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March 25, 2019

It is a little more than devastating.  How you have treated me over these last few days David shows me you have no idea how to put someone else before yourself.  Someone else’s needs before your own.  No wonder I never got close to you.  The only reason you got to where you are is because of me, and how I responded to you.  I am the reason you are where you are.  Not the other way around.

It is a little more than devastating for me to watch films and specifically to watch Memento, watching people enjoying torturing and abusing my mother, over and over for fun.  Why do you think it took me so long to watch the whole film?  It is more than devastating.

What does Cherith do to cope and manage and deal with this news and having to relive her mother’s death over and over for the whole world to see?  She plays a game.  I play Restaurant Dash.  A computer game.  It helps me.  It is a way I manage my headspace.  It is a way for me to continue living.  There are worse things for a person to do when dealing and managing grief and loss than to play a computer game.  It is the game I play the most at the moment.  They help my head.  I am not really interested in smoking that was for other people, not me.

I don’t go on a drinking binge, or try to kill myself, I can’t think of other self-harming things at the moment, all I do is play a game to manage the trauma.  And, what does David do because of it?  He uses the dialogue in the game as a copy, so that I am not able to rest.  How very cruel of David.  It shows him to be heartless and mean.

I have not been able to do simple things like color my hair, put my toothbrush together, wax my legs.  Simple things people do to keep their appearance normal.  You people are more interested in listening and reading me scream over and over than actually listening and being a true friend.

David, you are not my father.  Have actually been nice to my father and brother or have you just pushed your weight around?  Telling them what to do rather than learning who they are?

One way Cherith was dealing with grief and loss was to go running outside.  What did you do instead?  You thought it was more important to make a YouTube video.  So, you could look and feel more important than Cherith.

David you are too loud at the moment.  You look like a braggart, a glory-seeker, interested in nothing more than the superficial.

I am so worn to the nub, I feel thirty or more years older than my age.  Unable to work a job anymore.  There is no one in the whole world who does this work, this work that has given me no choice.  Worn.

I am truly not interested in maxing out my credit cards so you people can create a sort of competition.  It is meaningless.  Any and all of the competitions you have put together are nothing more than a way to distract and try and stop me from REMEMBERING.

They chose me, they chose me long before you David.  They chose me or they wouldn’t have placed all those clues and people in my path for me to discover what I am able to do.  Something really remarkable.  Something very few people are able to do.

This house is filled with death and death threats to me.  Every single coffee mug is poisoned.  Undrinkable.  That is not a television show.  That is not acting.  Killing people is not acting.  The bureau with my photographs is filled with death and death threats to me, that is not a television show.  That is not acting.  That is breaking and entering.

Yes, that knee is me, it is just a scar, it is not knee surgery.  That is not me in Point Break letting a bad man get away.  Nope, that is not me.

Who is this person that is so terrified of me leaving the state of Florida?  They are not in prison.

I am more than aware that all of this nonsense in news stories referencing my clothes and clothing is meaningless.  That is what they call a red herring.  The cobra on the uniform in Karate Kid and the reference in 12 Strong to a venomous snake, a red herring.  There is no connection and it means nothing.  I was chosen for a reason.

You should all be aware of my windows and how you are seen by me.  There is no reason for this to continue in this way.  You will find out years from now, the harm it has done to deny me living my life.

I am more than devastated.  David treats me as though he is the most important person in the world as if there is no other person in my life I should and do love.  His actions are cruel.

This house is too dark.  I want to get another cat, and a dog.  To be able to take my dog and perhaps my cats on walks outside.  I want to feel the fresh air outside.  This house is just too small.  I should be writing children’s stories instead.

It is more than devastating to watch people feeling victorious for the harm they have inflicted upon my mother.  That will go on.  It is a way to form public opinion.  It is a way people are trying to create history.  Someone wanted another World War.  They were trying to use me.

It is more than devastating.  David has no compassion for me.  He never has.  He never has been compassionate to me.

Devastating.

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March 25, 2019

The profile picture of Jerrold Nadler is very disturbing, sinister.  There is more there than I want to write about.

Who is this person that has done everything possible to stop me from never being able to leave the state of Florida?  Financially stopping me.  Creating problems and obstacles stopping me from leaving the state of Florida.  I think it is about time to move out of this state and not return.

This is sicker and more disturbing than it sounds.  Cats don’t burp.  Cats don’t pass gas.

It is unbelievable how tired I am still.

No more today.

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March 24, 2019

Is this really real?  Is this news story really real?  Did they actually invent a scenario of my surgery just to harvest my eggs to create babies and children?  Is that really real?  Or does someone just want to see me crying?  If it is true it is really…beyond words.

That is sick.

Why is David so excited?!

A man gave me a cigarette once, he told me they were Marlborough’s from London.  They weren’t.  They were a private blend.  He made it himself.  At the time, it tasted good.  Unlike anything I’ve ever had before.  The man would have passed a message along, I took the cigarette.

The bloody hand-print on the volleyball from Castaway is a Christian reference, Jesus, nailed to the cross.  I used to go to Adventure Island with people from work and watch them play volleyball.

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March 24, 2019

Horror filmmaker, this news story profile is, correct.

This is – again – so, gross.  I bought my Keurig from QVC before I moved here, before I messaged David on Facebook.  I ordered my Keurig from QVC while I was taking care of my mother.

A Keurig uses a syringe-looking needle to inject the hot water into the coffee.  My mother was killed by a lethal-injection while at the nursing home where people were paid to care for her.  They killed her with a lethal injection after I dated Edison.  Close or around the time I quit from The Container Store because I believed I could get another job and employment.  Little did I know they have been controlling my employment since I moved to Florida.  They did not allow me to receive income from another employer for five months after I quit at The Container Store.

They killed my mother using a lethal injection.  My Keurig in this home was placed in a corner in my kitchen.  It looks like someone was trying to deflect, place blame, and frame someone who was staying in the hotel and checked-in when we were staying in Brisbane, Australia.

We’ve been finding dark corners from The Bourne Legacy this man was seated to my right behind me when we arrived the first day to Brisbane having dinner at the hotel’s restaurant.  There is nothing wrong with my memory, never has been.  This paragraph alone will frighten people.

This is also very difficult to look at.  When my mother and I were in Quebec City staying at Le Chậteau Frontenac, a man checked me into the hotel.  He complemented my glasses.  My eyeglasses.  He was not a hotel employee.  They were tortoise-shell half-rimmed glasses, they were very smart looking on me.

When my mother and I walked up and down Artists Row, I purchased a copper-engraving from a stall when I saw it.  My mother had a plan, she wanted to see all the work, then decide.  When she went back to the stall with the artwork she wanted to buy, they refused to sell to her.  She was very hurt by it.  It was intentional.  What I see is – yet, again – a female agent from a real agency like the FBI, manipulating and truly torturing my mother, for fun.  I want to kick her in her fucking face.

That is a way to make someone.  It must be difficult to be surrounded by such beautiful things – you like to surround yourself with beautiful things.  It is a way of saying you see beauty in the world.  I see and understand what is at stake here in writing this paragraph.

The reason there is a Pamela Landy in The Bourne Legacy, Pamela, Pam, Map.  Landy, Land, my last name.  It is a way of someone saying Joan of Arc, military victories, and victories, and connecting it to me.  Nothing more.  The character that talks about not wanting to think, be very careful here, the last thing I want to do is think, this is in no way about me.  I am most definitely the thinker.  A thinker.

He likes a bit of tummy on a woman, be very, very careful here.  You people do not seem to understand how very deadly that movie is, Phantom Thread.  His name alone, the lead male character’s name alone means D-Day.  I would have to watch the movie again, it is very, very sick.  Serial killer, several serial killers combined, it is very sick, very deadly.  A physician, Jesus was a physician, a healer, Jesus is a healer, a caregiver does not, does not, DOES NOT HARM.  They do not harm to then cure.  Make no mistake there is no love and nothing about those two characters that says love – at ALL. 

When did my mother and I go to Montreal and Quebec City and Canada?  For my 25^th birthday.  Who the fuck is this piece-of shit engineering this house?!

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March 23, 2019

Cheers!

Cheers to my real father!  Cheers father of mine!  Did you know the Ellie badge in UP is about you?

My real father drinks Manischewitz wine.  He used to mix Manischewitz with what?  Iced tea.  Unsweetened iced tea.  Grape soda badge, Manischewitz.

Grape soda badge, Ellie badge, it says legitimate.  It says Norway.  It says not an orphan.

However, there is a problem in the production of that movie, most likely those involved with story boarding because there are people there who were conspiring to kill my mother and ending my child-bearing years.

I am the many-colored bird in UP.  The dog is someone else.  I don’t know them.  Many-colored bird, like Joseph, Jo, Joelle.

Let me explain it further for everyone.  If I am a mirror, I think there is a better term for it; however, it creates a picture for people.  If I am a mirror, there is no where to hide with me.  There is no training that will allow you to fake with me.  Do you understand how terrifying that is to a criminal and the criminal mind?  Not only can I detect them, I can change their behavior with my presence.

These people were working with me for real, and they were giving fair and honest assessments.  The only reason this Japanese man was not able to be there in person – what excuse or circumstance could they create that would allow his presence to be plausible?

I can change their behavior.

So can policemen and women.  So can law enforcement.  So can a lot of people.  Those who know, know.

This scene of Nullah in Australia with the policeman and the dead dog, all it says, pay no attention to the action or dialogue, this is code, all it says is there is something there that doesn’t belong, there is something that does not belong.  There is more than one person in that scene being referenced.  As it pertains to me it is referring to Michael.

If I am a mirror than, most likely a woman, most likely this subversive (double-agent) woman (is she is in jail, yet?) if my boyfriend and future husband is an ex-con, someone was trying – trying – to get me to believe and think I was a criminal.  Uh, no.  I am not.

If, however, I had been married all these years to an intelligence man, hold on, you need to slow down and think about that.  If I had been married to an intelligence man all these years, the good alone it would have done, if I had really loved him for real and he really loved me for real, the good it would have done – immeasurable.  Priceless.  Because it would go on and on after we had both lived are lives.  Immeasurable.

That is the power of love.  It goes on.  It does not stop.  Love continues.

The rope scene in the movie White Nights has nothing to do with hangings.  It is in reference to the Romanov family and their slaughter.  Has nothing to do with American history, or anything to do with slaves, not at all.

Raising Arizona, this is gross.  This is again about my brother.  This is people wishing someone (or several) had switched my brother in the hospital for another baby, for a male boy who would grow to be straight.  I am really sick of this.

What’s worse, you let that sick woman play this out – in the goddamn “White House” – using John, get it John, my brother’s middle name, using John McCain.  It’s gross.  I am so over it.  I am so sick of this stupidity.

My real brother does not need to be anybody but himself.  Not for anyone!

This is the power of a baby.  Of a small child in a crib, and I’ve seen it from other people’s minds too.  My brother knew instinctually that he would need me.  I am a baby, only a few months old and less, and already I was bigger in my mind, stronger and surer than anyone in my family.  People saw it.  My brother had cozied next to me in my crib, photos were taken, and I am sure my mother spoke about it.  There is nothing wrong in the photos.  Nothing I see in my mind.  I was already as a small child – very full.  Yes, people do see that stuff in children.  Mary, did you know…

The color of Ellie’s hair in UP as red just says, good temper.  The kind you need when dealing with bad people and criminals.  The red-haired girl in Brave has a connection to the movie Dead Calm.  There is more than one real crime in that movie Dead Calm that happened to real people of wealth, most likely they are unsolved crimes.

All Yentl tells me, without watching the movie again, is that Jews are important.  God chose them, they cannot be unloved.  They cannot be unloved.  Papa, that song is such a moment.  There could be more, I would need to see the movie again.

The Arc of the Covenant is really at least one person’s way of describing me.

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March 23, 2019

Who is this person?  Pretending to be David emailing me about if I ever moved to New York?  I respond by email to tell them my mother and I were moving to California and that I felt something big was going to happen.  Only to then have them give my mother her final STROKE!  While I was working at Disney!  This fucking asshole should stay away from me.  I’ll shove his fucking face in the ground before he thinks about it.

Send his fucking ass to another prison in another state.  Watch what happens.

Well, no shit, David.  What the fuck took you so long?!  This stupid bitch thought that the black belt in Karate Kid was actually important.  She is so desperate, be careful here, she hangs onto my brother for security.

STOP SHOVING FUCKING BABY POWDER UP MY GODDAMN NOSE SO I AM NOT ABLE TO RUN!  YOU FUCKING COWARD!  IF YOU CAN’T SAY IT TO MY FUCKING FACE YOU CAN’T DO IT AT ALL!

EVERYBODY LISTEN UP! 

TELL THIS WOMAN, DO THE WORLD A FAVOR AND STOP THINKING!  YOU DO AN INJUSTICE TO EVERY GAY PERSON IN THE WORLD!

GO BACK TO THERAPY!  STOP USING ME TO CHASE AWAY YOUR BOOGEY-MEN!  DO IT YOURSELF!  GO BACK TO THERAPY!

SHE ACTUALLY FEELS BETTER ABOUT HERSELF WHEN SHE FINDS OUT I’VE SLEPT IN THE NIGHT WITH THE LIGHTS ON!  I AIN’T AFRAID!  I KNOW THESE FUCKING ASSHOLES! 

THEY ARE AFRAID OF ME!

READ THIS REAL FUCKING CAREFULLY!  THEY ARE AFRAID OF ME!

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March 23, 2019

EDISON!  EDISON!  EDISON!  EDISON!  EDISON!  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.  Edison.

That should upset somebody good.  Play that over and over on repeat.  More than one person will lose their fucking mind.

It is more than obviously to any real person that Edison was not a match or real.  Nobody would ever believe it.  Not real people.  They wouldn’t believe it.

Catherine Ann Vandermasen – Correct.  This profile is a bad person.

Stop waking me up, DAVID!

Someone has made a connection between Franco (Wow, so dumb, what is he supposed to be a Fascist because of his last name – STUPID!) and myself.  If I was living in California for real then James would be ok, there is a threat about because I am in Florida.

Who is this person?  Someone is quite literally using me to scare away their Boogey-Man by, get this, having me sleep and take naps during the night because, get this, the lights are on.  Um, I am perfectly capable of sleeping at night without lights on.  I am not afraid.  Somebody else near here is afraid at night, most likely because they were attacked at night.  Most likely they were raped at night.  They do not need to be here.

And, I should be working a day-shift, I should be making a great deal more money also.

This news story of ex-cop not guilty, I do not believe.  They are guilty.

This wrongful death suit news story is so bad it is a horribleness I cannot really describe.

Let it be known; there is a man who is rather patiently waiting on this, for this, I finished Season One of the cooking game in China with all five stars.  And, I will continue.  You will need an interpreter.  Treat this communication with importance.  It is of importance.  It is the reason I got out of bed when I did today, for this person, for this communication.  It appears you will receive something in return just for the five stars.

He will want to know why it has taken so long.  I believe he did not ask, he merely thought about it while he was in the building either remotely or in person, more likely, remotely.  The problem is with the game.  The visuals of the food do not make sense to me.  I see a hamburger I know what a hamburger is, the other food visuals just haven’t made sense to me.  Nothing more.  There was nothing wrong.  There was nothing bad.  He will want to know as it appears this man has some respect for me.

It appears the very reason they changed the gate code device (I had to get the remote from the HOA here!) in front of my house was so that people could gain entrance into my complex and home WHILE I WAS AT WORK!  THIS CHANGE HAPPENED WHILE I WAS WORKING AT AMAZON!  IT IS SUCH A MISTAKE.  THERE IS NO REASON FOR A REMOTE GATE ACCESS KEY!  CORRECT THIS OR YOU WILL BE SORRY!  IT WAS A WOMAN WHO DID IT!  THAT WOULD MEAN IT WAS A DOUBLE-AGENT OR A SUBVERSIVE WORKING AGAINST THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT TRYING TO USE ME!

Whose house is nearby those traffic cameras I drove in front of on Monday March 18, 2019?  Why are there traffic cameras on a country road?  Who are they protecting?!  There is no reason for them.  There is no intersection.  It is not a high-accident prone area.  So, whose fucking house is there?  How the fuck did they get government money for traffic cameras that they hack into because they have access to those cameras.  Who the fuck is this?!  Because it looks like a piece-of-shit CRIMINAL!

Yeah, it is more than traumatic watching Memento.  That is me as the tattooed actor, and it is also my mother.  It is me trying to figure out what happened to my mother.  THIS IS IMPORTANT: YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU ARE.  I TOLD YOU PEOPLE I AM SPECIAL, I AM DESIROUS!

They blew up the goddamn fucking World Trade Center because you sent a proxy and not me.  Because I was miserably unhappy.  STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH THIS SHIT!  I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I’M DOING!

STOP TELLING ME WHAT THE FUCK TO DO BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO WITHOUT REALLY HAVING TO THINK ABOUT IT!

Go back to the sixties and mid-fifties until present and work every person who has suffered a stroke or died of a stroke.  This is messaging of a kill list of brain-thinkers and minds.  They are still using it.  It is still present.

They are celebrating the destruction they did to my mother’s mind and brain in the movie, Memento.  How hard she had to work when we moved here to Florida because it looks like she was doing their work for them too in her phone calls for host families.  She could not get another job.  With her skills and experience she should have been making more than three times double what she was making.  IT WAS DONE WITH DELIBERATE INTENTION, AND I MEAN AT AN AGENCY LEVEL!

THAT SENTENCE ALONE IS HUGELY BAD!

They want to say in the movie, Memento that somebody did not believe me and probably also my mother when I told them how TO STOP BRAIN RESEARCH!  THIS IS NOT LONG AFTER WE MOVED TO FLORIDA!  THEY PUT HER IN A CAR ACCIDENT THAT LEFT HER WITH FYBERMYALOGIA (Something that took many years for doctors to believe was really physical and not psychosomatic) AND IT LEFT HER WITH SHORT-TERM MEMORY PROBLEMS!  IT IS THE REASON I HAD TO DRIVE FOR HER FROM THEN ON.  SHE WOULD GO DRIVING AND NOT REMEMBER WHERE SHE WAS, WHY SHE WAS DRIVING, AND SO ON!

THEY ARE CELEBRATING A VICTORY OVER A BRAIN IN THE MOVIE AND OVER MY MOTHER.  IT IS GROSS.

After Edison, what movie DVD did they take the cover off of, and then say over the radio at The Container Store, about being pissed.  This would quite frankly be a person with clearance at AN AGENCY!

They were using my mother’s friends to upset her, to make her heart go into arrythmia, and just to be cruel and mean.  It’s not bad enough that my mother no longer could walk very far, these FUCKING ASSHOLES DID SHIT LIKE PHONE AHEAD TO STORES LIKE KOHL’S WHEN I WOULD TAKE MY MOTHER FOR A DRIVE AND PUT SOMEONE IN THE HANDICAPPED BATHROOM BECAUSE THEY KNEW IT WOULD BE THE FIRST PLACE, I WOULD TAKE HER!  AND YOU FUCKING PEOPLE WENT ALONG WITH IT!  YOU OBEYED!  IT’S NOT VERY DIFFICULT TO SEE THAT THEY WERE DOING IT TO BE CRUEL!  TO A HANDICAPPED PERSON!  TO A WOMAN WHO HAD SUFFERED MANY, MANY STROKES!  TO MY MOTHER!  YOU FUCKING PEOPLE DID IT!  YOU NEVER QUESTIONED IT!  YOU NEVER SAID, NO! 

I CANNOT SCREAM THAT SENTENCE LOUD ENOUGH!  NO!  NO!  NO!  NO!  ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS SAY NO!  THAT TELLS ME THEY WERE MESSAGES SENT FROM EITHER LOCAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OR FUCKING AGENCY PERSONS!

I remember returning home early one day, someone who was supposed to be a friend of my mother’s had been there, my mother was crying when I returned home.  SHE STOPPED CRYING ALMOST IMMEDIATELY WHEN I ARRIVED HOME!  SHE STOPPED CRYING!  THAT’S BRAIN RESEARCH, YOU FUCKING ANIMALS!  THAT’S AGENCY-LEVEL PERSONS USING MY MOTHER!

ALL YOU HAD TO SO WAS SO NO!  ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS SAY NO TO THEM!  NO!  IT IS NOT DIFFICULT!  NO!  NO!  NO!  NO!  NO!  NO!  NO!  NO!

If my brother really had my Tuesday and Thursday euthanized, I am at a loss for words by it.  He would have and should have known better.  He would have known it would have more than upset me.  I cannot let that go.  I should still have my Tuesday and Thursday.

Do you people not see what they are doing?!  They used my “brother’s” voice over the phone to tell me my mother had died.  They used my brother to kill my cats.  They want me to denounce my brother.  I would work this.  It is bigger than anyone understands.  It means there are still death threats out there for my real brother.

You would have to be insane to think that a person would want to live in and on a television set for the rest of their life.  You would have to be insane.  Insane.

The hurt knee in Karate Kid, wow, really not a big thing, someone saw me washing our van in Oregon.  There was a small hole in the roof that my real father repaired with silicone something.  I cut my knee on it when I washed it.  It left a scar.  So, you FUCK heads – and I really doubt my real father has a problem with my writing swear words or saying swear words, why because he’s seen my work.  Do you really think real agents and officers and police do their work cuss and swear and then go to church and are not Christians?  Don’t be stupid.  My real mother didn’t like swearing.  No big deal.  I didn’t swear around here, so what?!  So, you FUCK HEADS wanted me to wear shorts to work, then you had James talk to me while I was working.  WHO THE FUCK DID YOU SHOW THIS FOOTAGE TO?!  BECAUSE THOSE ARE SUBVERSIVES – NOT RIVAL KARATE SCHOOL KIDS, IT IS REALLY OBVIOUS – SUBVERSIVES, DOUBLE AGENTS WORKING AGAINST THE STABILITY OF THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT AND WHAT IT STANDS FOR THAT I KICKED IN THE FUCKING HEAD IN THE GODDAMN MOVIE AS EVIDENCE AND PROOF!  Then, all of a sudden, I am attacked in my food with weight gain?! 

FUCK YOU PEOPLE!

STOP WORKING AGAINST ME!  START WORKING FOR ME!  START WORKING WITH ME!  GET IN THE GODDAMN LINE BECAUSE THERE ARE LITERALLY PEOPLE WAITING TO WORK WITH AND FOR ME!

I KICKED HIM IN THE GODDAMN HEAD!  I WON!  I WON THE TOURNAMENT!  AND IF THAT SYMBOL HAS NOT BEEN EDITED OR ALTERED I DID IT THROUGH THE PENTAGON THROUGH THE DEPARTMENT OF DEFENSE!

TAKE THIS FUCKING WEIGHT OFF OF ME!  IT DOESN’T BELONG TO ME!

If for any reason anyone used a Wounded Knee battle plan connection – they would be wrong.

You’re the best around, this song, this whole song, if it has not been edited into the movie, was made for me, they had me in mind when it was written.

Who missed my 8^th grade graduation ceremony?  This is referenced in Pretty In Pink.  Some man with intelligence was supposed to go to the ceremony and was not able to go.  He sent someone else.  Something did not go the way it was supposed to go because of it.  Someone thought a name or his name, it appears as I see it in my head, and then a photo was taken of me not long afterwards.  People who have since looked at this photo of me looking at a black woman in my class and thought it meant something else or knew who he was and have purposefully sent obstacles on his missions.

This dialogue in The Bourne Legacy about unbelievable numbers (I am the one who does not need chems for numbers) and scoring data forensically means someone was actually thinking and spoke out-loud about letting one of their contacts kill me.  For real.  Because how many people out there hear, thoughts?  The fact that it is in a movie and have not yet let that happens is proof of how valuable I am.

The character Duckie in Pretty In Pink just means the state of Oregon, nothing more.  However, the fact that I was moved to Florida when I was 15, if anyone is wondering how much I make an hour, anyone think that was not done intentionally?

The timing of the move here is suspicious.  It is suspicious because they have prevented me from dating straight white men, for real ever since I moved here.

They even had my father bringing men from his work with cons to our house.  I AM NOT A FUCKING CRIMINAL!  WHO THE FUCK IS THE PIECE-OF-SHIT THAT THINKS AND BELIEVES AND HAS USED PEOPLE TO MAKE SURE I NEVER HAVE LOVE FROM A STRAIGHT WHITE MAN IN MY LIFE – EVER?!

Don’t get hung-up on the belt in Karate Kid it is literally is meaningless.  It means nothing.  It is just story-telling.

Wow, I am really worn out.  I am still tired.  I go to the store for a few things, or any drive, or outing, and I am spent.  I am done for the day.  I literally crash.  I literally physically crash from all the work you people have put me through.

No, he would be in agreement with me.  Yes, I love wood, but I do not love or like Dildo’s or fake penis’s or padding in someone’s pants.  He would agree with me that an ex-con should not have been my future husband.  It is not a difficult read to see that it was not a match.

This does go all the way back to Edison, every black person, every person black, has actually been a representation of a criminal, a killer, a murderer, a rapist, a pedophile, a thief, a criminal.  Everyone.  Every person.

If this is true and I was given a present from Misago with a picture on the back on a white t-shirt in Oregon intentionally, I mean, she was given instructions and prepped by a man before her arrival in the US, it would mean there was knowledge about death threats to my mother, then.  Known by intelligence.  If Misago, and that is how it looks, was prepped and given instruction by a man, it is a very strong connection to me.  She returned after her first visit, something really big must have happened.  It means I really, really like this man for real.  He would have been a very important man with connections all the way to the top of the Japanese government.  Not a trade, actual work.  It means the hug I gave Misago was meant for him.  It would have been filmed, most likely, it would have been proof of his goodness.  Because I really liked him.  Wow, you should see him in my head.  Good man.

Stop using the term transparent, it doesn’t mean what you think it means.  It does not mean clear, or see-through, you are literally telling people you are dumb when writing news stories and including that word in it.

You people realize they have photographic evidence in my head that the car accident they placed me in – IS A FRAUD!  They crossed the line of traffic to get to my vehicle.  IT IS IN MY HEAD!  They used a blind to disguise an on-coming vehicle.  How many times has this been done before?!  They gave me a citation for the car accident, knowing they had the photographic evidence in my head proving my innocence.  Either the police officer who gave me the ticket in the hospital was working with these criminals or not it doesn’t look good.  How many times have police officers given erroneous tickets and citations?!  Were they paid for it?!  I would correct that real fucking quick!

Yes, I believe the reason I must bring my own toilet paper into work is to have me seen and photographed with a baggie.  Some drug reference, I guess.  It’s dumb.

Some idiot is addicted to diuretics where I work, they need to leave.

Four days off and I have not had time or been able to wax my legs.  You people have no concept of recuperation or physical and mental recovery.

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March 21, 2019

Let it be known: QVC has refused me as a customer again it is the same as saying they are in agreement, they are glad, they have no problem with having my mother killed.  They see nothing wrong with having my mother killed in her nursing home.  They are a fan of murder and my mother’s murder.

I made a food purchase only for my real father.  It was against my better judgement.

I will never love David again.  It is my heart.  I get to decide who I love and who I do not.  It is not the same as God’s love.

I tell and write you people how other people are actually thinking and you imprison me, penalize me, and take my whole life away from me.

The world will go on without me in it.

There is no reason for a television show.  I do not get paid for it.  I do not believe it is real.  I want nothing to do with acting anymore.  I left that long ago.  I will never want to be involved with Hollywood – again!

You people treat me like a nothing!  Like I am nothing!  Then pretend as though it is my job to SAVE THE WORLD!  WHAT A TERRIBLE MIND-SET!

It is an academic Honor I received and nothing more.  If it was meant for me to remember anything else, it had long since been over.

STOP USING ME!

I have no love for any person who is a fan of my mother’s murder and death.  I have no love for any person who is glad that my mother is dead.  I do not have to love the world.  My name is not Jesus.  I am not a Savior.

END THE FAKE REALITY OF THIS LIFE!  GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE! 

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March 21, 2019

Enid Frances looks like an execution.  Why?

Mary Moustakas is an alias.

Justin Walters – BAD.

Elizabeth Holmes, still BAD, SICK.

Mr. Ross is correct.  I see these two men.  Carol Folt is all wrong.  Completely wrong.

You realize this picture on Bing in Senegal is devastating.  It is really bad.  It is destruction.  It is not a good picture.

Who the fuck is here?!  And, what the fuck happened?!

How many people are here?

Another person from what country?  Knew my mother?  And is quite upset.

Somebody is near and they are having a hard time controlling, managing, or dealing with something.  Terrible news.  Something bad.  They are very angry.  Who is this?  Did something actually happen?

What year was this movie released?!  What year did Karate Kid get released?  You fucking people!  That is me as both the teacher, and the student.  They are both me, not in the future at my age I was – THEN!

Those were my mother’s apartments when she was first living in Los Angeles, and then you stupid handlers placed my mother back in dump apartments here in Florida?!  You fucking IDIOTS!

To me is show such a level of incompetence I cannot fathom anyone being able to defend their actions against my family.

Japanese, as I have seen it referenced nearly every time in films is just – our US Military bases in Japan.  No, I do not have to tell you about their work.  Think about it yourselves.  How important it must be for the US to have a presence and bases in Japan.

The blonde kids beating up the Karate Kid are just skin-heads.  Another word for a skin-head would be subversive.  A person who is in not in support of the United States government and what it stands for.

So, I will repeat – again – when the kid from my school, bothered me for days about mispronouncing my name would have been a proxy for a subversive, and what did I do in response?  What did Cherith really do in her life after several days of this?  I grabbed him by the arm, flipped him over my back, landed him on the other side of me without hurting him.  Without hurting him.  Because the boy who was speaking to me did not do anything wrong.  I did it because I saw it in my head.  Like the actor in Ghost after he is dead, and he uses his mind to move things.

It takes more skill to do no harm.

Let’s get this out of the way.  Virus, infection, any reference to a bug like a virus, get this, literally means nothing more than – the acting bug.  The term used for people who like acting.  And, I mean almost every movie, nearly 100% of movies referencing viruses, and movies such as Contagion mean nothing more than the acting bug.  It is so not a big deal.  It sounds terrible, mean, vicious, like a real threat, doesn’t it?  It’s not.  Not in anyway.  This information wasn’t meant for you.

Do you know what acting says to me?  It says high-profile.  It is not a person who is a wall-flower, or timid, or un-seen.  Be careful here, people will respond when they read this – you allowed Edison to take that away from me.  I am most desirous.

Yeah, I think the real actor (I have my reasons for not using his name) from Karate Kid went through prisoners and found a bad son of a bitch for me to try and figure out who it was.  I got it already.  You people, I’ve been here.  No big deal.  He is guilty, and very bad.

The last thing I should be doing is writing profiles, and letting the world know this is a bad person, etc. and then fucking “talk” with them when I go to work?!  Are you fucking stupid?!  People get locked up FOR A FUCKING REASON!  SHUT THAT STUPID FUCKING SHIT OFF!

Do you not understand that prison riot in Up Close & Personal has to do with me?!  The prison in Spy Games – IS ME!

I couldn’t possible write fast enough to tell you people how much I am referenced in film.

It wasn’t meant to be public.  A brain connection that has never diminished.  Not every person in the world has that in their lifetime.

People and agencies were trying to figure out how to create, copy, and implement my brain capabilities INTO AGENTS.  Really not a big deal.  From what I’ve seen it has not been very successful.

This is gross, this is bad.  Read this slowly.  It is really bad because it has really been happening: Brain research, I think it is the best term for it.  These subversives trying to use brain and thoughts to create – from birth – victims for serial killers, pedophiles, rapists, and murders.  This is what is referenced in The Matrix as fields of human bodies as a food source.  Pause for a moment, please.  Let that really sink in.  Allow your mind to really think about that.

This is not a joke.  I see it.  It has actually happened for years.

I destroyed brain research.  You people gave it back to them.  Think about that for a moment.

It means I had the ability to continue working in the field, AND I COULD AND WOULD HAVE SHUT THEIR FUCKING SHIT DOWN IN A MOMENT!  A MOMENT!

Just think for a moment about all the crimes in the news – THAT COULD HAVE BEEN PREVENTED!

No, we will still need the police, agencies, and so on.  That will never go away.  However, let me say this, if you are a person that lives off of a thrill of crisis and chaos.  If that gets you going.  You are of the wrong mind-set to be working in places like the FBI.  That is a wrong mind-set.  It is a wrong approach.  It does more damage, just from that mind-set and way of thinking alone than capturing even one bad guy. 

I asked for that girl who has been raped to not return.  It is not helping her.  There is a lot that is not doing any good.

Somebody wants to know this information.  I did not get to chose or have control over where we went and the places we toured and visited in Australia and New Zealand.  The hotel in Australia was ok.  New Zealand is a different story.  I wanted to go to Christchurch.  I wanted to see the South Island.  I was really not interested in touring a Kiwi farm in New Zealand.  We have orange groves here in Florida, they are quite the same.  It is not of my interest level.  The city of Sails.  Where is this?  Auckland.

We may have sailed into one from the movie Hunter Killer, is not from the same time as 12 Strong.  It goes back a couple of decades and it is classified information and mission.