July 2, 2019: READ: The Homeowner Did It

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July 2, 2019

If this photograph is real, if this house explosion actually occurred it looks like the homeowner did it.  It was not an attack.  Not that anyone is asking me, I am just telling you.  It looks like the homeowner did it themselves, and they are looking for sympathy.

Why they feel they need sympathy, I have no idea.  They don’t look like they need sympathy to me.

Did this actually occur after I left the building?  If so, then it is a knit navy hat, again.  They did it to prove a point, if this is true and correct.

I told you so.

Did you just make this up?  Or, is it real?

July 2, 2019: READ: UNEMPLOYED!

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July 2, 2019

What the fucks her problem?!  Said the same black man that had me written up in HR because I believe people have a right to know when others around me are cheating by using air tricks.  He’s the problem.

Then, a white woman with dark hair told me I had to wear a safety vest when I came back to the location where the bathrooms are.  These two are the same person.  There the problem.

The agency would like to rescind their job offer.  This voice they spoke over and over to me after I wrote about how much I do not like my job.  THIS IS A PROBLEM.  I was again being truthful about how a night of work made me feel, and they are punishing me for it.

They have refused to give me a dayshift at Amazon, and I cannot get another job any place else.  Unemployed, in Greenland, from the movie, Princess Bride.

I refuse to stay alive in this way any longer.  I want to be up during the day and asleep at night like a normal person, again.  I’ve had enough.

That FBI man does not know how to work with me, and I have no feelings for him.  I have no respect for him.  I cannot love him, anymore.

Why they have been using me as a therapist and counselor to David, Brianna, and Courtney, I have no idea.  I know how to add one plus one, does that mean I should be working as an accountant?!

They want me to believe Courtney finally admitted to being gay, it would be the reason why David has never truthfully loved her.  I never liked Courtney, I never liked Brianna, I have no idea why I am being denied a dayshift.

What a waste of years of your life David, I am sorry for you.  They would have read it in Courtney that she had underlying lesbian problems she hadn’t admitted to, and they were using you to get to me by placing you two together.

I would rather die than be untruthful.

I am beyond upset about being denied a dayshift again.

Better to be dead than work as someone’s therapist that I do not like.

I’ve made my decision.

Good-bye.

June 30, 2019: READ: God, I Hate That Job!

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June 30, 2019

God, what a miserable place to work!  I hate it there!  I have to wear an earring in my nose now?!  What the fuck is that cunt doing in my face and in my nose?!  God, I hate that job!

David, have you actually slept with Courtney?!  Yuck!  You look so gross to me!  You know what you look like?!  I am your sexual surrogate.  You use me for emotional sex.  You are able to have long-term relationships only because you have been around me as well, talking with me, spying on me, it has allowed you to fulfill an emotional part of your brain.  Why else would a man accept a job where he monitors if the floors are clean or not, if the laundry is done or not, unless he actually wanted to be living with her?  I am not some random person you don’t know.

You use me to fulfill the emotional part of sex while you sleep and have actual sex with another woman – GROSS!

Why is it my boyfriend is the only man who does not like to see me hurt with the – ANYTHING?!

THAT’S WHY HE IS MY BOYFRIEND!  HE DOESN’T WANT ME HARMED IN ANY WAY! 

WHERE ARE DAVID HAS NO PROBLEM WITH HURTING ME, DEGRADING ME, HUMILATING ME, OR UGLIFYING ME!

Your sick.  You need help.

I actually do not get a choice.  You do.  You need help David!

Get that stupid FBI man and his stupid dumb ass nothing of a lousy fuck away from me!  I have no respect for him any longer.  You treated me like a nothing.  What a terrible, horrible thing to do to a person!  You had no cause whatsoever!  It is a hurdle; I will not get over.

Courtney wants me dead, she told me so when I left work tonight.

You people are sick.

June 29, 2019: READ: Music

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June 29, 2019

This is really my full-time occupation, well, I am not apologizing anymore.  If you thought that the line of dialogue in Sherlock, telling you would be playing fair, I’m not playing fair anymore, was really about being vicious, mean, back-stabbing or anything else other than CODE, you were wrong.

The line of dialogue reads: I’m not playing fair anymore – I’m not playing, the music in Cherith’s heart and mind are no longer playing.  Fair – this is a musical fair; I don’t know every single music fair there is in Great Britain.

I’m not playing fair, the music is no longer playing in Cherith’s heart and mind just as is referenced in the movie, Australia, in the line of dialogue, sing you back to me.  Why else would it be a child actor that says the line, sing you back to me?

If you have been creating scripts at work just to be mean because of a line of dialogue in Sherlock, you’re dumb.  If you have been designing games for me to play just so they are purposefully unwinnable because of Sherlock, you’re dumb.

I would apologize for your idiocy, but your asinine actions speak for themselves!

June 29, 2019: READ: Chelsea Manning

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June 29, 2019

Do you all realize, yet what a mistake it was to allow this character of Chelsea Manning to perpetuate in the news and around me?  Do you realize the mistake of allowing Chelsea Manning to tell me I am on a final written warning because – I WAS FOR SUPPORTING OUR WHITE HOUSE AND THE UNITED STATES?!!

DO YOU FUCKING REALIZE IT YET?!  HAVE YOUR FUCKING EYES BEEN OPENED YET?!

YOU HAD A CHELSEA, A TRANSGENDER, A WOMAN TELL ME TO MAINTAIN MY WEIGHT BECAUSE I INSISTED ON THE WHITE HOUSE!  DO YOU YET HAVE ANY COMPREHENSION THE FUCKING MISTAKE THAT WAS?  TO WHOM DO YOU THINK SHE OFFERED, MADE A DEAL, AND GAVE PROTECTION TO THROUGH ME, A WOMAN, AN AMERICAN WOMAN?!

IT AIN’T THE FUCKING POPE!

YOU ALLOWED THIS STUPID, CHELSEA PERSON TO GIVE A MAN, MOST LIKELY, MIDDLE-EASTERN, PROTECTION, THROUGH ME THROUGH THE GODDAMN NYE, STOCK MARKET EXCHANGE, IN STOCKS AND BONDS, AND OTHER MEANS, JESUS CHRIST, TO FUND HIS MEANS OF KILLING OUR MEN AND WOMEN AND ALLIES!  YOU GODDMAN FUCKING MORONS!

I WANT “CASEY’ TO START HAVING TO ATTENED EVERY FUNERAL OF OUR MEN AND WOMEN AND OUR ALLIES!  BECAUSE YOU DON’T GET TO ATTEND THE FUNERALS OF OUR INTELLIGENCE BECAUSE YOU DON’T GET TO KNOW THEIR REAL FUCKING JOBS!

I WANT ALL THESE STUPID FUCKS, INCLUDING, BUT NOT LIMITED TO, DAVID, COURTNEY, BRIANNA, EDISON, AND EVERYONE WHO HAS BEEN INVOLVED AT MY EMPLOYMENT SINCE 2013, AND SPECIFICALLY SINCE 2016 TO ATTEND THESE FUNERALS OF OUR MILITARY MEN AND WOMEN!  BECAUSE YOU DON’T GET TO ATTEND THE FUNERALS OF OUR INTELLIGENCE!  YOU’LL NEVER KNOW THEIR REAL JOBS!  AND ANYTHING YOU DO TO ME – WILL BE SEEN!

I AM FUCKING MAD AS FUCKING HELL!  JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!  YOU WILL REGRET THE TIME YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE SMARTER THAN ME!

I SWEAR TO CHRIST ALMIGHTY WHY IS IT MY BOYFRIEND A MURDER OF MEN AND WOMEN IS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS BEEN FUCKING SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON HAS BEEN CRIMINAL?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WELL, LOOKS LIKE HE NEVER WAS A REAL MURDERER!  BECAUSE HE IS THE FIRST MAN TO HAVE WANTED A STOP TO ALL THESE KILLINGS BECAUSE OF WHAT HE SAW WITH THAT OTHER MAN’S FATHER’S DEATH!  AND YOU WANT TO QUESTION IT?!  MAKE SURE THAT HE IS FOR REAL?!  BECAUSE MY BOYFIREND WANTED TO MAKE SURE THAT ANOTHER MAN’S FATHER WAS NOT MURDERED BECAUSE OF WHAT COULD HAPPEN AROUND ME?!

WHAT THE FUCK?!

JESUS CHRIST?!

ARE YOU ALL FUCKING INSANE?!  DO YOU REALLY WANT THESE FUCKING TERRORISTS TO WIN?!

I SURE AS FUCK DO NOT!

NONE OF YOU GET UPSET AT ALL THAT THESE MEN AND WOMEN DIE JUST BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO ME?!  NONE OF YOU?!

I HOPE NO ONE RETALIATES AGAINST YOU BY KILLING ANYMORE PEOPLE LIKE THEY DID WITH MY MOTHER JUST BECAUSE SHE LOVED – PEOPLE!

I SWEAR TO CHRIST IF YOU DON’T SMARTEN UP…!

CODE: OVER 120 POUNDS, LBS. , 1992!  PLACE ANOTHER THREAT ON MY BROTHER AGAIN AND IF I HAVE TO COME BACK FROM THE DEAD – I WILL!

TAKE THIS OFF MY GODDAMN BROTHER BEFORE MORE PEOPLE GET HURT!

YOU PEOPLE ATTEND THEIR FUNERALS!  I WON’T!  BECAUSE I DON’T SEND THEM TO THEIR GRAVES!

I SEND OUR GODDAMN ENEMIES TO THEIR GRAVES!

June 29, 2019: READ: Wrinkles

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June 29, 2019

I have no idea why anyone would find this interesting to read, but this is true, this did happen.  We were in a home, another person’s home, that detail is unimportant to me, whose home it was, I believe it was in Clearwater, Florida.  If any other family member was there with me, I only remember my mother being with me.

It was work-related for my mother, about exchange students.  There were probably, no joke, close to thirty people there, it was spacious, and people were seated everywhere, so it was crowded.  A man started to talk, he looked some-what middle eastern, and said the reason women are completely covered from head to toe was to protect women from, get this, wrinkling.  Women in his country were not wrinkled like women here.  AND, I STARTED A FIGHT, RIGHT THEN AND THERE!

I spoke up because it is completely illogical.  Not for religious reasons, for superficial reasons such as no wrinkles?!  What a stupid, stupid thing to say!  Who knows what that was about?  It would have been about 1986, 1987, or perhaps 1988.

It is probably the reason there is a pug dog, Percy in the Disney movie, Pocahontas.  It probably does somehow reference or has connections to the movie Percy Jackson because I always liked that movie.  Is there not a movie I am not in somehow?

And, he did shut up because I spoke up!  And, yeah, I am still upset by it and about it!

I STARTED A FIGHT; YOU BETTER FUCKING BELIEVE IT!

June 28, 2019: READ: Soil

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June 29, 2019

He got it.

He wanted soil, I bought it when I got home, and it is now in the peace plant.  He wanted it, he got it, I gave it to him.  As simple as that.

He probably wanted exclusivity because of the past, as a way of trying to undo the past, history.  It cannot be undone.  The whole world knows who I am.  Or, maybe it wasn’t his idea, exclusivity, at all, maybe it was someone else’s idea.

Do you have any idea how good this Harlem poet profile is in this news story?

He’s probably about a 60%, isn’t he?  No joke, a 60%.  Meaning you trust him about 60%, and he trusts you about 60% of the time.  Do you want more than 60 or are you satisfied that is all you can do?  I know how to get more.  I’ve already seen it.

Cover all the exits, John, from Sherlock, this is about me, making sure sexual abuse begetting sexual abuse just to create criminals, pedophiles, and abusers doesn’t continue.

I will not, I will not, I will not, I will not give in to the pressure to satisfy someone else about my weight because there are more people involved than just one, and it is – A PROBLEM!

Whoever that was in profile, on the night of June 26, 2019 after lunch break, it was so bad, I was not willing to give him – ANYTHING!  Like a putrid piece of flesh, you turn away.

This picture is very understated, do you know how good that is?  I do.  I know.  I am a person of value, character, conviction, and not property.

I hope you all know how well I did in this man’s eyes.  He wants people to know.  It is an amazing thing, and it came from an American, an American girl, an American woman.

Also, you people should know they’ve been doing things like stealing my Amazon Prime t-shirt, and my Obama alumni staff cup, most likely, as bribes.  It is not a good thing.

 

June 28, 2019: READ: Who Is Responsible?

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June 28, 2019

Someone is killing my peace plant with water, so I’ve brought it inside, for now.  Looks like they wanted to become…infamous.  What a fucking moron!  I want them arrested!

Who ordered the code red?  Who ordered the code red from the movie, A Few Good Men, who ordered my fiancé to take me from my family’s apartment, after Germany, after Los Angeles?  Who ordered my fiancé to take me from my family days before my eighteenth birthday?  They are going to be in a lot of trouble.

There is a reason the movie, A Few Good Men, is at a court-martial hearing.  There is a reason the General gets into trouble and detained at the end of the movie.  Who ordered, who was responsible for having my fiancé take me from my family days before my eighteenth birthday?  They were going to announce it, from the movie, Gladiator.

Do you know the reason the character’s name is Nathan Jessup?  My father has a brother who goes by the name Jess, probably the reason for the song, Jessie’s girl, and the character and song in Toy Story, Jessie, When She Loved Me (there is something wrong in that song because it has always sounded like my mother’s funeral song), this is really about the time in my life when I loved my intelligence man, and Nathan is for a boy I went to middle school with.  Gosh, was he cute.

He missed a day of school, then the following day he asked to look at my schoolwork to see what he missed.  I am thinking to myself, HE ASKED ME!  He looked like he was going to be a quarterback when he got to high school, then Prom King, he was the most attractive and popular boy in school, and he asked ME!

There has been a very old school (I don’t know the best or more proper wording for it) English minds that have been around me nearly all my life.  I respond very well to it, I do very well with it, I enjoy it very well, I like it very much.  It is wonderful in my head.  It is referenced in the movie, Moana, with the line of dialogue, this suits you.  It is also seen in the movie, The Remains of The Day, with the scene of Miss Kenton and the butler, James Stevens where he holds his book to his chest as she playfully attempts to discover the title of the book he is reading.

Now, I am about to kick some ass.  The teacher had handed out worksheets of some report that had been stapled together and we were to read, and this is the paperwork Nathan asked to see.  I got mad.  I got upset.  I was disgusted. I was outraged.  When I read this paperwork, my teacher asked us to read, I was so upset, I crossed out a word.  A repeated word.  I crossed it out with my pen.  Not a highlighter, not a sharpie, not a pencil, a pen.  The word was negro.  I crossed it out and wrote the word black over every single word of negro typed.

You gotta be fucking kidding me!  This is my thinking, are we still living in the 1960’s?!  Who the fuck says negro?!  What stupid moron goes around perpetuating a stupid stereotype and says the word negro?!

I was a little embarrassed when Nathan saw my crossed-out negro and written in pen, black because he wouldn’t have been able to understand why I did that, not really.

Negro, code: NG, my father’s name, roe, is the court case of Roe vs. Wade or Roe v. Wade.  This tells me there was a Supreme Court Judge’s life in danger and I helped save them.  It is probably the reason for the Anita Hill and Clarence Thomas sexual harassment case, Coca-Cola can, I wish that I had Jessie’s girl, where can I find a woman like that, song lyric from the song Jessie’s girl.

If you had run news stories recently of a female Supreme Court judge and you thought it would get me to be able to remember my childhood, you were mistaken, you have no idea how to handle a brain, or my mind.

I was not packed, no one was home in our apartment, I took a bag of clothes and that was it, I didn’t take my animals with me, I didn’t take any furniture, I didn’t take anything other than a bag.  Do you understand why this is so important?  This is not just about Cherith wanting to leave and live with her boyfriend.  And, to clarify, I didn’t quit JC Penny, I never went back after my last shift there, I am sure that freaked people out too.

Why would Cherith do such a thing as leave her family?  Because she was so in love with her boyfriend?  Of course not.  Why would Cherith with all her military and counterintelligence work BELIEVE her boyfriend when he said she wanted her to leave her family and live with him?

If you are a reader, if you have watched Cherith her whole life, you would already know the answer.

The ONLY reason Cherith would leave her family…immediate danger, to her family.

Several times in the years while I lived with my boyfriend/fiancé, he would ask me to call my mother.  I NEVER wanted to, it always bothered me, it always upset me, just like I didn’t want to see my mother show up at my place of employment.

Did they actually bring my mother around just so they could watch my reaction in knowing that that was my mother’s car and not some random car?  You fucking morons!  You took nothing into consideration that my mother’s life was in danger!

What was I doing at age three, and what were you doing at age three?

Yes, I believe there is a connection to my brother’s car accident and the death threats my family would have been under in order for me to leave my home; however, mostly, as in nearly 99%, the reason for my brother’s car accident had to do with the stupid nonsense they were doing with my employment at the time.  It looks pretty stupid to me considering the results of their work.  My brother’s car accident and the 1993 bombing of The World Trade Center.

Perhaps you all should be briefed on my actual childhood, but I outrank you, and you are not cleared for conversation, or a read.

It is the only reason for the repeated lines of dialogue in A Few Good Men, are we clear?  This is about clearance, obviously.  Crystal, is the reply, the response, this is a real girl’s name I went to school with, when they brain-spoke a person’s name and a photograph was taken of me.  I believe they are correct.

The same man who brain-spoke to me at my eight-grade ceremony is the same man who placed my family’s life in danger in order to get me to live with my fiancé.  Get HIM!  If you haven’t already.

Looks like someone found him around the time I was 15 and got into him – that’s why he allowed himself to hurt me.  It doesn’t look good for him.  This would also by the reason for weight gain I had starting at age 14.  He had no idea the implications of his actions, I do not mean he is innocent.  I mean he is one guilty man.

He could actually be the inspiration (intelligence) for the television show, Mad Men, as Don Draper, a man who stole another man’s identity, so that people were completely unaware of his previous criminal past, like witness protection.

If he wants to live, he will have to confess – everything.  He’s had a pretty good life, yet he’s had me hit through my fiancé.  The more I think about it the worse it gets.  He’s in real trouble.

Do not get these Russians confused with each other.

I was at recess in elementary school in Gresham, Oregon, sitting on the swings set when a football, no joke, hit me on the head.  I thought to myself, why did they do that?  Do you know how far that football had come from?  No one was nearby.  There was no one in my school yard that kicked that football.  Most likely, this is the Russian agent I turned, and they wanted to let me know because that is how it felt.  I was about as upset as if I was hanging out with the guys as seen in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty when they say the line, her confidence.

Ow, that hurt.  Why did you have to hit me in the head?  Because a man turned?  Yeah, and, so what.  That is about how upset I was, there is a difference, I knew who it was from.  Now, my father probably will not like to read that you hit his daughter in the head when she was in grade school.  You might want to apologize to him.

I had a pair of Dr. Scholl’s shoes when I was in elementary school, they were very popular at the time.  They had us playing kickball in PE (Physical Education).  When I kicked the ball, the skin (Silence of the Lambs, Sherlock) on the top of my big right toe came off, like a flap.  It sent me to the hospital, Emergency Room.  They told me they had to give me a shot, inject my big toe with a needle to numb it, so they could clean the wound.  I said, no.  So, who didn’t die that night because I said so?

They gave me a bowl of medicated ice, happened to be purplish and a little brownish in color about the same color as my mouse pad and wrist pads, and had me stick my toe in the ice to numb the wound.  It didn’t work, it didn’t numb, and they had to give me a shot in my big toe.  Have you ever had a needle in your big toe?  That fucking hurt!  Then, they cleaned the wound, and everything was fine.

However, I still remember the conversation about the needle in my toe and the ice, so something happened because of it.  That’s my childhood, so how about, you SHUT THE FUCK UP!

If anyone thought my former fiancé’s name had anything to do with my code name, Weapon of Mass Destruction, then you are not a coder or a decoder, you’re a moron, and you let them outthink you, but not me.

How did my boyfriend do?  Looks like to me, he is fine, just like I wrote.  He loves me.

June 27, 2019: READ: Zero Dark Thirty

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June 27, 2019

Is there anyone else who has looked and watched the torture interrogation scene in the movie Zero Dark Thirty, and not questioned it?  Doesn’t it go on a bit too long?  Doesn’t it look too ineffective?  Doesn’t it look like there is a better way?

The way the actress Maya reacts to the beating and torturing of the detainee is pretty accurate as to how I would respond, I would have responded, I see it.  I would have stood back and been not very responsive, it wouldn’t have upset me, dispassionate, as I was processing what was taking place.  The line of dialogue of wearing her best clothes to an interrogation is a job interview, this would have been me at my job interview at Hilton.  You don’t see people the way I see them.

When my mother and I drove the Autobahn, they drove past us with photographs of terrorists and men in their vehicles and cars, it did not bother, nor upset me.  Why would it?  I’ve done nothing wrong; they have.  My mother, who had already been in her car accident, was upset by it.  They had already hit and hurt her brain.  When they had no idea who she really was.  How many people get to be Mexican vanilla in their lifetime?

Maya, is this the way the name is spelled in the script?  If so, it is to reference Mexico, and the work my mother and I did while I was just a child.  Maya, code:  My, A, my Alpha, it is not a dog.  It is meant to show, my number one, my lead person, my got-to person, the one I trust.  My father also took Greek in Oregon when he was going to seminary school.  He was learning Greek, and I asked him to teach me the language.  He taught me the alphabet, alpha.  I have always thought learning languages the most fun.  I enjoy it.

Alpha could also reference the line of dialogue, unleash the hounds of hell, from the movie, Gladiator.  Why any man or person would want to show and display me, as working with me, as a dog they have on a leash and walk around, I have no idea.  I have no idea why anyone would display such a thing.  To me you just look stupid.  Do you actually think you can make other people who have had knowledge of the work I’ve done already believe I am another man’s dog on a leash?  You look stupid.  You look stupid to them too.  Who is it you think you are dealing with?  You just look stupid to me.  And to others, that is not a way to earn respect, or trust, or intelligence.

The character Jessica is also me; this was me in college, I had those bangs.  I remember sitting outside Joffrey’s coffee shop by the movie theaters, having coffee and smoking cigarettes.  I had not yet eaten for the day with any solid food.  They watched and knew I only ate real food about once a day, and I should not have been maintaining my weight, or been the size I was with the food I was consuming.

So, that tells them you were manipulating my food purchases, and they did not want that.  It is the reason Maya is a thin actress, it has nothing to do with her hair color, it is the measurements of her body.  They’ve read it on me, I’ve written about this, I’ve spoken to people about this, I’ve always seen myself in my mind as a thin woman.  It shows interference and manipulation on my body that can be seen without really looking.  THAT’S WHY, there is war all over my windows and door.

If the character Jessica was named so in the original script, it means, Jessica Rabbit, from formerly named Pleasure Island at the now named Downtown Disney in Orlando, Florida.  It is referencing my mother, my mother took us to Pleasure Island sometime in the early nineties, the answers to that, are dead because my mother is dead.

Let me interrupt my own writing to tell you this notion that has been going on for so many years, of me as a red-headed woman, being a temper-filled woman has been making me most upset and angry.  It is incorrect.  I’ve dyed my hair red before, and been a brunette, those times have passed.  I am a stylish woman; it means nothing more.  To me it looks like you cannot understand why a woman would want to change her hair.  Then, I guess you are not a person that is able to understand fashion and trends.  There is a difference.

I am Scandinavian, I have Scandinavian coloring, I am not a dark-skinned woman with dark skin facial problems; I am Scandinavian.  Why have you been lying to people with my face, with the facial products I must buy to counteract the problems you’ve placed on my face?  Do you think they haven’t gone through my trash, or watched me and realized how often I must wax?  It is a problem.  It is an intelligence problem; it creates problems for intelligence that do not need to happen.

When they brought the real Hannibal Lecter to me at my work, he wanted to work me.  He wanted to be difficult.  He was.  He wanted to out-think me, he couldn’t.  Why do you think my interrogations are more effective than torture?  Do you think torture is better?  Or have you never seen the results before of what I’ve done nearly all my life?

What is a mirror?  If you are a smart person, if you are a smart man, and you see your mirror, if you see how other people actually see you; how does that make you feel and how does that change the perception of who you think you are?

The real Hannibal Lecter believed the movie version of himself in the movie Silence of The Lambs.  That is not who he really is, and it NEVER was.  He doesn’t fit the profile, does he?  A doctor, a medical doctor who has been sworn to treat those who are sick; suddenly, becomes a man who kills men and women?

How is this possible?  How does this make sense to anyone?  He listened to me.  Very carefully, very closely.  He learned he was never a murderer.  It has been shown to me he then accepted Jesus Christ as his savior, to redeem himself for his crimes and what he has done.  Do you know how many other people and prisoners he has since brought to Christianity, had people say the Sinner’s Prayer, and become Christians?  I don’t know the exact number it is a lot, he does it now every day.  He has learned it feels better to do good, rather than evil and wickedness.

There is a movement now going on within prisons, looks like around the world because I planted a – garden.  A garden I wrote and said was meant to bring peace, happiness, protection, safe-guarding, and an end to the sexual abuse of children, an end to the perpetuation of sexual abuse begetting sexual abuse.

These prisoners don’t want to stop talking about it.  THAT’S A GOOD THING!  What else will happen in their minds, in their brains, in their thought processes, in the decisions, IF THEY CONTINUE THINKING ABOUT BRINGING ABOUT GOOD TO THE WORLD AND PEOPLE?!  More things than I can list in a page.  Let them plant, if only in their mind, let them think, perhaps they might re-think using rape within prison.  Perhaps they will think better of their own penis not BEING WORTHY of entering another man.  You are or are you not a better man, you entered another man, or you let another man – mouth you.  Is he really a man worth you?  Another prisoner?  Really?  Then, you are not such a tough guy, you are not really a man, you are just another sexual pervert, and nothing more in my eyes.  How does that feel?

This man who followed me to Atlanta, that I saw near a coffee shop wanted to show me what a mean motherfucker he really was because I wrote he was a military failure in my eyes.  He beat me around, he bullied me, he tormented my head and brain, he roughed me up, he hurt me and hurt me for a few days.  Then, it was my turn.

All I did was talk to him.  All I did was show him who he really was in the eyes of the men he had helped, these terrorists, he has shown allegiances to.  I talked to him.  It so happens, he is a smart man after all.  Do you want to know what he looked like to these men he helped kill Americans?

To them, he was nothing more than a man with – low self-esteem.  This big-time man who helped terrorists kill Americans and others was nothing more than a man-boy who had low self-esteem and they used it on him.  A man-boy who think his own country of origin was not of any interest.  He failed to realize America is of great interest to EVERY nation around the world.  I told him God chose him to be born.  I told him God chose him to be born, meaning he didn’t have to be born, he didn’t have to be alive, but he was alive because GOD chose for him to be alive.

God chose him to be born, God chose him to be born in America.  God chose.  Was he or was he not a holy man?  Did he or did he not believe in God?  If you believe in God, then do you think you are better than God?  That you know more than God?!

I told him these men because I see it from their mind’s eye believed he was nothing more than a weak American with low self-esteem who did not think himself worthy of his own family, his own country, and they manipulated him with that information, with that read on him.

He loves me now.  This man who beat me up, loves me truly now.  I did nothing more than talk to him and show him who he is to the people he thought loved him more.

Are you a man, or are you not?  Are you a real man, or are you not?  Are you a holy man, a God filled man, or are you not?  Do you want to be a man with a great erection, balls and all, or do you want to be seen as a coward, a weakling, a simpleton, and a man useful only to be MANIPULATED!

Smarten up, or they will kill you.

How many people were involved in beating me up at work, I do not know?  It might not have just been him.  I am not a pushover.  The fact that I am unwilling to relinquish my war at present due to my present weight of my body tells you so, if you have not been paying attention to me until now.  However, I do know that what is unnecessary is just that, unnecessary.

I did not have to break this man, I did not break his spirit, I did not break his soul, I did not ask him to bow, I did not ask of him anything other to see himself for who is truly is, and to some people that is pretty fucking scary.

Do you know the only reason for the line of dialogue in the movie, A Few Good Men, swear at the Marines, is just to show that some people could not understand and misinterpreted my swearing?  My mother did not like swearing.  It was uncouth, and uncultured, and not very religious in her mind.  If you visit another person’s house and home, and in their home, they remove their shoes at the door, do you wear your shoes in their home?  Or do you remove them because it is their home?  You remove them.  I remove them.  Why wouldn’t you, it is only polite and nothing more.  If you remove your shoes at another person’s house, does it mean you wear shoes in your own home, or not?  It is really not that difficult.  It really is that simple, and to allow such ignorant thinking otherwise, is a tell on them and not on me.  THAT’S WHY, I am in the movie.

Do you really think the purpose of putting the torture interrogation scene in Zero Dark Thirty is only to show how we interrogate, or do you think it has a message that should be read?  Because I believe there is more meaning than what the actions show.

Dude, you shit your pants, this line of dialogue, from the movie Zero Dark Thirty, was actually spoken to me when I worked at Dillard’s when a black woman was arrested in the store who had shit allegedly in the women’s fitting rooms.

What purpose do you think we would have for showing a detainee being made to wear a dog collar, shoved into a box while he shouts the names of the week?  Do you think it is just to show how to break a man?  How we break a man?  I believe this is that meanest son of a bitch Russian agent that I brought to the US because of the skills I had as a child and he is a reader and wanted to see me, and turned, turned for good, and has been as loyal to the US, not as a dog, as a man, but loyal because of what he saw in me.

Do not allow yourselves to be caught up in foolishness and hatred for people.  The days of the week are probably just my cats, Thursday, Friday, Sundae, Tuesday.  They’ve used my cats to hurt my cats, these would be my neighbor’s, Americans, hurt my own cats because – they are dumb, and thought me and my family were not that important.  It is the reason for the line of dialogue in Zero Dark Thirty about the house not being very interesting.

They’ve run over my cat Mouse, they’ve given Sundae cancer, they hurt my Bear, my Babee Bear with a swelling of his eye, just like they had the dog bite me, he was in pain most of his life just because he belonged to me.  Do not repeat your mistakes.

Do you know the reason for the dialogue in Zero dark Thirty about not wanting to be tortured again, ask me anything, is most likely, me, talking to a man on the phone at my work, could be at a meet, and asked to talk to me on the phone before they discuss things, and because I was courteous, kind, thoughtful, mannerly, respectful, meaningful, knowledgeable, and sincere, our own intelligence received intelligence because I was just myself?  Why would I wish to speak to another human being as such unless there was more to them, than they knew?

David is Joe in the movie Zero Dark Thirty about being blamed for the 9/11 attacks.  Because Cherith was so sad and distraught that David was gone.  I’m so sorry, Maya says because Cherith loved David, sincerely, it doesn’t go away.  Why would I ever want nothing less than David to be the most blissfully happy.  I loved him.  I wanted him to be happy.  I wanted him to be loved.  I wanted him to never be hurt, I still don’t want him hurt, or unloved, or unhappy.  I loved him.  Truly.  Sincerely.

Obviously just any man will not do for Cherith.  David, they wanted me to see that you were not worthy of me because you chose Brianna as your girlfriend.  Brianna only thinks of herself.  The very reason she is still trying to get back together with you is because she is only thinking of herself.  Me, me, me, gimme, gimme, gimme, she only thinks of herself.  They saw it, they read it, looks like they may have slowed plans just because they read you were with a woman who only thought of herself.  However, this is worse, you have been with two women now who actually like to hurt – other women.  That is not me.

Both Brianna and Courtney are women who like to hurt other women.  It’s repulsive to me.  It is very close to abuse.  Worse, if there has been any person who work with me who get sexually aroused because they see bruises on me, or see me hurt, or see me in pain.  Sexually aroused?  That is the same as getting sexually aroused by sexual abuse.  It is the same as a sexual predator.  The only way they are able to get aroused is by sexually abusing another.  These people should be removed at once!

I am not a person that gets aroused, sexually aroused by seeing abuse, hearing abuse, or turned on in any way by seeing harm done to people.  That’s gross.  That’s sickness.  That is a weakness people will manipulate.

Do you know David that what appeared to be Courtney was placed in front of me while I was driving, I believe it was at a gas station in a bikini and cover-up, and when I noticed it was her, appeared to make herself known as, yeah, she’s sees me, as though Courtney was aroused by me and that is why she was wearing a bikini?  I thought to myself, what the hell is she doing?  I remember looking behind me in my car as if to say, are you getting this?  What is her problem?  Because I loved David, and he is a man, and has a man’s body, I would therefore, really like women and women’s bodies?!  That is the dumbest thing someone could think of!  Idiocy.

Anyone who has seen me and David together and seen David and I stare into each other’s eyes, would know that could never be true.  And, they have seen David and I together.  You’ve probably had intelligence killed just because you were that stupid!  Not me.

She’s going to bleed out, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, has always bothered me.  It is most disrespectful.  Why would an American solider say that, let alone put it in a movie?  She’s going to bleed out, code: She’s, Sherlock, Going, Gayle, my mother, to, her cat Tuesday, US elections are held on Tuesday’s, Bleed Out, Barack Obama.

Since this movie was released after my surgery it means people believed the person’s responsible for my surgery were connected to my employment at Disney and terrorists.  I have no idea if they have since actually caught the people responsible.  However, the facts remain, I’ve had a hysterectomy, and my mother is dead.  This is a very bad, a very bad thing.

It means people responsible for creating the “cysts” that had to be removed had to have in and out access into my home, meaning they lived nearby.  Also, they would have watched my purchases and been able to access the grocery store, I always shopped at Publix.  This is not a good.  How was this allowed to happen?  When is someone finally going to do something about this, and stop it from ever happening again?

There is a difference between criminal activity and behaviors and brain research.  Criminal activity and behavior are taught, criminals can teach themselves not to be criminals.  Babies do not come out of the womb, as evil or criminal, it is a learned behavior.

Brain research is altering a person’s brain, creating brain decision making that is not really of their own free will.  It gives the perception that did it alone; however, hasn’t that proven to not be true?  How did my boy do anyway?  It is almost too difficult to believe, isn’t it?  It is more than just a shake-up in the criminal justice system.  If I am correct, and I believe I am, then it changes a lot of perceptions, attitudes, and possibilities.

This scene in Sherlock where Sherlock says, full of thoughtful precautions, as Sherlock then pulls the phone out of his own pocket, do you know what this is?  This is an employer offering me a job as I moved to Plant City with my family.  I declined, I said no.  I do not just trust everybody; I do not just trust every person.  This was August 1992.

Do you know what that means?  The Prime Minister of England probably trusted someone, I did not.  There wasn’t any reason I should say no.  I needed money, I needed a job, I was out of work; however, I couldn’t give it to him.  There was just a little something in the back of my mind I could not agree with.  I probably saved lives, by saying no, yet again.

I believe you still have no idea how important, powerful, scary, and in demand I am to them.

Do you know the only reason they talk about Winston Churchill in the movie, The Remains of The Day?  Winston Churchill, WC, code: water closet.  Meaning the brain research, they (UK, US) witnessed and saw in my brother, and witnessed that I stopped.

This is really just barely scratching the surface of the movie Zero Dark Thirty.  And, I wonder if this is really of any interest to anyone.

Why did no one care enough to stop them from giving me a hysterectomy?

I am Zero Dark Thirty, and you let them cut me, take life from me, take away my insides, and kill my mother.  That is a great shame upon America.