WE – DO NOT AGREE!

November 4, 2019

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Apparently, I must write this information, again.  I’ve already written it and spoken about it many times.  Brianna called me at my employment at the time, at Disney, how she got connected to me, I have no idea.  Either she knew my stage name at Disney, or she got connected to me, either way, she threatened me at my employment, by calling me on the phone at Disney, pretending to want to make a reservation during the Disney marathon, and that is in – January.

When was my car accident again?  January 2013.

Her phone call was so upsetting because I truthfully, at the time, had no idea why she would be calling me or speaking to me in such a way and manner.  I said good-bye to David in 2001, and I meant it.  Her phone call was so upsetting, I emailed all the information about the call to my supervisor and manager at the time.  So, that is still – traceable.  No matter how many times a company deletes information, they can still get to it, and there are laws about – destroying evidence.

I never messaged David on Facebook, until after he and Brianna had broken up.  Because I wouldn’t do that to David.

At the time, I had felt bad about how we had parted, no longer as friends.  I wanted to tell him, I had loved him, then.  I no longer, feel this way.  That’s the truth.  I no longer feel this way about David.  Have you figured out why?

No, I am not a danger to myself, you people are.

Not one of you, and that includes this FBI man, have ever protected me.  Not ever.  And this FBI man, looks to me, like he was chosen, specifically because of his Russian, and all my adult life because that is how long I have known him, he has never protected me.  Not once.

It is an especially, serious mistake, as I’ve seen him in the building, at the call center, in Tampa.  To not be seen as my protector?  It would take me forever to write and explain, fastest way to write it is, a ripple effect.  The ripple effect it causes to not be seen – OH, MY FUCKING GOD – especially, in intelligence like the FBI, as my protector?!  Are you fucking kidding me?!

I have doubts as to how my left arm was actually broken, I no longer believe the car crash was to blame.  I believe they had me pass out after he purposefully hit me, caused a break in my arm, and then had me awaken.  And, you had a real police officer, cover up the crime scene.

They probably didn’t think I would go in an ambulance.  The proof is when I was waiting on a gurney in the Emergency room in Brandon hospital, and a Hispanic looking male, getting eyes on me when I was waiting to be seen by a doctor, and he FREAKED OUT!

His reaction, OH MY GOD, IT’S CHERITH!

He freaked out.  I can’t write how upset he looked, and he was not trying to show emotion.  He freaked out.

Worse still, you’ve had all this information about Brianna, about my car accident, and WHAT HAVE YOU DONE ABOUT IT?!  YOU’VE GIVEN BRIANNA POWER AND CONTROL OVER ME TO NO LONGER BEING ABLE – TO BE OUTSIDE!

TO BE OUTSIDE IN ANY WAY!  LET ALONE, I AM REALLY NO LONGER ALLOWED TO GO RUNNING OUTSIDE?!

SO, I WILL WARN YOU AGAIN!  THIS HOUSE IS NOT A SAFE HOUSE!  THIS NEIGHBORHOOD IS NOT A SAFE HOUSE!

I WANT A RESTRAINING ORDER AGAINST BRIANNA FROM BEING ANYWHERE CLOSE TO ME!  AND HER FRIENDS AND AQUAINTANCES!  THEY ARE ALL A THREAT!

I HAVE WRITTEN, AND WRITTEN, AND WARNED PEOPLE – FOR YEARS!

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!

IF NO ONE WITHIN THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT, WITHIN ANY US INTELLIGENCE AGENCIES IS WILLING TO PROTECT ME – I WON’T DO IT – ANYMORE!

I WILL HAVE NO OTHER OPTION OTHER THAN SELF-DEFENSE – IN ADVANCE, AGAIN!

I AM NOT FUCKING KIDDING, THAT IS WHAT THE FUCK YOU HAVE SHOWN THE FUCKING WORLD, NOT A GODDAMN ONE OF YOU ARE WILLING TO PROTECT THE HOMELAND, PROTECT CHERITH?!

AND FOR FUCKS SAKES!  YOU’VE MADE THE MISTAKE – AGAIN!

THEY KILLED MY MOTHER BECAUSE – I QUIT AT THE CONTAINER STORE!

YOU CANNOT REPLACE MY REAL FATHER – WITH MY BROTHER!  YOU DUMB PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO GET OTHER PEOPLE KILLED – JUST BY DOING SO!

AND, I AM OUT OF MY MIND UPSET ABOUT HOW TERRIBLE MY REAL FATHER – LOOKS!

AND GUESS WHAT ELSE, THURSDAY, MY CAT THURSDAY, LOVED MY FATHER!  THURSDAY WAS ALWAYS IN THE GARAGE WITH MY FATHER, WATCHING TELEVISION, SITTING ON HIS RECLINER WITH HIM, IN THE GARAGE.  THURSDAY LOVED MY FATHER – YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!

I SWEAR TO FUCKING CHRIST, STOP PRETENDING, STOP ACTING LIKE ANY OF YOU ARE SMARTER – THAN ME!

I AM THE MEDALLION.  IN RAIDERS OF THE LOST ARC, I AM THE MEDALLION, I AM THE OTHER SIDE, I AM ABLE TO TELL YOU THE OTHER INFORMATION, SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO – GUESS!

REFUSE, SHOW IN ANY WAY, OR DO NOT IN ANY WAY – PROTECT ME?!  WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!

STOP BEGGING PEOPLE TO ATTACK, NOT ONLY THE UNITED STATES, NOT ONLY UNITED STATES CITIZEN’S, JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, STOP BEGGING PEOPLE – TO FUCKING KILL OUR OWN GODDAMN INTELLIGENCE!  THAT’S WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE DOING!  BY NOT DOING SOMETHING AS SIMPLE, AS FUCKING HELL, PROTECTING CHERITH, OR HER FAMILY!  IT’S REALLY NOT A DIFFICULT TASK, EITHER!

YOU FUCKING MORONS!

Brianna is not healthy.  She reads as either manic-depressive, or Bi-polar.  I actually, have never been, other than acquaintances-friends with anyone with something such as depression, or Bi-polar.  It is simply not healthy, for my mind. 

My whole person tells me so.  I won’t stay friends with a person, for my own health.  It’s like a constant energy-drain.  I won’t do it.  I surround myself with people with like-mindedness, positive.  Otherwise, you don’t pass.

Be careful you don’t confuse David as being seen in the Scandal episode of Sherlock, as David having the ability to brain-palace think.  I think what it shows in Sherlock is that David wouldn’t, or doesn’t harm my brain-palace mind and thinking.  And, that he would like that kind of stuff, and knowledge.

So, if David is not causing harm to my mind, who is?

All my adult life, this FBI man has not been seen as protecting me, or my protector, I suggest, you correct and fix that – real fucking quick!

He’s been under misinformation, he’s been misinformed, probably, at times, he’s been misled, misdirected, and there’s been misunderstandings.  So, let me clarify, the fact that he used Edison, and fake body parts, suggests, he wanted to humiliate me, sexually, shame me, sexually, show me how disgusted he was that I had sex with – Michael.  How vulgar I was to him.  How repellent.

This FBI man has never been interested in me sexually or romantically, or he would have done so, himself, and he wouldn’t have passed me around – from man to man, so many man, I don’t even know every one that has been in my home, through virtual reality – without my permission.

She, this female, what is she a psychiatrist?  She doesn’t believe she is a real depressed, or depressive person, that is what she just said, she’s just been unhappy, that’s hardly the same thing – at all.  It looks true.

Was it a little freeing, a freeing of a notion, or something she was holding onto in her mind, to see me being sexually provocative with this other FBI man?  Like, oh, it doesn’t look that bad.  I see Cherith, and what she is doing, and that doesn’t look that bad, or like a bad thing, or shameful, or dangerous, and it looks like fun. 

It probably would be helpful if she got in touch with her own inner rage.  Meaning, she doesn’t have to be so controlled.  Meaning, it is ok, she needs to give herself permission, to feel, emotions.  And, then, determine, if the emotion, or whatever, is a bad thing.  She’s pretty logical.  So, she should be able to allow herself, to feel.  Then, evaluate.

I would caution her to be careful around Brianna, or Courtney.  They have not had restraints, meaning, they’ve been given to much freedom, concerning myself.

Let her haul ass on some man, you bring in.  It might be helpful.  A real criminal, not a brain-researched criminal, and let her haul ass on him, let it be a male.  She won’t do it to be spiteful, that’s the difference.  She doesn’t want to be that person in her heart, spiteful just because she’s been hurt.  She especially doesn’t want to hurt other’s in return.

It will probably be really difficult for her to do.  She might not want to do that, and that is probably okay, too.  It should be her decision, that’s another difference.  She needs to decide for herself, and not have someone else, make the choice for her.

The only man, are you kidding me?!  The only man who has asked permission, is the real Hannibal Lecter, my boyfriend, and he asked my father – first, making sure, I knew, he spoke with my father, first, then he asked permission.

YOU FUCKING MORONS!

HE THEN, PROVED HIMSELF – TO BE A BETTER MAN, JUST BY ASKING FOR PERMISSION!  EVERY ONE OF YOU COULD HAVE BEEN GOOD MEN, YOU CHOSE NOT TO BE!  BY NOT THINKING ENOUGH OF ME, TO BEGIN WITH!

It is disturbing that this FBI man would think of me in this way, and have this concocted plan, and it is not.  I very much doubt this FBI man is unwilling to correct this behavior and plan.

He didn’t understand why I would have been in a relationship with Michael, have sex with Michael, he, Michael, just doesn’t make sense with me.  Does he?  Well, now you know why I had to agree to an engagement and have sex with him – people’s lives were at stake.  Literally.

Wow, how I really wish, I had never had to live, the Michael years.  It was psychologically damaging.  Those years.  The only good part was I enjoyed, living on my own, I was a grown up, after all.  As much as I could enjoy it, since my life was literally threatened more times than I will probably, ever be able to write.

It is probably the reason my brother gave me a book to read, it was a detective or police story, probably the reason Irene Adler’s character says she likes detective stories because the book was about a Russian prostitution ring, prostitutes being held in a house, their hands were mutilated, this the part I remember because it was repeated over and over again in the book, I forget the title, that tells me, it wasn’t important, the part I remember was the ball-pin hammer used as the murder weapon and how they prostitutes hands were mutilated.

Yuck!  There is something real in that, or it wouldn’t create a picture in my head and mind.

I don’t make mistakes, this reads true from the Bourne movies, they don’t make mistakes.  I don’t make mistakes.

When I got to my home in 2006, found my mother lying face down on the floor, I turned her over, and – SOMETHING ELSE IS WRONG!  IT’S WHY I CALLED MY FATHER – FIRST, BEFORE CALLING 911.  SOMETHING ELSE WAS WRONG!

MY MOTHER SHOULD STILL BE ALIVE.

November 3, 2019

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I am really most concerned and worried about the health of my father.  I have never in all my life seen him look, so poorly.  Ever.  That is not really my father.  Whoever has been responsible for my father’s care, arrest them, charge them, and ship them – out!

This for some reason seemed to really interest and excite my boyfriend that I have and know this knowledge.  To me it seems as obvious as, common sense.  Honestly, a lot of this, a lot of my knowledge, I believe, since I have never had the formal education of it, goes together with Edward from Twilight, being able to read people’s minds, and absorbing power as is referenced in The Shadow.

Mostly, that is just for the audience for the storytelling purpose of it.  Using metaphors, like reading people’s minds and absorbing power because truthfully, no one really, this is how it looks, understands or knows, how I am able to have so much information, especially, about things, I’ve never been formally educated on.

The body, the human body is a vessel, a self-contained, air-tight vessel.  Anytime the skin is penetrated like a bullet wound, or a knife, or a scalpel, has a time limit.  The body immediately begins, in so many words, to decay, or decompose, or degrade, or wither.

For instance, if you take a piece, one piece, of ripe lettuce, and cut it, that is what an artery looks like, feels like, or its consistency.  Sharp, crisp, full of liquid, texture, and the texture of it is able to stand up on its own, for a certain amount of time.

If you take one piece of lettuce and let it be exposed to the elements, unrefrigerated, uncooled, for days and weeks, what happens to the piece of lettuce?  What happens to the condition of the lettuce?  All the moisture is evaporated from the lettuce, it decays, and the cells break down.

If you then tried to cut that piece of lettuce, that has been left exposed to the elements for days and weeks, and tried to cut it, it would not be a clean cut, no matter how sharp the knife or blade is, and most likely, it would tear.  The lettuce would stick unto itself making it difficult to cut one portion or piece and not another.

This is the same as an artery.  An artery or a vein, once cut into, begins to wither or rapidly decay like the piece of lettuce.  There is only so much time before the piece of lettuce turns from an open tube or vessel, into the decayed piece of lettuce, closed, with its sides sticking to itself.

Is this or is this not correct?

And the body only begins to heal itself again, once it is sewn up, sewn back together, as an air-tight vessel.

What would happen if you cut yourself, and it never closed up?  Eventually, you would die.  The body, like a submarine, or a boat, is an air-tight – vessel.  The body is a temple.  Get it?

It seems obvious to me.

It does appear by way of the movie, Black Hawk Down, I’ve assisted on the field with a wound, that would normally require surgery, I would be Hugh Dancy’s character, and why they cast a British actor to play the role of the doctor because of me.

His acting is a pretty good read, of how I would have given the information to someone, and most likely, it has to do with a blonde man who worked with me at Visionworks, and him stirring his coffee in his coffee cup in our lab with his screwdriver he used to make glasses.

His screwdriver he would, as we all did, keep or have in the pockets of our lab coats.  I really did like wearing the lab coats.  I used to ride my bicycle to work, wearing my lab coat.  I didn’t own a car at the time.  Most likely, this is the leaving scene in Black Hawk Down.  Don’t confuse the time frame with the real events.

So, what happened really when I had to have my car repossessed?  Another chain of events – you didn’t see coming.

This also seems a little unusual, I had a car loan, a car, and insurance, but no driver’s license?  Only a driver’s permit?  And, all it says around me over and over at that time, is getting a driver’s license, was not important?!  Either I wasn’t doing really well, and no one was paying enough attention, or something was wrong.

How does a person get to have a car, a car loan, and insurance without, a driver’s license?

I remember being appalled as he stirred his coffee because it wasn’t cleaned or sanitized.  Someone would have read me and brain-spoke to me while I was working with people walking in and out of the building as customers.

There is a time delay, in the surgery scene in Black Hawk Down, there is a time delay in the character of Josh Hartnett, as he gets to the other side of the table, that’s a time delay from getting the information from me, to wherever the soldier was really at.

If the solider really didn’t make it as is in the movie, you had a leak.  It would be the man with the glasses who tried to stare me down when I made his glass, glasses.

It would not be my fault.  Honestly, it looks like he lived longer because I got information to them.

If this man with the glass glasses wanted me to know a man didn’t make it, it looks like he was trying to blame me, and you people let him.  And, let him get to me, at the store.  It’s a big mistake.

It would be why a goddamn General showed up, and he was before.

I see a lot of young men who were in and out of the store and looking, but I don’t see a lot of maturity.  Being able to shoot a gun, being able to decode, does not necessarily require maturity.  That’s why the military requires time in service to move up the ranks.

Arkansas white boys, from Black Hawk Down says, arc, saw.  I saw you, Cherith when you went to see Raiders of The Lost Arc with your mother before Germany.  White boys says, wonder bread, and that says the grocery store in Oregon, not our usual store, that had the black licorice pipes, I liked as a treat, and that says, my grandfather and I having an ice cream.  They’re really just details.

If the solider died, the real person, then, they read it wrong.  I was concerned and worried as I saw him stir his coffee.  And, they corrected it in the movie, as to what I actually said and would have done in the movie, Black Hawk Down.

Every time you put an inhalant up my nose to cause harm, is the same as opening up my body, like having a surgery.  The body is supposed to be air-tight, water-tight, like a frog’s but, water-tight.

Marshmallow in Frozen goes together with my mother liking toasted coconut covered marshmallows to eat after her stroke in 2007.  It didn’t hurt her teeth, and she got energy from the sugar.  There would have been some nutrients in the coconut also.

The skies awake so I’m awake goes together with open up the gates in Frozen.  That goes together with the reason the movie is titled, The Shadow, that goes together with – let your conscience be your guide, like Jiminy Cricket.  Having no shadow, an eclipse, any of that means, not having a conscience.  Mostly, it’s just storytelling.

Good on you, mate(s).  That’s not really research, is it?

Yeah, that face-slapping in Crazy, Stupid, Love is a pretty good read of how I took care of my father, kind of like, tough love.  You haven’t gotten your eyes re-checked in how long?!  Go get your eyes examined.  You haven’t been to the dentist in how long?  Get your teeth fixed.

If any one of any worth was paying attention, that is what it takes to be married.  Because you won’t always like the person you’re married to.  And things like eye exams, and doctor’s checkups, are not the exciting love that happens when you first fall in love and decide together to marry.

When Stuart visited my home in Plant City around Christmas time, and he started telling me how he would rearrange my house, that was the end of Stuart in my mind.  Um, no.  The home, the house, that’s my domain.  If and when I ever marry, my husband can have input, or conversations with me about what he wants or likes, but the house, is mine.  All mine.  All woman.  All mine.  My home will say, this is Cherith’s home and she takes care of her husband, and family.  A man either understands that, or he won’t.

Some women should be able to understand that as well.  The home is mine.  A man will never tell me what goes where and what I buy, um, no.  The home is mine.

A home is a man’s castle because the woman has herself in it.  Otherwise, its just a bachelor pad.

And, yeah, a woman like myself, unwilling to have a man be in charge of arranging or creating the home, is actually, really valuable to a lot of men, in ways they don’t always, express.

David, have you really not had any women in your life, take care of you, like that?  I’ve been that women since about aged 22, 23.  Ready to be married.  Have a husband.  Have a home, have a life together, and then have children.  Why haven’t you really had children?

Nazi emergency news story read, true.  Meaning real.

Leonardo DiCaprio and Greta Thunberg praises leader story reads real and truthful.

Nigel Farage will not stand goes together with the code, rang, and it is an uh-oh, meaning true and real, and truthful.

Rules out talks with US news story is correct.  Peter Hammarstedt has a request for better communications.  Give it to him.  I really do like him.  I really like him and Paul Watson, I always have.  It really is about their brains, their minds, their own conscience, and their really good hearts.  Don’t question me on, or you will be sorry.

Delta airlines restores, news story is not correct.  You have a problem, that needs to be addressed, removed, and dismissed.  And, this Russian man, really doesn’t need to get pissed off by these women.  I wouldn’t do that to him.  Ever.  Oh, he is sooooo interesting.

Yes, they are probably trying to financially disable and prevent me from alcoholic consumption and purchases, and they don’t really understand why.  Because alcohol really did help his former partner’s mind.  She just wasn’t meant to be in the FBI.  She would still be alive today, if you had all listened to me – instead.  I’m sorry, it is true.  And, I am sorry for your loss, for the loss of her life.

If I were any of you, I would listen to me, instead.  I really don’t like unnecessary upset, conflict, or hurt.  For anyone.

The St. Petersburg news story says, Cherith should look better, should be looking better, and no, LGBTQ, you really don’t belong in my bedroom, you never have, and you are only hurting yourselves, by continuing.

And, I really, snorted through my nose laughed, at the sunflower, on the table.  That’s a Paul Watson.  Snort laughed, from a Paul Watson idea.

It’s 4’0clock in the afternoon and it’s the first time anyone has been able to get to my mind and memories, that should be a warning to you all.

November 3, 2019

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You still haven’t figured out, I’m not planning on a future, anymore.  I am planning on dying in this home.  This is the slaughterhouse that is referenced in 13 Hours.  This is not a safe house.  It is not up to my standard.

Your use of air up my nose tells me, mental illness, excessive use of air up my nose with intent to cause harm is mentally ill.

Anything you place up my nose with intent to cause harm, is mentally ill.

Belching is not a funny, gas in not funny, it is intent to cause bodily harm.

I am not planning on having another job or employment – again.

You haven’t stopped.

You stopped my employment, although you haven’t stopped abusing me.

Everything you have around me here says, I will be dying here.  I’ve accepted it.  I’m not fighting it anymore.

I will no longer be Weapons.

November 2, 2019

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It’s counterproductive.  Creating an obstacle in my nose to expand the size on me, it counterproductive.  Causing me to take massive amounts of diuretics to then flush it out of my system is counterproductive.  I obtain no nutrients from any food.  I am not able to absorb nutrients and food.  Living off of water – is not living.  It is death.  Living off of water only, is death.

That was Courtney tonight creating death, wanting death, wanting me to dead, to relieve her guilt.

The broken ice machine and water says either intentionally or they read it wrong, they were preventing me from stopping terrorism.

It is also possible that the danger in the movie Frozen they are referring to is persons such as this other FBI man or other good people who seemingly suddenly commit criminal acts, and misreading it as my effect on people, and it is simply not true.  It’s a matter of fact, the brain, the mind, simply doesn’t work like that.  It’s been proven – all my life.  At the expense of my life.  At the loss of me being able to live my life.

I have never seen my father so fat, bloated, and heavy, in all my life.  What have you people done to my father?!

My father has never looked like that in all my life!  What did you do to my father?!

I HAVE NEVER SEEN MY FATHER LOOK SO FAT AND BLOATED IN ALL MY LIFE!  WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO HIM?!

SEND THEM ALL TO JAIL FOR HURTING MY FATHER!  AND DON’T LET THEM – OUT!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!

YOUR WEAPONS – ISN’T WORKING!

WEAPONS – ISN’T HERE!

YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES LOOK LIKE YOU’VE BEEN DOING NOTHING OTHER THAN EXPERIMENTING ON ME, MY FATHER, MY BROTHER, AND YOU FUCKING KILLED MY MOTHER!

Enjoy living without me, when I’m dead, as you count your millions of dollars.

November 2, 2019

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I WILL BE REPEATING THIS FOR A WHILE BECAUSE IT SEEMS PEOPLE HAVE BEEN UNDER THE WRONG IMPRESSION SINCE, 2012.

THIS HOUSE, THIS RIVERVIEW HOUSE, IS NOT, I REPEAT, NOT A SAFE HOUSE.

IT’S NOT.

THE ORIGINAL INTENTION OF THIS HOUSE HAS NEVER BEEN FULFILLED.  I DO NOT HAVE THE FUNDS AND MONEY REQUIRED – THAT WOULD GIVE YOU THE INTELLIGENCE, TO MAKE THIS HOUSE SAFE FOR YOUR AGENTS AND OPERATIVES. 

IT IS NOT A SAFE HOUSE.

MY BRAIN IS SAFE.  THIS HOUSE IS NOT SAFE.

THE WAY YOU’VE BEEN USING THIS HOUSE, IS ALSO, NOT SAFE.

I’LL REPEAT THE WAY YOU’VE BEEN USING THIS HOUSE, IS NOT, HAS NOT, BEEN SAFE.

SINCE THE MOVE TO THIS HOUSE, IT HAS NOT BEEN SAFE.  MEANING IT IS NOT UP TO MY – STANDARDS.

As a detail, the one level home, the Pulte home, my mother tried to purchase, the gray home, reminded me of my Auntie Lila’s home.  She was (Sherlock) not my real aunt, by blood, or relation.  She was the wife of a firefighter, I do not remember him, and she did write to me after seeing me on WORSHIP in 1993.

Auntie Lila’s house in Simi Valley, California was neat, tidy, kind of dark in the front of living areas, and there’s nothing wrong with that, to me is says, I like the house, cool.

She did have that huge glass jar of gum, that to me said, money.  Wow, how much gum did she have to buy to make such a full jar of glass?

If anyone is connecting or figuring it out, that big glass jar of gum goes together with – surfing.  Meaning, thwarting terrorism.

Also, I just don’t believe the stories about the fires in California.

WHATEVER PROFILE YOU MADE ME LIVE THROUGH YESTERDAY, NOVEMBER 1, 2019 LEFT ME FEELING TRAUMITIZED.

I REPEAT, THIS IS NOT A SAFE HOUSE.

November 2, 2019

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You people still haven’t figured it out.  It has to speak to me.  It literally has to speak to me in way, most of you, will never understand.  That’s ok.  Preventing me, from a purchase, or an order because someone else wants me to buy something different those are acts of treason, manipulation with intent, malicious and wanted acts, subversion, I could go on.

Throw the book at these people who have been preventing me by telling me this is just for a television show.

If you fucking morons cannot remember so far back as to – just a few days ago – when I do approve of someone, IT IS BECAUSE THEY WILL RETURN, COME BACK, AND BE SUCCESSFUL!  YOU STUPID FUCKING DUMB-DUMB WOMEN!  YOU STUPID FUCKING MORONS!

That held over for murder plot is real, and it is comprehensive, meaning there is a lot and a lot of people connected and involved in it.

If the only reason you had David post pictures of himself and Brianna on-line was for me to read, you’ve wasted a lot of people’s lives, and time, by not doing it correctly.

When David was in college with me, he was close to a precipice, or a turning point.  You took a man, who had talent, in his body, and he was physically able for me, and – you let him go to waste.  Truthfully, that is what he says in every one of his photographs, you let him go to waste.  His mind, and his heart were not connected, he was making bad decisions, and he was working harder than he needed to be.

If a person is working too hard, or harder than they need to be, they are not working smart.

I honestly, have no idea how he ever had sex with Brianna.  Eeww.  Gross.  Truthfully.  Gross.  Sick.  Disgusting.  What a turn off just to see David with Brianna.  It makes me want to get as far away as possible.  IMMEDIATELY!

Let me write that again, David and Brianna together scream, run for cover, hide, get away.  Danger.

She thinks she is harmless.  I’ve seen her, for how many years now, trying to convince me she is harmless and meaningless.  I DON’T BUY IT!  I NEVER HAVE!  NOT FOR A SINGLE MOMENT!

YOU FUCKING MORONS HAVE BEEN WARNED MORE THAN ONCE BY ME ABOUT USING BRIANNA!  SHE’S GOT TO BE OUT OF HER FUCKING MIND, TRYING TO CONVINCE ME!  MY DEAD MOTHER IS PROOF – SHE SHOULD NEVER BE USED, AND SHE MIGHT NOT EVER BE SAFE TO BE AROUND OTHER PEOPLE!

You people have got to be fucking stupid if you’ve purposefully placed bad women in David’s path – just for me – to read on him.  As a way to try and bring him back to me.  You gotta be fucking stupid!  This mentality, this thinking, has no military understanding, work, workability, or military strategy – at all.

David and Courtney having sex, this actually – gets worse.  He literally looks like he was not present in his own mind and body at the same time when having sex, or in his relationship with Courtney, and that’s really not good, or wise, nor does that look – anything like love.

I’ll write it again because I see how people do not get enough detailed information from paragraphs I write, and that means – they’re not smart enough.

David not being present in his own mind and body at the same time, is a little close to having – split personalities.  I am not suggesting that David in any way has a split personality.  I believe, you’ve managed him – to look and appear as so, and it probably sent his head and mind into – further hating himself.  Because that is not who he really is, on the inside.

If you follow that, it would be – and this is also not wise – why James McAvoy was seen by me, as a David proxy, in the goddamn building, and my fucking car!

And, I wouldn’t do that to David.  Do you know why?  It’s completely illogical.  Illogical.

Let me explain illogical because I am surrounded by dumb-dumbs, if it is illogical it serves no purpose, no function.  If something serves no purpose, no function, it is about the same, or equal to, slamming your head repeatedly against a concrete wall, and expecting – an outcome.

It just doesn’t compute.

It’s like taking a calculator, punching numbers into the calculator, and expecting it – to rain.  It just won’t happen.

So, let me explain it – again.  God is logical.  Although it requires faith, something that cannot be seen, God is – logical.  God created everything, every animal, everything around us – with a purpose.

The leaves on a tree, consume the carbon monoxide, we humans exhale, carbon monoxide.  We breathe, humans breathe, and the trees, lives, plants live, plants give oxygen to the air, and we humans breathe it.  Get it?  A purpose, a function.

God isn’t some lunatic creating useless items that no one, no animals, as a nothing to be un-useful or unhelpful.

I actually cannot believe I am having to explain God in this way.  This is such kindergarten stuff, that most kindergarteners already know.

I’ll write it again, I’ll explain it, again, David had talent, he had potential, and you so much as dumped him in a wasteland, all by himself, just to see if he would survive, or could survive.  I would never do that to him.  I wanted to love him.

If this is truly the work of the FBI man, I have no idea what the fuck he was doing!  Truthfully, it looks inept, so the blame cannot fall completely upon him, it just cannot.

It does suggest, he was never able to read me, the way a lot of the Englishman have been able to read me, and that just says his talent, is elsewhere as it pertains to me.

Did you people really and truthfully fire me from Amazon because of the message you thought you could decode, the message Benedict Cumberbatch was sent to give to me, and you believed, it was a death threat – to me?

Please don’t tell me that is actually the truth.  Please don’t.

The message with the time-delay.  The gift tag, that read, Do not open until Christmas.  Please don’t tell me, you didn’t understand it.  Please don’t.

I can’t write this enough.  Please don’t tell me this was the real reason, for telling me this is the reason they used the words, I failed to meet safety.  Please don’t tell me this.

I just cannot write this – enough.  Please don’t tell me this was the reason?  His message, alone?  His messages that you could not decode or understand?!  Please don’t tell me this.

If this is in anyway, true.  If this is the real reason, they fired me from Amazon because some moron believed they could decode – a message?!

I am sorry to tell you this, you will be so sorry.

Not a joke, if that was the real reason, you will be sorry.  Not me.

I responded effortlessly, without panic, and I responded correctly.  I can read, faster than – humanly possible.  And real people, know it, and have known it.

You will be so sorry.

Not me, I didn’t fire myself.  Whoever is responsible for firing me, you will be sorry if this is true.  You set about a chain of events, a ripple effect, that you are completely unaware of, and are not capable to manage, control, or understand.

You will be sorry, again.  Not me.  I didn’t do – anything wrong.  Again.

It’s actually really disheartening to me, to see someone have to suffer, for their own, incompetence.  I wouldn’t do that to anyone.  That’s why they follow me, that’s why they’ll follow me anywhere, that’s why they want to work with me, that’s why I’ve been given what I’ve been given, although, I’ve never asked for it.

Choked by news story just says women plotting against Rob at The Container Store because he was – a man.

I’ll explain again, plotting against men because their men because Cherith likes men because Cherith gave approval to men because Cherith enjoys and likes what she likes – is completely illogical.

It’s about the equivalent of placing a death threat and murder plot on my person.  Just by preventing me to be around the men I want, for whatever reason.  THE MEN, I WANT.  FOR WHATEVER REASON.

You would have to be a complete simpleton, to think, or believe that I have given up on my boyfriend in any way just because of a t-shirt.  Obviously, when I made my boyfriend, my boyfriend, I said yes.

If a couple is married, and one takes off their wedding ring, does that mean they are no longer married?!  It’s really repulsive to me to see these women, these people, as such morons.  Repulsive.

Below, Buffy, that code, I’ll repeat and write, again.  It had no sexual overtures, undertones, connotations, innuendos of any sort.  None.  If anyone believed or placed it there themselves, that’s on you, not me.

It’s like an abused child thinking every person wants to place their sex organ on them, or in them, or abuse them with it.  It’s really not mature, and its really not smart.  By – a lot.

Since there was no sexual advance in the message, no sexual overtures, no sexual innuendo, there was nothing wrong with them being – pants, or legs.  Get it?!

Not every man in the world is after – only sex with me.  I don’t think like that.  That’s someone else.  And, um, it’s gross.

It’s so stupid, so idiotic, so appallingly lacking in any moral function, moral decision-making, moral compass, moral ability – at all, I just really can’t speak to it.  It’s beyond mortifying.

I don’t trust any of the neighbor’s here.  None.

I don’t trust this complex.  That’s what you’ve done here.  This is not a safe house, a safe building, or a safe complex.  If you think because it’s in Zero Dark Thirty, those safe houses, that safe house, has never been present here, and it gets worse – every day.

Putting a camera at my door, is someone else’s idea, this house has never asked it of me.

This house has never asked me to replace – EVERY SINGLE LIGHT BULB IN THE BUILDING!  This house never asked that of me, you people FORCED me, to replace every light bulb.  That purchase only wasted my money, it wasn’t intelligence.

What a fucking waste of my life!  I should never, I would never have given up the care of my mother, if this was going to be my life!  The rageful anger it creates in me, is beyond words I can describe!  Years of my life – wasted because you are all simply waiting for me to die.

None of you are working real intelligence or working me intelligently.  You are all waiting for me to die!

Hunger strike!

November 1, 2019

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This house, has never asked me, never asked it of me, to paint it.  Not anywhere.  Not once.  That started after 2014, and now damage has been done to my home while I’ve been at work, damage that has caused me to paint, or touch-up, and so on.

This has never read or asked – to be painted.

That is someone else’s idea, it is not intelligence.

November 1, 2019

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Let’s save time, by having me tell you by writing it, how this house reads to me, spoke to me, before my surgery, how the purchase following had been used going back to before my family and I ever lived in Plant City, Florida, before Germany.  So, no one else is guessing, how it works, used to work, or what has worked, and what has been done before.  This house is almost nearly – empty.

This house reads to me, as if it is actually asking me in words, for a lot of purchases.

It’s asking for the carpeting to be replaced with hard wood floors.

New furniture, in nearly every room.  Furniture, specific to this house, this location.  To fit the house, at this location.  That means, no joke, smaller sized furniture.  This is not a large home.  The rooms are small.  It’s asking for room-sized appropriate, functional, and organized to this home.

Doorknobs, door handles, or pulls on – all the cabinetry in the kitchen, and bathrooms.

The house didn’t ask for drapes, until, every window had, a peeping tom.  I’ve been taught or talked into, in so many different ways, to black out the windows, with curtains or drapes.  It never spoke to me that way – before.

It’s asking for personalization like the entryway, door accessories, plants, and so on for personality, function, purpose, life, and distinction.

It’s asking for storage and organization in nearly every room and garage because the storage here is nearly, non-existent.  A lot of organization.  A lot.

And, some additional lighting, specifically, on the stairwell.

The patio or balcony has never spoken to me, really, mostly because it’s just not big enough for much – function.

It has never asked me for numbers or the address to be displayed on my door.  That is someone else’s idea.  It has never said that to me.

Storage, storage, storage, that’s organization.  This house must have organization and storage – in every room.  And, I mean, a lot.  It’s asking for clever ways to store and organize household items, in every room.

It didn’t ask me for new closet-systems, until I got to The Container Store, and I just couldn’t go that much further in debt, without being able to have the re-sale return on it.

New flooring, new furniture, those are big-ticket items.  Especially, being unemployed at the time.  For months.

It’s probably asking me for about – nearly thirty thousand dollars, once completed.  And it was asking me for that in 2012.  It was asking me to have it done in a few months, in 2012.

That amount of money, that’s a lot of money, that’s probably, a completely new agency outpost, or office, set up.  And, more.

I don’t understand what you’re doing up my nose outside since about 2017.  All it tells me is you are punishing me for – being alive, still.

You’re punishing me up my nose, for being alive.

How many different ways and days and nights must I say and write the same things over and over, Casey will never have my approval.  Brianna will never have my approval.  Courtney will never have my approval.  1989 California man will never have my approval.

Punishing me for thinking about the future, and planning.

Looks like, I’m dead.

November 1, 2019

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I got as far as the Wagon Wheel motel in Cars, and I had to turn it off, stop watching.  It’s very sad to me.  That Wagon Wheel motel is a real home, somewhere in the Clearwater/Oldsmar, Florida, area before Michael, before my family moved to Plant City, Florida.  It was another home that my mother tried to purchase, and for some reason, that never happened.

It had a Spanish courtyard at the front yard, inside the stairs were to the right and the garage door, with the living/family room to the left, kitchen and breakfast/dining area beyond the family room, with French doors that opened to the backyard with a pool.

The upstairs had a slant in the bedroom that would have been mine, and the upstairs felt a little unsteady to walk on.  I don’t remember any other bedrooms.

I saw how they were going to replace some of the neighbors within a few years after us moving in.  It was close, about 10 to 15 minutes, just like Walden Lake, to the major roads, like US 19.  I didn’t really like the street it was on, yet it felt okay enough.

The dialogue, in Cars, of this place, is hurtful to me.  It’s a least one person’s real response, probably after seeing my mother’s driver’s license, meaning they didn’t think she was very attractive in the photo.  And, that hurts.

It hurts because they weren’t able to see all the work my mother had to do just because we were in Florida, now.

Her driver’s license photo is not how she normally looked.  Her hair wasn’t styled, and she wasn’t wearing any make-up.

My mother, in Oregon, before we moved here, worked – a lot.  She has several jobs, at one time.  She worked for Mt. Hood Community College, helping refugees, orienting them to, how things worked in America.

I’ve written this before, it was frustrating to her, to speak with some of them who believed or gave the impression that all American lived like – Dallas.  Like the television show Dallas, with million-dollar homes, expensive cars, without understanding a lifestyle like that means, those people don’t really own their home.  Meaning credit and credit cards, as this was the eighties, credit was a foreign concept to some.

My mother worked with bringing exchange students over, usually for about a month, sometimes for a year at a time, going to high school here.  When she worked placing students in homes for a month, sometimes she had several groups at one time, usually a group was about thirty students.  So, sometimes she was placing and finding homes for nearly a hundred students.  That’s a lot.

Do you know a hundred people who would be willing to have company, a foreign person, someone that didn’t know, for a month?  She made a lot of phone calls, to people, to place exchange students in homes.  It was a lot of work.  In Oregon.  That’s one reason they wanted to change her career.

She also, went to school part-time, at Mt. Hood Community College.  She also, sold make-up, and had a baby-sitting, sort of service, for free.

She was extraordinarily – industrious.

When we moved to Florida, her exchange student job moved with her, except, it got so much more difficult to find homes for students, my mother took I don’t know how many other jobs, trying to make ends meet.

I mean, her exchange student job, was so much more difficult, it must have been on purpose.  It’s actually very cruel.

Just think about it, how would you go about, if it was your job, finding people that would allow a foreign person into their home, have it be a decent home because it was required, have a coordinator to manage the families, students, and activities, coordinate the transportation for excursions like tour buses, and to and from the airport, and manage all the stress that goes with it?  How would you do it?

My mother chose churches, as the point of contacts for every one of the groups.  Churches.  And, at least on one occasion, she used a Buddhist temple, in Brandon, Florida.  Every other time, they were Christian churches, from many different denominations.

Is anyone making the connections, yet?  Because I’ve told and written about this, for years now.

I’ll write it again, there is no logical explanation, why anyone, in any intelligence position and job would purposefully be trying to financially disable my mother, especially if they were aware, they were following my mother, and her purchases.  Intelligence men were following my mother.

I didn’t like the street that the Spanish courtyard house was on; however, it probably would have changed, when the neighbors changed, and moved out.

There is another house I was reminded of while watching cars, a Pulte home, I believe was the name.  It was a model home, so in Florida that means the garage door was replaced with sliding glass doors, using the garage as a sales office for the subdivision.  I believe it was a grey house, and there was lots of shade from trees, yet beyond the street at the backyard, there was at least one person, if not persons, who were depressed, or depressing.  YUCK!

I don’t like depressing people.  Get it?!

It doesn’t take a real genius reader to see, I am not, have never been – friends, with any people of a depressive personality, just like my mother.

It’s possible those people might have moved away, also.  My mother liked the location of the home, mostly, and I could tell, she really wanted out of those apartments in Oldsmar, and into her own home.

When that house, also, didn’t go through, do you know what I had to do, again?  Shield, and place protection all around us, in our apartments.  I see it, now.  I didn’t really think about it then, I just did it.

Because in an apartment, the same thing you’ve been doing in this house, an apartment does not belong to the renter, and a landlord can come and go into your unit, without your knowledge, or permission.  It is very obvious these people, had no idea what they were doing.  They were all in, way over their heads.

Watching that Wagon Wheel motel made me very sad.  And, it’s very hurtful.  I really miss my mother.  And, its very sad and painful for me to see neither of my parents have been loved, or had love, in all their lives.  They’ve been married, not loved.  I’m not sure I’ve ever seen them, in love with each other.

I believe the reason two people are married is because they love each other so much, they want to be bound together.  If, they aren’t in love, then they should divorce, so each person, can find and have love.  Get it?  God is love.

It’s just very painful.  Every day.

This Russian man finds this to be of interest, or I probably wouldn’t be writing anymore today, there was someone else on my HCC Brandon campus, I have not seen – since.

I gave a speech in my Speech class on the movie, The Usual Suspects, and J-e-s-u-s fucking Christ, if that didn’t just set off all sorts of commotion and activities.  This other FBI man got involved, surveillance increased, orders were given, all sorts of things – happened – because I spoke about – The Usual Suspects.

My Speech teacher I liked, she was kind of nerdy, the nerdy was supposed to make her likeable to students, younger students, spoke really loud, tall, married to a man, blondish hair, sort of decisive, giving the impression to people, she knew what she was doing.

I have no idea why I was in her office speaking with her, after I gave my speech on Unusual Suspects, obviously unimportant or I would remember it, probably, just a reason to get me to see what was on her wall because although she and I were talking, and I was listening, I did not take my eyes off of her Pierrot clown picture, framed on the wall.

I had Pierrot clowns, I wanted to collect them, Pierrot clowns were very popular in the eighties, I had one that was a mask, probably the reason the movie, The Mask was made because it does involve, a bank, and I had a figurine, of a Pierrot that was black and gold accents.

The street signs at Walden Lake, were black and gold, for a long time.  I believe it is also in Twilight, in Edward’s bed.

The Pierrot picture on her wall, she was unaware of, and it has been removed if it was really there at all.

I have not seen this man before or since, this, Pierrot.  It is along the lines of the movie, The Thomas Crown Affair.  Meaning what was on the back on this picture was a design, a plan, on how to steal something very valuable, worth millions of dollars, sort of like the Crown Jewels in Sherlock.

And this man’s work is really exceptional.  Like a specialist.

I don’t think any of you knows who he is.  That, in and of itself, should tell you something.

I didn’t want to take my eyes off of it.  He’s got a really amazing, interesting mind and brain, and none of you knows who he is?!

This other FBI man, I believe is upset about this, these plates that I have here in my home, these blue and white plates, were bought at a Tuesday Morning store, our cat Tuesday happened after the plate purchase, that you thought said made in England, most likely, that was replaced after that dumb fuck, moron, Edison.

My mother purchased those plates, and set, in Tuscaloosa, Alabama, and we brought them to Florida with us.  They probably have – children, attached to them, you fucking morons!

There are probably real crime scenes, and, or real children’s LIVES, you stupid fucks, attached to them!  Probably, with me as – their protector.  So, doing something so dumb as blowing my belly out of proportion, would and could; therefore, place their lives in harm’s way.

Goddamnit!  I really can’t stand – incompetence!

I see where they did a lot of the same to me, speaking to her, she made and had a lot of purchases, that were irregular.  We had a lot of taper candles from when we lived in Oregon.  Jars of jams and jellies are some of the things I remember.

We did also, buy allergy-protector covers, for pillows, on the same trip as the blue and white plates.  The allergy non-sense that you thought you knew what you were doing and what it meant, to me says, brain research, and it looks like they’ve combined it with brain palace thinking.

Did any of you even know why you were saying and talking about – allergies?!  Or, did you all guess it had to do with Denver, Colorado?!

Because I saw those plates, I went around the house here, and there’s more.

I have an espresso set, that my mother bought me as a gift from the cruise she went on, and it says, the movie, UP.  It goes together with 13 Hours, and the Italian beanery scene, it was meant for me to know.

I have Sushi plates that were bought at JC Penny.  What’s-her-name Blanc from The Container Store talked about making sushi, I tried to get her to be a wingman, and then, she quit.  Suspicious.

I have light grey and gold dishes, and a Tiffany-style lamp, purchased at – where?  Penny’s.  That’s the other name people refer to JC Penny.  Penny’s.  Just like Penny from The Rescuer’s, that could go together, if only in theory, to seeing my grandparent’s camper, in California.  Anything from Penny’s.  being able to spot people, like that.

Before I went to work at Dillard’s my mother bought a lot of name brand dishes at the sort of outlet store, Dillard’s had at Eastlake mall (email, Zero dark Thirty).

I used to cook or microwave Morningstar bacon on the Corelle dishes I still have in my home, they’ve probably been altered or corrupted since.

The poster I have of the Chat Noir, to me says, Anastasia, our cat, Anastasia, and I called her, Ta-shee (Tay-zshee).

I gave nicknames, or codenames to all the Florida Troopers, when I worked at Dillard’s.

What they were doing before was attaching intelligence, usually, after the purchases were made.  Telling what and only what to buy and purchase, is not really helpful, or understanding the process that worked, before.

The word, throw, in the Fixer Upper song, from Frozen, does reference, this Russian man.

These are details, Nicole Cabot, did drive really fast, she was not cleared (Bourne movies) to have a conversation with me about Germany, and the difference is, when driving on the Autobahn, it’s not really fast, it’s appropriate for the road.  Driving fast on a road with a speed limit, is not appropriate.  To me, it says, something off, wrong, or, out of place.

My mother really liked the singer, Sheryl Crow, it, or she, doesn’t say anything to me.

Me being a vehicle or equipment with no personality or character in Cars says, you have a Ferrari, and you don’t know how to drive it.

Wow, Elsa, you look different, that’s Cherith with make-up on, not dressed for going to work at Disney.

They did attach a dislike for things of Hollywood or actor’s while at Disney’s employment, and it probably goes together with not understanding the event of 9/11.

What’s the issue, dear, from Frozen, it’s not really flattering, it’s stereotypical.  What’s the issue reads, WIC, like food stamps, at a grocery store.  The proof is while I was moved here, my brother told me to get financial assistance like food stamps because I was that poor, and I just – couldn’t do it.  I just couldn’t do it.  It felt – wrong.  Like sending a wrong message.

The WIC reference just says, people still had questions as to what happened with my pregnancy, it goes together with Sherlock, sorry to hear, and the rest, you’ve been hurt, is a real read of the Englishman as soon as he saw me.  They’ve hurt Cherith, physically hurt Cherith, and it is all over her, like a bad suit.

You’ve been hurt, Sherlock, goes together with the CIA trained killer, and that’s my German man.  Without re-watching it, really that’s all it says.  Sherlock would be Michael, not knowing the code, how to talk, or work with Cherith.  And, I am paying no attention to the intelligence affiliation.  It’s why the CIA man speaks so harshly to Sherlock in that scene.  They’ve hurt Cherith.

Something happened when I was going to the movies, before, 2017, 2018, the weight gain started adding on, and that prevented me from attending the movies, and making a purchase(s), at the movie theaters.  It looks inadequate.

Someone around here thought the code meant – to sit, from Frozen, it doesn’t.  I didn’t start talking until aged, 2.  That goes together with the movie, Johnny Mnemonic.  Downloading all that information, knowledge, language, intel, and so on.

Grab my butt, Frozen, grub, goes together with the snack bar or cafeteria being closed to me at HCC campus, Brandon, because it closed soon after I was able to get to campus.  Meaning, I had about 10 minutes to park my car, walk to campus, get to the cafeteria or snack bar, order and purchase something, with not enough time to eat it then because you are allowed to eat in class, so hold onto the food, while in class, and then eat it after class, when it’s cold?!  It doesn’t make sense to buy hot food, to eat cold, so what would I be purchasing?  Chips?  Something from a vending machine?

It looks like a manipulation of funds.  What would have happened had I purchased, food on campus, probably, no joke, funding for the campus, and college.  Really dumb.

The military calf muscle goes together with the movie, City Slickers, Norman being my father, and in City Slickers it does not mean the same as Zero Dark Thirty, being cowed and afraid.  The characters Bonnie Rayburn, and Nancy in the movie, tell me, without re-watching, they aren’t supposed to be in the movie.

I am Curly, in City Slickers, I crap bigger than you for breakfast.  Look what it did for his career.

The Calf muscle, Norman, City Slickers goes together with – the day managers at the Tex-Mex restaurant.  Allow me, from Sherlock, they would have avoided me, I worked on the night shift, it was my second job, I walked to it from Visionworks.  Meaning, the day-shift managers at Tex-Mex were a problem, and you probably really still could get information from them.

I always liked the HCC bookstore in Brandon.  It’s in the building.  I always liked it.  The Dale Mabry campus bookstore said, problems here, problems there, problems this way, problems over there, about the same as the selling drugs on the corner, in her kitchen in California – problem.  It spoke all over the place.  The Ybor campus, was ok.  I liked the bookstore at USF when Creggan first went to college there in the eighties.

My mother did plant honeysuckle by the hose connection that was her bedroom wall, with the round window.  The fact that she made a covering for the window, is a tell, she didn’t feel – safe.

These conversations I write about, only take a few minutes to – say, yet to write, it takes – hours and hours.

Buffy is the word, in code for, below.  It’s meant to fool and catch those persons who think they are something, they really aren’t.  It’s meant to trick you because the words were brought to me by way of Benedict Cumberbatch, and isn’t he very handsome, smart, and good-looking?!

There is absolutely no sexual innuendo, or connotation to his code, whatsoever.  That is actually, incredibly smart of him.

The truth is, it just means and says, Buffy.  Why would you read more into something, if it – isn’t real.

He should like that.  Me, writing about how his code was meant to read, or be read, he should like that.

It is also, not a good sign, if this FBI man’s former partner is seen as this African American woman in the background in The Peacemaker with David and I talking, that’s not really about David and me, or this FBI man.  It suggests, a lot.  In the movie, she looks, cocky, uninformed, and sort of, just playing a part.

It really is a sad day for intelligence.  I offer it – freely.  I give you information – freely.  Because it is the right and correct thing to do.  I have yet to be repaid, in kind.  By anyone.

If his former partner, was known, or appeared to have a romantic thinking, or flirting with me, you’ve read it wrong.  She’s been raped or sexually abused, hadn’t she?

To me she looks, really hurt, and she was over-compensating for it.  There is really nothing wrong with that, that can help people sometimes; however, no one noticed.  I’ll write it again, no one noticed.  She didn’t want to have sex with me, she was trying to be me.

It means, she was trying to be – straight.  Meaning, she believed, she should be straight, and in a straight relationship.

It should have read as a warning, if no one could talk to her, about it.  Meaning, it was so painful, no one could talk to her, with her.  She looks, really, really unhappy.  The films she is in, unhappy, unwise, not smart, and working against her own, truthfully.

Working against your own, is not the same as being willing to be seen as the bad guy, to catch the bad guys.

That’s really sad.

It looks like the alcohol did help her, yet that says, she was not meant to work in intelligence.  She looks like she is trying or was trying to prove a point.  If you have to prove something to someone else, then you really aren’t that person.

She could have been something like a high school principal, and this was spoken to me by a Christian girl, Amy Buckmaster, I worked with at Hilton, so, this is also someone’s notion of her, a Principal over children because she wouldn’t have wanted young people to be harmed, and a Principal allows an authority.  And, that’s really what her heart was looking for.  Authority.

She got lost in her mind because she believed having authority over others was punishing people who did bad things, meaning the people who did bad things to – her.  That isn’t how authority works or is supposed to work.

Gay community do not let your sex be an excuse, for – behavior.  Be smarter than that.  Don’t let it be an excuse.

Sona, how can I help, in 13 Hours, is not a good sign.  If she has to ask, then she doesn’t know.

If you can’t, if you cannot, there is no shame in that.  There is nothing wrong with that.

I am something special, as unique as a star in the sky, or a snowflake.

You weren’t meant to.

You weren’t meant to and be glad of it.  Life is full of so many other things, than Cherith.

You just weren’t meant to.