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March 15, 2019

No, it still feels as though I have had no time off whatsoever.  I have no work-life balance at all.  For so many years in this same way that is completely against my own natural instincts, my own free will, and what I know to be true and real beyond a shadow of a doubt.

No, I am not sorry I bought a t-shirt for my real father.  I simply do not think I need or should have to continue doing such things.

This dialogue from Lord of The Rings, a light when all other lights go out, is me, is about me, is most specifically – me.  Be careful here, it is far more powerful than the words appear to be.

Santa Anita – Nina Gold, Nine-Ah Gold.

I almost dread writing this because I am not, in the given timetable I have, able to write a comprehensive structure code for the movies Moulin Rouge and Australia.  There is so much there in the films.

Brothels, can-can dancers, strip clubs, nudie bars, private dancers, etc. please do me and the world a ginormous favor, don’t be stupid, use your brain, and think beyond.  It is not a literal translation, or copy, it is about – suicide bombers and all the attacks that happened within a certain timeframe that mostly happened while Western civilization and culture was at leisure, having fun, and at nightclubs, discos, famous and popular international bars.  Places like the Ramada hotel.  Discos where international persons enjoyed a Western way of life.  Not just American, Western.

Is there or is there not a former “agent”, a former federal agent, a female, who is now behind bars for the role she played in at least one “mission.”  It looks like she could have been sent away for multiple assignments.  Is this the same woman who tried to talk me into saying and believing that the listening devices they placed in my head should be used for intelligence agents?  Because, I said no.  I said it would too easily cause any person to go insane from having this listening device that I have in my head.  No one should ever have it – EVER!  I still believe so.

Do you believe you would be able to live and stay alive with a constant audience, 24 hours a day?  That never went away – ever?  Most people would have killed themselves by now.  Just for relief.  Think about that.  Because if this listening device was from a former federal agent acting on their own, they would have known that possibility could exist.

When I enrolled at Hillsborough Community College, I believe the person who took my paperwork was not employed by the college.  I was told I had to take a test, a placement test for admission because I had a GED.  Because of my scores I was told I needed PREP Math and English classes.  Five credit course classes as opposed the three regular semester credit classes.  I know I took two prep math classes, but I only remember one prep English class.  It was a class that you could go at your own pace.  You could take the whole semester to finish the class or you could finish early.  I completed the class in a few weeks.  It was not difficult.

The cattle drive in Moulin Rouge, does look like agencies competing for meets with me.  It also looks like Japanese, Kobe beef.  That would be our US military bases in Japan back in the 1980’s.

The dance I had when I was in middle school in Oregon was just a way, they were creating a story for me to know when I was older.  The man responsible I can no longer see anymore, he is dead.  The next play after Toy Shoppe was Wizard of Oz.  I received a call-back and did not go.  There is some confusion around that time.  The Wizard of Oz is not about some fantasy story it is a way of describing brain-travel, Sherlock thinking, memory technique, and solving crimes.  Who is the lead?  A woman.  And what was the year?

I had a meet as a pre-teen child at Clackamas Town center, it was done to show me that the medical research done on – live – subjects in Oregon should never have happened.  Not to me, and not to my family.  He tried to get me to look away, look in another direction.  I did not.  This would mean they had a suspected pedophile that he (an intelligence man) was trying to get me to look at, and I did not, I would not.  He is not my reflection.

My mother is Satine, she is not in any way a whore or a can-can dancer.  No one would ever believe such a thing.  It is the reason I wore her wedding ring on my Norway lanyard.  She was married.  She did not have children out of wed-lock.  IT IS MORE THAN IMPORTANT!  I did wear the jade bracelet for my cousin who is married, and South African bracelet from my Aunt who is married and white and married to a retired Professor at a University in California.  I don’t even know if they are still alive.

My real father is not a criminal or convict, he is white.  My real father is white born male in South Africa.  IT IS MORE THAN IMPORTANT!

We flew into Brisbane, Australia.  We went through customs in Brisbane.  Take the longitude, starting at Brisbane, go all the way around the globe until you return to Brisbane.  There is a story there.  Easter Island, He’s alive, He’s alive, He’s alive and I’m forgiven, Heaven’s gates are open wide, He’s alive, these song lyrics are probably important to more than one person.  It goes through South Africa.  My real father is white born male.

I am not a criminal or a convict, I am white!  IT IS MORE THAN IMPORTANT!  IF ANY ONE PERSON STARTED THIS BLACK FEMALE TEACHER TRAINER BY MEANS OF A TELEVISION SHOW – I AM NOT A CRIMINAL!  I AM NOT A CONVICT!  NO, I WILL NOT NOW, NOR WILL I EVER DATE A BLACK MAN – THAT IS TO SAY I WILL NEVER DATE A MAN WHO HAS SPENT TIME IN PRISON – EVER!  I WAS UNAWARE OF MICHAEL’S PREVIOUS CONVICTIONS, OR TIME IN JAIL.

Cheers, pizza man.

It means that Michael was also used by a man who had spent time in jail.  God help him.  God help them both.

My be married dress.  These men would have known what I was saying as a little girl.  My be married dress.  As a little girl, no older than four years old, and I recognized them for who they really were, and I said I wanted that, I wanted to marry a man like that.  There is nothing wrong with that.  It would have only made our intelligence more powerful.

Pride is not power, from Australia.  Means, this African pride, that is to say this group of criminals, former and current war lords that created a sort of alliance through organizations trying to create legitimacy – this African pride – IS NOT POWER!  IS NOT POWER!  IS NOT POWER!  IS NOT POWER!  AND IT WAS SEEN AS SUCH BY MANY, MANY PERSONS!  IS NOT POWER!

I have not changed my t-shirt at work because when I arrived at work to discover that they used virtual reality to allow that black man to see me in my home in my bed without my permission, without my consent, SERIOUS, SERIOUS ALARMS WENT OFF IMMEDIATELY!  GOD HELP YOU!  I DID NOT DO THAT!  I DID NOT ALLOW THAT!  I DID NOT GIVE PERMISSION!  ALARMS!  ALARMS!  ALARMS!  ALARMS!  ALARMS!  THEY HAVE NOT GONE AWAY!

Nullah – Null and void.  It means null and void.  It has nothing to do with space, or a void in such a manner.  Null and void.  What do you, or used to, give your employer when you sign up direct deposit?  A voided check.  You write VOID over the check, so that is cannot be cashed, it cannot be duplicated, it cannot be copied, it cannot be used in any other way from the financial institution.

Null and void, means the persons who were handling me, who were in charge of me at my employment, as an asset did not receive me, did not get me by legitimate means.  It was seen across the globe as so.  Not legitimate.  I am a legitimate child of my real father’s; however, I was not attained properly.  There is a lot more to it, I just don’t have the time.

Nullah and King George from Australia are both me at the same time, and at different times.  That is me as King George killing a would-be assassin who tried to kill my real brother all the way back in 1992.  It means that while working at WORSHIP they could have used a live feed when they should not have.  A live feed of me and talking to me in the hallway about my brother’s car accident.  A live feed as I drove to the hospital, and a live feed at the hospital.  At Tampa General Hospital.

King Carnie is Carnegie Hall.  It looks as though someone has quite famously stashed money in the walls or building that has not been retrieved.  There are also stories within the building itself.

Ellen Pompeo, not Ellen DeGeneres.  Ellen Pompeo as Dr. Cindy Kelly.  A word of caution, there are many people about who have and are using my hysterectomy, and the damage they purposefully closed, and the devices implanted without my consent or permission, as a way of me carrying the burden of what they believe are my brother’s sins.  In a sense they destroyed, devastated, ruined, closed my sex organ so it could no longer function as a deal having me live with the burden of my brother’s sins.

I NEED THIS TAKEN CARE OF IMMEDIATELY!  I NEED THIS NOTION OF MY BROTHER HAVING TO BE ANYBODY ELSE OTHER THAN HIMSELF TAKEN CARE OF!  MY BROTHER DOES NOT HAVE TO BE ANYBODY OTHER THAN HIMSELF!  THIS ASSOCIATION THAT HAS BEEN MADE IN THE INTELLIGENCE WORLD ARE BEYOND EXCUSE AND EXPLANATION!  IT SHOWS AN ABSOLUTE LACK OF THOUGHTFUL INTELLIGENCE!  IT IS BEYOND IMMORAL!  BEYOND DUMB!  BEYOND STUPID!

Jealousy has driven them mad from Moulin Rouge, this is code, not dialogue, you do not use every word.  Jealousy – jalousie windows.  This has to do with my brother when he moved here to Florida on Davis Island.  There were cameras nearly at every side at the house my brother was staying at.  It looks as though this man is already behind bars.  Where is the only trauma center in Hillsborough county?  At Tampa General on Davis Island.  It makes it appear planned, premeditated all the way back to when we lived in Oregon.

Do you understand the significance of horses?  Horses do not stop.  You must rest your horses when taking care of them because they will continue until they literally drop dead.

They used my mother as a horse, metaphor.  I am the horse in Hidalgo, not ridden in a sexual way, as a way to move – an Army, military movement.  It is also me as the daughter, I told you I was the peacekeeper.

King George can always find his way, this is me, I always knew where I was, where I parked my car, no matter if I was in a foreign country, I could fin my way.

Do you know that I was probably playing war and battle plans and maps as a child?  Looks like at least of few of these men thought it was so much fun to be had with a little girl and me, sharing an interest.

Penniless sitar player from Moulin Rouge, is me, it is just meant to prove to show as evidence I knew how to do these things before Oregon.  Before the movie The Rescuers.

I am nearly more than at my limit for writing at the moment; however, Satine dying is really the Son of God, Jesus Christ dying on the cross for our sins.  Christian crying for Satine’s death, is God, is Our God in Heaven, crying and crying, heartbroken and crying for his son’s death.  It is to show that God is not heartless, some Lord of numbers who has no feelings.  God sent his only begotten son to die for our sins.  Why would God do such a thing?  Why would God kill his child?

We are all God’s children.  No one is exempt.  We are all God’s children.  God cannot stop loving his own people.  God cannot stop loving his people.  God cannot stop loving.  God is LOVE.  God is love.  God is pure love.  God in Heaven is love.

Although you have killed my son, I cannot stop from loving you.  I love you.  I, your Heavenly Father up above, love you.

It is a lesson to show that retaliations do not work.  God is love.

It also means that something really big happened when I was in Australia because I am Satine as Christ.  As Christ.  That would mean there were men – the closest and fastest explanation would be disciples.  Peacekeeper.

The money payment in the movie, Moulin Rouge just looks like Judas.

My way, my way from Moulin Rouge is a reference to Frank Sinatra meaning there is a rat – in the food industry.  There was an episode on Seinfeld about low-fat yogurt that made everyone fat because it was not labelled correctly, purposefully labelled with wrong information, more importantly, done so with intent.  This is in reference to me.

Be aware, be advised, I have made the final payment on my Civic.  I have paid off my vehicle.  That means they can no longer trace payment.  It means the financial institution no longer has the right or access to the title of my vehicle.  I should have already received the title by now.

Tired.

Resting now.

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March 15, 2019

I am just tired.  It feels as though I have had no time off at all.  I am in great need of resting my mind and body.  I am tired.

I am going back to the person I was before I was told this was all for a television show.  He was right, he was correct, he did not believe it would work, and he was and is correct about that.  We’ve worked together before, you know.  So, no, I am not thinking about a number, a dollar amount, any other specific items and its message that it might send to what?  Criminals?!  I was in the realm of strategists at some of the highest levels as a teenager.

I am also really tired of having to wear these stupid clothes, such as always having to wear a hat.  I prefer to dress as I did before.  I think it works better that way.  In fact, I know it works better that way.  My previous work is proof of that.  But you are all so much smarter than me, right?  You all want to tell me what something means rather than me telling you and writing what the actual truth is.

Wolfe’s are a metaphor.  A wolf being a wild dog, an untamed animal living in the wild without any domestication.  As a metaphor in The Journey of Natty Gan, a wolf is a metaphor for a foreign spy or agent, etc. that I helped to defect to the US.  There is more to it than that.  I am just too tired.

Too tired to write more at the moment.

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March 13, 2019

Christ almighty!  You stupid fucking people!  If you used Chris to VTO me on 3/12/2019, you are in real fucking trouble!  It means you let a real criminal in a real jail cell in a real prison get near me by proxy for his protection!  FIND THE SON OF A BITCH AND REMOVE IT AT ONCE!

WOW!  WHAT A BIG FUCKING TOUGH MAN!  HE IS SO WORRIED ABOUT HIMSELF HE SEEKS OUT THIS LITTLE GIRL TO PROVIDE PROTECTION FOR HIM IN JAIL!  YOU ARE ALL IN BIG TROUBLE BECAUSE OF IT!

BE CAREFUL HERE, THAT MEANS CHRIS AT WORK IS NO LONGER SAFE, HE IS NO LONGER VIABLE, HE IS NO LONGER SAFE TO WORK THERE.  IT ALSO MEANS HE HAS BEEN USED ALL THIS TIME TO DO NOTHING ELSE BUT PROVIDE PROTECTIONS FOR GODDAMN FUCKING JAILED CRIMINALS AND EX-CON’S!

YOU STUPID, STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE!  WHOEVER IS RESPONSIBLE FOR SENDING THAT MAN NAMED EDISON HERE, FIND THEM AT ONCE!  YOU STUPID, STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE!  IT MEANS THAT EVERY PERSON INVOLVED, AND I MEAN EVERYONE, I AM NOT JOKING HERE, THIS IS REALLY FUCKING SERIOUS!  EVERY PERSON INVOLVED, INCLUDING DAVID AND JAMES, ONCE THIS IS PUBLISHED IS NOT AND ARE NOT SAFE!

WHOEVER IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS HOUSE – FIND THEM AT ONCE!  I MEAN THE REAL PERSON BEHIND THE MORTGAGE BECAUSE IT IS NOT MY BROTHER – FIND THEM AND PLACE THEM IN A JAIL CELL UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!

WHOEVER IS REPSONSIBLE FOR PLACING THE RECORDING DEVICES IN THIS HOUSE, THE CAMERAS IN THIS HOUSE, THE ELECTRONIC DEVICES IN THIS HOUSE – FIND THEM AT ONCE AND PLACE THEM IN A JAIL CELL UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!

WHOEVER IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THE LISTENING DEVICES IN MY TEETH – FIND THEM AT ONCE AND PLACE THEM IN A JAIL CELL UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!  I MEAN EVERYONE!  I DO NOT CARE IF THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO WERE JUST FOLLOWING ORDERS, FIND THEM AND PLACE THEM IN A JAIL CELL UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!

WHOEVER IS RESPONSIBLE MY FOR SURGERY – FIND THEM AT ONCE AND PLACE THEM IN A JAIL CELL UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!  EVERYONE INVOLVED FIND THEM, JAIL THEM, AT ONCE!

NO FUCKING JOKE HERE!  THIS SHIT JUST WENT ALMOST NUCLEAR!  I SEE IT!

IT IS STATISICALLY IMPOSSIBLE!  IT HAS BEEN PROVEN OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!  IT IS A STATISIC IMPOSSIBLITY FOR ME TO EVER BECOME A CRIMINAL!  EVER!  THESE INTELLIGENCE PERSONS KNEW IT AND DEPENDED UPON IT!  OTHERWISE, I WOULDN’T HAVE BEEN – FUCKING READ IT, “THE SOURCE!”

THE ONLY WAY THAT EDISON HAPPENED WAS BECAUSE OF EVERY PIECE OF EQUIPMENT!  THE DEVICES USED TO CREATE OTHER IMAGES!  USING DAVID SAYING HE LOVED ME, WHICH IN TRUTH IS A LIE, HE NEVER ROMANTICALLY LOVED ME, HE COULD HAVE LOVED ME AS ANOTHER HUMAN LOVES PEOPLE, HE NEVER LOVED ME FOR REAL!  HE WAS TOLD TO SAY IT!  HE WAS TALKED INTO SAYING IT FOR HIS PROTECTION!  HE HAS NEVER RETURNED MY LOVE FOR REAL!  REMEMBER, I SEE PEOPLE FOR WHO THEY REALLY ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!  I SWEAR TO CHRIST ALMIGHTY!  ONCE THIS IS PUBLISHED, YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!  THERE ARE PEOPLE IN THE FIELD WHO ARE PROBALY GOING TO BE KILLED JUST BECAUSE OF THIS INFORMATION!

WHOEVER EDISON’S REAL PROXY IS – FIND THAT PIECE OF SHIT IMMEDIATELY!  DO NOT DELAY!  FIND THAT PIECE OF SHIT!  SHOVE HIS FUCKING FACE IN THE GODDAMN DIRT!  THIS FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT IS NOT EVEN A REAL FUCKING CRIMINAL!  HE IS JUST A NOTHING THUG WHO RECEIVED INFORMATION THAT WAS MEANT FOR SOMEONE ELSE!  THIS FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT COULD AND SHOULD BE BROUGHT UP ON ALL NEW CHARGES BASED OF OFF THE WORK HE HAS DONE HERE!  IF HE IS NOT ALREADY INCARERATED IF HE WAS ACTUALLY RELEASED EARLY ON GOOD BEHAVIOUR BECAUSE OF A DEAL THAT HAPPENED BECAUSE OF EDISON – FIND THAT FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT AND JAIL HIS FUCKING ASS!  I MEAN IMMEDIATELY!

YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!  YOU WILL BE FUCKED IN THE FIELD FOR YEARS BECAUSE OF IT!  FUCKED!  FUCKED IN THE FIELD FOR YEARS AFTER THIS IS PUBLISHED!  I CANOT HELP IT!  I SEE IT!  REMEMBER, I SEE THINGS FOR HOW THEY REALLY ARE, NOT FOR HOW I WANT THEM TO BE!  FOR HOW THEY REALLY ARE!

MY MOTHER WAS KILLED BECAUSE OF EDISON!

YOU RELEASED A GODDMAN CRIMINAL EARLY AND MY MOTHER WAS KILLED BECAUSE OF IT!

YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!  YOU STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE!

NO MAN HIRES ME, NO MAN FIRES ME, FROM MOULIN ROUGE, MEANS MICHAEL.  NO MAN – ON NAM, IN VIETNAM – FIRES ME, MEANS HE, MICHAEL, NEVER WENT TO VIETNAM WAS NEVER IN VIETNAM.  AS GOOD AS BLACK JUST MEANS A CONVICT, A CRIMINAL.  MICHAEL HAD BEEN IN JAIL BEFORE.

IT MEANS THERE REALLY WAS AT LEAST ONE INTELLIGENCE MAN WHO WAS QUITE LITERALLY WAITING FOR ME IN MY AGE.  MOST LIKELY, HE WAS ON A MISSION, IN THE FIELD WORKING AND WAS GOING TO COME BACK TO THE STATES, AND WANTED ME.  YOU FUCKING PEOPLE GOT GREEDY. 

THE MOVIE, TRAINING DAY, IS A MISTAKE.  THERE NEVER WAS TRAINING – FOR ME!  THE TRAINING WAS FOR YOU AGNECY PERSONS!  UH, DUH!

YOU WILL BE FUCKED IN THE FIELD FOR YEARS!  YOU HAD ONE OF YOUR BEST ASSESTS – THAT’S ME, THE US’S BEST ASSEST – PROBABLY OF ALL TIME, EVER!  AND WHAT DID YOU DO WITH HER?!  IT MAKES OUR INTELLIGENCE APPEAR DUMB AND INCOMETENT.

THAT’S NOT A KNIFE, FROM CROCODILE DUNDEE, THAT’S ME! 

MY REAL FATHER AS PAUL HOGAN IN CROCODILE DUNGEE SHOWING AMERICAN’S HOW PREJUDICED THEY ARE IN THEIR OWN THINKING!  THAT’S MY REAL FATHER IN WHERE?!  YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!  IN NEW YORK!  SHOWING AMERICAN’S HOW PREJUDICED THEY ARE IN THEIR OWN THINKING!  THERE PROBABLY REALLY WAS A YOUNGER ATTRACTIVE WOMAN WHO WAS IMPRESSED BY MY REAL FATHER IN HIS THINKING.  MY REAL FATHER HAS A WAY OF TALKING THAT MIGHT APPEAR SIMPLE, UNCOMPLICATED, UNSOPHISTICATED IN THOUGHT UNTIL YOU ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT HE IS SAYING!  MY REAL FATHER IS REALLY AN EDUCATED MAN WITH A MASTER’S DEGREE FROM UCLA IN HISTORY!  HE IS NOT DUMB!  YOU WOULD BE STUPID IF YOU DID NOT LOOK FURTHER INTO ANYTHING HE SAYS!

WHAT TRIBE ARE YOU FROM, MATE, FROM CROCODILE DUNDEE, THAT IS MY REAL FATHER, SHOWING AND TELLING PEOPLE, YOUR NOTIONS, YOUR IDEAS, YOUR THINKING ABOUT COLOR AND BLACK AND WHITE – IS PREJUDICED AND WITHOUT MERIT!  BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT THINKING WITH YOUR MIND AND HEART, YOU ARE ONLY THINKING SUPERFICIALLY!  THIS PROBABLY WENT AS FAR BACK AS THE 70’S.  TODAY IS NOT THE SAME ANYMORE.

BUT, MAKE NO MISTAKE THAT IS ME SCARING AWAY A WANNA BE CRIMINAL TRYING TO ATTACK ME AND A PERSON AND WANTING TO DO REAL HARM WITH WHAT?!  A KNIFE!  YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!  YOU THEN ALLOWED ME TO BE OPENED UP – WITH A KNIFE!  YOU WILL BE FUCKED IN THE FIELD – FOR YEARS BECAUSE OF IT!

I WAS YOUR BEST ASSET!

I WAS GOING TO BE THE WIFE OF AN INTELLIGENCE OFFICER!  I WAS GOING TO BE THE WIFE OF A MALE (BORN A MAN, MALE) INTELLIGENCE OFFICER!  THAT IS WHERE MY BRAIN ALREADY WAS – AS A CHILD!  BRUSHING MY HAIR IN THE WHERE?!  IN THE MIRROR!  WHEREING MY WHAT?!  MY BE MARRIED DRESS!  THE WIFE OF AN INTELLIGENCE OFFICER!  AND WHAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED ALL THESE YEARS HAD MY NAME APPEARED ON DOCUMENTS MARRIED TO AN INTELLIGENCE MAN?!

THEY DIDN’T ACTUALLY DROP A DEAD BODY ON SAY, AN EMBASSY, OR ANY OTHER US GOVERNMENT’S IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY OR DOMESTIC’S VICINITY BECAUSE I WROTE ABOUT HOW BEYOND HURT, I WAS AFTER BEING SPOKEN TO BY CHELSEA AT WORK, DID THEY?!

YOU ARE ALL IN DEEP FUCKING TROUBLE!  IT IS OUT THERE!  I SEE IT!

REMEMBER CHELSEA IS A CRIMINAL, SHE AS A PROXY IS A REAL CRIMINAL, AND YOU LET OTHER PEOPLE AND PERSON’S TALK FOR CHELSEA?!  YOU’RE FUCKED!  YOU ARE IN TROUBLE!

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March 13, 2019

Let it be known that QVC has refused me service.  I have been ordering from QVC for many years, long before any of you showed up here.  I placed an order and they cancelled my account and order.

LET IT BE KNOWN THAT QVC HAS REFUSED ME SERVICE.

I have already in the past worked on real bomb threats that were placed at QVC’s location.

Let it be known because you have refused me, you have in fact, quite literally placed and allowed death threats and hits to be placed and allowed on persons not only who work for that station, who work for QVC, you have allowed death threats and hits to be placed on just about anyone near my vicinity.

I am not guessing.  I actually look, and actually see in the world, in the mind world, in the brain world, in the realm of real thoughts of real people, and I ACTUALLY SEE FOR REAL what is out there.

I am really tired of saying and writing this, the order was for your protection.  I repeat, the order was for your protection.

Let it be known, I am not joking.  The days of me doing stand-up comedy as a way to help me interpret the proxies in front of me – ARE LONG OVER WITH!

Because of the stunt you all pulled with the phony FBI building in Tampa and its address and I was denied entry because the location was closed – IS NOT A JOKE!  IT ACTUALLY IS OUT THERE IN THE WORLD BECAUSE THERE ARE ACTUAL REAL PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE REALLY FOLLOWING ME FOR REAL AND THEY ARE NOT ON A GODDAMN FUCKING TELEVISION SHOW!

IT IS REALLY, REALLY BAD!  YOU DENIED ME TO BE PLACED, BE SEEN, BE PHOTGRAPHED INSIDE A FEDERAL BUILDING – WHERE I FUCKING BELONG!

BE WARNED!

TAKE THAT STUPID SHIT OF A LITTLE MAN AND LOCK HIM UP INDEFINETELY!  THAT ALONE SHOULD HELP.

BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU DID WITH THAT STUPID SHIT OF A LITTLE MAN – YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES ACTUALLY HAD MY REAL MOTHER KILLED BECAUSE OF IT!  KILLED FOR IT!  JAIL HIM AND LOCK HIM AWAY INDEFINETELY!

Had you done what I asked and said back in 2014 and ended the show, ended the false reality television show of The Container Store, had you had a surprise celebration of – yes, we did this for these many years and now we are ending it and here is your life back – MY MOTHER WOULD STILL BE ALIVE!

FUCK YOU PEOPLE!  MY MOTHER WOULD STILL BE ALIVE!  DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!  THEY GAVE FALSE HEALTH INFORMATION TO ME ABOUT MY MOTHER’S HEALTH WHEN SHE WAS IN THE NURSING HOME BECAUSE THEY ALREADY KNEW SHE WAS SATINE FROM THE MOVIE MOULIN ROUGE.  THEY FAILED TO SEE WHO WAS ACTUALLY DYING IN THE MOVIE AND IT WAS NOT MY MOTHER!

Let it be known, that disappointing of a man, what is he supposed to be, a serial killer?  The man you placed for me to see when I went to my bankruptcy hearing, the bankruptcy that I again will write and say should never have happened because there is no reason I should not have a job and be employed where I am able to care and manage my own bills (this is huge, it is bigger than you realize) that man, let it be known – IS TERRIFIED OF ME!  TERRIFIED OF ME!  TERRIFIED!  AND HE SHOULD BE!

Do you know, they actually had to prep and prepare this prisoner, coach him, give him instructions to be followed just to be SEEN by me?!  I did not and was not given instructions, or coached, or in any way prepped!  I needed nothing because you have all failed to realize how far behind the times you really are!

HE IS TERRIED OF ME AND HE SHOULD BE!

Do you understand what you people have done?!  Anyone involved with the filming of that alone should be worried.  You have cause to be worried.

HE IS TERRIED OF ME!

Any persons involved with any sort of “documentary” of me and my life, should and have reason to worry.  My mother was killed because of what you people have done.  You should be worried.

Do you understand what that means in the prison world, and I mean more than just prisoners because there is a lot that goes on that is communicated amongst different persons once a prisoner is placed in jail?  Because I do.  I understand.  My mother was more.  My mother was more than liked.  It is huge.

Let it be known, when I went to the movie, The Matrix, I was asked by a black woman who worked in HR department of Hilton to see the movie, The Matrix.  I was supposed to know, I was not supposed to go with her.  However, I live in the United States of America, I do not live in any foreign country, and more importantly, I do not live in ANY African country of any sort!  What these people did!  What these intelligence persons did!  They let me be traded – to a CRIMINAL!

I who had been working for the US government – THEY ALLOWED ME TO BE TRADED TO A CRIMINAL!  THAT IS THE REPRESENTATION OF A BLACK FEMALE!  A CRIMINAL!  THEY GAVE MY MOTHER A STROKE TO SHOW ME AND PROVE IT!

I AM SO BEYOND DISGUST WITH YOU PEOPLE AT THE MOMENT!  I AM SO BEYOND DISGUST WITH OUR OWN INTELLIFENCE PERSONS!

LET IT BE KNOWN, SHOVING EAR PLUGS UP MY NOSE AND TAPING MY NOSTRILS SHUT IS MY WAY OF PROVING TO YOU THAT “FIXING IT” IS AT AN END!  BECAUSE ALL YOU ARE DOING BY “FIXING IT” IS ALLLOWING CRIMINAL ACTIVITY BY CRIMINALS BEHIND BARS TO CONTINUE!  YOU ARE ALLOWING CRIMINALS BEHIND BARS TO CONTINUE CRIMINAL ACTIVITY AND GET AWAY WITH IT!  IT IS AT AN END!  IT MUST END!

Let it be known, I am plugged in now!  I am plugged in now!  All that means is I am aware, I am of understanding, and I see you ALL now.  It does not mean an actual plug.  It just means – AWARENESS, UNDERSTAND.  NOTHING MORE.

Let it be known, that if you place a label such as women owned and try to connect that to me in any way – THEY WILL ACTUALLY KILL PEOPLE FOR IT AND BECAUSE OF IT!  THESE ARE PEOPLE WHO KILL OTHER PEOPLE!  THEY WILL KILL PEOPLE FOR IT!  IT IS UNTRUE IN EVERY WAY!  THEY WILL KILL PEOPLE FOR IT!

I suggest you REMOVE IT AT ONCE!

Let it be known, I am of the understanding and knowledge that the United States government has not only claimed me as one if its citizens, they have claimed me as a government employee.  Be aware.  Be advised.  Be warned.

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March 12, 2019

If you have not figured it out, if you haven’t realized, if you haven’t noticed the shutting of my blinds, if you haven’t seen with your own eyes, I am beyond hurt.  Beyond grief.  Beyond hurt.  Beyond, beyond, beyond, so beyond, just beyond – hurt.

Both movies Moulin Rouge and Australia are really thesis films for me.  They are very complex, it might really surprise people if you see and watch what is there.  And, yes, my real father is there as Paul Hogan in Crocodile Dundee.

I am beyond tired, alerting the proper authorities with the real death threats regarding the FBI man, and all of the FBI in relation to the events of my mother’s strokes, and death.  Yes, I did throw that away not to my trash, but for the FBI and others to get him and lock him away.

I am beyond exhausted from hurt.  I am beyond exhausted from everything.

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March 4, 2019

Be warned, be aware: I told them in my head and out-loud last night that I want Chris gone from the building, do not return.  It was all over him all night.  I am beyond with having to put up with his communications that are not proper. 

Be warned, be aware: whoever was using the black actor proxy last night, I told them in my head, I spoke it oud loud for a reason.  I want them gone!  I want them removed from my sight!  I want them out of the building!

Nailed that one from 12 Strong, Nine Inch Nails, has nothing to do with sex.  It is not a sexual reference.  It was long before HCC and David.  I do not have to explain anymore.

They wanted me to believe that the location to the right of my garage is so bad that they have to change it from a black woman to a white man because – that actually is correct.  It is the only reason I did not change lanes to the side that reads, right lane ends.  What happens when I get to work?  Pressure washing.  Then, I am left with no other option other than right lane ends.

It is very obvious, I do not love David anymore.  I find him to be a coward.  He has never spoken to me on his own – at all.  Not ever.  He has dated and slept with countless women, I cannot have respect for a man like that.  After the way he has treated me?  I am not able to respect a man like that.  Be aware.

They put a trans-dermal sleeping product in my bed and sheets, so that I am unable to get up, wake up, or get out of bed.

Be aware, be advised: Any person that has viewed me in my home, in my bed, while in my home, bathing, sleeping, having sex, I will see that only as RAPE!  I say and write that for my own protection.  I have no idea who is actually there.  THAT IS RAPE!  It is not consensual!  IT HAPPENS WHEN I SAY NO!  I AM NOT ALLOWED TO SAY NO OR STOP IT – THAT IS RAPE!

Be aware, be advised, somewhere there is a rape survivor that is still so traumatized that are using me to re-live, project, and punish rape victims, and rapists. It is one of the reasons it is in so many movies.

This is a set, do not separate, says to me that my hysterectomy was supposed to stitch up my vaginal lips, so that I would have to use a colostomy bag to use the toilet.  It is the reason for the Disney meet.  You people have no idea how bad that is.

That Jewish man wants that proxy woman removed from the building.  He does not want her to work there.  He is asking me to write that, so everyone will know.

They want me to believe that it was not David after I went on the driving trip, another man, a black man, and they used David as a cover.  If it is true, I consider that rape!  I would never have consented!  It is as if to say, have sex with this man or else!

They are trying to kill you from Moulin Rouge, is my mother.  They were trying to kill my mother you people did NOTHING to stop them!

They used VR and my cats to have one of my cross earrings go down the drain.  Of course, I am not a pagan, or an atheist.  Of course, my ears, my head are of a Christian belief!

Peace, Bear, Coffee, the bear is Teddy Roosevelt, an American President, the coffee is my employer, my employment, the massive weight you placed in the Bear soup I purchased is so bad, I did not write about it sooner.  You all needed a time-out.  It literally could have been read as an act or war, an act of aggression against the US, against a United States President.  I saw it, serious alarms going off – BAD!  It is still so bad I do not have time to write it all.

I want to know how I got from Germany to China going over Russia.  Is Fujian, China a real place?

Do you know what the Navy looks like to me?  A closet.  Are you able to stand and be a closet, a very small contained place with no windows and not freak out?  That looks like a closet.  Go stand in one with the doors closed and listen, what do you hear?  The sound is different.

When I walked into the group interview for The Container Store, and they had a closet display, I said, I want that!  A branch of the military being, The Navy.  The Navy to me, says, sonar, inaudible(s).

So, what happened in November 1988?  It was land and water.  I have not yet seen the air.  That could have been another time.

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March 3, 2019

From him personally?  Why would that be, I wonder.

 

Do not be mistaken because I am not.  Do you all still think it was a teddy bear?  That I was cast just to be a teddy bear?  Or shall I remind you of another great American President.  Teddy Roosevelt.

Perhaps, you will all think I would feel honor or such importance for being associated, for being placed, for having participated.  However, for me, what I see…big concern, big trouble.  I don’t have to explain their reasons.

 

 

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March 1, 2019

STOP USING ME!  STOP WORKING WITH ME AGENCIES AND AGENCIES PERSONS!  ALL YOU DO IS PLACE MY FAMILY IN PERIL.

IT IS HOW YOU KILLED MY MOTHER.

I HOPE HE WAS WORTH IT.  THAT STUPID, LOUSY, DUMB SHIT OF A SERIAL KILLER.  I HOPE HE WAS WORTH IT.  FINDING HIM.  INCARERACTING HIM.  WAS IT WORTH IT?  ALL THE YEARS OF MY LIFE?  WAS IT WORTH HAVING MY MOTHER KILLED FOR?

SATINE, FROM THE MOUILN ROUGE IS MY MOTHER.  AND YOU ALL LET HER DIE!  FUCK YOU!

FUCK YOU!

I COULD HAVE FOUND HIM IN AN INSTANT!  ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS INCLUDE ME FOR REAL.  INSTEAD I HAVE A DEAD MOTHER FOR YOUR EFFORTS!

FUCK YOU!

I COULD HAVE FOUND HIM IN AN INSTANT!  HE HAS NO PLACE TO HIDE FROM ME!

I hope that son of a bitch never sees freedom again.

That is what it looks like.

Mrs. Beagle.  Mrs. Beagle was a teacher of mine in Oregon at Hollydale Elementary School in Gresham, Oregon.  She had dinner with my family one night.  My mother asked me to ask her to dinner.  I am not quite sure the reason.  It was an early dinner, pretty much just after school was let out.

It looks like California was working mostly with inaudible noises, sounds, words spoke far enough away to not be heard, and sight, seeing people, spotting people.

Oregon is medical research.  Unfortunately, this is where a lot of subversives started trying to use my family.

Anyone want to guess who I would be in the movie, Chariots of Fire?  My whole family watched the movie together, all four of us, together.  I was unbeatable at Handball and the Hula-hoop when we lived in Oregon.  Unbeatable.  I didn’t stop either, people playing me would leave while I could keep going.  Unbeatable.  Master, Savior, Jesus, there’s just something about that name…I would be Ben Cross, Harold Abrahams, in the movie Chariots of Fire.  It is how others saw me and wanted me to be seen.  I would need to watch it again in order to see more.  I was also wide awake as a little child, ten years old watching a very mature, adult-minded film.

I was unbeatable at a memory game.  I was unbeatable at Handball.  How many people have ever played handball?  Does anyone play it anymore?  I was unbeatable at the Hula-hoop.  Memory, hand-eye coordination, knowing where to go before the object gets there, fast, being able to modulate the force needed to send the ball, but not over-powering the ball sending it out-of-bounds, the Hula-hoop is a very complex and difficult movement to do it well requires movement while remaining mostly still.

This is what has been happening since it has been revealed to me that everything is faked and false here, in my life.  Do this, or else:  Betray your country, or else you will be punished.  Lie, and speak untruths, or else.

This picture of Chelsea Manning to me says, sickness.  Her eyes are sick, mentally ill and physically unwell, ill.  It shows trying, it is just a projection and not the real image.  The eyes are especially, unwell.

There was a story about a writer who wrote a book that went on to be a best-seller only to be discovered as a fraud and the person not responsible for actually writing the book.  How many books out there are actually written like that and no one cares enough to investigate the fraud?

Guess what?  I am really not paying attention to the photographs and pictures on websites such as the banks of my credit cards.  Why would I?  It is my money, not some avatar or other person just because there is a picture on the website.  Dumb!

I have no idea what you people think you are doing!  I am not paying any attention to any of you!  A person looks at my pants?!  I am not paying attention to you, you are nothing to me, a nothing.

The David(s) team is a fraud!  AND GUILTY!  I do not find anything they have done fun or funny!

I am simply making a point the event could never have happened had David not been there, had this house not been here, had the surgery not taken place, had the listening device not been placed in my head!  IT WOULD NEVER, NEVER, NEVER HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HAPPEN!  EVER!

Again, it is basic human psychology!  After such a betrayal.  After such humiliation.  After such body-shaming!  After such HUMILIATION!  I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO FEEL THE WAY I FELT ABOUT DAVID EVER AGAIN!

Do you know how a mind heals after a traumatic event such as an abusive relationship?  Being in a relationship where the man really loves and take care of you.  Being in a relationship with a man who really loved me is HOW I would have healed, HOW my mind would have healed to be able to work again!  You people, these agencies have denied me love by a man all my life, my whole life.  They have denied me love for their own purpose and gain. 

To be loved by a man I wanted instead of a man they were going to USE!  A man I was attracted to, a man I found attractive, a man I was sexually attracted to, a man I could love him, and he loved me.  Instead of BEING USED, BEING FORCED, BEING TOLD TO LIKE AND LOVE!  WOW!  IT ACTUALLY MAKES A DIFFERENCE AND ANY PERSON COULD TELL YOU THAT!  IT IS BASIC HUMAN PSYCHOLOGY!

I am really not interested in writing how people who have exercise DVD’s have obtained a perfect body through plastic surgery.  I am really not interested in David’s wife having obtained her perfect body through plastic surgery.

I am really not interested in having anything to do with David – EVER AGAIN!  IT IS BASIC HUMAN PSYCHOLOGY!

The device that is placed in Neo’s stomach in the movie The Matrix is a baby.  That is me being impregnated, conceiving, and the removal of the device is an abortion, my abortion.  I never spoke to anyone about my abortion, I never told anyone in my family about my abortion.  So, it is a little disturbing that Trinity says removing it is for their protection.  I was unmarried at the time.

I know the night, I know the time I conceived.  I have no idea what was going on with my fiancé, he was not making love to me.  He wanted another woman.  The location of the event is disturbing.  It tells me intelligence persons knew of the danger placed me there on purpose – to use me.  To start a war, and wars, and retaliations, and…motivations.

It really does appear that one of the purposes of my hysterectomy was simply because my brother was born gay.  Disfiguring my body and sex organ, so that sex would no longer be enjoyable, possible, fun.  So, I would no longer be able to have a glow from within.  So, I would no longer READ, as LOVED.

My brother was in the waiting room.  Just like I was in the waiting room telling people how to destroy brain research, so that no one had to be afraid to fall asleep or be afraid at all.  Just like it is in the movie The Matrix.

They hurt me, they used the surgery so, I would no longer or ever READ, BE ABLE TO BE READ AS LOVED AS A WOMAN THAT A MAN LOVED.

I would really like to know how this happens to a United States citizen.  How many other people has this happened to that they are not aware of?  There is a reason there are laws protecting citizens.

Remember, I have never given READ IT: CONSENT!  I have never given consent to be on television, reality television.  I have never GIVEN CONSENT TO THIS LIFE!  NOT ONCE!  I HAVE NEVER CONSENTED!  HOW DOES THAT GET TO HAPPEN IN THE UNITED STATES?!  CONSENT!  I HAVE NEVER GIVEN CONSENT!

I HAVE NEVER GIVEN CONSENT TO THE DEVICES PLACED IN MY BODY! 

Wow, how ashamed I am of our United States government at the moment.

Why does my heart cry, feelings I can’t fight, these songs lyrics from the movie Moulin Rouge has nothing to do with fighting.  It is about hearing the inaudible.  It is about me, while driving, receiving communications about our intelligence persons having been killed, dead, or deceased, and I literally cried.  It has happened to me too many times while driving alone.  Crying for no reason.  I sang this song in my car with Gorka and a couple other friends as I drove us to the movies. 

It means Gorka gave this information to someone in return in retaliation they sent two women from Spain and watched as they gave my mother some kind of stroke.  To me, it looks like a US double agent.  A man.  A United States citizen, born in the US working at a governmental level with access, clearances – AGAINST THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT!

RETALIATIONS!  MUST END!

BE WARNED!  I AM, I HAVE NOT BETRAYED THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT, NOR WILL I!  AND THEY HAVE MORE THAN GONE OUT OF THEIR WAY TO TRY AND TO FORCE ME TO!

SUBMIT TO A BLACK FEMALE TEACHER OR ELSE CHERITH SUFFERS FORCED AIR AND OTHER MEANS OF WEIGHT GAIN!

I HOPE “CASEY” IN IS JAIL AGAIN OR REHAB FOR HER PART, PARTICIPATION AND DRUG USE!

IT IS MORE THAN DISTURBING THAT THEY USED A BLACK MAN TO DELIVER A BLOW TO THE DUKE, THERE REALLY IS A FAMILY IN THIS AREA WITH THE LAST NAME OF DUKE – WORK IT – THE TALK ABOUT KILLING THE BOY IS ACTUALLY MY MOTHER AND YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES LET THAT HAPPEN!  THIS IS A WHITE US MALE, PROBABLY A DOCTOR OR MEDICAL, GOVERNEMT, AGENT USING A COVER FROM AN AFRICAN COUNTRY TO KILL MY MOTHER – READ IT: THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES!

FUCK YOU PEOPLE!

IF YOU GOT ONE ALREADY, THERE ARE MORE BECAUSE IT LOOKS LIKE MORE THAN ONE, MASTERMINDS, NON-BIBLICAL REFERENCE, GETTING AWAY WITH MURDER ON US SOIL.

MOTIVATIONS.  THEY USED IT FOR MOTIVATIONS.  THERE ARE TOO MANY PEOPLE IN HERE FOR ME TO WRITE QUICKLY.  A REAL ACTRESS OBVIOUSLY JUST MEANS I, CHERITH GJESTLAND WOULD BE A REAL GOVERNMENT EMPLOYEE THAT WOULD PUT AN END TO MOST RETALIATIONS.  HOWEVER, BE CAREFUL, SATINE REALLY IS MY MOTHER.

THE FACT THAT I HAD TO BE PHOTOGRAPHED AND SEEN IN ORLANDO, FLORIDA TO WATCH THE MOVIE MOLUIN ROUGE TELLS ME YOU HAD SUCH PROBLEMS IN PRODUCTION OF THE MOVIE WITH YOUR INTELLIGENCE PERSONS THAT YOU USED ME FOR PROTECTION AND IT WORKED.

GORKA IS THE PROBLEM.  THE REFERENCE TO THE MASTURBATING BATHTUB SCENCES IN THE MOVIE THE SHAPE OF WATER IS BOASTFUL, I SEE THE WORD, GLORY, AS IN A GLORIOUS VICTORY, OVER MY MOTHER, OVER DEBILITATING HER BODY SO SHE WAS NO LONGER ABLE TO CARE FOR HERSELF, I BATHED HER.  I CHERITH GJESTLAND BATHED MY MOTHER GAYLE GJESTLAND.

THEY WERE SO PROUD OF THEMSELVES THEY PUT IT IN A MOVIE!  YOU PEOPLE ARE DISGUSTING!

FUCK YOU PEOPLE!  THE ORDERS WERE FOR YOUR PROTECTION!

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March 1, 2019

If the word spoken, humbly, was meant for me, it means he was impressed.  It would not be seen on his face, being impressed by me.

I am being careful here not to reveal more.  There is more there.  Impressed.

Our Father, who art in Heaven.