, at the earliest, around 2am.  So, we can get her to a bar, have a drink, meet people, maybe go with people from her work, and so on.  And, it’s not bad thinking, unless…

I believe he probably looked at a map.  Looked at my location, where I lived, and where the employment was, and did not do more research on the areas and towns in between.  There really is nothing wrong there, except…

If you know that Seffner, Gibsonton, and these areas are lie between that employment and my subdivision, then you do not understand, Florida.  And, yeah, I really, still, in my mind and head, am not from Florida.  I told people, all the time I wasn’t from Florida because I REALLY CANNOT STAND, PO-DUNK MENTALITY!  Meaning hill-billy, or a person who does not think on a daily basis, that there are people who are important that do not live on our own block or neighborhood.  I have not been brought up this way, my father never taught me this, or talked, or believed liked this, nor my brother, nor my mother.  So, a constant argument with people who DO NOT THINK of other people, EVERY-FUCKING-GODDAMN-DAY, REALLY PISS ME THE FUCK OFF!

Are you really surprised I never spoke Russian to a woman, or any woman?  You should be fucking thanking me that I never did.

If I sat here, while writing, in my own home, and YELLED at a man, to SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP THINKING BECAUSE I AM WORKING ON SOMETHING, BE FUCKING GLAD I HAVE THE FUCKING BALLS TO DO SO!  ANY MAN, WHO IS TOO SMALL-MINDED HE, IS NOT ABLE TO LISTEN TO ME, IS NOT MAN ENOUGH TO BE IN MY ROOM.  I’M GLAD HE STOPPED.  I WAS WORKING.

I’ll probably be mad the rest of my life about 9/11.  You fucking idiots!

So, if you had people, legitimate, law-abiding, love America, naturalized citizens, or on Visas, and this probably is the reason this dialogue is in 13 Hours, can’t tell the good guys from the bad guys because they were destroying my home as a way to get HELP from the United States, AND I COULDN’T FUCKING HELP THEM BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE AN ENDLESS SUPPLY OF MONEY THAT FLOWS FROM MY FUCKING ASS, then maybe you’re doing it wrong.  Give me what I need.

I don’t think the cleaning for my A/C has anything to do with anything other than some dumb punk, idiot, just wanting to waste my money and nothing more.  He’s gone unchecked, too long.  If anyone was interested or wondered.  I was never going to rehabilitate Edison.  I’ve worked in rooms that brought an end to the Vietnam war, consider it a warning, again.

The painted hands on the mailbox in UP, is just me, I’ve written this already, soon after I moved into Plant City, I was painting something, probably my bookshelves, or something, and while I was painting, I did not use a rag or cloth to get the excess paint, and used my legs and arms, I was wearing shorts, and it is in the movie, Monster-In-Law, and Monster-In-Law says, mother-in-law tongue which is a plant and we did have it in our yard, first it was in our house, and then we planted it outside.  Just a detail, nothing more.

I think the real reason you had Chelsea at work tell me they were going to maintain my weight is because a freak-out happened.  And, you couldn’t figure out why other than they, and it is NOT an Asian, THEY, probably Middle East were getting fucking fuming mad again, and you were either getting enough chatter, or actual conflicts, and you realized it had to do with the size of my ass, and body.  As a way to try and placate, you had Chelsea use the word, maintain.  Big Mistake.

Either take your fucking penalty, meaning, admit your mistake, and correct it, OR GET OUT OF MY GODDAMN WAY!

I WILL NOT DO IT YOUR WAY ANYMORE!  I actually know when you are getting people killed and in harm’s way because you want to play with Cherith, when you have NO reason to be involved.

The only reason there is code in dialogue in 13 Hours, that says, hug, is because of the text in the movie that says Libya is a failed state.  And, there really were brother’s in my theater group in college, and one brother (straight, both brothers are straight) was a really nice man, and he have good hug, meaning hugs.  He’s in the dialogue of Zero Dark Thirty, of, I think she’s fucking smart.

The dialogue of a lawn chair, in 13 Hours, is my mother, it means, she was still, after her strokes, able to hear inaudibly.  I’ve written about this before.

Stop confusing actual events, real people, and actors, and movies.

Stop using straight men to get to me, for the betterment of all, and all of humanity, use the protocol correctly.  Stop trying to use me to further your careers while I am still only at entry-level positions, or currently unemployed.

Stop this stupid, fake news.

Stop ruining the United States, the White House, the US government, and its agencies.

Unleash hate, is just a read.  Pretty damn fucking good read of me.  Yeah, motherfuckers, you want me here, working, meaning, paid.

October 2, 2019: READ: WARNING: I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE!

October 2, 2019

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Someone needs to be held accountable and pay for what they did when I went for a job interview, and then they placed me in a car accident, totaling my MOTHER’S car.  They need to be held accountable.  They need to pay.

I went to a job interview, a man behind a desk explained the job was selling Direct satellite dishes within a store, and it is “tough” to sell, he told me.  I thought, he was stupid.  Of course, I could do something as simple as selling televisions.

Does everyone get it, yet?  Do you see what our own US intelligence, and persons did – to me, the UNITED STATES WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION, and that is to really say, a de-coder, they tried to kill me because of the coffee set I purchased, at QVC.

Then, arranging for David to either, for real, or pretend, be in a marriage with a woman who works at QVC.  The coffee set I purchased that led them to Bin Laden, and the kill of Bin Laden, I purchased at QVC.

Because I gave our US intelligence, YOU FUCKING IDIOTS THEN ALLOWED ME TO BE PLACED IN A CAR ACCIDENT, MEANT TO KILL ME, AND NOT ALLOW ME TO RECOVER – JUST LIKE MY MOTHER – YOU FUCKING IDIOTS FAILED ME AND THE CITIZENS OF THE UNITED STATES!

I AM STILL BEYOND RAGE AND ANGER.

When they come, we’re gonna unleash hate on them, from the movie, 13 Hours, I am the hate.  It’s code and it’s not, and it is just a reference point to when David, disguised as Alfredo Cruz at The Container Store, I am a dude, disguised as another dude, playing another dude, or however, that actual dialogue goes because Tropic Thunder is just about the Vietnam war, when David asked me if I would like to (in so many words) do a project around the home, like re-doing a closet, one piece at a time.  I said, I would hate that!

What to know why?  It’s dumb!  Why would anyone draw out a project over months or years when it could be done, all at once?  Get everything together at one time to do a project, then you don’t HAVE TO KEEP GOING BACK, OVER AND OVER BECAUSE IT’S DONE!  DONE!

LIKE DROPPNG A GODDAMN BOMB ON A KNOWN TERRORIST OR ENEMY OF THE UNITED STATES OR ITS ALLIES INSTEAD OF SENDING GROUND TROOPS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!

So, I will write this until I feel it is okay, safe, and good for me and all, if our enemies do something stupid like attacking or killing Americans because I AM NOT HAPPY, OR ANY OTHER FUCKING REASON, LIKE I WANT TO BE WITH A MAN LIKE MY BOYFRIEND, OR DAVID, A MAN I AM AND OR WOULD BE SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO BECAUSE THEY WERE BORN MEN – BECAUSE YOU FUCKING IDIOTS HAVE NO IDEA WHY AND WHERE THIS TRANSGENDER NOTION EVER CAME FROM AND IT IS ONLY BECAUSE OF MY BABEE BEAR WHO’S MOTHER I NAMED, MR. TOM, IT NEVER IN ANY WAY MEANT I THOUGHT OR BELIEVED MY GIRL CAT WAS A MAN, I NAMED BOTH CATS MR. TOM AND JERRY, IT IS JUST WHAT THEY LOOKED LIKE AT THE TIME, AND IT DOES LOOK LIKE YOU MOTHERFUCKERS DID SOMETHING TO MY CAT, MR. TOM (KEVIN IS A GIRL) TO MAKE MR. TOM REJECT HER BABY.

YOU FUCKING IDIOTS STILL LOOK LIKE YOU ARE INTERESTED IN PLAYING SILLY TWADDLE!  WELL, NOW THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS, I, NOT YOU, I, BROUGHT AND HELPED BRING AN END TO THE VIETNAM WAR, I SPEAK MORE LANGUAGES THAN ANY OF YOU, I KNOW BRAIN-SPEAKING, SO GIVE ME WHAT I FUCKING NEED!

UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, YOU BETTER START PROTECTING ME, START WORKING ME, START RECOGNIZING ME AS YOUR GREATEST WEAPON BECAUSE I AM NO LONGER GOING TO BE HELD RESPONSIBLE, ACCOUNTABLE WHEN OUR GODDAMN ENEMIES GET SO FUCKING ANGRY ABOUT WHAT HAS HAPPENED – TO ME, THEY TAKE IT OUT ON OUR OWN US CITIZENS, AND THE WORLD!

DO YOU WANT TO BRING AN END TO THIS BULLSHIT OR DO YOU WANT IT TO CONTINUE FOR GENEREATIONS?!  THEN, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I still remember the tall, blonde woman at the dentist’s who talked about her husband renovating their kitchen, I went there for many months, if not years, and he was still renovating their kitchen.

He’s being a tool, today, from 13 Hours, really just says, whoever that was supposed to be was not really the contact point or person, looks like I was.  He, or she, was just a person to get the orders to The White House, or agencies.

So, if I tell you and write, I don’t like a hand’s life, I want a real man, I want to be married, for real, and people do dumb shit like attacking or killing people because of me, or for me, I AM NO LONGER GOING TO TAKE THE BLAME FOR IT!  YOU FUCKING PEOPLE HAVE FUCKED UP FOR TOO LONG!

IT’S REAL FUCKING SIMPLE.

STOP TURNING ALL OF THIS INTO SOMETHING ITS NOT.

YOU FUCKING IDIOTS THOUGHT I WAS STUPID AND SIMPLE AND DUMB!  AND OUR FUCKING ENEMIES, BELIEVED IN ME IN WAYS THE UNITED STATES HAS NOT SHOWN – YOU FUCKING MORONS!

TAKE A REAL MOMENT HERE.  TAKE A SECOND AND REALIZE.

IT IS POSSIBLE OUR OWN ENEMIES WOULD NOT HAVE, IT IS POSSIBLE, DECADES OF HATRED COULD END.

BUT I WILL NOT DO IT, YOUR WAY.  NOT ANYMORE.  TELEVISION SHOW, OR NOT, TO SAVE MY JOB, OR NOT, I WILL NOT DO IT YOUR WAY, ANYMORE.

You got real problems still present. 

October 1, 2019: READ: WARNING: I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE!

October 1, 2019

BE ADVISED: THIS CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

What’s is that in the background?  On the wall?  Writing?  A name?  A location?  An idea?  A thought?  On the wall with the east and west, either, or, slats.  I’m not interested in the tire tracks.

It’s encouraging.  It means, he’s almost excited at being able to work, communicate, and – talk.  With me, a woman, an American woman.  It looks like he likes my father because my father has me as a daughter, and no, Creggan, I would wait a few days before I would meet him.  You’ll see why, when you wait until I say it is good.

Here is the scene David, look at it from my mind’s eye:  This following takes place in the backstage area of the theater of the Brandon HCC campus, Alisha is sitting on your lap, and kisses you as I walk in on the two of you, I, IMMEDIATELY, ALMOST CHARGE TOWARD YOU, DAVID, IN MY MIND THINKING, I’LL SHOW HER HOW TO KISS DAVID!  Within a few feet of David, it stopped, I immediately stopped that line of thinking, as though someone brain-spoke to me, either a name, or something, whatever it was, it immediately went away, me wanting to kiss David.

In my mind, I thought, no, I cannot because I WON’T.  It looks military, to me.  Because at the time, I most certainly wanted David.

Here is how David, looks then, in his mind, Cherith doesn’t make sense to me, look at her, her body is too big and fat, David’s thinking, I am attracted to younger women, with small, petite bodies.  Petite, meaning short and thin.  And, in David’s mind he could not rationalize his attraction to me because he had not yet learned or known about brain-workings and thinking.

Most likely, they used David for this reason, specifically, attempting to get me to try and lose weight, again.  Well, there is only so many different affronts a person, on their own is able to manage.  At the time, my mother was a priority, and here is the sticky wicket, it was also a priority for both my mother and I, to lose weight, be smaller in appearance and clothing size.  And what did they do as soon as my mother was placed in a nursing home?  They had her gain weight, nearly forty pounds.  I was devastated at the time, seeing my mother’s body so rapidly, gain weight while in their care.

Creggan, divorce Roy, and never look back.

Whoever has been using my brother and Roy, is it this FBI man?  There is real danger, real harm, real threats, real possible loss of life – BECAUSE OF ROY!

Roy says, Roy Disney, Roy Disney says, Steamboat Willie, Steamboat Willie says, nothing.  Stop following it.

I always liked my Hong Kong Disney lanyard.

I wore a beret hat on the White House lawn, at the inauguration, 2013, 13 Hours, meaning, an African America woman spoke to me about my hat, on the White House lawn.

WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO?!  Englishman, what the FUCK, did he do?!  Because it looks EXCEPTIONALLY, frightening.  Meaning, I don’t think ANYONE, yet, understands how many lives have been placed in jeopardy!

SO, EVERYONE MAKE SURE, I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS FBI MAN, ANYMORE!  I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM AND HIS TEAM!  MAKE SURE THEY DO SOMETHING REAL FUCKING QUICK TO MAKE SURE THEIR LIVES ARE NOT IN HARM’S WAY.

BECAUSE JUST LIKE IN THE MOVIE, ZERO DARK THIRTY, THERE IS NOTHING TO SUGGEST THEY HAVE CHANGED THEIR TACTICS SINCE MY FAMILY MOVED TO FLORIDA.  SO, GUESS WHAT?  YOU FUCKING IDIOTS STILL HAVE WORK ORDERS OUT THERE FROM THIS HOME, THAT I DO NOT HAVE THE MONEY TO PROVIDE THE INFORMATION TO THE CORRECT AGENCIES!

YOU PEOPLE NEED TO PROVIDE A WAY FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO GET THESE ORDERS – FULFILLED!  THIS IS WHAT IS SEEN IN THE MOVIE, 13 HOURS, WITH THIS DIALOUGE, THIS IS WHAT YOUR NOT SO GOOD AT, DOING WHAT YOUR TOLD.  BECAUSE MY FAMILY BECAUSE IT WAS NOT JUST MY BANK ACCOUNTS INVOLVED, MY FAMILY COULD NOT AFFORD FOR THE PROFESSIONAL WORK ORDERS TO BE FULFILLED – JUST LIKE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE WITH THIS HOUSE – AND, THEY WERE LOOKING FOR REAL COMPANIES AND REAL BUSINESS’S, NOT A MOM AND POP LOCAL SHOPS, THEY WERE LOOKING FOR REAL BUSINESS’S TO MAKE REPAIRS ON OUR HOME, AND DOCTOR’S APPOINTMENTS, ETC. IN ORDER FOR ACTUAL INTELLIGENCE PLANS TO BE MADE IN THE UNITED STATES AND IN FOREIGN COUNTRIES!

PREPARE A WAY, ALLOW A WAY, GIVE ME WHAT I NEED, SO THESE ORDERS CAN BE FULFILLED!  I CANNOT, I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE IF OTHER COUNTRIES ATTACK THE UNITED STATES AND ITS ALLIES – IF I AM NOT ABLE TO GET THE ACTUAL WORK DONE – BECAUSE OF MONEY! 

I DO NOT BELIEVE I AM ACTUALLY ABLE TO SCREAM LOUD ENOUGH AT THE MOMENT, TO EXPRESS HOW FUCKING SERIOUS THIS REALLY IS, THIS FUCKING MINUTE, AND FOR ALL THESE PREVIOUS DECADES, AND FOR THE GODDAMN FUTURE!  BECAUSE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE IN THIS HOUSE – HAS FUTURE PLANS ATTACHED TO IT!

GODDAMNIT!  STOP LETTING THEM WIN!

I SWEAR TO FUCKING CHRIST!  IF A TOP AND I MEAN A REAL HIGH-LEVEL INTELLIGENCE OR OTHER PERSONNEL HAS TO LOSE THEIR JOB BECAUSE OF MISMANAGING ME, WELL, IT WON’T HELP!

I DID NOT FAIL!

THIS OTHER FBI MAN IS BETTER, ALTHOUGH HE MAY NOT BE AN INNOCENT MAN, HE HAS KNOWLEDGE, AND AT THE PRESENT MOMENT, HE HAS KNOWLEDGE ABOUT MY FORMER NEIGHBOR’S AND WILL BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THEIR THINKING.  SINCE, I AM NOT ORGININALY FROM FLORIDA.  I DON’T THINK LIKE A FLORIDIAN.

Litter was moved from the garage to the sunroom, and I cleaned it.

I am not sure where this is from, previous training instilled in me, or from another source, I have never felt thin enough, regardless of what my weight has been.  In some mind, I was never to be seen dating another man again because no one has expected me to live this long.

When Alisha became friends with Megan in our theater group, I was no longer, Alisha’s friend.  I was not uncivil; however, I was not going to be friends with Alisha because I did not approve or like Megan.

The woman in the red dress from the movie, The Matrix, is my mother who was supposed to have her career changed to an architect.

This other FBI man asked me about the Plant City library, and I always liked the Plant City library.  My mother took me, the first time I went, and I liked it.  I liked it there.  I did not like renting DVD’s from the library, I did, like the building and the area around it.  It is most likely, the very reason the library received money, funding, for refurbishing the building, and grounds.

I also, have really liked the Downtown area of Plant City, I have an appreciation for small towns, their appeal cannot be replicated.  The downtown area of Plant City has also, been given money to renovate.

You were given a Ferrari and you people treated it like a lawn mower, from the movie The Bourne Legacy, the answer to this is in the thinking.  People, landscapers, people who mow lawns, and edge, and that is all they do, they do not design the grounds or the yard, these people, lawn mowers, do not speak with the persons who own the homes.  Meaning, you people, intelligence people were not getting direct information from me.

For instance, when I went to college, my employer reimbursed me for my education.  Great.  Except, what you allowed to happen was you WAITED until the semester was over, and I submitted my paperwork to HR for reimbursement, when that happened, then, intelligence and agencies got information about my semester and work.  Well, that’s too fucking late in my opinion.

In Zero Dark Thirty, when the man says, he told me the names of his children, I think he is telling the truth, this is a read of how I would handle, deal, and manage some detainee’s and it is pretty close to the real truth.  Do not look at Maya in that scene, that is not me, the two men, see how calm they are?  That’s the real Hannibal Lecter working with me, calm because of me, and the detainee willing to give information and calm because of me.  It is a read, nothing more.

Does the actress Sona, look credible at all as me in the movie, 13 Hours?  She doesn’t to me.  Here’s why, it is in the color of her head scarf, light blue.  Light blue as in the color of the archival boxes I purchased at The Container Store.  Archival boxes I’ve used to store my mother’s wedding bodice.  It says, you had a known problem, within The Container Store when I was there.  And, no, the proxy you used as the General Manager could not in ANY way be used, as my Englishman.

From the movie, 13 Hours, rubbed our dicks on it, code: Rod, eye on.  Also, wrought iron, and iron lady.  Meaning Rod, the biblical reference to spare the rod, spoil the child, just to place a biblical reference to the US military.  Wrought iron, meaning, my short story I wrote in college, Sarah’s star, about rescuing Jews.  And Iron Lady because I’ve worked with both houses before, and it really is not a problem UNLESS, YOU IDIOTS, FUCK IT UP!

It is very possible, the  reason it in is the movie, 12 Strong, I didn’t tell the other man I spoke Russian, pertains to my supervisor at Disney that told me her husband who was unemployed, when they were married, he never had a job because I wouldn’t speak intelligently or work inaudibly with her.

You fucking morons!  You really would have to be a dumb idiot to believe a gay woman, or a straight woman WOULD EVER WORK WITH ME – INAUDIABLY!  I CANNOT BEGIN TO DESCRIBE HOW ANGRY I AM AT YOUR INCOMPETENCE!

HOW DARE ANY OF YOU NOT TELL ME OF MY MOTHER’S DEATH – WHEN IT HAPPENED!  HOW DARE ANY OF YOU LET MY MOTHER DIE!

EVERYONE NEEDS TO MAKE SURE THIS TEAM THAT BROUGHT ME BACK TO FLORIDA, THIS MAN WHO USED MICHAEL’S VOICE TO TALK TO ME OVER THE PHONE, THIS FBI MAN AND EVERYONE HE HAS WORKED WITH USING ME OVER THE YEARS – YOU FUCKING IDIOTS NEED TO GO, AND I MEAN NOW!  DO NOT WORK WITH ME AGAIN, SO YOU CAN ALL LIVE A LONG LIFE!  I FUCKING MEAN IT!

Is this an Israeli man who’s used my memories of David, David’s body in my mind, and David’s presence here to show me something?  Then, he is correct.  It is really fucking serious, it is worse than you’ve allowed anyone to understand, and it is very real.  He is a very smart man.

It means, most likely, unless a person has an understanding of what it means, to within a brain, mind, and heart understand what it feels like, what it looks like, and what it means to understand a generational connection like I have to my Russian Jews, my Jewish heritage goes back further than a great grandfather generation, it goes back many generations.  If you cannot understand that, more importantly, if you do not have that within your person, as a belief, as something you hold within you, you cannot understand my Jewish heritage, then.

Don’t Mess with The Zohan, means, you don’t FUCK with the babysitter!

For reference, again, my Babee Bear, my cat, Bear, knew where his property boundaries, border, and lines were when he was let outside.  He never strayed outside his property.  He didn’t patrol our property, that was not in my Bear’s mind, he was just sure not to go beyond.  Now, if another cat entered our property, he was not about to let them on his yard, and he would start a fight with them, that usually had me going outside to get my cat, and I yelled at the other cat just like I would another human being because I believe animals understand me just like people.  So, yes, it has military implications, if an illegal, foreign, or unknown person enters the United States, I WILL FIND YOU.

Most likely, the reason for my anemia, bleeding, and cysts, it says, my mother, I was taking care of my mother, so they were attacking me, wanting me to go to the doctors, so paperwork would be written, and I think I saved people’s lives, by not going sooner.

The reason Carl is an old man in the movie, UP, this is what this man, Southern Methodist University audition told me as a read when he auditioned me, meaning Vietnam.  I was too old, by then, had they waited until I was of legal age to work me.  I was saddened by the read because of this other man, who has made me cry because so many of us have been without love, like my mother, me, my father.  None of us have been in a loving marriage.  My parents should have been allowed to divorce, so they could re-marry people they love and who love them.  The balloon from UP, actually happened an early morning, while I was in a robe in my front yard, a hot-air balloon appeared almost within arm’s reach, it was so close.  It happens to be true.

September 30, 2019: READ: WARNING: I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE!

September 30, 2019

 

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

I will repeat this again, so everyone is able to read, again because this has simply been going on for too many decades, now.  There’s nothing to suggest they changed, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty is not only about Bin Laden, it is about the tactics they used in handling me and my family, my mother, my brother, my father, and myself since I was seventeen years old, went to Germany and helped them bring the Berlin Wall, down.

Did anyone else want the Berlin Wall, up?  Until the end of time, up?  I will reiterate this to make sure, everyone has learned the history lesson with the Berlin Wall, in my mind, if not in yours, democracy MUST prevail.  It must.  Socialism cannot be the way.  It is not the truth, and it only hinders its citizens, meaning whatever country uses socialism as its means to an end, as its regime, as its way, hinders its own citizen’s.  If you fail to understand the complexity of such a problem, even if it is in another country, on the other side of the world, and not understand the impact, effect, and value democracy has to your own country of origin, as well as, to world politics and its implications upon which all our lives depend, and have been built upon, then GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY GODDAMN ROOM!

Is this dialogue also in the books, Lord of The Rings, if you do not find a way, then no one will?  It is very telling and very truthful, of me.

Do you want 2 sit next 2, David, fastest fucking answer, almost before they finished the sentence – NO!  The answer lies within the word two, meaning there were two men, and more; however, the two men were already seated, and I had not yet, seen them, yet, I did.  The answer is no.  No.  No, no, no, get it, NO!

Most likely, this would have wound up being a murder and what would have looked like, suicide.  I said, no, not to a man, to the PLAN.  NO!  These were really serious, dangerous fucking men, and it sharpened my mind, real fucking quick.

The no, was a religious question.

The closest approximation to the plan is what is seen in the movie, Munich as the man after drinking all night, and don’t get this wrong, it is about the size of my person and it was NOT supposed to be, NOT EATING, being found dead on a park bench, in front of – WATER.

Coffee and water, please.  It’s what I ordered with my meal.

Most likely, Stuart had a female proxy attached to him, a female in government, most likely, Israeli, and I loved Stuart, I loved him, loved him, but I did not love him like a boyfriend.  I didn’t want to spend time with him and learn his middle name and want to cuddle with him like I have with the real Hannibal Lecter.  Yet, I really loved him.  So, it’s possible, there are, or were, a lot of people attached to him.  And, he is a man, not a woman.

Before you people showed up, I used to be able to be a person who was able to love people like that.  Why no one has allowed for me to be seen in a relationship with a man I love, YOU HAVE ALL FAILED TO UNDERSTAND THE IMPORTANCE OF WHAT IT MEANS TO, NOT JUST PEOPLE, IT’S FUCKING BIBLICAL, GOD CREATED MAN, AND WOMAN.  IT IS SO VERY OBVIOUS TO SO VERY MANY PEOPLE, I WANTED, AS A SMALL CHILD TO BE MARRIED!  STOP FUCKING UP!

Be careful, you also understand the difference, obviously, I have to be sexually attracted to the man I want to be in a relationship with, and I AM sexually attracted to taller men.  Stop dumbing me, DOWN!

You Don’t Mess with The Zohan, this movie, you people need to ask my real father, I am not sure my brother remembers their names, all I remember is their mother, Ricky Burgin.

Be careful, with this thinking also, radicals, radicalism, is not just A FOREIGN PROBLEM.  It is possible for Americans to radicalize and be a problem to their own country.  Erin at The Container Store, I often had problems with, one of the problems, her notion and speaking about conservative Americans, conservatives in American politics, spouting on about them as if conservatives, and conservatives in politics – were dangerous, and a danger, and must be stopped.

Well, that thinking, is just, un-American.

She was not just trying to win a debate with me, she was wanting to kill the notion of conservative politics, specifically because – I have written this before – we have had in our Plant City home, a local female conservative female politician.

When I was working at the Obama election campaign, in that office, one of the Burgin children, showed up, and we talked.  I don’t remember, specifically if it was in the office, at the Starbucks, or at the shopping complex.  She said she lived in one of the apartments, in the complex the Obama campaign was in, I never believed this to be true.

This guy is the key to Bin Laden, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, no, I am the key, the de-coder, I am the key to decipher.

Another one of the Burgin children, and at least one if not several children were, or are involved in politics, and political offices.  Another one of the children when my mother and I visited their home, I forget her name, told me she had recently returned from, I believe she said, Paris, and went to the Vidal Sassoon school for hair cutting, and she was now married, and he was a most unusual-looking husband, older, not as attractive as her, somewhat clumsy, and odd, in my opinion.

The story was so mis-proportioned, I blocked it from my mind.  Something, and more than one thing was not right, meaning correct.

To me this say, the United States intelligence and its government, was not working me the way, did not see me the way, and did not understand how I was seen around the world.

I need a man who has a physical presence because I have a physical presence.  If you fail to see that I have within myself a physical presence, all on my own, well, I am tired of shouting now.

Be warned: I am not shouting anymore.  I am more than tired of screaming, and shouting, and correcting your mistakes.  I will not be held responsible anymore, for your short comings.  I will not be held responsible for your failing to understand the greatness of my mind and brain.  I will not be held responsible, if you continue to work with people, I TELL YOU NOT TO AND TELL YOU TO REMOVE!

YOU RE-CREATED THE DUMB MISTAKE OF MICHAEL WITH EDISON!  DO THIS AGAIN, AND I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE IF MEN IN OTHER COUNTRIES – KILL PEOPLE BECAUSE OF IT!

STOP BEGGING PEOPLE TO KILL UNITED STATES CITIZENS BECAUSE YOU HAVE FAILED – ME!

I AM BEYOND RAGE AT THE SIZE OF MY BODY, IF YOU’VE LOST INTELLIGENCE BECAUSE OF IT – IT’S YOUR OWN DAMN, STUPID FAULT, NOT MINE!

YOU’VE LOST INTELLIGENCE AND MILITARY WORK AND OPERATIONS BECAUSE YOU ALLOWED STUPID WOMEN – OVER ME!  YOU FUCKING MORONS!

YOU’VE, SO FAR, LOST MORE THAN A MONTH’S TIME.  REMOVE EDISON AT ONCE, NEVER TO RETURN!  I HAVE NEVER WANTED THIS MAN AND I AM REALLY TIRED OF PEOPLE GETTING KILLED BECAUSE OF THIS DUMB, FUCK!  STOP TRYING TO JUSTIFY THIS DUMB FUCK TO THE WORLD!  ADMIT YOUR MISTAKE AND BE DONE WITH IT AND HIM!  FOR THE BETTERMENT OF ALL PEOPLE!  BE DONE WITH HIM!

AGAIN, THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A PROBLEM WHEN I LIVED IN PLANT CITY WITH THE GARBAGE COLLECTION, AND I PLACED – A LOT, OF GARBAGE AT THE CURB.  THE GARBAGE COLLECTION NEVER COMPLAINED, NEVER LEFT NOTICES, AND ALWAYS TOOK AWAY EVERYTHING THAT WAS PLACED THERE.  THE USPS HAS CONTINUED TO BE A PROBLEM, YOU HAVEN’T CHANGED THIS SINCE THE TIME I LIVED IN PLANT CITY.  YOU’VE ALLOWED TO CONTINUE HERE.  I SUGGEST, YOU STOP.

THIS MAN WHO TALKED TO ME ON THE PHONE IN CALIFORNIA, HAS BEEN MAKING ME NOTHING BUT UPSET AND MAD SINCE HE’S BEEN HERE.  I’M TIRED OF BEING NICE.  I WANT HIM GONE NOW!

The very reason someone suggested to my mother to have me, when we lived in Oldsmar, go to military school because they saw great potential in me, I believe, FAILED to realize, I COULD NOT GO because there was a threat to my mother’s life, and I was the only one around that saw and knew it was a problem.

I AM NOT FOLOOWING YOUR NEWS STORIES OR CHANGING MY CLOTHES OR APPEARANCE BECAUSE OF ANYTHING YOU PUT IN THE NEWS!  GROW THE FUCK – UP!  I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE!

YOU HAVE ALL RUINED MY LIFE!  I AM NOT PROTECTING YOUR MISTAKES ANYMORE!  IF MORE FOREIGN COUNTRIES ATTACK AMERICANS BECAUSE YOU FAILED ME!   I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE – ANYMORE!

BUY YOUR OWN DAMN CIGARETTES!  I’M TOO FUCKING FAT TO ALLOW THAT TO CONTINUE!

I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE ANYMORE!

September 29, 2019: READ: WARNING: More Things Wrong

September 29, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING INCLUDES ADULT CONTENT AND LANGUAGE.

 

Obviously, I am having to type as fast as I can to stop all your mistakes from continuing and editing takes time.  That’s why all writers have editors.  Real quick, I believe everyone should know by now, my surgery did not happen in Libya.  The Obama campaign, and, um, let’s see, was his running mate a man or a woman?  Get it?

The Obama campaign made a White House connection to me in October 2012 because they needed more information about why Libya happened.  I am telling you, Libya happened because our house in Plant City was sold, and someone found out I had a hysterectomy, and no one has until I started writing been showing the world, how important I am to them because putting it in the movies, and then any person being able to get real intel about how I really live, is another difference.

Me writing about actually knowing this is all about me, should really help; however, peace, in my mind, how I believe, and think about peace.  Peace, does not happen, cannot be attained, will not be allowed…well, this is a much bigger question to answer, I need to tell you, show you, write that the peace one person is trying to achieve is at the expense of massive weight gain upon my body and person, I do not accept.  That is not peace, that is servitude, it is slavery.  Slavery is not peace.

I do not believe I am, or should accept the condition of indentured servitude, just because I have a brain.  Either stop this from happening, or I will also, not be held responsible for what happens around the world because the United States has failed me, failed to protect me, failed to understand and claim me as their Weapons of Mass Destruction.

I can smell you, from the movie, UP.  Does anyone still believe this is just literal dialogue, or were you trying to get me to de-code for you?  Or, perhaps, you really didn’t know if it was code or not, and wanted to know the real answer.  Remember, I am not giving the step by step instructions on how I get my answers.  I can smell you, code: I see, a father, at my audition for Southern Methodist University.

If you really want to know the real truth for the reason Disney made the movie, Frozen, here it is:  I told the truth on a real phone call while at work, at Disney.  Soon after starting on the floor (it is the terminology they use when an employee, Disney calls them, Cast Member’s, it is their jargon, or verbiage, floor) I received a call asking about staying at one of the resorts.  I went through the whole process of the conversation (about 15, 20, 25 minutes), then the caller, a woman, told me, as it would have been the end of the phone call, I would have made a booking (terminology), that she had a sister who worked for Disney.  I didn’t pro-actively (it is their terminology) offer the employee discount, she mentioned a sister who worked for Disney.  At that time, the department I worked in was not allowed to “book” employee discounts.

This detail is important, I could have made the booking at an employee rate.  I had access to the employee discount, and the system would have allowed me to make the booking.  I could have given her a reservation number, and the amount of the booking would have gone towards my monthly sales goals.  However, it was against the rules and regulations for my department.  So, I offered the correct phone number for employee reservations to her, and offered to transfer her to that department, so she could make the booking.  Really, in my mind, I was just doing my job.

I was not happy at the end of the call because I wanted to be employed, so I needed to make my sales numbers.  But I was not going to make my numbers, at any cost.  By doing something that was against the rules of the company.  I will write that again, I am not willing to go against the rules of the company, at any business I have been employed, all my life.

This, this, is something that has changed in 2014 when I quit working at The Container Store, and was told, I am now on a reality television show.  Now, everyone at every employment, since 2014, has made up the rules as they go along.  One person says it is this way, another person says it is that way, no one, anymore, has a real answer in my employment.  I do not believe, that is wise.

I made the connection myself, that the woman I spoke with over the phone, was the sister of the woman who was employed as a manager higher than my supervisor.  I forget the title.  I don’t like being lied to; I don’t like being tricked.  They did nothing wrong with testing me on the phone.  I would have appreciated it if, you wanted to test me, that the time was then taken out of my “sellable hours”, so to speak.  I had to earn so much money for Disney, in the hours I was clocked in, so I could remain employed.  It was a constant pressure, and a lot of it, I thought was, unnecessary.

Someone, pretty high up, must have thought a lot about me, when I first started making phone calls.  I gave details to one caller, about, architecture, and the love of architecture, and how; for instance, The Crystal Palace in Magic Kingdom, is designed after the Crystal Palace in London.  This is the sort of information I had access to in my head, before 2012.  Now, they’ve worked my head so much, making me be something of a television show, trying to de-organize me, wow, upset at the ruin my life has become.

I wonder now, if this phone call because he sounded important when I spoke to him on the phone, and as always, I am not bothered or swayed in altering my person just because someone else has a higher-paying job, than me.  I wonder if this is why the movie, Zero Dark Thirty has the London bombing in it.  I was just talking to him.  Yet, he seemed impressed that I spoke of The Crystal Palace in London.  I sat at a desk at the end of the room with my back to the windows, the windows had mini blinds that were opened.

I don’t believe Disney had the same photography that Hilton had of the floor.  Another reason Hilton didn’t walk me out of the building.  I was facing the same direction when I received the phone call from the man who had adopted two Russian children.

The Crystal Palace man asked me a question about a crib, in his hotel room.  I told him the rooms were supplied with cribs.  He questioned me about it.  I knew the answer was correct, yet I told him I would make sure of the information because I was really new to the phone calls, mostly I checked the information, for him.  Looks like now, he was buying time.  He needed me to place him on hold, so he could talk to someone.

So, please don’t tell me this is true, it looks like, the reason the movie is titled, Frozen, it still surprises me that people have found this so…unusual, was this female caller who’s sister worked for Disney, calling me from a room with photographs on the wall of known threats, terrorists, most wanted men, in other words, really scary men, photographs with their faces, facing the wall, meaning this woman would not have been able to see their faces, or, probably, have known what was on the paper, or that they were photographs, or anything about the paper.  Is this really true?  Well, no wonder I was upset about NOT getting that booking.

Their photographs don’t bother me, their person, usually, doesn’t bother me, NOT GETTING THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS!  THAT BOTHERS ME!

This song lyric, Let It Go, is code: tell the eye-tech, GO! 

Father, I am not driving at this weight capacity.  I am, making, a stand about, my weight.

This scene in 12 Strong of the wife, who was caught teaching her daughters over the allowable age, and being shot in the head, does anyone really know why this was placed in this movie?  Anyone?  Want to guess?  Or do you want to know the truth?  Whom are you paying attention to when you watch that scene?  The wife?  The children?  The man holding the gun?  The other people holding guns?  The husband?  Who are you watching?

Are you really going there in your shorts from the movie, 13 Hours, strong move.  Well, guess what that is me, in the middle of the night while I was the only person awake, in my house, taking care of my mother, walking outside, either to get one of my cats, or to figure out why there was something going on outside because that did happen, often.  Me walking outside because something, wasn’t right.

You should be paying attention to the husband in the scene of 12 Strong.  Who is this man, do you think?  A non-important villager?  How many non-important villagers are there in an entire country?  One?  Hundreds?  Thousands?

The very reason they have placed this scene in the movie 12 Strong is to show the reaction of the non-important villager husband, not the leaders, just the men in a country, who look and believe Cherith Joelle Gjestland to be their leader.  I am not married in any way to them, neither I, nor any of them would look, or believe it to be in such a way.  So, having me look at a man’s crotch and then place a real man nearby, actually, he was to my left, is so beyond inappropriate, I am at a loss for words.

I can’t explain, its for a good cause, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, most likely, this is more than it appears.  It is more than one code, and it is not just, ice.

I can’t explain, code: because no one has really shown the world, I am not just a woman, and sexual organs to these men.

I can’t explain, code: ice, however, this is misleading, it is, and it isn’t.

It’s for a, code: It’s for, Alpha.  The Alpha.  Their Alpha.  His Alpha.

Good cause, code: Cherith Gjestland.

I would caution you, not to let a great percentage of the men, appear before me, and in your mind-set, as less than I am, meaning, as just some jiggly-sex-bomb, body parts.  You will only make them do more terrible things.

I do not believe they should have attacked and killed the US Ambassador.

I also, believe the United States has not done enough to show the world, they believe me.

Their actions are not justified, nor are the United States.  STOP LETTING THEM WIN!

Give me what I need, from Zero Dark Thirty, what they had been doing, as recently as September 17, 2019 is damaging property of mine, either personal, like my cats, or my family, or property, like my home, or vehicles.  Requiring then, payments, and work orders for repairs, that would then be sent and be seen within intelligence communities, like the CIA.  That would then get work, either intelligent, or militarily, to other countries.

They’ve failed, to provide, the financial means, in about 95 to 98 percent of the damage done to my property, cats, and family.  They have not given me what I would need in order for orders to be received and carried out.  So, either give me what I need, or stop working me in this way.

For instance, they caused damage to the sunroom roof where I found my mother after I saw The Matrix, sitting in her chair, suffering from a stroke.  My father worked repeatedly, probably the reason my father is mentioned so often within the last couple of decades, trying to repair the leaks in the sunroom roof.  He was up there at least once a month.  That’s a lot.  It never got repaired, it still leaked.  They could have continued to damage it, to make us pay a professional handyman or company to repair it.  When never had the money for it.

My mother installed lights on either side of our garage, they had been repaired, at least once, and went out, didn’t work, not long after they were installed.

The fence we had on our property, needed replacing in many places.  Some we repaired, some was redone by a business, and some a neighbor put his own fence.  And, my mother, we, could not afford to fence our entire yard.

The gate needed to be repaired.  It didn’t latch properly.

Our skylights had water damage from leaks in the skylights.  So, is this really true?  From the movie, 13 Hours, did they really lasso a position in real life, or is this about not knowing how important our home, house, and family was, until after the attacks happened?

Do you know what this means?

There could have been law-abiding citizens who actually caused the damage to our home, as a way of asking the United States for help in foreign countries, by way, of my family, and home, yet they FAILED to allow us to provide that information to the correct intelligence communities, and the White House because we did not have the money.

I guess, they have decided to stop working me.

I, on my own, while caring for my mother, decided to re-do the yard, and mostly the front yard, people, more important people than my neighbors, or David, noticed, the work, I did, xeriscaping, zeroscaping.  I placed a boundary, or border on both sides of our property.  I built a retaining wall where the mailbox was, and a version of a retaining wall on the other side, to stop the soil from eroding away from the property, and down the drain in the rain, and severe weather.

Because the garage lights didn’t work, and I couldn’t get or afford anyone to repair and fix the garage lights, I changed the landscaping on either side of the garage.  I took out the bougainvillea, I think my father replanted them in the backyard, put rocks, pebbles, for drainage, on the ground, and put potted, bronzed-colored, resin planters of faux, spiraled boxwood with battery operated LED lights with a timer.

I used rubber mulch near the house where the most water from the roof was received, for the longevity of the product.  My brother put in drip-irrigation, when I had all the plants in place in the new design.  I created site lines with plants that blocked the view from the neighbors being able to see into our home from their own home, on both side of our home.

The railing on our front porch had to have rotted wood replaced.

The mailbox, I replaced with a bronzed colored mailbox and post.  The mailbox was a problem.  The mailpeople would not deliver our mail if there were any vehicles, not only blocking the mailbox, but even if a vehicle was parked, something ridiculous like two car lengths within our mailbox.  I did not see the mailpersons do this to any other house.  Just ours.  Our house was at the end of the cul-de-sac requiring a driver to turn their steering wheel to the left.  I often had to walk outside and greet the mailperson in the driveway because a neighbor’s car was either blocking the mailbox, or too close.  They actually left notices in the mailbox that they would not deliver mail because a car was parked too close.  It’s a little, suspicious.

It tells me the USPS, was a little suspicious.  Meaning whatever agencies were working the USPS, suspicious.  I remember a conversation a person, female, had with me about how difficult it was when she worked at the USPS having to read people’s illegible handwriting of zip codes.  I took her to mean it was too difficult.

Companies that require their drivers to get out of the vehicle and walk the package to the door, seem more credible.

Garbage collection, not a problem.  Mail delivery, a problem.  It could mean there was a lack of male, men, me dating, and no one understood, that was a problem, and how much of a problem it was.

Be advised: Neither I, nor Edison want or wish to be seen or connected in any way.  I have not wanted to be connected to him since April 2014.  Stop pushing Edison on me, he does not want to be here.  Fail me here, at keeping Edison away from me and my life, and I will not be held responsible for anything that happens because of it.

If this is true, if they caught the real Hannibal Lecter when I was rehearsing Right Bed, Wrong Husband, is does spell a lot of code, but don’t follow it as real, it just says, code.  I wore Ked shoes, without shoelaces, that had been so worn they had holes in them, it was the look at the time.  I would not have been talking to Michael about the real Hannibal Lecter, he was in front of me, in a parked car.  Almost an undiscernible movement, gesture, acknowledgement, that is what it looks like.

I would have been attracted to the man in the vehicle.  I was flattered by the attention (Sherlock) Michael gave me, I was prepared to live and go to school in California, before you morons, ruined it.  Selling drugs, on the corner, you idiots.

Does he, regret?  He is not the only one, yet it cannot be undone, can it?

No, the real Hannibal Lecter, I do not believe would have been capable of killing me.  Perhaps more than one person understands what it feels like to imprint on someone.  What sadness you have all brought me.

There is something about, I do not like, and there has been near a month or more now.