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May 7, 2019
Salmon, the name is just a location, Oregon, the Pacific Northwest. Susie, someone called me a Susie Q because I kept the house that I was renting a room in very clean, I never let it get dirty. This was the house and address I had in Seminole, Florida.
The sinkhole is not a sinkhole, it is the county dump. When we moved to our home in Gresham, Oregon it must have over-extended my families finances. My father took our garbage to the dump, every few weeks. This was before the regulated sanitary services, the garbage collection we have today. This was way ahead of the times.
We separated our trash. This was before people composted or talked about compost as something to do in a suburb. We burned all paper products in our fireplace and wood-burning stove, we composted organic materials, and the rest my father took to the dump because it was free. It was just a way to save money.
Susie driving her brother to the hospital, I drove or changed the gears for my mother in our van because she had hurt her arm, I have never known the reason her arm was hurt. My mother did have a medical concern with her wrist in the 90’s, I went with her to Tampa General to see a doctor this could be a reason for the sucking the venom in Twilight.
We actually grew corn in our vegetable garden in our yard.
This clubhouse where Susie is lured into, this is the gas station I walked past in the undeveloped land behind our home, the gas station where no roads were built to the gas station. I remember the first time I saw it, my brother did not seem concerned, he was walking ahead of me, my brother, the sort of Dennis The Menace being able to go all over and not appear as though he had been walking through dirt and such, did not seem worried, it stopped me, this gas station, it did say, get closer, go inside, see what is there, I never went.
It was a full scale, actual size building to look like an old-fashioned gas station. There were large tires scattered throughout this undeveloped land, and large tires, like tractor tires in the front of this gas station. It had a look of legitimacy. Like it could have been a real gas station.
This man who built this would have placed triggers to be remotely activated. Triggers upon approach of the building. It does look like it had a false bottom when someone walked inside the building, to trap someone. Somewhat like what happens to the horse in Hidalgo.
This man who built this building lived on the other side of Powell Blvd. from me. If there were children, he killed, they would have been in another school district from me. It seems that he killed three children at least, the reason for the secret password at the door on my sixteenth birthday party, cherry coke.
Since they have destroyed evidence in my home, I am not certain if three is a real number or not. It does appear as though he had killed children. This seems to have happened before we moved to our house in Gresham. Get it? Not all of the murders in The Lovely Bones are from the same serial killer.
This man also had a lookout that lived down the street toward Portland from my house, and he looks like he was a veteran. He is still alive, and he would have known better than to help this man. He would not have had employment, he would have been on disability, or some other monthly income that did not require him to work. It would be very difficult after all this time to get any sort of admission out of this man. The serial killer who built the gas station did have a job. He would have wanted to be appear as normal as possible. That is not that unusual. Most criminals pretend they are normal and average.
The man that built this gas station lived in a small house, a few blocks North of Powell Blvd. When his house was raided, he did not survive.
How much a father could love his child, this quote – that’s God. Father. God.
The doll houses, my mother bought me a doll house with furniture, I never liked to play with dolls. I thought it was boring, uninteresting. I was more interested in doing stuff than playing with dolls. At the time, I believed I was not girly like that. My mother, most likely, bought the doll house because it was something she would have liked to have as a child.
We had family friends that spent every Thanksgiving with us in Plant City, that had a room in their house just for dollhouses. It was the woman’s hobby.
Ray is The Sound of Music. The gazebo is not a gazebo. I had a bow-maker, and I made bows from ribbons for decorations on presents. I liked the bow-maker, that was more interesting to me than playing with dolls.
Be careful with this notion, and symbolism of itching. When the body is healing, sometimes it itches. That is actually true. Just something as simple as a scratch can itch when it is healing below the skin’s surface.
Holly is a deciduous tree; it grows in Oregon. They planted holly in our Plant City home and my mother removed it and replaced it with something else. Like she didn’t want to be reminded of Oregon anymore, or it meant something else to her.
Holly’s outfit with the plaid shirt, this is a little weird and disconcerting, I dressed like that for a Halloween party I went to when I worked at Hilton, with pigtails, and freckles. I don’t like Halloween that much, I don’t like dressing in costumes and that was all I wanted to do for a costume, a hillbilly. It was not a very good costume.
Was Stanley Tucci actually cast because I lived on Eliot? TS Eliot?
Probably the green house, is meant to show the state of Oregon, that’s why it is a house. I talked about Oregon being very green, green trees everywhere, there is not much other color in the landscape. It could also represent, envy.
The sketch of the dead bird looks like Edgar Allen Poe. I remember reading along as someone else in the class read out loud a poem by Edgar Allen Poe in middle school. They must have seen it on my face. When they read his most famous poem, The Raven, I started brain-thinking, who was this man, what made him want to write something like this, and it sent me to England. I would have told you Edgar Allen Poe was an Englishman because I remember going in my head to England. The Raven, Elijah sat by the brook Cherith and the ravens fed him from the Bible, 1 Kings 17.
The sketch book she finds in his room, is my mother’s Architecture class she took at Mt. Hood Community College. She liked architecture, and wanted to be and work in architecture – Housesitter, the movie – so, why would her teacher and professor want to discourage her from pursuing it?
This sketch book set off an alarm about my mother’s architecture course, this man is still alive, and he would have been working with another man who was also taking his course.
Was the hair-style of Clarice Starling in the original script? It is similar to Susan Parrish in Meet Joe Black, and I had cut my hair when I was 13, 14? This was the time my father was teaching English to Japanese exchange students, he was teaching them at Mt. Hood Community College, it was during the summer, there were no other classes going on at that time.
The floorboard is a little worrisome. This looks like my next-door neighbor from my most recent former home. My father was taking too long to lay the wood flooring my mother wanted, to replace the carpeting, so I did it. My neighbor came over and spoke to me at our front porch while I was doing this. It’s not that complicated to place hardwood flooring. This man’s mother had died before he moved next door, I never really liked him. It is worrisome. I saw the look in his eyes when I had lost a lot of weight, he walked over to my house, and spoke to me, I shut him down. That’s the fastest way to write that, I did not allow him to speak to me. I saw the look in his eyes.
Any cold, wet thing, I don’t like from Twilight, that’s me not being able to breathe or run in Oregon because of the cold, wet air and/or asthma. Running, running with a dog, not a bad idea if you are a runner, to run with a dog to be safe. We did run track outside in Oregon as often as the teacher wanted, and I did have a difficult time breathing and running then, I stopped, I remember at least once. It felt like a hole the size of my lungs like in the movie Death Becomes Her only I could feel it in my lungs not my bellybutton, this could just be brain-speaking.
Do you want to know how they caught the guy? How they got to his house? I got to have a boyfriend from school. I spent a night at a friend’s house, we all stayed out in their open-aired porch, and I kissed a boy most of the night. This house, was close if not on Powell Blvd.
None of my concern, from the movie Up, is probably me. Did you phrase the question correctly? Did you ask a question at all? When men were brain-speaking to me, did they phrase it in the form of a question? If they don’t really know what they are asking me, I am not really going to understand what they want. This is also referenced in Sherlock, who is my client.
Think about the writing assignments in the movie A River Runs Through It, writing as a metaphor for brain-speaking, it would be the reason for an economy of words. Not to brain-speak in full sentences, but in words. In the movie, A River Runs Through It, with Paul sitting on the steps while Norman re-writes the writing assignment, it makes it appear as though Paul did not have the same trouble as Norman (Norman, is not my real father in this movie) in getting the writing assignment correct the first time. This appears to be me as Paul and another boy as someone else’s real son as Norman.
It is a matter of will. The difference between being able to do something because they want to do it and someone being smart enough to be able to do something. Also, I was really unable to grasp that all of this was about me.
Not to date anyone with a Navy from Sherlock. Look at it this way, not to date/anyone/with/Navy. Not to date? This is a question. Why is Cherith not dating? Why haven’t they allowed Cherith to be seen with men and dating men? Anyone? As though there are no men around that would be willing and Cherith would like as well to date? And this question does appear to be from the Brits pertaining to my handling. With, meaning working together, and Navy, inaudible.
There is another to this as well, Not to date anyone with a Navy. It is, not to date, stop. It is code to be read, not to date then stop, or period, or end transmission. Not to date, that is in reference to the Spanish royal man I wrote about. Why someone else made this connection I am not sure, it is just not appropriate is the best way to write it. A dating scenario is just not appropriate.
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