November 1, 2019: READ WARNING: Daggers In The Heart

November 1, 2019

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Daggers in the heart.  That is what my life feels like from November 1988 until today.  Like daggers repeatedly thrust into my heart, one on top of the next, on top of the next, over and over, until my body is so top-heavy from the weight of the daggers in my heart, I can barely stand up straight.

Cherith you aren’t making your numbers at work, regardless of the employer – daggers in the heart.

Cherith you aren’t going fast enough – daggers in the heart.

Cherith you haven’t written – enough – you haven’t written every moment of your life since before you were born until every breathing second, write again, write more, YOU HAVEN’T WRITTEN ENOUGH – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, (this actually is true people have done this to me since November 1988) you aren’t pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, attractive enough, financially able enough, good enough, ENOUGH OF ANYTHING – daggers in the heart.

Cherith you gave information that allowed a successful military operation, so we’re going to cut you open, gut you like a pig, and take away your female organs – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, you lost weight, so that your mental image looked almost like your physical image, WE’RE GOING TO TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, you love your mother, so we’re going to kill her – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, doesn’t want to live in Florida, so were going to take away BY ANY MEANS POSSIBLE, her ability to live, ANYWHERE ELSE – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, you love men, so were going to make sure a man never loves you, for real, ALL YOUR LIFE – daggers in the heart.

Cherith you love a certain kind of man, a physical kind of man, we’re going to make sure YOU HAVE TO SETTLE, for something YOU’LL NEVER HAVE WANTEDEVER – just because you want to me be loved by a man and men – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, you don’t ever want to have anything to do with acting, Hollywood, or anything of that sort, ever again, SO, WE’RE GOING TO MAKE SURE THAT IS ALL YOU WILL EVER BE AROUND – AGAIN – daggers in the heart.

Cherith you don’t want to be around women, so that’s all were going to allow you to be around – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, you wanted to get married to a man, have children, so were going to make sure you never have that all your life – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, this is the lesson you’re meant to learn, David never has and never will love you, or he wouldn’t have left, wouldn’t have married another woman, wouldn’t have been in other relationships, David doesn’t love you, and you’re all alone – daggers in the heart.

Cherith, David is going to chase you out of a store while you are shopping for your mother, and then when you go and visit your mother in the nursing home, we are going to replace her with an actress, and you will never see you mother alive again – daggers in the heart.

It’s probably the real reason why the military man wipes up the blood off the floor in the movie, Black Hawk Dawn, it’s a read about how I felt having done any work, for any of you.  Like daggers in my heart, bleeding, and dying, from lack.

I think you are a little premature in let the healing being in the Land, you are still working me, unpaid, as a machine, and not a living, human being with feelings and emotions.

The Turkey news story reads as trouble, meaning, somebody might not live.

Why did I ever give them any information whatsoever, all my life?  All they have given me in return – for any of it, is daggers in my heart.

October 31, 2019: READ: WARNING: NECROPILIA!

October 31, 2019

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The person who spoke the word Pygmalion to me believes you have someone on your team, in the area, involved in the process who is truly interested in necrophilia concerning me and myself.  Meaning they are seeking a way to create sexual contact and intercourse with my dead body.

Arrest them!  Place a restraining order against them!  Find them!

October 31, 2019: READ: WARNING: FBI: Woozy

October 31, 2019

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Do not tell me that, at least one person believes another person purposefully sprayed the air with something, that precipitated the Sheriff’s office being called to my home last week because someone had purposefully tried to make me ill?

Because I was so woozy, I had to lie down?

Where is my restraining order against them?  Arrest them!

October 31, 2019: READ: WARNING: STRONG!

October 31, 2019

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Well, guess what world?  Former President Barak Obama also, has a message for you.  Do you know what he said?  Or can’t you read?!  Well, I guess you can’t.  Since you cannot, I will.

Two minutes, twelve seconds.  Two minutes twelves seconds of my life watching a video of former President Obama – speaking, I want those moments, that time, two minutes and twelve seconds of my life – back!

Do you know what else it says?  Or, were you just paying attention to the – words?!  Yeah, well since you cannot, since you’ve allowed it to appear that none of you can, I will.

The message says, that former President Obama believes Cherith Joelle Gjestland, responds accordingly to each person, regardless of who they are, their position, their nationality, their country of origin, their political affiliation, their sexual-orientation, their marital status, their job or employment, or employer, their income level, their social standing, their sex, or the color of their skin – for who they really are, on the inside.  Not the other way around.

I’ll remind you I voted for Barak Obama in both elections, 2008 and 2012 because I believed he was the strongest person for this country, to be seen as the United States President, for all the world to see him as our United States representative.

And this portion of his speech, I can sum up like this, his response also includes this, I’ll let her write the words for all the world to see and read, and the feeling behind it, looks like this, watch her fly!

How fucking dare, you!

How fucking dare, you defile and desecrate the office of the United States President, The White House, and all the branches and offices of the United States government!

How-fucking-dare-you!

The inference from that if not made to comply with its order, will most likely, be felt in ways, you cannot imagine.

The rest of the message is not contained within the video or speech of former President Obama, and it is in the same vein of dialogue from Frozen of because I love you I insist that you run, just because these former President’s no longer reside in The White House, or oval office, does not mean that they no longer have powers that can still be felt.

Do you really want lesbians, homosexuals, gays and lesbians – to be seen as rapists?  Do you?!  To be seen as raping me?!  Do you?!  Because obviously, I will never consent to a lesbian, gay, or homosexual relationship – ever.  I never have.  Do you really want to be seen as my rapist?!

Then, may God have mercy on your soul.  Because I won’t.

I will not love my rapist!  I will not love a rapist!

There are moronic women out here showing me their legs.  Must I really shave my entire body with a razor because of a conversation at an employer, I no longer work for?  Then, I will be throwing those razors – away.

Perhaps a terrorist will seize the opportunity to fulfill their wish – because you’ve now given them an opportunity to attack more Americans, and I didn’t.

Is all any one of you sees, when you look at me is tits and ass?!  That’s all anyone sees in me?!  Tits and ass?!

Then I will write it again, thinking of leaving Amazon, we can help you resign.  Is just the same as looking at a black person just for their body parts, you’ve been doing the same thing to me.

What happens when a person, stops thinking?!  They die.

That is what is really going on around, here.  They are trying to stop me from – thinking.  That’s death.  You dumb fuck!

That’s Brianna and these lesbians, preventing me from thinking – well, I want them removed permanently never to return.

Fuck you assholes!  I want to think as long as possible because to NOT – think – means to die, and death!  You dumb, stupid, cunt(s)!

HBO, you mother of dragons, your queen of dragons, does not look physically strong in this photo on a news site, she looks weak, like a foreign country’s over-inflated budget.  She looks wobbly.  She looks like your working off an old model, that you have no comprehension of how something actually – worked.

FBI man stop using David as your proxy.  I have never approved of David to do any work.  I approved of him to be my boyfriend, in college.  I don’t approve him, at the moment.  I want to punch you in your fucking face at the moment, FBI man!  Punch you in your fucking face!

This FBI man is not afraid to look like a bad guy, even to his own peers.  Good.  Good for him.  Another, by God damn hotshot, from Always, is about this FBI man, and that is a real man saying that dialogue in the movie, Always.

David does mind looking like the bad guy, especially to me.  You stupid fuck!  Since, I do believe I am smarter than you FBI man, I will tell you – when to shut the fuck up!

This FBI man doesn’t mind appearing like a bad guy to his own peers, his own co-workers, even his superiors – all the way to God, he doesn’t mind.  Do you know why?  He is willing to catch, apprehend, convict, and remove, every single person who knowingly commits crimes, breaks the rules, doesn’t follow procedures, and breaks the fucking law.  He will send all of you to jail.

There is nothing wrong with that.

Here’s the thing, I have never approved of this FBI man, to work with me, let alone, date me.

Never.

No one has yet to ask me, if I want to work with this FBI man.  At the moment, he does not have my approval.  Shall I list all the reasons, why?

His grand entrance into my life, was by way of Lance after Michael.  Lance?  There was nothing wrong with that thinking, he was age-appropriate, mannerly, clean, with some personality, good-enough-looking, we would have made a nice looking couple, except of course, if I was completely unaware of the dangers all around me, the dangers and the men that follow me, that will never leave me, if I was COMPLETELY – STUPID – AND DIDN’T HAVE A GODDAMN FUCKING CLUE, WHO THE FUCK I WAS, well then I would have dated Lance, wouldn’t I?!

So, yeah, you dumb fuck, I really don’t like how you see me.

Let me explain so everyone understands why I want to punch his fucking face!  I need to be with a man, I need to be involved in a relationship with a man, that will be able to protect me – in a bar fight.

Capice?!

Everyone should be figuring out that’s the reason, I gave my boyfriend, his name.  In a bar fight, my boyfriend could protect me.

Lance wouldn’t have been able to protect me, I would be left having to take care of him, after something bad happened to us because these assholes will still – come.

Did he really place Stuart in my life, for me to figure out, or for him?!  Because Stuart would have been another man, I would have had to take care of instead of being protected.

If this FBI man, and he does not read to me as sexually interested in me now or at any early time.  He would have done it himself, if he was sexually interested in me.  Unless, you people really are that stupid, and could not see, Michael was a failure.

Let me write that again, using a man to talk through another man, has and always will be – a failure.  As a way and means to gather intel from me.  It will always be a failure.

If this FBI man was really interested in me, then he was managed – incorrectly.

Yeah, when I saw this FBI man on the side of the road, he read as – SEX!  Like, oh yeah, I want some of his sex, I’ll have his sex.  However, what he was trying to show me was that he was using David to talk to me, in college.  And, he really couldn’t have done that himself?!  In person?!  If only as a friend?  An acquaintance?!

Um, why?!

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU PEOPLE AFRAID OF?!

ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?!

I MEAN, FOR-FUCKING-REAL?!  NONE OF YOU THOUGHT IT WOULD – OH-MY-JESUS-FUCKING-CHRIST -MAKE YOUR FUCKING INTELLIGENCE COMMUNITY LOOK, STRONGER?!  JUST TO HAVE AN ASSOCIATION WITH ME, FOR-FUCKING-REAL?!

YOU LOOK SCARED AND AFRAID!

If this FBI man was in any way sexually, romantically interested in me, well, guess what?!  I don’t need to be saved.

Let me explain, he has a savior-complex, and that’s a good thing, that is what a person who works in the FBI, should have.  Let me write the scene as it appears to look in someone else’s head.

Scene:

Me, Cherith, dressed as a damsel in distress, from the Old West, bound and tied to a railroad track, screaming, in a damsel-y, high-pitched voice, Save me!  Help me!  S-s-s-s-s-a-a-a-a-v-e-m-e!  Then, this FBI man dressed in his wild west outfit, spurs, handguns, leather vest, and a deputy’s star on his chest, scooping me up in his arms, just before the train was about to – run me over.

Then, as this FBI man has me in his arms, we look into each other’s eyes, and I swoon with these words, my hero!

With his back to the camera, my face to the camera, staring at him, swooning, lovey-eyed, the camera shot closes in on the two of us, only, as he walks me into the – sunset.

Do you know how this reads, to me?!  This sort of scene as it pertains to me.  Dysfunctional.  To me, for me, about me, a man who wants to look and be that to and for me – dysfunctional.

I don’t need to be saved.  I need to be protected.  I need to know that if my man and I go into a bar, I won’t be having to take care of him because another man, beat the shit out of him.  Got it?!

And, David’s feelings have been hurt by this FBI man because he doesn’t understand a lot of the reasons why this FBI man has used him.

I really do know how to work, without hurting the ones I love.

If this is new information to this FBI man, well, let him think.  Work it out in his own mind.

But, let’s be real clear real fucking quick because this has not been a good thing for me, my mother, and for every intelligence – opportunity.  It is seen in too many movies, like War Horse, Point Break, Cars, none of you have been using my mind.  Just my body.

That is actually extraordinarily wrong, dangerous, manipulative, deceitful, and shameful.

You have me seen not just within intelligence communities, but any one of any smarts that could put things together, you have me seen – as dead.  Because you aren’t using my mind.

She just loves me for my body, in the movie Cars, is meant to be funny about Michael and me, and it is not truthful.  Yeah, I love straight sex with a real man, but I felt like I had to have sex with him.  Or, people would have died.  Please don’t get it confused.

Doc Hudson is this German man, it is why my mother loved this movie, Cars is not my favorite Disney movie.  Do you want to know why?  I am every piece of equipment in the movie.  The cars, every vehicle, except, I do not have a voice – in anyone.  Not one of the character’s, is me.  Not one.

That’s why Doc is in the movie.  Because my German man, did not make a mistake, in attempting to forever keep me from, not only not having sex with Michael, but to be in a relationship with him, in any way.

He did not make a mistake.  Michael was a failure.  He destroyed a piece of equipment he was neither cleared for or understood in any way.  He destroyed my brain, for decades.

That’s why I am the vehicles, mindlessly, going about the film.  That’s a dead Cherith.  Just like the bloated stomach on Cherith, putting it in my nose, that’s death.  It stops me from thinking.  To no longer think, is to – die.

No, I won’t work with any man, who does not allow me – to think for myself.

No, I will never approve – any woman.

My dead mother is the reason why.

October 30, 2019: READ: WARNING: Buffy The Vampire Slayer

October 30, 2019

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Buffy the vampire slayer?  Buffy the vampire slayer?!

Who is this man?

Is this or is this not a man that you don’t find, he finds you, and that’s even from his own government?  And, he came out of hiding?!

It is a little curious why he came out of hiding after all this time.  Does anyone really know what he really wants?

Yeah, he’s probably, a little scary.

Old Ben, that’s a fraction of an ancient or dead.  That’s what I would have written before, and then everyone would have gotten it wrong, and messed it up trying to figure out the code Cherith gave in response.

Let me explain, I was given, for me to figure out, a very old code.  Old code that looks like trench coats, briefcases, fedora-style hats that repel water, and rimmed glasses to disguise facial features.

It’s code that’s made to appear from the 1950’s, to me that doesn’t seem that long ago, or old, since that’s my parent’s generation.  If a person didn’t look well enough, that would be that.  However, the truth is, it is closer to World War I, or more specifically, closer to 1910.  Definitely, after the turn of the century.

You fell below is code for Buffy The Vampire Slayer, or Buffy the vampire slayer, both are correct.  Now, everyone should be asking, why Buffy the Vampire Slayer, or Buffy the vampire slayer?

Here’s what it says, so you can stop guessing:

  • Vampire Slayer says Victoria’s Secret. If you want to know more about why he chose Victoria’s Secret, you’ll have to ask him.  It is not in the code, and he has kept it from those who gave me the message, on purpose.  As if to say, he is un-readable as he believes I am un-readable, and that is not meant for me to be impressed by.  So, that would say, in and of itself, he would already have more respect for me, than any, what are they agents?  You’ve had speak with him.
  • You fell is not a fuck you.
  • Buffy is code in numbers as a fraction 35 over 25.
  • Buffy the vampire slayer is also, a recipe. Not a recipe for something as simple as boiling water, it is a recipe for something like chicken noodle soup, or a fried egg and marmite sandwich.  Something with few ingredients and is common or every day for most people to eat.
  • Buffy also translates in a dead or ancient language, and that is all it says. It does not give the translation; it just says it translates into a dead or ancient language.
  • Fell means something and it is meant to be a little tricky or difficult to figure out, and that just tells me, it’s really meaningless. It’s meant to appear to reference the movie, Skyfall, but it really doesn’t.  If that is true, then that’s conceited, cunning, arrogant, conniving, malicious, ruthless, lack of emotions like non-feeling.
  • Buffy says serial killer.
  • Buffy as in reference to this man and this message is more than one serial killer. At least one has never been caught or solved.  Do you want to know the answers?  Or do you want to keep guessing?  And leave it unsolved?  I can do it, if you can’t.
  • Buffy says author.
  • Buffy says salesmen.
  • Buffy says dialect. Dialect?
  • Buffy says the reason, the real reason there is a message in the bottle in the movie, The Rescuers, and Morningside Orphanage from Penny.
  • There is one, most likely, intelligence man that has died, meaning this man who gave me this message, was thinking or remembering a man who’s died, and that is in the message.
  • There is a childhood nickname that is not specific, a nickname a child gives one of their possessions like a favorite stuffed animal, or some other personal item.
  • These two things are very difficult, and difficult to see, translate, read, and understand, probably just says he wanted to know if this was possible. I see caveman drawings, nonspecific to any particular location, or time, and water lapping on a shore of mostly, large and very large boulder sized rocks.  Not a sandy shore.
  • This one is quite unusual. It had a time delay on it, the message had a time delay, like a Christmas present with a gift tag and an inscription to whom the present is for, and from whom, and the instructions, Do not open until Christmas.  I capitalized the Do not open until Christmas, on purpose, although it is not proper grammar to capitalize the Do in that sentence, it is how it would look on the gift tag. That’s showing off a little.  The time-delay, the do not open until Christmas, that’s him showing off.

Did they actually send this time delayed message by way of a sort of long-distance phone call?  From one man’s mind to me, from across the seas and oceans, and foreign lands, from one thought into my mind?  If so, it is not to test the Bin Laden theory of how they got the information, again.

You should all be wondering and wanting to know why?

The time delay is a warning, and it says, you don’t know.  Meaning you people really have no idea, what this multi-layered, multi-person threat is for or about.  You don’t know why it is a threat, where its coming from, or anything other than it says threat.

He does read as danger, danger all around him, and nothing more.  Danger doesn’t always mean, danger.  A gun is dangerous, yet they are still used.

This man, he says by way of this message, he didn’t believe I was a real person.  He thought I was a myth or a legend, a fabrication, something someone just made up.

FBI stop sending it up my nose for me to analyze for you.  I’ve already given you the information to build a case against this and these persons, it doesn’t have enough nutritional content or value in it.  It is like a person living off of refried beans and Wonder bread.

Let me explain, the food industry is never going to change.  The way we humans consume food is never going to be the way of Soylent Green, meaning eating nutrients in a capsule, or some other version of non-living, or not live food.

Do you want to know why?

It’s how God designed and created our bodies.  Our organs actually need real food, the textures of real food are just as important as nutritional value.  Liquids, and solid food, and how it is absorbed, digested, then turning into energy our bodies need, will not be changed.

Also, the need to chew, chew our food actually serves a function and purpose – to our brains.  It will not change.  So, relax food industry, people will always need groceries, restaurants, and cafes.

People have realized this, it is why there is organza in Elsa’s ice castle dress, sewing was my mother’s thinking place.  When she set about to sewing either drapes, and she really did make dark green velvet drapes for our home in Plant City, just like the dress in The Shadow, just for Christmas.  Probably the real reason for the model in Germany to walk around in the cold without a coat, my mother made faux-fur coats for me.

Sewing was where my mother went in her head to think.

Sad and gruesome, I took a photo of my mother sewing at our dining room table in Plant City, Florida, her cat Sundae sitting silent on the table with my mother, and there were bottles of jam or jelly on the table, why they would then give her cat Sundae, cancer, is really gruesome.  It happened while I was at Disney, and why no one prevented it, is beyond me.

It’s subversive work from within.

Worse, I’ll repeat again, it would have been happening to more than just my family.

Be glad, I’m Elsa, and everyone knows it now.  People can’t hide behind their own lies, anymore.

Is this real, in the movie The Peacemaker, is the sewing machine real, purposefully placed in the movie, it would be meant for me.  To know.

My mother and I did go to a sort of Russian exhibit of artifacts or something by the St. Petersburg pier In St, Petersburg, Florida, there was some Amber pieces, mostly I remember, the lighting, from the lights, and that just says, photographs, meaning I and we were being photographed.

Judge, you really didn’t put brain matter from one of the real Hannibal Lecter’s crimes, on the wall, did you?  Brain matter?  A little grotesque.  Brain matter, and locations?!

You should already know why the judges approach worked better, than the FBI man’s.  Hannibal Lecter isn’t really a criminal, or a real criminal – mind.

It’s something in the brain research, a typical law enforcement approach to a criminal is to yell at them to get them to confess, and so on.  It’s a scientific fact it is what a criminal mind needs to confess and admit their crimes, it actually makes their minds better – to confess.

If you take a person who has committed crimes that has; therefore, been brain researched, it will only make it – worse.  In their head, in their mind, in their brain.  Meaning, more criminal.  It’s like reinforcing a way for their brain – to learn.  You’ll actually be reinforcing a mind and brain to – learn more criminal ways and activities.

The proof is the real Hannibal Lecter being able to get so close to me, he gave me PID.

Let me explain, Hannibal Lecter giving me PID does suggest he was claiming, my sexual organ, my vagina as his own, as his personal possession, not property, possession, it does suggest that, and it – does not.  Do you know why it does not?  He didn’t stay around after he had given me PID.  He didn’t flee the scene, he chose not to be seen by me, afterwards.

What it says about him, is, he was saying, I would treat her better than you, I would take care of her, I would love her, I would not let harm come to her (yes, even though he gave me PID, he would not let harm come to me), and he believed, at the time, he could make me happy.  This is in his mind.

If you people have let all these years and decades of my life go unfulfilled because I’ve not been loved, had a boyfriend, gotten married, and had children, you look scared of the real Hannibal Lecter.  And, you’ve hurt him and me, and now the rest of the world because I can no longer have children.

It’s not a very smart move.

Please stop teaching brain researched persons that have committed crimes – HOW TO BE BETTER CRIMINALS!

Okay?!

Working their heart and not their head, works best.  And, that could look like love.  Not all love is romantic.

Once you find that place that gives their mind, relief, that’s the way to reach them, understand them, cure them, find them, release the criminal aspect of un-comprehension, that is what real law enforcement should be doing.

I believe this has gotten confused, out of hand, and misinterpreted, this FBI man really does think my breasts can do real work.  How this got turned into my female breasts against another female’s breasts, or breast on breast, is not from this FBI man’s mind.

It suggests, especially at my employment at Disney, people working on their – own, or own initiatives.  Rather than from intelligence directives, and then because it was being worked as sort of – secret, that gave them a way, to get away, with their own agendas.

For instance, in 2006 after having admitted my mother to the hospital, I mean after having to call for an ambulance, and holy shit, is that why he used the name Lance, after, ambulance because it is also what this lawyer involved in my mother’s car accident was excused of, by way of himself, being an ambulance-chaser, and that just set off an alarm in my mind because he was seen by me in the building at Disney, they would have been attacking my mother with strokes, as death and death threats not just for the FBI, for this FBI man, and it is probably the reason in Zero Dark Thirty, I am the agency, CIA’s agency expert.

The name Lance suggests this FBI was given this assignment of me, and told it was of importance such as an emergency.  Because of what happened in California after I left.

Those threats again, are from within, from within their own people.  Get it?!

What happens to persons who work in a field like the FBI and the persons cause death threats against their own people?!

I will write it again, while I was sitting in a chair next to my mother’s hospital bed after her 2006 stroke, some time afterward another person, female was admitted into the other curtained off area of the room, and this person – to me – did not appear, to me, to be, in need of medical assistance.

I believed them to be acting or placed there just to listen to me and my mother.  The tell is the female, daughter of the mother who “visited” the supposed mother suffering from an illness, who tried to brain speak to me while talking with the person in the bed.

Here is what she tried to tell me: just go home Cherith, and go about your life, your mother is gone from you now.  Move on.  Just that cut and dry.  Matter of fact.

And, that is something, I simply, could not do.

Let me also explain something else, so it doesn’t get confused.  The reason I was given the employment at Dillard’s in the Hosiery department, was on purpose.  It is in the layout of the store.  The Men’s department, men’s clothing, was on the same floor as the Hosiery.  Women’s clothing was upstairs with the bedding.  They placed me on the same floor as the men – on purpose.

It goes together with this information no one has really understood why.  While I was working at the Tex-Mex restaurant as a hostess, a thinner, smaller framed woman who worked with me as a hostess, made a comment about another hostess who was fatter, or bigger than myself.  The comment of, this thin woman could not get her calves to have any muscle definition like the heavier or fatter hostess regardless of how much exercise she did.

My response?  I ignored her.  Do you know why?  To begin with, she had no idea why she was asked by another person to make a comment on another woman’s body.  And, this woman who made a comment, had no understanding of a military mind.  She didn’t need to know – anything.

So, I ignored her, and her comment.  It’s was none of her concern.  She did not have the clearance for any information whatsoever, so I ignored her.

What it tells me, is there was a top military man, probably a General, having drinks in the bar area, being asked to comment, or make a comment about me.

This is more of a sort of idea than code, or something to be interpreted.  His response?  Between all the women at the podium and hostess stand?  No, I’ll take the girl with the great gams.  I’ll take Cherith.

In his mind it is more of, she has the body you just pick up and grab, and hold onto, with both hands, squeeze, and grab, and hold.  That was in his mind.  You’ll either understand that, or you won’t.

This goes together with the woman who ordered hosiery from me (because men don’t wear hosiery) and lived in Alaska.  It would have been a connection to this military man, and the dumb-dumbs who tried to get me to disbelieve in myself, by going – upstairs with a pair of sunglasses.

Wow, what a lot of nonsense for nothing.  All because someone, didn’t understand a military man, and his connection to me and my brain.

One of the reasons Anna is ice cold in the movie, Frozen, goes together with my real mother, specifically, at the Bed and Breakfast in Prien, Germany, and my mother having the heater in the room at like 80 degrees Fahrenheit.

We came back to our room after a day in the town and the room heater was turned off and the window was open.  I was fine.  My mother needed the window closed and the heater turned on.  Her bones ached.  Hurt.  From the cold.  I was fine.  I could have slept with the window open; I was fine.  No big deal.

Open up the gates (Frozen), references more than one thing.  It does reference Germany, when my mother and I went back to the “hotel” where she left her passport.  It references how I looked at this woman who handed my mother her passport, there would have been a man on the stairs, waiting, listening, and then, turning.  He turned because of a girl, a teen-ager, me, and just my look, or expression.  It’s a beginning of the un-doing, of the Berlin wall.

Open up the gates (Frozen), really is for this other FBI man because I will never think like a Plant City-ian, or Floridian.  It’s just not who I am.  It’s why I am in so many international movies.

Let me also explain something else about the bathrooms at my former employment because I am correct, I am right, I was doing the law-abiding and correct thing at my former employment – by way of one restroom, only.

If you follow this, if you follow the dialogue in Game of Thrones as a Lannister always repays their debt, that debt being code for, criminals must repay their debt to society, and one restroom was seen as sports and Game of Thrones, and that was not the restroom that was considered where the prisoners, prison, and those convicted of crimes – used a restroom, you were, and all wrong.

Since I had driven in the police lane, I am not the criminal.  I am the arresting officers that brings those criminals – in.

What they were trying to do was excuse, pardon, and allow criminals to never repay their debt to society by never placing them in – jail.  By way of a bathroom break.  You people are sick.

Live streamed death news story is completely erroneous.

The Spanish profiles news stories, does suggest, there was and is a plot to force me to submit by way of circumstances into a non-straight sexual – compliance.

Yes, that is a real death threat against the real actress who played the role of Sansa Stark.  I didn’t do that!

Back to not eating – again.

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The news story about facing torture reads as true and real.  So, what’s this about?  I have no idea why you morons think it is in any way important or useful to place criminals after they have committed crimes against me – in front of me.

Reading someone after they’ve committed the felony or whatever crime, is not the time to read them.

The photo also looks edited because the body size does not match his head.

This Russian man has his own way of talking to me.  This Englishman has his own way of talking to me.  This other FBI man has his own way of talking to me, and so on.  Stop copying each other or attempting to copy one another.  Why are you all not working, smarter?!  Jesus Christ!  Are you people intelligence or do you work for Xerox?!

Miracle on ice news story is not true.

Beauty queen news story reads as true.

Why anyone used John Moyle as this Russian man while I was in college, I have no idea.  Why they would use proxies, I have no idea.  I do not think this Russian man sees me as a sexual or romantic relationship.  It is what they did in college.

I think it was a History class, it was a male teacher and he did place his leg and foot on top of the row of desks in the front row while teaching or speaking, making his crotch eye level, or pretty much in their face, with those sitting in the front row, as is seen in the movie, Crazy, Stupid, Love, and John Moyle was in my class also.

I mean, who does that?!

David in college made it so known to me that he was not interested in me, I moved on to John Moyle.  John Moyle wanted nothing to do with me either.

Yeah, Cherith’s love life is so much fun!

I said good-bye to you, David.  Summer of 2001, before September 11th, I said, good-bye to you.  I believed I was never going to see you, talk to you, or be friends with you ever again, and I haven’t.  Not really.  Want to know why?  I am not just a brain palace thinker, I am also, a future thinker.

Is Brianna to blame and responsible for my hysterectomy?  Is Courtney responsible and to blame for murdering my mother?  It makes it appear someone has been setting David up, manipulating people and the women around him.

I’ve had to protect myself from David because of the women he’s allowed in his life.

No, I don’t want to have anything to do with a man, like that.

It’s really gruesome.  How does this get allowed to happen?

And, no I did not Facebook friend request John Moyle in 2010 or 2011 because it read as a warning to not get involved with him at the time.

It’s all in the grind Sizemore from Black Hawk Down says, Organ Grinder in Portland, Oregon.  Organ Grinder was a pizza restaurant with a really big organ like you would see in a Catholic church.  Organ Grinder says, musical instrument, musical instrument says, this Russian man.  It’s just a detail.  As if to say, you people still didn’t know who Cherith really was when she started working at Dillard’s.

It goes together with the dialogue in The Shadow, bet you wish you’d been nicer to me, huh?  That’s really classified, top-level men with knowledge about Cherith’s real work warning and telling people, in advance – Cherith is not someone you mess with.

The only read of John Moyle as a proxy says, this Russian man is interesting to – Cherith.  He’s a thinker.  Nothing more.

This Russian man lost weight after being brought over or coming to America.  Detail.

This Russian man didn’t meet with Michael for real, and get him arrested, again, on purpose, did he?  Michael is lucky to be alive.  If he got Michael arrested, it was to send a message to people.  Most likely, this Russian man wanted to beat Michael up for abusing me in our relationship.  It probably was how they got Michael and me to break up, have him move out.

The word marshmallow man, in Frozen references the movie Ghostbusters.

Grab my butt, in Frozen reads as, grub.  Meaning eating out.  At a restaurant.

You should be worried about your hair in Frozen, and Anna’s gray hair says someone was concerned that Cherith started having gray hairs when she was 25 or 26.  I told people I started having gray hairs when I was 26 in college.

The, my family scene in Frozen with the dialogue of – heavy.  Do you know what this really says?  Heavy?  That’s not fat or weight on a body.  Heavy means, how much does an Army or military tank weigh?  Those rocks are military equipment, like, tanks.

Your life is in danger, from Frozen says, my mother’s life was in danger since – Germany.  Why did no one pay attention to that until – after she died?!

I’ll write it again; do you know what I was doing when I was taking care of my mother?  I was not answering the phones.  Get it?  I was not helping intelligence.  That’s what a lot of the frozen, pointy ice spikes say in Frozen as a way of storytelling, you weren’t getting intelligence, people, and targets to kill from Cherith because you weren’t protecting her mother.

Why they used this detail on Elsa’s brain palace ice castle dress of, organza, it’s probably for this other FBI man to learn and know, since my mother made my vanity table cover, she sewed it, and she used an organza material.  I used to have a collection of perfume bottles, on my vanity table in my bedroom in Plant City.

Perfume doesn’t keep.  It spoils and goes bad, after so much time.  I think it is just a detail, so don’t read too much into it.

It appears the reason they used a staircase to Elsa’s ice castle says, Alpine slide near Mount Hood in Oregon.  I used to go in the summer and I really liked going fast, and I did use the hand brake, some, when going down the mountain.  It’s just a detail.

The castle in Frozen off the shore, in the middle of the water, is someone else’s idea.  Storytelling.

Oh Anna, if only there was someone who loved you, in Frozen says, after I did not allow my mother and myself to move in with my brother in Alabama says, they found out afterwards, there was a problem – at the University.

The end scene in Frozen when Elsa makes the weather – stop.  Be real careful.  This, that scene, is being in the eye of a storm.  Being in an eye of a hurricane, for instance, is dangerous, it appears calm, yet that is where the real danger is, as there is not much time before the storm and weather will start again.

Really, it’s just storytelling.

However, the frozen Anna, is my real mother, dying, from yet, another, stroke.  It’s really difficult watching my mother in films die over and over again.  Elsa and Anna hug because that’s me in the hospital, at her bed side, praying for her, and willing her well.

Elsa weeping on the ice, is me, in yet, another hospital stay, weeping for my mother.

Don’t confuse these two things, love in Frozen as a way to bring back summer, is not love.  Love means, there are too many secrets.  Obviously, storytelling events after they’ve happened, has not been thwarting, or saving people’s lives.

Hollywood has lived and thrived long before me.  It does not need me, to be successful.

The end scene in Frozen with the ice-skating says, Christmas in July.

The movie, The Peacemaker says, these employments go together, Dillard’s, Hilton, and Disney.  The President in the movie, is this bankruptcy judge from 2017.  The President in military uniform as I am giving a briefing about the train wreck says, holy shit?!  Cherith did this kind of work – when?!

Meaning, it wasn’t until after I started my employment at Hilton that men got information about who I really was.

The train scene explosion briefing shows how me going on “vacation” to California in 1989, was a cover story – that was supposed to succeed.

The name Garnett says, garnet, it goes together with Secret of Nymph as a birth month.

This is important to me, I always used to interrupt people when they were speaking before.  Just like Tom’s character.  This interrupting has been “taught” out of me, by way of Dana Jones without her really knowing why, while my mother lay in a nursing home bed before I took her home with me to care for her in 2006.

I would want to know why they did this – at that time.  I would want to question them.  To me it says their military work is not that good.  Their timing was – off.

The fact that the bankruptcy judge is in the movie, The Peacemaker, is significant to me.

We’ve met at last year’s Christmas party is this, an older man I always liked at Hilton, who was always with a younger man, literally picked me up in the hallway at Hilton, as though he was so excited to see me, he picked me up.  I was immediately flattered and embarrassed.  I was too heavy, too overweight, is he okay to pick me up being as overweight as I was?!

It really says, these two men couldn’t believe I was not just an ordinary girl.  As if to say, how extraordinary?!  She is extraordinary!

Now because of one product because of one yogurt, Fage yogurt, I am back to fasting again.  I am back on a diet, again.

I am not eating, again.

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October 28, 2019

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The truck lorry deaths news story suggests that there was and is a plot to blame this, most likely very strong-minded Chinese man, because you dumb fucks have no appreciation, respect, knowledge, or have any comprehension of the value it is for Cherith to be around strong.  Strong men.

The fashions used in The Shadows says someone sees me as glamorously dressed and looking well in such fashions.

Up close news story shows this Russian man also believes Courtney is a lunatic.  Clearly not in reality, not able to manage sophisticated or complex thinking.

If this Russian man wants to know, I believe David has been mismanaged, also.  It goes along with the dialogue in Frozen, I can’t.  Read on.

This Russian man is really smart.  He is really talentedly, smart.  The Talented Mr. Ripley could have a lot of him in it.  I’d have to re-watch it.  He is not just smart, or intelligent, he is talentedly smart, that’s really different.

Remember, this Russian man was on a path, he was headed to death.  Before they brought him to me, he was going to die soon.  I did, save his life.  He’s had a much better life because of me.

It is also not my fault I like Russians.  Not my fault I feel Russians like family.  I do not believe there is anything wrong with that.

If Casey is responsible for filming or watching as Edison and I were in this house, it is more than disturbing.  It’s close to conspiracy to rape.  Multiple occasions I had told her, no.  Her behavior was more than inappropriate.

It’s psychologically, disturbing, on her behalf.  She does not appear in any way to be conducting herself as a professional, or merely as a person doing a job.  She got involved, where she knew, she had no right to get involved.  I see her.  She allowed herself a delusional of actually getting sexually involved with me.  It’s disturbing.  That is neither FBI, CIA, nor police work.  It’s subversion.

It goes together with my Eric proxy, and not wanting to help, she was ruining his work just because he was working with me.  That’s not healthy.  That’s not mentally or emotionally healthy.

In the movie, The Matrix that is Michael as Keanu Reeve’s character getting the FedEx envelope and the phone of Morpheus telling him how to escape the building, and all it says is that Michael didn’t really have choice in our relationship.  It looks truthful.  So, stop using him.

It’s not really very complicated if they placed mother Russia and my real mother together.  My real mother was really helping the United States government in California, not the other way around.  It doesn’t really take a genius to figure that out, unless, you really don’t know how to read people.

K does suggest that they tried to get to this Russian man through Michael.  And, he really would have no idea whatsoever.  His brain just doesn’t work like that.

The dead face I saw yesterday looks like it goes together with the good kill in 12 Strong, and that looks like this Russian gave information about a real KGB agent.  I see nothing wrong with that.

Frozen is really more complicated than an animated movie, don’t be fooled by its appearance and its Disney affiliation.  You should be asking questions.  The movie is full of questions.  Like why are the parents completely dressed in the middle of the night when Anna has an accident causing her hair to streak?

Why are they completely dressed?

It really just looks like me caring for my mother all day, all night, all day, all night, for decades.

Do the magic, from Frozen reads, DOM, DOM reads, Secret of Nymph, Secret of Nymph in reference to Frozen is not Son.  DOM reads, rats that can – read.  Do the magic, is just about reading people.  It’s really not scary or dangerous.  Reading people is really not scary or dangerous.  Don’t get it the other way around.

The danger, for instance, is Cherith knowing they were not prepared for Cherith here in Florida, and going to high school, here in Florida, read as danger, a danger sign to me.  It’s why I have a GED instead of a high school diploma.

The shipwreck of the parents in Frozen, references my maternal grandfather’s death.  It just says his death was suspicious, obviously.  It happened on a Christmas Eve’s eve, someone, probably criminal, used my grandfather to send a message.  I am really unhappy about people sending messages this way.  It is happening to more than just – my family.

Another question, Anna’s hair in the snoring scene as they wake her up.  Did anyone notice the mistake?  Her hair is all choppy, short in a lot of places, that is not how her hair is in other places of the movie.  It’s meant for people to question.

Why am I being woken up in the middle of the night with people’s names?

Anna is also, the younger version of myself.  It reads, really intelligent men read me as being able to notice little things out of place, really quickly.  No big deal.

The hall with the paintings on the wall scene (Frozen), looks an awful lot like the Ringling Museum in Sarasota, Florida, where I was photographed, on purpose, for me to notice, on a walkway, a walkway from one side of the building to another, similar to a bridge (detail).

Prince Hans, this is really not good, is seen as this 1989 California man sending me back to Florida.  Do not tell me, you morons then used him at my employment at Disney at any time from 2003 to 2009.  Because I am Elsa, he does not have my approval.  He is not smart enough.  He is not a future thinker.

Prince Hans and Kristoff are the same person, and the reason Kristoff is in the Fixer Upper scene, is to show not just this 1989 California man, but also the world, this man had no idea the talent and skills I had in 1989.

Has he had to do prison time for his wrong management of me?

It is better to do prison or jail time.  At least you are still alive.

Let’s all move on from continually blaming this man for the years from 1989 to 2019.  It serves no purpose to continually blame him anymore.  He still, does not have my approval.  My German man was correct.

Obviously, I was not some dim girl who was head over heels in love with Michael.  He should have been asking questions because it is in his training to have done so, questions like why is he getting to work with Cherith to begin with?

His ego got in my way.  Sure, I’d, at the time in 1989, would have liked to have talked with him on the phone.  Military planning, strategy – that’s the fun stuff.  He couldn’t see that.  Therefore, I’ve had no other option other than to disqualify him from any involvement with me.  He’s not smart enough.  And, he’s seen in too many movies that way, as well.

Remove the memories, but leave the fun stuff, this is not really true, or truthful.  Mostly its storytelling.

Prince Hans and Kristoff really references to, The Power Of One.  Meaning, if a person is not able to understand other cultures, specifically without ever having been in the country, then you cannot do the job.  Your brain is not smart enough to work with Cherith.  PK.  Preacher’s kid.

My real father has a real connection to a lot of South African blacks.  So what?  Some people see only the color of their skin, and my father saw – people.  Sees – people.

Let’s start this thing over, Hi, I’m Olaf.  That’s someone, at least one person, who believes I should still be working.  Because I am Olaf.

Yeah, why.

Yeah, why.

Yeah, why.

Yeah, that a pretty close portrayal of my real person while working at Disney.  No ego.  What’s wrong in that dialogue exchange?  She’s asking the wrong questions.

Make one wrong move and everyone will know, this Elsa, is not me.  Don’t get it confused.  It goes together with the dialogue of, I can’t.  I can’t?  I can’t, is not about Cherith.  It was proven when I resigned from Disney and Washington, DC, freaked-the-fuck-out!

Let’s all just take a step back.  I can’t.  I can’t from Frozen, take it in this context, with the way Tom Hanks delivers the line of dialogue from Angels & Demons, tells me were not meant to.

I can’t.  If you can’t work with Cherith.  If Cherith doesn’t approve you, then you’re not meant to.  Be glad of it.  You will then live – another day.

I’ll repeat that again.  If you can’t.  You’ll live – another day.

Stop turning this into something it really shouldn’t be.  Like gay rights, or women’s equality.

If you can’t.  Then, you’ll live – another day.

I am a real person, a real brain, I am not a computer program that is – user friendly.  Be glad of it.

Then leave, this scene from Frozen, that’s Cherith leaving, quitting, resigning from Disney.

All the shutting people out in Frozen says there were, probably a lot, of my mother’s friends, who had no idea who I was and am, and did not understand why I would, create a border or boundary around my mother – from their, sometimes, friendships.

Let me write that again.  Her friends were being used against my mother.  Often times causing my mother’s heart to go into arrythmia from the stress.

People are meant to understand it in that way.  I was protecting my mother.  Not because they shouldn’t have been friends with her because they were being used to hurt my mother.

Be glad of it.  Her friends were then, also being protected.  Do not let your hearts become so hardened, you cannot see the difference.

Prince Hans suggests this 1989 California man had no understanding of Jedi training, meaning being able to see the unseen, like faith.

The teeth on Olaf says this song, all I want for Christmas is my two front teeth.  Noting more.

The hairpiece on Weaselton says, Cherith spotted this cab driver immediately and assumed her position, sort of, as Queen.  That’s why he meets me as the Queen.  And, Queen just says, people working under me or for me.  Nothing more.

The dance of Weaselton is actually me and James Franco.  I have always thought this, I have not yet written it until now.  He is also seen in One Day, as Dexter, in bed with a naked woman, and talking to me on the phone.  Meaning, he probably talked to me on the phone at Disney.

She would never hurt me from Frozen suggests, and it is correct, a suicide plot, as a way to get rid of me.  People should be questioning why people would not want me working.

Frozen is code; however, the only things it really says is, EF, rose, Norman.  I am my father’s daughter; I do have his last name.  It is to reference Germany, also.  It says English rose, and I am not explaining that, either you understand it, or you don’t.  And, z, in Frozen, is the only number and it says, eight, 8.  Nothing more.

Did this Russian man really edit into the movie, Sven, the reindeer eating a cherry pie?  Is this real?

Crazy enough to be out in this storm, is me and my family going to Vero beach, a Disney resort.  The traffic lights were out at an intersection, that suggests people creating a way and ways to prevent me from any sort of travelling.  That’s suspicious.

Sauna in Frozen in a real gym my mother had a membership at, from the eighties, probably a gym that at one time had an affiliation with Jack LaLane.  Nothing more.  Details.

The, I can’t dialogue in Frozen, is a real person, a real woman, it is not me, and it is probably, several women.  It’s a theory in the movie, and I believe it has been already proven, to be correct.

That’s as far as I’ve gotten in Frozen.

I can’t.  That’s real.

If you or a person, cannot.  Be glad of it.  It’s not something to fight for, over, or about.  You’ll live another day because of it, because you cannot.

You weren’t meant to.

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It’s not his favorite.

This scary Russian former spy is seen in the movie, the Matrix, as Cypher wanting to go back as an actor, famous, and rich.  It’s meant to look like me, uh, it’s not.

Did you people really place him in the music industry?

He’s been pretty successful, but it’s not his love.

But, the feeling’s all wrong, your heart is as black as night, is this song lyric really a read about me and Michael?

Yes, other FBI man it really did feel like something I had to do.  I didn’t love him.  And, I really do like (I can’t believe I must continue putting in these disclaimers) straight sex with a man.  But my mind immediately shut a part of my brain down when it was finished, over.  Every time.

Seeing a very masculine man as a child and knowing that’s what you want when you grow up – that’s hard-wired.  That’s one of those things that never changes.  They did it – just to hurt me.

There is something about him that says, lonesome, this Russian man.  I would then be the closest thing to Russia for him, wouldn’t I?

It would explain the movie, Doing That Thing You Do.

If it was chosen for him, it would be because of my singing lessons I took in Gresham, and my mother not liking the female singing teacher when she listened to the recording of our lesson together, having my mother then send me to a male singing teacher.

Mother Russia.

Had an affair with David Lindhagen from Crazy, Stupid, Love, is a read of a man, most likely this other FBI man, who could not believe I found Matthew McConaughey – sexy.

Kind of funny in retrospect because it’s made Matthew McConaughey a better actor.  Since.  He is seen as me in True Detective as drinking beer after beer and still being – straight.  Meaning coherent.

It would explain why there was then a Matt in my theater group, he was kind of a tool.  Meaning, not that bright, not smart.  He was attractive, good looking, clean, clean-cut, and all that, just not really very smart; therefore, I didn’t really find him very attractive.

That’s why David was the only male in the theater group.  Mentally and physically.

Now, why Matt called me at Disney on Valentine’s Day weekend looking for a hotel room, for him and his girlfriend, and mentioning Camping World, doesn’t make sense.  Unless, they were trying to find a way to get me back into my college mind.  It didn’t work.

The Russian scene in The Bourne Supremacy, they didn’t really name a movie after a burrito at Taco Bell, did they?  The Russian teenager scene, I am the teenager, the moving, where Bourne finds out she moved, means our Oldsmar apartments because that is where my mother told me she tried to commit suicide, and Bourne saying, I would want to know, means, my mother didn’t really kill or attempt to kill herself.  She kept that secret with her until she died.

It could explain why this FBI man was assigned to work in Florida, for his Russian.  And, people did not know I was a fail-safe at the time.  It means the moment my mother told me the story, I, clicked, and shut them out.  Meaning, you had people who were given access to my mother after Germany, who were not supposed to be there.

My mother was never melancholy, or depressive, just like me.  If she had really tried to kill herself, she would have bouts of depression.  She never did.  If anyone watched me and my family for very long, and saw this, they would realize it was a cover story.

How very sad.

They named a movie after a burrito.  Get it?  I had a burrito in the California restaurant.

It was not the beginning.

Franco, as a read, as an actor, he doesn’t read as a family man.  He reads like the movie, This Is The End, as a man who parties, is not really committed to one woman, and doesn’t really have much stability.

Do you know what this looks like?  Because I really don’t believe that is who Franco is.  It looks like he could be managed better.  Why isn’t he getting better acting roles?  Because he’s too good-looking?  He’s really close to being a real academic, isn’t he?  So why isn’t he getting better roles and jobs?

Hugh Jackman, a real family man, loves his wife and family, that’s a read.  It doesn’t appear that has hurt his acting career at all.

Franco, you need better management, or you need to change careers.  He’s not a nerd, he probably really loves academia.

So, how long has he been out of the music industry?

Decades?