July 28, 2019: READ: WARNING: BIG FUCKING PROBLEM!

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July 28, 2019

You realize of course, that the only thing that makes sense about that crime scene that was presented in my psychology class with the guest speaker, is that it was the speaker, the FBI profiler, was actually the criminal.  I wouldn’t have been so upset otherwise.  There is nothing about that crime scene that reads true, authentic, or that the man I’ve seen should or would have done that crime.  The guest speaker, that FBI profiler does set off my alarms.  It would be the only reason I was so upset in that class with him speaking.  It would also be why I’ve loved that other FBI man, however much he has been set up and sabotaged.

Is this the man in the truck to my left that I did not signal for because I do not feel like working anymore because you have broken my heart?  That means this man would find me more exciting than the real Hannibal Lecter.  THAT’S A BIG FUCKING PROBLEM!

Oh MY GOD!  This man looks as though he has watched his own work his crime scenes!  Jesus Christ!

If this is in any way true, if this is the man who is responsible for the line of dialogue in the movie Gladiator, I would have butchered the whole world, if you would have loved me…

I am too fucking upset.

Bring this motherfucker to me at work, I’ll either burn him, or reveal him.

I want a goddamn day shift, so these motherfuckers don’t get the shit end of my brain!

I am on strike!  I weigh too much!  I am too unhappy!  I want a day shift!

July 27, 2019: READ: WARNING: I AM ON STRIKE!

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July 27, 2019

I am on strike.  Simple things like continuing to place weight gain and facial hair in my food products which at this point is only to mess with my head so I do not feel in my mind attractive to the male sex.  If you included Prince Harry’s wife in my last food order continuing to have me OVER a 120 lbs. it is so that I will not look and feel attractive to the male sex.  You did it just to hurt my mind, head, and brain.

What the fuck Harry’s wife has to be so afraid of I am not sure, he married her.  That’s his problem.  How these people get talked into marrying people they don’t love; I am not sure.  It’s too absurd to believe.

Do you really want to fire me?

Or, you just thought that some sexually confused woman who thinks she is a lesbian who really wants to be straightened out and break ties with the gay community to regain her own mind after her abuse who is so terrified of daylight, she is more important to have around?!

No, no one corrected the virtual punch she gave me at work.  David only did want he was told to do; I am sure given the circumstances now he would take it all back and do it all over again.  If Harry’s wife had anything to do with it, she doesn’t want me to be seen as more attractive than her.  So, what is she so afraid of?  He married her.  Why is she so afraid unless she has not been truthful?

The real Hannibal Lecter is too important.  If you failed to miss it, he is too important.  It would be why I would not have given the order to kill him.  I have given a lot of orders that would destroy people and places.  He is in too many movies, as well, so that also suggests he is too important.  Having him break up with me sent me into a nuclear melt-down.  You didn’t see that coming.  You didn’t see that could be a possibility.  So, if you thought any possible matches, I wrote about have a chance anymore, you are wrong.  They are so far gone from my heart and mind I might as well be drifting in outer space without a space suit.

If this is to be the rest of my life it would have been better for me to die taking care of my mother.  At least my life would have meant something to a person, if only to my mother.  She is Eliza Doolittle after all.  They actually wrote My Fair Lady about my mother.

I am relentless.  Relentless is my word for myself.  However, I am unwilling to continue placating, so if you want me to burn the heart out of a double agent – find yourself another Weapons of Mass Destruction, I am on the night shift, not the day shift.

You still don’t understand all of the code in these movies, the skin over Hannibal Lecter’s face in the ambulance in the movie Silence of the Lambs, reads: skincare.  It literally reads skincare as in a line of skincare, as in my mother and I both sold skincare.  The gutted guard is my mother’s gun shot wound and it is now implicated in the scheme of my hysterectomy.  And, the sex scene in When Harry Met Sally is about my abortion.  So, no.  I am most upset.  About my abortion, self-defense in advance from Sherlock, so how people knew my abortion was self-defense in advance because that is how it felt, I have no idea, and I am devastated as to all my losses.  And the one person who was actually working to help me, you took him away from me.  I am so hurt.

I didn’t know how to get away from my former boyfriend/fiancé without him or others coming after me and my family.  And, they knew me like any mother I would have placed myself in front of my child, I would not have tried giving my child to an eagle that is what the scene is about in the movie The Proposal with the dog.  It looks like my own government wanted to kill me because of LA of what happened specifically in the Mexican restaurant after Germany when I was 17.

The Weapons of Mass Destruction and you won’t let me have a day shift.  The United States government still looks dumb!

You look like you are going to need my help with Brexit; however, nothing in the news is of any help it all looks like gibberish.  And, I am not in the mood.  I am upset and heartbroken and drained from the night shift.

By the way, it means I am fluent in Russian.  I have no idea how that could be, but for that to be true it means I am fluent in Russian – as a baby.

I am on strike.  I weigh too much, I am not on the day shift.

July 26, 2019: READ: WARNING: MAINTAIN

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July 26, 2019

Don’t tell me…don’t tell me that the warden that is depicted in the movie The Silence of the Lambs HAS ACTUALLY BEEN USING BRAIN RESEARCH ON THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER TO MAINTAIN HIM AS A MONSTER AND A CRIMINAL JUST BECAUSE NO ONE HAS STOPPED HIM?!

I’LL BEAT THAT SON OF A BITCH WITHIN AN INCH OF HIS LIFE AND LEAVE HIM ON THE STREET FOR DEAD IF THIS IS TRUE!

IF THIS IS TRUE IT MEANS HE IS DOING IT TO OTHER PRISONERS!  IT MEANS OTHER PRISON GUARDS ARE DOING IT ALSO!

YOU NEED TO ARREST THIS MOTHERFUCKER!

THE PURPOSE OF PRISON IS TO REFORM, CORRECT, NOT TO RETAIN AND MAINTAIN – CRIMINAL ACTIVITY!

YOU NEED TO FUCKING HURRY!  A NUCLEAR ALARM JUST WENT OFF IN MY HEAD!  STOP THIS SHIT FROM HAPPENING BEFORE IT IS – AGAIN – TOO LATE!

The real Hannibal Lecter did not eat the flesh of his victims, he performed cunnilingus on them.  It literally was a message being sent to the FBI and other intelligence because cunnilingus is actually against the law in a lot of states.  Against the law.  That is all the code was meant to tell people.  It actually has nothing to do with sex.  It literally, actually is code for BRAIN RESEARCH BEING AGAINST THE LAW!  ILLEGAL!  BRAIN RESEARCH IS ILLEGAL!

All the way to the FBI, this line of dialogue from the movie Silence of the Lambs means and tells the world that the real Hannibal Lecter had intercourse with straight women.  The cunnilingus performed actually says – sexual prowess of the real Hannibal Lecter, he loves the female body, women’s bodies, women’s figures, woman’s shapes, he loves the female form, obviously.

It’s astoundingly simple.  It’s astoundingly simple to me.  There is a person who is dying to be found out.  No one has caught this motherfucker yet.  This is a straight man – GET THIS SON OF A BITCH!

I suggest you and we catch this son of a bitch before I punch another hole in a wall. 

All this good work my boyfriend and I were doing in the world, in prisons, someone decided to try and take away for what purpose?  A lesbian?  Because David’s wife who finally decided it was ok to tell the world that she is a lesbian (I hope you are divorcing her David) wants to try and now be friends with me?!  I am not interested in being her friend.  She maliciously hurt both David and me all these years.  She should be apologizing to the both of us.  If she just wanted to be friends, she wouldn’t be hitting on me, and trying to flirt with me.  I’ve had enough.  She needs to leave me alone.  She’s had her time; she needs to go.  Enough.

Casey is going to be written in this post because she is too fucking afraid!  Casey is so afraid of men and black men she actually commits criminal activity just because SHE IS AFRAID!  She has never dealt with her sexual and physical abuse; she has never come to terms with her abuse and her abusers that she has told herself she is a lesbian.

This is going to surprise everyone.  This is actually how Casey reads, she is at the moment sexually confused because she is actually a straight woman who would be happier as a girlie girl, the woman in a straight relationship with a man.  She would actually be happier in a real boring job like an accountant.  Something 9am to 5pm, Monday through Friday, weekends and National holiday’s off, regular and boring job.  It is the stability she has been lacking all her life.

She looks like a stereotypical lesbian, dyke; however, she reads, her mind and brain read as sexually confused because she is straight.  She was sent to me to read because of all the intentional and purposeful sabotage of my FBI man’s work and career by his goddamn lesbian partner.

Casey is too fucking afraid.  She is scared out of her mind afraid, every day.  It makes me crazy.  Being around her makes me crazy because she is so scared, she hurts people just to try and NOT be afraid.  She hurts people and LITERALLY gets people killed!  Someone needs to deal with her.

Quite literally, cleaning will help Casey.  Making her clean, and clean, and clean, and clean, possibly as a job will help Casey.  She has a lot of cleaning to do before her mind will get better.  She has not come to terms with her physical and sexual abuse.  She needs to clean.

If Casey is responsible for weight gain on my person it means, she hates herself.

Englishman she looks jealous of you, so watch out.

She’ll fight you tooth and nail on this, won’t she?  She’ll make excuse after excuse as to why what I wrote above is not true.  Then, she shouldn’t have a problem conceding to a work program of cleaning and therapy.

Be careful who you have as a therapist because the reason you had that psychologist brought to my bankruptcy to read is because she is in the movie, The Bourne Legacy as the man in the cabin being sent there because he fell in love.  It means she fell in love, was read as having fallen in love with a man, a criminal behind bars.  That tells me she is not able to do her job.  No one caught it yet.

And, don’t tell me you have a man like the director of the FBI who makes plans for me to get involved with people like David only after they are married just because this straight man is actually sexually frustrated in his own marriage?  Dumb.  It is such a pattern.  It makes no sense to me at all to wait until these men are married before you allow them to get close enough to me, then involve me.  Dumb.

Novelist, from Sherlock means readers, broke up to marriages by getting involved with both participants separately, this literally just means not male and female, this means separately, what do you think a woman’s genitalia looks like?  A plastic, one-piece molded box?  These men got involved with my vagina is what it looks like.

Since when do I have to live the life of a celibate monk for any straight man to handle me or work my life?  Since when is that what it takes for other men to work with me?  It makes no sense whatsoever.

I’m too upset with what you did to my boyfriend and me to continue.

Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.

July 24, 2019: READ: WARNING: I KNOW A BETTER WAY!

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July 24, 2019

BE AWARE: The man who played the role of Edison, the man who embodied the man of Edison needs to be removed at once, entirely, completely, once and for all, permanently and for good, never to return to me or the process, NOW!  He has been allowed access for too long, unsupervised, has hung out with Casey and Chris (PA), have planned, plotted, and schemed against mankind for too long.  He is criminal with no remorse and he is not working!

If it is the real Hannibal Lecter you have seen as shaking, this is regret and remorse so painful, so hurtful, he is in such pain for the crimes he has committed that led him to imprisonment, he does not know how to quench his regret.  He is suffering, for what he has done.  He has been the most truthful of any criminal I have seen as to his regret, to the point of wishing he could turn back time, relive his past, and not allow his crimes to have happened.  This is not a bad thing.  This is his real pain of regret trying to work out, recover, and redeem himself in some way.  YAY!

I made a friend.  I made a friend in him.  He is the only man in all these virtual years to have worked so hard, he wanted to show me, real love.  Actual, real love.  And, you made him break up with me, just to hurt me.  What the hell do you think you are doing?

You failed to see; the real Hannibal Lecter was the only man who was actually keeping me together.

This is the plan they used, concocted to try and get me to the real Hannibal Lecter: they had me date a gay man in a body suit just to try and get me to see I was the one responsible for getting and capturing the real Hannibal Lecter.  Is he not a doctor, after all?  Is the only reason he is portrayed as a doctor in the movie, The Silence of the Lambs because of my toe in the Emergency Room?

Yes, I would have told them not to kill him, that they needed him alive.  Why do you think that is?

Yes, I believe it is true the FBI and other agencies have wanted the mind of the real Hannibal Lecter as a consultant criminal to help them.  You failed to get him for how many decades?  How many days did it take me?

The combination of him and me have actually worked, and you made him break up with me, just to hurt me.

I made a friend and as soon as I made a friend, you thought it was important to take it away as though feelings can be replaced without consequences.  What the hell were you thinking?!

The real Hannibal Lecter was actually helping to keep me together.  And you took him away from me.  You look as though you have no idea what feelings and brains actually do.

You have me in isolation in this televised life.  The reason the real Hannibal Lecter works is because he is not free, just like me.

Any man who is free to see, date and be around other women would read as unfaithful, not-committed, and not truthful in commitment – to me.  That is why the real Hannibal Lecter worked.

If they used my brother by manipulating him into a nipple piercing just to get me to see I was the woman responsible for capturing the real Hannibal Lecter, they have gone about it all wrong.  They used my mother, they hurt my mother to keep me in the dark as to how they were actually using me to capture bad people.

I am most upset about being seen as having affairs with married men.  I am not interested in allowing affairs with married men to continue anymore.  David was different.  I cannot allow myself or another man to be seen as having an affair with me while they are married.  I don’t do that.

Honestly, I am too upset as to the loss of my boyfriend breaking up with me to continue writing, or thinking, or much of anything anymore.

Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.

July 23, 2019: READ: WARNING: To God Be The Glory!

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July 23, 2019

Be very careful you actually understand and know the difference between intelligence and movie scripting in these movies.  The very reason Clarice Starling (ling-Ping, from Mulan) wears a shirt in the movie, Silence of the Lambs, with the FBI Academy wording on it for so long is code: Academy – Disney Institute, it actually reads not as the FBI Academy, it reads Disney Institute.  What did they do at Disney Institute?  They taught classes.  I have actually taken a topiary class there, and actually bought and brought home to my Plant City home topiaries.  One was a cat.  The plant material used was creeping fig, and it actually grew on our fence in Plant City.

I think you are all missing an opportunity here.  The connections between the locations in Orlando, Florida and my home, taking lessons, being taught, and intelligence.

You have been using a plant I bought and planted here and been blowing bad air in my direction simply because it has a similar color to a person who was read by me as false accusations and Disney.  Why have you not turned it around, and turned it into something good instead as it should be as it is in the movie, Silence of the Lambs?

All I see every day around here for so long, is you people lack focus, the inability to prioritize between the greatest importance, the greatest threat, and simply satisfying someone’s – ego.  You look to me, the direction in my time here and there looks to me as accurate and focused as a whirly-gig moving in 360 around the world instead of pinpoint accuracy and finishing a job to its completion because that is what I would do if I was directing and in control.  I would finish the job to its completion, so another crop could not erupt again.

I am better than anyone in the history of the world at what I do, perhaps because I have had to believe in myself because none of your intelligence has ever shown me support in my workplaces.  None of you.

If I am the only one who believes, then I believe, in me.  I have proven it.  All of you have your allegiances to your directors or the agencies you work for that give you orders to do dumb things like break my heart, like you did last night.  Where my allegiance alone belongs to God.  You have never employed me in an official capacity with credentials, so I have not had to protect your – agencies.  Just people.

It is more than obvious my allegiance is to God alone.

To God be the glory

To God be the glory

To God be the glory

For the things he hath done.

How many decades this has taken me to realize all the work intelligence has done working with me, again just underscores my humility.  But, more importantly, it shows your lack of faith in me, as a woman to be seen in the world as the one who gives the orders that saves lives and keeps democracy intact.

You broke my heart last night, and you didn’t see that coming.  You don’t know how to fix it either.  You look as though you are using a movie formula to figure out the contents of my heart.  You don’t understand the difference between heart, mind, and body connection.

I didn’t want to write today because you made me feels so bad by breaking my heart, again.  But all I see is that none of you really know the intelligence in these movies, not down to the details.  I do.  I know.

Go away.  Leave me alone.  I am tired of you hurting me.

Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.

July 22, 2019: READ: WARNING: NO BS: DAY SHIFT!

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July 22, 2019

You didn’t actually bring this Wendy Davis profile news piece near me, so that I would read her, did you?!  She’s completely insignificant.  She’s a nothing.  She looks nothing more than a file clerk working in building full of men.  Strong, capable, knowledgeable, protecting the world from harm by thwarting, men.

I would never even pay as much as a few second’s notice to such a person.  She reads completely insignificant.  She reads a nothing, a no one.

Why would I never give a read about such a person?  It is very rude, that’s why!  You’ve made me be rude and hurtful.  I doubt she can file correctly.  I doubt she can do much of anything correctly.  I am honestly, not being commanding enough in my writing about her, to be kind to her.  Perhaps too many people have already been kind to her, and she needs to hear and feel her own insignificance and admit the damage she has done to me and my family.

She is not responsible for keeping my mother’s heart in arrythmia is she?  Or, using my mother’s friend’s just to upset my mother’s heart, is she?  Abominable.

Let me remind you, the reason we were fighting in Somalia, is because I was not steadily employed, I was working temporary jobs at most, no steady employment, and they found a way to use me and my brain.  It is the ONLY that fighting got to be so big!  THE ONLY WAY!

YOU WANT A NO BS ASSESSMENT FROM ME MOTHERFUCKER, AND THEN YOU DON’T PROVIDE EITHER A SAFE WORK ENVIRONMENT, A SAFE HOME ENVIRONMENT, A SAFE LIFE FROM OUR OWN AND OTHERS FOR WHICH I GIVE YOU THE CORRECT READ, ASSESSMENT, AND INFORMATION?!  FUCK YOU, MOTHERFUCKER!  NO WONDER I WANT TO TAKE YOUR HEAD OFF YOUR SHOULDERS AND SHOVE IT INTO THE WALL I’VE ALREADY TUMBLED!  THAT’S THE BERLIN WALL ASSHOLE!  I COULDN’T EVEN VOTE YET, AND I BROUGHT THAT SHIT DOWN!  YOU GODDAMN STUPID MOTHERFUCKER!

YOU WANT ME ON THAT DAY SHIFT!

YOU NEED ME ON THAT DAY SHIFT!

STOP FUCKING AROUND LIKE I HAVEN’T OUTRANKED BEFORE I COULD ACTUALLY TALK!

YOU’RE IN DEEP SHIT MOTHERFUCKER!  GIVE ME MY GODDAMN RESPECT OR YOU WILL LIVE TO REGRET IT!  THUS, SAYETH THE LORD!

TOO HEAVY, NO DAY SHIFT, NO MORE WRITING!

July 21, 2019: READ: WARNING: DAY SHIFT!

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July 21, 2019

Be careful here because I am warning you.  This, again, makes no sense whatsoever.  It is completely illogical.  There is no reason whatsoever for me not to be on a day shift, none.

I signed into the HUB, Amazon’s employee company management website and applied for a transfer, again, to a day shift – there was no OVERTIME for the day of July 17, 2019 on the schedule – NONE.  AFTER I placed the transfers online overtime for the day of July 17, 2019 now appears on my schedule.  You are doing the same thing over again; you are making the same mistakes over again.  It is Hilton all over again, lesbians in charge who do not see that they are being set up.

Lesbians were in charge when I worked at Hilton, they would not have been aware until it was too late that they would be held responsible for firing me while they kept employee’s who tampered with the time clock causing me to appear late when I was not, indeed.

I am not the commonwealth, from Sherlock, be very careful here this line of dialogue is very specific.  It is not for me to understand it is there for others to see and be aware about – me.

I know my love.  I know when a man is a man that will be a man to marry and not just a man to date randomly or have a boring and frustrating relationship that will last only for a few months or a few years and end with nothing in return for all the time we spent together.

Boyfriend, if David is angry it is really grief.  It is more terrible than I can write at present because we would have been married, had children, and my mother would still be alive.  It is devastating to me too.  I cannot even begin to start delving into the loss and grief of my mother because I am too busy working.  Too bust working an hourly wage job.

James Franco and James Franco’s body double would also be very good matches for me.  Immediately, they would treat me well and we’d be happy.

My boyfriend, how far he has come in such a short amount of time it should be recognized the good work he has done.  He is also good for me; we are good together.

Prince Harry would also have been a good match for me, for both of us.  We would both be happy, and I would be good for him.  By telling him simple things to keep him from looking like a spoiled child, and that is what he looks like at the moment.  There is a problem, you are getting really good support from within for me here, and that read my boyfriend asked me to read is very real and its heart-breaking, there is real love in there and it almost, no, in fact, it is desperate.  That is the read.  Desperate love.

And, the list is getting longer and longer of men who would really love me, and I would love in return, and what do we both get out of it?  No real love – ever?!  People need to start admitting their wrong and bring about an end, so love can exist again.  Real love.

You are hurting these men by continuing this life in the way.  I have been begging, begging since 2014 for this life to end – before my mother was MURDERED!

Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.

July 20, 2019: READ: WARNING: PRINCE HARRY!

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July 20, 2019

Do you really want to be seen as the man who writes me up, suspends me, or fires me?  Do you really Prince Harry?!

You are a married man.  I am not a woman who has affairs with married men.  I am the woman they marry and stay married too.  I am the girlfriend they keep; I am not a woman who has continued affairs with married men.

Do you know the reason I do not got to work on Thursdays or Fridays or Wednesdays even?  It is not in my schedule; it is not on my schedule.  You cannot make me work a schedule, legally, when it is not ON my schedule.

All of a sudden there is a work shift that was NEVER on my HUB schedule to begin with?!  SHAME ON YOU PRINCE HARRY!

MY BOYFRIEND IS ACTUALLY HELPING YOU AND YOU WANT TO MAKE HIM APPEAR LESS THAN HE IS – SHAME ON YOU!  YOU ARE AN ARROGANT, EGOTISICAL MAN!

What an arrogant prick you are!

Do you really want to be seen as the man who denies me a day shift as well?!

I suggest you rethink the “supposed” overtime, stop messing around with word of mouth rather than factual information like a schedule in a company website – AND SHUT CASEY AND THESE LESBIANS OUT FOR GOOD!  BEFORE MORE PEOPLE ARE KILLED JUST FOR BEING – FAMILY!

FBI man, you need her off your back, she is serious trouble to you.  She is going to either get you or one of your family members killed, she is that reckless.

I AM FUCKING MAD AS HELL THAT PRINCE HARRY AND THE FBI MAN WANT TO BE SEEN AS SO STUPID AS TO WRITE ME UP AGAIN, SUSPEND ME, PLACE MY HOURS INTO THE NEGATIVE, FIRE ME BECAUSE I WANT A DAY SHIFT!

I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

MY WEIGHT IS TOO HEAVY!  I WANT A DAY SHIFT!  NO MORE WRITING!