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June 24, 2019

You couldn’t keep me employed.  You couldn’t keep me happily employed.  It is still true.  You are still following a pattern and routine that you are unaware EFFECTS people around the world.  If the date of the bombing of the CIA black ops location from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, is correct in any way, it means – you couldn’t keep me employed.  Without brain-thinking more about it, it tells me it is more medical messaging.  The bombing was medical messaging about my maternal grandfather.  You people have been looking in the wrong direction all this time.

My maternal grandfather died Christmas Eve’s eve, so they sent a message on New Year’s Eve eve.

Do you want to know what I think when I see Osama Bin Laden?  He looks doe eyed.  Doe, like a deer, like a female deer.  I remember at the time thinking he was meant to look like a charismatic leader.  I remember thinking he looked like a – Rajneeshee.  A Rajneeshee.

Is this actually accurate?  Was there really an attack by the Rajneeshees at a salad bar in Oregon?  Do you have any idea or concept of what you’ve been doing with the salad I’ve been ordering when you add weight to it?!

I mean, you got to be kidding me?!  He’s driving around in circles from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty?!  You might as well have given them my address in a goddamn movie!  Circles, cul-de-sac, that’s the knighthood in a bag.  It means you still have United States Postal workers being used as couriers, messengers.  I remember being spoken to about it while at a chiropractor’s appointment.  Illegible handwriting is all that message told me.

It means, they were using me to keep Osama Bin Laden in line.  Mostly, they were using me to keep Osama Bin Laden in line and it worked most of the time.  I prevented.  I stopped.  I wasn’t working with him; I was stopping him from irrational behaviors.

You think he is an audacious criminal mastermind?  Osama Bin Laden is a front man.  That is what he looks like to me.

I would have told you the location of Osama Bin Laden before September 11^th, 2001.  I see it.  I have told you the location of him over and over again.  I would not have told every person.

The smashed desk in 12 Strong is also my phone call on September 11, 2001.  Do you want to know the message I received when watching the news after the attacks?  Why I never called the FBI or any authority after that phone call?  Cherith, they are too busy already, they are getting too many phone calls already, Cherith you are not that important.  Also, the threat was not in that phone call.  Again, he liked me and didn’t want it to happen.

You had me in Washington, DC, in person in front of the Democratic Headquarters telling a man the greatest thing about the movie Zero Dark Thirty was that it showed the world that Osama Bin Laden was attained by a woman, by one woman alone.  Does anyone have this on video?!

Over the years, I have kept every copy of every report or review of my employment.  At Disney I kept it in my car in a briefcase.  Do you still not know what you have done when you “reprimanded” me in any way, given me anything less that an acceptable, or a pass?  If you have in any way taken pay away from me like they did at Dillard’s.  Caused me in any way not to exceed?!  Motivation.  You’ve handed terrorists, motivation.  I tell you how to stay alive, and you give me motivations for kills around the world.

See my windows, I am in war mode, I am not giving you thong underwear at work because the same pattern in happening all over again!  This is about the amount of weight you have on me; it is unacceptable is causing the wrong message to the right people to be sent!  I won’t have it!

I’m dead tired!  Zero Dark Thirty, code: Zero, casualties, zero fatalities, dark means classified, thirty, map.  Thirty is code for map.  The September 11^th attacks were before my thirtieth birthday.  However, don’t follow that, it is a red herring.  Thirty is code for map, cysts on a person’s head, is a medical message for – maps.  Map head.  Shark head, same thing.

My father and I both have cysts on our head!

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June 22, 2019

Is there a reason the FBI wants me dead?

It would be quicker if you just put a bullet in my brain, just like in Sherlock.

That man I had to date thinks about killing me often.  He has murderous thoughts about me.

That is what the wine told me; the FBI wants me dead.  You should receive intel from that.  No wonder I broke up with him, he wants me dead.  They want me dead.  They do things not to protect me, they do things like kill my mother, they do things like give my mother strokes and watch from their windows and not call 911.

It is more than grossly disappointing you did the same pattern, same routine all over again.

He doesn’t believe in me, they don’t believe in me.

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June 22, 2019

That looks like the real-life agent from the movie Skyfall.  He is the Silva in the movie because he is a double agent.  Nothing more than a dumb-dumb, double agent.  Do you have him?

Silva: code: Sil, my Christmas cactus in my bedroom windowsill, in Gresham, Oregon.  Va, Virginia, Langley.  Headquarters of US government agencies.

He is not a peace maker; he lives in chaos.  I would not let him live.  He has poisoned his own, it is in the movie Skyfall, he has poisoned his own people, crew, men, and worse.

Do you know what this looks like?  How did he get elected?  Is this correct?  John Major was actually the Prime Minister in England?  How did he get elected?  There will be people who will have questions for him just from me writing that.

There is a lesbian, The Container Store, connection to John Major.  These people had no idea what they were doing.  She “worked” at a prison, and she loved a man (as a friend) named, Major.  That alone looks really bad.

Do you know why they wanted to work with me?  Why it was my name that arose, from Sherlock, why they (United Kingdom) offered me jobs and wanted to work with me in 1992?  John Major.  And, it is not good, it looks bad, real bad.  You’ll see.

Do you know what Margret Thatcher looks like to me?  As the Prime Minister of England?  Logical.  A logical choice, a logical decision for the Brits to make.  Logical.  As if to say, of course, she was Prime Minister.

This subversive double agent that is in the television show The Americans would not have liked Margret Thatcher and would have worked very hard to undermine her authority, policies, and work.  That’s why Margret Thatcher is logical.

What did James Callaghan do?  Is this correct?  James Callaghan was a Prime Minister in England?  What did he do?  He’s done something really well.  I see it just from his name alone.  What did he do?  Policies?  Intelligence?  I am not sure it is something I have access to research on my own, he’s done something really good.  It’s a shame.  I saw it in his name, alone.  He’s done something really good and it’s a shame.  It makes it appear that the length of James Callaghan’s time in office is connected to my family living in California, and then our move to Oregon.

You should be asking questions like why people would want a person who is better than any lie detector to not work with governments and its leaders?  Why would any government not want their own leaders held accountable for their actions in government?

Has anyone else wondered who is going to succeed Putin?

I would not let him live.  I would not let Skyfall live.

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June 22, 2019

Somebody received a dead body that day, didn’t they?  Well, I am Death.

This is difficult to look through since it now appears that because of his wife – everything – has been contaminated to a certain extent.  Information, messages, intel, contaminated because of his wife.  She couldn’t have been a woman that placed another man in my path to stop me from thinking love about her husband?  She had to fatten me and bald me?

That would have been better.  It would have been better thinking.  Rather than turning me into so many pounds overweight, immediately.  As soon, as I visited, had not yet moved, as soon as I visited my family in Plant City, it was immediate weight on me.

What a way to fuck with your own intelligence!  And, when I write fuck, I mean, make sure our own intelligence dies while working.  Just by making me fat, heavy, and pounds of weight.  It looks like people have known, known about it for some time, it is in the movie, Bridget Jones’ Diary, his wife is the naked woman behind a book sitting on the tub, the major and big point being the size of Bridget Jones’ body and the size of the naked woman’s body.

It is a book she is behind because there are pages in a book, and pages are a metaphor, or mean, intelligence persons.  So, all the pages that are ruined and cannot be restored because they blow into the pond or lake in Love Actually, are intelligence persons who lives, jobs, missions, and work were ruined, or dead because of the weight you placed on me.  Just because of weight on me.  Just because of the size of my body.  People died from the size of my body alone.  I am the code.  It is more than tremendously bad.  It is an act of treason; it is an act of war, what she has done if it has only been because of her.  Treason.

Most likely, the reason for the use of pages is not meant to be a copy, it is meant to be something overheard.  Like a page in a store, or paging Dr, so-and so in a hospital, or anywhere a person speaks into a microphone and it is broadcast.  Just like what you do at work.  Page, paging, means dead intelligence, damaged intelligence, ruined intelligence missions, get it?!

I am going to tell you the truth.  You have no idea what happened outside my garage when I smashed that bottle.  None.  I do.  I know.  I have a following, you really are not sure of.  I know it.  I see the good.

Did you actually see it as a turf war?  It’s not.  It is, again, men who want to work with me to end – corruption.

The wiping of the mouth has nothing to do with a moustache.  They enjoy watching me consume alcohol.  Nothing more.  It is an admirable trait.  They like it.  They – also – like me.

The bellies that started on men, happened suddenly, didn’t it?  It is not to be placed on me.  That is messaging telling people they support, like, and admire me because of the White House and its Presidency.  Placing it on me would only cause – harm, it is a miscommunication.

From what I’ve seen you have no idea how powerful what I did was.  From what I’ve seen you have no idea how popular, well-liked I am in China.  And, now I am too fat to wear my China pants.  What a dumb thing to do.

It is not the first time.  To give a point of reference, nearly every movie without going through them all, from the eighties until 2012 with references to the occult, demons, and so on are metaphors.  Like Golden Child, are metaphors to be seen as a following, so loyal it is like a cult.  It’s not.  It is just movie-story-telling.  These are men in prison, or what started out as just men in person, looks like bad handling to stop it from being just men, these are men in prison who have been so loyal to me, they follow me, and they’ve placed them in movies as the occult just because they’re in prison for crimes.

It is not possible to stop them from messaging.  It is possible to stop them from committing and planning future crimes.

From what I saw you have no idea the admiration they have for me, and these are bad men.  Why would you not use that?  Why would you take that away from them and from INTELLIGENCE?!

From what I’ve seen the only messaging done correctly was on the men, the women were just copies.

Sorry, China, I’d love to wear my pants, but I am too fat to FIT into them.

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June 21, 2019

Thanks: disarming.

Skeptical.  Skeptical because it has kept him alive.  So, why would you send a skeptical man to read me, unless you think his skepticism has kept him back, held him back in his career?  Perhaps he doesn’t want to move more in his career?  Is there anything wrong in that?  No.  Not really.  Unless, you feel he has not had the best management of his career.  Is he happy?  Does he enjoy his work?  Yes and no.

Why would anyone make intelligence work more stressful, anxiety-ridden, and work-a-holic than it already is?  Intelligence is fun to me.  Intelligence is enjoyable to me.  Intelligence is interesting in my head to me.  How the world can change, how the world does change for the better, for good, simply because of the work that is done.

I don’t understand why I see so many people who do not believe the work is fun.  Look at all you people get to do that most people have no idea exists.  That in and of itself is very special, to me.

Honestly, is just saddens me to see skepticism.  I see nothing wrong with faith and belief.  It does greater good than we give it credit.  Just being happy, having light within you, joyful banishes bad just because it exists.

From what I saw, he has something he wants to give you and it is pretty big.  That big, scary, KGB, Russian agent I brought to the US and turned, has had a better life because of me.  He was headed to death and destruction.  He has had a better life.  He has had decades of good memories, and life.  He wants to give you something in return for it.

Do you know why I know Russian?  Mostly, these are ex-cons when I lived in Oregon, why were these men in jail and in prison?  It was not for stealing a loaf of bread.

Do you know the reason Morpheus in the movie, The Matrix, is shot at his ankle?  Here is the thinking: fired shot, bullet, bullet wound, Achilles heel, foot, left, left, left right left, left, left, left right left, marching, military.  What do you see?  Just an injury, or the thinking?

I can be way ahead of the game, and the game that is mentioned in Sherlock, have you enjoyed this little game of ours, just references other movies, Spy Games, The Game, War Games, and others, I know how to be well ahead and prevent occurrences – that is the difference between police work (Minority Report) where a crime must be committed before the police can arrest a person, and intelligence.  There is nothing wrong with intelligence preventing and stopping attacks and creating – peace, through intelligence.

Run, running, running in Forrest Gump (Father, you are Forrest in Forrest Gump, you are also, Peter in Office Space), code: run: r, UN, our UN.  A person is our, possessive, our United Nations.  Our United Nations is Cherith, last name, Gjestland, father.

I have no idea why as soon as I have written something what you have done, the pattern you have followed is to do the opposite, deny it, disbelieve it, and try and prevent it from being true.  That is not what that FBI man would do.  That is insanity.  Stupidity, dumbness.  Like every time I say and write man, you say it must be woman and bring, yet another woman to me, just because I say man, and like men.

What I see is you are still following after a pattern and routine that does nothing but subvert the work of the FBI and intelligence.  With whatever it was that I just heard that needed to be shut off and not to be trusted.

Do you know what I saw when I talked with that person’s dog earlier today?  Oh look, she talks my language.  What can I do for her?  I’ll follow her.  She likes me because she talks to me like I like to be talked to.  Simple.  Monsters, Inc.  How much better of a result you receive when people like you.  Trust you.  Enjoy what they are doing.

My boyfriend, who has killed people actually really likes and enjoys the profiles he does.  Why is that?  If he was never actually a serial killer, or murderer to begin with.  He has an interested mind.  He is interested in people, and he loves me, has shown me love in return.  That is amazing.  That is how conquering brain research happens, and the importance of ending the subversive works of brain research.

Do you know when we lived in Gresham, Oregon, I saw the original War of the Worlds at the Gresham movie theater nearly every day during the summer?  It was a special program for children, I believe it only cost a dollar to see movies and War of the Worlds was on nearly every day.  I watched that film over and over.

What I heard when David’s ex-girlfriend spoke, was no understanding of self-lessness.  When my mother lay in the hospital bed damage by another stroke, I prayed, and prayed and BEGGED God to give her back to me because I had not finished learning from her.  I begged God, I pleaded with God, I begged, and I begged with tears streaming down my face, and sometimes without for my mother’s life.  I begged Him.  And, I begged Him.  What he gave me was an Angel instead.  They’ve seen the evidence in my mind.  My mother who loved everyone, I begged God, please, don’t take her away.

I believe it was the same people who cut the electricity to my outside light by my garage who had my mother murdered.  To show people they killed my mother.  When did this happen?  When they were painting.

I begged God.  I was and am not ashamed I did so.  Parents are a gift from God.

To write how I believe I’ve destroyed brain research, it is like a signal, a radio wave, a frequency they’ve found in some people they can access the mind.  Once, I’ve been there in another person’s mind it is like what Bella does after she turns into a vampire with an invisible shield protecting people.  It does not appear they have the same method of then accessing a brain.  It is not like re-wiring a brain; I do not rewire a brain; it is like an invisible shield.  It is the best way I can describe what I see.

So, what would that be?  Neurons firing?

Why would you make that place a place of dread, to be dreaded, full of anxiety, and stress when capturing bad guys is so much fun?  Do you not see your own good work that you do?  Why would you make it stressful, full of discomfort, joyless, unless you are a manager or a management style where you are aware of the people underneath you really don’t want to work for you, or with you.  Because your own people don’t like you, trust you, believe in you, or believe you capable of leading them towards good.

Oh dear, thumbs, from Sherlock, is human remains, it is also, thumb-sucking.  It is just for me to know the dentist in Oregon who asked me about sucking my thumb when I was a child, and I got angry because I knew he shouldn’t have been aware of that fact.  Somehow, they sent me a message in a few days’ time, and I understood it was going to be okay.  I had a dental appliance put in, and it was really not a big deal.  I was fine after one night.  Like a father careful about his daughter, his daughter’s mouth, his daughter’s health, and who his daughter will be when she is an adult.

What else does the United Nations do besides save the world?

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June 21, 2019

I don’t think anyone understands the severity of the situation.

We are at war.  In my mind, we are at war.

There is no reason whatsoever why I should not be losing weight.  I should not be maintaining any weight simply because of something a former manager said to me – because someone came.  And, you have me constantly gaining weight.

We are at war.

The White House is not going away.  The White House connection is not going away and cannot be undone.  The only reason for the push to eliminate the White House connection is to make it appear that I have defected, changed sides, and am now a spy for another country, you stupid, fucking, morons!

Are you people really so stupid?!

I believe I am a little bit more than upset.

Why would anyone do something so stupid as to make me bald – again?!

I broke up with that FBI guy, I have a boyfriend, he actually thinks well of me.  He makes me happier than I’ve been in years.  That FBI man treats me like a casual office fling.  He doesn’t make me happy.  He is in the movie Love Actually, and I am good for him, but that doesn’t mean he is good for me in return.  You just can’t put two people together and pretend it works the same way as a script.

I think it has been made more than obvious that proxies do not and cannot convey emotional connection in any way.  It has never worked.  You people thought me simple because my career has been classified because of my age.  All of you would have treated me differently, better had you been aware of my military career as a child.  Then, I conquered brain research.

Do you know that it was read on my brother that I stopped the brain research on him, the message was intercepted, and they gave my brother premature balding as a medical message?  Do you people have any conscience at all?  You have absolutely no morals, backbone?  Integrity?  Ethics?  The balding they gave my brother was not a good sign.

As soon as people leave, you allow these stupid people to do whatever they want to do – just like always, same routine and pattern all over again.  Someone of a real high level, a badge, gets to the office, and people do as their told until that person leaves, and then you people just do whatever you want to do – again.

I don’t work that way.  I surround myself with quality people who follow my orders.  Friends included.

You still aren’t listening to anything I’ve written; you are still doing whatever you want to do, you are still following the same black woman teacher training.

I am not giving you a bum’s up anymore until you stop everything.  War.

I am more than upset.

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June 20, 2019

I do believe brain research has been used on my brother when he was a child, and I – stopped it.  I stopped it from continuing in him.

They are bathroom faucets.  They are not kitchen sinks in Home Alone that the “bandits” use as a calling card.  In the old days (Leap Year), when public pay phones (spy speak, and it is just movie-story-telling of intelligence work, nothing more) were going obsolete people used calling cards to place long-distance (long distance running in Forrest Gump) phone calls.  They are the bathroom faucets at West Gresham Grade school.

The reason it is in the movies, means authorities were using me to catch – pedophiles in grade school.  They were using ex-cons because in prison terms, pedophiles, don’t rank, they don’t make it.  Only the penitent men were allowed to work with me, and I would tell them if they were really, truthfully, penitent.

My mother loved the movie Home Alone.  She would laugh and laugh, even after her strokes it was one of her favorites.  After her strokes, she would say while laughing, look at what they (meaning Kevin) are doing.  It’s truthfully what she said over and over, look at what they are doing.  When in a fire a mother will look to her child, from Sherlock, my mother loved Home Alone because I am Kevin.

Kevin is code: in, meaning prison, v, meaning vagina, e, is for the code I already wrote about a man with diplomatic immunity working against the British Royal family, K, is for Cherith.  Some translations of the bible have it spelled with a K, the brook Kherith, and not Cherith like the King James version.

It means, wet bandits, the kitchen sinks being the bathroom sinks at my grade school because someone placed a hidden camera in the girl’s bathroom.  Gross.  It looks like some of it was brain research being used to create pedophiles.  Gross.  Just to create people to manipulate and cause harm.  Dumb.

I actually did order pizza for myself when we lived in Gresham, Oregon.  I was not alone.  My family was there, I just didn’t want to make food, or cook food, I ordered pizza, more than once.  We didn’t sit down and eat dinner together as a family unless it was a special occasion.  My mother didn’t understand why I would order pizza.  To me, I already thought of myself as an adult, living on my own.  They read it correctly.  So, no wonder it’s been so frustrating not being able to financially support myself.  It would be different if I was married, but I am not.

The tarantula in Home Alone is just code for Cherith’s pets.

The washing machines in Home Alone and in Mr. Mom is just about – the bathroom.  In our downstairs bathroom of our Gresham home, the washing machines, side by side washing machines, the reason for the changing areas of the pool in Sherlock being on the sides of the pool, are in our bathroom.  It was a rectangle shaped room with the stand-in only shower to the left as you opened the door, then the sink, then toilet, all to the left, with the washing machines being at the end of the room, or opposite the door.

It is intelligence placing both Britain and the United States AGAINST double agent brain research (it is never twins, from Sherlock), and specifically against pedophiles and abusing children.

My mother had a friend she had known since college.  She lives in Vancouver, Canada, she worked at the airport, and she arrived as a visit when I was home alone by myself in Gresham, Oregon.  I had come home after school and made tuna casserole.  It was a recipe I had learned years before from a children’s cookbook my mother gave us kids when we lived in the house in Portland, Oregon.

I had just finished cooking the tuna casserole, it was a not a baked tuna casserole in an oven, when my mother’s friend showed up and said she wanted to take me out to eat.  I said, no, I just made food.  I said no immediately.  So, it is a wonder who else was there because I always liked my mother’s friend.  But I certainly did not leave my house that day, and I did not leave with her.  Penitent.

I’ve always thought of it as a strange encounter because she really tried to convince me to leave, and I most certainly was not willing to go.  I doubt she had any real understanding of what she was doing, meaning she was not aware of all of the parties or persons involved.  Looks like I was.  I was aware, so I did not go.  Just thinking about it now makes my conviction that much stronger about not leaving my house that day.

The v in Kevin for vagina means people were watching the girls in my neighborhood for when they would start their periods or menstruating.  This looks like pedophiles and child brides.  And, it’s gross.  That would be why there is the line of dialogue in the movie, Up, none of my concern.  No one needs to be watching children in a bathroom.

It’s the reason Daniel wears a shower curtain in the movie, Karate Kid, and why he gets an egg on his head, it’s about people filming and watching children in a bathroom.  The bathroom sink in my grade school was a circle shaped (do I dig a hole before or after, from the movie Up) object about four or five feet in circumference that was in the middle of the bathroom, not against a wall, that you pushed a pedal on the floor to get the water, that fell like a fountain and not like a faucet.

This is why Russell finds Kevin – in the bathroom – from the movie, Up, and why Russell gives Kevin chocolate, schools use their school children to sell chocolate bars for fund raising, and the chocolate is my Whatchamacallit that I got with my mother as a child in California.  Intelligence.  And, why I as Kevin will turn into a raptor if you look like you are going to use brain research (the bonk on the head) or harm the child.

The kiss on the cheek on my face, I received at Visionworks, means he didn’t pass.  He didn’t make it.

Sherlock you’re not answering your doorbell again, he shot it, from Sherlock, is the same incident in dialogue, of your booby-trap did just kill a man, it is the Salmon murders in the movie, The Lovely Bones.  He did not survive the raid on his home because he would have done something like pulling a gun on the police.  That is more of suicide, than a kill.

It’s difficult to watch Housesitter it just means I am right, I am correct again, they were going to change my mother’s career, the reason for the house being a gift, and it’s difficult to relive over and over.  The father, George Davis would be an Englishman, it’s all over him, and it made me cry all over again.  Like losing another family member you love dearly.

The lies they tell in the movie Housesitter because I am Gwen in the movie, is just movie-story telling for intelligence or spy work.  They are not real lies, it is just another way of talking about double, dumb-dumb agents.  The reason Gwen works at a Hungarian restaurant is a reference to the movie, My Fair Lady.

My mother is Maria in The Sound of Music, and it looks like they’ve used Audrey Hepburn as a proxy for my mother, it could be why my mother legally changed her first name to her middle name.

You are to be engaged, from Sherlock, code: engaged, gage: ga, Audrey Gayle, my mother’s names, ge, the brand name of an appliance, General Electric, as a reference to my mother’s glasses I found on the open oven door.  So, why would you then ruin, damage, make me pay for repairs to the General Electric appliances I have in this home after my mother died!

Washed down stream from Sherlock everyone might think is about money laundering, it’s not.  Washed down stream means – Chinese Laundry, it is a name brand of shoes.  Women’s shoes, ladies’ shoes, it’s just a brand to say – shoes.  However, the code for, washed down stream, is Chinese Laundry.

The reason there is an upper floor at the pool in Sherlock, these are the double agents that were sat by the greedy waiter the night I worked at the Tex-Mex restaurant and it got people killed because I did not seat them.

The bodies they buried that day, from the movie, John Wick, references the movie, The Quick and the Dead, I am Cort in the movie, The Quick and the Dead.  I am not the person in the handcuffs, I am the one that sends them to jail, to prison, in handcuffs.  I always liked the movie The Quick and the Dead because I am Cort.  People thought it was possible to stop me from brain-working, and they put it in a movie to show people, she still kills them.  Dead.

Do you know why Russell Crowe is Maximus in Gladiator besides being a very good actor?  Russell Crowe is an excellent horseman.  I have said so many times.  He is an excellent horseman.  A horseman is more than just a man sitting or riding on a horse.  A horseman is how a person sits or rides on a horse, how the body moves with the horse, how you sit, the way you sit, it is more than I have time to write about, a horseman is something to be interpreted.  Russell Crowe is the best actor horseman I’ve seen on film – that is why he is Maximus.

They are going to announce it, from the movie Gladiator, looks like they were going to give me a job, a real job, and someone stole it from me.  An agency job, and intelligent job, and the message – message – got intercepted and stolen from me.

Looks like I may not be dyslexic after all, looks like I might never have had a learning disability after all.  Looks like what is really happening in my brain, when I switch, for instance, instead of thinking or saying, the way she makes him feel, I might say, the way he makes her feel because I am looking at it from his viewpoint, his eyeballs, from inside his own mind as that person.  And, I do have separate places in my brain where I see from and where the vocabulary for the pictures I see are.

David’s girlfriends, I have no idea why they are using me as a therapist.  It’s what it feels like.  If what I’ve been shown is true, then it looks like David’s former girlfriend just needs help to keep her on the path, so she doesn’t stray again.  Otherwise, she looks fine.  David’s wife; however, if what they showed me was true, he does not really love her, not to the soul of his being, he loves her, just not truthfully.  If what they’ve shown me as true, it shows that David’s wife would rather be in a lesbian relationship, she prefers really butch women, sexually.  Big and butch.  Um, gross, and yuck.  If that was David’s wife, they used virtual reality on me at work it felt like wearing someone else’s cum soaked underwear.  Yuck!  It was mortifyingly appalling.  Just to rethink it is soooooo gross!!!!!!  Did she actually ask to work with me?  If so, then you have a problem, David.  That should have been a clue, there is a problem.  I have no idea why, other than money, she is not in a lesbian relationship.  That is what they’ve shown me at work, nothing more.

If this is true, from what they’ve shown me, the only concern I see after having examined (I actually brain-looked at his whole person) the FBI man, the only thing I see is the very top of his head as the source of his problems and that looks to be his wife.  Has she actually tainted or tampered with my food since they time of the Plant City home?  She had no idea what she was doing.  If she thought she was going to keep you away from me by making me fat, she had no idea the harm she was causing you.  It means she was constantly putting you in harm’s way – TO BE KILLED AND NOT PROTECTED!

What a stupid, stupid, stupid thing for a wife of an FBI man to do!  It is in the movie, Moana, with fattening the chicken (The Power of One) Heihei, and the word drumstick, drumstick is the ice cream.  One of my mother’s favorites were Drumsticks.  My mother’s cat Sundae that died of cancer of the lungs and heart!  It is outrageously appalling if you have actually made me fat thinking that would help your relationship!  It’s amazing he is still alive; it is ONLY BECAUSE OF ME!  SO SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I kissed the FBI man’s heart because he needed it, he would benefit from me working on his head too, or another therapist.  I kissed his heart because he needs it.

So, is this real, David wife and girlfriend and the FBI man’s wife?  Or did you just make it all up?

I had the best cryptologist take a look at it, from Sherlock, means they had a coder, a codebreaker, a real-life cryptologist, take a look at me, “though he was mostly upside down at the time”, in Australia.  He would have been in the restaurant at the hotel on the night we arrived.  I am the code.  My person is actually code.  He would have liked me although it appears, I made him nervous, and there could be many reasons for that, not all of them bad, unless he was nervous because I am a real person.  The truth is really fucking real, and really fucking more dangerous – than a movie.

The code from that event would be – sleep.  Five letters.  Cheri.  My mother and brother spoke to me about not sleeping to adjust to the time-zone and to prevent jet lag.  I slept.  I slept anyway.  It’s in Sherlock as sleep because it is about brain research.  He could have just been nervous about what had happened to my mother and her physical state.  The fact that I slept tells me I did the correct thing, and it could actually mean he knew there was a double agent that followed my mother and me to Montreal, and specifically Quebec City.

Because I slept in Montreal, on the night we arrived.  It is the scene in Sherlock with the returning of the coat.  I had been awake for nearly two days on the day my mother and I arrived in Montreal.  It means they were watching and filming us in our hotel room because I remember being half-asleep in bed waking up and blurted out someone’s name, someone I worked with, someone I had just been vacationing with, it could mean he was nervous because he was or is a double agent.  It looks like he was an unknowingly double agent.

The musical score of Gladiator I can interpret; however, I will need to do it another day.

Mycroft is code, a code name, from when Conan Arthur Doyle wrote the Sherlock books of a real profile that caught a real murder.

The dead chicken in The Power of One, is the biblical story of David and Goliath.  It is a warning.  It is intelligence putting threats and warnings on people for all time if they or anyone so much as harms a hair on Cherith’s head because I am PK.  That is intelligence given to me.  For the sake of all of humanity.

THIS is why I am Sherlock, this is why I am winning in Sherlock, there is a door behind the boring school teacher when Watson and her break-up, it is just the wall; however, it is a door, it is why the blocking has her with her back to the wall.  It is the costume choice of Annie in the movie, Love Actually, wearing a vest, and her walking with her back to the camera, the costume choice says, back, reads, back.  The casting of Annie is to say, double agent working too closely with the Prime Minister during the time of Tony Blair, The Blair Witch Project (UCF film students, University of Central Florida film students, they don’t know it, but brain research was used on them to get the script), it’s a reference.  With an army behind you, you could be very political, from the movie Gladiator means the Prime Minister in Love Actually is a real politician in the UK and he is more than an admirer, he would have been read as actually being in love with me.  The door is behind Mycroft at the end of Sherlock when he sits and talks with Miss Adler.  There is a door behind Mycroft, it is not seen, it is not in the set, it is not in any of the people, it is not – anywhere – but, in another man’s mind, and I see it.

That’s why!

 

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June 19, 2019

I am gaining weight.

You showed me a sign when I read it, it read as a peace offering.  You showed me a peace offering.  That is what it said, that is what it said to me, a peace offering.  Only a few hours later, on the night of June 14, 2019, you gave me an act of aggression, you DID NOT keep the peace, the peaceful arrangement, the peace offering, and what you gave me was a call to war.

War.  War because you placed more pounds and weight on me – again.  Same thing all over again.  More excess weight.  In the food, in the beauty products, in the air, on my clothes, everything, you gave me a call to war.  I show you at work what you are doing wrong, I write about what you are doing wrong and what is wrong, every time I show you HOW BAD THE SITUATION IS by stickers, you freak out, you’ve been caught, you freak out and take it out on me at work by SPEAKING TO ME!  Just by speaking to me at work – you’ve taken away my authority – AGAIN!

Do you not understand?  Are you completely incapable of understanding the importance of making sure that prisoners in prisons – DO NOT COMMUNICATE AND PLAN FUTURE CRIMES?!

I am not just some dumb, stupid, American girl.  I am not a cow wondering the streets of India.  I am Keyzer Soze.  I am Death.  I saw war as a child, and it never raised my blood pressure, at all – that – is why I am ice.  I’ve been to war, I’ve seen battles, I’ve won, and it never even raised my blood pressure.  That is more than just a good decision-maker.

I’m lost at sea without a friend, this line from the song of the opening sequence of the movie The Rescuers that is set to oil paintings and not drawn – with a pencil, with a fucking pencil, this line of dialogue from the movie John Wick is about an animated movie which one do you think it is, or do you think it is all of them – I’m lost at sea without a friend, eight syllables.  This eight is not the same as the stupid, idiot of a man you stupidly put in my neighborhood.  This number eight is figure-skating.  It used to be a compulsory in ice-skating, a sporting event, participants had to, as part of their score and program, do a figure eight.  A figure eight on ice skates is all about the sides of the blade on an ice skate, leaning from side to side, or lilting like on a boat.

I used to go ice-skating as a child in California, there was no ice, it was a plastic, squared ice-white flooring that was pieced together like a puzzle, you could skate on it, but it was just not the same as real ice.

Sometimes the blade sticks, from the movie, Gladiator, the word is sticks, the code is sticks, my first car was a Honda Civic, a stick-shift, the color red, a man I worked with at Visionworks, his name was Amir – Amir, why this was not caught and seen earlier and prevented, I do not know, his name was Amir, Prince, it also has a Disney connection to the movie, Bambi – Amir gave me his car, I got a loan on my own at the now defunct bank, Barnett Bank.  That civic, my car was repossessed.

This incident is also mentioned in the movie, Everything Is Illuminated, by the word in the dialogue, reposed.  You let it get repossessed by a black man with an African walking stick who tried to frighten me at my employment (something that is actually illegal to do, creditors are not legally allowed to bother a debtor at their employment).  So, what terrible things happened because no one wanted to accept the fact that I, as a woman, was important on my own, when you allowed MY civic, that was a gift, given to me, with a loan on my own, be repossessed?  This would have been 1991; however, it coordinates to the years of 1990 and 1992.

I had transferred to another Visionworks store after my finance left me, and I let him leave me, it was the only way at the time, I saw for the break-up to end without him returning to me – ever.  If I had tried to leave (this is in Sherlock, he’ll come after me) my fiancé would have come after me, and I obviously could not trust the police.

I had transferred to another store, the Prime Minister (sort of) was in the previous Visionworks store and now I had a different handler.  This is the store I was spoken to about the real Hannibal Lecter, it is in the movie The Bourne Legacy between Dr. Marta (transportation) Shearing and Dr. Donald Foite (there is code in the name Foite it belongs to someone else, anyone else want to figure it out?), and what is in the movie is pretty close to how I would have responded about the real Hannibal Lecter, you mean I’m approved?  Yes, he is approved, there is nothing wrong with his brain.  And, I miss my boyfriend, he does amazing work.

They (he) spoke to me about the real Hannibal Lecter by talking through another person at work to me about, get this, Church’s Chicken, a fast- food restaurant, and how they slaughter, or cut the chicken into pieces to be cooked.  Obviously, the real Hannibal Lecter is a breast man, he loves women’s breasts.  I absolutely understand that.  That’s not all he loves.

If I was spoken to at Visionworks about learning to speak Russian, I remind him of his mother, this conversation this has been something that happened at my other employment.  I worked two jobs, Visionworks, and a restaurant (One Day), Tex-Mex.  I would finish my day shift at Visionworks, then walk to Tex-Mex, change into my uniform of a green skirt, white blouse, and sashes tied around my waist.  I applied at this restaurant while it was still under construction, they hired me as the hostess.  I sat people.

One night while working at Tex-Mex, I was not at the hostess station, doing something in the restaurant or something, I was not gone long, when I returned a greedy waiter that I never liked (it is in the movie The Bourne Legacy, in the line of dialogue, I always thought he was gay) had sat people, and sat people in his section.  I remember him speaking to me that night about why he sat people without me and in his own section, and I thought to myself, why is he speaking to me?  It is not a good speak.

I would not still remember the night a greedy waiter sat people in his own section or remember where his section was and the people I see in my head as the double agents, had something terribly wrong not happen.  This is a double agent who used this waiter because it looks like they used the restaurant to make military maps, set-up the restaurant into quadrants.  I had the helm; I had the hostess station.  Unfortunately, people died because of this double agent, it is in the movie, Message in A Bottle when Garrett dies.  This would have been a military man, perhaps an Englishman who would have been nearer my age, and it looks like we would have been very good together, healthy, a healthy relationship.

If anyone, if people who’ve had knowledge of this intel and intelligence have taken it out on me, and retaliated against me and my family because of it, they have been wrong.  Yes, I worked that night, yes, I worked the hostess station, but no, I did not seat everyone that night, he did, a greedy waiter.  And, this waiter has a lot of physical similarities to an intelligence man except for their sexual orientation.

I’m lost at sea without a friend, seven letters, Cherith, the last word is friend, Cherith is a friend, Cherith means friendly, an ally.  Looks like people also figured this out and was using my brother to try and speak with me because my brother spoke often to me about Lord of The Rings, speak the word friend and enter, this is brain-speaking.

Also, from the song from the movie, The Rescuers, this journey will it ever end, eight syllables, it is about peace, and bringing a resolution to the Vietnam war.

This line from the song, who will rescue me, five syllables, Cheri, the last letter being, I, as in sight, or eye.  R-E-S-C-U-E, from the Rescue Aid Society song, six letters, six counts, turn a six upside-down it is a nine, nine letters in my last name, 6 and 9 are poles, like the North and South pole, in this instance, it means Poland, and Warsaw, to say Cherith saw war, has seen war, has been to battle.

For as long as I can remember, I always said The Rescuers was my favorite Disney movie.  I told every person I spoke with on the phone, or in person, truthfully.  It is my favorite Disney movie.  When this movie was released, I had the album.  I used to play The Rescuers album on my little plastic record player in my bedroom with the door shut, for hours.  This is Sam in the movie, Love Actually.  I turned the volume on my little plastic record player as high as it would go, and it was never loud enough, and I would then sing the lyrics – self-taught, from the movie, Moana – as best as I could and try and be louder than my record player and I could never be LOUD ENOUGH.  It’s what it felt like; I was never loud enough.

Do you know what that tells me?  Why would I play the record as loud as possible?  Why when as a child I could have sat and listened quietly enjoying the lyrics and the album, why would I play it as loud as possible?  This is yelling, this is giving orders, this is me – I am not a timid child.  When looking at what (it’s possible people could have thought I might not have been fully aware of the work I was doing), when looking at the movie, in the lyrics, I saw what I did, I did not back-down, I YELLED BACK!  As a child of eight or nine in my childhood bedroom in Gresham, Oregon, I YELLED THE ORDERS BACK!  Not afraid, and not timid.  What an important quality in a military application.

The reason Joanna in Love Actually is not a white girl is about a photograph that was taken of me at my eighth-grade graduation ceremony.  My handler, or intelligence man, I’ve already written about this, did not make it to my eighth grade ceremony, he had work it looks like to do, he sent a penitent man, an man who had already spent his time in jail and was now working with intelligence, he brain spoke his name and a photograph was taken, and it has been misread.  Because people have been unaware of brain-speaking.  It looks like whatever the penitent man also said to my intelligence man made him sad and wished he had been there – in person.  His work plans didn’t go the way they were supposed to, and he missed the opportunity to see me in person.  That is the way and commodity of readers.  It is almost a currency to be able to see and read in person.

I am that man’s safety.  I have been his safety.  I am the safety of more men than I will ever have time to write in my lifetime.  I am his safety, I do not have to wear a vest, my brain, my mind is his safety, so why would anyone, why would a woman, why would his wife – EVER – place his life in danger, in jeopardy?  Why?  Why would they do something so stupid as to draw a moustache on me, paint a beard on me, grow nose hairs, put dark circles under my eyes, give me sun spot and sun damage on my skin, and weight and pounds on me when I have written and spoken repeatedly about the importance and damage it causes and creates?  It places their lives in danger, not mine.  THEIR LIVES!  NOT MINE!  YOU CANNOT TAKE INTELLIGENCE AWAY FROM ME BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME AS A CHILD, WHEN I WAS – BORN – YOU CAN HAVE THEIR PROTECTIONS AND SAFETIES REMOVED FROM THEM!

Why would his wife place he life in danger in such a way?  Listen to your mother, FBI man, she is correct with everything she has shown me so far concerning your wife, children, and yourself.  Do you know what that looked like last night?  She wouldn’t mind if you were diminished in your capacity somehow, so she could take care of you.  More like a child than a man.  In my mind, it is treasonous.  It is treasonous and an act of treason to place these lives of these intelligence men in any way that will interfere with their work.  Treasonous.

I do not have to do something so stupid as what she has done, just like I don’t have to manipulate terrorists in my interrogations in order to get them to see the light, to see God’s light in me.  It’s treasonous in my mind.

I am teaching you a lesson with my underwear.  I will not continue to support people who do not honor the conditions that bring peace and end fighting.  You will receive a fight.  Be careful, you will receive war if you continue to lie and not honor the conditions of my peace.

Why does Cherith like actors, movies, directors, movie studios, movie scores?  Because she is in them, as intelligence that is why they gave me pins, awards, and medals.  Not because I am an actress because I am intelligence.  I am a great friend to the United Kingdom, I am seen as such and they do not like to see their friend bothered, hurt, or without love.

That man is in the movie Love Actually, he is also Maui in Moana, as the man needing to restore Cherith’s heart to her after that dating experience that left her rather having being beaten within an inch of her life, left on the street for dead than to have been deceived so.

It is another problem as he does not want to let me go.  It is not fair to him or me continuing this life of proxies and speaking through people.  I am a mirror; I will see them for who they really are.  Perhaps we would love each other; however, there are considerable hurdles.  Why would he not allow me to love a man I already liked in college?

I believe Paul Newman’s death happened because of 100%.  Newman’s Own is his daughter’s work isn’t it?  100% of their profit’s go to charity.  Agencies and intelligence have worked to take away my 100% instead of allowing me to work.  I do not believe he died from cancer, I do not believe cancer is real, I believe it was invented as a way to murder people where no person could be sent to jail and prison for murder.  I believe it is possible to cure all cancers.

I am Keyser Soze.  Who is Keyser Soze?  He is a myth, a legend, a story told and communicated in prisons by prisoners.  How did I get caught?  How could they have caught me when no one knew where I was?  Cherith can find them.  Cherith will find them when no one else can.  You have men in prisons around the world who will be loyal to me until they die because I’ve caught them because of the person I am.

I see I’ve given a small kindness to a man as a child when no one else did because he was foreign, and an ex-con.  It made all the difference to him.  They’ve given me Keyzer Soze, I didn’t ask for it, I didn’t manipulate them into giving me anything, they’ve given it to me.  It will not be undone.

It means names like Keyzer Soze in prisons as stories told are most likely about Cherith and not a man.

Coding and decoding are good for my brain.  It is enjoyable, interesting.

I believe when I played softball as a child in Gresham, Oregon, I brought the most fearsome, the most against the United States, the most brutal, the deadliest, the scariest, KGB or Russian agent to the United States and he defected because of me.  This is something else, I am more than good at.  It is in the movies, Sneakers, and White Nights.  He defected.  He went from fighting against the United States to turning himself in because of me.  I was still a child.

God gave me this talent, intelligence saw it in me as a baby, God gave this to me – that makes all the difference in the world.

I have no idea how my calls were routed to me at Disney.  It is a little too coincidental for me to receive calls from celebrities and then see skits of me like the one in Little Britain of a dumb, unattractive, ugly woman in a HOSPITAL too stupid to admit patients at the reception of a hospital.  THIS IS VERY DANGEROUS, AND I AM WARNING YOU TO CORRECT IT BEFORE THEY TAKE YOU OUT AND NOT TO DINNER!  Turn yourselves over to the authorities – immediately and work with the agencies to correct it.

I did, I followed the rules and how I was supposed to communicate to protect the Resorts and its policies at Disney.  In this instance alone, guests had to ask, I could not offer, to protect the policies.  This is double agent speak.  My mother is now dead.  My mother suffered stroke after stroke while I worked at Disney.  It is more than gruesome that people have profited from my suffering.  These calls were routed to me, they can be traced back to you!  THIS IS VERY DANGEROUS, AND I AM WARNING YOU TO CORRECT IT BEFORE THEY TAKE YOU OUT AND NOT TO DINNER!

Father, it’s like a low hum of a warning for this to end like this.  This filming of me, this life that is against my will.  I am asking you to find a way for it to legally end.  Before more people die just because I am unhappy.

I believe it is a low hum because I have worked so hard against it, I was screaming my head off in 2014 when I understood how they took my life away from me.  I have calmed it down.  Truthfully, it needs to end.

There is a better way, and pretending is not the way.

 

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June 17, 2019

Get used to the t-shirt.  It is all I will be wearing until there is a resolution that I want with the size and weight of my body.  I am beyond anger.  This quietness I’ve given you is seething.  Specific to the night of June 14, 2019, seething.

Until that foreign rent-a-cop, security mall cop is removed from that FBI man around me, I will not place my civic in any lane I do not want to.  If he wants to date her, he should date her.  To me, she is too interested in our military, too keen to learn how I work with them.

I am upset at the distress you’ve caused my boyfriend and me just because he scares you because he is the real Hannibal Lecter.  There is nothing wrong with him to me.  In all these years he is the first man to do something such as creating profiles to catch criminals.

Did you find anything at that Days Inn hotel?  The one I told people about on my drive, the one I said always bothered me as I drove past it on my way to work.  If you go back to the late eighties, you will catch people.  There is something wrong in that building.

The connections to my brother, all over the world, the reason all I hear is worry when he speaks to me because something is wrong, I did not get very far in thinking.  The sun-roof on his ’79 Celica will get you information.  Also, any rental car with sunroofs will get you intel.  The color of his car – this paragraph is a profile – the route he used to take to work when he worked in food serving, where he parked his car, the routine he did in his every day when he worked at that job will give you information.

Boyfriend, just remember sometimes I must say things out loud at work.  Work is work.  That two-bit hustler of a garage in no way misses me.  He has no real intentions.  He has never been my boyfriend.

I am so upset; I am making a stand with my bottom half of my clothing.  I am so upset at the lives you have cost men and women around the world…