October 15, 2019: READ: WARNING: Hunger Strike, Day 2, By The Way

October 15, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

He didn’t, was it this Eric team, did they use footage, video of me, running outside, something I am no longer able and allowed to do, and that got intelligence, and cooperation somehow, and that is why there was a helicopter at First Watch?

So, you repeated the destruction of the SUCCESS, by no longer allowing me to run outside anymore?  God, you’re idiots!

The brain research that was used on Angelina Jolie looks like she was able, on her own to remove the threat of brain research.  Meaning she of her own mind, figured out the danger, and changed things, removed people, so she could get better.

It doesn’t look like anything more than manipulation of speech, not chemical, or mechanical.

I am so sorry to write this; it is probably why her mother died of cancer.  It is also, why Angelina was so grieved by her mother’s loss because it shouldn’t have happened that way.  Neither one of them did anything wrong.

I am so sorry for your loss.

LTLWM

October 15, 2019: READ: WARNING: Hunger Strike: Day 2

October 15, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

If you thought I was joking, if you thought I was kidding about a hunger strike, you are yet, wrong again.

Let me be clear, I am no longer willing to accept the conditions of being alive based upon a game show mentality of product placements as people and wearing it upon my person.

I am willing to die for it.

Learn to live without me.

I am yet, super pissed, again.  Watching 13 Hours, last night, and realizing how I was set up, improperly, and made to look a fool.

Yes, it’s beautiful, but it’s too busy, from 13 Hours, who interpreted that?  Who interpreted that, and used that sentence in the film?  Because it’s wrong.

Busy, is wrong.

The interpretation of busy, is, wrong.  Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, WRONG, WRONG, wrong, get it?  It’s wrong.

Busy, says, underpaid.  It’s interprets to, underpaid.

Let me explain, did they or did they not, make a video of Mark and myself at an expensive restaurant, so I would have to put on my best clothes, to show and share with another country why the attack on our US ambassador happened, and why they needed to explain to the US, they allowed an attack on the US to happen.

Let me explain again, did you show them the daughter of the house, that was supposed to get a country money and aid from the United States, on a “date”, in my best clothes, a dress?  Does anyone know how much that dress cost me?  The best dress I owned.  Do you want to know?  Probably, including tax, $30 to $40.

Even the ball gown, I wore at the Staff Ball of the inauguration 2012, about fifty dollars, maximum.

They made me look like an idiot, as a US convoy.  I won’t thank you for that.

There is a tell that evening, at the end of the meal, Mark went to use the restroom, and left the receipt turned upside down on the table.  There was an ask, in that.  See how much the bill was, and how much he tipped.  It was asked of me several times before Mark returned from the restroom.  I never looked.

To me, it said, unethical.  So, I didn’t look.

Man, I’m super-pissed.  You again had people talking about me to other people, making me appear, better-looking, then I am.  Wow, that’s hurtful.  Please stop using me, learn to live without me.

Worse, then that, worse then using me to show how poor and meager my wages, income, and life is, you’ve allowed it to go from there, to where I am now, even further and closer to poverty level, and even less attractive, by physically abusing my body, through products.  You shouldn’t wonder why I am willing to die, instead of living this life.

The secret spy base in 13 Hours, is my house in Plant City, Florida, it is also, The Container Store.  The Container Store being used as a spy base.

It’s why Woods, flips his shit and screams at the CIA tool about blue-eyed Westerners, those blue eyes, are not mine, that’s Casey, and other women, fucking shit up because she is incompetent.

You people got my mother killed, killed her in a nursing home, got her executed, did not tell me, still have not told me the truth, and you think, I will continue living for you, so you can maintain your jobs?

I won’t do it anymore.

You’ve only led them in training, 12 Strong when does anyone think this training happened?  Before or after 9/11?  Before, is the truth.

I led them, I led Tim, who led his men, before 9/11.  Uh, no, it was not my first time.  Stop making me look like a beginner and novice because none of you have had clearance to my previous military work, AS A FUCKING CHILD!

So, the next time, you wander outside, as a toddler, and save a man’s life (Morpheus), a real military man’s life being held in captivity BY OUR ENEMY, AND you show these top-level military men THE BEST LOCATIONS FROM WHICH TO STRIKE OUR ENEMY TO BRING AN END TO THE VIET-FUCKING-NAM WAR, THEN MAYBE I’LL THINK ABOUT RECONSIDERING MY POSITION!

NO, MOTHER FUCKERS!  I AIN’T TRAINING WOMEN!  I NEVER HAVE AGREED OR CONSENTED TO TRAINING WOMEN!  READ ON, ASSHOLES!

They were way off weren’t they?  Way off.  In the Vietnam war, they were WAY-THE-FUCK-OFF!  At the end of the Vietnam war, they were way off.  Meaning, the locations of our men and allies, were no where NEAR our goddamn enemies to even BEGIN to engage them in fighting.

13 Hours is code, for our house, that is the CIA claiming me in a movie, as one of their own, how my house in Plant City, Florida was being used also, as a spy base.  It also has known and unknown persons attaching themselves to me and my family, for (in the movie, at the time) reasons, not many people have understood.

My clothing wasn’t expensive enough, at the meet, with Mark, at Burns dinner, my clothing was not expensive enough, and you’ve not only NOT corrected that mistake, YOU’VE ALLOWED IT TO CONTINUE AND GET WORSE, LIKE A FESTERING WOUND, THAT IS NEVER CLEANED.

Let me explain The Container Store further, so no one is under anymore misconceptions, or misperceptions, The Container Store was full of – opposites.  So, if a woman, was a woman in body, her proxy, was male, a man.  If a person was a lesbian, they were straight.  It is NOT the same, for men.  Men were always, men.  If a man was gay, they were gay.  If a man was straight, he was straight.

So, Erin at The Container Store, a lesbian female, was really a straight male, man.  Probably, David.  David, as Erin says, Arendelle in Frozen, that says, Irish coffee, successful kill of Bin Laden.

It is possible to decode Arendelle; however, in my mind, it is not really useful, or important.

Why did Cherith choose Erin to be her wing-woman to help her procure available men, to date because she was David.

The opposites, at The Container Store, concerning sexual orientation, lesbians, were only opposites, as women.

Using, Benedict Cumberbatch at The Container Store, as a lesbian female, was an – opposite.  A straight male, man.

The tells, since you morons, have been misleading the public into thinking something that isn’t true, as real, the tells, are in the touches.

I didn’t touch Casey or go anywhere too close to her when she appeared her at my door, disguised as Edison.  I didn’t touch her, or hug her, and this was supposed to be a man, I just had sex with.  You people look like the WORLD’S WORST READERS!

I did eat some of Eric’s salad.  I did hug Eric.  I didn’t eat anything from Edison when we were at Panera.  GET IT?!  I ALSO, DIDN’T GO ANYWHERE NEAR – DAVID, THEN.

Really, you need to stop using intelligence this way, it’s killing me.

The morning after the election night 2012, my bosses’ boss approached me in the office, after having been drugged, drug interrogated, sick as anything, he approached me to hug me, and it read as David, and I didn’t want to touch him, yet how could I logically explain, after a night like that, to my bosses’ boss, I don’t want to touch you.  That fast, as sick as I was, I don’t want to touch you, David, you have someone else with you, and I don’t want to touch them.

I hugged, Kat, I hugged, Rob, I hugged, Eric, this man in the merchandising team that set-up the store who talked about kissing the lip with just me, with sweat upon his brow, and hugged me as he had to leave the store, was David.  He has yet, to show people how hurt and upset he was at the loss, of our friendship.

My German man was using David at Disney, (Frozen) to get me to figure out why.  Sorcery says, double agents or conspiring against the US, the word is dubious.

Your training is over, Tim.  Conceal, don’t feel, this goes along with his training, not mine, regarding me, and I told him so while working at Amazon when he was working with me, and in so many words, told me to not show emotion, about the work I just gave him, and I told him, that’s just your training.  It’s not mine.

Too many secrets.  When was this movie, released, (shoes) Sneakers?

The electricity to my garage light that has not been restored says, “they” didn’t want me to go on anymore missions because “they” wanted to only use me as a non-human being, a pet, a baby, a child, A THING.  NOT A REAL PERSON.  NOT AN ADULT.

You morons are continuing to allow for SUCCESSES, to be destroyed as soon as they occur.  Like David.  Successful training, so you removed him from me, and look what happened because OF IT!  9/11.

I am going to focus on what is important.  And, the details, are not important.  Not at present.  Stop wasting my time with – trivia.

Stuff my face with chocolate (Frozen) says, this other FBI man as wanting to make-out with me, and it has been read by several persons, that the two of us would make a good couple.

What’s that amazing smell (Frozen) and the reason Anna and Elsa are looking at each other is because Cherith is a mirror and Anna and Elsa are one person, me, the amazing smell is code for, sex.  Seeing a man and wanting his sex!  Oh yeah, that’s a man I want to have sex with!  Not a PG movie in code.

Seeing a man and you imagine mentally undressing yourself and him, immediately.

Cathy, at The Container Store, after Edison, telling me it was a good thing to see David at Starbucks with a wedding ring, and her telling me it was a good thing, IS WRONG!  That’s a lesbian telling me being heart-broken, again, because of David being removed from me, is not a good thing, or proper procedure.

Taking the strongest male from me, that I would be sexually attracted to, IS REALLY DUMB SHIT ON YOUR INTELLIGENCE!  YOU DUMB FUCKS!

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, STOP BEGGING OUR ENEMIES TO KILL AND ATTACK US, YOU DUMB FUCKING MORONS!

THAT RESPONSIBILITY – IS ON YOU, NOT ME!

ADMIT YOUR GODDAMN MISTAKES, SO THEY DON’T CONTINUE!

YOUR JOB, YOUR JOBS, ARE TO THWART THREATS!  NOT CREATE THEM!  YOU HAVE BEEN DOING NOTHING, BUT CREATING THEM, SINCE EDISON!

CONGRATULATIONS!  YOU LOOK LIKE FUCKING IMBECILES!

I’LL REPEAT AGAIN, ERIN TELLING ME AT THE CONTAINER STORE THERE WAS SOMETHING – WRONG – IN THE FILES?!  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!  USING AN ENGLISHMAN, A CITIZEN OF THE UK, TO MIND TALK, SPEAK TO ME ABOUT THE LOCATION OF BIN LADEN AND I FUCKING GOT THAT MOTHER FUCKER, AND THEN YOU USED THAT INFORMATION TO REMOVE MY PRESENCE AND EMPLOYMENT FROM THE CONTAINER STORE?!  YOU’RE FUCKING MORONS!

This Atwood photo news story says, it is a photo of me and my mother I posted on Facebook, Casey liked it on Facebook, a photo of my mother in her nursing home, eating a slice of cake, I took a photo of the two of us.  It says, Casey has no understanding, or comprehension whatsoever of what it means to be a caregiver, to give of yourself, for no other reason, other than, you can.

It says, Casey has no comprehension whatsoever of who my mother really was, to this country, to intelligence.  It says she has no comprehension of a mother/daughter relationship, either.

Evaristo says, conspiring against their own FBI people.

The female minister looks inadequate.

The blue motorcycles repeated in front of me while working the Obama campaign says, they had the wrong information, intel, and they couldn’t figure out why.

If you’ve used celebrities in black paint, to get me to decode this line from Forest Gump, life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get.  Haven’t I written this already?  That line, never know what you are going to get, reads, you are not a reader.

If you buy, or receive a box of chocolates, all you have to do is, read the box, or read the writing, it tells you everything that is in the box of chocolates.  With a picture, its name, and a description of the item.

What you have been doing by not disguising celebrities in black paint, is showing real criminals, celebrities are not readers, and placing death threats upon their persons, and it’s been playing out, in prisons, around the world, all these years you’ve put this “reality” show on television.

Again, it is their jobs to thwart these efforts, not create them!

You fucking idiots!

Relatives seek, photo, profile, news story, says they had no business being involved.  No clue what they were doing, and they were getting people killed with their incompetence.

Texas mom goes to jail news story says, Brianna and her cellmate.

Again, copying the Russians in 12 Strong says, they can’t, cannot, proven they cannot inaudible.

The fact that Lauren’s husband visited with me when I was working at Home Depot says, you got chatter, you didn’t understand.  It goes together with the death threats placed upon Benedict Cumberbatch, me, and the UK because this dumb fuck Edison, has no idea what he is doing, and he never has.

Admit Edison was a mistake.  I cannot even begin to tell and write how many times, I refused, and did not want, or wish to meet, all the Edison’s.  Admit, he was a mistake.  Eric was better.

The very fact that they had to use so many different means to contrive a way to get Edison romantically involved with me, although there was no romance, speaks more volumes than all my swear words of recent years.

It’s really atrocious.

They, the United States, the US intelligence, what you were really doing?  You were and have been – destroying your own Weapons with Edison.  That’s on you dumb fucks, not me.

Do you really wonder why you’ve lost your Weapons now?

Thought it was going to be a peaceful night, 13 Hours means, the dinner with Mark at Burns, did not go over so well.  Did they have to re-do, make another video with a real military man (I told you so) with me designing an office of shelves for him at The Container Store, with the real Eric involved and around because he is so adorable, it reads on me, and when he returned to complete his purchase, he brought his whole family, and that worked because it was the closest to the real thing?

Mark, at Burns was probably these two ding-dongs I saw at the Bourbon fest, that had no chance in hell of me considering dateable.  Uh, duh!

Every person Erin, at The Container Store that she talked about hiring, I never liked.  None of them, and I mean NONE of them, were in any way, or could in any way be considered – STRONG.

I am going to repeat this word, strong over and over, because you fuckheads, are DUMB!

Didn’t this FBI man believe that the California restaurant was my first job?  Had no information about Germany.  And, obviously, no information about Vietnam.

Even if the real Eric was and is really married, he still reads as adorable.  It, I, would never allow it to go further with a married man, but he reads, guns and all, killed men and all, as adorable.  None of you saw the VALUE in that?!

Again, you women, NOT ME, show the US and America to be weak and cowardly because you haven’t allowed me to date – for real.  You look like scared little girls running for your big girl panties because CHERITH LOVES MEN, LOVE A PENIS, LOVES A COCK, LOVES DICK, ALL THE TIME!

You look stupid!  Oh no.  Not a penis, those things are icky!  Uh, no they’re not!

I LOVE IT!  BALLS AND ALL!  LOVE IT!  WANT IT!  NEED IT!  LOVE IT!

David, were you so excited out of your mind, almost unable to allow Erin to talk for you because you wanted to be in that bar with me, drinking beers, and just talking?!

Um, and what would be so wrong about David being seen as ALL OVER ME PHYSICALLY?!  You dumb fucks!

Well shit, I believe you, 12 Strong, this looks like a real read of how someone got financing, not military, from Hollywood to finance the reality storytelling of my life, these years.

This photo news story of a black woman in a vehicle wearing a gold shirt just says, she doesn’t belong here, has no business here, in my neighborhood, or at all.

The bush is the biggest from Zohan, this is George W Bush.  It says, Australia, it says this man who pushed (Frozen) my mother in a wheelchair at the Brisbane airport was from the White House.

It’s not the biggest, Zohan, is just being kind to me about how fat I was at the time.  It’s not truthful.

Sam Bobrick profile is the man from Visionworks who kissed me on the cheek.

Ethiopia news story looks like you have people upset about my hunger strike.  I AIN’T GIVING IN!

Concerning my boyfriend and brain research that turned him into Hannibal Lecter, he needs to be touched, physically.  Something that doesn’t happen in prison, does it?  To get the two men I’ve seen, who have been brain researched better they need – touch.  It is similar to all those news stories about Romanian babies and children in orphanages turning into nothings, no personalities because there were not enough caregivers for all the children and babies in these orphanages.

There is something in that, with brain research as a way to control people.  It’s also why I wasn’t afraid (mentally) to touch my boyfriend in any way, or the high school shooter.

What I didn’t want to happen was exactly what they allowed to happen, my boyfriend and I befriended each other and then they HURT me with it by removing him once we are friends.  Just like David.

It says this FBI man is afraid of failure, so he self-implodes his own work, sabotages his own work because it succeeds.  He also has a little savior-complex, meaning, he likes to be the hero, and that is the trait and personality you want in work such as the FBI, it just looks, again, mismanaged.  He needs to be de-gay programmed, gay de-programmed.

You have wasted all these years of my life from 2014 with Edison until I was fired from Amazon August 2019 because you thought you extended (13 Hours) and all you have proven in all those years is you CANNOT do the work.  What incompetence.

My mother and I had been – for years – trying to sell our Plant City house, for years.  It was making her sick.  It was killing her.  Of course, we wanted to leave.  “They” sabotaged our efforts to get help by not selling our home, with real estate agents.

Every real estate agent that listed our house for sale, was a scam.  Here is the tell, a real estate agent I hired to sell our home before my mother’s last stroke that required her to have constant care, upon returning to our home with my mother after another supposed “open house” to get buyers to our home, sat in the chair and ottoman I BOUGHT AT TARGET, with her feet up, shoes and all, on the ottoman.

That is on you.  Not me.  Creating enemies out of allies because of your incompetence.  That’s on you.  That weight is on you.  Not me.

Again, creating enemies out of allies because me and my family didn’t get – anything, a thing – we wanted, that is on you.  I didn’t do it.  It’s not on me.

The movie Hunter Killer, and the alarms blaring, water spurting everywhere, deep underwater, be aware, be advised, this – calms me.  I’ve lived it.  Watching it doesn’t excite me, agitate me, anger me, it calms me.  As if I am perfectly at peace with myself.  Be very aware you understand the gravity of that in a person, in a woman.

If anyone wants to work 9/11, again: watching the plane, planes crash into The World Trade Center, I am still working on.

I want to know why there wasn’t more footage and coverage of the crash into the Pentagon.

The crash footage of the plane, and really please, for the love of God, stop thinking phallically with this imagery, like it is a penis entering a woman, the footage of the plane crash, how did they film that?  With helicopters?  The helicopter angle is too low.

If anyone wants to work this and analysis this as data, there is a message to be read, the helicopter and the camera are too low.  Take the camera, off-center it to the right of the emerging plane crash, not too the far-right, to the mid-center of right, about two, three, maybe four stories high, no more than four, and Matrix it.

Matrix, the fragments.

Take out the plane, remove the other buildings, the ground, the sky, darken the lighting to a somewhat mid-gray, remove colors to an extent, darken it, so there is no glare, or direction or angle of the sun, like shadows, take the fragments from the moment of impact until the building collapses, take those fragment, time-lapse them, and re-arrange them in non-sequential order, it is a like a word jumble.  Take the fragments, rearrange them, move them around like in The Matrix.  I told you brain research was a weapon to be USED to elicit allegiance with our enemies.

I believe there is still a message to be read in the crash.

I look at the US news footage from the crash, in my mind, and all it says to me over and over is, this doesn’t make sense.

When I watched the BBC news coverage of the event, it felt better.  We are not alone.  We are not the only ones – grieving.

Learn to live without me.

LTLWM

October 14, 2019: READ: WARNING: Hunger Strike: Day 1

October 14, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

Lest anyone failed to witness, see, I am – a little pissed.  A very simple thing blown waaaaaay out of proportion, the size of my body.  I am unwilling, anymore.  I will not kowtow, I am resolute.  I have no more plans for any other food to be eaten other than what is remaining in my home.  When that is gone, I will be gone.  I do not accept the conditions of this – what feels like – surrender.  I will be me, or I will not be – at all.

I do not accept the less than the greatest, strongest reflection and being of myself, I do not accept your failed attempts, your failed – physical attempts of my person.

I am resolute.

You just lost Weapons.

You lost Weapons – by following your own selfish needs, your own sexual agendas.

 

To begin with I would not yet be writing this morning if it wasn’t for this motherfucker irritating the bejesus out of me – just to get me to my computer, for some reason because I no longer see a purpose for it.  So, these are my notes taken starting back from the morning of October 11, 2019 before I went to the Honda dealership, until today, October 14, 2019.  If they are in any way relevant, anymore.

There was a photo, profile of Brianna, that shows she has some sort of body dysmorphia.  Mostly meaning, she – does not accept her body for what it is.  Not that she wants or desires a different body shape, she does not accept her own body, as her own.  Probably goes along with sexual abuse.

The chubby faced child, fat girl photo, just says, Brianna is looking for someone to blame, most likely, for her actions.  Meaning she is unwilling to take responsibility for her actions.

If a person is unwilling to take responsibility for their actions, they are not sorry, penitent, for their actions.

If Brianna really flipped her shit about David and I talking, or working together at Disney, it says, again, she uses sex as a control.  Again, the purpose, the only reason people have sex (in her mind), is to control the other person.  There is a fine line there, meaning, whoever initiates the sex, seeks to control the other person with pleasure.

Because those are such small degrees, and not SCREAMING IN YOUR FACE WRONGDOINGS, it’s a little unnerving.  It’s unnerving, no one has been able to reach Brianna, and attach her brain.  They’ve let her prance around like a spoiled child.  It’s like driving along in your car on a road, seeing a dead body, a corpse, in the middle of the road, and just driving by with no reaction, and you continue to drive by every day, and do not react.

Brianna’s female friends also say, Brianna is a little perverse in the choice of her female friends.  Not normal, not natural, it suggests she seeks power and control over her female friendships.  So, that would suggest she, in herself, realizes she has an inability to control her own emotions, rationalize her thinking, and be an adult.  In her mind, she is still in high-school, high-school thinking, high-school mentality, and not a Senior in high-school, she is still a Freshman in high-school.  She’s rather too old for that thinking.

If she is still a Freshman in her mind, it suggests, trauma, that she is not able to deal with, or overcome, or more importantly, acknowledge.

Brianna also, uses sex as means of control.  Meaning she controls other people with having sex with them, and she sees it as a way other people have controlled her.  Be careful to note, this says, she has never seen sex, as lovemaking.  That’s a little alarming, if this is true.

David and Brianna did post a video online with David spanking Brianna on a bed, and her “getting off” on it, like it was sexually pleasurable.  At the time, I didn’t think much of it.  That, in and of itself, is not necessarily a bad thing, or hurtful between consenting adults. I personally, am in no way interested, in that kind of sexual gratification.

To me personally, its immature.  Lacks depth and meaning.  To me personally, if the only way a person can be sexually aroused is through physical pain, it’s an alarm.  A warning sign.

So be careful people because there has been a lot on television and in the movies, normalizing physical violence, and sex.

I do not believe making love and violence go together, at all.

Sex can be violent.  You can get off, cum, with violent sex, that does not make it – love.  There is a difference.  Do not fall into the trap, of loving an abuser because you are a person that has been abused.  Also, do not get confused, if a family member or other person has abused you, and they asked for forgiveness, and you’ve forgiven them, and still love them because they are family or a person, human being, do not confuse that, with physical love.

There are waaaay too many people around me with really warped ideas and notions of love, and not being able to understand the difference between physical love, and a love, like faith, that cannot be seen.

Belly of MS looks like a credible profile.

Far right photo of male, bride bouncer news story, has something in the photo of the man that is supposed to read as an enemy of the United States and its allies, and it is not.  He is, most obviously, not an enemy.  He is super pissed because of what a woman – not me – did to his pride, reputation, his ego, his standing in the community in his country and the world, and so on.  Far left male in the photo says, I told you so.

I took notes on this, and do not remember to what reference or news story this goes at present – Coffee, funny, I have to hold my nose when I laugh because I haven’t really laughed since the discovery of the Edison scam.

The door with the stairs in the Salon, in Zohan, I know it.  I know that door.  I know those stairs, and they are not in this country.

Explain the fat bastard you keep placing on my skin.

This USPS business that has this FBI man’s former partner attached to it says, Drama Queen.  Something I am not.  Something I abhor, drama, with no meaning, or logical purpose.

Previously written – What I just saw says, that the FBI man’s former lesbian partner, is terrified out of her mind, over me, and Germany.  Germany could mean, what happened in Germany, a mistake she made about me and Germany, and/or what has happened because of her decisions.

The re-creation of my Toyota (mother’s car) car accident in January 2015 looks like people were trying to create a cover-up story about the real meaning, the real purpose, the true motives behind my car accident in January 2013.

It also looks, like they were then, trying to frame or place blame upon my brother with the second car accident.

Also, a detail, I did build, on my laptop computer, in this house, several “Matrix” vehicles.  It was the car I looked at a lot, as wanting to purchase, I like the body shape of the vehicle.  And, what would happen if I, Cherith had my name, on a loan, in title of a Matrix vehicle?  Looks, like someone was willing to kill me to make sure, I never owned a Matrix.  So, no one would have any knowledge, whatsoever, about brain research.  The Matrix, specifically, is all about, brain research.

The Shepard Smith news story is very surprising.  Really, what is that about?

You people really need to get over what you think men’s boxers mean, they are the closest thing to shorts that I have, could afford, and own, and Florida is always hot.  I wear them around the house because I do not have any other sort of shorts that I can wear casually.

When I worked at Home Depot that is when this notion of Cherith eating pizza, started into motion.   It is a death threat to England, to the UK, to Benedict Cumberbatch, and to myself, by showing the world a heavy-set African American woman, extremely large and droopy breasted, and a small African American boy, child who looked out the glass door and stared at the BP, British Petroleum gas station.

Let me explain that further, it is a death threat – BY GAINING WEIGHT, AND TURNING – FAT!

They again, repeated the death threat while I worked at Amazon, at the Red 2, station 10, meant to be the White House, with the African American Marilyn at the opposite station, allowing a terrorist to BASH MY HEAD IN, causing pain and suffering that lasted weeks.  I had to ice my head for weeks to recover.

This news story of Ukraine and Maria Yovanovitch says, both the former lesbian partner and her lover of the FBI man are, bitter, mean-spirited, close to vengeful, angry.  It is not in the photo; however, it shows they’ve placed their own needs, their own sexual agenda above, their job.  It’s tricky and deceiving.

Trump immunity photo is the strongest photo I have ever seen him.  That photo, that is the message you want to send to the world.

Raising the rent in, Zohan, starting with the shorter man in the electronics store (shorter man being the man from the LA, Mexican restaurant) and the taller, white male with a briefcase (being this man who worked in the White House, when I got an “email”), shows the California man looking an idiot, in response to the White House, by failing to understand, and comprehend what was stake concerning my person.

Raising the rent, is a storytelling means of describing, men who follow Cherith, the white rabbit.  It’s more complex than the movie shows it to be, raising the rent, most of all, is describing, how it works, how they’ve followed me, and who I am to them.

It is not really a good thing, that this California man is seen, as dismissing White House communications.

I earn right, 13 Hours, just says, Cherith and her family were not earning enough money to be able to BE THE MEANS OF GETTING COMMMUNICATIONS THROUGH TO THE WHITE HOUSE.  It would be very frustrating if a country was seeking  help, seeking assistance from the United States, and the US responded with so much as, the check is in the mail, and not much other communication, and this continued – for years – another country seeking assistance from the United States and the best we, no, you, I am not including myself in that thinking because I know what would have done better, was tell the other country over and over and over, and it could have been – decades, and not just years, we are working on funding, we are coming with the money, or truthfully, how it looks, the check is in the mail, hang up.

Let me explain further, let me show you the picture in my mind, as I see it, another country, respectfully, earnestly, steadfast in need asks, the United States for assistance by telephone, they get a receptionist, as far as a receptionist in an office, the receptionist responds with only these words, the check is in the mail, and she then, hangs up.

If you were another country, how long you would continue to trust the United States?

This thinking, or mode of operating, goes back to when my mother and I went to Germany.  We received a free or paid airline tickets, and nothing else.  Food, lodging, rental car, insurance, airport transportation, excursions, all out of pocket expenses.  Where was that money supposed to come from?  And, if you place it all on a credit, how do you pay the credit card off?

It is a thinking and mentality of a person who is unable to grasp the concept of a budget, or expenses.  While we were in Germany, I think it is why my mother tried to get an earlier flight home.  The airline tickets were probably, the least expensive to purchase, compared with the other expenses.

My mother was very financially, savvy.  How many people calculate the minimum payment on a credit card?  How many people know what it means to calculate a minimum payment on a credit card?  I’ll explain, if you pay so much money by this date the interest rate is X amount.  If you make another payment by this date the interest rate is this, or X amount, and so on.

This is back in 1988 before they put that sort of information in any credit card statement.  Okay?  Place it in context.

And, people were aware my mother was financially savvy, and it is one way they could use a stereotype of Jewish people being financially aware, and my mother.  If you followed that, it would lead you nowhere, and those who knew better, would be able to see you for a fool.

What’s the Chief’s number one rule, 13 Hours?  What’s the one rule in comedy?  The absolute truth about comedy is that, it must be true, it must be truthful.  Zohan wouldn’t be so funny, if it wasn’t true.

Example, here’s a joke, Today the sky turned orange, and the sun turned brown.  Did you laugh?  Would anyone laugh?  What’s funny about that sentence?  Nothing.  The sky is not orange, the sun is not brown, and the person telling the joke looks like a dunce.

That’s why Zohan was so funny to me, too – true.

Jesus Walks, Kanye West, I listened to this song because this has been bothering me for years.  I remember being watching from behind me, in my car, another vehicle following me, in my neighborhood, with my windows down, and this song, Jesus Walks, on the radio.

I listened to this song, every time it was on the radio.  It is a powerful song.  It is a strong song.  I want to know why these white Americans – what looked like young adults – were doing tailing me.  Because I don’t like it.  It doesn’t look good, again, for America, and Americans.

The real problem, I stood apart, on the Obama campaign, I stood apart.  When I dressed myself, I stood apart even in a crowd.  I did not look like I was from Florida.  Floridian’s have a sort of dulled, washed too many times polo shirt look to them.  Dull, not bright, not crisp, not finished, not pulled together, sloppy, messy, not chic, not definitive, and not in touch with global concerns.

Conceal, don’t feel from Frozen also says, don’t let the world know Cherith is the real person doing the real work, um, it’s not a good thing.  Example, the night I went to work (my most recent former employer) went to look where my station would be, and I looked to one side, and saw the results of my previous night’s work of capturing terrorists, AND I IMMEDIATLEY WAS SO OVER-JOYED I BEGAN JUMPING UP AN DOWN WITH SCREAMS OF YIP-PEE, SO MUCH SO ALL THE CONTENTS ON MY POCKETS FELL TO THE FLOOR, and when I went to pick them up off the  floor, that is when they allowed another person, a woman to view and share in my achievement of the captures, and a switch happened.

A switch, just like in The Matrix, not like this, not like this, and the character dies, is like a brain switch having been read going back to the early nineties, probably, of at least one person, who should never have been involved – in my work.

It’s a deceitful and dishonest person.  Warning.

This other FBI man should look at my Christmas tree profile, if he hasn’t already.  No one has done anything with my Christmas Tree profile.  Is it too difficult?  Too complex?  Or would it reveal too many high-level personnel?

“They’re just mad, we look good doing it.”  This is very true.  It’s shocking to me.  It’s true.

Analysis: The Greta video I saw: you should be worried, she appears nervous, not resolute in her beliefs.  She looks like an actress.  You had about 30 seconds of active listening at the beginning, and that’s all.  People stopped listening when she started talking about statistics.  We will never forgive you?   And people applauded?  What is that about?  Why would that receive applause?

Frozen, elated or gassy?  Did anyone notice the inconsistency?  If a person is gassy, they do not take their fist to their chest, they hold their stomach.  It says, gassy means something else?  And did anyone notice?

The, nothing in my way from, Frozen and then she hits, or bumps into a horse, these are details, is all.  The time I was grooming, or brushing a horse, 4-H, twelve, thirteen years old, and the horse moved his hoof, and stepped on my right foot, and that is why you wear BOOTS when riding horses, or around horses.

It’s just a detail for me to remember, same place, same stable, same time, same horse that I was riding around the ring, and an adult male watching spoke another language – inaudibly, most likely Russian, as the horse was bucking, and they probably used another inaudible means to get the horse to buck, and I held on as the horse was bucking until I heard – DO YOU GET IT KNOW, HOW MUCH NOISE AND COMMOTION WOULD BE GOING ON AROUND A PERSON AS THE HORSE THEY ARE ON IS BUCKING? And yet, I heard inaudibly, Russian, so much as, did he say fall off?  So, I did.

It is likely, he wouldn’t have been able to reveal why the horse bucked, why I fell off, and that is why I didn’t get any more horse-riding lessons.

Nothing in my way, Frozen, also says Shoo-Shoo, meaning my cat they killed because I stopped an attempt on the President of the United States at that time, it is also, I’ve written this, in Raiders of The Lost Arc, when they run the man over in the vehicle, Indy is driving.

This University job I had when I locked the building every night, is disturbing, in that the woman I replaced when my shift started was a Hispanic woman with a Hispanic accent, and she made a comment about wanting to have her period as long as possible.  That it was best for the female body.  It is an unusual thing to say or comment about with no other basis or conversation to connect it to.

The CIA man in 13 Hours wearing the blazer at the compound at the beginning of the movie, is me, in Washington DC, 2013 when I arrived at the airport, arrived and checked into my hotel.  When they caught a man (while I was in the Metro) because I was moving, travelling, and they were following.  I wore a black turtleneck (Frozen) and a cowl-neck sweater (Champion sports) all bought at Target, a blazer, and a winter coat, skirt, tights, knee-high boots.  All completely normal given the location and time of year.

Guess what else I purchased at Target somewhere between 2000 and 2004?  Sheets.  Bed sheets, that I still have.  It is another reason Sherlock is dressed in bedsheets at Buckingham Palace.

The difference between Michael and Zohan, like, how can you drink this soda?  Is meant to show the difference in constitutions between my mother and myself.  Closest comparison, my mother is Mr. Glass, and I am Thor.

Super charged wi-fi from 13 Hours says my personal X-Box, that my brother brought with him when he moved back to Plant City, Florida (bought at a pawn shop) says, there was a hidden camera in the X-Box, or reading the games I was playing,  It also says, my brother asked me to get two video games, Assassin’s Creed and Formula 1 Racing that he paid for with a personal check (a detail, Michael, my former fiancé, paid for my abortion with his check from his bank) from his bank.  It shows, premeditation and motive, and plotting for my car accident.

There is a dangerous difference between reading and following.

The movie Legally Blonde and Clueless go together.  Legally Blonde is about a handler whose life was in danger because a stylist my mother knew, gave me a perm, not in a salon, at her home, and melted all my hair.  I had long hair that had to be cut to about the distance between your thumb, and your index finger, and that was after weeks of putting treatments and conditioners on my hair.  It took days for my hair to dry from the outside strands of hair.  It’s rather severe.

Removal of Babee Bear’s eye says, they injured my cat’s eye, it swelled more than twice the normal size sending me to the vet with him.  I put drops in his eyes for days, and it didn’t work, leaving the only course of action to remove his right eye means, there was a threat to the Tammy Faye and Jim Baker children when I worked at WORSHIP, it is the reason they were brought to WORSHIP to be seen by me, and it looks like just by being seen by me, they were given a protection from – whatever, wherever the threat was.  I don’t like you hurting my cats, just because I saved someone else’s life.

William Parrish from Meet Joe Black, code: Widow’s Peak.  I used to have a more pronounced widow’s peak.  Bangs or no bangs?  Probably the reason the brown-haired woman in Zero Dark Thirty has bangs, and this other man, did NOT want me to have bangs.  He wanted me to scare these motherfuckers before they could even THINK about planning any attacks.

Don’t be misled in Frozen, there is no monster in Elsa.  The imagery of sending up sheets of ice between Elsa and the common folk, UM, YOU FUCKING WANT THAT SHIT!  YOU’LL NEVER EVEN KNOW – USUSALLY – WHEN IT HAPPENS.  AND, YOU’RE WELCOME!

AND GUESS WHAT, DUMB FUCK, AMERICANS. THESE ARE FOREIGN, NOT NATURAL BORN CITIZEN’S LIVING IN THESE UNITED STATES SEEING CHERITH AS THE PROTECTOR OF THE UNITED STATES AND THE WORLD.

SO, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

The female Salon owner in Zohan, is a real read, of a real man, that understood my physical body then in 1995, 1996, and my mental image of who I wanted to be, and how I saw myself, in body size – were making me unhappy.  I wanted to be small and petite, similar to the female Salon owner in Zohan.  The black color of her hair just says, it has been seen and read that Cherith loves all kinds of men, and their hair color is irrelevant.

Something happened the day my brother and I went to First Watch (second time) for Brunch.  We waited outside for a table (about 30 to 45 minutes) I was dressed in a running outfit, or workout clothing, I didn’t change from what I was already wearing when my brother stopped for a visit and suggested we have a meal, and while we were waiting a helicopter sat on the restaurant roof, again.

Did this Sona?  Did this former lesbian partner of the FBI man subvert the efforts of my firing (Amazon) because she didn’t want the other FBI man to learn the truth?  About Bin Laden?  And my time here in Florida?

The FBI man is seen in, The Matrix, as Neo, as not being the One through Trinity because of his lesbian female partner.

The Irish coffeepot set I purchased at QVC says, the lawsuit of the woman who had coffee spilled in her lap, and sued McDonald’s.  Although, don’t follow that.  It just says, McDonald’s.  McDonald’s says I was seen as a young girl in McDonald’s in Gresham, Oregon, and that says, the playground at McDonald’s, and that says, children.  Playground, children.

Stank house, 13 Hours, does not say, Zombieland, it says, Tank, House, meaning I used to wear nothing but tank tops and shorts when we lived in Plant City when I took care of my mother.  It was always too hot in the house, for me.  And, all I could afford.

Don’t touch me, I don’t want to hurt you, Frozen, used when I worked at Dillard’s, and it could mean, don’t go, or looks like a don’t go.  Not a flinch.

David used the word, obsessed with Edison in this house, the first night.  The word sent me to thinking, I am not obsessed with David.  It says, there was already a concern and problem with Courtney having a fixation, dangerous to be around me, and obsession with me as a pet, or toy, or seeing me as something other than a person.

Chris, the actor, Zero Dark Thirty, there really was a Chris in our theater group, and he asked me if I wanted to feel his ass, I did.  Hard as a fucking rock, and I left my hand there, for some time, imagining his ass.  I never believed the Chris in my theater group when he told a story about Afghanistan.  It sounded made up.

It goes together with this young kid adult in our theater group who asked me if I wanted to go to a shooting range with him.  I said, no because it said, shooting range, caution.  It caused me to ask him why he thought I would want to shoot?  So, a caution, and the caution could have been a person.

So, be advised, be aware, the strongest male, of all the men in my theater group was, David.  Strongest physically, strongest mentally.  Hmm, I wonder why I would be attracted to the strongest male?  Oh yeah, I don’t wonder, I know.

Chris, from my theater group goes together with Eric that I met at Panera, Eric goes together with Mandy from The Container Store.  Chris, Eric, Mandy, go together with Boone from 13 Hours.

Before I met Eric at a restaurant, he texted me that he didn’t drink alcohol.  I don’t drink, code: I, Department of Defense.  I was immediately surprised, uh, he does drink alcohol, the real man.

Before I met him, I had an interview for Sales Trainer at The Container Store, I didn’t get it.  I was told I was rude to Sally, I interrupted her, or some other lame excuse, where are my manners, 13 Hours.

I got to the location, to the meet, to the restaurant, to Panera – ahead of schedule.  I didn’t change my clothes from my work clothes.  I didn’t really feel like a date, date.  You walk into Panera, the food ordering was to the left, and the seating was to the right, I, immediately sat down.  I had no desire to eat, or order anything.  Why?  So, what did they have planted at the food counter?

Because it would be normal for me, or anyone, to at the least, order a beverage, a coffee, something.  I had no desire, whatsoever.  I sat facing the door, so I could see him as he approached, entered, or walked in.

Eric ordered food, a Fuji chicken salad (not my favorite at Panera), a smoothie, and a sandwich.  It just says the man has an appetite, and his physique wasn’t obese, he wasn’t rail-thin either, it’s probably a close approximation to the real man.  I ate some food from his salad, and that, if anyone was noticing, just says, I was comfortable.

Eric texted me a photo of an antique (Pawn shop) wedding ring on his pinkie finger.  It’s a little forward for never having met a man before.  He also shared of photo of him, after having worked out, on an orange motorcycle (orange motorcycle goes together with the blue motorcycle before my hysterectomy 2012, crashed in pieces, and a Sheriff walking around the rubble, I looked at the Sheriff, meaning the biggest threat, blue motorcycle was repeated often while I worked on the Obama campaign, meaning, I saw it several times thereafter) that was taken from the back seat of another moving vehicle.  Point of view of the photo, man on the motorcycle, left.

Pretext, I was in my own home, after coming home from work and getting the mail before I met Eric, 2013.  I was at my kitchen counter in my home when Eric, texted me and asked me what I was doing, and I answered, truthfully, opening my mail, doing household stuff, etc.

Whatever happened at Panera because I didn’t order food, here is the tell, Eric told me he liked my clutch, wallet that was on the table.  These are just details, it was a Coach black wallet with pink tab pulls, and my phone was in and out of the wallet.

This man must have teleconferenced me most of the time, being in and out of the country, through the televisions here in my home and at The Container Store.

I’m sexy and I know it, I do have a gun in my cubbie and I will use it, 13 Hours, this is me seeing this really man-man through Mandy.  I have a gun in my cubbie and I will use it, my response, my read of him, I know, and he is adorable.

Isn’t he adorable?  He is so adorable.  Really big man, has killed people, been in battle, been to war, and Cherith says, he’s so adorable.

So, what was the problem?  Why didn’t they use Eric instead of Edison?  Because I liked this adorable man?!

Oh, look at him, he has a gun, he’s been to battle, he knows how to kill people, isn’t he adorable!

YOU PEOPLE ARE MORONS!

Did he get rid of me?  Or, did you people FUCK UP AGAIN?!

Oh, he’s so adorable.

You people look like idiots!

It looks like the only reason they used Edson is because he is malleable – by women.  And this big man would not be malleable – by women.  He would; however, listen to me.  IDIOTS!

Mandy, Jack Silva your late as usual, 13 Hours, Mandy telling me being late was becoming a problem, I was not able, at the time, to tell her there was a problem in house, in my house because he’d (this man through Eric) had been watching me through the television here in my home, and Edison had since been in my home.  There is a lot of confusing chatter, I was getting around that time, around my person, I was trying to figure out, and most of it, just looks like confusion.

This late problem goes together with the Beer and Bourbon fest I went to in 2014 before I met Edison.  Meaning, there was or is a Rachel and Roy problem, meaning, people using Rachel and Roy, I don’t like, and were not good, or good enough.

I saw David across the street at the Beer and Bourbon fest, at a Bourbon tasting, there were two young (twenties) men to my right, the one furthest my right wore cheap wayfarer style sunglasses, the sort you would buy at a gas station, or drug store, for a few dollars, the other male closest to my left was somewhat Hispanic looking and both of them said and read, on what planet (because they were both eyeballing me like they had a chance) would either of you men be able to speak to me, let alone, date me?

The last thing I had at that Beer fest was a sample of Mexican beer around 3:30pm.  I was supposed to believe I over-drank.  Um, it doesn’t happen to me, on my own, not ever.  I have an internal – and some, maybe not all people will understand this and know about it – governor all my own, that does not allow me to drink into a black out.  I’ve never done it in all my life.  If I feel myself while drinking going over, I stop, or I eat, usually, I just stop.  I know it.

However, the real truth is I was at a food sampling booth from a restaurant with Twist, or Twisted, or something in the name like that, I was facing the Performing Arts Center, my back was to the benches across the park, a man was watching me, and the woman (most likely, had no idea the information she was giving) at the booth gave information or acknowledged me in some way.

Because she gave information about me in some way, they drugged me, somehow, probably planted something, they knew I was going to use in my home, and I woke up about 7:30 am, the next day.  They probably also used the cameras and audio in this home somehow.  That’s a long time.  From 3:30 pm to 7:30 am, that’s a lot of hours.

It says there was a leak, a problem, a big concern, that no one has corrected in this home, with the camera’s and monitoring of me in this home.  It’s not just a death threat to me, or my family, it goes to everyone I was friends with on social media, and at The Container Store, every profile on eHarmony, and every man I met, dating.

It also, goes together with Lauren at The Container Store, saying she didn’t want to get pregnant (and was) because she couldn’t drink during pregnancy.  That goes together with my hysterectomy.  It just says, problem.

Lauren’s husband, I liked, and he said he had a man crush on Marvin, and they talked about fishing all the time.  Eric had also texted me a photo of his dinner, fish and couscous.

All that goes together with this problem in Tanya’s files, and Tanya was in disguise as a really big woman who really cut my hair while I was working at The Container Store, and I didn’t like the haircut because she cut into my natural curls (Zohan).

Did this Eric use Mark to take me to Burns Steakhouse because of what happened at Panera?  Because the only man I was looking at was the man at the bar and wondering why he wasn’t taking me to dinner?!  Did he actually dye his hair?  Great disguise, I almost didn’t see him as the only man there!  And, that is sarcasm.

Burns, just says, Cat on A Hot Tin Roof, and that just says, Chris at the theater group.  And perhaps, he just wanted to see me in a dress, dressed for a real date, as a woman.  I bought, gum, by the way, on the way to the date, it made me late, cinnamon, Trident, Shell gas station.

Did they just not use Eric because he had a girlfriend?  Something there doesn’t make sense.

Russian vodka in 12 Strong goes together with, Alfred (Johnson?) that I didn’t shake hands with but met at the Obama election office.  Alfred was – WOW, WHAT A MAN!  6’ 3” built like a former football player, and so manly!  He wasn’t just good-looking, or gorgeous, he was A MAN!

Not only was he so manly, he could speak, had manners, could carry on an intelligent conversation, speak about politics, books, religion, all sorts of things!  JESUS CHRIST!  If that isn’t a panty-dropper!  Yeah, I was mentally drooling over him.

It says, he or the person talking through him must have really liked me, and the WOMEN in the office, escorted him away from me after I had two beers with him.  I had another beer and a shot of vodka, 9:30, 10:00 pm and that was all I remember from the evening.  I was meant to believe, I consumed more alcohol, I did not.  Did they drug interrogate me, at an Obama election office, on election night?  How disappointing of our government.

I was sick for about two days, after that.  It took that long for whatever they gave me, to go through my system.

I woke up that election night around 3 or 4 am, to an older man on top of me in a car, his car, groping me.  Partially undressed.  That is not consensual.  I did not have my handbag, or other personal belongings with me, he, this father of my boss’s boss, told me they were in the office that was now locked and we had to wait until morning before they would reopen the office to get my things.

He took me to a hotel, I slept, or laid down, I didn’t sleep, with all my clothes and shoes on, in a bed of my own.

In the morning when we checked out, there was a USA today newspaper in the lobby.  This man was trying to make it appears as we were a couple, and I went along to an extent with it.  I was mortified.

Another helicopter went over the roof of the hotel as I got in his car to get to the office to get my things.  He bought me coffee, I could barely drink it, I was so sick.

It’s very disappointing of my government, if they drug interrogated me based on what evidence?

This FBI man is seen in, the Matrix, as not being – the one because of his lesbian partner, and Trinity talking into Neo’s ear while he is “plugged in” is to show how in my mother’s womb, I learned, and was born with this talent.

The cab driver in Zohan, is a real cab driver, when I went to Chicago, and he really liked me.  Tried to come on to me by placing his armpit over the vent in the cab, I was just, respectful.  Obviously, this man had no chance with me, romantically, whatsoever.

Why he wanted to meet me, I have no idea.  We ate at a Rainforest Café near the hotel.  Not my favorite just because it is a chain restaurant and I wanted something local since, I didn’t travel to eat and experience the same things I could do where I live.

The side garage door, in my Plant City home, also needed to be replaced.  The trim, the door, everything.  Every time I tried to get help with it, home improvement store, etc. I was met with a dead end.  I couldn’t get it done.  It could mean they didn’t like my real father and wanted to replace him.

It is possible that someone could have placed tree frogs through the side garage door, Froggitt & Froggitt (Young Sherlock Holmes), and Thursday brought them to me, like a mother cat brings a kitten (detail).

My boyfriend has a theory, it looks correct.  Regarding the Nicole Brown Simpson story.  I always believed the Perlman family.

It does look like OJ Simpson did get manipulated into not killing, rather than allowing another person to kill his wife, for money.

It would give him plausibility in innocence of not killing his wife.

Kato seemed to be telling the most truth.

If the killer wore gloves, and blood soaked the gloves, they would shrink when dried.

It would mean the real killer is in prison, currently, not for the crime of killing OJ Simpson’s wife.  If you want to find him, he would be a mostly white male about 5’ 10”, 5’ 11”, in prison for probably stealing art, or artwork in a personal home, something very valuable, millions of dollars, around the time of the murder, same area, and state.

If you want him to confess to it, you will have to convince him of the glory.  He wants glory.

He did it because he was working or talking to another man could be FBI and/or CIA, or another intelligence community, looks like there is an overlap, meaning working for both.  And this criminal got so pissed off at this man he was talking to, he wanted to show how smart he was.  By creating a scene.  I doubt, he thought it was going to get so much coverage.

I am so very sorry for the family’s loss.

Also, Marcia Clark was the better lawyer, meaning she had better response from the public’s opinion.  She was “removed”, or they didn’t use her as often, for her protection, that’s what it looks like from their minds.

No, Casey is still in trouble.  Danger zone.  She has not committed to being clean, no longer, ever again, using drugs.  She is still thinking about when she can get another – fix.

If this mole over my right ear is not natural it would have been placed at a dentist visit.

LTLWM.

Learn to live without me.

October 12, 2019: READ: National Security

October 12, 2019

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Hold.

I have spent several hours this morning, checking, re-checking, feeling my way around me, making sure, and double-checking, and I am certain I was correct before, I will be waiting to write a few more days.

Whatever was attached to the safety-recall on my Honda Civic, was very heavy.  Emotionally, very heavy, very draining, and it took everything out of me, for the rest of the day.

Hold.

Be still.  Be calm.  Relax, have a drink, enjoy your families, enjoy the weekend, yet be aware at the same time.

Hold.

October 11, 2019: READ: National Security

October 11, 2019

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I was going to take more time before I started writing or publishing; however, I believe it will help to write a little something.

It will probably take you several days to gather the intel from this morning’s appointment, that is why I was going to wait.  I am taking my time.  Because I really am the CIA man in 13 Hours, yelling at everyone to stand down, calm down.  Take a breath.  Have a drink.  It will be a few days.  Have faith.

Whoever this man was that you showed me this morning to my left, oh my goodness, how much I like him.  I mean, I like him, like him.  What’s his name?  Who’s his family?  Where’s he from?  Oh, my goodness, I really, really, like him.  I mean, on the point of gushing about him, like him.  He’s really something.

I don’t just like any Tom, Dick, or Harry.  So, he must be really good.

Boyfriend if you created this profile or theory, it looks like you are correct about the person.  The truth of it is so devastating, I feel it best to let emotions pass before I write about it.  However, he’s found the person.  He knows who it really is.

The rest is best to wait.

Trust.

October 10, 2019: READ: WARNING: Death Angel

October 10, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

You realize the symbol I just saw was, a Death Angel.

And another sign, that was not good.

And, Casey is on drugs again.

If you must be on drugs, then you are incompetent to do the work.

And, David, stop using him as a way to hurt me.  David is not a bloated belly, and David doesn’t mind me working with my boyfriend, the real Hannibal Lecter.

The photographs of me on my computer are a warning to any persons willing to do harm to the White House and its Presidency.  A warning because you have distorted my image with a terrible belly.

The reason Anna is Elsa and Elsa is Anna, the movie Frozen was released after my surgery, and it has been read by many, many persons, I was going to be a most excellent mother, and its been taken away from me.

Most likely, someone thought I would be able to seek medical help sooner than I did, or Brianna and whoever else is really in trouble for causing me to no longer be able to bear children.

What a disgrace, here in the United States.

October 10, 2019: READ: Symbol

October 10, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

Yes, who this man who’s profile in on the Bing page?  He is very smart, very intelligent, and also, scientific.  At least one man wanted me to wait until after Friday to write about him, and at least another man wanted me to write it, right away.  They are both a win, both men.

The news story about giving up citizenship, is not true.  So, if this is Courtney, the United States government has a problem.  Is anyone going to finally remove her from the process?

I will write it again, through the QVC channel, is the precise REASON Bin Laden was captured and killed, and the mission, succeeded.

Stop allowing subversive works to continue.  Most likely David and I would, at the very least, have spoken face to face again.  Perhaps, nothing would have come of it, at the very least we would have spoken.  You idiots look frightened out of your mind that I might fall in love with a MAN.

You gotta be fucking kidding me.

It is also in Frozen, about what are you so afraid of, and so forth.

Please stop begging our enemies to attack us by being so unbelievably – stupid.

There is not a thing to fear if and when Cherith loves a man.  Honestly, it is so pathetic.

What is that amazing smell, from Frozen just says, not chocolate, Amazon.  It is code for Amazon, the amazon, amazon says, Fern Gully, Fern Gully says, deforestation; however, don’t follow that, the correct answer if, silver leaf, silver leaf being the symbol of New Zealand, New Zealand says the backpack I bought my father in New Zealand a New Zealand All Blacks backpack AND it also says, the natural medicine my mother and I bought in Germany for coughs, we bought it at a store that would be considered as similar and commonplace as a drugstore here in the US, except it was only natural medicines.

And the rest, truthfully doesn’t say anything else.  Someone wants to make a connection between that German natural medicine and the Jew-hating lesbians (sisters) and the sorta stroke they gave her while I was working and they want it to be connected to Disney, when it should not be.  Don’t get confused.  The two do not go together.

Yeah, I really am not interested in deciphering these things, if all they do is go round and around and you end up in a dead end.  It’s like hitting your head on a wall.  Realizing you spent all that time and got nowhere.

I’ve seen this before in other movies, where the codes and decoding and messages, stop.  It’s what I’ve seen in Angels & Demons about where the real action takes place, the assassin killing the cardinals.  The rest, without re-watching it again and again because it does need to be slowed down, and that probably is a real read of the real Hannibal Lecter being able to think so quickly.  He really is very smart.  Astute.

So, if the very reason you have forced all this excessive weight gain upon my flesh is because of a safety recall on my vehicle, I really don’t appreciate – wasting my time.  I did, when I received the information in the mail about a recall, I called the dealership, very soon afterwards.  They were going to call me back, and make an appointment, and they NEVER DID THAT.

With your stupid nonsense about a television show, I believed it, the safety recall, to be a hoax.

So, the fact that YOU’VE known I am not supposed to be a bloated version of someone else, and you’ve given me no other option by contaminating my products over and over again, none of you are qualified or have the security clearances to do any intelligent work.

Love is an open door from Frozen, I don’t know enough about history to have an immediate answer.  It probably has to do with living during the medieval time in history.

What a waste of my life.  How very disappointing, again.

October 10, 2019: READ: WARNING: Power

October 10, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

Zohan, you realize in the hair-cutting scene with the little boy, is actually me, I am the little child, and Zohan is a mental image of me, of a future self.  I guess that’s one reason it is so funny to me.  And, the denim cut-off shorts Zohan wears in the opening sequence, is a photograph of my brother and I standing in Soap Lake, Washington.

My family and I were on vacation, and we had a follower.  He would have been more like a mercenary than a solider, or intelligence.  They read differently, and I was on alert several times on that vacation.

It’s like a double-check within my well of truth.  Double-check them, double-check, and if any of them were of any worthwhile merit and they realized I was double-checking them, they would have checked themselves, meaning corrected themselves.

I will remind you that I remember men driving past my mother and I when we were driving on the Autobahn, and they drove past with paperwork of real, known terrorists, and I was unbothered.  However, whatever dumb, fuck, morons, allowed my MOTHER to be in a car accident; however, slight the damage was to her vehicle, it damaged her brain, and she did not recover from that.  She read the terrorists also, it made her seem worried or concerned, I don’t appreciate that.

This is also, going to sound bizarre, Elsa is actually Anna, and Anna is actually Elsa in Frozen.  It’s a dyslexic thing, or meant to be, meaning, remember that time in grade school Cherith when they tested you for dyslexia?  Um, yeah, not really a test for a learning disability.

The danger in Elsa’s power in not within Elsa (Anna), or myself, the danger, as has been proven over and over again, is when you allow morons to play with Cherith like a toy, to go beyond their orders, and /or security clearances.

Never going back song lyric, is about correcting California.  Frozen is meant to be about Germany, before I went to California.

So, be real fucking careful motherfuckers, listen to what this Germany man, has to say, how he eval’s, what and where he thinks something could have the potential for a problem.  He is smarter than his appearance.

True love, referenced in Frozen, is a location, if anyone wants to know about that.  Looks like you’ll get something for it, if someone discovers the location.

Perfect girl song lyric, in Frozen looks like code for PG, a movie rating, yet I am not finished with, Let It Go, there are some things in there that are not quite good.  Don’t feel, is an opposite, meaning, feel everything.  Just like crying.

The ice-castle is awesome.

This is not quite in so much dialogue, or imagery; however, this Germany man is in the movie Frozen, and it goes together with the Jord’s have a mole from Zero Dark Thirty.  Meaning, a mole within the contribution to the work of Frozen.  Perhaps, Disney as well.  It could be referencing someone using my mother as a live test subject, by giving her another stroke, the last one causing her to be dependent on care.  If this is in any way true it is so gross, I am at a loss for words.

Something else, almost as bizarre, I do not believe the power being cut in Angels & Demons goes together in any way with Zero Dark Thirty, so don’t follow it, unless you enjoy hitting your head at a dead end.

The power being shut off in Angels & Demons, suggests that the power outages that happened when I lived in Pinellas county, and it snowed, here in Florida, I think it was in 1989, it suggests that the power was not done by the power company, rather than a – hacker.

This hacker is in jail, and not for the crime of the power outages.

He did it probably for something really boring, like a man wanting to get infamous by being caught by me.  It is probably the reason that TECO dropped an electrical meter box in front of where my residence, and my former fiancé told me I should take it to TECO and ask for a reward.

I remember, leaving TECO highly agitated, mostly because Michael was lying to me, the man in front of me talking to me at TECO, was not to whom I should have been speaking, the man I should have been speaking to was at my 2 o’clock, behind walls.

In You Don’t Mess With The Zohan, and all the disco, disco, this really happened to me while going to clubs in Ybor City, they really were working me in counter-terrorism groups.  It’s why this Californian man is seen as the shorter man in the club with Zohan.  I don’t have to explain every detail about how they worked me, although it is seen in Madagascar, with the penguins dialogue, smile and nod, boys, just smile and nod because I was with other people, and I didn’t want them to be aware of the dangers we were around.  It could be the reason for the steal a fucking boat dialogue in 13 Hours (movie reference).

Is this gin, from Crazy, Stupid, Love, there’s not much water in it, this also happened to me at a club in Ybor City, Florida, the bouncer at the club questioned by clothing choice of denim jeans, um, we were all in jeans, he said, we don’t just let anyone in here, to me.  Then, I ordered a gin and tonic at the bar and they over-poured me, probably as a compliment, that drink took me quite some time to drink.  Yikes.

Guess what morons, David really doesn’t mind me smoking or having cigarettes, so stop thinking for him.

I won’t thank you, nor do I appreciate how I’ve been turned – generic.

So, let me repeat what I did in 2012.  I created a true believer for our government, just by being – myself.  Readers do it in person.  Most likely, this man, would not have been an easy sell.  Yeah, that’s why they send Cherith to do these things.  It’s probably the real reason I received an invite to the staff’s ball of the inauguration in January 2013.

So, let me repeat that again, not only did it get me invited to the White House, it got my brother, his “boyfriend” (by the way, “Roy” and I had drinks at the manager’s reception at the Embassy Suites, and I told my manager of the Obama campaign, Roy’s been with women before, meaning that Roy has had sex with woman, they would have known it in January of 2013, I wasn’t buying the story of Roy and Creggan as a couple), and all the staff that had worked in my office and the regional office.

So, again, let me repeat that again, I did that by being myself.  Not this creation of ordering only certain products, or clothes, and food, and only wear this outfit, and only wear your hair this way or that way because it’s a goddamn news story.

You people really look stupid.  You people are really making the United States look stupid and its government by what you’ve done to me.

Are there truthfully, no American citizens who are interested in turning a conflict situation into people of true believers?!

Let the morons, go.

It’s really mortifying.  Generic.

Conceal from the song, Let It Go, probably references the stone’s rolled away from Christ’s tomb.  That’s in an animated movie.

The only reason Elsa is a Queen, references the castle in southern Bavaria, Mad King Ludwig, and it just means, man and woman.  I, uh, obviously, I am the woman.

I really don’t think its clever or interesting at all, nor do I believe it to be a real talent, disguising women as men.  BORING!

I have no idea why you people are so interested in making mistake, after mistake, rather than doing any actual work.

Would anyone in the United States, in the United States government, in the United States intelligence communities, in the United States military, is no one truthfully interested in creating the United States secure, subsequently, creating stability throughout the world?

Because I am.  I really know how to do that fucking shit, and it ain’t done by having me be another person’s creation, by looking generic, and by having the sanctity of my home violated on an on-going, continual, and daily basis.

Disappointing.

October 9, 2019: READ: WARNING: Misuse

October 9, 2019

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

 

Steal a fucking boat, from 13 Hours, just means, sometimes, intelligence must do things, like steal a boat, or break the law in some way, to get work done.  Does anyone really question it when you see it in the movies?  No.  They have reasons to do what they do, and that is why you don’t question their actions.

The bathroom problem, meaning ever since Home Depot, there has been an agenda of having Cherith use a bathroom, as if it is a deposit in a bank, is false, or inaccurate information and direction.  It means, there was a known, probably an intelligence woman that had a crush on Cherith and she used the bathroom at Disney, to have women walk behind me when I was washing my hands.  It is a little perverse.  It is another misuse.

And, you would have to be stupid, to not only, think in this way, think it was appropriate or okay, to use other employees in such a way.  When it was so very obvious, how much Cherith had loved David, as his mirror, and my own.  It says, there were people who were just not smart enough to be around me, in any way.

Having a gay crush on a straight woman is so unintelligent…it’s such a misuse of resources.

Yes, I get it, I understand, the perfect call news story President Trump, the man I voted for in 2016, and I ain’t sorry, is referring to, is the call that I received on September 11th, 2001.  Apparently, I haven’t written about this enough.

It appears you have had people either in intelligence or at my places of employment who literally were taking it out on me, having a very limited portion of information about the attacks on September 11th and me.

So, I will explain what the President is referring to as a perfect call, it is more than one.  On September 11th when I received that phone call there was nothing either in the caller, or in the background, or in words he spoke, or anything unusual in any way, that I could have alerted people, and authorities to – in advance.

The way I could have altered the authorities and people who were working in the building with me, was – as it happened.

So, I will explain, again, when I would have been able to alert the authorities, and I mean this most sincerely please do not tell me they allowed a live test of this on my mother while employed at Disney, if this is in any way true, if they allowed someone to enter my home while I was at work, and being watched, enter my home and attacked my mother with another “stroke” just to watch me, my reaction, and see if I would notice when my mother was in trouble, please, do not tell me our own US intelligence allowed this to happen to another US citizen.  I WANT THEM PROSECUTED TO THE FULLEST EXTENT OF THE LAW!

I emailed my mother, from my Disney email account, trying to get ahold of my mother soon after I started working on that day, the day she had her last stroke.  Please do not tell me intelligence ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN TO ANOTHER US CITIZEN!

I WANT THEM PROSECUTED TO THE FULLEST EXTENT OF THE LAW!  EVERY PERSON INVOLVED!  I WANT THEM PROSECUTED!

HOW COULD ANYONE ALLOW THIS, ALLOW THAT TO HAPPEN?!

IT IS BEYOND INCOMPETENCE! 

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!  WHY DON’T INSTEAD, YOU STUPID FUCKS!  INSTEAD, JUST HAND THE KEYS TO KNOWN TERRORIST TO THE WHITE HOUSE, GIVE THEM THE FUCKING NUKE CODES, AND SURRENDER TO THESE FUCKING TERRORISTS!  YOU STUPID, STUPID FUCKS!

IS THAT REALLY WHAT ANY OF YOU FUCK HEADS EITHER IN THE MILITARY OR NOT, IS THAT WHAT ANYONE, ANY AMERICAN, IS THAT WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT TO DO?  DO YOU WANT TO SURRENDER – TO TERRORISTS?!

YOU STUPID, STUPID FUCKS!

HOW FUCKING DARE, YOU!

YOU STUPID, STUPID, MORONS!

I SWEAR TO FUCKING CHRIST, STOP SHOWING THE WORLD THE UNITED STATES IS WEAK!  YOU MOTHER FUCKING MORONS!  I AM NOT!  I BELIEVE THAT TO THE END OF MY BEING!  I AM NOT WEAK!  AND THE UNITED STATES IS NOT WEAK, WE NEVER HAVE BEEN!

S-H-U-T T-H-E- F-U-C-K U-P!

It’s traceable, by the way, the emails I sent to my mother are still, traceable.

Wow, after that, this shouldn’t be a shocker.  It’s not like you had another – woman, a blonde woman, is she?  Using Alisha to get information on me when I was in college.  Did she or did she not use David and Alisha, the kissing backstage, where I was going to show Alisha how to really kiss David (it’s also the scene in Crazy, Stupid, Love with Hannah – Hannah means, Hanna-Barbera, just like Scrappy Coco in You Don’t Mess With The Zohan, Scrappy and Coco are cartoon characters, and it probably has to do with my maternal grandfather and me watching television in their RV in California, he wanted to watch the news, I wanted to watch cartoons, detail) did you have someone brain-speak to me, literally, asking me to give classified information about a persons whereabouts, as is seen in the movie, Charlotte Gray, and I immediately, said no, I’m not going to do that.

At the time I was about to approach David, it read to me, as a crime.  Was it asked of me by way of brain-speaking if a person on a classified mission was ok, and/or asking me the location of where they were as well?  Because, no, I am not going to give you that information.

Poor David.  It doesn’t look like he understood everything that was going on.  Did he or did he not know what was being asked of him?  It hurt him, emotionally.  It looks like he took it personally.

David, I truthfully, was going to kiss you until you had no idea where you were anymore.  But, no, I am not giving away classified information, especially in that insistence.

She thought she could get away with it.  From her mind, she thought she could get away with it.  As though, there would be no way to corroborate, if that is the best word, no way anyone would be able to corroborate my story, if I discovered the true nature, of the request.

It is a serious, mistake.  A serious mistake.

And, no it is not really appropriate while taking phone calls, as my job, selling fun, or at the happiest place on Earth, surrounded by non-working, and non-intelligence person co-workers to go on a swearing tirade, to show you people, how fucking serious, something is.

It’s a serious judgement call on that woman’s part.  I would question whether she has ever been able to do her job, at all.

David was so upset following that non-kissing episode, I saw him talking to every person in our theater group, except for me, and I knew he wanted to talk to me.  I saw him backstage, and his heart and spirit looked broken, what I read was he needed me to speak to him, so I asked him, are you ok?  He said, yes.  But I was mad at him, for not talking to me, coming to me with his problems.

Wow, how appalling.

How inappropriate.

How very unamerican.