October 7, 2019: READ: WARNING: MY Unborn Child

October 7, 2019

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Somebody needs to tell me; this really isn’t true.  Someone needs to tell me my own government really didn’t do this to me.  To my unborn child.  To my future family.  Before I really get angry.

I regret everything about Michael.  I regret every moment, I ever had with Michael.  I do not have one memory of Michael that I will take with me, until the end of time.  He never, for one moment, had my heart.  It was quite obvious.  It doesn’t take a reader of people to see, I never loved Michael.

How I wish I had been on birth-control, and never gone internationally with Michael.

Somebody needs to tell me that our own US intelligence did not, once it was confirmed I was pregnant, our own US intelligence, this FBI man, did not use my unborn child as a bartering tool, by placing death threats and such upon my person, to entice foreign persons to enter the United States’ borders – just as a way to capture these men.

Because you failed.

If that is what happened, just as is seen in one of the Bourne movies, I’m going to wait until the next guys tries to kill you – you failed.  You failed, and it is seen in the movie, Infinity War, with this dialogue, there was no other way.

This California man because I have no other way to reference him, is seen in 13 Hours, as the guy who super-charges the wi-fi, and that is just to say, he is a computer guy.  Meaning, being able to read people intelligently like this German man did, my Germany father read Michael in a second and lost his fucking shit because my Germany father is a brain-thinker, and a brain-thinker is a person that can think, like a chess game, not just for the present circumstance, but for years and decades.  Decades.

It is possible, Osama Bin Laden would never have been news, had I remained in California, when I was asked by my mother to go to California.  My mother had already asked me to leave once, go to military school, something I love, I said, no.  Go to California, ok, I’ll go.  Very similar to Penny in The Rescuers when asked to go get the diamond.

This Californian man is seen as Neo, from The Matrix, waking up to his computer screen, Follow the white rabbit.  That was a lesson for him to learn.  He was and is, supposed to follow me.  He, in recent months has shown me, he doesn’t have it, he cannot do it.  He might be good at other work, but he has failed to realize the full gravity of decisions.

I see no one here who understands, the severity – of insults, and the consequences they bring.

This man sent me back to Florida because he was not interested in being my boyfriend.  However, did he even think he could have been a guy friend at all?  A guy I knew?  He had no more interest in doing more work with me than what he had done at the restaurant?  That should have been a flag, to someone.

A guy who had just done some excellent work thwarting and capturing terrorists and terrorism, and he did not want to work with me, the person who helped bring him that information, again?  It says, insecure.

I am trying really hard, to reign in my rage, this Californian man is seen in this dialogue, in 13 Hours, and this is really more serious than it appears which is why it is in 13 Hours the movie that is trying to correct mistakes, my daughter’s drinking, and the drinking is supposed to represent sex, it is to say, my daughter’s having sex, and the tone the actor says the line is an accurate read of this Californian man, not being able to fully realize, everything that was at stake with me, my person, my family, and my body.

How is it, I know my name?

The danger to me returning to Florida, has nothing to do with the real Hannibal Lecter, and that means I probably know the real Hannibal Lecter’s name, it is probably what they spoke (inaudibly) to me, and I slightly turned my head to the parking lot in front of me, and gave a small nod.

This FBI man did he really figure out, or was it someone else, that my name is Weapons?  It is the reason I was hired, I knew my name, as Weapons.  This name was given to me.  Given to me.  I didn’t make it up.  I didn’t ask for it.  It was given to me, as a child, in California.  How many decades did it take them, working with me everyday to figure out, my name is Weapons?

My German man, my Germany father did not get out-ranked, or out-voted, he was not in the country when it happened.  He was not in country.

I am really appalled.

October 6, 2019: READ: Very Dangerous

October 6, 2019

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Be aware, the title of this post, is not code.

That really did happen to me, around the time I was working at Dillard’s, just like it is seen in the movie, You Don’t Mess With The Zohan, and how embarrassing, I am the Zohan, not because of his bum because the opening sequence with the Zohan impressing, effortlessly, everyone on the beach, is me, at least in one man’s mind.

Your front-page news, about Bella, in Twilight, with Bella responding, No, I’m not, is a real read about how I feel about it.  I do not seek this attention.  That’s why its embarrassing, I am not nervous about it, I just don’t seek it out.  Nothing more.  I mean, Jesus Fucking Christ, how many movies and television shows am I in?!

That really did happen to me at a hair salon with my scheduled appointment, the person who was supposed to cut my hair, was not in the shop.  The “manager” or whomever this person was, when she told me, she was really expecting me, meaning, she had already had in her mind what she thought, how she thought I would respond, that I would cancel my appointment, to have the other person cut my hair.  In my mind, it was no big deal.  Yeah, he’s okay.

Don’t get swayed by all this notion of gayness about cutting hair.  Follow that if you want to – it will get you nowhere.  I believe that has been more than proven, by now.

Michael, in You Don’t Mess With The Zohan, is not my former fiancé, he is another man, another actor, in one other man’s mind.

This highly skilled, highly trained man that took over my hair appointment because it does have 13 Hours in it, highly trained, highly skilled military man took, hair cutting lessons, to be able to get close to me.  Probably, my hair being the closest approximation to my map head, and the danger, in the salon, was for him.  Not me.

It looks like is was also, very successful.  Multiple insurgents.

She was surprised, he – was working.  Meaning, I knew immediately, he had work to do.  I get it.  Calm the fuck down.  If you don’t know how to work without getting excited, get out of my way and room.

Um, and he was NOT on the Palestinian side of town, he looked very American.  The danger was to him, not me.

I need your report on yellowcake, it’s coming, from 13 Hours, this, it’s coming just says, sit.  Report on Yellowcake, just says Washington DC, its about how they did not get reports, or work done in Washington DC, until after I submitted my grades, or report card, in order to be reimbursed for my college tuition.  I’ve already written, waiting until after the semester, after the grades were published to get work orders and plans done in Washington DC, is too late.  That reality, on the ground, takes too long.

Please, for the safety and protection of people, stop believing you are more important than you are because you believe yourself to be in a movie, you might not like how they’ve put you in movies and television, and I actually would prefer for any person to not have to feel the embarrassment of any bad work done on their part.  Please, put your egos away.  They do not belong here, they do not belong I my room, they do not belong on my team.

Interesting detail, I believe the retail store Target uses, the terminology of team member for their employees.

What else does anyone think the FBI, CIA, or any other intelligence agency do, other than capture and kill known threats and wanted persons because they’ve committed crimes?

It is grossly astonishing to discover our own intelligence had the known whereabouts, by way of my person, of Bin Laden, and you – sat – on the information, for what, truthfully, as I see, looks like fear.  Afraid to attack and kill Bin Laden.  Well, I would agree with you, but then we’d both be wrong.

The United States of America is not now, nor has it EVER been, afraid.

America, and Americans, I don’t want a single one of you to let this thinking and notion, enter your hearts.  We are not afraid.

13 Hours, the movie, is specifically about correcting a lot of mistakes.

Brain-thinking, having a brain palace, another way to say, brain palace, is through the game of chess, being able to out-think, and out guess your opponent, in so many moves.  Is this truly the term used to call people who are chess champions, grandmasters?  A grandmaster at catching flies, in 13 Hours, says, Jewish.

I was given the key to this mostly nursing courses college, University, to lock up every night, I was on the night shift, and it was my responsibility to lock all the doors, turn off all the lights, and I was all by myself, every night, when I turned the bolt.  There was not a security guard with me, or other personnel with me, I was by myself, with no support.

I very much doubt that any persons, who might have had information about who I was, had any information about the problems they placed within the building itself.  The problems were not threats, they just read as problems, and they could have been something as evidence taken from a real crime scene, and not being stored where they store real evidence from a real crime scene.  As a matter of national security, it doesn’t really say much, does it?

When you walked into the main front entrance where the “receptionist” was, go down the corridor, make a right, past some doors, there was a bulletin board on the wall with news about courses and such, and the problems were in the drop ceiling panels, in creases or along the edge of the wall and ceiling, on the right.  It’s really not code for anything, so don’t follow it, it will get you nowhere, it is just a detail, nothing more.

I doubt the building is the same anymore.

The very reason they had this out-of-state woman take over and want me to drive her around, highly paid chauffeurs (13 Hours) is not at this employment, it says this woman wanted to be photographed by traffic cameras, to be seen in my car and vehicle.  My response?  My authority?  My thinking?  No, I’m not gonna do that.  I didn’t hesitate, I didn’t back down, and I didn’t let that happen.  Your welcome, America.

Another paying job and employment I had to resign from because seriously guys, this is the best you can do?  The best way our intelligence is able to gather information and intel is to threaten my income, and then ask me to pay for things, repairs to my home, my vehicles, doctor’s visit’s while not having enough income to get the work done.

No, I’m not gonna do that.

When I worked at The Container Store, I was given a key to the store, I returned it when I resigned from that employment.  The key they gave me at The Container Store DOES NOT go together with this other employment where this woman wanted to be photographed in my car.

The key they gave me at The Container Store says, Zero Dark Thirty, he’s the key to Bin Laden, meaning I am the key to capture Bin Laden.  Do not get them confused.

I would want to know why this woman wanted in my vehicle, so badly, a green Ford Focus.  No, I’m not gonna do that.

I am really sick, and tired of this news being displayed and used over and over again.  I am not the President of The United States, President Trump is the President of The United States – AND, I AM NOT HIS FUCKING PROXY!

I AIN’T FUCKING SORRY I VOTED FOR PRESIDENT TRUMP, EITHER, I WILL NOT BE SORRY!  SO, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

SHUT THIS GODDAMN STUPID, ENDLESS IMPEACHMENT NEWS UP!  FOR FUCKS SAKES!  YOU PEOPLE LOOK SO FUCKING STUPID!

I VOTED FOR TRUMP, AND I AIN’T SORRY!

I’ll send Boone, boom, you’re good, from 13 Hours, who’s the moron that believed the beer in Tyrone’s hand was a problem, and that is why I was given non-alcoholic beer?  There is a reason the beer bottle is in Cherith’s (Tyrone’s) hand, it is to show, she knows how to handle her alcohol.  She knows, and has been seen drinking, and is still able to work.  That is why Agent Alex, does not have a beer, or alcohol.

Who is the dumb moron who believes that the only way and the way to access Cherith’s brain, is through her vagina?  Wow, you look like a moron.  Wow, does this thing talk?  Um, no.  Um, does this thing think?  Um, no.  This is how stupid you look, the only way to get Cherith to work for you, is to get her to orgasm.  Yeah, you morons look real fucking smart, right about now.

The Weapons Of Mass Destruction is what?  A quivering vagina?  OR A GODDAMN, SMARTER-THAN-FUCK, FUCKING BRAIN!  YOU DUMB FUCKS!

Um, that’s why it was Cherith’s brain, with David’s dick.

You need to clean out your head, David, it’s really revolting to me, for you to be seen by military men, as you, psychologically getting off, on making me feel bad about myself.

And, who’s the dumb MORONS that have led David, to believe such dumb shit!  David, stop believing in them, whoever this is, your brain is better than you’ve thought.

Is this really true, David, did you really change after you spent time with me through Edison?  Did you mellow?  Or, were you pretending and doing just what you were told to do?

They sprayed Jew-haters smell up my nose again, last night when I was smoking a cigarette, and they used Brianna’s voice to say something out loud, I responded with, get out of my neighborhood, bitch.  I’ve warned you people too many times about removing people like Brianna, a person I will never approve of, she has already proven she is not in control of her emotions or mind.  It is the equivalent of being punched in the face and not responding back.  She punched me in the face, first.  If someone starts shooting at you, shoot back.

What they’ve just shown me about her jealousy is that Brianna looks responsible, and complicit in a scheme that led to my hysterectomy.  In my mind that makes her an enemy of the state, meaning an enemy of the United States.  If it is true.  You’ve failed to protect me in this matter, if this is true.  That’s a big alarm that went unnoticed, if true.

SAFP photo, looks sexually perverse, disturbing, sexual perversion.

I have much more; however, this looks like this needs to get publish quickly.

October 5, 2019: READ: WARNING: DAVID

October 5, 2019

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He gets his jollies pushing around Alphas because he can, from 13 Hours, is a read from a military man about, David.  Meaning, David has been psychologically getting off being able to make me feel bad, and feel bad about myself, making himself feel better because he’s made me feel bad, and unloved.  Mostly, he uses women to do so.

When it was supposed to be, as it has been made to appear to me, he was supposed to be a means and a way to get intel and military work.  He has also allowed his girlfriend’s ex’s and current’s to do the same.  Push me around, make me feel bad about myself instead of getting military, or intel work done.

It’s more than a concern.  It is close to subversion.  It is not supporting the works of the United States government.

It’s a little more than warped for a mind like his.  It says juvenille.  He has the knowledge to be a better person, and he chooses to be an anger-monster.  An anger-monster.  He’s much too old for that.

This information is more than disappointing.  People have been using it against him, it is another reason they force this unwanted weight upon my flesh.

He’s in real trouble, in my mind.  It’s a deal-breaker.

September 16: READ: WARNING: Oh My F’ing God!

September 16, 2019

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I didn’t proofread this. This is an all-male household and neighborhood, no WOMEN ALLOWED!  It suggests that David knowingly hurts me with his women because he enjoys watching me hurt and suffer.  Stay away from me, David.

Oh my God, oh my God, Oh my God, oh my God!  Oh my f’ing God!  Please everyone, stop pretending any of you have the vaguest notion of what the actual code is in movie, television, and most specifically, in Sherlock.

Did any of you think you were in any way protecting me by telling me, I cannot go underneath the belt?  The reason they claim they fired me.

Have I committed suicide?  Have I committed Hari Kari?  No.

The Royal guard who dies from a knife in his belt, this episode of Sherlock, please stop pretending you people have any knowledge of my childhood, my life, and who I actually am.  It was not meant for you to take into your own hands.  It was meant for me to discover, and learn, and know, this is about me, and nothing more.  Please stop decoding as if it was Gospel.  Literal.

Some of you didn’t actually know you were in these films and television until I wrote about it and told you.  My boyfriend, God love him, didn’t realize that was not actually him in the film, either.  And, I wrote, I would have approved him, I didn’t say I did approve him, yet.  I had to work with him.

It is also in Twilight, if you were smart, you wouldn’t want to be my friend.  Well, guess fucking what?  I didn’t.  I told you not to let him near me; however, there are more people involved then are sometimes seen, or in film.  I did discover that when I got to work, not everything was, let just say, not everyone is a reader, and some men are better at it then others.  He is a rather interesting man because of it.  He is able to read people off of other people, not everyone is able to do that.  Or, perhaps, if truth be told, he’s learned it off of me, he’s learned it from me.

I told you people, you should have been shoving dick in my face, all these years, instead of hands and loneliness.

I didn’t want to alarm anyone, mostly myself, I got so overheated, dehydrated, from just a few short minutes, it really is no laughing matter, being overcome by the heat, and heat, can happen in a matter of minutes.  Check the statistics.  Check the fatality statistics of body temperatures.  It can happen in a matter of minutes and most people are not able to do anything about it.

I thought I was ok, other than I couldn’t get out of bed, too much acid in my stomach, I heaved all the bile, and a coughing fit started, not much coughing, and it looked like blood, I was coughing up blood.  It’s a little extreme.

I’m ashamed of you all.

September 14, 2019: READ: Wuthering Heights

September 14, 2019

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I didn’t proofread this; I am so beyond bored with my rage at all of you.  Don’t ever touch me again, David, don’t ever speak to me again, don’t ever let any of David’s girlfriend’s past or present near me again, I will not be held responsible for whatever happens to him or any of them, anymore.

 

A little ambitious, maybe, from the movie, One Day, should stick with short stories.  Well, the truth is, I love short stories.  Truthfully, love short stories because they are the abstract art of the literary world, I’ve written this, many times before.  After short stories, classical literature is beyond belief, to me.  Short stories exist in their own world, it is why they lend themselves so well to film adaption.  Yet, classical literature, begs, not asks, begs to be – read.  By the author’s own words, they beg you to see them beyond their moments in time and history.  If it didn’t, if they didn’t, we wouldn’t still read them today.

He didn’t break the fiddle, from Wuthering Heights, the author put this in there specifically, for her own father’s reputation to be protected as she hinted that Heathcliff was the child from an affair he had out-of-wedlock, and the author specifically, wrote, no, he didn’t break his marriage vows, the fiddle.

Hindley Earnshaw, code: He.  Hareton Earnshaw, code: He.  Heathcliff, I am sure, a lot of people already know, Heath as the flower, like a woman’s complexion, like a man in love with a woman seen on his face, by the look of him, he is in love with his wife, and cliff, as the cliff’s of Dover.

Catherine Earnshaw Linton, code: wax seal, like letters and orders, and military orders are sealed with candle wax, and a ring.  All of this is not really code to be important; however, as the reader, as the audience of the book, you see it and listen to it, and it just makes it interesting – to read.

Hindley also means, hind, like the hind quarters of a horse, the back legs, meaning the author took information, or gossip as it is actually in the writing, of several mean-spirited persons, and placed them in character’s like Hindley.

Emily Bronte obviously loved her real brother, and wanted another child, another brother, probably, to liven up the place, and her family, and herself.  She wouldn’t have written her brother so completely devoted to his wife, and devastated by grief by her death, if she didn’t love her brother.

Be careful, when reading, you don’t become complacent, and passively listen and read, and take it all in as the Gospel truth.  Think.  You’ll get so much more than you wanted.  And, most seriously, think, and stop letting the terrorists – win, goddamnit!

Heathcliff and Edgar, code: He.  They are both the same person.  Edgar, I cannot believe a writer actually chose the name, Edgar.  Not even in Victorian times, Edgar?  It could only have been done purposefully, to have Edgar seen as the lesser man to Heathcliff, just for the reader and the audience to root for one character over the other.  This is not Catherine that needs to decide between two men, this is for the audience’s benefit.  It is why we as the reader and audience, then continue to – read.

The name alone, the title alone, Wuthering, is remarkable.  The word, Wuthering, has literally stood the test, of time.  That is an incredible thing for a writer to be able to accomplish.

It would suggest that Ellen Dean, the servant girl, and, no joke, I cannot believe this is in the movie, Hunter Killer, in dialogue, I’ve worked all your jobs before, as I have been a servant girl in the play, Amadeus, at mt Hood Community College, as a girl no  more than thirteen, with boobs and breasts, no joke, that could poke a man’s eye out.  How old is she?!  The same height I am now, weighing no more than I do now, and with breasts, up to my collar bone.  I, myself, would not write this information because I don’t think anything of it; however, it is and has been in the minds, of men.

It would suggest that Ellen Dean is code for education, as in educating those of the lower class, although in the mind of the author, education was not more important, or to be to the exception, of love and marriage.  Her writing shows that she thought about the lives of those who served households as being important enough that they have lives and marital life of their own beyond those of just the household, they served.

This pestering in my mind, yes, I believe Josh Hartnett was probably cast as me, in the movie, Black Hawk Down, a military movie, to show, and be seen as me, having, all heart, especially where the military is concerned.  Military strategy is fun.  I have no idea why people make it into such a bloated belly, or ballooned bottom, strategy, military planning and thinking, is fun!

Heathcliff and Edgar are the same person, be careful not to think of it just as it is written as not wanting to marry beneath her social class.  How dirty you look, this is just a way to picture and describe manners, and the author, Emily Bronte, challenged the double standard of men and women in how women had to behave and talk in order just to be feminine.  To me, Emily Bronte, was very feminine, and she saw nothing wrong with thinking that it was acceptable for a woman to be seen, not as an equal to a man, be careful, but the with power to be able to persuade and think, and have knowledge that a man would value, need, want, and desire.  Because men need that, some men, really need that in a woman they marry.

It’s nothing really that earth-shattering.  It is ahead of its time, or we wouldn’t still be reading it, today.

People who still read the book, Wuthering Heights, today, continue to read it because we understand the desire, the pain, the hurt, the wanting for someone, the wanting to be loved, and we forgive the untruth’s, the violence, the bad behavior because we know it is not factual, it is a book, and we all as human beings want and desire to be loved, on earth, and not just in Heaven, by our Heavenly father.

I will write that again, we want to be loved here on earth, and not just by our Heavenly father.  We know it to be a truth, or God wouldn’t have made us His children.  His children to be loved here on earth, so that God would in turn, also, be happy to see His children, loved.

Strength of spirit, determination of mind, the gravitas of person that people listen to because it is truth because it is the truth; ideals, virtues, character, the will of soul and mind.  These do not just live and are formed in the male mind, or men would never marry women.  Don’t get them confused.  Or, if men married women, they would never speak to them.  They would use them for body parts and nothing more, and this is not true, men desire and need the companionship and affection of their wives, and children.  They need it, like the air they breathe, need it, or these character’s because it could not read true if no one has never seen this happen in a real person, in real life, die – from heartbreak, and grief.  From the loss of love.

I truly find it unbelievable that anyone finds, any of this, interesting at all.  Or, anything I write to be interesting at all, but then, perhaps, people have trained that out of me, since being here in Florida, or perhaps, I will just not allow that part, or side, that ego part of my brain, turn that side of your brain off, maybe you’re in the wrong meeting, from the movie, The Bourne Legacy, to exist within my mind-set for the benefit of my own self.

Arrogance, ego, are truly disgusting, or we wouldn’t have heroes.  No, I’m have no evil plan, I’m no villain, from Sherlock, I am no hero either, I am just a girl, just a woman, and I have no real idea why they’ve placed me in so many movies.

No, I never wanted to act again.  I placed my mother in a nursing home, I lost weight, for the sole purpose, for the only reason, to get married, so I could start a family of my own.  If I didn’t feel it was a must, a need beyond, I would never have left my mother in the care of other’s.  You’ve all gotten wrong.

My mother told me once when we lived in California, when I was very young, the movies, are not real.  She wanted to make sure I understood, movies are make-believe, the actions, like sex, don’t actually happen on the set, the blood, the sound effects, none of it real.  And that is true; however, it stuck in me.  Because they truth is, I am real, and I am in the movies, most of it, intelligence.  Most likely, my best supporting actress award from middle school, the reason when I heard the announcement over the speakers in middle school, this is in the movie, Grease, that a drama club was starting was probably just there way of getting the information to me about the work, I’d already done as a child.  I’ve never thought I was a great actress, or singer, or a great performer of anything.  I am; however, better than anyone in the history of the world, at things like defeating, terrorism.

One reason the author might have used imagery like dirt and dirty, was to show a distinction between social classes, and it suggests that Emily Bronte might have had a secret crush, or a real man, like a stable boy whom she found worthy enough, to be seen beyond his job and work.  The way she describes the way Edgar looks at Catherine, is to show, and for us the audience and reader to see the difference between love as husband and wife.  In the mind of the author, as it appears to me, she doesn’t really see them as different people, Heathcliff and Edgar, she does and she doesn’t, it makes it more interesting of a read for them to be, different people.

In Twilight, did anyone, did someone actually believe that the women from the amazon being able to make people blind, was supposed to be a literal – truth?  It’s not, blind, pay no attention to them being from the Amazon, it was just a way to describe global, or world, and not just one country, blind says, no joke, Kunta Kinte, from Star Trek, Star Trek says, Dr, Livingston, Kunta Kinte, says, Reading Rainbow, as in biblical, God’s promise after the flood, and teaching children to read and be literate.  Have a little faith, from the movie, Leap Year and Star Wars about saving mankind’s souls for God.

There was a lot of white noise after 9/11, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, means there was a lot of black noise, this is about the black woman who went with me to the movie, The Matrix instead of a man of suitable dateable material – that was ordered by people, and came home to my mother having a stroke, there’s that loose wire again, from the movie, Up, my cat Snowball was on the chair with my mother, as though placed there, on purpose, just as I arrived home, and Snowball, I am sorry to write, had somehow, played with a loose wire on our second refrigerator, in the middle of the night, or it was done purposefully, all I remember is her being electrocuted, by the loose wire and lived.

They are after your house, from the movie, Up, means they had people purposefully damaging and destroying our home, like causing our sunroom to leak when it rained, probably so they could get payment for work done on our home, and then orders, for jobs and work, such is as seen in Zero Dark Thirty with the prayer rug, and your gonna get the money for me, without realizing, the work that would or could have been ordered to repair OUR HOUSE, COULD HAVE ACTUALLY COST AMERICANS THERE LIVES!  YOU DUMB FUCKS!  YOU DUMB HILLBILLY HICKS THINKING OUR HOUSE AND MY FAMILY WERE NOBODY’S AND SHOULD BE PICKED UPON!

The doorbell kept ringing, from Sherlock, I put it in the fridge, code: IP, meaning, IP address, it, in, two eyes, the fridge.  Most likely, this is again about the many attempts I had on losing weight and weight loss, like weight-loss shakes, that I purchased for weeks, and never cheated, and never lost so much as a pound or so, no joke, literally.  You dumb fucks!

This just can’t be, it cannot be, I have, I have always wondered and doubted when my mother and I travelled to Quebec, Canada, I believed the movies, you know, that Frenchmen, Frenchpersons either French Canadians or French from France would always be able to tell the difference between a real French speaking person, and an American speaking, French.  When in Quebec City, specifically, I said, Bonjour, to every salesperson of every shop I visited because it was custom and polite to return the, Bonjour.  They always, I mean, every person, always, responded in full French speaking, telling me of sales and this or that, and I was literally blown away, as in unable to really determine if they were sincere in believing I spoke good enough French from one word, that I must know more, or if they were simply being polite.  And, well, polite, in matters of speech, are not really, very French.

You can’t go I’m pregnant, from Sherlock, is to my English handler who was with me when I was with Michael, who did not know, I was in danger with Michael, and because I was with child.  Self-defense in advance, he would not have been able to get there in time.  And, he had no idea, they were planning to kill me, and him.

October 5, 2019: READ: FBI

October 5, 2019

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Right hand, FBI, right hand.

His profile is also, correct.

Yes, WH email, I played jig-saw puzzle games on-line, as were allowed, while working, and not much other internet traffic.  I am sure, at least one man, liked that about me.

October 5, 2019: READ: In-House

October 5, 2019

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I am…a little bit in shock.  First, I couldn’t believe it, then I realized it couldn’t have happened without my help.  Then, I realized, it looks like it was completely avoidable.  I am glad, the guest, was in-house.

If you do not yet, realize, or understand, Franco why I do not love, you, love you.  Well, I was sharing, talking with the other FBI man about what happened in this house after I went to the west coast driving, and it appears, whatever relationship that could have been possible, if at all, was doomed – by proxy, and others.

This other FBI man, and I have spoken about this in my home for quite some time, and no one, other than my boyfriend, and this other FBI man, have shown much compassion to me, regarding the loss of my mother.

Human relationship cannot be told to be something.  You either feel it, or you don’t.  I am not an actress that “pretends” to be friends with people.  I can be civil, but if I am your friend, it is not make-believe, it is not an act, it is for real.

Whoever was in charge, or in my home, for so many years, I was told repeatedly, and they did things to my head, making it, in a way, to erase the memories of my mother, including photographs that I had, in a video frame.

The fastest way I can write this is, there was a connection made in my head, to Franco, and the removal of memories of my mother, starting in January 2015.  How is it possible to love, or like a man at all, if he does not even allow you to remember your own mother, your own family, your own flesh and blood, especially when, I have spent nearly all my adult life, taking care of my mother.  Since the time I was 21 years old.

This other FBI man was quite revolted by this information.

Just like me wanting to make amends with David, and no one allowing us to ever speak.  Yeah, it looks like a she, blew that meet because she wasn’t supposed to be in the car, it doesn’t matter if the shei knows what she is doing, I AM their 12, their 12th.  I always will be.

He had been my only connection.  It is like a person severing and cauterizing emotions, and love from your brain.  Of course, I don’t love these people, they took my family from my mind, and it hasn’t been until my boyfriend that I was allowed to feel, again.

I will remind everyone that Casey and I were friends until she asked me to go to the movies with her, and I, declined.  Telling her it was not appropriate; I did not like her in such a way, again.  It wasn’t the first time I told her, no.

It wasn’t two friends going to a movie, she was asking me out, how completely inappropriate, and Tanya at The Container Store was – straight.  Meaning, by way of The Container Store, most likely because someone had figured out the founders were supporting the success of Bin Laden, someone created a cruel hoax, not just upon me, upon the viewing public, that I, not only could not continue my employment at The Container Store, I was a bad person because of this Englishman because both of us are straight.  It is more than worrying.  This Englishman is a good man.

Yes, this other FBI man is seen as Cal, I am seen as his wife, in the movie, Crazy, Stupid, Love, and the dialogue of, I should have fought for you, does look like a real read, and truthful both in his thinking, and in the minds of others.  It doesn’t necessarily mean, he and I are soulmates; however, it has been proven, I do know how to bring men back to their manhood.  It’s very important to men.  I quite literally mean from a health perspective, it is important to men, to feel, and be men.

I happen to be very good at it.

Guess what, David, you don’t think with your penis, like some men, and there is nothing wrong with that.  Obviously, his penis works, rather well.  It just says something about David, that he doesn’t think from his penis.  Why is David sad?

And, don’t get all crazy because I wrote this man had a sealed top-secret message taped to his torso, follow his torso, if you want to, it will get you nowhere.  Details are not the same, as intelligence, or code.

If this California man wants to continue to work, I want my German father to meet him, talk with him, and he needs to have HIS approval.  Not joking around on this because this Germany man, will, spot you.  From the inside out.

And women, appreciate a man even if he is not a biological father who is willing to fight another man for you, and in this case, kill him.

I have not yet finished, de-coding Crazy, Stupid, Love if people are at all interested.  Kevin Bacon, if he was cast on purpose, it says, Footloose.

My mother was not just important to me.  Even if my name, was the only name, on the manifest.