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September 30, 2019: READ: WARNING: I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE!

September 30, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

I will repeat this again, so everyone is able to read, again because this has simply been going on for too many decades, now. There’s nothing to suggest they changed, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty is not only about Bin Laden, it is about the tactics they used in handling me and my family, my mother, my brother, my father, and myself since I was seventeen years old, went to Germany and helped them bring the Berlin Wall, down.

Did anyone else want the Berlin Wall, up? Until the end of time, up? I will reiterate this to make sure, everyone has learned the history lesson with the Berlin Wall, in my mind, if not in yours, democracy MUST prevail. It must. Socialism cannot be the way. It is not the truth, and it only hinders its citizens, meaning whatever country uses socialism as its means to an end, as its regime, as its way, hinders its own citizen’s. If you fail to understand the complexity of such a problem, even if it is in another country, on the other side of the world, and not understand the impact, effect, and value democracy has to your own country of origin, as well as, to world politics and its implications upon which all our lives depend, and have been built upon, then GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY GODDAMN ROOM!

Is this dialogue also in the books, Lord of The Rings, if you do not find a way, then no one will? It is very telling and very truthful, of me.

Do you want 2 sit next 2, David, fastest fucking answer, almost before they finished the sentence – NO! The answer lies within the word two, meaning there were two men, and more; however, the two men were already seated, and I had not yet, seen them, yet, I did. The answer is no. No. No, no, no, get it, NO!

Most likely, this would have wound up being a murder and what would have looked like, suicide. I said, no, not to a man, to the PLAN. NO! These were really serious, dangerous fucking men, and it sharpened my mind, real fucking quick.

The no, was a religious question.

The closest approximation to the plan is what is seen in the movie, Munich as the man after drinking all night, and don’t get this wrong, it is about the size of my person and it was NOT supposed to be, NOT EATING, being found dead on a park bench, in front of – WATER.

Coffee and water, please. It’s what I ordered with my meal.

Most likely, Stuart had a female proxy attached to him, a female in government, most likely, Israeli, and I loved Stuart, I loved him, loved him, but I did not love him like a boyfriend. I didn’t want to spend time with him and learn his middle name and want to cuddle with him like I have with the real Hannibal Lecter. Yet, I really loved him. So, it’s possible, there are, or were, a lot of people attached to him. And, he is a man, not a woman.

Before you people showed up, I used to be able to be a person who was able to love people like that. Why no one has allowed for me to be seen in a relationship with a man I love, YOU HAVE ALL FAILED TO UNDERSTAND THE IMPORTANCE OF WHAT IT MEANS TO, NOT JUST PEOPLE, IT’S FUCKING BIBLICAL, GOD CREATED MAN, AND WOMAN. IT IS SO VERY OBVIOUS TO SO VERY MANY PEOPLE, I WANTED, AS A SMALL CHILD TO BE MARRIED! STOP FUCKING UP!

Be careful, you also understand the difference, obviously, I have to be sexually attracted to the man I want to be in a relationship with, and I AM sexually attracted to taller men. Stop dumbing me, DOWN!

You Don’t Mess with The Zohan, this movie, you people need to ask my real father, I am not sure my brother remembers their names, all I remember is their mother, Ricky Burgin.

Be careful, with this thinking also, radicals, radicalism, is not just A FOREIGN PROBLEM. It is possible for Americans to radicalize and be a problem to their own country. Erin at The Container Store, I often had problems with, one of the problems, her notion and speaking about conservative Americans, conservatives in American politics, spouting on about them as if conservatives, and conservatives in politics – were dangerous, and a danger, and must be stopped.

Well, that thinking, is just, un-American.

She was not just trying to win a debate with me, she was wanting to kill the notion of conservative politics, specifically because – I have written this before – we have had in our Plant City home, a local female conservative female politician.

When I was working at the Obama election campaign, in that office, one of the Burgin children, showed up, and we talked. I don’t remember, specifically if it was in the office, at the Starbucks, or at the shopping complex. She said she lived in one of the apartments, in the complex the Obama campaign was in, I never believed this to be true.

This guy is the key to Bin Laden, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, no, I am the key, the de-coder, I am the key to decipher.

Another one of the Burgin children, and at least one if not several children were, or are involved in politics, and political offices. Another one of the children when my mother and I visited their home, I forget her name, told me she had recently returned from, I believe she said, Paris, and went to the Vidal Sassoon school for hair cutting, and she was now married, and he was a most unusual-looking husband, older, not as attractive as her, somewhat clumsy, and odd, in my opinion.

The story was so mis-proportioned, I blocked it from my mind. Something, and more than one thing was not right, meaning correct.

To me this say, the United States intelligence and its government, was not working me the way, did not see me the way, and did not understand how I was seen around the world.

I need a man who has a physical presence because I have a physical presence. If you fail to see that I have within myself a physical presence, all on my own, well, I am tired of shouting now.

Be warned: I am not shouting anymore. I am more than tired of screaming, and shouting, and correcting your mistakes. I will not be held responsible anymore, for your short comings. I will not be held responsible for your failing to understand the greatness of my mind and brain. I will not be held responsible, if you continue to work with people, I TELL YOU NOT TO AND TELL YOU TO REMOVE!

YOU RE-CREATED THE DUMB MISTAKE OF MICHAEL WITH EDISON! DO THIS AGAIN, AND I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE IF MEN IN OTHER COUNTRIES – KILL PEOPLE BECAUSE OF IT!

STOP BEGGING PEOPLE TO KILL UNITED STATES CITIZENS BECAUSE YOU HAVE FAILED – ME!

I AM BEYOND RAGE AT THE SIZE OF MY BODY, IF YOU’VE LOST INTELLIGENCE BECAUSE OF IT – IT’S YOUR OWN DAMN, STUPID FAULT, NOT MINE!

YOU’VE LOST INTELLIGENCE AND MILITARY WORK AND OPERATIONS BECAUSE YOU ALLOWED STUPID WOMEN – OVER ME! YOU FUCKING MORONS!

YOU’VE, SO FAR, LOST MORE THAN A MONTH’S TIME. REMOVE EDISON AT ONCE, NEVER TO RETURN! I HAVE NEVER WANTED THIS MAN AND I AM REALLY TIRED OF PEOPLE GETTING KILLED BECAUSE OF THIS DUMB, FUCK! STOP TRYING TO JUSTIFY THIS DUMB FUCK TO THE WORLD! ADMIT YOUR MISTAKE AND BE DONE WITH IT AND HIM! FOR THE BETTERMENT OF ALL PEOPLE! BE DONE WITH HIM!

AGAIN, THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A PROBLEM WHEN I LIVED IN PLANT CITY WITH THE GARBAGE COLLECTION, AND I PLACED – A LOT, OF GARBAGE AT THE CURB. THE GARBAGE COLLECTION NEVER COMPLAINED, NEVER LEFT NOTICES, AND ALWAYS TOOK AWAY EVERYTHING THAT WAS PLACED THERE. THE USPS HAS CONTINUED TO BE A PROBLEM, YOU HAVEN’T CHANGED THIS SINCE THE TIME I LIVED IN PLANT CITY. YOU’VE ALLOWED TO CONTINUE HERE. I SUGGEST, YOU STOP.

THIS MAN WHO TALKED TO ME ON THE PHONE IN CALIFORNIA, HAS BEEN MAKING ME NOTHING BUT UPSET AND MAD SINCE HE’S BEEN HERE. I’M TIRED OF BEING NICE. I WANT HIM GONE NOW!

The very reason someone suggested to my mother to have me, when we lived in Oldsmar, go to military school because they saw great potential in me, I believe, FAILED to realize, I COULD NOT GO because there was a threat to my mother’s life, and I was the only one around that saw and knew it was a problem.

I AM NOT FOLOOWING YOUR NEWS STORIES OR CHANGING MY CLOTHES OR APPEARANCE BECAUSE OF ANYTHING YOU PUT IN THE NEWS! GROW THE FUCK – UP! I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE!

YOU HAVE ALL RUINED MY LIFE! I AM NOT PROTECTING YOUR MISTAKES ANYMORE! IF MORE FOREIGN COUNTRIES ATTACK AMERICANS BECAUSE YOU FAILED ME! I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE – ANYMORE!

BUY YOUR OWN DAMN CIGARETTES! I’M TOO FUCKING FAT TO ALLOW THAT TO CONTINUE!

I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE ANYMORE!

September 29, 2019: READ: WARNING: More Things Wrong

September 29, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING INCLUDES ADULT CONTENT AND LANGUAGE.

Obviously, I am having to type as fast as I can to stop all your mistakes from continuing and editing takes time. That’s why all writers have editors. Real quick, I believe everyone should know by now, my surgery did not happen in Libya. The Obama campaign, and, um, let’s see, was his running mate a man or a woman? Get it?

The Obama campaign made a White House connection to me in October 2012 because they needed more information about why Libya happened. I am telling you, Libya happened because our house in Plant City was sold, and someone found out I had a hysterectomy, and no one has until I started writing been showing the world, how important I am to them because putting it in the movies, and then any person being able to get real intel about how I really live, is another difference.

Me writing about actually knowing this is all about me, should really help; however, peace, in my mind, how I believe, and think about peace. Peace, does not happen, cannot be attained, will not be allowed…well, this is a much bigger question to answer, I need to tell you, show you, write that the peace one person is trying to achieve is at the expense of massive weight gain upon my body and person, I do not accept. That is not peace, that is servitude, it is slavery. Slavery is not peace.

I do not believe I am, or should accept the condition of indentured servitude, just because I have a brain. Either stop this from happening, or I will also, not be held responsible for what happens around the world because the United States has failed me, failed to protect me, failed to understand and claim me as their Weapons of Mass Destruction.

I can smell you, from the movie, UP. Does anyone still believe this is just literal dialogue, or were you trying to get me to de-code for you? Or, perhaps, you really didn’t know if it was code or not, and wanted to know the real answer. Remember, I am not giving the step by step instructions on how I get my answers. I can smell you, code: I see, a father, at my audition for Southern Methodist University.

If you really want to know the real truth for the reason Disney made the movie, Frozen, here it is: I told the truth on a real phone call while at work, at Disney. Soon after starting on the floor (it is the terminology they use when an employee, Disney calls them, Cast Member’s, it is their jargon, or verbiage, floor) I received a call asking about staying at one of the resorts. I went through the whole process of the conversation (about 15, 20, 25 minutes), then the caller, a woman, told me, as it would have been the end of the phone call, I would have made a booking (terminology), that she had a sister who worked for Disney. I didn’t pro-actively (it is their terminology) offer the employee discount, she mentioned a sister who worked for Disney. At that time, the department I worked in was not allowed to “book” employee discounts.

This detail is important, I could have made the booking at an employee rate. I had access to the employee discount, and the system would have allowed me to make the booking. I could have given her a reservation number, and the amount of the booking would have gone towards my monthly sales goals. However, it was against the rules and regulations for my department. So, I offered the correct phone number for employee reservations to her, and offered to transfer her to that department, so she could make the booking. Really, in my mind, I was just doing my job.

I was not happy at the end of the call because I wanted to be employed, so I needed to make my sales numbers. But I was not going to make my numbers, at any cost. By doing something that was against the rules of the company. I will write that again, I am not willing to go against the rules of the company, at any business I have been employed, all my life.

This, this, is something that has changed in 2014 when I quit working at The Container Store, and was told, I am now on a reality television show. Now, everyone at every employment, since 2014, has made up the rules as they go along. One person says it is this way, another person says it is that way, no one, anymore, has a real answer in my employment. I do not believe, that is wise.

I made the connection myself, that the woman I spoke with over the phone, was the sister of the woman who was employed as a manager higher than my supervisor. I forget the title. I don’t like being lied to; I don’t like being tricked. They did nothing wrong with testing me on the phone. I would have appreciated it if, you wanted to test me, that the time was then taken out of my “sellable hours”, so to speak. I had to earn so much money for Disney, in the hours I was clocked in, so I could remain employed. It was a constant pressure, and a lot of it, I thought was, unnecessary.

Someone, pretty high up, must have thought a lot about me, when I first started making phone calls. I gave details to one caller, about, architecture, and the love of architecture, and how; for instance, The Crystal Palace in Magic Kingdom, is designed after the Crystal Palace in London. This is the sort of information I had access to in my head, before 2012. Now, they’ve worked my head so much, making me be something of a television show, trying to de-organize me, wow, upset at the ruin my life has become.

I wonder now, if this phone call because he sounded important when I spoke to him on the phone, and as always, I am not bothered or swayed in altering my person just because someone else has a higher-paying job, than me. I wonder if this is why the movie, Zero Dark Thirty has the London bombing in it. I was just talking to him. Yet, he seemed impressed that I spoke of The Crystal Palace in London. I sat at a desk at the end of the room with my back to the windows, the windows had mini blinds that were opened.

I don’t believe Disney had the same photography that Hilton had of the floor. Another reason Hilton didn’t walk me out of the building. I was facing the same direction when I received the phone call from the man who had adopted two Russian children.

The Crystal Palace man asked me a question about a crib, in his hotel room. I told him the rooms were supplied with cribs. He questioned me about it. I knew the answer was correct, yet I told him I would make sure of the information because I was really new to the phone calls, mostly I checked the information, for him. Looks like now, he was buying time. He needed me to place him on hold, so he could talk to someone.

So, please don’t tell me this is true, it looks like, the reason the movie is titled, Frozen, it still surprises me that people have found this so…unusual, was this female caller who’s sister worked for Disney, calling me from a room with photographs on the wall of known threats, terrorists, most wanted men, in other words, really scary men, photographs with their faces, facing the wall, meaning this woman would not have been able to see their faces, or, probably, have known what was on the paper, or that they were photographs, or anything about the paper. Is this really true? Well, no wonder I was upset about NOT getting that booking.

Their photographs don’t bother me, their person, usually, doesn’t bother me, NOT GETTING THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS! THAT BOTHERS ME!

This song lyric, Let It Go, is code: tell the eye-tech, GO!

Father, I am not driving at this weight capacity. I am, making, a stand about, my weight.

This scene in 12 Strong of the wife, who was caught teaching her daughters over the allowable age, and being shot in the head, does anyone really know why this was placed in this movie? Anyone? Want to guess? Or do you want to know the truth? Whom are you paying attention to when you watch that scene? The wife? The children? The man holding the gun? The other people holding guns? The husband? Who are you watching?

Are you really going there in your shorts from the movie, 13 Hours, strong move. Well, guess what that is me, in the middle of the night while I was the only person awake, in my house, taking care of my mother, walking outside, either to get one of my cats, or to figure out why there was something going on outside because that did happen, often. Me walking outside because something, wasn’t right.

You should be paying attention to the husband in the scene of 12 Strong. Who is this man, do you think? A non-important villager? How many non-important villagers are there in an entire country? One? Hundreds? Thousands?

The very reason they have placed this scene in the movie 12 Strong is to show the reaction of the non-important villager husband, not the leaders, just the men in a country, who look and believe Cherith Joelle Gjestland to be their leader. I am not married in any way to them, neither I, nor any of them would look, or believe it to be in such a way. So, having me look at a man’s crotch and then place a real man nearby, actually, he was to my left, is so beyond inappropriate, I am at a loss for words.

I can’t explain, its for a good cause, from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, most likely, this is more than it appears. It is more than one code, and it is not just, ice.

I can’t explain, code: because no one has really shown the world, I am not just a woman, and sexual organs to these men.

I can’t explain, code: ice, however, this is misleading, it is, and it isn’t.

It’s for a, code: It’s for, Alpha. The Alpha. Their Alpha. His Alpha.

Good cause, code: Cherith Gjestland.

I would caution you, not to let a great percentage of the men, appear before me, and in your mind-set, as less than I am, meaning, as just some jiggly-sex-bomb, body parts. You will only make them do more terrible things.

I do not believe they should have attacked and killed the US Ambassador.

I also, believe the United States has not done enough to show the world, they believe me.

Their actions are not justified, nor are the United States. STOP LETTING THEM WIN!

Give me what I need, from Zero Dark Thirty, what they had been doing, as recently as September 17, 2019 is damaging property of mine, either personal, like my cats, or my family, or property, like my home, or vehicles. Requiring then, payments, and work orders for repairs, that would then be sent and be seen within intelligence communities, like the CIA. That would then get work, either intelligent, or militarily, to other countries.

They’ve failed, to provide, the financial means, in about 95 to 98 percent of the damage done to my property, cats, and family. They have not given me what I would need in order for orders to be received and carried out. So, either give me what I need, or stop working me in this way.

For instance, they caused damage to the sunroom roof where I found my mother after I saw The Matrix, sitting in her chair, suffering from a stroke. My father worked repeatedly, probably the reason my father is mentioned so often within the last couple of decades, trying to repair the leaks in the sunroom roof. He was up there at least once a month. That’s a lot. It never got repaired, it still leaked. They could have continued to damage it, to make us pay a professional handyman or company to repair it. When never had the money for it.

My mother installed lights on either side of our garage, they had been repaired, at least once, and went out, didn’t work, not long after they were installed.

The fence we had on our property, needed replacing in many places. Some we repaired, some was redone by a business, and some a neighbor put his own fence. And, my mother, we, could not afford to fence our entire yard.

The gate needed to be repaired. It didn’t latch properly.

Our skylights had water damage from leaks in the skylights. So, is this really true? From the movie, 13 Hours, did they really lasso a position in real life, or is this about not knowing how important our home, house, and family was, until after the attacks happened?

Do you know what this means?

There could have been law-abiding citizens who actually caused the damage to our home, as a way of asking the United States for help in foreign countries, by way, of my family, and home, yet they FAILED to allow us to provide that information to the correct intelligence communities, and the White House because we did not have the money.

I guess, they have decided to stop working me.

I, on my own, while caring for my mother, decided to re-do the yard, and mostly the front yard, people, more important people than my neighbors, or David, noticed, the work, I did, xeriscaping, zeroscaping. I placed a boundary, or border on both sides of our property. I built a retaining wall where the mailbox was, and a version of a retaining wall on the other side, to stop the soil from eroding away from the property, and down the drain in the rain, and severe weather.

Because the garage lights didn’t work, and I couldn’t get or afford anyone to repair and fix the garage lights, I changed the landscaping on either side of the garage. I took out the bougainvillea, I think my father replanted them in the backyard, put rocks, pebbles, for drainage, on the ground, and put potted, bronzed-colored, resin planters of faux, spiraled boxwood with battery operated LED lights with a timer.

I used rubber mulch near the house where the most water from the roof was received, for the longevity of the product. My brother put in drip-irrigation, when I had all the plants in place in the new design. I created site lines with plants that blocked the view from the neighbors being able to see into our home from their own home, on both side of our home.

The railing on our front porch had to have rotted wood replaced.

The mailbox, I replaced with a bronzed colored mailbox and post. The mailbox was a problem. The mailpeople would not deliver our mail if there were any vehicles, not only blocking the mailbox, but even if a vehicle was parked, something ridiculous like two car lengths within our mailbox. I did not see the mailpersons do this to any other house. Just ours. Our house was at the end of the cul-de-sac requiring a driver to turn their steering wheel to the left. I often had to walk outside and greet the mailperson in the driveway because a neighbor’s car was either blocking the mailbox, or too close. They actually left notices in the mailbox that they would not deliver mail because a car was parked too close. It’s a little, suspicious.

It tells me the USPS, was a little suspicious. Meaning whatever agencies were working the USPS, suspicious. I remember a conversation a person, female, had with me about how difficult it was when she worked at the USPS having to read people’s illegible handwriting of zip codes. I took her to mean it was too difficult.

Companies that require their drivers to get out of the vehicle and walk the package to the door, seem more credible.

Garbage collection, not a problem. Mail delivery, a problem. It could mean there was a lack of male, men, me dating, and no one understood, that was a problem, and how much of a problem it was.

Be advised: Neither I, nor Edison want or wish to be seen or connected in any way. I have not wanted to be connected to him since April 2014. Stop pushing Edison on me, he does not want to be here. Fail me here, at keeping Edison away from me and my life, and I will not be held responsible for anything that happens because of it.

If this is true, if they caught the real Hannibal Lecter when I was rehearsing Right Bed, Wrong Husband, is does spell a lot of code, but don’t follow it as real, it just says, code. I wore Ked shoes, without shoelaces, that had been so worn they had holes in them, it was the look at the time. I would not have been talking to Michael about the real Hannibal Lecter, he was in front of me, in a parked car. Almost an undiscernible movement, gesture, acknowledgement, that is what it looks like.

I would have been attracted to the man in the vehicle. I was flattered by the attention (Sherlock) Michael gave me, I was prepared to live and go to school in California, before you morons, ruined it. Selling drugs, on the corner, you idiots.

Does he, regret? He is not the only one, yet it cannot be undone, can it?

No, the real Hannibal Lecter, I do not believe would have been capable of killing me. Perhaps more than one person understands what it feels like to imprint on someone. What sadness you have all brought me.

There is something about, I do not like, and there has been near a month or more now.

September 28, 2019: READ: WARNING: No Women

September 28, 2019

BE ADVISED: THEY FOLLOWING READ INCLUDES ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

Take a look at my computer, and this bloated, belly you dumb morons have been placing on me for over a year! By the size and weight of it alone, you have been placing death threats on me from within the company and my former employment – just to see if I would survive, and live. That is one way for Cherith to lose faith in a person.

It appears that no one, no one in intelligence, and that means within the United States believed I would live this long. Wow. How do you feel about that father? My real father? After everything you’ve learned these years, how do you feel about how your own daughter has been seen within intelligence communities?

Creggan? What do you think about their prediction for my life expectancy? It is one of the reasons they had you tell me over and over, you wanted to retire in our Plant City home. They got their own intel wrong, or they have been working at subverting the efforts to capture our enemies by allowing people to attack our family, kill my mother and harm me.

I would like an explanation as to why they have been placing weight gainer in any alcoholic beverage I purchase such as beer or wine. You are subverting the efforts of our United States intelligence by doing so. By allowing more and more weight placed on my body, when it is already beyond its maximum body weight.

Englishman, this FBI man has been around me nearly all my adult life. If he was in any way connected to “Lance” the only reason this attempted boyfriend set-up didn’t work, just look at him. After Michael, I needed to be with a man who could protect me against other men like Michael, not a kid who looked like he wouldn’t be able to handle himself in a dangerous situation. This FBI man, literally, needs to separate himself from LGBT associations. That is why he has me around for so long, I am like a brain vacation to him. The gay connections are actually harming his brain, and he talks to me as a way to help him, de-program. He needs to spend time, a lot, with a straight female he finds sexually attractive, preferably not me, just to help his brain. He needs to be de-programmed, and that means, gay, de-programmed. It is not a personal judgement on other people, it is the truth about his health and brain.

I was very well aware on September 23, 2019 that the Vice President of The United States was within my vicinity. Did you think because an actress in a movie “acts” giddy about the idea of the President being in the loop about a possible meet, would or could in any way be a credible read upon my real person? Most likely, if the actress was directed in any way to “act” in that scene it is a real read on someone like a White House intern or aide, and not me. I had enough faith in our Vice President that he was man enough to be able to hear me speak in strong language and not get offended when I needed to control the scene.

You gave him a female interpreter, and I’m not impressed, probably because of who hired her.

You are all probably going to be shocked. I am appalled, incensed, and upset for him. How humiliating for him. You do not treat a detainee, in this particular instance, in that manner. He did not place a death threat on me, you people here in the United States allowed a death threat to be placed on me, and you tried to blame him for it. This man, was he involved in the killing of the Ambassador in Libya that is seen in the movie, 13 Hours? If so, he is not sorry. Do you want to know why? The United States failed to protect me, my family, and my home. The United States failed, me. Failed to protect, me. Please stop letting them do this, just because no one in the United States has been willing to admit how important I am, and how very important I am, to these men.

It was not just the anniversary of 9/11, they did it because our house, in Plant City, Florida, was sold. Our house in Plant City is seen in the movie, 13 Hours as the secret CIA base that no one knew existed, it is the reason they made the movie. Our house, my home, a secret CIA base, and other intelligence agencies as well, most likely, and Libya was not the only country our house was used for. Don’t let this happen, again, United States.

I have written more than once that these women should be removed from the process, I have written their names, repeatedly, I am done warning you about them, if you do not remove, I will not be held responsible for anything that happens to them, or because of them. Remove these – women.

They had me look at this man’s crotch area, and then they wanted to connect it to a real man involved in the killing of the Ambassador, you fucking idiots. I am appalled for him. I would never talk to him or treat him in such a way. I don’t have to. I actually know how to talk, differently, to each person, how they need to be talked to.

This man is upset about now being able to spend time with me, outside. He is not the only man upset at the loss of time, and intelligence – lost because of the weight gain you placed in my nose and food. This weight gain is nothing more than subverting the efforts to gather intelligence. I’ll write slower, so you can catch up, so you don’t miss it, any weight gain in any product or air is subverting the efforts of our United States intelligence community to gather information. Congratulations, you stupid fucks.

Let me write it again because no one seems to be getting the point, the United States intelligence and its allies, and our military have been using my outside time as a way to communicate and gather intel, and you’ve allowed women, LGBT persons to subvert those efforts. That means, you have not been PROTECTING them by doing so.

Englishman, this other FBI man is much better at this work, he is a better listener, and it is important to note, that my former neighbor’s have been plotting, not just against him, just because he is seen as sort of in love with me, and YOU HAVE ALL FAILED AT REALIZING THE POWER AND STRENGTH – OF LOVE!

You all still see me, only superficially.

Yes, my boyfriend, the real Hannibal Lecter is seen in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, as the Jordanian mole that could be persuaded to serve his country. Someone must have thought he was important. The mole is not the real Hannibal Lecter, the mole is how they tried to talk to me about the real Hannibal Lecter whilst I was in my personal doctor’s office. Friend to all and tiny mole, from the movie, UP, mole means, Wind in The Willows. There is more code in the movie, and I am not interested in writing about it. I got it. Who cares anymore?

I think you people are on another planet of reality, and not understanding what is actually occurring and going on. It is why I am writing this, specially, to the other FBI man, and the Englishman.

No, David it really hurts my feelings anymore. I don’t want you here. I don’t invite you here. I don’t want to spend time with you anymore, I wanted my boyfriend. I am not the same woman I was in college who is going to be your Catherine. That woman died a long time ago.

I should never have sold my home, and given up caring for my mother, I did it to get married, date and have a real life, and you have all denied that of me, going on seven years now. Please don’t return to me, David. Find love and live your life, and don’t return to me. I can’t keep living through it over and over, watching David with other women, it doesn’t have the same effect anymore. It is no longer passion, if anyone thought that is what it once was.

I really don’t appreciate the competition after I’ve already chosen a man. I don’t appreciate this FBI man lying to the real Hannibal Lecter, telling him I was more attractive than I actually am. More hurt.

The Bourne Legacy: the reporter in London shot in the forehead, was not real, this is my admirer in New Zealand who followed me. I bought a bag, I used in college, as a book bag, and I wore it crossed over my chest because the strap was so – long. I liked that bag, very much.

Alaska, the special training site, has anyone figure out what this means? This used to be a fact, Alaska has a 10 to 1 ratio of men to women. Well, I guess I like those odds because have been desiring nothing but male company and companionship for years and years, and decades now. I spoke about this, Alaska, for as long as I can remember.

It is probably the reason John McCain chose Sarah Palin to be his Vice-Presidential choice. Well, they got it partly correct. It should have been a man, a male, if they had used a male VP choice as his running mate, he probably would have won, he would have at least, made it to the general elections. My mother always like John McCain.

The reporter, Simon Ross, is probably special counsel, or a special advisor to the real White House, to the President.

I am Ezra, in The Bourne Legacy, the Director of the Central Intelligence, and I have been acting the part for some time, although, I am not acting. Ezra is actually code in symbols, the letter, U, and a symbol that says, opening. Really, the opening looks like a job, employment, and nothing more. I am not explaining how I get my answers anymore.

So, me acting the part of the Director of the CIA, by not actually acting, was me, actually drinking at whatever time of day I wanted to, while not working, and so on. Who was allowed to take this away from me?

No, it looks like the real Hannibal Lecter does not want to read people for the CIA, I guess that’s what really happened at work.

Well, maybe I should be talking to Ric Byer, this is just my admirer who followed me, and yeah, I do a much better job at talking to these men then I’ve seen anyone else do.

Enough trouble, from that scene is an opposite, meaning something good happened because David, David’s face and head said, Australia, when I got back to college, and at the time David appeared to be happy to see me, not that kind of happy to see me.

Does everyone yet understand the difference between David, David’s legs, and this FBI man? David is seen in the movie, The Peacemaker as working for me, meaning he was able to take orders from me, a woman. Then, why would anyone want to make this FBI man appear weaker by being a woman/man who was giving me orders? Am I the only one able to see the harm it would do not only him, but our intelligence communities, as well?

There is more code and decrypting I could do; I am really not interested anymore. People keep hurting me and my feeling, so I just don’t care anymore.

The ice machine and water in my fridge has been broken because of the General in 12 Strong preferring the vodka, it is a death threat to me, and you allowed it to be created within the company, it is not external, it is from within.

They hired me, to work for the Obama campaign, specifically because of what happened after my surgery in Libya. They needed to make a quick connection to the White House, and it looks like not much real communication was getting to the correct people, since I didn’t get paid for any work I did on the campaign until, January 2013. When was my car accident? January 2013.

There is a reason the movie is titled, 13 Hours, it has to do with my mother’s American Express card while we were on a cruise, on vacation, in the US Virgin Islands, and I don’t want to write anymore about it because my feelings are hurt.

Some wives cry, I clean, from the movie 12 Strong is referring to the movie, Pulp Fiction. I do not yet know why; however, this looks really true, I am seen as the Cleaner in the movie, Pulp Fiction, and it might have happened when I was in California, and no, I do not believe I was used as a Cleaner, for gangsters. It is probably why it is a character in the John Wick movies.

The real Papa is seen as Brad Pitt being released from the prison, by me.

Sherlock episode of Scandal:

Catch you later, code: cul, cul-de-sac.

No, you won’t, code: No, woo.

DEEP END, of the pool, code: Dead.

When I ordered a phone when I was caring for my mother, I ordered a phone cover that was red, just for something different, and I used to receive text messages from a, Cody, who said he knew the person who had the number before. Cody, code: code, why, why, code, it’s an either, or.

Too many hurt feelings, I don’t feel or want to write anymore.

September 28, 2019: READ: WARNING: Congratulations United States of America

September 28, 2019

Congratulations Untied States of America, you have disappointed me, yet again!

THE TRUTH IS YOU, THAT IS TO SAY OUR UNITED STATES INTELLIGENCE, GOVERNMENT, AND ITS ALLIES ARE ALLOWING OUR ENEMIES TO APPEAR BETTER AND GREATER THAN OUR OWN AND I AM SO GODDAMN PISSSED ABOUT IT, IT IS INTOLERABLE!

THE TRUTH IS, THE UNITED STATES HAS FAILED TO PROTECT ME SINCE I WAS A TEENAGER, AND YOU BETTER FUCKING CORRECT THIS – REAL FUCKING QUICK!

STOP LETTING OUR ENEMIES APPEAR BEFORE THE WORLD’S EYE, AS MY FUCKING PROTECTORS BECAUSE THEY ARE WILLING TO KILL PEOPLE TO PROVE A FUCKING POINT! YOU GODDAMN MORONS! DO YOU GET IT? THEY ARE WILLING TO KILL PEOPLE – JUST TO MAKE A POINT!

GOD-FUCKING-DAMMINT! STOP LETTING THEM WIN!

I ACTUALLY BELIEVE IN THIS COUNTRY! DO YOU?! DO ANY OF YOU?! OR ARE ALL OF YOU ONLY CONCERNED WITH YOUR OWN AGENDAS AND GODDAMN SCRIPTS?!

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY!

EVERYONE BETTER GET ONBOARD, REAL FUCKING QUICK, AS BEING MY PROTECTORS, THAT MEANS THE WHITE HOUSE AND ITS GOVERNMENT, AGENCIES, AND MILITARY, AND ITS ALLIES, AS BEING SEEN AND WORKING AS MY FUCKING PROTECTORS, SO WE CAN SHUT THESE MOTHER-FUCKERS UP!

The rest of my writing, and what I have, you will just have to wait for. You fucking morons!

Are you actually going to be seen as NOT protecting the White House, and its government – through me?! Congratulations, United States of America, you have disappointed me, yet again.

September 25, 2019: READ: I Don’t Feel Good

September 25, 2019

To begin with, I am not a computer program, or a Google search that you can simply place a query either audibly or inaudibly and always get an immediate response or answer. If you think about my memories, the actual intel I have in my brain, and the ability to decode I have, that’s a lot of information and data to go through, just to access an answer, not to mention, going back through everything and correcting the misinformation, so if it takes a while, if it takes a few days, if it has taken months, or years, or decades, well, I am only one person, I am not a machine, I am not a program, and I would appreciate being looked at, considered, thought about, viewed, and acknowledged, the fact that I am a real person with real feelings, with real emotions, and not your fucking parlor trick used to entertain people. There is a difference.

Did anyone understand the difference when I wrote yesterday, how it appears in his mind that he considers it a vacation or a holiday, WHAT THAT ACTUALLY MEANS ABOUT WHAT HE IS THINKING ABOUT?! ANYONE?! DID ANYONE THINK BEYOND WHAT I WROTE? Well, I guess if you’re on holiday, you’re not thinking about blowing people up, or attacking people, are you?

Are you? You are? This is an either, or, an either way.

My head is a little full with realizing, before I get to LOST (which, by the way, LOST says, Land Of The Lost, I remember watching this television show in our living room in our home in Simi Valley, California, on one of those great big television sets, that had its own feet, it was so big), realizing, discovering, that the movie, Crazy, Stupid, Love, is also – it is so embarrassing, the amount of attention – about me. How embarrassing. Embarrassing also because nearly every female character without going through the whole movie and looking at it, is me.

This other FBI man, (did he, or did he not stop his criminal activity after he appeared before me at my psychology class? Because readers, do it in person, meaning, readers read people in person, this is also code) is seen as Cal, probably code for California, wanting to be married to his wife, me, a woman he has known nearly all of his life, and he didn’t have to sleep with numerous woman to realize he wanted to be with just one woman the rest of his life.

The hot guy from the bar, is a lot, and looks a lot like David, with, if you look at it, Emma Stone’s character being able to convert the hot guy from the bar who sleeps around to, a committed man to the one woman he loves. David and I did spend one night, just talking, and drinking, mostly talking, all night when we were in college. It is interesting that Alisha didn’t leave us alone, David and I, as it was obvious, we liked each other.

How many times have I saved David’s life? College kids having breakfast together, someone asked if I wanted to sit next to David. No one noticed how fast I responded? No. I said, no, so quick, it probably hurt David’s feelings at the time. Look to your right David, that morning, to my left, sitting at a booth in front of the windows, there is at least two men, and they have a connection to the movie, Munich, and that is why I sat next to Stuart, and literally thought about David’s crotch during the meal. I would say that is probably too much information; however, there is just too much of me, in too many movies, and television, to be worried about not giving all the details, anymore.

I’m sorry if it hurt your feelings David. I am also sure; you are quite over it by now. I was willing to risk hurting your feelings, to save your life. Got it?

Yeah, I did write for David to visualize the restaurant because he is able to do that in his head, or someone wouldn’t have placed him as me in the Scandal episode of Sherlock, to show people, it looks like, that David was being, under-utilized.

Is it written in the books, is it just in the movie, is Charlie’s character in Twilight written as a moustache wearing man? Because this is a real photograph of my father and brother in our Plant City home, and my father has a moustache (gross, I really dislike facial hair) with Barney, our perfect English gentleman cat in his lap.

Yes, I did mind that they created a fake marriage between my brother and Roy. Did anyone notice my brother, wince, when Roy went to kiss him, at their “wedding”. Winced, as in, grossed out, and, don’t touch me. And Roy and my brother have never been affectionate to each other. Why is that? It doesn’t make sense.

Roy just looks a lot like, Bubba Gump in Forest Gump, if you want to know who the real Bubba Gump is, you’ll have to ask my father. This would have been a man my father knew, or worked with when we lived in Simi Valley, he is most likely, a man I shouldn’t be able to remember because I was probably somewhere between a few months old to less than four years old.

I just wouldn’t have approved of him to be in my military, probably that is because of his work ethic. It is his work ethic that is physically demonstrated in the character, Bubba Gump. It’s a physicalization of his military mind, and work ethic. It is probably why Bubba Gump dies in the movie. How many toddlers do you know that can hump a man back to safety after being wounded in battle?

In real life, there was and is probably, nothing wrong with him as a person, so be careful you understand the difference. If you have a child that is so extraordinary that she can not only interpret Morse code, after NEVER having been formally taught Morse code, see the threat, and then again, interpret the falseness of the threat, and then JFC, figure out to Morse code by blinking – just take a second, think about that, by blinking, that quickly, I figured out how to covertly respond and reply the correct message, and I wasn’t yet old enough to be in elementary school. So, yeah, I WILL DEMAND AND EXPECT MORE THAN THE BEST – TO BE IN MY MILITARY.

And since when do any of you get to re-write the real truth of MY life? The bee that stung me while I was sitting on a horse, a bee that went straight for my head, that was obviously, NOT a real bee, being about the birds and the bees, my sex education talk with an intelligence father, and my real father did get the bee out of my hair, who the fuck gets to turn THAT honey, into – GAYNESS?! YOU PEOPLE ARE DUMB!

If you want me to do a read of Roy, nothing about him looks factually correct. I didn’t just sit around my house eating a whole container of cookies to gain weight, like Roy. I really don’t appreciate you using the real Hannibal Lecter to enter – illegally – this home, contaminating and tampering with my soaps to pack on all these lbs, pounds and excess weight.

You’ve used the real Hannibal Lecter negatively, so I will so upset and angry at him, I will break up with him. And, what straight man do I get to love then? Because none of you are any good. I am so humiliated at my present weight. I am really, really unhappy about every straight man, I love, being turned against me.

If you build it, they will come, is this in the original script for Field of Dreams? If you build it, they will come, code: If you build it, they, count all the letters and the comma, 17, I was seventeen when I was in Germany, will come, means, will call, like when you order theater tickets and have them placed at will call instead of mailed or any other delivery service, will call says, at the location. Without watching the whole movie to read it, it doesn’t look specific, meaning, it could be used, will call could be used at or for numerous locations, and functions.

Green Eggs and Ham, green is code: re-gen, meaning it is referring to being able to regenerate organs. Ham means, Hamburg, Germany, meaning it was believed the Nazi’s were working on the Jews with things like brain research, Sam is code for Sunday, Sunday being the day of the week, Christians and Christian believers go to church, I Am, Sam I Am, I Am means, Christ, Sam I am says, Christ is risen.

The story going around and around about I do not like Green Eggs and Ham, is very difficult, especially for a child and children, to be able to see the difference between the green eggs and ham because you are, people are supposed to denounce, rebuke, and refuse all other gods and idols, other than the real and only Christian God, and His son, Jesus Christ. That’s really rather difficult and complex and full, for children’s reading. Yet, so is the Bible, and children read that also.

LOST, one of my mother’s favorite shows. The pilot episode was the best episode, in my opinion. I believe I have already written this; I am Jack and Kate in LOST. Jack says, Jack and Diane the song, it also says Simple Jack from Tropic Thunder, so somehow there is a person/personal connection between the productions of LOST and Tropic Thunder. Kate is code for tea, and the King James version of the bible, the King James version of my biblical name, Cherith.

Two pieces of publicity stick out in my mind, the turkey sandwich that Hurley brought Jack on set says, the sandwich shop Lenny’s that I’ve had lunch at when I worked at Disney. And, is this true, is this a true story about Evangeline Lily? Was she going to be a missionary? A model? I am a little suspicious.

The island is just another way to describe or show, a mind palace, the airplane crash is probably for me to realize 9/11 was about me. Jack immediately is the character seen as the only person capable and able to control, manage, delegate, and solve the island and the plane crash.

Here is the first thing I saw, when I re-watched it: Do you know him? This dialogue is unusual, it is a tell. Do you know him? The audience (should) then question why and how about Kate, does she want him to live or die because that is what Jack understood.

The tail of the plane is the tail at LAX who was following one of the intelligence persons, not me, one of the intelligence person who were following me, and I wouldn’t have looked back, I wouldn’t have given them that, it would be like giving someone an edge over you.

My mother, loved, loved, loved, loved, really loved the character John Locke. Sort of like, he is such a man, loved him. It does look like someone wanted to make an association between my Babee Bear and John Locke with the cut over his eye. My mother loved John Locke’s character, like a little goofy over John Locke’s character. There is a bit of an Englishman in John Locke’s character.

Rose is my mother. How did they get this specific costume clothing choice for Rose? That color and knit sweater, sort of cardigan, I’ve actually owned and worn, in real life. I bought with my mother when we went shopping at the then, Eastlake mall, it is no longer a consumer mall, it is now a business complex. It was an outfit with a tank, an unbuttoned or open cardigan/jacket, and a skirt that was just a little longer than a mini-skirt, I purchased these items in at least, two colors. Mini-skirt-ish would say to people, Germany. The work I did in Germany.

I’ve also, worked, for a month or so, at Eastlake mall, that, at the time, I was working an FAQ line for AOL accounts. Email didn’t use to be free. It used to be a service. Now, get this, on my first day at this company, I wore a cotton skirt, a tank top, and a cardigan type to cover my arms, and also because in hot weather like Florida, when you go in and out of air-conditioning being able to have something light like a cardigan to take on and off, is actually valuable. And, Merrell thong-type sandals. A man commented on my outfit on my first day and shoes, it is the only reason I still remember what I wore because I did not like that job.

It means because he commented on my clothing, someone was caught either that day or near-abouts because of me. This also happened when I was at Blizzard Beach, one of Disney’s water parks, an employee working at a shack-type stand, commented on my bathing suit, like, I like your bathing suit, he was referring to my bum, it means they actually caught someone on Disney property that day because they were following me, this is pre-surgery, 2012.

So, I am guessing, someone didn’t do a very good job at managing me there, at the AOL facility. I would ask someone a question, like a manager, where is my manager’s desk? And, the answer I got in response, was basically for me to walk the entire building and figure it out myself. So, what the fuck were you people doing?

My manager happened to be a black man, an African American, and he didn’t instill a lot of confidence in me, meaning, it looked like no one there knew what the fuck they, or I, was doing there. I also, didn’t like the shift I was on, that ended at 1am. The drive home for me, at that time of night, in that part of po-dunk, hill-billy-ville town, I did not trust.

Now, Zero Dark Thirty, Dark is code for: ark, meaning Noah’s ark, and the arc of the covenant in Raider’s of The Lost Ark, and Covenant is the name of a church I’ve attended, and they met on Sunday’s at The Women’s Center in Plant City. Noah’s ark is significant because there actually was a Noah that worked with me in that AOL facility, he had reddish-brown hair, and he was married, and it was a little surprising because he was so young to be married, and this Noah, get this, wanted to be a person who did movie scores for films.

I had no confidence in that job or place, I went to work for another call-center, and that was so bad I called my mother nearly every break, not a good sign, I tried to only call her only at lunch, and I just couldn’t do it, I called every break, not a good sign. So, I have no idea what the fuck you people did there either.

It looks like what you’ve people have done is used me for intelligence whenever I wasn’t working. Meaning when I was employed, the only opportunities our own intelligence had to utilize me was, when I was not on a call, but clocked in. You got to be kidding me. Our own intelligence couldn’t get APPROVAL to use me unofficially within employers – otherwise?

Do you get it? That’s the billions of dollars being spent. Billions, some of it, just because you could only use me if it was AFTER I ALREADY DID MY PAYING WORK. It is about the equivalent in thought and thinking, after you’ve finished all your chores, and your homework, then you can watch television. Do you get it? Do you see it? THAT IS HOW OUR OWN INTELLIGENCE HAS BEEN USING ME TO CAPTURE, NOT ONLY KNOWN TERRORISTS, BUT TO CREATE MILITARY PLANS!

It’s very disturbing because it is and makes our intelligence look, pathetic.

Oh please, oh please, oh please, be my prisoner from the movie, UP is a read about how prisoners and detainee’s can be won over by me because of my person. And, Russell saying we can’t let Dug take Kevin as a prisoner is just to show, I shouldn’t be living my life, capturing terrorists and criminals at the exclusion of not having a real life, getting married, having a boyfriend, and so on.

The terrible noise, mist, and vapor on the island of LOST is brain research. The pilot getting killed, going through the windshield of the plane happens because I was not supposed to leave California, or return to Michael. Now, I don’t want to be in California.

I don’t know who this person is that wakes me up all night long, and I really did not appreciate the sex dreams someone placed in my head last night, especially since none of those women, were me. Gross.

I never wanted to act or be involved in theater after 9/11. It just wasn’t the same anymore, probably because I just couldn’t pretend anymore.

Is there anyone able to stop David from driving around my house, being in my home, and most importantly, lying to me? No one had noticed all he does is hurt my feelings? He is never with me; he is also with other women. No wonder, I’m hurt and sad, every time I see him.

No, I really want nothing to do with Benedict Cumberbatch, in real life. I really don’t appreciate being used in this way. My heart’s been broken; again, therefore, my mind is of no use, anymore.

September 24, 2019: READ: Short-Waisted

September 24, 2019

Here is some more misinformation that you can stop believing in, since it seems I am the only one who truly has the correct answers, either that, or everyone else has been happy to purposefully get it wrong, just so they can keep repeating it over and over and over again.

The belt, wearing a belt, my belt(s), whatever color they are, my belts, why Maya in Zero Dark Thirty is wearing a snug-fitting shirt, not tucked into her pants or slacks, anyone? Want to guess? Or would you like to know the truth and the real answer? It is so unimpressively, uninteresting, I cannot believe anyone has made such a big deal, about a stupid belt. Guess what? Cherith in real life, is not tall, no one would consider me a tall woman, I am short, and specifically, I am – short-waisted.

A belt, everyone has been making such a deal about a belt, Cherith is short-waisted, meaning from the top of my shoulders to my bustline, to my waist, to my the tops of my hips – because this is how they think and consider it in fashion terms, language, and speak (I am being very specific and careful because you have an interpreter nearby and I don’t always trust interpreters, I really, actually prefer – not to upset and anger people with misinformation, and yes you all should be worried he doesn’t escape; however, let me finish writing and you’ll see why I am not buying cigarettes at present), is very short.

I am not worried about him. He considers this a holiday, or a vacation. Does he have information? Or are you only interested to see how I react to him? At what age do any of you think I was working with these men?

Did he just chuckle? A little laugh?

It is also mentioned, again, in Sherlock, I thought you were taller. Cherith is short-waisted, so guess what she does to improve her appearance, she doesn’t tuck her shirts into her pants, so it gives the appearance of looking taller. It is just a detail that has been noticed. And I really did not like to wear, when I was fat and heavy, ill, or improperly sized clothes and clothing. As a woman, an American woman working and living in the United States, all my clothes and clothing say, appropriate and fashionably sensible.

What does he want to give you now? Information?

Be careful no one misreads this information from Sherlock also, for protection, Irene Adler using photographs on her phone for – protection, code: pro, tech, ion, meaning, there were people within intelligence communities that were aware, knew, and understood that not everyone could access Cherith, Cherith’s brain and mind; however, when the correct person did access Cherith, she handled herself like a pro, a pro meaning better than the average appearance, and better than most people knew or could understand from her every-day appearance.

Did the real Hannibal Lecter yesterday happen to look at a photograph of a man while I was writing and typing and because the real Hannibal Lecter was looking at this man, I wrote the paragraph about man not being able to serve two Masters? Is this true? Because the boat is not supposed to blow up in real life from the movie, The Legend of 1900. That’s me as Max, as 1900’s friend in the movie, in real life, being able to befriend him and bring him to who he really is, his true person, that is not a monster, or murderer.

Before I continue writing, it would have been really nice if I had not lost a week, and weeks because of weight-gain and the A/C having to be worked on that has cooked my brain causing me to recover, yet again, from someone else’s incompetence. I am also not interested in showing false support by driving around in my vehicle at this present weight, so don’t look for me any time soon. Again, I am not interested in showing false support by being seen at this grotesque weight.

It has been used this way previously, any cigarette purchase has been connected to a number of my weight, and well, I do not want to be anyone else’s number other than my own. I do not like being fat. I do not enjoy being heavy and fat. I do not want to weigh this number that is soooooo high and getting higher. The reasons you let my weight get sooooo out-of-control is completely irrational.

Do you believe this story, that’s the concrete data point, I’m looking for, I’m cool with it, bro’ (either with or without the bro’ because it looks like my copy of Zero Dark Thirty has been edited with the word bro being removed), these lines of dialogue, and I understand, by locating the courier, we’ve located Bin Laden. Would anyone like to know what this really means and how this actually happened? It was, again, in the mind, of one man, one trusted man, and I, I am the only person that responded. Not just the only woman, I am the only person that responded.

It is almost too unbelievable to be true. Here is what this looks like: I am going to do my best to write this, so everyone will be able to visualize it the way I see it in my mind, it looks like there was a trusted butler-type of man, a man capable of thinking and not just a butler, in an important household of some lineage, and it does look English, an English household and an Englishman, who was trusted with literally just thinking at the time when a broadcast was going to be on live, on live television, in my time zone. An Englishman thought, I do not believe he thought a name, or something as non-specific as terrorist, he thought something like Al Qaeda, he had several photographs, no names to the photographs, and one of them was me, most likely the last photograph of me at Disney as a brunette, this man thought, and I made my purchase of a coffeepot set from Ireland, during St. Patrick’s day, most likely, 2011 from a television network that sells merchandise, and it looks like I am the only person, who responded, it is difficult to believe; however, it looks like, I am the only one, the only person who understood the information and responded and gave them the information – with a purchase.

You don’t mind if my female colleague checks out your junk, from Zero Dark Thirty, do not get this wrong, this is NOT about looking at a detainee’s penis, or crotch, this is about our garage in our Plant City home, of females and women, and neighbor’s spying on my father through the garage window while he changed his clothes to work outside. Also, it is a sight line because of the A/C unit attached to the garage that my father used, the garage was mostly used by my father, he watched television in there, from the garage window, out the other side of the garage, follow that line to a neighbor that used to live there a few or several streets and houses away, and this is a colleague working against their own agency person’s to achieve career superiority over a man. And, yeah, I do mind, and yeah, it has not yet been dealt with. Anyone want to fix this?

Also, in Sherlock, referring to Sherlock’s apartment as a toxic dump, and so on, in our Plant City home, the litter box was in the garage. Also, my father had boxes and boxes of paperwork of nothing, boxes from the floor to nearly the ceiling of – junk. I couldn’t stand it, I am very fastidious, I do not like, nor appreciate being surrounded by uselessness, especially if it serves no purpose for any logical reason, and it is also a read of how I feel about my father is actually treated at his employment, meaning I do not believe my father is treated very well. They’ve taken advantage of his financial situation and treated him appallingly, at times. I am not actually certain if they have purposefully given my father food that was expired and had bugs in it, on purpose, or not. If you have never been poor in your life, then it is possible, you have no understanding of what it means, to not know where your next meal is going to come from.

Be careful everyone understands this, I am not Casey’s friend. We haven’t been friends. Friending a person on Facebook is not the same, as being a real friend. I am not her friend. Not now nor have I ever approved of her. Know the difference. Doesn’t Casey have a drug problem? Did she use my brother? No, I do not approve. We are not friends. Just another person using a straight man to get to me because they cannot do the work without them because they cannot do the work.

Are you stupid? Same-sex coupes cannot have children unless they adopt them. Is there actually someone who believed that was the real purpose behind adopting Teddy from the movie, The Rescuers, meant?!

Everyone be certain you understand, I want nothing to do with Meghan and Harry. Nothing. Either separately, or together, I want nothing to do with them. Nothing. These two alone have taken real love I’ve had for real straight men and shattered it. I want nothing from this. I am more than hurt.

I am so disgusted by my own country at this moment, I have to stop writing.

Not Working: Day 3

September 23, 2019: READ: WARNING: This Is The White House, Not The Fat House!

September 23, 2019

Everyone do the world, a favor, stop decoding the movies, and, wow, at this point, your own intelligence. I can’t believe it; I literally cannot believe all the decades of misinformation you’ve allowed yourselves to believe all these years.

You are all dumb fucks! Right Bed, Wrong Husband and an actor by the stage name of David Baker as a very overweight, nearly three hundred pound man that probably never had to worry about NOT being cast in the production, who’s this fucking asshole that thought and interpreted the UK, Baker street, Downing street, the goddamn, fucking English, as fucking OVERWEIGHT AS CORRECT?! YOU STUPID FUCKING ASSHOLES! YOU STUPID FUCKING MORONS! THAT’S A GODDAMN, FUCKING TERRORIST – I FUCKING CAUGHT AND CAPTURED AND DEALT WITH AS A FUCKING TEENAGER IN GODDAMN FUCKING GERMANY! YOU STUPID FUCKS!

GET THIS FUCKING SHIT STRAIGHT AND FUCKING CORRECT – IMMEDIATELY! YOU STUPID FUCKS!

YOU FUCKING MORONS ARE PLACING GODDAMN FUCKING DEATH THREATS ON FUCKING PEOPLE – BY MY GODDMAN WEIGHT ALONE – AND YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW IT!

It has certainly been the truth since I visited my family’s new home in Plant City, Florida before I moved there. I had gained close to, if not more, in a – week, a fucking week, ten pounds. Was this in soap, alone?!

Let’s get this corrected, before you have more dumb, fucking, morons going out there and wanting to fucking KILL people because YOU DON’T FUCKING KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE DOING!

This scene, in Charlotte Grey, of the brunette woman, after the dialogue of, you’re not from around here, of her turning to her left over her shoulder, and looking to the camera that is supposed to be the actress’ point of view, and the brunette actress’ tears and reaction, are pretty close to the real of the real brunette woman I’ve seen, who would REALLY be in a lot of trouble if and when it was DISCOVERED what she had done. She is also, Lot’s wife, not me, in Silence of The Lambs. SHE, not, I would be the one to be in trouble, it makes it look as though people suspected her for being the woman responsible for getting me off the phones, when the 9/11 attacks occurred.

Let’s make sure everyone understands, in film, in cinema, Lot’s wife is code for, double agent, working against the United States and its allies. Got it?!

Every single person, including the real Hannibal Lecter, need to GET YOUR FUCKING ASSES INTO A GODDAMN INTERROGATION ROOM, TO THE FUCKING POLICE STATIONS, TO THE GODDAMN, FUCKING FBI, AND CONFESS AND ADMIT TO – EVERY, AND I MEAN EVERY OCCURANCE OF ENTERING MY HOMES AND ALTERING EVERY SINGLE PRODUCT YOU HAVE, IN ANY WAY! THESE CONFESSIONS WILL BE SAVING YOUR GODDAMN – LIVES! REAL FUCKING SERIOUS!

YOU FUCKING MORONS DO NOT UNDERSTAND THEM – THE WAY, I DO, AND KNOW HOW TO UNDERSTAND THEM! YOUR FUCKING WAY HAS BEEN WORKING SO FUCKING GOOD, YOU’VE GOTTEN THE WORLD TRADE CENTER BLOWN UP AND HOW MANY PEOPLES LIVES HAVE BEEN LOST?! I WILL NOT BE FUCKING APOLOGIZING FOR FUCKING SWEARING MY GODDAMN FUCKING HEAD OFF WHEN I KNOW A BETTER WAY!

I LITERALLY CANNOT STAND THIS DUMB STUPID NOTION, OF ANY POLITICAL FIGURES AND WORLD LEADERS BEING SEEN AND CONNECTED TO DIAPER WEARING – OR ANY FUCKING MORONS, I DO NOT APRROVE OF!

HEY, GUESS WHAT? TAKE A FUCKING BREAK! STOP WORKING SO GODDAMN HARD! I FUCKING GOT IT NOW! SO, WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE DOING BEFORE – KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF! I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK, I‘M DOING!

FOR INSTANCE, stop working the real Hannibal Lecter, as a monster. A Monster. Just because it is in the movie, Silence Of The Lambs, in dialogue, he is a monster. Do you know who this really is?! The real monster that is spoken about in dialogue, FBI, it is not the real Hannibal Lecter, it is Charles Manson, and Charles Manson is seen as Aaron/Roy in the movie, Primal Fear.

Charles Manson really is not that smart. Any person who wants to follow after that idiot, you’re stupid! Why this moron decided to “create” this Charles Manson persona, is not very interesting.

The fact that Edward Norton, an actor, I like, and believe is a very good actor, did not act very well (my opinion), in that movie, is very telling. It means there are problems, or were in that movie, and Edward Norton’s conscience did not allow him to give (unless he was otherwise directed) a more credible, or believable performance.

The Legend of 1900 is supposed to be about the real Hannibal Lecter. Tim Roth and the playing love scene, are significant, Tim Roth being an actor who, previous to the Legend of 1900, if Tim Roth was going to be in a movie, you knew there would be dead bodies, near him because of him, or somehow dead bodies would appear in the film. Tim Roth was not usually cast as a romantic lead.

The piano playing is just a metaphor, or visual, for brain-thinking, and mental ability. The scene with 1900 and Jelly-Roll Morton (pay not attention to the word Jelly-Roll, it is not code for anything) is to show that the real Hannibal Lecter has such a great mind, and not many, if any people can out-think him in real life. The boat is just a reference as prison, meaning the real Hannibal Lecter is never getting out of prison.

Why David played “Cruz” at The Container Store, I have no idea. Why a woman dressed up as David as “Cruz” at The Container Store, I have no idea. Neither of them are in any way a proxy to the real Hannibal Lecter. None of them have the thinking ability the real Hannibal Lecter has.

Why they FUCK HAVE YOU GODDAMN MORONS BEEN WORKING HIM, THEY WAY YOU HAVE?! HE IS A PUSSYCAT FOR ME, AND HE IS NOT THE ONLY ONE! SO, IF YOU CAN’T DO IT! IF YOU CAN’T TURN MEN LIKE THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER INTO PUSSYCATS – GET OUT OF MY GODDAMN WAY! BECAUSE I FUCKING CAN! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY GODDAMN WAY BECAUSE I FUCKING CAN!

If David and/or Brianna in any way did things like putting weight-gainer in my personal soap or grooming products it means he was trying to humiliate me, for him, David, having feelings for me. David being a man unable to deal with his own feelings, one reason he has a Wilt Chamberlain complex. Wilt Chamberlain complex meaning, one woman will never be enough to sexually satisfy him, David. No wonder I don’t have romantic feelings for David anymore.

None of you have understood that it is simply not possible to place a man in front of me and tell me, in any way, they, the man has feelings for me, or loves me. As if then, I am supposed to have feelings for the man because the man has feelings for me. Who is this person that has no understanding of real love?

If David, was so stupid as to place weight-gainer in anything, at all, it is no wonder he has had death threats placed on him. He did it to himself. And anyone, like Brianna who might have helped him, helped in placing death threats on David. Not me. I have been saving your lives.

Laughing at me, laughing at me because I am so fat and huge, is extremely hurtful to me, still. From every person that I see it from, I am still hurt. No one has asked for forgiveness in the harm they have caused me. Including, the real Hannibal Lecter. Being sorry and asking for forgiveness are not the same thing. I wrote, I would have, would have approved, I didn’t say or write, I had already given my approval. I had to see and work with the real Hannibal Lecter for me to give approval.

Because you have blown up my body size and weight these last few weeks, I am beyond in my pain and hurt, and emotional distress.

Man, cannot serve two Masters. In case anyone fails to understand that, it also means women, cannot serve two Masters. Whom do you choose? God? Revenge? Hate? Cruelty? Anger? Crimes? Retaliation? Murder? Suicide? Apathy? Ignorance? Whom do you choose? Who do you love?

I need four safe houses, this scene from the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, is not just referencing my real father, it says, I’ve done this before, as a wee, little girl, I’ve saved grown men as a child before, so, have a little faith. Cherith knows what she is doing.

If the real Hannibal Lecter is nothing more than a monster to you, then you are doing it wrong and not looking at him the way I have and would, so why is that?

Is this man, after the California restaurant, did he actually send me back to Florida, on purpose? One thing it says is that he is afraid, or was, of being a better man.

Bella yelling at Jacob for imprinting on her daughter in Twilight, is, my mother, my mother didn’t like David. Obvious now, why my mother didn’t like David, she might have liked him had he gotten to know her, and he never did that. And now, he can’t, anymore.

If the only reason you placed David at Home Depot and said, so not a leader with him in black paint, and then recreated the scene at my current home with renovating the balcony and creating a light that will no longer turn on and off, unless it is fixed or repaired, just says there was a death threat, most likely, when I lived in Plant City and my mother had a handyman place a bolt, on the sliding glass doors of our home before we had a pool and sunroom. He drilled a hole and placed a pin bolt, on a chain that could be placed from the inside of the house through the two doors, so the sliding glass doors could not open more than a few inches.

Have you been wicked, your highness, from Sherlock, code: HUB, this is the computer program Disney employees used when I worked there, for information and news, Have, You, Been: HUB. Wicked, is for George W. Bush, I voted for Al Gore’s ticket. Your Highness, this is just to show I was helping BOTH HOUSES, BOTH THE US AND THE UK. BECAUSE IRENE ADLER AND THE RED-HEADED WOMAN ARE THE SAME WOMAN – ME!

She prefers, Dominatrix, code: She prefers. Period, all-stop. That is the end of the sentence. She prefers, and you are then supposed to place the correct she in that sentence. If you thought Dominatrix is code for the actor Dom De Luise, well, follow that if you want to, it will get you – nowhere.

I am so grossly upset angry about my weight and it not being what it was, 109, for so many years. Angry. Mad. How dare you treat me this way. Mad. I’ve done nothing to deserve this.

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