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October 19, 2019

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This joke has always bothered me when I was working at a grocery store, Kash N’ Karry, 1990, as a cashier, I was told to straighten the aisles, since there were not many customers in the store.  I was in the aisle with the salad dressings, and a man, I forget his real job title, he read as superior like a manager, and law enforcement, told me the salad dressing bottles needed to be shaken.  It was supposed to be a joke.  It was supposed to flub me.  I was supposed to follow him, and shake the salad dressing bottles, and I never did.

To me, going around as law enforcement and telling someone to shake a salad dressing bottle (Philadelphia, the movie) says, hill-billy, red-neck, ignorant, incapable of complex and intelligent thought, a non-processing brain, and a lot more.

And, it was most definitely, not funny.

So, if you fuck heads had this ya-hoo say dumb shit to me so I would see a convicted pedophile (I’d personally punch these motherfuckers in their fucking face until they see God because that is what crimes against CHILDREN – SAY!  READ THAT FUCKING SENTENCE AGAIN!  CRIMES AGAINST CHILDREN, GOD’S CHILDREN!) in prison, you fuck head, then connected this dumb shit pedophile (probably the moron cum-thrower in Silence of The Lambs, and probably the only reason that scene is in the movie, a person – spoke to me, out of rank, out of order, and they weren’t supposed to) to a real law enforcement (probably) officer.  That’s really unwise.

Something else that started in this home, something I always (instinctually, naturally) used to do on my own, speak to my cats in a tone and volume, that could be described as close to yelling, like a mother who scolds, a child, a spoiled, or undisciplined, or a child.  A parent scolds a child, even if they are not spoiled, and it is for the benefit, of the child.

Someone, or several, has a REALLY warped notion of parents, parenthood, and what a mother and father are.

This Eric man heard me yelling at my two cats, who were trying to get in a fight with each other, and I yelled, I WILL NOT HAVE THAT!

It doesn’t take a genius, if anyone was watching my home to see, my cats, none of them, were afraid to approach me, get petted by me, or anything else, after having been yelled at, and not just because I fed them.

So, who’s the moron who doesn’t understand the importance of boundaries?

It’s like a person who wishes they had never been born to parents.  It’s a little sick.

If you are a person that is unable to understand that discipline, that meaning, you don’t belong here.  He understood it.  He sees the value in speaking to another human being, or an animal, in such a way.

I have a memory of being in a nursing home when I lived in Gresham, Oregon, I do not remember who I was visiting, or anything else, I remember what the rooms looked like, what the hallways looked like, and how very clean everything was, orderly.  I thought of it (probably 12, 13, 14, somewhere in there) of a really good thing, good care, the way a nursing home was supposed to be.  Also, it shows, I was not afraid of old people, as a teen-ager, old people who were not my relation.

The closest example I’ve seen of that level of care, was the Plant City nursing home, on Wilder road.  It was close, there could have been improvements, nothing really alarming.  However, to not allow my mother to have extended (EXTENDED) care, in that facility, BIG MISTAKE!  It’s purposeful.

It takes a very special person to work with the elderly in a nursing home.  It takes a lot of emotional and psychological understanding and knowledge to work with the elderly.  It is very different from working with small or young children, like a baby-sitter.

People who are in a lot of pain, uncomfortable, unhappy, longing for the life they used to have, still knowing they are, in their mind, the young youthful person that used to be able to do things, it, at least to me, shows in their person, and people who are in pain and uncomfortable will not be their normal self, and a care-giver, must be able to understand and know the difference, and know when to let insults, or mean-speech, go.  To not take it personally.

It is, in my mind, also a caregiver’s job to reconnect their brain and mind to who – they really are.  They are not their infirmary, they are not their illness, they are not their disease, they are not their physical condition, they are ALIVE!

It is very demanding, it is very demanding work, it takes a lot of energy.

The Avalon haircut, in Zohan, goes together with John Turturro’s movies, Unstrung Heroes, Quiz Show, Gung Ho (probably), and the movie Avalon, I bought Avalon on VHS, I would have to watch it again, I’m sure it sent a message, no one has figured out the chain of events, that it started.

CNN news story about impeachment says, nonsense.

Why is it the Brits are the only ones in film and television showing the US they are using Cherith inappropriately, by using – proxies.  Cherith is a mirror.  A mirror.  Cherith sees people for who they really are.  A mirror.

I don’t think it’s important or of value at a veterinarian’s office for the assistant’s, or veterinarian to grab a cat by the scruff of the neck, first.  Until the animal displays that they are too scared, or too upset, that they hiss, clawing, growl, show defensives in some way, then, you use the scruff of the neck.  Otherwise, to me, you look like you don’t know how to work with animals, you don’t know how to read their behavior, and you don’t know what you are doing.

My veterinarian, Mark, I forget his last name at the moment, we used to have business cards of his with his personal cell phone number and office number (from the nineties) in Plant City, at Turkey Creek animal hospital, used to be named May Animal Clinic, never grabbed any of my cats by the scruff of the neck unless, and not always, he was giving them an injection.

And, I ALWAYS liked Mark, I ALWAYS, liked that veterinarian.

That goes along with me, being a talent spotter.

Be very careful, if Courtney is to blame for drugging me on election night 2012, it is a HUGE WARNING FLAG!  Another person, let alone a lesbian seeking such a means of control over another person, let alone another straight woman, SHOULD BE, AND READ AS A BIG WARNING SIGN.  SHE NEEDS LOTS OF THERAPY.  SHE IS NOT IN A SAFE, NORMAL, OR FUNCTIONING MIND.

She will seek to destroy other relationships she will be in because she has been given an over-inflated image and ego, and perception of herself, and worse, she has been given means and access WHERE SHE NEVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN ALLOWED.

She will seek to destroy any other person she is involved in a relationship with, just like David.  Be warned.

She is very close to a Dr. Jekyll and Mister Hyde personality at the moment.  Be warned.  No joke.  She does not see me, as a living human being.  She sees me as a non-living, object, thing.  THAT’S A HUGE WARNING SIGN!

By allowing her to go on television she is like a tele-evangelist going on television as a saint asking for money for God, then going home, watching S&M pornography because she is sadistic.  She is way hung up on sex.  She is a front.  A fraud.  Courtney is a fraud.

I would never and have never approved, Courtney.  I would never have allowed a person, such as herself, the fame she’s received from being on television.  She is sadistic.  I’m done with smiling and nodding, so other’s do not see the danger.

I have never approved of Edison.  I will never give my approval for any Edison.  Ever.  Be warned.

You have created a monster in Courtney, and Brianna.

They have both lost their fucking minds because David and I have love for one another.  That is extremely unhealthy.

The photo of Mick Mulvaney says, my boyfriend, who is very familiar with female anatomy says, that Cherith’s vagina should not be so constricted that it is not able to accommodate anything larger than her one finger.

Is there something to the claim in the news stories that this FBI man’s former partner, Nicole, rigged, or put a system in place at Hillsborough Community College, requiring me to take a placement test because of my GED, taken at Plant City High School, creating a way for her to be involved working with me, with the number of credits, 5, it took for me to take “prep” classes in English and Math, based on my scores on the test?  Is this real?  If this is in anyway true, people have died because of it.  Many people have died.

Let the whole world know, it is my brain.  My brain.  I am a real person, I am not intel, I am a person.  THAT IS WHY THE ORDERS ARE AND HAVE BEEN IN PLACE, I AM A PERSON!  IT IS NOT THE SAME AS INTEL!  I AM NOT A PIECE OF INFORMATION!  I AM A PERSON!  BRAIN!  THAT IS THE ONLY WAY ANY OF THESE MILITARY AND INTELLIGENCE OPERATIONS HAVE BEEN SUCCESFUL – AT ALL!  MY BRAIN!  BRAIN!  BRAIN!  BRAIN!  BRAIN!  BRAIN!  BRAIN!  BRAIN!  BRAIN!

You morons crated and allowed a cheat to happen – to me!

If you have allowed Courtney to drug me, drug interrogate me on election night 2012, you need to keep the Obama’s very far away from me for a long time, and I am not kidding.  It is not a joke.  That connection she made is very serious.

It goes together with this woman volunteering on the Obama campaign with me, making phone calls at a lawyer’s office (and this event – HAS ALWAYS BOTHERED ME) talking about drinking a rum drink (usually associated with having an umbrella in the drink), and her mother, and I, PASSED, MEANING, I DID NOT GET INVOLVED, DID NOT SPEAK TO HER IN ANY OTHER WAY OTHER THAN CIVIL CONVERSATION, I DID NOT ENGAGE IN ANY OTHER ACTIVITIES WITH HER, WE DID NOT EXCHANGE PHONE NUMBERS, AND I DID NOT AGREE TO HAVE DRINKS WITH HER, OR BE SEEN WITH HER IN ANYWAY OUTSIDE OF THE OFFICE, WORKING ON THE CAMPAIGN.

Wow, congratulations, one-way Cherith will never want to work on a political campaign (because Cherith really does have talent in this area), or with the White House again, drug rape her, and then – LAUGH ABOUT IT!

Yes, the last time before 2012 I rode a horse, was probably when I was 12 or 13 years old, in Oregon.

It is strange, I never had to interview for my employment at Amazon.  It tells me it was a carry-over from Disney.  Same people, same set-up, same scam.

I do not have to weigh myself; I can tell by the way my clothes fit me.  All of you should be CONCERNED if I do not fit into my clothes.  Sadistic.

This is disturbing.  I liked Tammy Thomas.  I liked Tammy Thomas as my friend when we worked together at WORSHIP.  I am a mirror.  A mirror.  Stop using people as proxies BECAUSE YOUR FUCKING SHIT UP AND GETTING PEOPLE KILLED!

Remove, and I mean this like I mean everything I write, remove EVERY PERSON TAMMY THOMAS AND TAMMY HOSKINS (HER MARRIED NAME) HAS EVER BEEN ASSOCIATED WITH OR WORKED WITH IN INTELLIGENCE, PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS, DETECTIVES, ANY LAW ENFORCEMENT, OR ANY MEANS YOU HAVE USED TO GATHER INFORMATION FROM ME BECAUSE NONE OF YOU HAVE HAD CLEARANCE FOR THE WORK!

This is not a joke; this is the REASON Tammy Faye Bakker died.

That is the connection.

YOU FUCKING MORONS DIDN’T BELIEVE UNTIL MY BOYFRIEND THAT I UNDERSTAND THE CRIMINAL MIND!  AND, I AM KEYSER-FUCKING-SOZE!  KEVIN IS A GODDAM GIRL!  AND THAT’S ME!  KEYSER-FUCKING-SOZE IS THE GODDAMN TOP IN THE CRIMINAL WORLD THAT ALL OTHER CRIMINALS – FEAR!  YOU FUCKING MORONS!

SOMEONE ELSE PUT IT IN A MOVIE, I DIDN’T!

I AM KEYSER-FUCKING-SOZE!  I AM!  STOP FUCKING AROUND!  YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE, AND HOW THESE GODDAMN CRIMINALS – SEE ME!  YOU FUCKING IDIOTS!

Was that a picture of Michael you put on David, my mother said, no to, and NONE OF YOU LISTENED TO THAT?!  YOU HAD PEOPLE KILLED BECAUSE OF IT!

The connection to Tammy Thomas and the Bakker (male child) is I had a subscription to the New York Times newspaper that was delivered to my home in Plant City.  There was an article about the church his son had or has and its unconventional approach to Christians and Christianity meaning, the congregants had tattoos and piercings, and didn’t dress in Sunday school clothes to go to church.

It’s why Kat at The Container Store (an opposite) had tattoos, and it is why Kat was from Miami (light rail election).

My opinion of the article and his church, I didn’t see anything wrong with it.  I thought it was interesting.  I don’t think there is anything wrong in reaching the population that doesn’t want or like, button up clothing, and so on.

However, I read the newspaper – be real fucking careful here – I, was by myself, without my mother, in a chiropractor’s office, Dr. Dukes, and she is a female Christian, and I never understood why she wasn’t married.

Dr. Brenda Dukes did play Christian videos, like the Gaither Homecoming videos, in her office, in the reception office, and prayed with people.

Be real fucking careful to whom she gave any information to regarding – me, and my family.  This other FBI man will be able to understand these Plant City people’s thinking.  I won’t listen to such ignorance.

I don’t trust any of the people, I see this information about me, and my family was given to.  None.

Disconnect all persons from Tammy Hoskins, Tammy Thomas because I liked Tammy for who she really was.  She should NEVER have been used, she does not and is not able to understand the criminal mind.

I understand the criminal mind, so well, not because I’ve been trained, not because I’ve committed crimes, I understand the criminal mind because it has been brain-spoken to me in my mother’s womb! 

And, remember, not all criminals might be real criminals if they are undercover cops, or detectives, or working in intelligence and they need to find out information from criminals in prison or jail and the only way they might get that information is being – one of them, a prisoner, themselves.

You stupid hicks!

Shame on you for not believing in me, my family, and thinking less of me.

All people, as adults, should be in relationships.  Being a person, who never has a significant other, a partner, a spouse, its not normal.  It’s in the brain, and God made us that way, for each other.

If they used Marvin, the Englishman’s chest because this Englishman is very well built, masculine, on the “Edison” it is not only a threat to the Englishman, it is a plot to demoralize him, take away his manhood, his penis, like a eunuch (Games of Thrones), probably medically, so his penis no longer functions because Edison did not use his own penis.  How disgusting.

The threat to men’s penis’ goes with every man seen in Amazon as a chest only man, taking away their real penis, permanently.  Non-functioning, erections.  No joke.  No man wants to have his manhood removed from him.

This woman, Cherith, did not want to have her womanhood removed from her either.  Breasts are not what make womanhood in a woman.  Her uterus is what makes her, a woman, it is her womanhood.

Who is actually responsible for my hysterectomy?  Because you have been blaming men for it, so it could only then be a woman.

Using the image of a baby, how VERY WRONG TRYING TO BE SEEN REPLACING MY REAL MOTHER AND FATHER, is showing the world, none of you intelligence are THWARTING, YOU ARE SEEN AS CREATING THREATS – WITH, GODDAMIT, REAL PEOPLE!  HOW FUCKING SICK!

The reason Rob was hired at The Container Store?  I talent spotted him.  I talent spotted him while having a meal, dinner, with my brother at a Taco Bus, on Hillsborough Ave, Tampa, and I saw him at the stop light.  I wondered why this man wasn’t dating me, taking me out, and having dinner with me.  He asked me to hug him at The Container Store.  I liked Rob, a lot.

He was also seen on his motorcycle, by me, when I was having drinks with “Mark”.  And, Rob didn’t like lying to me at The Container Store, that he didn’t know how to ride a motorcycle.  So, why didn’t Rob get to date me?  Why haven’t you used any real straight men to love me?!  So, more Americans, and more people around the world will get killed and die?!

No one, I mean, no one, saw the warning signs, the behavior, the patterns, all the way to 1989 – AND STOPPED ANY OF IT?!

All you people cared about was your own careers?  Your own lives?  AND IT’S YOUR FUCKING JOBS TO KILL TARGETS?!

Jesus fucking Christ!  You are allowing goddamn fucking terrorists to LOOK LIKE FUCKING SAINTS!  YOU FUCKING MORONS!

This event has always bothered me in 2012.  There is something really wrong here.  I went to volunteer the phone banks (their terminology) on the Obama campaign, it was in a lawyer’s office.  I put the address of the office into my phone for directions and it took me, with the information I had to Vandenberg airport, outside of the city limits of Tampa, an executive airport.

I called the phone number to get more information because obviously, an airport is not a lawyer’s office.  The Vandenberg, and Vonderburg Dr. (a road next to Brandon Hospital in Brandon, Florida, more cause and reasons for premeditation for my car accident, meant to kill me because that is the hospital I was taken to after my car accident, in an ambulance) the Vandenberg and Vonderburg conversation went around between the person on the phone, a woman, and myself, and then again once I reached the destination of their office, over and over, with the lawyer of the office trying to convince me that the words they were saying, were not what they said.  So, what the fuck is that fucking shit about?!

The receptionist finally had to admit, I was telling the truth, and I wasn’t hearing them wrong.  To the lawyer.

It’s a little sinister, a little too sneaky, a little too deceptive, and an abuse of power.  Especially, since it was involving a candidate for Presidency.

You fucking morons DID NOT WANT BIN LADEN DEAD FOR BOMBING THE FUCKING WORLD TRADE CENTER?!  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!

DO YOU FUCKING MORONS HAVE ANY IDEA HOW THE UNITED STATES PROVIDES STABILITY, SAFETY, AND PROTECTION THROUGHTOUT THE WORLD, AND NOT JUST THE UNITED STATES?!

WE DON’T ALLOW PEOPLE TO KILL AMERICAN’S!  END OF FUCKING DISCUSSION!

The only reason anyone might have included Jared Leto in meeting with me, probably has to do with my shorts I bought that were Jennifer Lopez brand.  I don’t think this way.  I didn’t buy the shorts because of her name, I bought them because they fit me well, and I looked cute in them.

Those denim shorts, have a Zohan connection, they look very similar to Zohan, so having a rock star, Jared Leto being seen as the man who fired me from Amazon?  Not smart.

Chris Stevens, 13 Hours, he’s a rock star, is another movie reference, Princess Bride, hit it with a ROCK!  That’s all.  And, that ambassador was liked by LOTS of Libyans.

Are you morons really going to start a fight, who’s penis is bigger, over brain-working with Cherith, Englishman and FBI man?  The whole, this is my safety and the weapon on his chest scene in Black Hawk Down, so, how many people knew before 9/11 that Cherith’s name is Weapons?!  It’s a mirror scene, and safety comment with his forehead, looks nothing more than two grown men having a penis measuring contest.

You should be more concerned about who gets better results from Cherith, but all you fucking morons look like all you care about is your own careers!

The Facebook photo of David dressed as a waiter with the jiggly-belly fat that does not look like David says, a photo of my brother taken at Sea World, Orlando, that was on the keychain that had the safety deposit box key, be real fucking careful, that safety deposit box is real fucking serious, and it is not what you thought, or think it is, the photo of my brother says, he was being blamed because he does not look like that now, he was being blamed for bringing me and my family to Florida.

The jiggly belly was a marker on him.

So, fuckheads, by placing that jiggly-belly fat on me, you are provoking real criminals and real people to kill or hurt other real people because all you care about is – yourself, yourselves.

It is really disgusting to continue placing my brother’s weight on me.  You fucking sickos!

If this FBI man used Edison instead of himself, it says, he is not a reader.  That’s disappointing.  He needs better boundaries, also, in his mind, concerning people.  Boundaries, that they do not cross.

I will not submit to this FBI man, I know better than him, I do stand up to him, and it is the very reason, he likes me.

David was straight and single; this FBI man was married.  He needed me to be seen with a man, not have them all taken away from me, you dumb fuck!

I see people for who they really are, I saw David for David.  If this FBI man was using David, make sure he understands the difference, that I know work is work, and people are people.

If you thought the color of the house across the street looks like a relative’s house in South Africa, of mine, to me it looks like a house in Walden Lake, Plant City, near the Country Club when there was a Country Club.

If anyone wants me to believe that it was not Harry, that you used Meghan, I am so grossed out, she is so disgusting to me.  I want nothing to do with them.  They shouldn’t be harmed; however, the truth should be revealed.  Stop scamming people.

Severed all connections to the British, just like David.

LTLWM

October 18, 2019

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Right eye, FBI.  It’s close.

October 18, 2019

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Marvin Price, Mr., it’s Mister, Mr., not MP, or PM, it reads Mister, Marvin Price at The Container Store is, or was my Englishman.  The reason Marvin took his coffee black, he would be siding with this black man, this slender African American man who lost his fucking mind when they found out, they had given me and caused me, a hysterectomy.

What they showed me last night says, Casey not only has a drug problem, an addict, she is also, an alcoholic.  She is unable to withstand, endure, tolerate, or manage, alcohol.  This also means, when she sees other people either on television, in the movies, or in real life, and sees how they are drinking, and okay to still work, or are not inebriated, she cannot understand how they are able to, and she is not, and that is denial.  Denial of addiction, and not owning and be responsible for her own actions.

A Lannister always pays his debt, from Game of Thrones, is not a financial debt, they pay their debt to society, by doing their prison or jailtime.  That is what that means.  Think.

El Chapo news stories, looks made up to me.

Do any of you really not see the danger in trying to play and replace my real FATHER?!  Are you sure that is how you want to be seen in the world?  Replacing my FATHER?!  OR, MY MOTHER?!  I’m real fucking serious right now.  I’m real fucking serious to the left of me, also.  Because right now is not a DIRECTION – IT’S THE FUCKING ENGLISH LANGUAGE!

I mean it, for real, take a step back, and THINK about what you have done and put out there in the world.  REPLACE, my father?!  I don’t fucking think so.

You fucking assholes let my mother die, in a nursing home, while in care of people WHO WERE PAID TO PROVIDE HER CARE, AND LIFE!  SHE DIED – MARRIED!  I WILL NOT L-E-T YOU RE-WRITE HISTORY, YET AGAIN!

Marvin, I mean this Englishman, is not my father, he is old enough to be my father, but he has never been a father, or fatherly type in my mind.  YOU, FUCKING PERVERTS!  It’s just storytelling.

I WILL TELL YOU THE TRUTH, AND EVERY SINGLE FUCKING ONE OF YOU WILL STOP LYING ABOUT THE REAL TRUTH!

Marvin, this Englishman is a good man, he does really good work, it has been proven over and over again.  I am not convinced he sees me any other way other than a means for work.  I never have seen him as anything other than work, it’s not love.  All he says to me?  Work.

I am not confused by him.  Or, by the work.  He says work.  Nothing about him says anything more personal.  Not regarding me.

If he was in any way involved with Michael impregnating me, to the depth of my soul, I wish I had never had to live through Michael, or an abortion.

Do you know the reason Bella starts in dialogue, in Twilight, I had never given much thought to how I would die…dying in the place of someone I love (paraphrased), this is my unborn child?  In all my life, I never believed I would ever have an abortion.

If anyone was actually watching Michael and I, he was lying down on the sofa watching television, I walked by him, stopped to talk at the end of the sofa, he went to touch by belly with his foot (a tell), and I moved away from him so fast, I was already filled with rage and disgust at Michael.

So, you have again repeated the same mistake over and over because I will never be able to see this Englishman without having to relive the tragedy over and over again of my abortion, and worse, I can never have children – again.

You have allowed some of the worst mistakes in intelligence I would never have imagined.  You have taken really good intelligence minded persons and connected them to some of the worst tragedies in my life, simply because it is an emotion connection – that is in the BRAIN!

The first thing you should have done after Michael, realizing what a mistake he was, was to send another stronger man to love me.  I didn’t need to be rescued, I needed to be loved because I had not yet been loved in my life.  Sending a man who had a lesbian partner, is obviously, a mistake.

You, intelligence, are either repeating your own mistakes, out of incompetence, or you are sabotaging your own work.  Neither is acceptable.

Yes, this Sona, looks responsible for lying, not in position, lying by not telling the truth, about my weight, for many years.

Egypt pilot story is true.  Serious.  I have screamed this for years, since 2014, I never wanted anything to do with Edison, again.  I used to be beautiful.  I am a three, on my best day anymore.  I won’t thank you, for that.

Learn to live without me, Harry.

You have connected Harry and a lesbian, and me, I am more than upset about that.  I want nothing to do with any of them, I do not wish harm, but I do not want to be seen in any way connected.  I am so grossed-out and disgusted.  It has most permanently severed any connection whatsoever, emotional, or physical, its been severed.  Just like David.

Bobi wine story is correct.

If the only job you have is to write news stories to make me dress one way or another, you’re doing it wrong.  You’re still trying to re-write history as though I have followed after the news, you’re trying to create a reality that doesn’t exist, has never existed.

Your MEANS of control have been through my WEIGHT!  SO THAT YOU CAN PORTRAY A REALITY – THAT NOT ONLY ISN’T REAL, DOESN’T’ EXIST!

YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKING STUPID, WASTING WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION ON – DRESS UP BARBIE!

LET ME BE WHO I AM.  NONE OF YOU HAVE ANY CLAIM ON ME.  LET ME BE WHO I AM, OR SO HELP ME, YOU WILL LOSE MY HELP, COMPLETELY.  AND IF THEY BOMB AND KILL MORE PEOPLE – WELL, YOU’VE BEEN MORE THAN WARNED!

It’s because I’ve applied to work at the Anheuser-Bush office here in Tampa, in the nineties, and I never got a call back, or an interview.  I wouldn’t have made that connection before now because I don’t place importance on the same things, they have been placing importance.

The reason I never got an interview, or a job at Anheuser-Bush tells me someone had no knowledge of my German, Austria, Switzerland work, and it is a threat against my German man that I never got seen in an interview, or a job.  Big fucking mistake.

I did get another job interview at a family, if not family-owned, it was a much, much smaller business (this is the reason for Lynn, at The Container Store) liquor business, not just beer, liquor, like Vodka.  I was not impressed at this place or business.  I did not like the woman, interviewing me.

I liked Lynn at The Container Store, I did not like this woman who interviewed me.  Most likely Lynn’s proxy was a lesbian female just like the proxy at the liquor store job.

Be very careful you understand the difference, I am VERY business minded.  Business is business, work is work, play is play, fun is fun.  I know the difference.  I get it done.

I have never liked working for small, or smaller businesses.  I prefer to work in corporations, that have greater stability, longevity.  Corporations give benefits that smaller business simply cannot.

Drugging me on election night 2012, is so vile!

Let me explain something about horse-back riding, if you’ve never been on a horse before.  The rider of the horse, rides with a straight back, as erect as possible, if a rider slumps, or turtlebacks, your horse is going to know – you don’t know how to ride.  This is not the same for jockeys, in a horse race.

The posture of the rider is for the benefit of the horse, and the rider.  Also, the rider is not held onto the horse by the reigns (leash), a rider stays atop the horse, by holding on with your thighs.

So, if any of you have used a chest only means of communication, you have not been using intelligence I’ve received – as a child.

A rider must keep their feet, close to the horses, belly, this is again for the horse, and the rider.  The horse will know, if you do not sit in the proper way, if you flail while in motion, your horse is going to think you have no business being on a horse.  And, you want a horse to – respect its rider.

The respect and relationship between horse and rider, is very important.  It can be read.  The relationship between a rider and its horse, says more than words about the character – of the rider.

It is really the purpose for the movie, Hidalgo, for the horse race in Hidalgo, it has nothing to do with the race itself.  Hidalgo wins the race, not because he was the fastest horse and rider, Hidalgo wins – because of his CHARACTER.  It’s a big difference.

Horseback riding, canoeing, kayaking, going to the beach and reading a book, all sorts of outdoor activities, daytrips, all these sorts of things are what I was wanting to start participating in again, when I moved here, or I would never have given up the care – of my mother.  You’ve denied me this, all these years.

Silky smooth, Zohan is not just code for Secret Service, or the White House.  And, I used to shave Michael’s neck, all the time, and I used to give Michael erections, in public, or in our home, all the time, whenever I wanted to.  Nothing unusual there.

What did you think of the girl, Zero Dark Thirty, I have written this before, she was the threat, at Dachau, Germany, that is why I turned, with my mother, to face her, she was jeopardizing all the work that was in front of me.  She is probably, also, or was, Lynn’s proxy, and the woman responsible for the liquor interview.  The reason I didn’t get that job is because she didn’t pass my measure.

If you cannot understand the subtlety of my dislike for a person, they you cannot do the work, or the job.

My boyfriend sees the danger in LOSING YOUR WEAPONS.  And, you morons are not listening to him.

The reason I never orgasmed with Michael is because he didn’t want me to orgasm.  He didn’t love me.  Don’t get it confused with anything else.  It was pleasurable.  It was not orgasmic.  He was working, not in love with me, nor I with him.

I won’t thank you for the loss of my love and sex life, either.

Hands, dildo’s (gross!), strap-on’s (gross!), have never replaced the pleasure Michael gave me.  And, you fucking morons have allowed this stupid, idiot, Michael to be seen as greater than he ever possibly could be, by way of me.  Instead of showing a strong man with me.  You idiots!

She likes it, is not the same as giving an orgasm.  You fucking idiots look like middle-schooler who have yet to take sex-education class and are going around talking to your peers spreading mistruths, like being able to get pregnant if you use a tampon during your period.  Obviously, that has no scientific fact.

Bob, in 13 Hours, probably is referring not just to my former employment at Disney, also a hair style I’ve had many times before.  It’s just a detail, and not really that important.  The most it says, is my time at WORSHIP and I had a long bob hairstyle, I would drive to work with Velcro rollers in my hair.  Some men would understand I was being efficient with time-management.

I am going to stop telling you people yes or no to people you place in front of me to read because you are getting it confused, again.  No one seems to be able to make the distinction, or are purposefully sabotaging the work, when they are not able to distinguish between, yes to the person not in front of me physically, and the person actually in front of me.  Wow, I thought you people were smarter than that.

If the only reason you are placing extra weight upon my body is because David had a photo of himself posted on his Facebook page, seen as a waiter at a bar with a heavier belly, you have no idea what you are doing.  This is Ruby Tuesday’s, the day I went to see Black Hawk Down, and it says, the movie, Munich.

Why they made me sick, I have no idea.  Making sure I would vomit all throughout the movie.  It says, you had a saboteur within your group, Munich, Zohan, and it was not me.

David obviously wasn’t a waiter anymore.  And, I won’t thank you for severing that connection to a man who could have loved me.  Severed.

Let me repeat, the weight, the extra fat of weight says, saboteur.  It is not acceptable.  Honestly, it means, someone will probably die because of it.

If I have not yet previously included you, do not believe you are exempt, learn to live with me.

LTLWM

October 17, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

I started this yesterday, October 16, 2019, I will only be writing once a day, from now on.  I am on hunger strike.

 

If that was Courtney in a disguise as she showed my brother and I the model home here, it is always what it looked like to me, and it is not possible to logically explain to a person, I know who you are, don’t play pretend with me, nothing about her person – in any way – said or read that she even liked David, let alone, loved David.  I always wondered why she would do anything so stupid as to pretend to be a real estate agent, and she was dressed as cheap and tacky, meaning, that is who she thought she really was, if not still is.

The woman who first moved into that model house, had a divorce party as soon as she moved in.  She had red hair, with a child, a boy.  Who were never there.

And, I did always believe that all David really wanted was, a trophy wife.  A woman to show off to people he knew and would know, a trophy wife with the perfect body, perfect face, perfect hair, and I was never going to be able to be a trophy wife.  I am not willing to go through all the plastic surgery to be a trophy wife.

He’s still doing it, showing off women he’s involved with or slept with, to me.  Honestly, it is not a very manly thing to do.  It shows insecurity about his manhood, or penis.

What they just showed me tonight (October 16, 2019) is that Courtney is responsible for drugging me on election night 2012, consequently, raping me.  Nonconsensual sex.  It is what they showed me.

Making a connection to the real White House, and rape.  Making a connection to the real White House and rape, through me.  It shows premeditation for “Edison”.

Making sure to design “Edison”, so I would never cum, or orgasm, or have any pleasure, sexually.  They succeeded in making sure that I was never sexually satisfied with Edison, in any way.

If this is in any way true, I want her prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law.

I cannot begin to describe how grotesque an action of this is to any person, let alone, you allowed, if this is true, you allowed Courtney to continue to go on television as a host, or ambassador of a company, of a company that WAS USED TO KILL OSAMA BIN LADEN, selling products…it is such a distortion of truth.

Continuing then, either in truth, or pretend to associate Courtney and David together, trying to make a connection to RAPE and David, and I know, that will NEVER be true.

It is so perverse, misleading, despicable…it’s so unbelievably bad, I cannot truthfully begin to describe the harm that has been caused.

You have been allowing Courtney and her girlfriend to use the Bluetooth in my home to try and talk to me.

I WANT COURTNEY GONE!  I WANT HER AND ANY OTHER GIRLFRIENDS – GONE!  I WANT A COURT-ORDER, A RESTRAINING ORDER – TO HAVE HER REMOVED!

UPON MY DEATH, I WILL HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH COURNTEY, ANY OF HER GOONIES, AND I WILL NOT BE ASSOCIATED WITH GAYS.

I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

YOU NO LONGER HAVE WEAPONS, ANYMORE!  I WOULD RATHER DIE!

LEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT ME!

LTLWM!

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• Elsa dress (Frozen) goes together with The Container Store, they had me followed, I guess they were doing this to place details in movies, television (what a waste of time), I went to Jo-Ann Fabrics (I was followed by a blond woman, who made sure I saw her), I looked on-line, I went to other craft stores, for archival storage boxes to preserve my mother’s wedding bodice, the only thing remaining of her wedding dress. Previously to the archival boxes I purchased at The Container Store, her wedding bodice was stored in a trunk, an old-fashioned steamer like trunk, the kind people used to take when travelling, in the garage.  I still have the trunk.  It’s an antique.
• The stuffed arm, I saw yesterday shows, manipulation of information.
• Somali news story, also says, she has no idea what she is talking about.
• The eyes in the woman of the Northern Ireland story, are a warning.
• Major hitch shows Brianna being extremely vengeful.
• Ed Buck is not an accurate picture or portrayal of my boyfriend, the real Hannibal Lecter.
• Spokesman for grieving is an opposite.  Meaning, they want to see more suffering.  Not healing.
• The person responsible for stealing my Ikea coffee mug, making me purchase another one, I want them prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law!
• We’re not having a baby, 13 Hours, says Cherith is never having children again, it is an opposite, it is not a joyful event. The tell?  While working on the Obama election campaign, 2012, a slight-build black man, an African American male, walked into the office to volunteer.  I was going through the “training” of canvasing a neighborhood, going door to door talking to registered Democrats – only – about voting for Obama, and I used my story of Obama care to train him on how I would speak to another person about why I was voting for Obama, using a personal story, it makes the interaction, face to face interaction, personally and meaningful, I used my personal story of my surgery, my hysterectomy, and as soon as the words left my MOUTH, surgery, THIS AMERICAN MAN, FLIPPED HIS FUCKING SHIT, WITH – RAGE!  ANGER!  A VERY EXTREME EMOTION CONSIDERING I WAS TALKING TO AN AMERICAN MAN, AND ALL OF A SUDDEN, I SEE ANOTHER MAN, closest way to describe him would be Middle Eastern, THIS BLACK MAN TURNED INTO A DIFFERENT MAN – LIKE THAT!  Again, if you look at the husband in 12 Strong, of the wife that gets shot for educating her children, his reaction, his grief, his upset, his screams – it doesn’t compare, nowhere close to the emotion displayed in front of me, at the Obama election campaign trailer.  The office was a trailer, a module.
• I told you, they’ve killed people because you haven’t been doing your fucking jobs by protecting me before your own jobs!
• If any of you are unable to do that, if all you are doing is using me like a human shield, to protect yourselves, maintain your job as a career, do not work with me anymore. You’re killing me.  You killed my mother.  You’re killing my family.  And other men, other countries, are seeing it – that way!
• Let me remind you, I am a woman, they’ve never met, and they are willing to die because of what happens to me and my family!
• Stop confusing the word, exactly, with something that can never be, like consensual gay marriage. Exactly is an English word, and nothing more.  Are all of you really interested in showing homosexuals, lesbians, gays, as stupid?  Like little children touching and holding their pee-pee’s?  It’s what you look like.  It’s what you look like to me, so how do you think you are looking to other people, and countries?
• If you’ve been following David on Facebook and you think you know what is going on, you’re STUPID!
• Desperate for my attention (Sherlock), does not go together with a post David wrote about hating the show Desperate Housewives on Facebook. Desperate is the word.  Desperate for my attention IS THE FUCKING FREAK OUT THAT HAPPENED IN WASHINGTON, DC WHEN CHERITH QUIT FROM DISNEY, AUGUST 2009, TO CARE FOR MY MOTHER, AND WHAT PROBABLY HAPPENED?  ALL OF A SUDDEN, YOU’RE NO LONGER GETTING INTELLIGENCE REPORTS IN WASHINGTON, DC.  CONGRATU-FUCKING-LATIONS!  YOU FUCKING MORONS – WEREN’T DOING YOUR FUCKING JOBS!  BY SENDING WASHINGTON, DC, KILL ORDERS FOR FUCKING TARGETS BECAUSE THAT IS THEIR FUCKING JOBS!  ENOUGH SAID!  I’VE WRITTEN ABOUT THIS, ENOUGH.
• The military salute news story is disturbing, inappropriate, unsportsmanlike conduct, and that’s being kind, and over-generous.
• They sprayed fake, over-weight, marijuana smell up my nose yesterday that says, Edison has a drug problem. Re-occurring, he hasn’t kicked his habit, yet.  I want nothing to do with him, I have never approved of any man or person, that uses – drugs – NOT EVER!  You’ve been misinformed.  Michael used drugs, I never had ANYTHING to do with him, I never touched it, smoked it, or any of it, I NEVER WENT ANYWHERE NEAR IT!  You’ve been misinformed!  My family’s life was in jeopardy, their lives were at stake – IT IS THE ONLY REASON MICHAEL EVER HAPPENED!  STOP REPEATING THIS MISTAKE!
• Bring me a real man I love, and who loves me in return, as a husband and wife do in the flesh, in real life, or so help me GOD, I am willing to DIE for it! I’VE HAD ENOUGH!
• Whatever they have done with my food, my breasts are so heavy, they feel like leaded weights! I am on hunger strike!
• MYTONA, is code for not my A, not my Alpha, not my number 1.
• The four-year-old child who saves sister news story, is not accurate. At all.
• Quit over Ukraine news story doesn’t say enough.
• The heart-breaking Syria news story says, Edison, and YOU GOT TO BE OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND IF ANY ONE THOUGHT OR THINKS EDISON DID ANYTHING – EMOTIONALLY, LIKE A BOYFRIEND, TO ME! SO, I WILL REWRITE WHAT I’VE WRITTEN BEFORE, I WOULD RATHER HAVE BEEN BEATEN WITHIN AN INCH OF MY LIFE, LEFT ON THE STREET FOR DEAD, THAN TO EVER HAVE HAD THE EDISON EXPEREINCE!  AND THAT INCLUDES THE NON-LOVE-MAKING!
• Edison using a black woman and black boy for the death threat (it has nothing to do with food or pizza, it is all about a number and weight on my scale) on my life, Benedict Cumberbatch’s life, the UK says, he has no comprehension, he has no understanding of – cultures. Different cultures.
• Also, having Edison place a death threat on me and Benedict Cumberbatch because he touched me is the equivalent of Edison being a stalker claiming me as his girlfriend. He has no says so, whatsoever, to claim me romantically, as a girlfriend, in any way.  Women choose, women make the decision, women either accept a man, or reject a man, I have always REJECTED,   A man doesn’t just get to claim a woman as his girlfriend, if she does not choose him.  It is legally, not allowed.  Edison is a stalker.  He is as unwelcome as all the other women, I’ve named.  I want a restraining order against him and all the other women I’ve mentioned, including the women who either currently or previously have worked for the FBI, CIA, or any other intelligence community.  I have written this, many, many times.
• This is just a detail, flick your face (Sherlock), my last manager at Disney, 2009, she and I would talk about meaningless things like make-up. I, personally, was not interested in being friendly with her, I didn’t dislike her, I had grown more than weary of being brought into my manager’s office for reviews of phone calls.  Her name because she reappeared in the training room when I went to work at Disney in 2015, full of the worst stench, I could barely stomach, Stephanie Ausburn.
• Also, Stephanie, started after me, did not have the same tenure in the company, and yet was promoted, over me, to supervisor, and there isn’t anything about her, that made her more qualified than me. I applied several times to other higher-paying jobs at Disney and was always refused.  I gave up.  I realized what was happening.
• So, I will remind you, again, the wealthy Libyan family in 13 Hours is an opposite, meaning this family, my family, was not wealthy and could not afford the expenditures, they, my employers, my mother’s employer’s, my father’s employers, my brother’s employers, were purposefully, and with intent, denying our family the income needed – to get the orders out. Either through incompetence, or purposeful sabotage, or both.
• The wealth of information my mother might have been able to provide, from the work she did all her life, is gone. That’s retaliation.
• I wish I had never moved here. Everything is exactly the same as it was in our Plant City house, including the lay-out, or floor plan of this home, and it is EXACTLY what I have been trying to get away from!  EVERYTHING!
• This other FBI man could probably make some sense out of this, since he will be able to understand their thinking, when I went to work at Disney 2015, that is when I moved the shelves in my garage to the side they are on, currently. Since then, they started me backing up into the garage.  It makes absolutely, no sense to me.
• You will have to ask Michael why he wanted and got a dog when we were together. I have no idea why he did it.  And why he made me pay for the dog.  I named the dog, Bruno, despite the other Bruno on television, my Bruno was a real strong name and dog, a male dog.  It is probably why there is a German Shepard in Gladiator.  Bruno was a white dog.  Michael took Bruno and everything else through the sliding glass door of our apartment in 1990, 1991. And, left me with nothing in the apartment, nothing to sleep on, no furniture, nothing other than fleas (A Bug’s Life).  I was in a very bad way.  And, I was working full-time.  Could neither afford my apartment, nor feed myself, nor transportation, nor new furniture, and I was working, full-time.  Nothing much has changed since then, except the fleas.  It’s why the cats, don’t go outside.
• Do you really wonder? Does anyone really wonder why intelligence, the Department of Defense, has lost their Weapons of Mass Destruction?  Their de-coder?  Their translator?  Their reader?  Their mapmaker?
• Pelosi Russian news story says, she has no idea what she is talking about.
• This black-haired woman with the baby that sprayed the air causing pain to my neck, trying to control the movement of my neck says, jealous, envy, rage, undetermined emotion, seeking pain as control and power over another human being, inept, incapable of brainwork, brain-thinking, law enforcement, spy work, or any sort of intelligence, at all.
• I understand, yet truthfully, I have yet to do the brainwork, or decode the rest of Frozen. It is possible that the hurricanes, hurricane Katerina, hurricane Charlie, and the hurricanes in 2004, 2005, were not natural.  I did go to work to Disney while there was a hurricane advisory in effect, until they told us to go home because we were working on generator power only.  I remember, truthfully, I am sorry to the victims and victim’s families of the hurricanes, I remember being mad at God, I prayed for the victims, and I STILL BEGGED GOD TO BRING MY MOTHER BACK TO ME.  I was unable to see anything else other than the loss of my mother.  Probably because it was done purposefully.
• If this is in any way true – if these hurricanes were not naturally occurring, you have a really big problem on your hands, the likes of which have never been seen before, worse than, Osama Bin Laden, and this man is still alive, and – working.
• Most likely, he would be in working, or previously been working in the scientific field as is seen in Sherlock. And, this is another man who really wants to get caught, by me.  Wants to get caught by me like the greatest orgasm ever in a life.  It’s about the equivalent.  He does not want to have sex with me.  Don’t get it confused.  He wants to get caught, to be infamous.
• So, if you allowed my mother to be harmed, stroke, after stroke, so I would not be able to focus on these criminals, and motherfucking terrorists got SO FUCKING PISSED WITH THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF INFORMATION – WELL, YOU’VE ALL BEEN WARNED NOW.
• This man would be a white male, late fifties to sixties, and he would not be in disguise. It will; however, shock people, if it is true.
• Looks like he would have started around the time of 1989, after my California trip. And he has not stopped.  He is lusty, he is very controlled, very controlled is very scary, very clever, very smart, not necessarily intelligent.  If it is in any way true, he has been competing with other terrorists for news time.  And, he has shown many flaws in the national security systems, that’s very scary.
• Edison is a threat and threatened by this other FBI man because he is seen as Cal in Crazy, Stupid Love.
• Let the storm rage on, Frozen, is about me, not other criminals.

 

This is for the other FBI man:

November 14, 2018

Not timed.

 

Put this Christmas tree together.

A real Blue Spruce nine feet tall with diameter proportionate to support the height of the tree.

Make a garland of smarties candies, garland the tree from bottom to top.

Make candles from mandarin oranges, take real mandarin oranges place a white ivory candle in each, candles with smooth sides, bigger with more width than a birthday candle, so there is several inches of candle displayed above the mandarin orange, place them on a gold plate about the size of a saucer and gold plate back so the candlelight is in the gold, place them on the branches of the tree so they do not wilt, lean, or flop and light them all.

Cut real holly branches with berries on each branch, the florist term is a pick, and place them aesthetically proportionate over the tree.

White led Christmas tree lights on every branch and limb of the tree, placed so no wires are visible, turned on and never off.

Old-fashioned tinsel made from aluminum, not new, tinsel that is no longer made anymore, tinsel preserved Christmas after Christmas.  Place generous proportions on the ends of every visible branch.

Place on a floor of moderately honeyed golden oak flooring about three to four inches in width, polyurethaned.   A velvet tree skirt of the richest, darkest dark green with the finest stitching from the finest tailors in the world with a gold detail at the hem.

Place the tree in a corner against a wall and a corner in a room two-story tall with paned windows almost two-story tall leaving about a foot or so of wall at the bottom, white painted molding about four inches in width surrounding the windows.

Place a star of David with many white led lights on top.

Make and create this tree, see what happens.

See what will happen.

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Learn to live without me.

LTLWM, Englishman.

LTLWM, UK.

LTLWM, Edison.

LTLWM, David.

LTLWM, world.

LTLWM, my real father.

LTLWM, my real brother.

LTLWM, Boyfriend.

Learn to live with me.

Hunger Strike: Day 4.

October 16, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

Let me explain something, so more than the persons asking the information will understand why I wrote Greta only had about 30 seconds of active listening.  If you are a political talent scout, of sorts, if you have the ability to forecast and predict winners and the greatest appeal to the public, you want to know this information about whatever candidate’s campaign you’re working on.

Most people, most American people voting, most American’s vote only on the Presidential elections.  I, I have written this before because I actually love voting, and the little sticker afterwards that lets everyone who sees you know, you’ve voted, I voted every election, irregardless.  That was before I moved, here.

When I lived in Plant City, Florida my polling place was held in a church adjacent to my sub-division.  There were signs placed on the sides on the road, alerting people, it was an election day.  In this house, I am so far removed from the voting process, it is nearly an hour’s drive, to the polling place and back.  Uh, a little extreme.

Since most American’s only vote on the Presidential elections, well, it’s about the equivalent of a gnat’s attention span, a very small window of opportunity to get and grab the voting public’s attention.  If your candidate does not have the ability and power to demand and command attention, and interest, you will lose in the polls.

Appeal to the general public, making a candidate likeable, I have never really paid much attention to, I think it is over-utilized.  It’s too close to pandering, and even if it wins in the short-term, it will fizzle out, the public will grow weary and disillusioned, usually, faster than a sneeze.

That’s why I focus on the candidates I focus on.  Leading a nation, does not, nor will it ever include, in my mind, pandering to the public.

The difference is, listening.

Pandering is not the same as listening to the people who voted the individual into public office.

I would ask the voting population of the United States to think more sincerely about the voting process, who they vote for, and why even if they do not vote, their vote matters, to the whole world.  It is a responsibility for every American.  A responsibility for every American to every other American in this country, and the world.  It matters – to the world.

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Do not confuse inaudible work with Cherith, and L-O-V-E.  Cherith is a mirror, she sees people for who they really are.  Readers, do it in person.  When Bella learns that Jacob has imprinted on her daughter (Twilight), and she charges after him, in this scene, remember how you wanted me here, and now its gone, it is just a storytelling way of describing, inaudible work.

Don’t confuse inaudible work with real love or romance, or connection beyond anything other than – work.

Inaudible is not the same as physical love.

I loved David for who he was, as I saw him, I saw him for who he really was, not the work.

The amazing smell of chocolate in Frozen, goes together with the gook food reference in the movie, Spy Games, it’s not an offensive smell to the enemy.  Get it?

Let me explain, Cherith working with real men, to get real military locations during the Vietnam war, is offensive to the enemy.

Because I’m kicking their fucking ass!

So, by not being able to understand these notions and codes and thinking in movies, and in intelligence, by placing offensive smells up my nose, like marijuana, dust, Jew haters, and so, you dumb idiots just tried to make me an – enemy.  Really dumb.

Don’t confuse actual food and eating with movie references.  Don’t confuse storytelling with actual – work.

Would everyone really be happier if they hadn’t used me as a child, to put an end to the Vietnam war?  I don’t think so.

What would it have looked like to our enemy and to our own military if it had gone public that the sensitive and classified locations of such VERY BIG events, like the Vietnam war, came from a child?  It is why in Jungle Book, this song lyric, ‘til the day that I am grown.  Uh, then, obviously, it would not be a problem to be seen working with Cherith and have Cherith be known.  That’s all.

Yes, the shackled hands in Frozen look like my mother’s arthritis, I did call her little paws.  My mother didn’t like it.  She was my mother after all.

Be aware, I have stopped watching Frozen after the Let It Go scene because to me, that is the end of the movie, from there it goes backwards in time to story tell events.  Since I am on a hunger strike, I am not really interested in decoding movies, or watching movies.  I am focused, on one thing.

Yesterday about seven pm was the correct amount of lighting if anyone is really interested at all in working the plane crashes of 9/11.

Irish coffee, children’s playground, Bin Laden.  Well, at my grade school in Gresham, Gresham being the last time I had real English handlers, the playground did abut (that is the correct word to use when one property line adjoins to another property line), the school playground did abut to a cemetery, a graveyard.

I remember as a child looking at those headstones, unafraid, thinking, isn’t odd they would build a school next to a graveyard?  Also, I remember wearing for Halloween, a Princess Leila costume and being on that playground.  Most likely, I was photographed from outside the school property that day.

Yeah, that’s why the CIA tool is sitting in the chair (Target purchase), rather ornate for a secret spy base, at the end of 13 Hours, and that’s me yelling at him, get in the fucking truck.

A mercenary reads differently because they have no alliance.

The hallucinations in Young Sherlock Holmes, look like a real crime, real crime scenes, real crimes working by police, and the hallucinations; however, that were administered to the victims, would be resolved, by water, lots of water.  Water is all that would be needed to flush the chemical(s) out of the victim’s body.

So, if you have a victim that went “crazy”, or “postal”, or in any way acting outside of the norm for their person, and they or others gave water, and it went away, there would be lots of unanswered questions at the crime scenes.  Because it would have been washed down stream (Sherlock), it would not have been present in their body, of the victim.  Allowing, yet again, for criminals to get away with crimes – quickly.

Frozen Queen of isolation, the sentence stops at Queen, the next word is isolation, and isolation is code for: I, lasso, nation.  When said out loud by an English-speaking person, lasso, has an accent.  Nothing more specific that, accent.

Queen has come of age, Frozen, not my fault, if this is in the real and original movie, this dialogue says my German man is not at fault, not responsible, for my former fiancé, Michael, and what happened to the world, my brain and mind, and my family because no one listened to him, enough.

Weaselton, Frozen, is just a detail.  I did sketch, a sharpie sketch of a weasel in winter at an art class in Gresham, Oregon.

I fly like a chicken, Frozen, is just meant to show awkwardness in this verbal exchange or meet between the cab driver seen in Zohan and myself.  There is nothing wrong in that.  In him being seen that way or in me.  I was respectful because there was something not appropriate about him flirting and me flirting in response.  Probably because I would never engage, diplomatically, in conversation with a man who had access to another man, in such a position.  I just wouldn’t do it.

He is not an enemy.  There was nothing wrong.  We liked each other.  That’s how I saw it.  So, did someone else give a different opinion?  Did someone else lead people to believe he was an enemy because of his appearance?

This meet had nothing to do with the White House, or Presidential elections.  Don’t confuse details with facts.

Forest Gump and his leg problems requiring braces (really boring to me), just says, when I went to West Gresham Grade School, I used to hit my two ankles together when walking, I had to start wearing socks, over my ankles, so my ankles wouldn’t bleed.

Band-aids, didn’t help, they fell off.  And it was painful to constantly scrap an already open, scrapped wound during the course of a day, over and over again.  I wore over the ankle socks, the kind you fold over, to just over the ankle.

Somehow, this ankle scrapping, has an equestrian connection.  They were brain-speaking somehow, in my school, and it was meant to mean, horse, horses.

Probably it was meant to mean, the part of the horse that a farrier grabs or pinches together to get a horse to raise it’s hoof, to be cleaned or examined.

Is it a fetlock?  Is that the correct word for the body part of a horse?  Well, someone loves, puzzles.

Probably another reason I loved Sherlock, so much.

Also, I went horse back riding with my brother, at Turkey Creek stables, in Plant City, Florida 2012, when we were clearing out the house to move.  Lots of people noticed.

When I was on horseback, another man, probably a police officer, rode in the opposite direction while I was on the trail, and looked surprised, I knew how to ride.

A horseman, doesn’t lose their horse knowledge from – lack.

If you stopped talking to people for years or decades, if you were in isolation away from another living human being, and you never spoke again, for decades, would you lose the ability to speak?  No.

This goes together with the movie, Nell, so be careful.

It is another way to show, in Nell, Cherith was born with the ability to brain speak, and many other talents, that you will not be able to duplicate or copy.  And, be careful who you have around her, and who works with her.  Nell, looks like a huge warning.

Be very careful, you have people back-track, apologize if necessary, and REMOVE.  It is only for the safety of all, especially, their own.

An actress gave Casey drugs yesterday.  They sprayed me with synthetic marijuana smell up my nose to tell me so, I am not happy about that.  She did it, they both did it for attention.  Because they did it for attention, is the reason I did not write about it sooner.  I am really sick and tired of these pretend women.  I am really sick and tired about writing about these persons who want to be more important to me, than they actually are.

Since I don’t really know if David’s name is David’s name it is possible that when I became Facebook friends with David, it was not really his own page.  I’m trying to figure out why these idiots would do something so stupid as have David appear as a lesbian female.

There was a man who worked with me at Disney, that then went to work at a radio station, and then returned to Disney.  I talked with him often, he was accompanied after his return to Disney with a female, every time we spoke.  It is probably connected to the Jesus Walks song, and why I was bothered by these kids tailing me like they had a clue what intelligence is.

“They” love me more than the United States does.  This was brought to me, regarding the events of 9/11, and there is truth in that.  How very atrocious.  How very atrocious, United States.  If anyone is smart enough to read this, I would not let that happen again, if I were you.

And, if you are actually paying attention, that includes, not allowing me to be with men, for real, is a mistake.  Shame on you, America.

Intimacy.

The loss of lives from 9/11, I feel as well.  I hurt as well.  It feels like a burden, I share as well.  Be aware, be careful, I wear it in my person as a burden.  I did nothing wrong.  I did not attack America, or kill Americans, yet I must shoulder, and wear the burden of that loss, as well.

Alf, does anyone remember the television show, Alf?  Does anyone still believe the television show Alf, was about an adult man in a puppets costume?  Whole Cossack party up their ass (The Bourne Legacy).

Where did Alf live?  Over their garage.

Over the garage goes together with, the Salmon murders from The Lovely Bones.

Alf was an alien, meaning a person born on foreign soil, not born on US soil.  Who do you think this alien living above their garage is really supposed to be?  I’ll tell you, he is the Russian spy, this scary motherfucker, I brought over and – turned.

Wow, somebody likes puzzles.

Melmac the planet Alf is from, alien because the Russians went into space before the Americans, Melmac means, Mel from the television show, Alice.  I always liked the show, Alice.  It is not in the actors – faces, that I liked.  It is in the building or the set, there is some in their uniforms, and mostly it just says how intelligence often watched me and my family while eating out, or at a restaurant.

So, again, taking away the opportunity for me to eat out, or order take out, is another way to display and show to the world, people who already know, you are denying Cherith to work with intelligence.

Mac, from Melmac, just says, Mac Daddy.

Tanner family because I have Norwegian coloring, from my father that tans very well.  When I rode my bicycle in the summer to Mt. Hood Community College to go swimming, I was tanned.

And yes, Russians, do feel like family to me.

My mother always liked the mother and wife of that show, it says, there must be something of my mother in that actress.

The only reason I didn’t like the show Alf that much?  It’s wasn’t adult enough for me.

If this is a photograph, with something of my boyfriend as a child, it reads, he was in trouble, as a child, in his head, mentally.  It’s arrogance, conceit, it shows ruthlessness, determination, unkind, and contempt.  No, he does not look, or have anything that says, angry.

All of those traits are not in and of themselves, a bad thing.  None of those make a person a killer, a murderer, a criminal.  The contempt, that is the warning sign.

Here is a tell, if they were working Hannibal Lecter on me as a child, in Gresham, Oregon.  My mother yelled at me, in our home, like she had never done before or since, that I had better GODDMAN RESPECT HER!

In all my life, I had never heard my mother say or utter a swear word, so, I listened.

Goddamn respect her.  It stuck with me.  GRS, 13 Hours.

What the argument was about, is meaningless.  Goddamn respect her, I listened.  Ok.  I will.

Arrogance, conceit, ruthlessness, determination, unkind, these are all not bad characteristics, and are often seen, or were given the time period of the eighties, as qualities of a good medical doctor.  The mentality of the medical field was such, that a white male needed to have these qualities to succeed in the ranks of the medical administration of a hospital.

And, what happened because of that line of thinking from the eighties?  A lot of malpractice, lawsuits.

The real Hannibal Lecter is supposed to be Heathcliff, is he?  He is not the Heathcliff character that is in Wuthering Heights.  It was just a way to reach me, and my mind.  He is a pussycat for me.  Not my fault you people aren’t able to do that.

Does the real Hannibal Lecter believe that he would have received, messages from me to him, that – stopped his behavior?  It looks true.

Is this true?  The profile of an actress with her index finger to her chin, shows, Brianna wants and wanted to kill me and have me dead.  Is this true?

This profile of HF says, this far right man, has somebody.

Was that, just now, 2:09pm, a child of probably a former police officer or detective, you had tail me home, Jesus Walks, and thought, I was nothing more than an overweight female, and based on that, he believed, I was not important.  He’s a dumb fuck who should spend some time at a Sheriff’s Youth Ranch, to be scared straight with real criminals, so he understands, what’s really been going on, and what really matters.

Chelsea at my former employer telling me to maintain my weight because it WILL ALWAYS BE MEN AND NOT WOMEN, is a mistake, that I am not responsible for.  Hunger strike.

It is the women who have lied about my weight.  Meaning, the women, have not been telling the TRUTH.

Not this woman, those women.

This is not the same blonde woman who sent another female into my work at Dillard’s to create a scene of a woman placing sunglasses into her handbag, walking away from me and not paying.  I called for security, and the Trooper, lied, saying she was innocent, just to get me to disbelieve in my own mind because of what?  For what reason?  Did I yet, provide more intelligence that no one else would have gotten, and it was successful, and instead of thanking me, you created – a false reality of my person.

You dumb fucks!

I thought it was going to be a peaceful night, 13 Hours, also shows, how they wired or used the X-Box in this house to manipulate my emotions by crying while I was reading, War and Peace.  So, I would leave sooner to meet my brother and Roy at Universal Studios, 2014.

My mother saying No, to David, while attending Cat On A Hot Tin Roof, in college, does look like David had another picture on his person, and my MOTHER was able to read that.  Don’t get it confused.  It goes together with, Zero Dark Thirty, about no repercussions, meaning no repercussions upon my family while working with intelligence.

Zero Dark Thirty makes it appear that it was Bin Laden giving orders to attack my mother, and the truth is, it looks like American terrorism, not foreign terrorism.  Americans attacking my mother with strokes, killing her, when she was giving valuable information and intel, to our own intelligence.  Shame on you.

Don’t get out of the car, 13 Hours, also says, there was a time I was driving with my mother, after her last stroke, and she opened the car door while the vehicle was moving.  That means, my mother, still heard people, inaudibly, someone she would have known, and not me.

I want to know why, she was killed, murdered, and executed.

While the whole network grows all around you, Zero Dark Thirty, grows, is the word.  Meaning an inferior (my opinion) intelligence person (not the same other FBI, or FBI man) was unable to see the reasons why I wanted to sell my home, create a garden, and not waste my money over and over again, on the destruction they caused to my home.

Removing the A/C unit in the garage that had been there for decades, from the HOA, was what sent me over the edge.  It was legitimately trying to excuse a criminal for murdering my (maternal) grandfather.  Not an intelligence order.

The HOA letter for the A/C unit goes together with this wedding at the home behind my home, that also had a swimming pool, opposite side of the mailbox of my home.  Probably the reason Jack takes off his wedding ring in 13 Hours.  This other FBI man will be able to understand what these kids were doing, pretending to be grown-ups.

Same thing with the side garage door, a way to remove, or physically harm, if not kill, my real father.

This other FBI man might like this information, the first unit they showed me and my brother in Phase 1 of this complex was the design and layout, I liked better than this one.  The laundry room, where I would have placed the litter box for the cats, so it would be unseen and hidden out of sight, the balcony’s and the living space were better.

The model home was better than this unit. Separate living spaces from the bedrooms.

Also, the townhouses, shown to my brother and I, by Bright House, again, separate living space from the bedrooms, for some reason because I do not believe it to be the truth, there was a motorcycle, sent outside the unit we were looking at, and it was a warning – to me.  Um, that’s wrong.

It says they had these plans of an “Edison” for many years.  That’s subversive.

The Turkey/Syria news stories just look like gibberish to me.

Jesus Walks, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of Death, I will fear no evil.  It’s biblical.  So, don’t let anyone allow you to fear evil.

This New Mexico man is a profile of a child, probably from the compound Bin Laden was at, who has placed a kill and death threat upon me.  It looks real.

The photo of Pence, tee’d off, is a very strong photo.  That’s what you want to send, around the world.

October 15, 2019

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He didn’t, was it this Eric team, did they use footage, video of me, running outside, something I am no longer able and allowed to do, and that got intelligence, and cooperation somehow, and that is why there was a helicopter at First Watch?

So, you repeated the destruction of the SUCCESS, by no longer allowing me to run outside anymore?  God, you’re idiots!

The brain research that was used on Angelina Jolie looks like she was able, on her own to remove the threat of brain research.  Meaning she of her own mind, figured out the danger, and changed things, removed people, so she could get better.

It doesn’t look like anything more than manipulation of speech, not chemical, or mechanical.

I am so sorry to write this; it is probably why her mother died of cancer.  It is also, why Angelina was so grieved by her mother’s loss because it shouldn’t have happened that way.  Neither one of them did anything wrong.

I am so sorry for your loss.

LTLWM

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If you thought I was joking, if you thought I was kidding about a hunger strike, you are yet, wrong again.

Let me be clear, I am no longer willing to accept the conditions of being alive based upon a game show mentality of product placements as people and wearing it upon my person.

I am willing to die for it.

Learn to live without me.

I am yet, super pissed, again.  Watching 13 Hours, last night, and realizing how I was set up, improperly, and made to look a fool.

Yes, it’s beautiful, but it’s too busy, from 13 Hours, who interpreted that?  Who interpreted that, and used that sentence in the film?  Because it’s wrong.

Busy, is wrong.

The interpretation of busy, is, wrong.  Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, WRONG, WRONG, wrong, get it?  It’s wrong.

Busy, says, underpaid.  It’s interprets to, underpaid.

Let me explain, did they or did they not, make a video of Mark and myself at an expensive restaurant, so I would have to put on my best clothes, to show and share with another country why the attack on our US ambassador happened, and why they needed to explain to the US, they allowed an attack on the US to happen.

Let me explain again, did you show them the daughter of the house, that was supposed to get a country money and aid from the United States, on a “date”, in my best clothes, a dress?  Does anyone know how much that dress cost me?  The best dress I owned.  Do you want to know?  Probably, including tax, $30 to $40.

Even the ball gown, I wore at the Staff Ball of the inauguration 2012, about fifty dollars, maximum.

They made me look like an idiot, as a US convoy.  I won’t thank you for that.

There is a tell that evening, at the end of the meal, Mark went to use the restroom, and left the receipt turned upside down on the table.  There was an ask, in that.  See how much the bill was, and how much he tipped.  It was asked of me several times before Mark returned from the restroom.  I never looked.

To me, it said, unethical.  So, I didn’t look.

Man, I’m super-pissed.  You again had people talking about me to other people, making me appear, better-looking, then I am.  Wow, that’s hurtful.  Please stop using me, learn to live without me.

Worse, then that, worse then using me to show how poor and meager my wages, income, and life is, you’ve allowed it to go from there, to where I am now, even further and closer to poverty level, and even less attractive, by physically abusing my body, through products.  You shouldn’t wonder why I am willing to die, instead of living this life.

The secret spy base in 13 Hours, is my house in Plant City, Florida, it is also, The Container Store.  The Container Store being used as a spy base.

It’s why Woods, flips his shit and screams at the CIA tool about blue-eyed Westerners, those blue eyes, are not mine, that’s Casey, and other women, fucking shit up because she is incompetent.

You people got my mother killed, killed her in a nursing home, got her executed, did not tell me, still have not told me the truth, and you think, I will continue living for you, so you can maintain your jobs?

I won’t do it anymore.

You’ve only led them in training, 12 Strong when does anyone think this training happened?  Before or after 9/11?  Before, is the truth.

I led them, I led Tim, who led his men, before 9/11.  Uh, no, it was not my first time.  Stop making me look like a beginner and novice because none of you have had clearance to my previous military work, AS A FUCKING CHILD!

So, the next time, you wander outside, as a toddler, and save a man’s life (Morpheus), a real military man’s life being held in captivity BY OUR ENEMY, AND you show these top-level military men THE BEST LOCATIONS FROM WHICH TO STRIKE OUR ENEMY TO BRING AN END TO THE VIET-FUCKING-NAM WAR, THEN MAYBE I’LL THINK ABOUT RECONSIDERING MY POSITION!

NO, MOTHER FUCKERS!  I AIN’T TRAINING WOMEN!  I NEVER HAVE AGREED OR CONSENTED TO TRAINING WOMEN!  READ ON, ASSHOLES!

They were way off weren’t they?  Way off.  In the Vietnam war, they were WAY-THE-FUCK-OFF!  At the end of the Vietnam war, they were way off.  Meaning, the locations of our men and allies, were no where NEAR our goddamn enemies to even BEGIN to engage them in fighting.

13 Hours is code, for our house, that is the CIA claiming me in a movie, as one of their own, how my house in Plant City, Florida was being used also, as a spy base.  It also has known and unknown persons attaching themselves to me and my family, for (in the movie, at the time) reasons, not many people have understood.

My clothing wasn’t expensive enough, at the meet, with Mark, at Burns dinner, my clothing was not expensive enough, and you’ve not only NOT corrected that mistake, YOU’VE ALLOWED IT TO CONTINUE AND GET WORSE, LIKE A FESTERING WOUND, THAT IS NEVER CLEANED.

Let me explain The Container Store further, so no one is under anymore misconceptions, or misperceptions, The Container Store was full of – opposites.  So, if a woman, was a woman in body, her proxy, was male, a man.  If a person was a lesbian, they were straight.  It is NOT the same, for men.  Men were always, men.  If a man was gay, they were gay.  If a man was straight, he was straight.

So, Erin at The Container Store, a lesbian female, was really a straight male, man.  Probably, David.  David, as Erin says, Arendelle in Frozen, that says, Irish coffee, successful kill of Bin Laden.

It is possible to decode Arendelle; however, in my mind, it is not really useful, or important.

Why did Cherith choose Erin to be her wing-woman to help her procure available men, to date because she was David.

The opposites, at The Container Store, concerning sexual orientation, lesbians, were only opposites, as women.

Using, Benedict Cumberbatch at The Container Store, as a lesbian female, was an – opposite.  A straight male, man.

The tells, since you morons, have been misleading the public into thinking something that isn’t true, as real, the tells, are in the touches.

I didn’t touch Casey or go anywhere too close to her when she appeared her at my door, disguised as Edison.  I didn’t touch her, or hug her, and this was supposed to be a man, I just had sex with.  You people look like the WORLD’S WORST READERS!

I did eat some of Eric’s salad.  I did hug Eric.  I didn’t eat anything from Edison when we were at Panera.  GET IT?!  I ALSO, DIDN’T GO ANYWHERE NEAR – DAVID, THEN.

Really, you need to stop using intelligence this way, it’s killing me.

The morning after the election night 2012, my bosses’ boss approached me in the office, after having been drugged, drug interrogated, sick as anything, he approached me to hug me, and it read as David, and I didn’t want to touch him, yet how could I logically explain, after a night like that, to my bosses’ boss, I don’t want to touch you.  That fast, as sick as I was, I don’t want to touch you, David, you have someone else with you, and I don’t want to touch them.

I hugged, Kat, I hugged, Rob, I hugged, Eric, this man in the merchandising team that set-up the store who talked about kissing the lip with just me, with sweat upon his brow, and hugged me as he had to leave the store, was David.  He has yet, to show people how hurt and upset he was at the loss, of our friendship.

My German man was using David at Disney, (Frozen) to get me to figure out why.  Sorcery says, double agents or conspiring against the US, the word is dubious.

Your training is over, Tim.  Conceal, don’t feel, this goes along with his training, not mine, regarding me, and I told him so while working at Amazon when he was working with me, and in so many words, told me to not show emotion, about the work I just gave him, and I told him, that’s just your training.  It’s not mine.

Too many secrets.  When was this movie, released, (shoes) Sneakers?

The electricity to my garage light that has not been restored says, “they” didn’t want me to go on anymore missions because “they” wanted to only use me as a non-human being, a pet, a baby, a child, A THING.  NOT A REAL PERSON.  NOT AN ADULT.

You morons are continuing to allow for SUCCESSES, to be destroyed as soon as they occur.  Like David.  Successful training, so you removed him from me, and look what happened because OF IT!  9/11.

I am going to focus on what is important.  And, the details, are not important.  Not at present.  Stop wasting my time with – trivia.

Stuff my face with chocolate (Frozen) says, this other FBI man as wanting to make-out with me, and it has been read by several persons, that the two of us would make a good couple.

What’s that amazing smell (Frozen) and the reason Anna and Elsa are looking at each other is because Cherith is a mirror and Anna and Elsa are one person, me, the amazing smell is code for, sex.  Seeing a man and wanting his sex!  Oh yeah, that’s a man I want to have sex with!  Not a PG movie in code.

Seeing a man and you imagine mentally undressing yourself and him, immediately.

Cathy, at The Container Store, after Edison, telling me it was a good thing to see David at Starbucks with a wedding ring, and her telling me it was a good thing, IS WRONG!  That’s a lesbian telling me being heart-broken, again, because of David being removed from me, is not a good thing, or proper procedure.

Taking the strongest male from me, that I would be sexually attracted to, IS REALLY DUMB SHIT ON YOUR INTELLIGENCE!  YOU DUMB FUCKS!

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, STOP BEGGING OUR ENEMIES TO KILL AND ATTACK US, YOU DUMB FUCKING MORONS!

THAT RESPONSIBILITY – IS ON YOU, NOT ME!

ADMIT YOUR GODDAMN MISTAKES, SO THEY DON’T CONTINUE!

YOUR JOB, YOUR JOBS, ARE TO THWART THREATS!  NOT CREATE THEM!  YOU HAVE BEEN DOING NOTHING, BUT CREATING THEM, SINCE EDISON!

CONGRATULATIONS!  YOU LOOK LIKE FUCKING IMBECILES!

I’LL REPEAT AGAIN, ERIN TELLING ME AT THE CONTAINER STORE THERE WAS SOMETHING – WRONG – IN THE FILES?!  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!  USING AN ENGLISHMAN, A CITIZEN OF THE UK, TO MIND TALK, SPEAK TO ME ABOUT THE LOCATION OF BIN LADEN AND I FUCKING GOT THAT MOTHER FUCKER, AND THEN YOU USED THAT INFORMATION TO REMOVE MY PRESENCE AND EMPLOYMENT FROM THE CONTAINER STORE?!  YOU’RE FUCKING MORONS!

This Atwood photo news story says, it is a photo of me and my mother I posted on Facebook, Casey liked it on Facebook, a photo of my mother in her nursing home, eating a slice of cake, I took a photo of the two of us.  It says, Casey has no understanding, or comprehension whatsoever of what it means to be a caregiver, to give of yourself, for no other reason, other than, you can.

It says, Casey has no comprehension whatsoever of who my mother really was, to this country, to intelligence.  It says she has no comprehension of a mother/daughter relationship, either.

Evaristo says, conspiring against their own FBI people.

The female minister looks inadequate.

The blue motorcycles repeated in front of me while working the Obama campaign says, they had the wrong information, intel, and they couldn’t figure out why.

If you’ve used celebrities in black paint, to get me to decode this line from Forest Gump, life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get.  Haven’t I written this already?  That line, never know what you are going to get, reads, you are not a reader.

If you buy, or receive a box of chocolates, all you have to do is, read the box, or read the writing, it tells you everything that is in the box of chocolates.  With a picture, its name, and a description of the item.

What you have been doing by not disguising celebrities in black paint, is showing real criminals, celebrities are not readers, and placing death threats upon their persons, and it’s been playing out, in prisons, around the world, all these years you’ve put this “reality” show on television.

Again, it is their jobs to thwart these efforts, not create them!

You fucking idiots!

Relatives seek, photo, profile, news story, says they had no business being involved.  No clue what they were doing, and they were getting people killed with their incompetence.

Texas mom goes to jail news story says, Brianna and her cellmate.

Again, copying the Russians in 12 Strong says, they can’t, cannot, proven they cannot inaudible.

The fact that Lauren’s husband visited with me when I was working at Home Depot says, you got chatter, you didn’t understand.  It goes together with the death threats placed upon Benedict Cumberbatch, me, and the UK because this dumb fuck Edison, has no idea what he is doing, and he never has.

Admit Edison was a mistake.  I cannot even begin to tell and write how many times, I refused, and did not want, or wish to meet, all the Edison’s.  Admit, he was a mistake.  Eric was better.

The very fact that they had to use so many different means to contrive a way to get Edison romantically involved with me, although there was no romance, speaks more volumes than all my swear words of recent years.

It’s really atrocious.

They, the United States, the US intelligence, what you were really doing?  You were and have been – destroying your own Weapons with Edison.  That’s on you dumb fucks, not me.

Do you really wonder why you’ve lost your Weapons now?

Thought it was going to be a peaceful night, 13 Hours means, the dinner with Mark at Burns, did not go over so well.  Did they have to re-do, make another video with a real military man (I told you so) with me designing an office of shelves for him at The Container Store, with the real Eric involved and around because he is so adorable, it reads on me, and when he returned to complete his purchase, he brought his whole family, and that worked because it was the closest to the real thing?

Mark, at Burns was probably these two ding-dongs I saw at the Bourbon fest, that had no chance in hell of me considering dateable.  Uh, duh!

Every person Erin, at The Container Store that she talked about hiring, I never liked.  None of them, and I mean NONE of them, were in any way, or could in any way be considered – STRONG.

I am going to repeat this word, strong over and over, because you fuckheads, are DUMB!

Didn’t this FBI man believe that the California restaurant was my first job?  Had no information about Germany.  And, obviously, no information about Vietnam.

Even if the real Eric was and is really married, he still reads as adorable.  It, I, would never allow it to go further with a married man, but he reads, guns and all, killed men and all, as adorable.  None of you saw the VALUE in that?!

Again, you women, NOT ME, show the US and America to be weak and cowardly because you haven’t allowed me to date – for real.  You look like scared little girls running for your big girl panties because CHERITH LOVES MEN, LOVE A PENIS, LOVES A COCK, LOVES DICK, ALL THE TIME!

You look stupid!  Oh no.  Not a penis, those things are icky!  Uh, no they’re not!

I LOVE IT!  BALLS AND ALL!  LOVE IT!  WANT IT!  NEED IT!  LOVE IT!

David, were you so excited out of your mind, almost unable to allow Erin to talk for you because you wanted to be in that bar with me, drinking beers, and just talking?!

Um, and what would be so wrong about David being seen as ALL OVER ME PHYSICALLY?!  You dumb fucks!

Well shit, I believe you, 12 Strong, this looks like a real read of how someone got financing, not military, from Hollywood to finance the reality storytelling of my life, these years.

This photo news story of a black woman in a vehicle wearing a gold shirt just says, she doesn’t belong here, has no business here, in my neighborhood, or at all.

The bush is the biggest from Zohan, this is George W Bush.  It says, Australia, it says this man who pushed (Frozen) my mother in a wheelchair at the Brisbane airport was from the White House.

It’s not the biggest, Zohan, is just being kind to me about how fat I was at the time.  It’s not truthful.

Sam Bobrick profile is the man from Visionworks who kissed me on the cheek.

Ethiopia news story looks like you have people upset about my hunger strike.  I AIN’T GIVING IN!

Concerning my boyfriend and brain research that turned him into Hannibal Lecter, he needs to be touched, physically.  Something that doesn’t happen in prison, does it?  To get the two men I’ve seen, who have been brain researched better they need – touch.  It is similar to all those news stories about Romanian babies and children in orphanages turning into nothings, no personalities because there were not enough caregivers for all the children and babies in these orphanages.

There is something in that, with brain research as a way to control people.  It’s also why I wasn’t afraid (mentally) to touch my boyfriend in any way, or the high school shooter.

What I didn’t want to happen was exactly what they allowed to happen, my boyfriend and I befriended each other and then they HURT me with it by removing him once we are friends.  Just like David.

It says this FBI man is afraid of failure, so he self-implodes his own work, sabotages his own work because it succeeds.  He also has a little savior-complex, meaning, he likes to be the hero, and that is the trait and personality you want in work such as the FBI, it just looks, again, mismanaged.  He needs to be de-gay programmed, gay de-programmed.

You have wasted all these years of my life from 2014 with Edison until I was fired from Amazon August 2019 because you thought you extended (13 Hours) and all you have proven in all those years is you CANNOT do the work.  What incompetence.

My mother and I had been – for years – trying to sell our Plant City house, for years.  It was making her sick.  It was killing her.  Of course, we wanted to leave.  “They” sabotaged our efforts to get help by not selling our home, with real estate agents.

Every real estate agent that listed our house for sale, was a scam.  Here is the tell, a real estate agent I hired to sell our home before my mother’s last stroke that required her to have constant care, upon returning to our home with my mother after another supposed “open house” to get buyers to our home, sat in the chair and ottoman I BOUGHT AT TARGET, with her feet up, shoes and all, on the ottoman.

That is on you.  Not me.  Creating enemies out of allies because of your incompetence.  That’s on you.  That weight is on you.  Not me.

Again, creating enemies out of allies because me and my family didn’t get – anything, a thing – we wanted, that is on you.  I didn’t do it.  It’s not on me.

The movie Hunter Killer, and the alarms blaring, water spurting everywhere, deep underwater, be aware, be advised, this – calms me.  I’ve lived it.  Watching it doesn’t excite me, agitate me, anger me, it calms me.  As if I am perfectly at peace with myself.  Be very aware you understand the gravity of that in a person, in a woman.

If anyone wants to work 9/11, again: watching the plane, planes crash into The World Trade Center, I am still working on.

I want to know why there wasn’t more footage and coverage of the crash into the Pentagon.

The crash footage of the plane, and really please, for the love of God, stop thinking phallically with this imagery, like it is a penis entering a woman, the footage of the plane crash, how did they film that?  With helicopters?  The helicopter angle is too low.

If anyone wants to work this and analysis this as data, there is a message to be read, the helicopter and the camera are too low.  Take the camera, off-center it to the right of the emerging plane crash, not too the far-right, to the mid-center of right, about two, three, maybe four stories high, no more than four, and Matrix it.

Matrix, the fragments.

Take out the plane, remove the other buildings, the ground, the sky, darken the lighting to a somewhat mid-gray, remove colors to an extent, darken it, so there is no glare, or direction or angle of the sun, like shadows, take the fragments from the moment of impact until the building collapses, take those fragment, time-lapse them, and re-arrange them in non-sequential order, it is a like a word jumble.  Take the fragments, rearrange them, move them around like in The Matrix.  I told you brain research was a weapon to be USED to elicit allegiance with our enemies.

I believe there is still a message to be read in the crash.

I look at the US news footage from the crash, in my mind, and all it says to me over and over is, this doesn’t make sense.

When I watched the BBC news coverage of the event, it felt better.  We are not alone.  We are not the only ones – grieving.

Learn to live without me.

LTLWM

October 14, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

Lest anyone failed to witness, see, I am – a little pissed.  A very simple thing blown waaaaaay out of proportion, the size of my body.  I am unwilling, anymore.  I will not kowtow, I am resolute.  I have no more plans for any other food to be eaten other than what is remaining in my home.  When that is gone, I will be gone.  I do not accept the conditions of this – what feels like – surrender.  I will be me, or I will not be – at all.

I do not accept the less than the greatest, strongest reflection and being of myself, I do not accept your failed attempts, your failed – physical attempts of my person.

I am resolute.

You just lost Weapons.

You lost Weapons – by following your own selfish needs, your own sexual agendas.

 

To begin with I would not yet be writing this morning if it wasn’t for this motherfucker irritating the bejesus out of me – just to get me to my computer, for some reason because I no longer see a purpose for it.  So, these are my notes taken starting back from the morning of October 11, 2019 before I went to the Honda dealership, until today, October 14, 2019.  If they are in any way relevant, anymore.

There was a photo, profile of Brianna, that shows she has some sort of body dysmorphia.  Mostly meaning, she – does not accept her body for what it is.  Not that she wants or desires a different body shape, she does not accept her own body, as her own.  Probably goes along with sexual abuse.

The chubby faced child, fat girl photo, just says, Brianna is looking for someone to blame, most likely, for her actions.  Meaning she is unwilling to take responsibility for her actions.

If a person is unwilling to take responsibility for their actions, they are not sorry, penitent, for their actions.

If Brianna really flipped her shit about David and I talking, or working together at Disney, it says, again, she uses sex as a control.  Again, the purpose, the only reason people have sex (in her mind), is to control the other person.  There is a fine line there, meaning, whoever initiates the sex, seeks to control the other person with pleasure.

Because those are such small degrees, and not SCREAMING IN YOUR FACE WRONGDOINGS, it’s a little unnerving.  It’s unnerving, no one has been able to reach Brianna, and attach her brain.  They’ve let her prance around like a spoiled child.  It’s like driving along in your car on a road, seeing a dead body, a corpse, in the middle of the road, and just driving by with no reaction, and you continue to drive by every day, and do not react.

Brianna’s female friends also say, Brianna is a little perverse in the choice of her female friends.  Not normal, not natural, it suggests she seeks power and control over her female friendships.  So, that would suggest she, in herself, realizes she has an inability to control her own emotions, rationalize her thinking, and be an adult.  In her mind, she is still in high-school, high-school thinking, high-school mentality, and not a Senior in high-school, she is still a Freshman in high-school.  She’s rather too old for that thinking.

If she is still a Freshman in her mind, it suggests, trauma, that she is not able to deal with, or overcome, or more importantly, acknowledge.

Brianna also, uses sex as means of control.  Meaning she controls other people with having sex with them, and she sees it as a way other people have controlled her.  Be careful to note, this says, she has never seen sex, as lovemaking.  That’s a little alarming, if this is true.

David and Brianna did post a video online with David spanking Brianna on a bed, and her “getting off” on it, like it was sexually pleasurable.  At the time, I didn’t think much of it.  That, in and of itself, is not necessarily a bad thing, or hurtful between consenting adults. I personally, am in no way interested, in that kind of sexual gratification.

To me personally, its immature.  Lacks depth and meaning.  To me personally, if the only way a person can be sexually aroused is through physical pain, it’s an alarm.  A warning sign.

So be careful people because there has been a lot on television and in the movies, normalizing physical violence, and sex.

I do not believe making love and violence go together, at all.

Sex can be violent.  You can get off, cum, with violent sex, that does not make it – love.  There is a difference.  Do not fall into the trap, of loving an abuser because you are a person that has been abused.  Also, do not get confused, if a family member or other person has abused you, and they asked for forgiveness, and you’ve forgiven them, and still love them because they are family or a person, human being, do not confuse that, with physical love.

There are waaaay too many people around me with really warped ideas and notions of love, and not being able to understand the difference between physical love, and a love, like faith, that cannot be seen.

Belly of MS looks like a credible profile.

Far right photo of male, bride bouncer news story, has something in the photo of the man that is supposed to read as an enemy of the United States and its allies, and it is not.  He is, most obviously, not an enemy.  He is super pissed because of what a woman – not me – did to his pride, reputation, his ego, his standing in the community in his country and the world, and so on.  Far left male in the photo says, I told you so.

I took notes on this, and do not remember to what reference or news story this goes at present – Coffee, funny, I have to hold my nose when I laugh because I haven’t really laughed since the discovery of the Edison scam.

The door with the stairs in the Salon, in Zohan, I know it.  I know that door.  I know those stairs, and they are not in this country.

Explain the fat bastard you keep placing on my skin.

This USPS business that has this FBI man’s former partner attached to it says, Drama Queen.  Something I am not.  Something I abhor, drama, with no meaning, or logical purpose.

Previously written – What I just saw says, that the FBI man’s former lesbian partner, is terrified out of her mind, over me, and Germany.  Germany could mean, what happened in Germany, a mistake she made about me and Germany, and/or what has happened because of her decisions.

The re-creation of my Toyota (mother’s car) car accident in January 2015 looks like people were trying to create a cover-up story about the real meaning, the real purpose, the true motives behind my car accident in January 2013.

It also looks, like they were then, trying to frame or place blame upon my brother with the second car accident.

Also, a detail, I did build, on my laptop computer, in this house, several “Matrix” vehicles.  It was the car I looked at a lot, as wanting to purchase, I like the body shape of the vehicle.  And, what would happen if I, Cherith had my name, on a loan, in title of a Matrix vehicle?  Looks, like someone was willing to kill me to make sure, I never owned a Matrix.  So, no one would have any knowledge, whatsoever, about brain research.  The Matrix, specifically, is all about, brain research.

The Shepard Smith news story is very surprising.  Really, what is that about?

You people really need to get over what you think men’s boxers mean, they are the closest thing to shorts that I have, could afford, and own, and Florida is always hot.  I wear them around the house because I do not have any other sort of shorts that I can wear casually.

When I worked at Home Depot that is when this notion of Cherith eating pizza, started into motion.   It is a death threat to England, to the UK, to Benedict Cumberbatch, and to myself, by showing the world a heavy-set African American woman, extremely large and droopy breasted, and a small African American boy, child who looked out the glass door and stared at the BP, British Petroleum gas station.

Let me explain that further, it is a death threat – BY GAINING WEIGHT, AND TURNING – FAT!

They again, repeated the death threat while I worked at Amazon, at the Red 2, station 10, meant to be the White House, with the African American Marilyn at the opposite station, allowing a terrorist to BASH MY HEAD IN, causing pain and suffering that lasted weeks.  I had to ice my head for weeks to recover.

This news story of Ukraine and Maria Yovanovitch says, both the former lesbian partner and her lover of the FBI man are, bitter, mean-spirited, close to vengeful, angry.  It is not in the photo; however, it shows they’ve placed their own needs, their own sexual agenda above, their job.  It’s tricky and deceiving.

Trump immunity photo is the strongest photo I have ever seen him.  That photo, that is the message you want to send to the world.

Raising the rent in, Zohan, starting with the shorter man in the electronics store (shorter man being the man from the LA, Mexican restaurant) and the taller, white male with a briefcase (being this man who worked in the White House, when I got an “email”), shows the California man looking an idiot, in response to the White House, by failing to understand, and comprehend what was stake concerning my person.

Raising the rent, is a storytelling means of describing, men who follow Cherith, the white rabbit.  It’s more complex than the movie shows it to be, raising the rent, most of all, is describing, how it works, how they’ve followed me, and who I am to them.

It is not really a good thing, that this California man is seen, as dismissing White House communications.

I earn right, 13 Hours, just says, Cherith and her family were not earning enough money to be able to BE THE MEANS OF GETTING COMMMUNICATIONS THROUGH TO THE WHITE HOUSE.  It would be very frustrating if a country was seeking  help, seeking assistance from the United States, and the US responded with so much as, the check is in the mail, and not much other communication, and this continued – for years – another country seeking assistance from the United States and the best we, no, you, I am not including myself in that thinking because I know what would have done better, was tell the other country over and over and over, and it could have been – decades, and not just years, we are working on funding, we are coming with the money, or truthfully, how it looks, the check is in the mail, hang up.

Let me explain further, let me show you the picture in my mind, as I see it, another country, respectfully, earnestly, steadfast in need asks, the United States for assistance by telephone, they get a receptionist, as far as a receptionist in an office, the receptionist responds with only these words, the check is in the mail, and she then, hangs up.

If you were another country, how long you would continue to trust the United States?

This thinking, or mode of operating, goes back to when my mother and I went to Germany.  We received a free or paid airline tickets, and nothing else.  Food, lodging, rental car, insurance, airport transportation, excursions, all out of pocket expenses.  Where was that money supposed to come from?  And, if you place it all on a credit, how do you pay the credit card off?

It is a thinking and mentality of a person who is unable to grasp the concept of a budget, or expenses.  While we were in Germany, I think it is why my mother tried to get an earlier flight home.  The airline tickets were probably, the least expensive to purchase, compared with the other expenses.

My mother was very financially, savvy.  How many people calculate the minimum payment on a credit card?  How many people know what it means to calculate a minimum payment on a credit card?  I’ll explain, if you pay so much money by this date the interest rate is X amount.  If you make another payment by this date the interest rate is this, or X amount, and so on.

This is back in 1988 before they put that sort of information in any credit card statement.  Okay?  Place it in context.

And, people were aware my mother was financially savvy, and it is one way they could use a stereotype of Jewish people being financially aware, and my mother.  If you followed that, it would lead you nowhere, and those who knew better, would be able to see you for a fool.

What’s the Chief’s number one rule, 13 Hours?  What’s the one rule in comedy?  The absolute truth about comedy is that, it must be true, it must be truthful.  Zohan wouldn’t be so funny, if it wasn’t true.

Example, here’s a joke, Today the sky turned orange, and the sun turned brown.  Did you laugh?  Would anyone laugh?  What’s funny about that sentence?  Nothing.  The sky is not orange, the sun is not brown, and the person telling the joke looks like a dunce.

That’s why Zohan was so funny to me, too – true.

Jesus Walks, Kanye West, I listened to this song because this has been bothering me for years.  I remember being watching from behind me, in my car, another vehicle following me, in my neighborhood, with my windows down, and this song, Jesus Walks, on the radio.

I listened to this song, every time it was on the radio.  It is a powerful song.  It is a strong song.  I want to know why these white Americans – what looked like young adults – were doing tailing me.  Because I don’t like it.  It doesn’t look good, again, for America, and Americans.

The real problem, I stood apart, on the Obama campaign, I stood apart.  When I dressed myself, I stood apart even in a crowd.  I did not look like I was from Florida.  Floridian’s have a sort of dulled, washed too many times polo shirt look to them.  Dull, not bright, not crisp, not finished, not pulled together, sloppy, messy, not chic, not definitive, and not in touch with global concerns.

Conceal, don’t feel from Frozen also says, don’t let the world know Cherith is the real person doing the real work, um, it’s not a good thing.  Example, the night I went to work (my most recent former employer) went to look where my station would be, and I looked to one side, and saw the results of my previous night’s work of capturing terrorists, AND I IMMEDIATLEY WAS SO OVER-JOYED I BEGAN JUMPING UP AN DOWN WITH SCREAMS OF YIP-PEE, SO MUCH SO ALL THE CONTENTS ON MY POCKETS FELL TO THE FLOOR, and when I went to pick them up off the  floor, that is when they allowed another person, a woman to view and share in my achievement of the captures, and a switch happened.

A switch, just like in The Matrix, not like this, not like this, and the character dies, is like a brain switch having been read going back to the early nineties, probably, of at least one person, who should never have been involved – in my work.

It’s a deceitful and dishonest person.  Warning.

This other FBI man should look at my Christmas tree profile, if he hasn’t already.  No one has done anything with my Christmas Tree profile.  Is it too difficult?  Too complex?  Or would it reveal too many high-level personnel?

“They’re just mad, we look good doing it.”  This is very true.  It’s shocking to me.  It’s true.

Analysis: The Greta video I saw: you should be worried, she appears nervous, not resolute in her beliefs.  She looks like an actress.  You had about 30 seconds of active listening at the beginning, and that’s all.  People stopped listening when she started talking about statistics.  We will never forgive you?   And people applauded?  What is that about?  Why would that receive applause?

Frozen, elated or gassy?  Did anyone notice the inconsistency?  If a person is gassy, they do not take their fist to their chest, they hold their stomach.  It says, gassy means something else?  And did anyone notice?

The, nothing in my way from, Frozen and then she hits, or bumps into a horse, these are details, is all.  The time I was grooming, or brushing a horse, 4-H, twelve, thirteen years old, and the horse moved his hoof, and stepped on my right foot, and that is why you wear BOOTS when riding horses, or around horses.

It’s just a detail for me to remember, same place, same stable, same time, same horse that I was riding around the ring, and an adult male watching spoke another language – inaudibly, most likely Russian, as the horse was bucking, and they probably used another inaudible means to get the horse to buck, and I held on as the horse was bucking until I heard – DO YOU GET IT KNOW, HOW MUCH NOISE AND COMMOTION WOULD BE GOING ON AROUND A PERSON AS THE HORSE THEY ARE ON IS BUCKING? And yet, I heard inaudibly, Russian, so much as, did he say fall off?  So, I did.

It is likely, he wouldn’t have been able to reveal why the horse bucked, why I fell off, and that is why I didn’t get any more horse-riding lessons.

Nothing in my way, Frozen, also says Shoo-Shoo, meaning my cat they killed because I stopped an attempt on the President of the United States at that time, it is also, I’ve written this, in Raiders of The Lost Arc, when they run the man over in the vehicle, Indy is driving.

This University job I had when I locked the building every night, is disturbing, in that the woman I replaced when my shift started was a Hispanic woman with a Hispanic accent, and she made a comment about wanting to have her period as long as possible.  That it was best for the female body.  It is an unusual thing to say or comment about with no other basis or conversation to connect it to.

The CIA man in 13 Hours wearing the blazer at the compound at the beginning of the movie, is me, in Washington DC, 2013 when I arrived at the airport, arrived and checked into my hotel.  When they caught a man (while I was in the Metro) because I was moving, travelling, and they were following.  I wore a black turtleneck (Frozen) and a cowl-neck sweater (Champion sports) all bought at Target, a blazer, and a winter coat, skirt, tights, knee-high boots.  All completely normal given the location and time of year.

Guess what else I purchased at Target somewhere between 2000 and 2004?  Sheets.  Bed sheets, that I still have.  It is another reason Sherlock is dressed in bedsheets at Buckingham Palace.

The difference between Michael and Zohan, like, how can you drink this soda?  Is meant to show the difference in constitutions between my mother and myself.  Closest comparison, my mother is Mr. Glass, and I am Thor.

Super charged wi-fi from 13 Hours says my personal X-Box, that my brother brought with him when he moved back to Plant City, Florida (bought at a pawn shop) says, there was a hidden camera in the X-Box, or reading the games I was playing,  It also says, my brother asked me to get two video games, Assassin’s Creed and Formula 1 Racing that he paid for with a personal check (a detail, Michael, my former fiancé, paid for my abortion with his check from his bank) from his bank.  It shows, premeditation and motive, and plotting for my car accident.

There is a dangerous difference between reading and following.

The movie Legally Blonde and Clueless go together.  Legally Blonde is about a handler whose life was in danger because a stylist my mother knew, gave me a perm, not in a salon, at her home, and melted all my hair.  I had long hair that had to be cut to about the distance between your thumb, and your index finger, and that was after weeks of putting treatments and conditioners on my hair.  It took days for my hair to dry from the outside strands of hair.  It’s rather severe.

Removal of Babee Bear’s eye says, they injured my cat’s eye, it swelled more than twice the normal size sending me to the vet with him.  I put drops in his eyes for days, and it didn’t work, leaving the only course of action to remove his right eye means, there was a threat to the Tammy Faye and Jim Baker children when I worked at WORSHIP, it is the reason they were brought to WORSHIP to be seen by me, and it looks like just by being seen by me, they were given a protection from – whatever, wherever the threat was.  I don’t like you hurting my cats, just because I saved someone else’s life.

William Parrish from Meet Joe Black, code: Widow’s Peak.  I used to have a more pronounced widow’s peak.  Bangs or no bangs?  Probably the reason the brown-haired woman in Zero Dark Thirty has bangs, and this other man, did NOT want me to have bangs.  He wanted me to scare these motherfuckers before they could even THINK about planning any attacks.

Don’t be misled in Frozen, there is no monster in Elsa.  The imagery of sending up sheets of ice between Elsa and the common folk, UM, YOU FUCKING WANT THAT SHIT!  YOU’LL NEVER EVEN KNOW – USUSALLY – WHEN IT HAPPENS.  AND, YOU’RE WELCOME!

AND GUESS WHAT, DUMB FUCK, AMERICANS. THESE ARE FOREIGN, NOT NATURAL BORN CITIZEN’S LIVING IN THESE UNITED STATES SEEING CHERITH AS THE PROTECTOR OF THE UNITED STATES AND THE WORLD.

SO, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

The female Salon owner in Zohan, is a real read, of a real man, that understood my physical body then in 1995, 1996, and my mental image of who I wanted to be, and how I saw myself, in body size – were making me unhappy.  I wanted to be small and petite, similar to the female Salon owner in Zohan.  The black color of her hair just says, it has been seen and read that Cherith loves all kinds of men, and their hair color is irrelevant.

Something happened the day my brother and I went to First Watch (second time) for Brunch.  We waited outside for a table (about 30 to 45 minutes) I was dressed in a running outfit, or workout clothing, I didn’t change from what I was already wearing when my brother stopped for a visit and suggested we have a meal, and while we were waiting a helicopter sat on the restaurant roof, again.

Did this Sona?  Did this former lesbian partner of the FBI man subvert the efforts of my firing (Amazon) because she didn’t want the other FBI man to learn the truth?  About Bin Laden?  And my time here in Florida?

The FBI man is seen in, The Matrix, as Neo, as not being the One through Trinity because of his lesbian female partner.

The Irish coffeepot set I purchased at QVC says, the lawsuit of the woman who had coffee spilled in her lap, and sued McDonald’s.  Although, don’t follow that.  It just says, McDonald’s.  McDonald’s says I was seen as a young girl in McDonald’s in Gresham, Oregon, and that says, the playground at McDonald’s, and that says, children.  Playground, children.

Stank house, 13 Hours, does not say, Zombieland, it says, Tank, House, meaning I used to wear nothing but tank tops and shorts when we lived in Plant City when I took care of my mother.  It was always too hot in the house, for me.  And, all I could afford.

Don’t touch me, I don’t want to hurt you, Frozen, used when I worked at Dillard’s, and it could mean, don’t go, or looks like a don’t go.  Not a flinch.

David used the word, obsessed with Edison in this house, the first night.  The word sent me to thinking, I am not obsessed with David.  It says, there was already a concern and problem with Courtney having a fixation, dangerous to be around me, and obsession with me as a pet, or toy, or seeing me as something other than a person.

Chris, the actor, Zero Dark Thirty, there really was a Chris in our theater group, and he asked me if I wanted to feel his ass, I did.  Hard as a fucking rock, and I left my hand there, for some time, imagining his ass.  I never believed the Chris in my theater group when he told a story about Afghanistan.  It sounded made up.

It goes together with this young kid adult in our theater group who asked me if I wanted to go to a shooting range with him.  I said, no because it said, shooting range, caution.  It caused me to ask him why he thought I would want to shoot?  So, a caution, and the caution could have been a person.

So, be advised, be aware, the strongest male, of all the men in my theater group was, David.  Strongest physically, strongest mentally.  Hmm, I wonder why I would be attracted to the strongest male?  Oh yeah, I don’t wonder, I know.

Chris, from my theater group goes together with Eric that I met at Panera, Eric goes together with Mandy from The Container Store.  Chris, Eric, Mandy, go together with Boone from 13 Hours.

Before I met Eric at a restaurant, he texted me that he didn’t drink alcohol.  I don’t drink, code: I, Department of Defense.  I was immediately surprised, uh, he does drink alcohol, the real man.

Before I met him, I had an interview for Sales Trainer at The Container Store, I didn’t get it.  I was told I was rude to Sally, I interrupted her, or some other lame excuse, where are my manners, 13 Hours.

I got to the location, to the meet, to the restaurant, to Panera – ahead of schedule.  I didn’t change my clothes from my work clothes.  I didn’t really feel like a date, date.  You walk into Panera, the food ordering was to the left, and the seating was to the right, I, immediately sat down.  I had no desire to eat, or order anything.  Why?  So, what did they have planted at the food counter?

Because it would be normal for me, or anyone, to at the least, order a beverage, a coffee, something.  I had no desire, whatsoever.  I sat facing the door, so I could see him as he approached, entered, or walked in.

Eric ordered food, a Fuji chicken salad (not my favorite at Panera), a smoothie, and a sandwich.  It just says the man has an appetite, and his physique wasn’t obese, he wasn’t rail-thin either, it’s probably a close approximation to the real man.  I ate some food from his salad, and that, if anyone was noticing, just says, I was comfortable.

Eric texted me a photo of an antique (Pawn shop) wedding ring on his pinkie finger.  It’s a little forward for never having met a man before.  He also shared of photo of him, after having worked out, on an orange motorcycle (orange motorcycle goes together with the blue motorcycle before my hysterectomy 2012, crashed in pieces, and a Sheriff walking around the rubble, I looked at the Sheriff, meaning the biggest threat, blue motorcycle was repeated often while I worked on the Obama campaign, meaning, I saw it several times thereafter) that was taken from the back seat of another moving vehicle.  Point of view of the photo, man on the motorcycle, left.

Pretext, I was in my own home, after coming home from work and getting the mail before I met Eric, 2013.  I was at my kitchen counter in my home when Eric, texted me and asked me what I was doing, and I answered, truthfully, opening my mail, doing household stuff, etc.

Whatever happened at Panera because I didn’t order food, here is the tell, Eric told me he liked my clutch, wallet that was on the table.  These are just details, it was a Coach black wallet with pink tab pulls, and my phone was in and out of the wallet.

This man must have teleconferenced me most of the time, being in and out of the country, through the televisions here in my home and at The Container Store.

I’m sexy and I know it, I do have a gun in my cubbie and I will use it, 13 Hours, this is me seeing this really man-man through Mandy.  I have a gun in my cubbie and I will use it, my response, my read of him, I know, and he is adorable.

Isn’t he adorable?  He is so adorable.  Really big man, has killed people, been in battle, been to war, and Cherith says, he’s so adorable.

So, what was the problem?  Why didn’t they use Eric instead of Edison?  Because I liked this adorable man?!

Oh, look at him, he has a gun, he’s been to battle, he knows how to kill people, isn’t he adorable!

YOU PEOPLE ARE MORONS!

Did he get rid of me?  Or, did you people FUCK UP AGAIN?!

Oh, he’s so adorable.

You people look like idiots!

It looks like the only reason they used Edson is because he is malleable – by women.  And this big man would not be malleable – by women.  He would; however, listen to me.  IDIOTS!

Mandy, Jack Silva your late as usual, 13 Hours, Mandy telling me being late was becoming a problem, I was not able, at the time, to tell her there was a problem in house, in my house because he’d (this man through Eric) had been watching me through the television here in my home, and Edison had since been in my home.  There is a lot of confusing chatter, I was getting around that time, around my person, I was trying to figure out, and most of it, just looks like confusion.

This late problem goes together with the Beer and Bourbon fest I went to in 2014 before I met Edison.  Meaning, there was or is a Rachel and Roy problem, meaning, people using Rachel and Roy, I don’t like, and were not good, or good enough.

I saw David across the street at the Beer and Bourbon fest, at a Bourbon tasting, there were two young (twenties) men to my right, the one furthest my right wore cheap wayfarer style sunglasses, the sort you would buy at a gas station, or drug store, for a few dollars, the other male closest to my left was somewhat Hispanic looking and both of them said and read, on what planet (because they were both eyeballing me like they had a chance) would either of you men be able to speak to me, let alone, date me?

The last thing I had at that Beer fest was a sample of Mexican beer around 3:30pm.  I was supposed to believe I over-drank.  Um, it doesn’t happen to me, on my own, not ever.  I have an internal – and some, maybe not all people will understand this and know about it – governor all my own, that does not allow me to drink into a black out.  I’ve never done it in all my life.  If I feel myself while drinking going over, I stop, or I eat, usually, I just stop.  I know it.

However, the real truth is I was at a food sampling booth from a restaurant with Twist, or Twisted, or something in the name like that, I was facing the Performing Arts Center, my back was to the benches across the park, a man was watching me, and the woman (most likely, had no idea the information she was giving) at the booth gave information or acknowledged me in some way.

Because she gave information about me in some way, they drugged me, somehow, probably planted something, they knew I was going to use in my home, and I woke up about 7:30 am, the next day.  They probably also used the cameras and audio in this home somehow.  That’s a long time.  From 3:30 pm to 7:30 am, that’s a lot of hours.

It says there was a leak, a problem, a big concern, that no one has corrected in this home, with the camera’s and monitoring of me in this home.  It’s not just a death threat to me, or my family, it goes to everyone I was friends with on social media, and at The Container Store, every profile on eHarmony, and every man I met, dating.

It also, goes together with Lauren at The Container Store, saying she didn’t want to get pregnant (and was) because she couldn’t drink during pregnancy.  That goes together with my hysterectomy.  It just says, problem.

Lauren’s husband, I liked, and he said he had a man crush on Marvin, and they talked about fishing all the time.  Eric had also texted me a photo of his dinner, fish and couscous.

All that goes together with this problem in Tanya’s files, and Tanya was in disguise as a really big woman who really cut my hair while I was working at The Container Store, and I didn’t like the haircut because she cut into my natural curls (Zohan).

Did this Eric use Mark to take me to Burns Steakhouse because of what happened at Panera?  Because the only man I was looking at was the man at the bar and wondering why he wasn’t taking me to dinner?!  Did he actually dye his hair?  Great disguise, I almost didn’t see him as the only man there!  And, that is sarcasm.

Burns, just says, Cat on A Hot Tin Roof, and that just says, Chris at the theater group.  And perhaps, he just wanted to see me in a dress, dressed for a real date, as a woman.  I bought, gum, by the way, on the way to the date, it made me late, cinnamon, Trident, Shell gas station.

Did they just not use Eric because he had a girlfriend?  Something there doesn’t make sense.

Russian vodka in 12 Strong goes together with, Alfred (Johnson?) that I didn’t shake hands with but met at the Obama election office.  Alfred was – WOW, WHAT A MAN!  6’ 3” built like a former football player, and so manly!  He wasn’t just good-looking, or gorgeous, he was A MAN!

Not only was he so manly, he could speak, had manners, could carry on an intelligent conversation, speak about politics, books, religion, all sorts of things!  JESUS CHRIST!  If that isn’t a panty-dropper!  Yeah, I was mentally drooling over him.

It says, he or the person talking through him must have really liked me, and the WOMEN in the office, escorted him away from me after I had two beers with him.  I had another beer and a shot of vodka, 9:30, 10:00 pm and that was all I remember from the evening.  I was meant to believe, I consumed more alcohol, I did not.  Did they drug interrogate me, at an Obama election office, on election night?  How disappointing of our government.

I was sick for about two days, after that.  It took that long for whatever they gave me, to go through my system.

I woke up that election night around 3 or 4 am, to an older man on top of me in a car, his car, groping me.  Partially undressed.  That is not consensual.  I did not have my handbag, or other personal belongings with me, he, this father of my boss’s boss, told me they were in the office that was now locked and we had to wait until morning before they would reopen the office to get my things.

He took me to a hotel, I slept, or laid down, I didn’t sleep, with all my clothes and shoes on, in a bed of my own.

In the morning when we checked out, there was a USA today newspaper in the lobby.  This man was trying to make it appears as we were a couple, and I went along to an extent with it.  I was mortified.

Another helicopter went over the roof of the hotel as I got in his car to get to the office to get my things.  He bought me coffee, I could barely drink it, I was so sick.

It’s very disappointing of my government, if they drug interrogated me based on what evidence?

This FBI man is seen in, the Matrix, as not being – the one because of his lesbian partner, and Trinity talking into Neo’s ear while he is “plugged in” is to show how in my mother’s womb, I learned, and was born with this talent.

The cab driver in Zohan, is a real cab driver, when I went to Chicago, and he really liked me.  Tried to come on to me by placing his armpit over the vent in the cab, I was just, respectful.  Obviously, this man had no chance with me, romantically, whatsoever.

Why he wanted to meet me, I have no idea.  We ate at a Rainforest Café near the hotel.  Not my favorite just because it is a chain restaurant and I wanted something local since, I didn’t travel to eat and experience the same things I could do where I live.

The side garage door, in my Plant City home, also needed to be replaced.  The trim, the door, everything.  Every time I tried to get help with it, home improvement store, etc. I was met with a dead end.  I couldn’t get it done.  It could mean they didn’t like my real father and wanted to replace him.

It is possible that someone could have placed tree frogs through the side garage door, Froggitt & Froggitt (Young Sherlock Holmes), and Thursday brought them to me, like a mother cat brings a kitten (detail).

My boyfriend has a theory, it looks correct.  Regarding the Nicole Brown Simpson story.  I always believed the Perlman family.

It does look like OJ Simpson did get manipulated into not killing, rather than allowing another person to kill his wife, for money.

It would give him plausibility in innocence of not killing his wife.

Kato seemed to be telling the most truth.

If the killer wore gloves, and blood soaked the gloves, they would shrink when dried.

It would mean the real killer is in prison, currently, not for the crime of killing OJ Simpson’s wife.  If you want to find him, he would be a mostly white male about 5’ 10”, 5’ 11”, in prison for probably stealing art, or artwork in a personal home, something very valuable, millions of dollars, around the time of the murder, same area, and state.

If you want him to confess to it, you will have to convince him of the glory.  He wants glory.

He did it because he was working or talking to another man could be FBI and/or CIA, or another intelligence community, looks like there is an overlap, meaning working for both.  And this criminal got so pissed off at this man he was talking to, he wanted to show how smart he was.  By creating a scene.  I doubt, he thought it was going to get so much coverage.

I am so very sorry for the family’s loss.

Also, Marcia Clark was the better lawyer, meaning she had better response from the public’s opinion.  She was “removed”, or they didn’t use her as often, for her protection, that’s what it looks like from their minds.

No, Casey is still in trouble.  Danger zone.  She has not committed to being clean, no longer, ever again, using drugs.  She is still thinking about when she can get another – fix.

If this mole over my right ear is not natural it would have been placed at a dentist visit.

LTLWM.

Learn to live without me.

October 12, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

Hold.

I have spent several hours this morning, checking, re-checking, feeling my way around me, making sure, and double-checking, and I am certain I was correct before, I will be waiting to write a few more days.

Whatever was attached to the safety-recall on my Honda Civic, was very heavy.  Emotionally, very heavy, very draining, and it took everything out of me, for the rest of the day.

Hold.

Be still.  Be calm.  Relax, have a drink, enjoy your families, enjoy the weekend, yet be aware at the same time.

Hold.